#thats fine people usually dont pay attention to this kind of stuff anyway lmao

[mono-chrono]

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[shhhhyoursister]

Hey what are you favourite davenzi scenes/moments and what are your favourite Matteo scenes/moments? Hope you’re well!

okay okay okay this has been in my inbox for a lil while and i feel like ive been building up to it but im going to watch some clips and gather some thoughts.....i asked @theyellowcurtains to give me a number limit for each and he said 3 so im gonna do 3 of each otherwise id just write a frame by frame analysis of all of season 3 (im so sorry for how long this post is i have so many thoughts all the time)

im gonna start with matteo moments and im gonna list the season/episode/clip just for clarity okay?? okay (im doing matteo moments that dont include david because i have to go off about that later on)

1. s3ep10cl2- okay okay so the morning after clip is perfect in every single way and i could go off about it for years but beyond all of the davenzi stuff there is the moment when matteo leaves davids room and hes wearing the gray sweater, when laura is dancing??? which is also iconic all on its own but im talking specifically about matteo here, so you know he sits down on that stool thing and hes smiling SO big and hes blushin really hard and then laura sees him and they LAUGH??? and then he claps for her???? if i had to pick id absolutely say that that whole sequence is my fave matteo moment and also kind of interesting and makes me think about the fact that matteo is definitely very shy and quiet but he also has that like,, brat confidence?? i could make an entire post about that but ANYWAY yeah that is the fucking best matteo moment hes so cute and nervous but also totally fine being obvious about the fact that him and david fucked which i think is hilarious but i digress and i MUST move on

2. s3ep8cl2- i do have to say that while im not a HUGE fan of the explanation the video he watched gave of like,, what being trans is, im really glad they included this clip?? like its so obvious that matteo wants to talk to david but doesnt really know what to say, and i love that his first instinct was to start looking stuff up?? like if i was into a cis guy and he told me that he didnt really know about trans stuff but he did RESEARCH?? like thats just really sweet and shows that he really fucking loves david already and just wants to be more informed about what hes,, not to say signing up for but i cant think of a better phrase but yall know what i mean ya know??? its just very very sweet of him!!!!!

3. s3ep8cl4- i think people know about my deep love for hans so of course this clip is going to be one of my favorites?? im going to narrow it down a bit though because the part of this clip that hit me the fucking hardest was when hans asks “what do you like about him?” because the way matteo reacts is just?? so sweet?? at first he looks a little unsure but then when hans repeats himself matteo licks his lips and goes “well, i love his smile” like????? is that not the cutest fucking shit?? he literally swoons and collapses back into the chair cause hes probably imagining it and then he goes off about it being “beautiful” with david and im sure hans is trying not to cry?? and hans ending it with “thats the only thing that really matters, everything else is secondary” and matteo going “thats true” and then laughing a little bit?? i feel like that whole thing was a bit of a turning point for matteo and wow i am,,, so emotional about it

oh my god im so sorry im going off but im about to go off more cause,,, im gonna talk about davenzi moments now

1. s3ep10cl1- okay im just gonna start strong even though i feel like everyone talks about this clip i REALLY wanna talk about it because??? the fact that they showed a fucking sex scene between a trans boy and a gay cis boy is still so fucking iconic and legendary?? while this whole season really changed my life, this scene in particular is so.......it just feels so good to see. like its so nice watching that and seeing someone who looks like me ya know?? not that i look like david god i wish i was that lucky but like,, someone wearing a binder?? someone whos body looks more like mine than any other trans rep ive seen?? and seeing that body being portrayed as DESIRABLE??? i think thats one of the things that gets me the most is just how like,, just how much matteo is into david lol it just feels good feels organic but im gonna stop myself here before i talk for 1000 years about a less than 4min long clip lmao

2. s3ep10cl4- okay so this clip really just highlights the cute beginning flirting stages of their relationship?? like matteo doesnt want to host the party but then he sees david and smiles and then hes smiling like a fool when he hands david the beanie back and theyre both just so awkward but obviously crushing?? and he wants to keep talking so of course hes gonna bring up the time they hung out, and he looks a lil shocked after david says “it was cool with you” and then he like,, stutters through inviting him to the party cause hes probably so nervous!!! theyre both just such big losers with such BIG crushes on each other its really just the cutest fucking clip and also kinda shows that david isnt necessarily just this,, cool dude?? hes also a stuttery blushy dork with a crush?? wow wow its just such a good underrated clip WOW

3. s3ep9cl7- okay okay okay okay okay im sure there are like lenghty analyses about this clip already but i dont care because holy FUCK??? something i didnt really notice about it before was once matteo finally goes up to david hes like “are you fucking serious” but then he sees that david is fuckin spiraling so his voice gets softer and he asks him like “hey whats wrong” and its just a really good set up to the conversation?? and its nice to see that despite matteo probably being kinda angry hes mostly just worried about david?? and then matteo just lets david go OFF at him and only talks when hes trying to tell him that it isnt going to be the same as it was last time but then once he sees that david is getting angrier and louder hes like okay how am i going to get him to listen so of course matteo, the quietest boy in the world, yells back!!!! and yeah thats the thing that finally stops david from working himself up!! and matteo realizes that hes gonna need to be a lil loud and pushy to make david listen to him and then he goes back to being soft once david is paying attention to him!!! and then he talks and he says so much, like much more than he usually does at one time, and god GOD the way they did that was jsut so GOOD!!!!! and the fact that matteo, who appears to be either depressed or apathetic like 90% of the season, is the one that says i love you first??? and during such an emotional and important moment like?? like after going off about how david isnt alone and that hes really great and jsut needs to stop hiding himself away LIKE???? guys its jsut so so good its just so good i could talk for years but im gonna cut myself off here

honorable mentions cause i cant shut the fuck UP:

1. when theyre looking at davids sketchbook and david is like “these are private actually all of them are private” and matteo is like “well you already showed them to me it doesnt matter” and then he giggles like damn no question why david had such a huge crush on him immediately hes such a cutie

2. “its not a girl”

3. ill just say the whole cuddle clip?? the tender/feral dichotomy?? absolutely *chefs kiss* just fucking perfect

4. THE FIRST KISS??? also gotta say i noticed something for the first time the other night but matteo SMILES and i hadnt seen it before its right after david says “i bet i can hold my breath longer than you” and then the angle changes and he smiles before holding his breath and it killed me when i saw it whoops

5. final shout out along the same lines as ^^ that one but just?? anytime matteo smiles?? fills me with serotonin. the smile in the final clip right before david runs over to kiss him?? the smiles when hes fuckin around with the boys?? every single lil nervous crushy smile with david??? i could go on but im going to stop this now before i say any more this is already too long

[kilnkin]

@pear-otter proposing an Experiment

pear-otter Hello Aud. I know we aren’t on the best of terms, but I want to propose an experiment. I don’t remember if I told you this when you were in my body, but I can possess people. I want to see if I can do it with more ease now that I’ve actually already been you. Obviously it would be a quick in and out, no tomfoolery whatsoever. We can even ask someone to oversee, like Damian. Anyway, let me know. I’m just curious so feel free to say no, haha

kilnkin you didnt tell me but ive heard it around aka that time you told everyone lol why exactly should i agree to this

pear-otter Scientific curiosity?

kilnkin weak have you pulled it off before or is it all theoretical

pear-otter I’ve possessed a bunch of humans before, but trying it on other non-humans is kind of risky. I feel like it should be easy because I’ve been in your body before and I want to confirm my theory.

pear-otter Plus you could see what it’s like to be possessed without anything bad happening or having to do stuff you don’t want to.

pear-otter I might not even be able to do it.

kilnkin you probably will

pear-otter Probably.

kilnkin idk why do you even wanna know if you can if its just in and out that doesnt sound fun

pear-otter I don’t want to make you uncomfortable Aud. I’m just curious if the body swap had that effect. Since now I can pull off a pretty convincing Aud, I was wondering if there were other ways the body swap affected things.

kilnkin lmao it did plenty. im like scarred for life over here youve earned a recurring role in my nightmares im not uncomfortable though >:(

pear-otter Oh, same.

kilnkin same what. i didnt think you were uncomfortable

pear-otter No, the dreams

kilnkin LOL thats so sweet that youre thinking of me (:

pear-otter You literally just admitted the same thing.

kilnkin no i said nightmares and maybe i was joking

pear-otter Maybe I was joking too Stop changing the subject.

kilnkin were you joking?

pear-otter No. You’re always...there, in the background. My dreams are never about You, but you’re always sort of a background character.

pear-otter It’s weird because I always remember that you were there, even though I don’t remember my dreams very well usually. And it certainly wasn’t happening before!!

kilnkin ooh maybe a little part of me got stuck in your psyche after grand theft audo wont blame you! im very easy to get attached to (:

pear-otter Oh that doesn’t sound good Sometimes I don’t understand the dreams I’m in either, they’re not things I’m familiar with. Anyway. About my proposal.

kilnkin well thats just a dream thing. the nothuman mind is a kooky place you know oh! do you want to get in my head as like a revenge thing for me getting in yours? :p

pear-otter My dreams were fairly straightforward before.

kilnkin eye for an eye blah blah. how archaic

pear-otter No! I won’t be able to see your thoughts or anything Aud. Is that what you’re worried about?

kilnkin no maybe are you sure

pear-otter Yes. Trust me, I don’t want to see your thoughts. Nothing personal, that goes for pretty much everyone. Invading someone’s privacy to that degree is something you can’t take back.

kilnkin yeah so. just in and out right

pear-otter Yes. If you like, we can have a third party there to witness.

pear-otter I suggested Damian because I feel like most people would be weirded out. But as long as you’re okay with it.

kilnkin no reason i shouldnt be right

pear-otter Aud, you can say no. I don’t want to do this if you’re just trying to prove a point and are actually not okay with this.

kilnkin should i say no? is it a big deal or not make up your mind lol

pear-otter Look. I’m just curious. There should be no down side for you, but people here seem to think possession is a Big Deal. I can understand if you don’t trust me enough to give up bodily autonomy, even for a half minute. I promise nothing bad will happen to you. But it’s a big enough thing that I don’t want to force this one you.

kilnkin ugh

kilnkin yeah ok

pear-otter I won’t think you’re scared if you say no, just that you don’t trust me, which is reasonable given our past.

kilnkin i wanna know if it works

pear-otter Okay.

kilnkin i wouldnt be scared. and i dont especially trust you. but i also doubt your ability to actually pull off anything nasty havent proven yourself that creative lol when do you wanna go

pear-otter I also won’t take this permission as permission to ever do it again, just so you know. The thing is, possessing you isn’t super exciting for me because I can already become you now, through shifting. Whenever.

kilnkin have you? been me again much?

kilnkin you seemed pretty happy to not lol have you asked damian or should i

pear-otter No I haven’t asked Damian. He’ll probably want to check if you’re okay with it anyway, so you should message him.

pear-otter I was stuck in the library, so I haven’t had many Aud Opportunities. It is cool to have a form so perfected. I could probably fool anyone you know.

kilnkin unlikely again. you lack the creativity

pear-otter I mean acting wise, probably not. But just standing there? Absolutely.

kilnkin no way i have a very specific way of just standing there

kilnkin not just anyone can pull it off

pear-otter Fine then, a photograph.

kilnkin bzz

pear-otter I’ll just have to pay more attention to the way you convey yourself, since I haven’t had reason to look before.

kilnkin dont let anyone get a photo

pear-otter I could totally pull off a picture Aud

kilnkin consumed with thoughts of me in your waking hours too! m flattered nuh uh

pear-otter Your reading comprehension skills are terrible.

kilnkin soon to be, then

pear-otter Aud if you’re trying to goad me into taking pictures of myself as you, you’ll just have to wait, I’m in bed

kilnkin not really but yeah thanks for the info we done?

pear-otter Let me know what Damian says.

kilnkin sure anything at all for scientific curiosity!

pear-otter Okay! If you still want to back out, you can always blame Damian. Anyway, good night.

kilnkin good tip. night.