#thats it for tonight i guess. bc i am Not getting up to get my charger rn
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#damn babygirl i wish people checked up on me more#this self conscious catgirl is so tired#sometimes i WISH people just came into my dms to ask me if im ok#i do it constantly to others because i hope theyre not as sad as i am feeling in that moment#genuinely afraid to have made someone feel bad and drive them away from me#and omg i feel nyself running thin again just bc im afraid to lose the interactions we have altogether because i cant process certain media#in a healthy way whatsoever and i get super hung up on thinfs that really dont matter that much in the end#YEAH IM RAMBLING IT'S 5:30 AM AND I COULD BE SLEEPING RIGHT NOW BUT INSTEAD IM JUST CRYING FOR A STUPID REASON!!#i think ive only had one person check up on me based off the vibes in chat i gave off alone in the past couple of months#which was baffling and surreal btw and i think it broke something within me#it came from someone i wouldve never expected to even notice because sometimes it feels like its such a vast difference between us#i sometimes even wonder how are we friends in the first place#like do i even deserve to call this person my friend do they feel like that? or are we just discord acquaintances?#anyway all this just made me sad and my dumb ass is crying and yearning to be loved by my online peers thats all lol. meows pathetically#idk i guess i just.want to hear / see it more rather than just teying to tell myself that over and over hoping im not deluding myself abt i#personal#sorry for the emotions dump idk whats wrong with me tonight actually#me having to come to terms with the reality that i actually have a following and this might get boticed by more than 2 ppl#bc not everyone follows 3k blogs like i am :skull emoji: yknow#im probably gonna delete later because im actually a super self conscious person to the point i get nauseatingly anxious about it holy shit#i dont vent often and im 120% keeping it in but when i do oh boy#the dam bursts and im left like a sopping wet dog on the floor looking like a sad blob#which i am feeling like right now!#vent#emy rambles#ALSO LIKE THIS ISNT TO SAY IM NOT GRATEFUL FOR MY FRIENDS OMG I AM#k really am#sometimes its still like. idk. unbelievable to me that people are genuinely interacting with me and the things i write or headcanon#and i shouldn't expect them to know whats wrong with me or if i feel bad if i dont say it or communicate that to them#but yknow one can yearn
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#suicide tw#just to get it out of the way fshgjkl to clarify i am not going to be doing anything tonight so dont worry#i am just like. annoyed.#like i hate that its so stupidly easy to kill yourself. i feel like there needs to be a bigger wall between me and death than just-#-pure willpower. like bestie i am running out of that quite quickly#i will be talking to friends and laughing and still thinking about killing myself dshgjkl it is just a constant state of suicidality for me#and i hate it! and its exhausting! but idk how to like... make it go away#bc i am very very very not okay and in a bad situation with no way out other than packing a bag and leaving for the homeless shelter#but i dont want to do that sdgjkl bc mum will find me and drag me back and things will be even worse#also ... i like my belongings. i dont want to leave them behind#which is silly but alas. i am very stupid and that is just how i exist i guess#anyways i hate just like. i could just ... do it rn and no one could stop me (other than the ppl i share the brain with lol)#like i could jsut do it right now and it'd be done and over with. thats so fucked up! why is it so easy!
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opening my drafts to see the vent post i made earlier but saved bc I had more to say but had to go do smth else and umm. probably for thr best I didn't post in the end but also I stand by that I was right to be pissed off🧍♂️everyone shut up
#sometimes i wish i was petty enough to pick fights over shit like this but ik it would have literally no impact whatsoever#but god. wish sometimes certain ppl would THINK before they SAY STUPID SHIT THAT ANNOYS ME SPECIFICALLY!!#i need to be more vague on here when i get annoyed at shit bc it dilutes it a lot and then i feel less mad abt it n can let it go#not that i usually hold resentment abt things. but i AM residually kind of frustrated and irritated with a lot of ppl currently#bc of certain situations + bonus unrelated stress im experiencing in my life thats making me extra frazzled n grumpy#so!!!!! dont piss me off is all im saying 😤#okay finishing moving these files and then ill brushnmy teeth and straight to bed im soooooo tired#didnt sleep well last night bc so much shit to think abt. but hopefully tonight will be better bc i did a ton of important admin#so its like 90% resolved now i just have to wait on a couple other things#i hope i have energy after work tomorrow to do some resistance training since i didnt get to go to the gym today :-(#wish id got to hang more w my flatmate before she leaves for her holiday.. tbf i did talk to her a fair amt n i always wish it was longer#just feel like i havent rly gotten to talk abt much going on in my life atm w anyone. not even necessarily serious convo#just like. general update on the big things rn. the med bullshit. my brothers rental problems. what ive been watching n reading..#finding it hard to start conversation in the discord bc i feel like the last couple times ive tried to talk ive been mostly ignored#so i give up im just the replierrrr ill contjnue conversations but know my place i guess 🤷♂️#anyway... brrrr my brain is cotton wool#brushimg. my teeth#.diaries
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I am baking cake at midnight and it is going to kill me <3
#it’s just gone in the oven which means at least 25 minutes and probably more like 45 bc I made a Lot#am also kiiiinda winging the recipe so my expectations are on the floor#this is. for a bake sale. pray for me#I’m gonna make the icing tonight and leave it in the fridge overnight I think for tomorrow morning#this has gone wrong at every available opportunity it was 100% not worth it#however! given the prices my friend wants to sell this at i May have turned this into like over £100 which isn’t bad#TWO CAKES. WHY AM I MAKING TWO CAKES#I’m procrastinating washing up the stuff I used to make the batter (hell) bc itssosososo messy and I just wanna shout abt stuff#primarily that I am once again so upset that I only get one more week of ice hockey before summer#there are two parts to this feeling: 1. I love ice hockey I’ve been having such a good time this past week while I’ve not had to stress#abt anything else. 2. gay. gay gay homosexual gay#like okay I’ve been worried abt whether this is an actual crush or I just convinced myself I like him bc pretty+queer#(because of course I can worry abt that). BUT yeah sorry no can confirm I like this dumb fuck this is so unfair#we talked a BUNCH last night and he’s just really cool.#ohhhh fuck I don’t think the oven was properly preheated bc I opened it for a while to fit the two tins in. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#anyway!! he’s really fun to talk to someone help like if he does turn out to be single I could in THEORY text him over summer. maybe.#his birthday will be coming up and my friend suggested that. I’m being insane but oh my god this is torture#I ALSO watched the newest dr who episode today and that did NOT HELP. one of the first things in a while that have given me like#this same specific feeling when I get into gay romantic media. the ‘reading gay shit on wattpad at age 14 feeling’ if you will#where there’s like this weight in the pit of my stomach. it’s NICE that doesn’t sound good but it is#is this what straight people get with romance all the time. I know I just don’t watch/read much anymore but also#there’s straight romance in literally everything so.#but yeah basically I need another month of fuck around time minimum when everyone’s in this city so I can get my shit together#ALSO. I ONLY HAVE A YEAR LEFT HERE. THATS TERRIFYING. a year is a long time but it’s also not this one disappeared and this is like.#WAY too early to even consider that but he’s gonna be here probably for a year after I leave and that could suck if anything does happen.#I guess in theory I’m taking a year before phd probably so I could work here. idk man anyway that one is actually insane of me I’m just gay#boy 😔. they shouldn’t be allowed to do this#on Wednesday he’ll be done with exams and so will my other friend who knows him well. so I will be able to 1. subtly see w her if girlfriend#2. potentially. MAYBE ask what she thinks I’m just trying to decide whether that’s too much to put on her. I think I’m being insane there#luke.txt
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feeling like doing smth so fucking stupid
#like fucking up my sleep schedule. just to see how long it takes for my meds to kick in.#or deleting social media accounts#or blocking everyone and never speaking to an actual person ever#ah yeh i didnt tell yall but i had to get my cat euthanised yday. and its fucking me up so bad.#cant stop thinking about his lifeless body. how small and tired he seemed. how easy it was to put him in the bag.#my little angel. stayed w me so long despite his pain. to keep me company as long as he could.#and ykw. family didnt even spend the day w me today.#like sure lets leave the depressed suicidal grieving idiot alone im sure they'll be FINE#well guess what. the idiot is not fine.#it all hurts so bad. how am i suppsoed to sleep if hes not here snoring next to me.#to top it all im seeing my psychiatrist friday. lmao. thats gonna be fun.#'how are the meds working' oh idk bc my cat is dead and now i want to die even more. yk. the usual :))#don't even think of sending a dm asking if im ok. im not. i dont want to be. not tonight.#just. fucking cant do it tonight.
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Random but like should I re-download snapshot.
I kinda removed it from my phone but didn't delete my account lol. So like 2 years ago when I got news of a3! English shutting down, I deleted snapchat to make more room on my phone for the game files. I tried to go through the character and event stories on twitch to like. "Preserve" the English version of the game. It was not very organized and I barely got anything done lol.
Then! Dragalia was shutting down, so i tried to kinda do the same thing. Dragalia was like 14 or 16 GB. So I kept snapchat deleted lol.
So I finally got the stupid corpse of the game off my phone and on an external hard drive, plus my save file from that game file extractor program someone put on github. I removed random photos from my phone and put them on an external hard drive. I finally have free space on my phone.
So should I re-download snapchat to see what my irl friends who I have not been in communication with for the past 3 or 4 years since covid lockdown lol. (My snapchat is for irl friends/college and high school classmates only.) (But also not having pressure to post stuff there for the past 3 years has been nice. But also I've not seen my friends for a very long time lol)
#mine#derp#snapchat#polls#i am bad at staying in contact with ppl digitally (texting#(calling etc) lol#like. if we dont see each other daily at work or school then i am very bad at staying in contact with you sorry lol#i recently realized i only have like 1 or 2 friends from third spaces that were not my classmates or coworkers lol#my mom is like a helicopter mom so i wasnt allowed outside to walk around the park or anything under 18 lol#i wasnt allowed to do many things so i became a video game addicted introvert lol#then she wonders why i have no interest in community events or whatever. bruh you did not really encourage it at all when i was growing up#now you expect me to somehow magically develop interest#broooooooooooooooooo#even now im not allowed outside when its dark out bc ill get kidnapped i guess ooooOoooOoo spoopy!#i tried to bring up that my city is having drag bingo tonight at like 7pm but my mom woulsnt let me go bc it was in a neighborhood thats#on the news a lot for shootings or whatever i guess#i also tried to ask if i could go to the movie theater to watch a movie after work but like i get home at 530 or 630 so its already late#and my mom wouldn't let me go to movie theaters after dark bc il get kidnapped OooooOooOoo#mind you this is the movie theater in a mostl middle class white suburban township that is not on the news ugh#i get home too late after work bc bus rider so im basically literally only allowed to go to work and home. even if 3rd places were available#i wouldnt be allowed to go to 3rd places anyways bc my mom continues to bw a helicopter parent#im 26 btw with basically 0 life experiences bc of annoying helicopter parenting#snapchat and social media stuff is literally my only way of seeing my friends outisde of work or school
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on that note. heyy wait no nvm what i was abt to say i think i just found the glitch in the matrix here.. OHHHHH I DID
#LETS GOOO I WAS WONDERING IF ID FIND ANYTHING ABT THIS SOON#imagine a whole ass country getting kh2 prologues photo'd. would that be fucked up or what#i love when the game gets ever so slightly fucked up lookin. i wish i could play this on a crt#'choosing someone to date is a little out of your comfort zone' Hello. aspec beam blasting siffrin rn#'WE HAVE ONE OF THOSE AT HOME'.... god#MIRABELLE ASPEC BEAM AS WELL????#oh my god these poor kids have to deal with amatonormativity too. as if the time freezing shit wasnt enough#oh my god?#SIFFRIN CONFIRMED ASEXUAL REAL?????????????????????#!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! H#0(-(#finally some good fucking aspec rep and TWO OF THEM AT ONCE we are so winning. hhhholy shit my heart#'how do you deal with it then' '[you dont]' yeah 👍#these 2 are very much my favorites. i already knew that before this lil thing but im so . !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#BOOSTS ALL OF HER STATS BY HOW MUCH??? CHRIST. OK#holy shit shes just busted now#AGH MY COMPUTER BATTERY#well i got thru Odiles thingy too at least. hers was vv good too.....#was trying to speed thru bonnies but i kept getting the questions wrong sjcbksbx#thats it for tonight i guess. bc i am Not getting up to get my charger rn#isat#isat spoilers
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dude I'm fine I don't know whats with the big deal people make about not sleeping for 3 days straight lol (shaking, trembling, can't breathe smoothly, at risk of passing out at any moment now, oh no)
#weirdly enough my brain is thinking pretty clearly just fine#though thats probably the sheer panic that has been running through my veins for over 8 hours now keeping me going#and honestly i would be like ''bro i feel normal''#if it werent my body physically showing me that its all fucked up rn lmao#though idk if the shaky breath is the exhaustion or the sickness i have rn that's making me cough and sneeze a lot#could be both!#anyway the only reason i am acting fine about this is bc my professor took pity on me and is giving me more time to complete my shit#so i am okay now! i just havent gotten my body to be ok again yet but it will be fine. eventually#sometimes it does pay to be a goody two shoes like me and forcing to walk into finals knowing i would fail#bc that convinced my professor that i deserved that second chance#there are ppl who did not show up at all so. me being here on the brink of death means a lot i guess#idk the lesson here is give a shit bc ppl will realize ur not fucking around + have a good opinion of ur integrity#time manage better#and also coffee apparently does taste good it only took me being so fucking desperate to not let myself sleep to enjoy drinking it#anyway really looking foward to sleeping again when i get home tonight#rando thoughtz
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not me having a panic attack in the shower because im 22 years old and havent done anything meaningful with my life 💀
#had a whole 'oh my god i need to do SOMETHING' breakdown and am now#being. incredibly productive#im not gonna get any sleep tonight sghddhbdhdbss#i guess its a good thing bc now i hvae. panic motivation to do things that have been sitting on my counter for weeks/months#but like#doesnt feel good !!!!!!!#hrrrhgghghgh#my parents r coming for thanksgiving im planning on#hashtag Ruining dinner by bringing up my whole 'i want to quit my job and start over' speech#which like#theyre not gonna like#but im hoping that . explaining things abt my mental health and how thats. genuinely what i think is best for myself#will maybe. convince them otherwise#and my brother will be there too and ive already talked to him abt it and hes agreed 2 be my buffer hdbdjsjs#i feel bad asking him to do that but also. i love him for it#and im getting him some really cool things for christmas in return so like#waaahghghhhhggh#i have. so many things that i need to do and im . not equipped to do them#girl help i am drowning
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I loved LOVED a word, a look, will be enough. I’m obsessed with the way you write jason and tim. No pressure to answer this at all, but I was curious if you have a headcanon about how the missing spleen reveal eventually goes
Jay »
Good afternoon Timothy.
« tim
uh oh
Jay »
I just had a fascinating conversation with Doc thompson
Care to hazard a guess about what?
« tim
pollen season
Jay »
No.
« tim
bird flu
Jay »
Is there a reason you havent told anyone in your life that you dont have a fucking spleen?
« tim
okay first of all
i’m not sure why doc thompson felt the need to tell you my private medical information
pretty sure they have a rule about that
Jay »
It’s not her fault.
I mentioned that you got whammied with that stupid germ bomb from Typhoid Tony or whatever the fuck his name was
« tim
vik vyral
Jay »
And she got all serious and told me I should get you into the clinic asap, and I was like no he’s fine now, it was basically a 24 hour bug, and she was like no, theres no such thing as a 24 hour bug for him, he needs to come get his blood tested yesterday
And then she clearly realized I had no fucking clue what she was talking about and clammed up. Wouldn’t say a thing. Told me to ask you myself.
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The look she gave me when I said you slept it off and went back to work. Like I should know better. like I was letting you be careless and shit bc thats just how I am or something.
« tim
“letting” me?
Jay »
yeah. Letting you. I know you know what I mean
« tim
i’m not sure i do.
Jay »
When youre with someone you take care of them.
I dont pretend to know much about this shit but I know that.
I’m not talking about handcuffing you to the radiator. Im talking about knowing whats going on with you and knowing that sometimes you let shit slide that I wouldn’t. When it comes to you
You do that for me and the others all the time. Thats how it works.
« tim
doc thompson doesn’t know you’re “with” me
Jay »
If you think everyone doesn’t know exactly what’s going on then your detective skills need work
Jay »
Also, Jesus, Tim.
« tim
ok sorry, i didn’t mean the scare quotes part
but did you pause to consider maybe there’s a reason i haven’t told everyone other than whatever shortsighted masochistic bs you’re assuming
Jay »
I dont need you to tell everyone. I’m not asking you to write a report on it.
Just like. if there’s any other major medical shit can you maybe tell me
Before you fucking die of a sinus infection or whatever bc the asshole who lives with you didn’t know your immune system has the horsepower of a bicycle
« tim
did you know you curse more when you’re fronting like you’re not worried about me
Jay »
I’m actually not fronting! in this moment!
« tim
okay
well. i am sorry
that sounded sarcastic bc of who i am as a person
but it’s not. i mean it.
Jay »
Sorry for yelling at you
« tim
i dont wanna go into it over text but i’ll tell you tonight. okay?
about what happened.
also there’s nothing else. it’s just the spleen thing
ok?
Jay »
Okay.
« tim
well and the mango allergy
well. and i’m double jointed specifically bc i have joint-hypermobility syndrome
which is why im so flexible :)
but also why i dislocate things a lot :(
um and im mildly allergic to carrots, bananas, pineapples, and most legumes, but it’s fine they just make my tongue itch
i think that’s all
Jay »
Tim can you be honest with me for a second
« tim
yeah…
Jay »
Are you inbred
« tim
NSJDN/&2&jdj?!_£_??
Jay »
Like are you that type of rich person
You can tell me. We are not going to procreate so I dont mind either way
« tim
just scared the living shit out of an intern who had never seen me laugh before. i think she thought i was choking
jesus CHRIST
i will see you at home.
Jay »
You
didn’t answer the question….
#feyburner ask#jaytim#my writing#idk what this is tbh i think i just wanted them to have a little spat. sharp edges meet rough edges etc
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Little things I'm catching on a rewatch:
From "who would wanna use their last days not fucking and fighting?"
To
"Last day of the afterlife and you're not off snorting a line off some hunk's abs?"
"Eh. You fucked one cannibal pool boy, you've fucked them all."
"I guess you have changed."
"Hey, Charlie said live tonight however we wanted, so pour me a fresh one! And lets get to living!"
(I am sobbing, you hear me? SOBBING)
(Also if you listen very closely to this scene while they talk at the bar you can hear a slowed down version of Loser, Baby in the background) (Once again: SOBBING)
"I can sense they're planning to kill me. But when?! How?!"
(Bro thats's so meta. They didn't need to do him dirty like that.)
"Don't worry mom, I'll make u proud."
"Only...seven...years. Off doing something important, I'm sure! But this kingdom was really something she cared about"
Welp. She's relaxing is heaven.
(Really love how Lucifer was built up to be this awful person, and Lilith a very loving person, but so far it seems to be the other way around.)
Funny things I missed the first time around:
THE TEXT.
"Bad. It makes us look bad!"
"Funny, I was going for hilarious."
Vaggie doesn't know what she's saying. Alastor was right. The text had me dying fr.
Never noticed Alastor had a little tux get-up for a few seconds I feel so robbed. Also in the commercial, he has his back to the camera and I just LOVE the possibilities as to WHY.
Did Vaggie force him to participate?
Did he still want to be included bc he's a little egotistical attention seeker?
Did he do it it bc he knew Vox would see it and it would fuck with him?
I need to know because like why are you even there little red demon man if you're gonna be barely out of frame and looking away??
Either vox had two mugs made except one with extra text OR (and my personal headcanon) he rushed to write "FUCK ALASTOR" on his mug just before Stayed Gone.
#not hxh related sorry#don't mind me im still hung over on this show#Alastor in the last ep just DOES things to me okay#Angel Dust#Husk#charlie morningstar#Vaggie#sir pentious#Alastor#vox#lilith#hazbin hotel#Jades chats
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RECKLESS | lee heeseung
now playing ☾⋆⁺₊🎧✩°。 reckless by madison beer
"how could you be, so reckless with my heart?"
⁺ ⋆˚ genre: idol!hee x nonidol/university student!femreader, pure angst sorry lol, established relationship
⁺ ⋆˚ warnings: cursing, lowercase intended, barely proofread, mention of i-land LOL, lots of dialouge and idk if thats even a warning but had to put it out there, use of nicknames like babe/baby, infidelity
⁺ ⋆˚ word count: ~1k
⁺ ⋆˚ message from nic: wanted to put smth out while working on my jay fic!! got inspired by this show i was watching called "the game" (dont watch it its like highkey misogynistic and a bit racist and just overall so bad 😭) i wanted to rewatch it bc i used to watch it as a kid and now i realize how bad it was skdkd. but basically the bf is a pro football player while the gf is in med school and a certain plotline in the show inspired this 😁 also this is my first writing piece so pls be nice and feedback is appreciated!
heeseung slowly opened the front door to the apartment you and him shared, trying to be as quiet as possible since you were most likely sleeping. once he made it in he tip toe'd his way to your guys' bedroom. "did you have fun tonight hee?" you asked, while sitting on the couch with nothing but the lamp on. heeseung jumps, "holy shit you scared me! baby what are you doing up? come on let's get you to bed."
he walks over and tries to give you a kiss. you turned your head down only allowing him to press it to your forehead. you were pissed. actually, you were beyond that. words could not describe what you were even feeling at the moment.
you get up from the couch and stand before him, "you didn't answer my question. did you have fun tonight hee?" heeseung is perplexed by your tone. you sounded... hurt? angry? annoyed? all of the above? he tried to proceed with caution, racking his brain of all the possibilities of why you could be acting like this.
"uh... yeah babe, i had a lot of fun tonight. sorry i stayed out so late by the way. you really didn't have to wait up for me, you're probably tired." he was hopeful this was the right answer. it's gotta be, right? all you could do was stifle a cold laugh.
why the hell were you laughing? what was so funny? heeseung can feel his heartbeat in his ears and his skin was turning hot. you had never once acted this way in all of the years you guys had been together. it may not seem like a big deal to others, but you had always been so caring and sweet towards him.
even when you guys were arguing, your soft voice never changed. this was new. this was scary. you had a smile that didn't quite reach your eyes now and it seemed like you were staring into his soul.
"yeah heeseung. it's 2 am," you say sounding almost condescending, "but no i'm not mad that you stayed out so late. i mean i WAS, but after someone sent me a little something i realized there are worse things to be mad about." suddenly your phone is shoved into heeseung's hands. his jaw dropped. no. there's no way.
"who sent you this?! wait no it doesn't matter baby you can't believe this can you?" he reaches out for you but you pull away and start walking towards the front door to gather your jacket and bag, "so you're not even going to try to deny it? huh. i guess my friends were right." it makes him sick how you seem so calm on the outside, your words and actions treating this like one big joke while he's freaking out. he'd rather you be a crying, screaming mess than whatever behavior you're exhibiting at the moment.
you turn back around to him, "you think i don’t know who you’re giggling with on the phone while i’m sitting in the room studying for hours? that i’m stupid enough to believe that you’re not making out with her in that video? that i’m blind enough to not see the heart eyes you two make at each other while in the same room?” your words drip with venom and they shoot heeseung straight in the heart.
he feels like the room is spinning and he wants to faint. he wants to go up to you and hold you and tell you that she doesn’t matter, that you’re the only important thing in his life. but that’s not what happens. heeseung is too wrapped up in the moment to admit his wrongs.
frankly, he’s disgusted with himself and at a loss for words right now. he wants to convince not only you but more importantly to himself that he didn’t do anything wrong. and so he does. what comes out of his mouth next are words he’d soon regret. “WHAT DID YOU WANT ME TO DO YN?! i’ve been so lonely lately because you’re so wrapped up in school and she’s THERE FOR ME. she’s been there when you weren’t. i wouldn’t have made out with her if YOU were at the afterparty with ME like i asked you to! we won four fucking awards tonight and i just wanted my girlfriend there to celebrate with me.”
and just like that, you snap. the jacket and bag in your hands are now thrown to the ground and heeseung flinches. “YOU ARE SO FUCKING UNBELIEVABLE! do you hear the words that are coming out of your mouth right now?! i told you i have an exam tomorrow there was no way i was going to that damn party.”
tears are blurring your vision and your breath is becoming uneven. you don’t even recognize the man standing in front of you. “i have a life too heeseung. while you’re out chasing your dreams so am i. do you even acknowledge the sacrifices i have made for you over the past five years? tell me, was she there for you when you first became a trainee? was she crying for you every fucking episode of i-land? was she there every step of the way supporting your career?!"
heeseung doesn’t speak. he doesn’t move an inch yet his brain is moving a million miles per minute. he knows you’re right. he knows that you decline going out with your friends so you can wait for him to come home from practice. that your life only revolves around school and him. and he’s so eternally grateful for you. his heart yearns to express all the love he has for you and that he fucked up so badly. he just wants to fast forward to the part where you guys work through it and everything is okay again.
but that time is never going to come because you walk up to him with a heavy heart, placing the promise ring he gave you all those years ago in his hands.
he stares at the pretty diamond that shines in the moonlight, the only thing illuminating the darkness that’s consumed the space you both once filled with love. “i hope she was worth it,” you say as you open the door and walk out into the cold night. leaving heeseung and all of the memories of your relationship behind.
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#nic's library ⋆ ˚。⋆୨୧˚#fakeuwus#heeseung enhypen#enhypen fic#heeseung fic#heeseung angst#enhypen angst#lee heeseung#lee heesung x reader#enhypen x reader#enhypen au#enha#fanfiction#fanfic
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hi gwen!
tysm for writing and posting, I really love all of your work!
quick question just for fun: if someone could only read five of your fics and no more, and you got to pick which ones, which five would you want them to read? you can include wips if you want
happy writing and i can’t wait for your next update!
anon i am so sorry for the late reply, i just. had to think about this a LOT. then i may or may not have forgot about it. oops. but thank you so much for the submission and for enjoying my fics!!
ok we are NOT including wips because that would make this answer infinitely harder. also because i can’t really judge them because… they’re not… done. im also not counting i want your violence, since it's not finished. i AM including kim suhwan vs. the world, however, because it's essentially finished. so i'm picking out of my 25 fics. that being said, here is my list of my 5 fics i would want people to read:
kim suhwan vs. the world
all my love
the mouth of the wolf, the eyes of the lamb
and all of my dreams, they’re growing lucid (i mean, can we do two here? just the whole busan boy series. this and the beach.)
don’t blame me
pour one out for the fakenuts sure, but i havent written one im incredibly proud of yet. if the one im working on turns out good, then well… 😶🌫️ but thats neither here nor there since it is NOT FINISHED and i dont wanna torture myself with choosing.. really op i have 26 published fics and ur making me choose FIVE of 25. ok, i will delve into my reasoning under here.
ahem. so, to start with... kim suhwan vs. the world. i feel like this one is a little self-explanatory, if only because it's my most recent fic. i do think it's one of my best written (my older fics are definitely lacking in skill, i didn't get good at writing until late 2023 i'd say) and i just... love the plot. so writing quality is great, concept also great! description amazing, dialogue amazing. my best work so far... i guess that makes sense, since im improving in skill as i write and grow more. i love peyz. i love writing fics about love and growing up and coming of age, and okay i DID project a bit onto peyz because i too have an unrequited crush and uh... i struggle with my emotions being a "lot" a lot. especially as of late, ive been "feeling" a lot. i get angry, i get sad. i mean my dad died lol! (i do sort of separate my fics nowadays as pre-dad death and post) but this story is just so special to me. you can see my growth as a person and a writer in comparison to my first fics. i mean, its been two years, pretty much. suhwan here is so special to me, and so is jihoon, honestly. wangho is too, and... god i do love geng 2023 so much. AGH. i know chapter 5 isn't out yet, but it will be tonight, or tomorrow! before t1 geng semis, at least. i hope.
next, all my love. also self-explanatory i think. it's my most popular fic, and even though i don't even really like onerzeus, i love this story and i love my iteration of them. i really badly wanted to write a second chance homecoming story (fun fact, aml was almost a bengifaker instead of onerzeus!) and i ended up doing that. i chose onerzeus since i thought they fit it. and then the fic sorta snowballed. i initially wanted 3 chapters, 10k each, 30k total word count. hoo boy that didn't happen LOL. EVERYTHING snowballed. i started putting all my favorite music in it, and putting cars and stick shifts in, and making the almost-family have an auto shop. i put jojopyun in bc i fucking love the guy so, so much. i put many bits of myself and my dad into it (i look back on this fic with a tad bit of sentimentality because it has so much of him in it. i did write that fic before he died). but i put just.. things i wanted to put in. it was SO self indulgent! gumakeria marriage, jojopyun, music, and cars... i remember working super hard on this fic in particular, and i think it paid off. all the "surprises"/cliffhanger type-things were something i put a lot work into. i think the writing quality of this fic is... halfway decent/pretty good... description was almost amazing, and dialogue was pretty good. conceptually, one of my best. this fic will always be special to me.
next would (maybe surprisingly?) be the mouth of the wolf, the eyes of the lamb. conceptually, i believe this is my best fic conceptually, which is why i chose it. i really don't think this shows my best writing at all (not even top 5 best writing) but i think i execute the CONCEPT well regardless! i did write it in pretty much one sitting because i was in the midst of burnout and i just got the idea and knew i had to get it out, so that's my excuse on the sub-par writing quality and possibly choppy plotline. it has pretty okay description, not bad dialogue. i definitely could've made it smoother. but in general, i just love the "lck mid holy trinity" of faker, showmaker, and chovy. i love lck midlaners so much. the idea of showmaker and chovy being kindred and faker the grey man descended upon me like a blessing from the gods. BY GOD DID I COOK. i didn't write a ton of au fics prior to this fic (ntm any fantasy aus), but i really should more. i love it so much, and i love the ending (which i wrote at like 4 am in the morning in a haze because i randomly thought of it half asleep!) i'm super proud of this conceptually and i need to write more lck mid fics in general (this time with scout too!?)
okay, i really wish i could count the busan boy series as one. but i cannot, so i am choosing and all of my dreams, they're growing lucid. despite it ill be talking about both fics in this section. i think this is my best work slash series of canon-compliant gumakeria i've written thus far--(i haven't written a ton since it came out, if at all, honestly). i feel like i really perfected their characterization here, over writing so much gumakeria. the reason i pick aaomdtgl over the beach is probably writing quality/skill. busan boy is by far my "favorite" of the two concepts, but it's lacking in execution, and it's noticeable especially in comparison to its sequel. the beach has okay writing, pretty decent description, and amazing concept. and all of my dreams has great writing, great description, and great concept. i was always grumpy the beach got so much less attention than and all of my dreams, but... i guess it's for a reason, lol (also bc its um. SAD! they LOSE!). (please go read the beach if you haven't though... i do love that fic so, so much.) also stream niki and the neighbourhood... read! my first songfics i guess, i just love those two albums. also i was a tad bit insane for these two fics--i wrote the beach because i was like, worlds in Korea? lets win. time to write losing in Korea fic first to set up for it. then i wrote a large percentage of and all of my dreams before t1 even won worlds because i was so sure of it. 2023 gwen was insane.
lastly is don't blame me. this is largely because of concept, because the writing is ass. don't blame me was my second published fic, so that's my excuse. the writing IS bad, i was waltzing along lacking in skill... yeah. the prose is so short and empty and fucking hell i could nitpick all day. i guess it sort of fits the fic?? (no im lying to myself lol it just sucks.) the description is meh, the dialogue gets the point across. but CONCEPTUALLY... the fic eats! it slays! demon keria yes pls! good job 2023 gwen! you did slay! my au fics do slay, and i had so much fun with this. i really fell into the rabbithole of league lore... god i love it so much. it's just so fun to write. and the ending! i love the ending a lot and i just like the tone and mood of the fic. i mean, its chilly, a little haunting... im not sure. dbm still has unwritten sequels LMAO i may or may not choose to write... i want to, but it's been a long time... i guess only time will tell.
so... yeah! that'd be my list. if you're interested in hearing why i DIDNT include some (one) fic, keep reading :] (wjnstt was the only one i wanted to address.)
now i think the main question to myself when choosing was... do i include we just need some time together or not? i know its a rather popular fic of mine, but i nixed it in favor of dbm i guess because i prefer dbm. and in terms of canon compliant gumakeria, busan boy clears it and does it a whole lot better in everything (characterization, writing quality, dynamic, everything). i don't... like wjnstt, not really. i mean, i haven't read it in a long while, so i couldn't tell u if that's 100% accurate of a conclusion, but. it was the first fic i ever started writing, and you can TELL. hoo boy writing quality be IN THE GUTTER. oh my GOD. to be fair, again, i haven't read it in a while so my judgment is probably a bit skewed/i could be misremembering. but i haven't reread it because IM SCARED OF IT. IM GOING TO GET SO MUCH SECONDHAND EMBARASSMENT AND CRINGE AT MYSELF OH GOD. ITS SO ASS. FUCKING HELL. my characterization is kinda ass (all of the characters), my writing quality/skill is unpolished... so many things. my description is okay... meh... i guess. my dialogue is probably the best part of the fic, and that's only halfway decent. but at the same time, i remember pouring my heart into this fic. i really do. conceptually, i think it was okay, and i remember it meaning a lot to me. i guess i just... sort of grew up and out of it. i mean, its been two years, pretty much. i wrote it in the midst of a bad depression slump, and i was younger, and... a lot changed since then, bascially. okay maybe i should reread it. fuck. we'll see i guess. i have a love hate relationship with this fic, that's all ill say for now. it'd probably make... top 6 or top 7. yeah. not sure. not top 5 though, sorry.
anyway, thank you so much for the question again op, and i'm so sorry for the late reply! and for yapping. i yapped a lot. hopefully you liked reading it though. much love, hope you have an amazing day, and let's gear up for worlds semis this weekend!!
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Average Weekly Screentime - Chap 10: So Who Won?
pairing: Jake Peralta x Amy Santiago
word count: 3141
warnings/tags: college au, texting, drunk texting, text fic (mostly, there's prose a few chaps in), bets, bisexual!jake peralta, jake peralta has adhd, parties, drinking and alcohol, sexual references, implied sexual content (nothing explicit, just suggested its going to happen/has happened), friends to lovers, swearing, mentions of cannibalism, lighthearted threats of violence (typical rosa stuff yk), fluff
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Story Summary: texting fic college AU with the squad! It's the beginning of the school year and while everyone else thinks it'll be the same as the previous year, Gina has a feeling things are going to be different and wagers a bet with Rosa and Charles. Told through all the various group chats everyone is in.
Chap 1 | Chap 2 | Chap 3 | Chap 4 | Chap 5 | Chap 6 | Chap 7 | Chap 8 | Chap 9 | Chap 10
authors note: The last chapter to this monster of a fic! Hope you enjoy <3
Jimmy Jabbers
[09:24am, Friday]
Four Eyes: Jake has once again fallen asleep in class Four Eyes: Bets anyone?
RoRo: he’s gonna wake up in 12 minutes
Mr Grapes: 10 minutes
Queen G: 20 minutes
Four Eyes: Will keep you updated
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[09:36am, Friday]
Four Eyes: Rosa I don’t know how you do it
RoRo: idk RoRo: you guys just gotta get good i guess
Queen G: this sucks
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Dance Squad
[11:36am, Friday]
G-Hive: rosa ur bet date was two days ago G-Hive: i just remembered
Scary: gina you just might win this
G-Hive: omg omg this is so exciting
Charlese: Remember when you tried to get them together on new years?
G-Hive: i had a momentary lapse of judgement G-Hive: BUT now im back in betting mode G-Hive: need to keep them apart for another few weeks
Scary: that’s meddling once again
Charlese: Technically Rosa has some buffer time before her bet is completely void
Scary: neck and neck gina Scary: watch your back
G-Hive: anyone else getting super scary vibes rn???
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Skipping School Is(n’t) Cool
[10:05am, Saturday]
Ferris: good morning beautiful
Cameron: Good morning!
Ferris: whats the plan for today??
Cameron: I actually have to do some work, you’ve been distracting me the last few days
Ferris: sorry i cant help that i wanna spend time with my giirllfrieennddd
Cameron: I wasn’t complaining at all Cameron: I’m just warning that if you come over I will be doing work
Ferris: im literally on my way
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Unnamed Chat
[10:45am, Saturday]
Jake: hey ter!
Terry: Hey Jake, how’s it going?
Jake: absolutely wonderful amazing excellent
Terry: Haha let me guess – things went well with Amy
Jake: ur the first person im telling bc u helped me so much omg im so excited
Terry: Well congrats to both of you Terry: I hear Taylor has a lot of love songs
Jake: im never living it down Jake: and IM TOO HAPPY TO CARE
Terry: Hahaha
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Jimmy Jabbers
[02:04pm, Saturday]
Four Eyes: do u think that guys named cal their name is short for calendar
Pineapples: yes ames i think thats true
Queen G: how do i tell amy u have her phone
Pineapples: she is aware Pineapples: but i dont think she realised what i was gonna do with it mwahaha
RoRo: you should probably give it back
Four Eyes: He has returned it now Four Eyes: He’s cowering in the corner because he knows I’m going to take his
Pineapples: someone help me
Mr Grapes: Just go fetal position Jake, that’s what I do
Pineapples: Too late
Queen G: RIP soldier
RoRo: i think it’ll be funny if amy killed him
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Dance Squad
[02:10pm, Saturday]
G-Hive: so that was weird right??
Scary: super weird
Charlese: Definitely weird
G-Hive: okay cool
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Jimmy Jabbers
[04:28pm, Saturday]
Mr Grapes: Anyone wanna do dinner tonight?
RoRo: can’t, busy
Mr Grapes: What are you up to?
RoRo: wouldn’t you like to know, soup boy
Queen G: fine ill do dinner
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[04:53pm, Saturday]
Mr Grapes: @Four Eyes @Pineapples are either of you interested in getting dinner? Mr Grapes: Haven’t heard from you yet
Pineapples: sorry charles, im busy
Four Eyes: I’ve already got plans, sorry
Mr Grapes: That’s alright!
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Dance Squad
[04:57pm, Saturday]
Charlese: That’s weird right?
G-Hive: definitely
Scary: you two have fun
G-Hive: @Charlese ill meet u at sals in 30?
Charlese: Yep!
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“We have got to find a new dinner spot” Amy whispers to Jake across the table who’s giggling.
“Aw but I like Sal’s” He whispers back, their chins nearly touching the table as they duck from view.
“Probably on us that we assumed Gina and Charles wouldn’t come here” Jake continued with a shrug of his shoulders.
“Yeah, that’s definitely on us. What do we do?” Amy asked anxiously.
“What do you mean?”
“They’re here, we’re here, they don’t know about us. What do we do?”
“Sneak out the side door and pretend we were never here?” Jake suggested with a mischievous twinkle in his eye.
“Sure, let’s do it” Amy agreed, a small smile returning to her face.
The two of them got up quickly, Jake grabbing Amy’s hand and dragging her out of the diner quickly behind him. She had her bag slung over her shoulder and was carrying her scarf, not having had a moment to put it on yet.
Once they were out the door and walking down the street the two of them laughed as Amy finally wrapped her scarf around her neck. Jake took Amy’s arm and linked it with his, holding her close as they walked down the snow lined streets.
“We’ve gotta find somewhere else to get dinner now” Jake brought up after they’d been walking for a few minutes with no real destination in mind.
“How would you feel about pizza?” Amy asked with a smile, knowing exactly how Jake would feel about pizza.
“Dumb question Ames, I know just the place”
He redirected them, crossing the street and turning a corner while Amy simply followed his lead. Once there they ordered and got their pizza, they laughed about their escape from Sal’s again and Jake filled Amy in on the ongoing Sasha drama after she overheard Gina mention it.
They finished their pizza and hung around in the shop for a little while longer, ignoring their phones and everything outside the door. As far as Jake was concerned, right now the world existed in the pizza shop, sitting across the table from him.
It was only when the owner of the shop politely told them he was going to be closing soon did they leave – leaving behind a nice tip for having stayed so long – walking arm in arm slowly back towards campus under the light of the street lamps. Amy could tell Jake was trying to delay saying goodbye to her, and if Amy was honest with herself she didn’t want to say goodbye either.
They stopped at the usual split in their path, this section of the sidewalk held so many memories and emotions that Amy couldn’t believe it had all happened in less than a year. The two of them hugged for probably too long, they were clingy for a few day-old relationship but Amy never wanted it to stop.
“Come back to my dorm with me?” Jake asked her quietly, breath brushing against Amy’s ear in a way that made her skin tingle, “If you want” he added, giving her an out.
“I want to”
It was an easy decision, and one she didn’t regret at all.
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DDC
[10:28am, Sunday]
G: messaging to check on u bc i havent heard from u in nearly 24 hours
Jacob: im fine g
G: alright G: how r u feeling?
Jacob: great!
G: cool
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Dance Squad
[10:32am, Sunday]
G-Hive: something happened
Scary: context?
G-Hive: somethings happened with jake
Charlese: Proof?
G-Hive: 1 image attachment G-Hive: says hes great before noon on a sunday G-Hive: i think tf not
Scary: weak
Charlese: Yeah it’s not a super strong argument
G-Hive: ugh honestly you two
Charlese: I’m starting to give up on them honestly Charlese: If it hasn’t happened by now it won’t ever happen
G-Hive: r u serious charles!!! G-Hive: ur not serious
Charlese: Okay I’m not 100% giving up
Scary: i have
Charlese: What??
Scary: my betting day has passed and i either get it exact or i lose Scary: i’m not winning on a technicality
G-Hive: what about the prize money???
Scary: we just don’t pay out?
Charlese: Damn, this is a sad way to end it
G-Hive: HEY! my bet is still ongoing
Scary: you’re seriously gonna hold out hope??
G-Hive: unlike SOME people i dont back down from a bet
Scary: ugh fine i’m still in
G-Hive: YES
Charlese: Okay I’m still in!! you just caught me in a moment of weakness
G-Hive: lovely lovely G-Hive: time to go get proof
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DDC
[10:51am, Sunday]
G: where r u???
Jacob: my dorm why???
G: i feel like ur lying
Jacob: im not lying gina Jacob: why would i lie about that
G: idk but ill find out
Jacob: u do that
G: ill ask amy where u r
Jacob: amy will just tell u to ask me
G: we will see
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Girls Girls Girls
[10:55am, Sunday]
Gina: @Amy do u know where jake is??
Amy: I don’t know, probably in his dorm? Amy: He’s probably still sleeping
Gina: hmm okay
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DDC
[10:57am, Sunday]
G: i still dont believe you
Jacob: 1 image attachment Jacob: what about now??
G: u couldve taken that pic anytime
Jacob: i just took it now
G: ugh fine
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Girls Girls Girls
[11:03am, Sunday]
Gina: @Amy can u send me a pic of the cover of that book u recommended the other day
Amy: You have never asked for a book recommendation and I don’t believe you that you’re starting now
Gina: u and jake talking about me???
Amy: WHY would Jake and I be talking about you??
Gina: u tell me????
Amy: You are in a mood this morning
Rosa: tell me about it
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Jimmy Jabbers
[11:07am, Sunday]
Queen G: i have had ENOUGH Queen G: @Four Eyes @Pineapples explain urselves
Four Eyes: What do I have to explain???
Pineapples: i am also confused as to what i need to explain
Queen G: one or both of u are lying to me Queen G: dodging questions and such
Four Eyes: Good god you need to go outside or something
Queen G: i will NOT be made out to be crazy
Pineapples: then stop acting like it girl
Queen G: where r u both right NOW???
Pineapples: in my dorm Pineapples: in bed if u want specifics
Four Eyes: I’m in my dorm, at my desk to be specific
Queen G: take a pic of ur desk rn
Four Eyes: I’m not entertaining this
Queen G: AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH Queen G: im gonna figure it out
RoRo: maybe let it go gina
Mr Grapes: Gotta agree with Rosa
Queen G: ugh fine
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Dance Squad
[02:35pm, Monday]
G-Hive: im following jake and amy this afternoon G-Hive: who wants to join
Charlese: I’ve got nothing better to do
Scary: this is the last time i’ll entertain you
G-Hive: it wont even be long G-Hive: ill be able to tell if theyre together or not immediately G-Hive: meet me in the courtyard
Charlese: On my way!
Scary: coming
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Skipping School Is(n’t) Cool
[02:48pm, Monday]
Ferris: heads up rosa gina and charles are following me to the library Ferris: theyre doing a bad job
Cameron: Hahaha okay
Ferris: should we have some fun with them?
Cameron: We absolutely should
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Jake made his way to the library happily, lighter than air and excited to see Amy again. When he walked into the library she hadn’t noticed him yet but as soon as Jake saw her he couldn’t stop the smile spreading from ear to ear.
Amy finally noticed him as he approached the table, a matching smile gracing her face, and it took everything in Jake to hold back kissing her as soon as he was sat down next to her. They kept their conversation casual and work focused, it felt like before they were together when the two of them were dancing around whatever was happening between them.
After some subtle searching of the library by taking looks around at random intervals he was able to spot Gina, Rosa, and Charles at a table nearby. They were pretending to be engrossed in one book between the three of them and doing a bad job, Rosa was clearly uninterested but there anyway.
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Skipping School Is(n’t) Cool
[03:21pm, Monday]
Ferris: three musketeers sitting at a table near the computers Ferris: doing a terrible job at hiding
Cameron: I’m not even surprised Cameron: What did Gina expect to discover?
Ferris: probs us together
Cameron: Nosiest friends ever
Ferris: haha tell me about it
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“This is boring, they’re clearly not together” Rosa was annoyed.
“But what if they are and they’re just playing it down?” Gina argued back.
“If they were together we’d know by now” Charles now joined in.
“God this is ridiculous” Gina threw her arms up in frustration, “I just need them to kiss or something”
“Go ask them” Rosa suggested slightly sarcastically.
Gina fixed Rosa with a look that made Charles want to shrink in on himself, feeling grateful he hadn’t crossed either of them.
“We could just wait for them to tell us?” He suggested in hopes of stopping Gina and Rosa’s staring match.
“Fine” Gina agreed begrudgingly.
Gina was the one to get up first, followed by Rosa and then once they started walking away Charles quickly followed, not wanting to be left behind.
-
Jake saw movement out of the corner of his eye, catching his attention he looked up to see Rosa, Gina and Charles all making a hasty exit from the library and he smiled knowing he and Amy had been able to bore them into leaving.
Once their friends had left the library he leaned over and gave Amy a quick peck on the cheek, startling her out of her concentration where she looked at Jake with surprised.
“What abo-“ She began before Jake cut her off.
“They just left”
Amy let out a laugh before placing a hand on the side of Jake’s face, he leaned into it with a content sigh. Jake then reached up to lightly grab Amy’s wrist, keeping her hand in place as he twisted his head to plant another kiss on her palm.
“You can’t distract me like that” Amy said quietly, trying to be teasing but sounding more breathless.
“Sorry” Jake had apologized but didn’t sound one bit sorry, returning to his work with a satisfied smirk.
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Jimmy Jabbers
[06:25pm, Wednesday]
Queen G: sasha is having a party on sat so im absolutely going Queen G: anyone else in??
Mr Grapes: Oh definitely! Mr Grapes: Do you know if she invited Sam or Matt?
Queen G: she invited both of them and its most of the reason i wanna go
Mr Grapes: It’s self sabotage at this point
RoRo: ill go if it means watching sashas life implode lol
Pineapples: ill be there
Four Eyes: Yeah I’ll go too
Queen G: im so proud of all of u Queen G: so like are you guys team sam, team matt, or team sasha
Charles: I’m team Anne! She’s been messed around
Queen G: so true charles
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It was the first time they’d hung out as a whole group since Jake and Amy had gotten together and hiding their relationship was more difficult than Jake had anticipated. He wanted to hold her hand in the back of the uber and put his arm around her shoulders as they walked into the party but couldn’t do any of it.
That was until they split up after playing some small drinking games together, Jake immediately asked Amy if she wanted to dance and she couldn’t have said yes quick enough. He assumed his friends were off finding the drama, Gina and Rosa probably on the hunt for people to flirt with while Charles waited for Genevieve to arrive soon.
Once he and Amy had reached the dance floor her pulled her close, bodies pressed up against one another – he wasn’t wasting a single moment keeping her at a distance. They danced together in the way Jake wished they could’ve on New Years, and it was the most fun he’d had at a party in a while.
So much fun that he leaned down to kiss Amy hard, brain slightly foggy after the alcohol they’d had so far, but pleased when Amy leaned into it. The kiss became intense as they abandoned any illusion that they were dancing.
Finally Jake pulled away with heavy breaths, leaning down to whisper into Amy’s ear.
“Bathroom”
She nodded furiously and followed closely behind when Jake grabbed her hand and dragged her away from the dance floor.
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Queen Gina Linetti @g-hive01
i love being right #calledit #sashasparty
[11:08pm, Saturday]
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Jimmy Jabbers
[10:47am, Sunday]
Queen G: i think its time we talk about the elephant in the room
Pineapples: what?
Queen G: this has gone on long enough
RoRo: gina what are you doing
Mr Grapes: Don’t do something you’ll regret
Queen G: i have no regrets in life Queen G: including this Queen G: @Four Eyes @Pineapples you two like each other and you need to work it out before I start prematurely aging
RoRo: gina!!
Mr Grapes: We agreed we weren’t gonna meddle and this is beyond that!
Queen G: deafening silence from the culprits themselves
Pineapples: way to make things awkward g…
Four Eyes: Wait, you guys ‘agreed to not meddle’? What does that mean?
Queen G: dw about that Queen G: do u have anything to say for urselves??
Pineapples: gina what did u see???
Queen G: u know exactly what i saw at exactly 11 last night
Four Eyes: Shit
Pineapples: my b ames
Four Eyes: Takes two
Pineapples: if its any comfort gina that bathroom wasnt as romantic as u would imagine
Queen G: i didnt think it would be
Four Eyes: Aw don’t say that babe, I thought it was perfectly respectable
Pineapples: dont lie to me
Four Eyes: Sorry haha
Mr Grapes: Wait wait wait wait Mr Grapes: You just called him babe
Four Eyes: Oops
Pineapples: gina caught us so theres no point keeping secret
Four Eyes: Yes Jake and I are together
Mr Grapes: Greatest day of my life not joking
RoRo: good for u
Queen G: u guys will NEVER make me seem crazy ever again so help me god Queen G: i was fucking RIGHT
RoRo: for reasons you don’t need to know RoRo: when did this start?
Pineapples: last wednesday Pineapples: why?
RoRo: i’m $100 richer
Mr Grapes: Damn
Queen G: ah shit…
Four Eyes: Can’t believe you guys bet on us!
Pineapples: i can
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Skipping School Is(n’t) Cool
[11:40am, Sunday]
Ferris changed Cameron’s nickname to Ames Ferris changed their name to Dread Pirate Jake Dread Pirate Jake changed the group chat name to As You Wish
Ames: Aw I’ll miss the Ferris Bueller theme
Dread Pirate Jake: that was for when we were friends Dread Pirate Jake: needed to change now that youre my giirrllfriend
Ames: Haha fair enough Ames: Meet outside to go get lunch together?
Dread Pirate Jake: as u wish my lady <3
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Dance Squad
[11:40am, Sunday]
Scary: I’ll take my $100 in cash
Charlese: I don’t even care about losing money I’m so happy for them
G-Hive: you will never make a fool out of me again
Scary: sure sure Scary: now pay up
Chap 1 | Chap 2 | Chap 3 | Chap 4 | Chap 5 | Chap 6 | Chap 7 | Chap 8 | Chap 9 | Chap 10
authors note: Oh my god, I can't believe its all done and over.
This is the longest piece of writing I've done so far, what started out as a silly little text fic idea that I wanted to do just to 'not waste a concept' turned into something that I've loved writing and am beyond proud of. I'm sorry there was a bit of a wait between chapters in the middle there but I hope the speedy release of the ending made up for it! Thank you so so much to everyone who commented and left kudos, you guys kept me motivated and excited to write this fic. Shout out to my friends both irl and online (none of whom will see this lol), you guys consistently provide me wonderful content to use in my writing lol (for this chapter it was: "wouldn't you like to know, soup boy")
Thanks again for reading my lil fanfic, I hope you enjoyed it <3
#alice writes#jake peralta x amy santiago#jake peralta#amy santiago#gina linetti#rosa diaz#charles boyle#fluff#college!au#bisexual!jake peralta#brooklyn nine nine#b99#multi chap#average weekly screentime
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thought i'd catch up on ur feed bc i havent been on here in a while and why'd i think our age gap was smaller than it actually is 😭 i thought it was like 7 years NOT 10 (TEN)!!!!!!!!!!!!! i had to sit for a few minutes on that.
anyways that top 100 playlist! Was not expecting blood by day6 to be the song on there but i feel like it is a very you choice. i wouldnt have guessed it, but thinking about it..... it makes sense. also bc i like hearing your perspective on things, i wanna know your take on what Jae has been saying in interviews recently. idk if you saw but he said he feels bad that they named the album fourever and he thinks its the company's way of getting closure (?? very questionable imo but thats what he said). i have been feeling kinda bad for him ngl lol
and speaking of other peoples weddings!! I C O N I C ! i literally recc'ed it to one of my friends that is getting into svt and wanted fics to read. its 1 of 2 svt fics that i read and still remember to this day. and she was asking me for wonwoo recs too so i will def be letting her know about ur newest one!!! which i dont think i have read even before the rewrite so that is what i will be reading before bed tonight 😁 i also see u have quite a few newer fics which is awesome! i'm eating good for the next couple days
other than all that, i hope you've been well! <3
HAHAHAHA thats SO fair yeah a lot of people thought i was younger than i am, even in person i get that often so i must have some sort of youthful air lolol
blood by day6 was the reason i had to include bsides in consideration because it is one of my all time (clearly since its on the list lolol) faves, i listen to it SO much and i was never a massive day6 fan in general. i liked them but it was more casual. but that song??? im in a committed relationship with that song
i havent seen the interviews with him but going off what you're saying i can see where hes coming from. i mean obviously the whole situation that happened was because he was mentally fucking going through a time and he got a lot of shit for it (some warranted some not). i do feel bad for him tbh. i dont know that its the company's way of getting closure necessarily but for sure there is some thought there to at least shutting down what i imagine are consistent comments about jae and if hes coming back. if i were in his position i think i would feel pretty hurt by seeing how easily cast aside i am, but its also like...unfortunately the reality of kpop?? but i get where hes coming from and it would suck to be in his place. im sure he also is at a place of realising the mistakes he made personally as well. tough
eeeeeeee !! it is so funny to me how that on exploded so much and im glad people still love it at a level that i really never thought any of my fics would reach :')) i think the wonwoo fic is better in general now post rewrite so im curious to hear what you think about it !!! and your friend if she reads it hehe
#ive been good just work gotta make that money make purse as ateez would say#lol#hope youve been well too !!!!#replies#pastelsicheng#<3
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-Library-
Lisa: I just want to spend a few days on a vacation with jean is that so much to ask for??
Traveler: i think i can help.
Lisa: how can you help though?
Traveler: ...what do you know about wisps?
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-windrise-
Traveler: Venti, Jean and Lisa need your help.
Venti: MY help??
Traveler: it's something only you can do!
Venti: ...i'm not gonna help them with serenading each other.
Traveler: plea-! Wait what? No- thats not it.
Venti: alright, then i'm all ears!
Traveler: Lisa wants to go on a vacation with Jean.
Venti: uhuh.
Traveler: but Jean is always busy! She never has the time.
Venti: I'm aware.
Traveler: so you need to help out Jean.
Venti: ...why do i have this foreboding feeling?
Traveler: You need to take her place-
Venti: ABSOLUTELY NOT!
Traveler: but it's really easy for you!
Venti: but you know why i have this form!
Traveler: Venti- don't make me force you.
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Jean: --I'd love to, really, but you know i can't leave-
Lisa: It's only three days! Besides, the Traveler said they'll take care of everything, nobody will even notice you're gone!
Jean: the Traveler, no matter how competent, cannot carry the whole of mondstadt on their tiny shoulders, and-
Traveler: *bursting in* i'm done!
Jean: Traveler-!
Lisa: well, did you take care of everything?
Traveler: I've found a wisp willing to take Jeans place!
Jean: What? Don't tell me you-
Venti!Jean: IT WAS HUMILIATING!! THEY TICKLED ME UNTIL I LOST MY FORM THEN PUT ME IN A JAR!
Lisa: Wonderful! I'll go pack everything we'll need, we're leaving tonight!! *leaves the room*
Traveler:
Jean:
Traveler: ...praise me.
Venti!Jean: do not praise them or i will abandon mondstadt for real!!
Jean: ...You're Barbatos, aren't you?
Venti!Jean: *exasperated* of course i am!
Jean: *paniked* TrAvEleR!!
Traveler: ...it really wasn't that dramatic. I only put him in the jar for safekeeping. Besides, he agreed in the end!
Jean: did his agreeing have anything to do with wine?
Venti!Jean: *dramatically* What! How could you think this of me! I'm simply doing my duty as an archon!
Jean: ...right, even you wouldn't work this hard only for wine
Venti!jean: *offended gasp*
Traveler: ...i did say kusanali would be awfully disappointed considering how much she looks up to him.
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-somewhere in sumeru-
Nahida: ah-chu- ...?
Tighnari: *picks her up* LESSER LORD KUSANALI IS ILL WE HAVE TO GET HER TO THE BIMARSTAN IMMEDIATELY!!!
Nahida: no i'm fine, really-
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Venti!jean: *at the desk* this is actually not so bad...
Diluc: wait for it-
Huffman: *bursting in out of breath* you- have to- get klee- off the- statue...
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The aftermath is probably that venti will never again agree to this kind of deal. Look after klee. Find lost cats. Take care of klee. Fight off hilichurls. Make sure klee does nothing bad. Mother mondstadt. Capture klee.
All in the job description, i guess. Jean on the other hand has never been more relaxed and energetic. Not for long, of course.
Kaeya never showed up for work bc he somehow caught wind (ha) of the situation and decided it's the best time to procrastinate.
#i'm eating gilbird#genshin impact#genshin incorrect quotes#genshin venti#genshin shitpost#genshin barbatos#genshin traveler#genshin aether#genshin lumine#genshin jean#genshin lisa#genshin diluc#genshin imagines#genshin nahida#genshin tighnari
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