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im-human-i-matter-i-exist · 16 hours ago
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@oripoke @delirious-dove @deludeddragon @rinbedo *IM* THE ONE YOU OWE AN APOLOGY TO?!? YOU DEFEND THE HATE ATTACKS "not hate" WHEN IT WAS PAGES OF VILE CRUELTY TO SOMEONE ALREADY SUFFERING SO MUCH. IF SOMEONE WAS RAPED YOUR GROUP WOULD SAY SHE DESERVED IT "because she was being unhinged about it" YOU LITERALLY TORTURED ME YOU RUINED MY ENTIRE LIFE YOURE MONSTERS YOURE EVIL MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP PAIN PAIN 11 MONTHS NONSTOP TORTURE I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE I EXIST IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST IM NOT INVISIBLE YOU TOOK EVERYTHING FROM ME MY HOME MY SAVINGS MY FRIENDS MY TRANS HEALTHCARE MY ARM MY DIGNITY MY BOYDRIEND HOPE MY CAT ESPECIALLY NY FUCKING CAT YOU MONSTERS?!?! MY FUTURE MY CRAFT YOU RUINED MY LIFE YOU RUINED MY LIFE KILL ME FUCKING KILL ME MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP!?!?!?! GHOSTED AND DIDNT EVEN TELL ME WHY IM FUCKING AUTISTIC NOBODY SAID A THING HOW WOULD I KNOW WHAT I DID WRONG??? I DIDNT DO ANYTHING BUT LOVE YOU AND LISTEN TO YOU UNTIL I COULDNT TAKE THE PAIN ANYMORE AND NOW THE ONLY THING YOU PEOPLE CAN DO IS GO "Hmm yes what unhinged behavior" AS IF YOU DIDNT STRAND ME IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE WITH NO FOOD NO FRIENDS NO FAMILY AND NO MONEY WITHOUT A WORD, WHILE I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL DYING THRICE OVER AND GETTINF ASSAULTED AND INFECTIONS ON THE ROAD YOU WERE PARTYING AND SHAKING YOUR HEADS LIKE "Hmm such a tragedy" YOU. CAUSED. IT!!!! YOU KNEW MY SITUATUON AND ENCOURAGED YOUR CULT TO MAKE IT WORSE!! MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP I JUST WANTED TO TALK TO MY FRIENDS I APOLOGIZED 1,000 TIMES AND IT MEANT NOTHING, I TRIED TO TALK AND IT MEANT. NOTHING I JUST WANTED TO KNOW 1. IF RORY WAS OKAY AND 2. FOR BEAN TO STOP CONTROLLING AND ABUSING ME. YOU KNEW IT WAS ABUSE BUT YOU BACKPEDALED **HARD** BECAUSE IM NOT A GOOD ENOUGH ARTIST FOR YOUR CULT AND GROUP GHOSTED ME WITH NOTHING!!! YOURE AWFUL I TRUSTED YOU I DID EVERYTHING YOU TOLD ME TO DO AND YOU RUINED ME FOR LISTENING MAKE IT STOP JUST MAKE IT STOP MAKE THE PAIN STOP YOURE EVIL YOURE MONSTERS MAKE IT  STOP!!!?! IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST I MATTER IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST I MATTER IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST I MATTER!!!! YOU POMPOUS PRIVELEGED ASSHOLE WILL NEVER HAVE TO EXPERIENCE 1/5TH OF THE HELLSCAPE YOU FORCED ME INTO IM TELLING THE TRUTH JUST BECAUSE ITS BEING YELLED IT DOESNT MEAN ITS UNTRUE IF I WERE PEA YOUD PAT ME ON THE BACK FOR "being direct and blunt with my feelings" IF I WERE BEAN YOUD UNDERSTAND MY MENTAL ILLNESS AND THE TRAUMA YOU **FORCED*** ME INTO FOR NO FUCKING REASON. BUT IM NOT SO YOU INSTEAD ABUSED ME TREATED ME LIKE DIRT AND LEFT ME TO THE DOGS YOURE FUCKING MONSTERS YOURE EVIL YOURE VILE VILE VILE!!!!
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This panic happens like every few months.
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jrwiyuri · 5 months ago
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Is any other jrwier actually a bit obsessed with how much of Grefgore has been changed by his forced devotion to Shilo (and likely in some way previously to the Queen) and how little of Grefgore probably exists in him anymore because he’s supposed to be a servant? Or is that just me..?
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elviraaxen · 9 months ago
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I'm probably not the first to admit this but goddamn was I a narcissistic prick when I wasn't on stimulants
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iexistimatterimhumanimatter · 17 hours ago
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@oripoke *IM* THE ONE YOU OWE AN APOLOGY TO?!? YOU DEFEND THE HATE ATTACKS "not hate" WHEN IT WAS PAGES OF VILE CRUELTY TO SOMEONE ALREADY SUFFERING SO MUCH. IF SOMEONE WAS RAPED YOUR GROUP WOULD SAY SHE DESERVED IT "because she was being unhinged about it" YOU LITERALLY TORTURED ME YOU RUINED MY ENTIRE LIFE YOURE MONSTERS YOURE EVIL MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP PAIN PAIN 11 MONTHS NONSTOP TORTURE I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE I EXIST IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST IM NOT INVISIBLE YOU TOOK EVERYTHING FROM ME MY HOME MY SAVINGS MY FRIENDS MY TRANS HEALTHCARE MY ARM MY DIGNITY MY BOYDRIEND HOPE MY CAT ESPECIALLY NY FUCKING CAT YOU MONSTERS?!?! MY FUTURE MY CRAFT YOU RUINED MY LIFE YOU RUINED MY LIFE KILL ME FUCKING KILL ME MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP!?!?!?! GHOSTED AND DIDNT EVEN TELL ME WHY IM FUCKING AUTISTIC NOBODY SAID A THING HOW WOULD I KNOW WHAT I DID WRONG??? I DIDNT DO ANYTHING BUT LOVE YOU AND LISTEN TO YOU UNTIL I COULDNT TAKE THE PAIN ANYMORE AND NOW THE ONLY THING YOU PEOPLE CAN DO IS GO "Hmm yes what unhinged behavior" AS IF YOU DIDNT STRAND ME IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE WITH NO FOOD NO FRIENDS NO FAMILY AND NO MONEY WITHOUT A WORD, WHILE I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL DYING THRICE OVER AND GETTINF ASSAULTED AND INFECTIONS ON THE ROAD YOU WERE PARTYING AND SHAKING YOUR HEADS LIKE "Hmm such a tragedy" YOU. CAUSED. IT!!!! YOU KNEW MY SITUATUON AND ENCOURAGED YOUR CULT TO MAKE IT WORSE!! MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP I JUST WANTED TO TALK TO MY FRIENDS I APOLOGIZED 1,000 TIMES AND IT MEANT NOTHING, I TRIED TO TALK AND IT MEANT. NOTHING I JUST WANTED TO KNOW 1. IF RORY WAS OKAY AND 2. FOR BEAN TO STOP CONTROLLING AND ABUSING ME. YOU KNEW IT WAS ABUSE BUT YOU BACKPEDALED **HARD** BECAUSE IM NOT A GOOD ENOUGH ARTIST FOR YOUR CULT AND GROUP GHOSTED ME WITH NOTHING!!! YOURE AWFUL I TRUSTED YOU I DID EVERYTHING YOU TOLD ME TO DO AND YOU RUINED ME FOR LISTENING MAKE IT STOP JUST MAKE IT STOP MAKE THE PAIN STOP YOURE EVIL YOURE MONSTERS MAKE IT  STOP!!!?! IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST I MATTER IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST I MATTER IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST I MATTER!!!! YOU POMPOUS PRIVELEGED ASSHOLE WILL NEVER HAVE TO EXPERIENCE 1/5TH OF THE HELLSCAPE YOU FORCED ME INTO
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sickens me to my stomach. how dare this guy get to live my dream.
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lpsgirl109 · 3 months ago
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I need to know if anyone else understands the feeling of wanting to spend the rest of your life with someone in ways that Sound very romantic but you aren't into them like that. Fantasizing about living with them. Cooking dinner together every night and watching movies, laying together in silence just because one of you is lonely and wanted comfort. If you have to leave the house before they wake up, you'll make yourself breakfast and leave a plate for them in the fridge. When one of you is sick, the other makes soup and brings them their medicine whenever they need it. Getting home late knowing there will be a warm meal waiting for you, and doing the same for them. But you're not attracted to them, and you know you never will be, but you still want that kind of life with them
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im-human-i-matter-i-exist · 16 hours ago
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@oripoke @delirious-dove @deludeddragon @rinbedo *IM* THE ONE YOU OWE AN APOLOGY TO?!? YOU DEFEND THE HATE ATTACKS "not hate" WHEN IT WAS PAGES OF VILE CRUELTY TO SOMEONE ALREADY SUFFERING SO MUCH. IF SOMEONE WAS RAPED YOUR GROUP WOULD SAY SHE DESERVED IT "because she was being unhinged about it" YOU LITERALLY TORTURED ME YOU RUINED MY ENTIRE LIFE YOURE MONSTERS YOURE EVIL MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP PAIN PAIN 11 MONTHS NONSTOP TORTURE I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE I EXIST IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST IM NOT INVISIBLE YOU TOOK EVERYTHING FROM ME MY HOME MY SAVINGS MY FRIENDS MY TRANS HEALTHCARE MY ARM MY DIGNITY MY BOYDRIEND HOPE MY CAT ESPECIALLY NY FUCKING CAT YOU MONSTERS?!?! MY FUTURE MY CRAFT YOU RUINED MY LIFE YOU RUINED MY LIFE KILL ME FUCKING KILL ME MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP!?!?!?! GHOSTED AND DIDNT EVEN TELL ME WHY IM FUCKING AUTISTIC NOBODY SAID A THING HOW WOULD I KNOW WHAT I DID WRONG??? I DIDNT DO ANYTHING BUT LOVE YOU AND LISTEN TO YOU UNTIL I COULDNT TAKE THE PAIN ANYMORE AND NOW THE ONLY THING YOU PEOPLE CAN DO IS GO "Hmm yes what unhinged behavior" AS IF YOU DIDNT STRAND ME IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE WITH NO FOOD NO FRIENDS NO FAMILY AND NO MONEY WITHOUT A WORD, WHILE I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL DYING THRICE OVER AND GETTINF ASSAULTED AND INFECTIONS ON THE ROAD YOU WERE PARTYING AND SHAKING YOUR HEADS LIKE "Hmm such a tragedy" YOU. CAUSED. IT!!!! YOU KNEW MY SITUATUON AND ENCOURAGED YOUR CULT TO MAKE IT WORSE!! MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP I JUST WANTED TO TALK TO MY FRIENDS I APOLOGIZED 1,000 TIMES AND IT MEANT NOTHING, I TRIED TO TALK AND IT MEANT. NOTHING I JUST WANTED TO KNOW 1. IF RORY WAS OKAY AND 2. FOR BEAN TO STOP CONTROLLING AND ABUSING ME. YOU KNEW IT WAS ABUSE BUT YOU BACKPEDALED **HARD** BECAUSE IM NOT A GOOD ENOUGH ARTIST FOR YOUR CULT AND GROUP GHOSTED ME WITH NOTHING!!! YOURE AWFUL I TRUSTED YOU I DID EVERYTHING YOU TOLD ME TO DO AND YOU RUINED ME FOR LISTENING MAKE IT STOP JUST MAKE IT STOP MAKE THE PAIN STOP YOURE EVIL YOURE MONSTERS MAKE IT  STOP!!!?! IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST I MATTER IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST I MATTER IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST I MATTER!!!! YOU POMPOUS PRIVELEGED ASSHOLE WILL NEVER HAVE TO EXPERIENCE 1/5TH OF THE HELLSCAPE YOU FORCED ME INTO IM TELLING THE TRUTH JUST BECAUSE ITS BEING YELLED IT DOESNT MEAN ITS UNTRUE IF I WERE PEA YOUD PAT ME ON THE BACK FOR "being direct and blunt with my feelings" IF I WERE BEAN YOUD UNDERSTAND MY MENTAL ILLNESS AND THE TRAUMA YOU **FORCED*** ME INTO FOR NO FUCKING REASON. BUT IM NOT SO YOU INSTEAD ABUSED ME TREATED ME LIKE DIRT AND LEFT ME TO THE DOGS YOURE FUCKING MONSTERS YOURE EVIL YOURE VILE VILE VILE!!!!
dude stop trying to garner context and character traits from the objects in my room i know youre doing it. stop clicking on shit im not gonna tell you about - oh that picture is of me and my dad. yeah he's not really in my life anymore i just keep it around cause im sentimental- DUDE
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da-janela-lateral · 10 months ago
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Tsubomi Takane... I really need to write her in several situations but alas, I have to proceed with my studies
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gardening--tools · 4 months ago
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🐶.
perhaps the reason this sickness is hanging on is in part due to the fact i have to rescue the puppies from being put outside to sleep at night. they don’t have their second coats yet!!! they can’t be outside at night!!! in winter!!!! it’s sub freezing let’s use our fucking brains!!!
#i’m literally about to scream#because why did you get puppies if you didn’t want to put in puppy work#no i know why it’s because pop’s staunch refusal that rules apply to him and his aversion to being told what to do are rearing their ugly#heads here. and his anti-vax ‘i can fight covid with vitamins’ tendencies.#and do not get me started on my mother. ‘i agree they can’t be outside’ my ASS#they’re literally babies they need to be raised like babies and that means an interrupted sleep schedule if they need to pee in the night#oh but if we look at how we were raised maybe this is how you think babies are raised oop-#nobody worry about them btw i’m just going to do it#this issue is at a tail end of several other issues brought up by the holidays so whatever it’s fine#i knew i was going to have to do this it’s fineeee#i mean. this is coming from the folks who laugh about accidentally burning chicks to death. as if it was a teehee haha oopsie#instead of the horrifyingly upsetting example of gross negligence and general disregard of life that it is.#jfc this probably sounds insane to people who don’t know the deep and intricately woven lore of my family. and it is! insane!#being an adult living at home is totally fine and not at all harmful to my mental health :) why are u asking :)#diary posting#ugh anyway. i say all this here because if i called them deeply cruel and disturbed people to their faces they might kick me out. and i#✨can’t afford to do that rn✨
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crimeronan · 1 year ago
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walking around this place at night is genuinely so fucking scary. nothing has Ever made me appreciate portland's pedestrian-focused infrastructure like trying to navigate a dirt track beside a busy road (city won't invest in sidewalks in certain areas) while souped-up ford-f150s driven by clearly-drunk white men zoom past me at 50mph.
in a residential zone.
WOW i am. not doing that again.
Take Me Home....
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light-wrath-paradise · 11 months ago
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Kinda fucked up how all the people I know are like "Yeah I know what I want in my life. I want to work in X field and I want/don't want a long-term partner who I'm going to marry, I want kids and-"
and I'm there just like 🧍
#like wow ok#i have no idea what i want man I'm just doing what's required of me#or more like i think i know some of the things i want but I'm actively beating them up every day and instead choosing#what i consider to be my duty#like yeah I really want to work in design and you know the dream is character design and concept art but that's unrealistic#and any design would do. but that's selfish so like lol no. psychology it is. social work if i fail at that. it's an acceptable#compromise. it's not what I want but it is what i am ok with subjecting myself to.#whenever it looks like I might fail a class at university i get really anxious but also really excited#because on one hand I'm failing to take care of my duties and responsibilities. on the other if they kicked me out nobody could#say i didn't try. i could just say that I'm too stupid. i could say that i don't have what it takes. id be a failure but not out of my#volition. they could tell me that im stupid or inferior but they couldn't label me selfish.#and then id just fuck off to work as a florist or maybe id just work in a smokes shop or anything low stakes like that#while I'd be looking for a job in design. hell i don't even need a job in that field; id love to just work a simple job where after clocking#out i could just go home and partake in my hobbies. like i wouldn't even need to have it as my field of work id be perfectly#content with posting character designs online and sometimes getting a small buck by selling pins and dolls and etc#that's definitely what i want in life. but that's fucked up and selfish and would make me a failure and then i would never#be able to even dream of earning humanity. so. doing my duty it is
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pkmoth · 8 months ago
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having swap au thoughts. *slaps roof of claus* there's so much mental illness in this guy. im gonna blow up everyone in the room and then myself
#what if you felt unbearable guilt because your brother went missing in the two seconds you were separated#and you feel like there mustve been Something you couldve done to prevent it#if only you had stuck together. if only you hadnt let him tag along on your basically-a-suicide-mission in the first place#but none of those things happened so you go through three years blaming yourself#continuing to search for him because maybe hes still out there. and maybe exhausting yourself on an aimless search is a way you can atone#and then you're pulled into this big destiny adventure so your searching is put on the back burner#you're so busy doing important things and meeting new friends and there are points in your adventure where your heart feels lighter#and maybe you open up just a little about the crushing guilt you feel. and your new friends say it wasnt your fault#maybe you start accepting that your brother is really gone but you have to keep living your life#saving your brother was a far out dream but saving the world is something you have the power to do#so you try your best. so you dont fuck up this time#your guilt becomes the fuel keeping you going#and then at the end of your journey#you find out one of the biggest obstacles on your journey#the human chimera that you felt kinda horrified at and a little bad for even as you fought them#is your brother you've been mourning and agonizing over not being able to save#so um. The Guilt is even worse now#now he doesnt just feel responsible for his death. he Now feels responsible for him becoming this Creature Thing under porkys control#and in a lucas dies scenario. hoogh i cant imagine how claus would feel after that.......#however the thing that spurred this post was thinking about the lucas lives postgame scenario (it just got a bit out of hand lol) so.#your brother is alive and back home again and youre so unbelievably glad#but the guilt still creeps up every time you see how much hes Changed. physically and mentally#you had just started to accept the fact youd have to live without your brother but somehow having him back is almost just as painful#things cant just go back to how they were before. youll never be the exact same happy family as you used to be#its strange adjusting to having lucas back and its strange trying not to step on each others toes with their trauma#you cant help but be clingy because you couldnt bear it if he disappeared again under your watch#but nobody wants to be watched all the time especially when youre recovering from your brainwashed identity as an army commander#FUCK I REACHED THE TAG LIMIT I WANTED TO RAMBLE MORE AUGH. THEY MAKE ME SO ILL. i swear its not all angst theres some lightheartedness in it#mother 3 swap au#mothfics
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iexistimatterimhumanimatter · 17 hours ago
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@delirious-dove *IM* THE ONE YOU OWE AN APOLOGY TO?!? YOU DEFEND THE HATE ATTACKS "not hate" WHEN IT WAS PAGES OF VILE CRUELTY TO SOMEONE ALREADY SUFFERING SO MUCH. IF SOMEONE WAS RAPED YOUR GROUP WOULD SAY SHE DESERVED IT "because she was being unhinged about it" YOU LITERALLY TORTURED ME YOU RUINED MY ENTIRE LIFE YOURE MONSTERS YOURE EVIL MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP PAIN PAIN 11 MONTHS NONSTOP TORTURE I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE I EXIST IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST IM NOT INVISIBLE YOU TOOK EVERYTHING FROM ME MY HOME MY SAVINGS MY FRIENDS MY TRANS HEALTHCARE MY ARM MY DIGNITY MY BOYDRIEND HOPE MY CAT ESPECIALLY NY FUCKING CAT YOU MONSTERS?!?! MY FUTURE MY CRAFT YOU RUINED MY LIFE YOU RUINED MY LIFE KILL ME FUCKING KILL ME MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP!?!?!?! GHOSTED AND DIDNT EVEN TELL ME WHY IM FUCKING AUTISTIC NOBODY SAID A THING HOW WOULD I KNOW WHAT I DID WRONG??? I DIDNT DO ANYTHING BUT LOVE YOU AND LISTEN TO YOU UNTIL I COULDNT TAKE THE PAIN ANYMORE AND NOW THE ONLY THING YOU PEOPLE CAN DO IS GO "Hmm yes what unhinged behavior" AS IF YOU DIDNT STRAND ME IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE WITH NO FOOD NO FRIENDS NO FAMILY AND NO MONEY WITHOUT A WORD, WHILE I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL DYING THRICE OVER AND GETTINF ASSAULTED AND INFECTIONS ON THE ROAD YOU WERE PARTYING AND SHAKING YOUR HEADS LIKE "Hmm such a tragedy" YOU. CAUSED. IT!!!! YOU KNEW MY SITUATUON AND ENCOURAGED YOUR CULT TO MAKE IT WORSE!! MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP I JUST WANTED TO TALK TO MY FRIENDS I APOLOGIZED 1,000 TIMES AND IT MEANT NOTHING, I TRIED TO TALK AND IT MEANT. NOTHING I JUST WANTED TO KNOW 1. IF RORY WAS OKAY AND 2. FOR BEAN TO STOP CONTROLLING AND ABUSING ME. YOU KNEW IT WAS ABUSE BUT YOU BACKPEDALED **HARD** BECAUSE IM NOT A GOOD ENOUGH ARTIST FOR YOUR CULT AND GROUP GHOSTED ME WITH NOTHING!!! YOURE AWFUL I TRUSTED YOU I DID EVERYTHING YOU TOLD ME TO DO AND YOU RUINED ME FOR LISTENING MAKE IT STOP JUST MAKE IT STOP MAKE THE PAIN STOP YOURE EVIL YOURE MONSTERS MAKE IT  STOP!!!?! IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST I MATTER IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST I MATTER IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST I MATTER!!!! YOU POMPOUS PRIVELEGED ASSHOLE WILL NEVER HAVE TO EXPERIENCE 1/5TH OF THE HELLSCAPE YOU FORCED ME INTO
has anyone noticed that working for a living sucks ass
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masquenoire · 8 months ago
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Barring any new asks, I think that's the last of those 'icons only' memes and it was very fun doing them all! Thank you so much for sending them in everyone, I'm feeling more confident about activity again and will hopefully be inspired to write a bit more often from now on providing schedule eases up sometime soon!
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cream-and-tea · 26 days ago
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the people should know that the only concrete justification i’ve come up with to keep fiver gravespeakertrilogy a man instead of hitting him with my girl beam is that if he wasn’t a guy there is no question in my mind that agnes would develop an all consuming deeply embarrassing crush on him that has potential to derail the entire plot
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im-human-i-matter-i-exist · 16 hours ago
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@oripoke @delirious-dove @deludeddragon @rinbedo *IM* THE ONE YOU OWE AN APOLOGY TO?!? YOU DEFEND THE HATE ATTACKS "not hate" WHEN IT WAS PAGES OF VILE CRUELTY TO SOMEONE ALREADY SUFFERING SO MUCH. IF SOMEONE WAS RAPED YOUR GROUP WOULD SAY SHE DESERVED IT "because she was being unhinged about it" YOU LITERALLY TORTURED ME YOU RUINED MY ENTIRE LIFE YOURE MONSTERS YOURE EVIL MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP PAIN PAIN 11 MONTHS NONSTOP TORTURE I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE I EXIST IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST IM NOT INVISIBLE YOU TOOK EVERYTHING FROM ME MY HOME MY SAVINGS MY FRIENDS MY TRANS HEALTHCARE MY ARM MY DIGNITY MY BOYDRIEND HOPE MY CAT ESPECIALLY NY FUCKING CAT YOU MONSTERS?!?! MY FUTURE MY CRAFT YOU RUINED MY LIFE YOU RUINED MY LIFE KILL ME FUCKING KILL ME MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP!?!?!?! GHOSTED AND DIDNT EVEN TELL ME WHY IM FUCKING AUTISTIC NOBODY SAID A THING HOW WOULD I KNOW WHAT I DID WRONG??? I DIDNT DO ANYTHING BUT LOVE YOU AND LISTEN TO YOU UNTIL I COULDNT TAKE THE PAIN ANYMORE AND NOW THE ONLY THING YOU PEOPLE CAN DO IS GO "Hmm yes what unhinged behavior" AS IF YOU DIDNT STRAND ME IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE WITH NO FOOD NO FRIENDS NO FAMILY AND NO MONEY WITHOUT A WORD, WHILE I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL DYING THRICE OVER AND GETTINF ASSAULTED AND INFECTIONS ON THE ROAD YOU WERE PARTYING AND SHAKING YOUR HEADS LIKE "Hmm such a tragedy" YOU. CAUSED. IT!!!! YOU KNEW MY SITUATUON AND ENCOURAGED YOUR CULT TO MAKE IT WORSE!! MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP I JUST WANTED TO TALK TO MY FRIENDS I APOLOGIZED 1,000 TIMES AND IT MEANT NOTHING, I TRIED TO TALK AND IT MEANT. NOTHING I JUST WANTED TO KNOW 1. IF RORY WAS OKAY AND 2. FOR BEAN TO STOP CONTROLLING AND ABUSING ME. YOU KNEW IT WAS ABUSE BUT YOU BACKPEDALED **HARD** BECAUSE IM NOT A GOOD ENOUGH ARTIST FOR YOUR CULT AND GROUP GHOSTED ME WITH NOTHING!!! YOURE AWFUL I TRUSTED YOU I DID EVERYTHING YOU TOLD ME TO DO AND YOU RUINED ME FOR LISTENING MAKE IT STOP JUST MAKE IT STOP MAKE THE PAIN STOP YOURE EVIL YOURE MONSTERS MAKE IT  STOP!!!?! IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST I MATTER IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST I MATTER IM NOT INVISIBLE I EXIST I MATTER!!!! YOU POMPOUS PRIVELEGED ASSHOLE WILL NEVER HAVE TO EXPERIENCE 1/5TH OF THE HELLSCAPE YOU FORCED ME INTO IM TELLING THE TRUTH JUST BECAUSE ITS BEING YELLED IT DOESNT MEAN ITS UNTRUE IF I WERE PEA YOUD PAT ME ON THE BACK FOR "being direct and blunt with my feelings" IF I WERE BEAN YOUD UNDERSTAND MY MENTAL ILLNESS AND THE TRAUMA YOU **FORCED*** ME INTO FOR NO FUCKING REASON. BUT IM NOT SO YOU INSTEAD ABUSED ME TREATED ME LIKE DIRT AND LEFT ME TO THE DOGS YOURE FUCKING MONSTERS
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moltengoldveins · 2 months ago
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thinking about The Characters
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