#the MCU was really like “we know the gays go wild for found family

[eusuntgratie]

2, 6, 7, 10, 15, 29 (let your imagination run wild with this one)

2. Your newest ship

buddieeeeee which has quickly escalated from vague interest in hot gay firemen to OH FUCK OH NO I LOVE THEM

6. Favourite f/f ship

maria x carol 😍🥰🥵

7. Most innocent ship

uhhhhhhh? idk. i don't read a lot of innocent things 😂 i mean my buddie love started as found family sweetness and mostly reading stuff focused on buck's relationship with christopher but then i found @letmetellyouaboutmyfeels' filth and there's just really no going back now 🤷🏻‍♀️

i can't think of anyone? anyone i would ship i would wish them a truly phenomenally filthy sex life bc of who i am as a person, so i got nothin' 😬

10. Most smutty ship

hahaha all of them but currently probaby sterek? they're young and have no kids and derek is a werewolf and you just KNOW that stiles is dtf literally always so i feel like these filthy fuckers would just be boning 24/7

15. Favourite poly ship

OOF this one's tough. basically sterek + anyone hot i'm into. having many pants feelings about stiles/derek/braeden and stiles/derek/allison at present bc of reasons 👀

29. Favourite crossover ship

ooh this is hard. my brain doesn't do this by itself. stiles would jizz all over himself if presented with geralt (but who wouldn't)? ummm. i feel like there's some malia/renfri potential? i'm only thinking of witcher ppl bc we talked about witcher stuff today.

i could put teen wolf people (bc they're all sluts, obv) or even most mcu people with nearly anyone, but i'm weirdly protective of my 911 babies like i want them all with their people and nobody else. hmm.

ship asks | ask me

[kit-herondale-carstairs]

TDA Characters on TikTok

Julian: doesn’t post very often because he is a father but when he does it is always him painting or drawing something with lofi music or him sharing a tidbit about one of the children or other family members (Kieran, Cristina, Diana, Emma and Aline included and always with their explicit permission). 

- He’s very popular without even trying and most assume he is a young single father (which isn’t wrong).

-  Mostly finds himself on cottagecore or parent side of tiktok. 

- doesn’t understand all the thirsty comments he gets because “I don’t even show my face, Emma, why would they think I’m attractive?” but always shares them with Emma because they make her laugh.

Emma: Does it for the girls and the gays, that’s it. Posts nearly every day and page is generally a mixture of self defense videos, vintage makeup/dress tutorials, and videos slamming the patriarchy but also always does the latest dancing videos and other trends.

- always tries to get others to join in on her trend videos, mostly joined by Mark and Cristina when she can rope her in.

- Nearly broke tiktok when she got Julian to do the “You could have been nicer to me” trend because NO ONE KNEW THEY WERE DATING  AND EVEN THOUGH THEY COULDN’T SEE HIS FACE EVERYONE RECOGNIZED HIS VOICE AND HE WAS SO SWEET WHEN HE OFFERED TO TAKE HER TO HER FAVORITE THRIFT STORE AND BUY HER SOME DRESSES AFTER HE PUT THE “BABY” DOWN FOR HIS NAP. 

- - everyone knows the “baby” is actually at least seven but no one ever said his name because he’s too young so everyone collectively knows him as “the baby”

- solidly on gay tiktok even though she’s straight. 

Mark: Daily blogs. Everyone thinks he’s shit posting because it’s all wild things like standing in a middle of a circle of flowers and talking about “this pixie named Aelia lives here and she’s a BITCH”. Often shows videos of him cooking or baking wild concoctions that range from “Okay, I’d try that” to “this is why God has abandoned us”. 

- Does dancing videos with Emma all the time and often acts as the “creeper” in her self defense videos. 

- Caused a meltdown on tiktok when he casually mentioned his “partners” and started creating videos to raise awareness for polyamory. 

- Revealed Julian was his brother when he posted a video of Julian yelling at him for a solid minute because “the baby is covered in honey, why is the baby covered in honey, Mark? We don’t let the baby bathe in honey even if he really wants to Mark -” 

- solidly on cooking and gay tiktok, often takes a sharp left into “crackhead” tiktok

Kieran: Posts videos of cats he finds and rates them. The lowest ever was a 9.5/10 because “she bit me fairly hard but I scared her and I deserved it for trying to pet her without permission”. 

- does not do any trends or reveal much personal information. 

- Was always considered wholesome until he (on a dare from Dru) posted a video joking about choking a bossy sub that rounded up on kinktok. 

-- everyone went through a brief freak out trying to figure out if he had a partner but it was never solved. 

--- No one noticed that Mark posted a video joking about how “one of his partners was absolutely in the doghouse” accompanied by someone sitting in a cardboard ‘doghouse’ around the exact same time. 

- solidly on animal tiktok but occasionally veers into kinktok with more (less explicit) dom/sub humor. 

Cristina: Does not have her own tiktok but often appears in videos with Emma and occasionally shows up in Mark’s. 

- Absolute sweetheart always, even when she is demonstrating a self defense move with Emma, and is always commended for trying Mark’s foods. 

-- especially commended when trying the foods while, offscreen, their other partner yells about “Hell food” 

- is flattered with all the comments begging her to start her own tiktok but doesn’t feel like she has the time to fully commit to one properly. 

Livvy: (She’s alive, don’t @ me) Does absolutely all the new trends and also does various acting POVs 

- her soulmate POVs are most popular but she also is known for dueting act-along POVS with other popular creators

- also occasionally posts videos rating the best male actors/superheroes and once got into a long drawn out back to back war with someone on whether or not Captain America really had “America’s ass” 

- had a very popular multiple-part series about being a girl in the MCU dating the various Avengers but ended it abruptly after Endgame because “Natasha Romanoff deserved better and it hurts too much”

-she used to post occasional videos where she laments on being the “only single person in the family” but she started getting some very creepy duets and comments from actual adults so she told Julian and they both agreed it would be better for her to stop them

-- Julian did take the time to duet the people being inappropriate and explained very clearly that their actions were wrong and directed towards a LITERAL CHILD and shamed multiple accounts into flat out deleting

Ty: Posts literally whatever interests him. Has two animal series - one where he shares facts about his favorite kinds of animals and one where he showcases various animals he’s found in the tidepools or around the house. 

- has done several video series of rescuing animals and has at least one where Julian could be heard lecturing him on trying to raise wild animals in his bedroom again 

-- tiktok freaked out because this happened right around the same time as Julian calling out all the creeps on Livvy’s tiktok and no one knew that the twins he talked about were them  

- also does videos about his favorite literary works - notably Sherlock Holmes - and true crime/mystery videos 

-- he always makes sure to carefully put in warnings for anything remotely violent or triggering and has never had a single video taken down for violating the rules even when he did a multiple part series on the Black Dahlia and how her crime was ‘absolutely solved but because the man who did it was rich and white, he got away with it and probably also killed at least two other women, one of whom was killed in the Philippines” 

-  sometimes does twin videos with Livvy because she likes them and it makes her happy. 

Dru: Queen of witch/horror/true crime tiktok. 

- got in trouble with Julian for showing actual runes in videos but everyone just thought they were for the aesthetic so it was fine

- most popular videos is a series where she rates horror movies on how they do on the bechdel test 

- sometimes duets Ty’s or Livvy’s videos just to drag them (with love) 

- Has a very popular series on “women who snapped” and is known for almost rarely during part 2s (and therefore having to speak very very fast) 

- also complains constantly because her videos will get taken down even if they aren’t that violent and includes clips from far worse videos from male creators to point out the double standard

- occasionally dives into tiktok drama just to dabble and then sits on the sidelines and watches it happen

-- 100% built a balloon arch to flex on That Balloon Girl 

- solidly on witchtok and horrortok

Kit: King of petty/messy tiktok who also posts random videos about crime and occasional blogs

- switches from either sharing no information to borderline oversharing childhood trauma

- shares videos on borderline illegal ways to get back at exfriends/expartners/exfamily members/general enemies 

-- putting fish in people’s vents, subscribing them to magazines under various similar names, sending them glitter in the mail, opening their oreos and taking out the middle of all of them, putting baby locks on their cabinets and in the outlets they can’t see (like under the bed so they can’t get plug in their cellphone charger at night), etc. 

- is always eating some sort of snack, no matter what he is doing

- also posts videos about personal safety like what locks will actually keep people out and what ones are easy to break into

--caused several minor freakouts when he casually mentioned his father taught him how to do it

- occasionally posts videos with an adorable toddler and a young couple who he refers to as “mom and dad” even though they look at MOST five years older than him and he often makes parental abandonment jokes/comments

- no idea where he lives because he speaks in an American accent and talks constantly about American/California life but everything around him looks very British 

- absolutely dives head first into every tiktok drama and will go for the throat for anyone who makes ableist/sexist/racist/homophobic comments without hesitation

-- his drags are legendarily savage and he has caused numerous problematic accounts to just straight up disappear

- duets videos from Livvy, Dru, Mark, Emma and Julian ( with lots of savage drags) but no one knows how he knows them because he is absolutely somewhere in the UK and all of them are based in California/US

-- he also notably NEVER duets Ty

--- the mystery is finally solved when Kit does a livestream and reveals that he met all of them because he was briefly living with them before getting placed with his family, the young couple who actually are his mom and dad 

---- he is very vague about the living situation but everyone assumes he was a foster child 

- he once caused a mass freakout on Tiktok (that actually spilled over to twitter and buzzfeed) when he announced he was going back to the US to visit friends and then posted a video with the caption “when you see your boyfriend in person for the first time in MONTHS but he’s too distracted by some wet 🐱” 

-- the video panned out from Kit’s unamused face to Ty gently rubbing a tiny wet kitten  with a soft cotton towel 

[honeylikewords]

I am freaking out over all the Marvel news out of Comic Con. You?

Honestly, when I first got this ask, I was going to answer “no” because I legitimately hadn’t heard anything from Marvel at all. All I knew was that we were in for a bunch of Disney+ shows like Loki, which I wasn’t interested in, and Falcon and Winter Soldier, which I am interested in but concerned about.

But then I did a quick Google, and saw that there’s plenty of other stuff to be excited about, so here’s a listicle-style breakdown of what I am and am not excited for, as was released in the press junkets regarding the SDCC Marvel Hall H panel.

1. Black Widow: Nope, not interested. Way, way back in 2012, I might have cared, given that Natasha was LITERALLY THE ONLY WOMAN in the MCU with any agency or hero role, but now that we have significantly more women, significantly more interesting women, and women of color (who aren’t played by white women stealing roles from actual WOC lmao), I think we don’t really... need a Black Widow movie. I mean, cool that David Harbour will be in it, but, uh... yeah, count me out of that one.

2. Falcon and Winter Soldier: Yeah, I’m excited for this one! Anthony Mackie and Sebastian Stan have a lot of fun chemistry, and I hope the series plays up the fun buddy-cop aspect of their relationship rather than “doom and gloom, Steve is gone, boohoo” stuff. They deserve to be heroes in their own rights and to not live in Steve’s shadow. Also, I’m not hugely into Bucky Barnes (I kinda find him boring, sorry) so I hope the series will, at least a little, start to endear me more to him. But I am very excited to see Sam getting more screentime!

3. Eternals: Eh, can’t really say. I don’t know enough about the original Eternals, nor do I have any information about who the new Eternals will be to weigh in. Ask me again when we’re closer to the release date.

4. Shang-Chi And The Legend Of The Ten Rings: Honestly, some warning flags are popping up for me on this one. Much as I want more POC led MCU films (and just, fucking, like, any films in general), Marvel comics has a pernicious history surrounding Asian fetishism and mysticism. I’ve talked about it before with my hatred for Iron Fist, and the problems Marvel had during the big “Asian Craze” of the 60s and 70s, but I really do worry about re-adapting works based in and rooted in the comics made during those times. I don’t know enough about Shang-Chi’s origins to weigh in just yet, but I am on high-alert about how this could go wrong. Hopefully, though, with actual Asian and POC actors involved in the project, it will be done tastefully and respectfully. Hopefully.

5. WandaVision: Nah. I never liked either character to begin with so I’m not really gonna waste my brainspace on some TV show about a random white girl and her toaster boyfriend. I know that sounds mean but I have a lot of pent up anger about how the MCU depicted the Maximoffs, given that the Maximoffs were originally Jewish and survivors of the Hol*caust, but then somehow the MCU decided to make them not only white, but white people working with a literal N*zi organization. So I have beef with that, and I just... don’t care about Wanda or Vision. They haven’t been with us long enough for any of us to really, you know, see them have arcs or be meaningful people. They’re just kinda there. So no thanks. Maybe if the show turns out to be great, I’ll watch, but as it stands, I’m uninterested.

5. Doctor Strange: Multiverse Of Madness: Eh. I never saw the original Doctor Strange because of the whitewashing issues and Benedict Cumberbatch’s, shall we say, history of anti-autism comments and classist perceptions about poor and undereducated people, so I just noped out of that. But I also didn’t like Stephen Strange from what I saw in the other MCU films I have seen him in, so I don’t feel like I’m missing much. If this movie turns out to be cool (apparently, it’s going to be the MCU’s first “scary” film, whatever that means?), I might see it, but for now it’s largely off my radar.

6. Loki: Nnnnnnnnnot especially excited. As I’ve said before, I like Ragnarok Loki, and that’s about it. 2012 Loki was, no joke, literally set up as a N*zi, and y’all know how I feel about N*zis. I’m not being hyperbolic. He is literally supposed to be equitable to a N*zi. So I’m disappointed that we’ve regressed all of his character development back in time to his worst stage, and we’re going to be seeing that play out in his show. Hopefully, the directors allow Tom Hiddleston to have more fun with Loki, because holy shit does Tom have great comedic timing, and I hope we get some redemption for Loki, because as it stands, I feel sad and hurt that they just threw away everything Loki grew into being. And if you’re one of those salty “Loki is a Classy, Intelligent, Sexy Villain, And Ragnarok Made Him DUMB, Give Us Back Our King” fans, please leave me alone. He was gross and greasy and weird and Ragnarok made him funny and likable, in me humble onion. Also, Loki is canonically not straight, not cisgender, and has been pregnant with horse babies, so, uh, let’s all just chill out and have some fun.

7.  What If...?: The What If...? comics can be really confusing and fun, alternatingly. So it’ll be interesting to see how this show manifests itself to match the wild, changing, freewheeling chaos of the What If...? storylines. Let’s see what happens!

8. Hawkeye: FUCK I AM SO MAD THAT THIS ISN’T AN ANIMATED SERIES BASED ON THE HAWKEYE COMICS THAT CAME OUT RECENTLY. FUCK. I would have loved that! But instead we’re getting Ronin Hawkeye (which sounds so dumb and also question-mark-y racist?). At least we’ll be getting Kate Bishop, I guess. C’est la vie. Not a fan of the Jeremy Renner Hawkeye, tbh, so I don’t know how this show will keep my interest, but fingers crossed.

9. Thor: Love and Thunder: BUCKLE UP BOYS I FINALLY HAVE A MOVIE TO CARE ABOUT YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEHAW AMEN PRAISE GOD WE HAVE A GOOD MOVIE COMING YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA FEMALE THOR AAAAAAAAAAAAA GAY RIGHTS YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

FUCK! I AM SO HAPPY OH MY G O D!

10. Blade: YEE FUCKING HAW! Mahershala Ali has been in the MCU three times now (1st as Cottonmouth in Luke Cage, 2nd as Uncle Aaron in ITSV, and now as Blade!) and I’m both pleasantly surprised and a little confused, since the MCU very rarely reuses actors. Oh, well! I’m so happy to see him back and I hope Blade does him justice. I worry that the original Blade (comics and movie alike) were a little, uh, Blaxploitation-y, so I hope this update will be more thoughtful and more progressive in its depictions. But at the end of the day, this is one I’ll be watching.

11. Fantastic Four: I’m worried but hopeful. The last swings at making a Fantastic Four film have been, um, mixed to say the least. Fingers crossed for a diverse set of characters this time! Although I do think that David Harbour being in the Black Widow movie does rule him out of being The Thing, as was previously speculated. Well, anyway, here’s hoping it’s good.

12. Black Panther 2: SHIT BOI DO I DIE I AM READY YES YES YES YESSSSS 

But please for the love of GOD bring back Ryan Coogler to direct. I don’t trust this story in the hands of, well, non-black people, especially because the story of Black Panther is so intrinsically tied to the black experience. That being said, I’m ready and excited for a return to Wakanda and to see what is next in T’Challa’s saga. Also, please, more Shuri, more Nakia, more Okoye. Honestly, Black Panther brought us some of the best women in the MCU so just... bring back all the ladies. Ramonda too!

13. Guardians of the Galaxy 3: I’m a little nervous about this one re: the issues surrounding the firing of James Gunn (which is, like, such a can of worms to get into), but fingers crossed. The GOTG films are really fun and such a great break from the rest of the dull, painfully self-absorbed MCU, so I hope that the light-hearted tone and center on found family comes back. I also hear that this one will be more female-centric (focusing on Gamora, I believe?) so that’s good to hear!

14. Captain Marvel 2: I didn’t see the first one, but, hey, my lesbian friends sure are happy to have Carol back so you’ve got my approval on that one, Marvel.

15. Mutants: DOES THIS MEAN...MCU X-MEN...I’M SCARED...SOMEONE HOLD ME

16. This one technically isn’t MCU but it’s what I’m most excited for...

THE SPIDERMAN 2099 COMICS ARE COMING BACK!

I’M SO HAPPY I GET TO SEE MY BOY MIGGY AGAIN I AM SO SO SO SO HAPPY OH MY GOD I WAS SO SCARED THEY’D PERMANENTLY CANCELLED MIGGY BUT HE’S HOME I GET TO SEE HIM AGAIN I COULD JUST C R Y AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

anyway, that’s just what I’m excited for. Y’all tell me if I missed anything or if there’s other updates or news! Or tell me what you’re excited for-- I’d love to hear!

[terresdebrume]

2018: the take out

So we’ve just passed the ‘mid-december’ point and Tumblr is shooting itself in the foot with more enthusiasm than ever and maybe the internet will catch in flames in the near future, which is making me think about the good times I’ve had on the internet in the past, which I guess makes today as good a time as any to get to work on my semi-traditional end-of-year-ish post.

Also it’s not like I’ll be able to take a nap now that not two but three neighboring buildings have decided to put on music at Cambodian/unreasonable volumes, so I might as well do this and then try to get some writing done on the Superbat fic thing.

So, tumblr. I know it’s gotten popular and common to hate on the site (both the management of it and the userbase, it seems) and while I’m not about to deny there are a lot of Issues on this site, as there are on every corner of the internet, I’ve also not really been shy about saying that it’s not a trend I’ve ever really felt like joining because… well, because, to be frank, I’ve always had more good times than bad, around there. Maybe I’m just lucky, maybe I’m making a more liberal than average use of the block button, I don’t know, but the fact remains that tumblr has for the most part, been a great place for me.

I joined tumblr in 2011 the first time around, just in time for the Great MCU Madness to begin (also the Destiel vs. Wincest Debate over in the SPN fandom. That was a wild ride) and the largest wave of Tom Hiddleston love. More importantly, in the middle of obsessing about TV shows because it was better than contemplate how utterly miserable I was at the time, I discovered so many things about myself and about the world around me.

Tumblr, or at least the portion of tumblr I see on my dash, taught me so many things. It taught me about queer issues and that it was alright to feel gay and to admit that the word probably applied to me. It taught me about racism and how insidious it is, how I’ve done and said racist things and how to change that. Tumblr taught me about depression and anxiety and helped find tools to deal with those as best as I could without having access to therapy, and that improved my life considerably. I made friends who were so invaluably precious to me though time, even if we lost touch later.

Tumblr was the place where I learned what transgender meant. Where I learned that it was okay t be me and that I didn’t have to wait to want to hack my chest off with a knife or any of the other cheerful images we’re presented with as the ‘trans baseline’ before I was allowed to call myself trans (sidenote: not that there’s anything wrong with being someone who feels like that, I just needed to know that this isn’t the only possible story).

Tumblr is a place where I am consistently reminded that there are awesome people in the world who understand and support me and that is invaluable and most of the reason why I’m sort of sad to let it go BUT this year was also great in that it was one more year where I got to build a community of people whom I care about and who care about me and who accept me the way that I am!

It’s still kind of a novelty sometimes, and I don’t think I’ll ever be completely safe from the occasional bout of depressed thinking that makes everything sound so much bleaker than it really is during which I would, possibly, convince myself Cambodia is not for me but right now… right now it feels great. It feels like the place where I’m living the best life I’ve ever lived, and I don’t know how I’ll feel about it in the future but I’ll always have the past two years to look back on with happy memories and that’s a good and reassuring thing to know.

I mean, sure, this year was rough. After the friends-and-workplace drama of last year that took completely ridiculous proportions and influenced things up until we got new colleagues in September (ish? Maybe more like October), I got to deal with my own, personal, post-coming out drama! Yay! \o/

Obviously, not so yay. My sister more or less stopped talking to me because I refused to go and get therapy to assuage her issues and/or listen to things she would have been better off sharing with a therapist in my opinion. Also because the fact that she once told off a friend for using my preferred name put a significant damper on my willingness to believe she was just processing things slowly as opposed to being transphobic.

I officially cut ties with my father after his spectacularly hurtful but also spectacularly unsurprising response to the whole thing, and his subsequent responses to my trying to explain things… surprisingly enough, I didn’t take it well when he tried to blame it all off on my mother/my mother’s family and then tell me how to act toward them instead of accepting me for who I am or acknowledging that he made mistakes. I mean, obviously so did I and maybe we’re too similar sometimes, I don’t know. Anyway, he and I cut ties and I don’t think that’s going to be hard to maintain until his birthday comes around and I have to weigh out how much refraining from sending him birthday wishes will cost me vs. how much being deadnamed will cost me. But that’s a problem for 2019!me. The rest of it was… well, mostly an official acknowledgment of something that started a long time ago so either it doesn’t hurt that much or I have yet to realize what all of this means but so far I’m actually not feeling terrible about it, which is always a plus.

I...actually think I did a lot of personal growth this year? I don’t know if it’s in the right direction, and I’m still undecided about a lot of things (more than a year on and I still haven’t started any official transition process which, even if it’s not a race or something to be done according to what I think I ‘should’ do still bothers me. (In parts because it makes my feelings about genders even more complicated and in other parts because I don’t like that I feel like it makes me look undecided which is...probably a topic best left to a self therapy post at some point.)) but I feel like I’ve finally turned a page in my life this year, and not just because I’ve finally gotten closure on my longest-standing writing project, even if it was to abandon it x)

My mental health has never been that good, even through all the family drama. I seriously cannot remember a time in my life where I felt this completely okay about myself and about my life, and I’m not going to pretend I wouldn’t have liked the chance to get there without all the hassles and drama, I would also be lying if I said I’m willing to relinquish that for anything in the world. I like where I am now. I like that I’m better at keeping in touch with people, that I’m better at sharing how I feel (even though I’m afraid I over share sometimes) that I feel less scared about the future. I’m glad that I found the courage to ask my crush out instead of just waiting for it to die the way I used to do (yes, even if he turned out to have a long-term SO hidden away and mentioning her could have spared us both a really awkward conversation). I’m glad that I’m learning to gently correct people when they use the wrong pronouns for me.

I’m glad I’ve gotten this far at all, really.

It’s...strange, actually. To have that positive an end-of-year post for the second time in a row? Obviously, it’s a good weird but it is still weird. I’m not used to this, but I’m ready and willing to keep going this way despite the things I feel I could and should have done better (I can always try to do better next time, right?). I mean, I finally have a life that I like enough to put effort in keeping it together, and that’s worth being happy about no matter what else is going on.

So, yeah, 2018 was shit, politically, and the beginnings of 2019 aren’t looking like they’ll be much better from what information I get from France, but personally speaking, 2018 has been pretty good for me on average, and I’m hoping 2019 will continue the trend.