#that's cool too bad that doesn't apply to me specifically and i'm the worst person on planet earth

[lakemichigans]

just had the most disgusting and disturbing dream. surely this won't make me ruminate about my morality for the next few months

[yesimwriting]

How do you think Felix would react to bestfriend!reader coming out as bi/pan or nonbinary/genderfluid?

Do you think he would view women as much of a threat as men or…? And what do you think he would say if reader went: “OMG FELIX that girl is so hot” or something like that.

Sorry this was kinda long— 😭

i wanted to answer this fully bc it's a good question, and that got a little long so it's below the cut!!

also i analyze felix's sexuality a little just to give some background on my perspective,, but i try not to put my own speculations on felix's sexuality in fics (unless asked to) bc i want the person reading to be able to decide how they see felix

oh!! also! side note! i've mainly written bestfriend! reader with female pronouns,, and some plot stuff in the main fic i'm writing does rely on reader being female, but if anyone ever wants a specific blurb to have reader be gender neutral,, just specify in the ask and i'll make sure to write it that way :)

okay,, i think felix is extremely bi/pan leaning

and by that i mean i don't think he'd label his sexuality,, and not even in a 'too cool' way, he just wouldn't put that much thought into it,, like he probably sees himself eventually settling down/marrying a girl bc that's kind of the default (a tiny bit of comphet lol),, but i think he likes who he likes, he's attracted to who he's attracted to and doesn't pay much mind to their gender

i feel like this applies to most of felix's family/inner circle as well lol,, like attraction is attraction, why get caught up on the details if that makes sense

also no one can convince me felix didn't feel anything for ollie,, they are that romantic coded best friendship that ends dramatically and traumatically for all involved <3 but in bestfriend!felix verse reader will always be his #1, trust

but if we are reading felix as straight,, i still think he'd be super supportive (bi wife energy)

so considering that (and the fact that felix loves reader too much to ever make them feel bad about anything,, especially something like that) he'd be extremely supportive of reader's sexual orientation and/or gender identity,, and if anyone even implies something rude oh!! he's fighting!

depending on how bad it is, felix might just exclude that person socially, and bc of felix's influence, that means everyone starts to shun that person,, if someone was really homophobic towards reader,, felix would cuss them out fr,, might even instinctually get physical depending on how bad it is

as far as reader being like "felix! that girl is so hot" his initial reaction would be to agree/hype you up bc it's instinct to support reader,, but then it'd hit him and he'd be like oh. wait.. :(

true equality and acceptance of reader's sexuality/gender identity is wanting everyone of all genders to realize how wonderful reader is,, but from a distance <3 like yes i have the cutest, most perfect, lovely,, intelligent best friend, i'm glad you noticed,, unfortunately that's all you get to do

i do think that if it was just you two talking while out partying or hanging out and it didn't go further than some comments, felix would be supportive, but he'd be a little extra touchy to prove to himself that reader will let him

i think he'd be more bothered if reader called a guy hot, not bc he's more intimidated, but bc at least when reader finds a girl attractive it's much less of a direct comparison (bc female presenting and masculine presenting are generally hot in different ways) if that makes sense

if it goes any further than that,, felix is equally pouty no matter the person's gender

also we know felix's friends have a habit of hooking up with venetia,, so i could see this making felix more wary of venetia and reader getting along a little too well over the summer lol,, like he wouldn't assume the worst if they started liking each other a little, but he'd be wary

honestly, though,, at the end of the day, as long as it's clear that felix is reader's absolute favorite person of any gender, he'd be chill and even when he's jealous he's supportive

[porcelaintoybox23]

Quick vent into the void

There's a particular kind of fuckery involved in having a licensed therapist as a mother who specializes in your age group that consistently downplays and dismisses your problems. Found out that I have adhd this year just for her to consistently wave it away with "I do that too." So my therapist mom probably has undiagnosed adhd, cool, doesn't mean that I can't start recognizing behaviors that caused me issues my whole life. Not like this behavior is without precedent. I have depression for the first time in my life, and whenever I make the mistake to mention that my depression + meds make me incredibly tired or sad or unmotivated, she just tells me to stop blaming everything on my depression. I used to hate taking naps and slept consistently for 20 years but suddenly I'm taking 3-4 naps a day. Totally not depression. When I mentioned that I was hoping to get tested for adhd, she looked so uncomfortable and persistently warned me against medication. She's a fucking therapist who recommends medication. I hear stories about how she helps her clients but she can never apply the same logic to me. I just make "excuses." We've been at each other's throats since last year and the one place besides my mind that I felt safe in, is now my own personal hell. All she does is nag and nag and nag. I can literally predict the complaint she will lodge at a particular question. Every time she speaks to me she just complains. She constantly cries about what a "horrible child" I am and "what did she do to deserve me" as if I'm not a straight a student who will graduate with a double major and minor. Who got a 31 on her act the first try. Who has never partied or drank or even gone a date. Not that these things would make someone a bad child, but for fucks sake, I'm an immigrant parent's dream. She has destroyed my self confidence and I just have her voice on repeat berating me.

And here's the thing, this year sucked. 2021 is the worst year of our lives. She's stressed but she's been horrible to me this year. Turning every discussion we have into an argument which she blames me for. I try to use the skills I learned in therapy and to apologize just to have her complain about me to me for 30mins and have my response immediately cut off. My father was always an avoidant person who just sided with my mom no matter the situation but he's stuck at home, now disabled, and just katows to my mom at every situation begging me and harassing me no matter what the situation is. Everything is my fault. 2020 I told her to quarantine because of a possible covid infection and she complains and insults me and calls me ungrateful and insults me to her siblings. When I got covid, I sat in my room and only complained when my father didn't answer my calls when I needed food and didn't want to leave my room because the thought of losing my parents is my worst fear.

I tell her about what I learned in therapy and she accuses me of lying. There have been so many things and that's not even getting into the shit with my father. I'm 80% sure he doesn't even like me, loves me yeah, but not like. I have no one else besides my therapist.

What's the worst is that I know my parents love and that they would die for me. They support me and care about me, but they are killing me emotionally. They aren't bad people or even bad parents, but my life is fucking hell. They are the people who know me best and the only ones who even slightly understand me, but even that divide is growing. I have no one else no one that truly knows and understands me. I'm not out and I know most of my family will disown me when I do. My parents... 80% they will still love and support me or at least not disown me, though my mom's bouts of biphobia and dislike of wlw specifically does not bode well. My best friend is a mormon so who knows where that's going to go...

I have no hope for 2022.

Happy fucking new year