#that you dont text him anymoer.

[computerpeople]

sometimes i just want th epeople in my life to validate that my life fucking sucks

[dreamc0rpse]

thoughts;

i should not feel this way. i should be happy, happier. i am content thouhg, i have nowhere to go. but why do you hurt me, or am i playing prey? i can’t tell anymore. everything points to me playing false pray in mind but what am i, i dont fight, i just say how i feel. is that bad? its better now. but where is the time for me gone? an hour? vs three? does one hour with me feel eternity of broedom. or torture? am i awful to you? am istil desireble to you? am i still here to you? do you still feel me and love me the same? do you need the chase? did you ever want the chase? i want tofeel chased again, i want to feel chased not grabbed, whyh cant i just had a weekend with you again. im sorry im not social like you. i really can;t, it doesn’t matter what i do anymore i just can’t handleso much in such repettive consistency and such discomfort and strangers and empty faces and empty memories. i dont see them at all, i go but do i see i see my mids eye of blurry window. and why can’t i be the reason for anything anymore? is there ever a time you will thik of me to do something for me? am i just convenience of cudles of affcetion? am i something you want to forward your affcection too? is this real affection anymore, where did it all go. why do i feel so drained, i shouldn’t feel this way. i shouldnt feel so down i shouldt let it bother me all day i shouldnt be so stuck to you. do i let you go to much or do i hold on to you too much i really dont know anymoe. i wish i could just feel better agan. no i dnot want to say that. i dont want to say thta.i just want to . i dont know anymore why am i still going. i hate this world, its so . unhreal. i dont like being here anymore i just wish i could be in that dream world forever. i feel so. i hate the word worthless because i never knew what it meant to feel. but now i understand the statement i feel worthless. i never knew it was this feeling, i always just felt this way in feeling. but now i know the label. and i hate to feel so worthless, putrid, tiny, insignificant. im just there. your rock. but isn;t that a good thing? am i supposed to be your rock i thought. is nt that how ti works im supposed to be your rock? i know why your the way you are and im there for you i understand why your always so offput and angry and i dont want to interfere i dont want to make it worse i dont mean to make ti worse. i know environment, but what do i do. i want to sleep in that weird house in my dreams again, just want to be back there. i miss that place, was cool. realy showed me somewhere where... i dont know i cant remember id. i mis it. i wish i could remember it, the people. there was a person doing heroin o the couch last tiem i was there, i was introducing someone around. anyways. im gonna keep smoking. i feel bettr and he just texted me. its funny he always comes aronud after im done feeling awful. i think he knows wen i think ab him

[titansarmy]

the only guy i’ve ever properly liked has a girlfriend

#sadz