#that was quite literally one of my favorite moments in any campaign w

[miodiodavinci]

BWAGHAGKAHAHKGHARLRRRHHGH sorry i forgot to mention he's a mimic who just so happened to choose "adventurer" as his chosen hiding shape whoops

hey!! it's Fafnir of the Boreal North!! he is a completely normal knight who just so happens to look eerily like a corpse i assure you nothing will happen if you come closer and stick your fingers through the bars of his enclosure w

[eddiesfaerie]

literally anything w eddie and angst that you write would be incredible !! especially like best friends who are in love with each other but are too dumb to realize the other feels the same way so angst ensues like please that’s my fav eddie trope

Why Him?

Summary: You've got a date with a jock, your best friend objects. (4.3k words) read on ao3 here

Pairing: Eddie Munson x f!reader

Warnings: NSFW, smut, friends (idiots) to lovers, mutual pining, angst with a happy ending, fluff, fingering, thigh riding, dirty talk, blood kink for 1 second, eddie's a lil mean/confusing, miscommunication, confessions

Eddie wasn’t talking to you. 

He hadn’t talked to you all day, actually. Not since you called him last night before bed, telling him you wouldn’t be able to make it to tonight’s D&D campaign. 

He asked why.

And you tried to dodge the question. But Eddie is nothing if not persistent and annoying and fucking nosey. 

The thing was, you had a date. 

And he seemed relatively fine with it over the phone. Not as cheesed as you thought he’d be about you missing the campaign (which thoroughly shocked you; it’s not like you’re their star player, far from that actually but Eddie just likes you being there and participating in his favorite game).

You sit on your bed, twirling the phone line anxiously, lip worried between your sharp teeth. 

“Are you sure? You’re not mad I can’t come?”

“Nope. Not mad at all.”

“I’ll be there next week for sure. I won’t miss any more campaigns, promise.”

Eddie chuckled, “It’s fine, I swear.”

You breathe for a moment, trying to assess if he was being sincere or not. Eddie wore his expressions on his face, he could never conceal how he was feeling with those big eyes, that twitching lip that displayed every emotion he felt so deeply. Your best friend was an open book.

“Okay. I’ll uh, I’ll see you tomorrow Eds.” 

“See you.”

He hung up first.

In retrospect, he had been quite blunt, quite curt and to the point. You should have known something was up. Eddie always tries to stay on the phone with you as long as possible. And he always makes sure you hang up first.

But now Eddie sat at the head of the cafeteria table, at his unspoken reserved seat, like always. His arms were crossed across his jean and leather clad chest, a scowl etched into his usually smooth, lighthearted features. 

The lot of you were usually the loudest, most obnoxious in the cafeteria. Eddie was no stranger to causing a scene, jumping up on the table and screaming at whoever or whatever he set his sights on. Sometimes he’d pull you into his lap, put his hand on your thigh, your arm, playing with your fingers while discussing that night’s upcoming D&D campaign. 

He’d walk you to your next class, arm thrown heavy and warm around your shoulders, hauling you into the side of his body before he ditched third and last period. Sometimes Eddie would kiss your cheek, your hand, your palm, anywhere he could that wasn’t too far over the line of just friends. 

Because that’s all you were, just friends. Very close, touchy feely, best friends. 

And you had a date. 

All of this pouting and uncharacteristic silence was over the fact that you had a date with a stupid basketball player that you’re not even interested in. 

It’s just… it’s been a minute since anyone’s shown any interest in you and yeah, maybe it could be fun, maybe you’d end up having a good time. Maybe. But you truly doubt it. Why would you of all people have fun with a jock? 

That’s what Eddie kept asking himself. Why would you, of all people, his dearest, bestest friend who he thought he knew so well, go out with someone who’s the complete opposite of you. And him. 

His raging, blood angry thoughts are what shut him up for the duration of lunch. Too consumed by what ifs and maybes. 

Maybe she’ll hate him, maybe he’ll hate her- no, no. No one could hate her, not even if they wanted to. Okay maybe Mrs O’Donell but besides that bitch. What if he tries to kiss her, fuck her, stick his finger up her-

The bell for third period finally rings. 

Eddie’s quick to snatch up his things, his black metal lunch box and D&D reading material before he’s rushing off to next period without a word to anyone else. 

Eddie doesn’t drive you home, he’s got D&D anyways. You don’t bother going to his locker to hug him bye, he’s probably locked up in the prop room preparing for the campaign anyways. You walk home alone instead. And the way home from school is long without him. 

The night passes reluctantly, you’re silent at dinner with your parents, your mind only focusing on tonight - the dread only grows stronger and stronger the later it gets. You head upstairs to your room after dinner, quiet as you get ready so as not to alert your parents to the fact that you’re sneaking out.

Why had you agreed to this? Why did you tell a stupid fucking jock who you don’t even care about that you’d go out with him? Give him the time of day? Make him think he’s worth it, that he deserves you or deserves to get laid which was definitely not happening-

Your window slides open and you scream. 

Eddie climbs in through your bedroom window, running over to you and covering your mouth with his warm palm to shut you up. 

He’s smiling so fucking wide, like he hadn’t just spent the last 24 hours ignoring you, scowling and groveling in silent anger. 

“Ssshhhhh, don’t wanna freak out the neighborhood, sweetheart.” 

You squirm in his hold, “Let go of me, Munson.” 

He lets you go only slightly, removing his hand from your mouth but keeping his arms around you too affectionately for how he was acting today. Eddie’s eyebrows suddenly crease, looking down at his palm that's stained from your lips. He inspects your face, his hand coming up to pinch your cheeks, making you pucker your lips.

“Shit, are you wearing lipstick?” He asks in feigned disbelief, like he could have ever forgotten you had a date tonight, like it wasn’t the only thing he thought about all day until it literally drove him to you in the dark of night immediately after his campaign was finished. 

Eddie drags this thumb along your bottom lip, smearing the color onto your skin Eddie admires the color that stains his thumb - it’s cute. A little unlike you but he can’t deny you look fucking good. You look adorable, fucking delectable in your little dress, in your cute makeup with your cute hair; Eddie feels his cheeks heat up. Even if it’s not for him, not ever for him.  

“Fuck off.” You groan and try to shove him off of you. 

Was he trying to embarrass you? Because it was working. So what if you wanted to get a little dressed up? Put on a little make up? Why does he care?

Eddie lets you push him away this time. He smiles at you as you walk across your room to your vanity, leaning forward and fixing up the makeup that he ruined. 

Eddie tries not to stare at the short dress that rides up the back of your thighs, that dares to let that place between your legs peek out. He briefly wonders if you’re wearing anything underneath, if this date you had with this jock had any pretense to it. Lingerie? Commando? Cute and innocent cotton panties? Anything that would grant easy access during a movie- No. You wouldn’t do that, would you? Not sweet, innocent little you.

“Stop staring at me.” You grumble, trying to meet his eyes in the mirror. Eddie smiles at you. 

“You don’t usually have a problem with me staring, babe.” You roll your eyes. 

“Don’t call me babe.” You groan, voice quiet and laced with lasting embarrassment. 

Eddie pouts and makes his way back over to you, letting his arms wrap around the front of your shoulders, hauling your back against his chest. 

“Why are you being so mean to me, hmm?” He asks like he’s fucking oblivious, like he doesn’t know he’s giving you whiplash with all this back and forth. Ignoring you all day, then showing up like nothing was wrong, hugging you, kissing you, touching you.  

You wriggle in his hold, trying to reapply your lipstick. 

“Why are you acting like everything’s fine? Like… like you weren’t ignoring me all day?” You glare, meeting his gaze in the mirror again. 

That shuts him up. 

But only for a second, before he’s leaning in and kissing your cheek sloppily. You shove your arms behind you to get him off, pushing him away from you so you can turn around and look at him properly. His cheeks are flushed, eyes embarrassed and maybe a little hurt despite the ever prominent smile that never seems to leave his face. 

“Eddie, I’m serious. Why are you acting like this?” You pout, swearing to yourself that you don’t notice the way your bottom lip begins to tremble out of frustration. 

Eddie is your rock, your best friend. And having him act so weird around you, going a whole day without even talking to him is fucking crushing you. You can feel yourself beginning to crumble.

“Why are you going out with him?” He asks, voice quiet, matching yours. He tries to ask it casually, to appear detached, uncaring. His voice comes out insecure instead and he hates it. 

“I asked you first.”

“I asked you second,” He throws back immediately, a smirk pulling at his lips even if he doesn’t mean for it to. 

You groan, vicious and annoyed as it bubbles up from your chest and into your throat. Eddie feels your frustration, feels it bubbling up in himself as well and he tries to keep it at bay for your sake. 

He needs to calm the fuck down. He’s not actually mad at you. He’s just so fucking confused. So fucking scared of losing you to some fucking idiot jock. 

“Why are you going out with a meat head like him?” He asks again, more gently this time. 

“I-I don’t know, Eddie. He asked so… so I said yes.” You respond dumbly. 

Did you even mean that? Why had you said yes? 

“So what, you’d just say yes to any guy that asks then?” Eddie asks, crossing his arms over his chest and tilting his head at you. 

“No. I don’t know.” Your face grows hot, you look down at the ground, down at your stupid dress that feels suddenly too tight on your body. 

“What if I asked?”

“What?”

“What if I asked you out? If you’d say yes to any guy then you’d say yes to me right?”

You just stare at him, unsure how to play this with him right now. Eddie was often unpredictable, yes, but with you he was usually brutally honest, brutally truthful with you. He couldn’t play games with you, wouldn’t bullshit you like he bullshits everyone else. He couldn’t, even if he wanted to. 

But he couldn’t be serious about this, could he? About wanting to ask you out? 

“Just… Just go, Eddie. I’m late anyways.” 

You stalk past him, pushing up your window so he can climb back out but Eddie’s fast, grabbing you and shoving you up against your wall.

“Hey, hey, hey. No, okay listen.” He stammers, his ringed hands hot on your biceps as he holds you firmly, forcing you to look at him. The cool night breeze floats in and makes every tiny hair on your body stand on edge on your heated skin.

Eddie says your name so tenderly your lip quivers again, “Just tell me why you said yes to him.”

Your lip wobbles and Eddie suddenly feels bad for being such a dick, such a forceful asshole but he needs to know, needs to know why you’d pick a guy like that over a guy like him. 

“Eddie-”

“I don’t care. I don’t care what the answer is, I don’t care how harsh it is, I just- I just need to know why.”

You swear his voice cracks. He swears it doesn’t. 

You say his name again and he looks at you with those big eyes - those big, brown, shiny eyes that are swallowed up black in your dimly lit room. 

“I said yes to him because you never asked.”

Suddenly, Eddie Munson cannot speak. Can barely comprehend what you’re telling him. 

A breath of a silent moment passes between the two of you, between your two pulsing bodies.

“W-What?”

“All you had to do was ask me. I’d be so fucking easy for you.” You nearly cry, voice filled with sadness and yearning. 

“Wait, wait, wait. Y-You’re saying-” 

“You’re so fucking stupid, Eddie.” You groan.

And you kiss him. You risk fucking everything up with that kiss.

Eddie’s eyes go wide, his breath catching in his throat before he’s breathing you back in and shoving his tongue down your throat to make up for everything he got wrong. Your hands go up in his hair, pulling him down into you from the root and he groans into your mouth, digging his hips into yours. You feel something growing there, something hot and hard.  

“Eddie-”

He hums against your mouth, desperate for more, anxious to pull away from you but you push at his face, cupping his precious cheeks and holding his face away from yours so you can look at him properly. 

“W-What?” He stutters, his lips a deep flush of dark pink, just like his cheeks - spit slicked and swollen from kissing you. Fuck he’s gorgeous. Why is your best friend so gorgeous? Why are you kissing your best friend?

“I don’t want to go on that date.” You admit to him, your voice quieter than a whisper. 

Because you want him.

“Then don’t go.” He says very seriously. You smile.

“Make me stay?”

His eyes go wide, a smile pulling at his lips and you melt all over again. “Yeah?” He asks, like it’s a dare, like he’s gearing up for something only to launch himself into you. 

“Please.”

Eddie’s on you again, his lips on your neck, his teeth sharp yet dull on your skin and you hiss too loudly as he tries to pry you open by your jugular. He’s quick to shush you, to silence you with his mouth again and you moan into him. 

“Are your folks home? Do they know you were planning on going out tonight?”

You shake your head no vigorously, lips brushing his as he coos at you. 

“No?” He asks, making sure.

“N-No, Eddie.”

“Ouuu, sneaking out. Someone’s being a bad girl.” He tuts, hands trailing up and down your body, groping anything, everything he can reach. Eddie’s wanted to touch you for so long, it nearly knocks him over to be getting everything all at once now. 

“M’not.” You whimper as Eddie’s fingers play with the hemline of your dress, his fingertips daring to go underneath. You writhe against him, begging, daring him to touch you. 

“No? You’re not a bad girl?” Eddie asks, completely amused at your pouting and whiny voice. 

You shake your head no again, angling your hips up towards his hand. Eddie’s eyes widen at your suggestive movements. He lifts his thigh suddenly, slotting it between your two pretty ones. You drop down immediately, so fast it makes you look desperate. You are. 

You drop your weight down onto him and you whine at the sudden friction against your aching core - you hadn’t realized how worked up he had gotten you. 

Your dress rides up high on your thighs, barely giving him a glimpse at your panty covered cunt. He admires the way your skin spills over his, the soft, supple and sensitive flesh of your thighs - he wants to bite them. He wants to put his mouth all over your gorgeous skin and mark you up for everyone to see; everyone at school, your parents, the teachers. He wants everyone to know he got to touch you like this. 

Eddie growls, taking your hips in both of his hands and dragging you up his thigh, guiding your hips, helping you grind down onto the rough black denim he wears. 

“Fuuuuck,” he moans, watching you move your hips by yourself now, “I’d say you’re being pretty fucking bad right now, sweetheart. Getting all dolled up for some jock just to fuck yourself on the freak’s thigh.”

You whine, a little embarrassed, a little a lot turned on. 

“S-Stop it, Eddie.” 

Eddie tilts his head at you, eyes hypnotized at the way you move your hips over his leg, the way you’re losing yourself so easily to him and he’s barely done anything. You did tell him you’d be easy for him but fuck, this is nothing he could have imagined nor prepared for. 

“You’re not a freak, don’t- don’t say that.” You pout. Eddie nearly laughs at your sudden sincerity in contrast to your unrelenting hips. He smiles, ducking down to sloppily kiss you. 

“I must not be if you’re into me this much, right?” He laughs and you’d roll your eyes but you roll your hips instead, dangerously close to the edge of something building in your gut. 

“Can you- can you touch me, Eds?”  

Eds. He nearly fucking dies on the spot, then and there against the wall in your cute, dimly lit room that smells like you. You you you you you you you.

“Fuck yeah I can.” Eddie hikes your dress up further than where your undulating hips pushed it. He’s quick to shove his fingers down the front of your panties, coming into contact with the slick, gooey mess you’ve made of yourself and now his thigh. Eddie’s throat bobs, his eyes threaten to roll into the back of his head at the feel of how absolutely drenched you’ve gotten yourself. 

“Jesus Christ, you get yourself this wet over that jock or me?” 

You drop your head down to his shoulder, your face hot and embarrassed but Eddie’s grabbing you by the cheeks again, pinching them together and puckering your lips - forcing you to look at him. 

“Fucking look at me.” He demands, shaking your head a little from side to side to emphasize that he’s being serious. 

“Who got you this wet?” He asks again, his rough, guitar calloused fingers finding your sweet and slippery clit. You gasp, your eyes threatening to close themselves but you keep them open for him. 

“Y-You, Eddie.” 

“Yeah? Was that before or after I climbed through your window tonight?”

You whine. Oh this fucker was trying to embarrass you. 

“Eddie-”

“Answer me.” He growls, baring his teeth at you and you moan, unashamed at how fucking hot he’s being. 

“Before! Before, I always- I always thought about you, like this.” You admit, your hips desperate, stuttering in their motions against his thigh. You’re getting dangerously close to cuming, afraid of the force you can feel building behind it. 

Eddie’s cheeks light up red, brighter than a christmas tree and you can’t help but smile through your moans, can’t help but be absolutely delighted that he’s just as flustered as you over all of this. 

Eddie’s fingers grow determined on your clit, making precise motions that have your eyes rolling into the back of your head, your head hitting the wall behind you as you try your best to be quiet. 

“You think that meat head could do this? You think he knows where your precious little clit is?” 

You shake your head no, a sob bubbling up deep in your throat and you’re afraid you’ll scream. Your hips are relentless on his thigh, the simulation of thrusts on your hole and his fingers on your clit are about to be the death of you. 

“You think he could make you cum with just his fingers like this? Have you drooling for his cock?”

“No, Eddie!”

He goes harder. “Apologize.” 

“Wha-?”

“Apologize. To me.” He repeats, voice rough and clipped through gritted teeth. Eddie bucks his thigh underneath you and you nearly fall off of him but he’s holding you so tightly you don’t think you could fall off even if you wanted to. 

Eddie leans forward into you, his fingers sliding down from your clit, circling your sopping hole and sliding home. They curl inside of you, the cold metal of his rings kissing the feverish skin of your lips and you sob quietly. 

Eddie’s right at your ear, cooing soft mouth sounds at you and petting your hair with one hand, fingering you with the other. 

“I’m- Eddie, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to- to upset you.”

Eddie looks at you like he expects more, so you muster up whatever brain cells are still floating around in your head to push further, to get him to let you cum. His fingers reach deeper inside of you, digging around like he’s trying to pull your heart straight out of your cunt. 

“I didn’t want him, n-never wanted him, p-promise.”

“Ohh, you promise, do you sweetheart?” He asks with something mocking in his voice. You bite your lip and nod your head yes, yes I promise. 

“S’okay, baby. I know you didn’t mean it.”

You hum, content that he believes you. Your head falls forward with relief onto his shoulder but Eddie’s hand is at your jaw, gripping you tight and making you look at him yet again. 

Your eyes are rolling back into your head, you’re barely able to keep them open and Eddie thinks you’ve never looked this pretty, never looked this fucking hot besides now when you’ve gotten all dressed up for someone else only to get fucked by him in your bedroom with your parents asleep down the hall.

His fingers in your pussy are relentless. Curling and pushing and thrusting like he’s got all the time in the world. Maybe he does, either way you don’t care how much time he takes, he could drag this out as long as he pleases and you think all you would do is thank him for it. 

All you care about is him not stopping and making you cum. Your hips look pathetic on his thigh, moving along with the thrusts of his fingers, chasing your high. You try to warn him that you’re close, but words escape you. Eddie can feel you clenching your tight little walls on his fingers, can feel you suffocating him and he has to block out the thought of his cock in there, if he would even fit. 

“You’re mine, aren’t you?” He asks, voice gone deep and gravelly and menacing. 

“Yes,” You whine, voice completely pathetic, “yes I’m yours.” 

Eddie growls, you moan, completely broken. 

“Please, Eddie, I’m going to-”

“Do it, fucking cum on my fingers. Want it so bad.” 

That’s all it took. 

You bite your lip to stay quiet, so hard you taste blood in your mouth and Eddie’s leaning forward, capturing your mouth with his and licking into the open bowl of you, tasting the metallic crimson seeping from your swollen lip. You clench rhythmically on his fingers, your hips stutter and your body twitches. Eddie leaves his fingers inside of you, gently thrusting, giving you something to clench on and ride out your orgasm with. With his other arm, he’s curling it around you as he holds you into his warm chest, comforting your twitching body. 

When you’ve come down, Eddie pulls his fingers from your drenched hole and brings them up to his lips, sucking you clean off of them and you have to bite your lip again from screaming at the sight. He moans at the taste, eyes closing blissfully. 

You lurch forward into him and stick your tongue into his mouth, desperate to taste yourself mixed in his spit, amongst his teeth and gums. 

“Fuuuck, you’re so hot.” Eddie groans into your mouth, cock raging inside of his jeans and he has to use every single ounce of willpower that remains inside of him from doing anything about it, especially not cuming in his pants like a fucking fourteen year old. 

You smile against his plump lips, eventually pulling away and leaning your head against the wall behind you once more. You’re completely spent, drained, totally fucked out by your best friend’s fingers. And all you can do is just smile at him lazily, still perched all pretty on his thigh. 

Eddie’s afraid to let you down, afraid you’ll stumble and fall but he’s not too worried about that, because he knows he’ll catch you. He’s more so worried about breaking whatever spell the two of you have seemed to have fallen into. Where you’re his and you want him more than some popular jock, where you want to be his for more than one night. Or maybe you had meant what you said, when you said you’d be easy for him, that you’d say yes if only he’d ask. 

He doesn’t want to ask to stay the night, he doesn’t want to invite himself over even though that’s exactly what he did thirty minutes ago when he climbed in through your window, uninvited. 

You watch him as he thinks, as his brows furrow and his tongue pokes out to touch the top of his lip. He’s pretty when he’s lost in thought.

You smooth your thumb over the space between his brows and Eddie looks up at you from where he had dazed off; the column of your throat. 

“Where are you?” You ask so gently Eddie’s knees threaten to buckle.

“Nowhere,” Eddie shakes his head, “right here.”  

You smile, hands climbing up the back of his neck, twirling themselves in his long hair. Eddie makes a grumbled sound like a purr as you scratch at his scalp. 

“Can you stay tonight?” 

“Y-Yeah, if that’s what you want.” He says dumbly.

“It is.” 

Eddie’s cheeks flush a furious red. 

“Is that what you want?” You ask, suddenly insecure that maybe you had said too much, that he doesn’t want you back, that he-

“Yes. Fuck yes it is.” He responds, almost too enthusiastically. You giggle a bit too loudly and Eddie’s hand comes up to cover your mouth. He can still feel you smiling against his palm. God, he’s obsessed with you. 

Eddie leans in so that his own lips ghost the back of his hand, nothing but his own palm separating your mouths. 

“But you’re going to have to be quiet for me if I do, sweetheart.”

baby tag list (let me know if you'd like to be added or removed): @roanniom @millenialcatlady @leatherboundriot @spookyyslutt

[galaxae]

3, 7 and 18 for as many as you can answer; btw do you still have an ocs page? like with introductions and all that

wow this took forever oops!

tysm for the ask!! i’ve been meaning to make a carrd or something with oc intros, but i have so goddamn many ocs and so little time now that i’m in college and all that. and i have the code saved from my old pages before i remade, but those are kind of outdated and incomplete

that being said i’m probably gonna end up making that carrd regardless of how busy i am cause special interest indulgence and all that, so i’ll post about it when i do

anyway! i’m putting the actual oc answers under a readmore because i’m gonna try to do all the ocs i listed and it’ll be kinda long lol

3. What does your oc’s voice sound like? (Or, if you have one, what’s their voiceclaim?) Can they sing, whistle, or roll their rs? Do they have any speech impediments or notable dialects/accents?

how does one even describe voices... ok here goes

avani: she’s my character for a ttrpg campaign, so her voice sounds basically like mine (which might not help much cause you don’t know how i talk lol), but when i’m talking as her i pitch my voice up a bit and make it a bit more nasally. she’s not much of a singer, nor can she whistle, but she can roll her r’s pretty well. also, since she’s autistic and hard of hearing, her tone of voice often comes off the "wrong” way

farhan: he’s another ttrpg character i play lol, or at least he will be next semester, so his voice is again kind of like mine. but when i talk as him i pitch my voice down and it’s a bit hoarse. ig his voice would also be more “masculine” than mine but whatever. he can sing and whistle but has a pretty small vocal range (since he’s, like, 13 right now and will be 16 when i rp him next semester)

carter: i imagine his voice as low and on the quiet and raspy end, with a tiny bit of a lisp. he’s way too insecure to try to sing or even whistle or anything like that, though if he practiced at it he’d probably get pretty good

calira: she’s mute so n/a i guess. but she talks pretty formally in her dialect of elvish sign language, which is definitely unusual

sam: they have kind of a low voice that’s also raspy, but with quite a bit of pep and variation in their tone. they can even sing pretty well and they like to whistle constantly while working. that creates some kind of whiplash cause sam comes off as a typical edgy teen a lot of the time

jizoriel: high-pitched with lots of voice cracks, peak pretentious preteen/early teen jerkass. he can’t really sing or do anything similar, nor does he want to very much

victoria: so quiet and raspy that you can barely make out that it’s low and has a soothing and pleasant tone to it. she can sing well, or at least she could once upon a time

rowan: just! the happiest and most cheerful voice you can imagine! so much love behind how she talks! her voice fills up her whole head and the whole room!! and she whistles sometimes while she walks

ace: defies any masculine or feminine labels, smooth and cool in theory but they stutter quite a bit

charity: gruff but with a hint of cheer and clarity behind it that comes out when she’s startled. she loves to sing but can’t whistle and can’t roll her r’s either

jamal: i actually have a voiceclaim for him! it’s this (the voice that sings from 1:51 to 1:58)

kimberly: her voice is a bit high and a bit... idk how to say it exactly... i guess shrill would be the word?

fabián: his voice seems higher-pitched than it actually is cause he talks higher when he’s anxious, and he’s always anxious. it’s a bit hard to describe his voice otherwise tbh. i can hear it in my head but i can’t quite put it to paper oops. oh yeah also he has a great singing voice but never uses it sooo

7. What song reminds you of this oc? Does this match up with the type of music your oc likes to listen to?

this question opens up a wormhole cause i have playlists for many of these guys but instead i’ll just provide one (1) song for each and vaguely describe their music taste, how does that sound

avani: honestly “mr. capgras encounters a secondhand vanity” by will wood is a “her” song to me. her music taste leans a lot more toward older music though (like some classics from the 70s and 80s and such)

farhan: he’s still very new so i haven’t really found a song for him yet. but i know he absolutely loves peppy and energetic pop music and also sappy gay love songs

carter: (slaps my hand away when i try to type another will wood song) “fantasy island” by the shins always launches me into daydreams about him. which kinda roughly aligns with his music taste, he listens to a lot of those “mainstream indie” artists. he’d also listen to will wood because he’s gay and mentally ill <3

calira: one of my favorite songs on her playlist is “maximillian von spee” by dirt poor robins. but the music she listens to is basically all invigorating church-loving stuff with medieval-era instruments lmao

sam: “sometimes” by nick lutsko is an absolute bop and very much a sam song. sam actually doesn’t go out of their way to listen to music though, but when they do they listen to either the most soothing and relaxing stuff or to the angriest metal emo music. no in between

jizoriel: i’ll go the less emo angle here and say a song that reminds me of him is “upside down” by jack johnson. jizoriel’s music taste is like. old choir music and shit plus incomprehensible magical music that doesn’t even sound like music. if he was from earth he’d like my chemical romance

victoria and rowan: i’m grouping these two together here because a song that reminds me very strongly of both of them/their relationship is “human” by dodie. which actually fits very well into both of their music tastes!

ace: again, going the less edgy angle here, “auntie earth” by walter mitty and his makeshift orchestra. but ace mostly listens to uh, classical flute music and flute covers

charity: absolutely “dance and cry” by mother mother, that’s pretty much her theme song. it’s among her favorite songs in canon too

jamal: “tire swing” by los elk, since his arc is about letting go of childhood and all that jazz. he’s more inclined to listen to fun. and other pop artists and rappers and such. he likes janelle monae

kimberly: “best tears” by the happy fits for sure. in terms of her music taste though, her taste is pretty similar to jamal’s. they bond over being janelle monae fans

fabián: by god does “heal” by so much light fit him. his taste is that he rotates through three (3) specific obscure indie artists lmao, so theoretically i guess that specific song is included in there

18. How does your oc see themself? How does this compare to the way other ocs see them?

i am gonna do my best to keep these short cause this is a loaded question for all of them hoo boy

avani: how she sees herself: honestly the worst person alive. unless she spends every moment of her time trying to make up for what she’s done, she’s worthless, and she doesn’t deserve to love herself in any capacity how others see her: her brother (farhan) really looks up to her! most of the time. the superhero team she’s on (other people’s ocs) all think she’s generally smart and capable enough, and her boyfriend in particular thinks she’s incredible

farhan: how he sees himself: as of right now? a misunderstood emo middle schooler who’s still kind of cool i guess how others see him: his sister (avani) thinks he’s quite an impressive and charismatic young man

carter:  how he sees himself: 1/10 awkward and annoying how others see him: carter reminds calira too much of her old self, so she love-hates him. sam thinks he’s weak and cowardly but admires his kindness. and jizoriel clings to him as a caring father figure and loves carter’s passion for natural studies

calira: how she sees herself: it goes back and forth between “i’m the greatest chosen one ever im such a strong warrior” and “wow i’m literal trash why did the gods pick me for this” how others see her: carter is a bit intimidated by her but appreciates her attempts to vibe with him, sam thinks she’s an annoying pretentious self-important bitch (but their opinion softens over time), and jizoriel sees right through her facade and feels comfortable around her because of it

sam:  how they see themself: evil and in need of redemption, kind of similar to avani ig but with 10x more confidence in their skills and also much more violent how others see them: carter knows theyre doing their best even if theyre kind of an asshole, calira is a fan of their strength and determination, and jizoriel Hates Their Guts (at first) because they baby him too much

jizoriel: how he sees himself: a fucking fraud of a prince. all he has going for him is his abilities as a mage, but even then those are shaky how others see him: carter knows he’s very insecure and wants to comfort him, calira admires his magical prowess and noble air, and sam thinks he’s a snarky little pretentious douchebag but also he reminds them of their late brother and they want to protect him at all costs

victoria: how she sees herself: basically dead. only good for interacting with ghosts. not worthy of the human world or of friendship how others see her: she reminds rowan of her old self. rowan sees a glimmer of love and hope in her and wants to bring it out

rowan: how she sees herself: a fucking mess but she’s trying her best and that’s what counts! how others see her: victoria very much appreciates her cheerful air even if she doesn’t act like it

ace: how they see themself: way too weird to be human, way too weak not to be. their self-image changes constantly. theyre very confused about everything please help how others see them: charity is literally dating them lol she thinks theyre the cutest person alive, jamal appreciates how hard they try as a friend, kimberly thinks theyre an alien invader whom she can study and use to get further in life, and fabián knows more about ace than anyone else and loves them for it

charity: how she sees herself: a Teenager who’s struggling. she desperately wants to be young without the burden of her trauma but whether she thinks of herself as emo and sad and angry or not depends a lot on her mood how others see her: ace adores everything about her, jamal loves how cool and fun and sociable she can be, kimberly is annoyed with her rebelliousness, and fabián worries very much for her well-being and can’t shake the image of her as helpless (oops that’s gonna cause some drama)

jamal: how he sees himself: just a chill guy trying to get by. unremarkable. how others see him: ace is grateful for how forgiving he can be but is still terrified of him being angry over [spoilers], charity loves how sociable and fun he is and how protective he can be of his friends, kimberly secretly envies his carefree nature, and fabián sees him as a solid acquaintance to whom he did not give a good first impression

kimberly: how she sees herself: not good! if she can’t grow up fast and do science well then she’s useless how others see her: ace wants to be friends with her but doesn’t know how to do that, charity is annoyed by her rule-bound-ness, jamal thinks she’s cool but should unwind a little, and fabián resents her at first but would still like to play chess with her sometime

fabián: how he sees himself: he has a moral responsibility to help people Or Else. way too anxious and stuck up but he doesn’t know how to change that how others see him: ace fuckin Loves this guy, charity loves him too but she gets pissed when he tries to help her with anything, jamal genuinely thinks he’s a great guy and wants to get to know him better, and kimberly is actually impressed by him and envies his apparent confidence and charisma

ok ok that’s it i promise. sorry this is so long and tysm for reading if you made it this far!! feel free to ask more oc questions literally whenever, that goes for anyone reading this <3

[doctr-p]

I’ve been delaying this post for a while, partially because I’m low key embarrassed to be so upset that a favorite show of mine is ending, but mainly because I am so upset and don’t want to believe the adventure is over.

Later today Adventure Time will be airing it’s final episode and well, I just can’t believe it. It has been a such a wild ride for the past 8 years (10 if you count the pilot). I’m not here to spout out all the reasons why “Adventure Time was the best show ever” or criticize those who don’t like it. Frankly, I don’t even think AT is objectively the best show ever; it certainly had it’s ups and downs during different seasons- I’m here to reminisce about how impactful the show was on me. I’m not sure why I want to do this...but I guess it makes me happy to do so or at least gives me a sort of closure...errr I feel like I’m sending the show off right? It’s the least I can do for all it has done for me. This is going to be a long one so I will spare everyone and place a keep reading below!

Adventure Time came out the end of my senior year of HS and I was extremely excited since I did see the pilot episode a year or two prior on YouTube. I guess the whole premise was amazing to me (especially since I was fond of having my own adventures with my dog at the time): a boy and his dog kick ass through a magical world- originally such a simple concept yet got increasingly convoluted and complex. I never would imagine how much this show would become embedded into my life.

Flash forward to my first year of college when S1 was still coming out. Me being a extremely shy person, I was having trouble interacting with all my new classmates- plus it didn’t help that this was the first time I was permanently away from home. I still remember during one of our orientation events another student and I were walking to a building and got lost. I quietly made a small reference to AT and he immediately started freaking out all excited that I enjoyed the show too. We quickly started discussing the episodes and the next thing I know I was actually coming out of my shell- I felt comfortable?? One thing led to another and suddenly we had a group of AT fans that would all meet up in someones dorm room each Monday night at 7:30pm sharp to watch the new episodes around someone’s tiny laptop.

A couple of months into my first semester my dog suddenly passed away. Now this was a dog I grew up with, he was my pal and honestly my main friend since I didn’t have many in HS. This was extremely difficult for me to handle- especially being so far away from home.. My coping mechanism? AT, lots and lots of AT with my new friends- they stuck with me for hours, even days, when I refused to leave my dorm room because I was so upset. Not only did this show get me through this arguable one of the darkest moments in my life, it also did something else at the time: my parents were trying to contact me everyday during this entire ordeal to check up on me- of course I told them about the show and how my friends and I would watch it. For the first time in years I was able to convince them to watch a cartoon..I wasn’t even trying to convince them, I believe they wanted to watch it maybe to relate? Have something to talk about with me other than my late dog? Or perhaps they saw the show was so comforting to me that it brought them comfort to watch it and connect with me since I was gone? Let’s just say I’ve never been able to convince them to watch any other cartoon since.

To keep it breif (lol) AT had a huge impact on my college life, I continued to bring the show to others’ attention. Marathoning it with new watchers and friends throughout my 4 years there. I had a collection of merch, I even dressed up as Finn and went reverse trick-or-treating with friends (aka we knocked on peoples doors and gave them candy). Quoting the show was basically 50% of my vocabulary (it sorta still is >w<) and I honestly believe it made me more confident in social situations. Heck my first DnD campaign was in The Land of Ooo! 

My next adventure was veterinary school where the show continued to help push me through those stressful and difficult days. At this point AT was plastered somewhere on my daily materials and because of this I often got asked about it. One time in particular I was asked about it after giving a research presentation to my lab that I was working in that summer. My research professor saw my Finn and Jake desktop background and asked what it was and commented “it looks very you, I’m curious.“ I don’t think I’ve ever smiled so hard in my life, especially after a presentation. I gave a brief synopsis and jokingly mentioned we should watch a couple of episodes at the next lab meeting.  WELL GUESS WHAT WE DID? During our last meeting I put on the episode From Bad to Worse because Science the rat saves the candy kingdom from a zombie disease- very relevant to our research :P and then afterwards I showed them my all time favorite episode (still fav) The Creeps. During this moment I thought- holy shit I can’t believe I’m watching Adventure Time with a bunch of highly educated, intellectual people in a research lab of a highly regarded institution- what is life???? It was certainly an experience I will never forget and probably never have again in this sort of setting. It probably is one of my fondest memories this show has brought me.

I continued to truck on through vet school; AT started to get that inconsistent airing schedule from CN which definitely made the show less prominent in my life especially with my increasingly busy schedule. That being said, it became so much a part of me- it was literally instant comfort when I saw anything related to the show. It was almost like, a home away from home. Throughout my clinical year (the last 1.5 years of vet school) I carried notebooks with Finn and Jake on them to take notes in. And even got an AT surgical cap. Some thought it was childish, but honestly I didn’t care. Some days were so hard and so shitty, I just needed something to look at to make me smile or feel even the slightest better. Funny enough, a lot of the clinicians would ask me about the show and some even knew what it was!

Finally we get to the present.. this poor show has dragged on, and I mean dragged on, due to the poor airing schedule on CN.  Honestly it has made me angry that CN treated this long-running series so poorly (and same for SU tbh). I believe this ending is being rushed as there are some lose ends that I don’t think will get tied up nicely. That being said, I’m happy the show will get AN ending and not some random meaningless last episode. 

Anyway I digress, it has been a long, crazy ride. Adventure Time has gotten me through some of the darkest and happiest moments of my life, including my extremely intense and difficult internship I’m going through right now. It has helped me forge friendships and start conversations, it has made me feel at home while being far away from home. “Homies help homies” is something I basically live by now and will probably continue to do so for the rest of my life. I know I can always rewatch the series, keep my merch around, and continue to share the show with others- however it is still very hard to let go knowing there will be no more TV adventures. I don’t want to compare it to when someone or something actually dies, but honestly? It sort of feels like that in a way, it feels like a part of my heart will die after it finishes and I guess that’s why it upsets me so. Maybe the fear of it losing relevance? Bringing it up to people and chatting about it casually won’t be a thing anymore? Or maybe it’s just the fear of knowing there will be nothing new and it will fade away. The only other show that has impacted me so much has been Yu Yu Hakusho since I grew up with it. I feel similarly about it, however I don’t talk about it as freely with random people. In addition, YYH was long finished after I got to watching the final episode. So while seeing the last episode makes me tear up each time, I don’t think it will feel quite like this will. Anyway, I unfortunately won’t even be able to watch the last episode as I have to go to work, but I when I am able to watch it I will surly be the hotest of hot messes. Thanks for all the adventures and support Adventure Time, you will be sorely missed.

[nowaybutnorway]

Wow, it’s hard to believe that season that I hold so near and dear to my heart is already a year old.  About a year ago today I was in Norway, I had just started to expose myself to the Tumblr Survivor community and play some side seasons, but now it was time to try myself out in the big leagues of a main season, so I signed up for Season 39 and never looked back, and now as I look back about a year later from the time we started this season, I feel blessed to have gotten to be in a season with all of y’all, you are my og tumblr survivor fam, and I figured what better way to celebrate today than collect all my thoughts about my 19 fellow castaways and hosts. I’m in a starbucks right now so hopefully I don’t bust into tears, but then again that wouldn’t be new for this one, so let’s begin.

Laure-Now Laure was probably the only person that I had no interaction with over the course of the entire season, just because of how tribe divisions were set up and all, but learning that over time I was playing with a ts legend, it inspired my frail newbie heart to no end, so Laure, despite not knowing you, thanks a billion from this fanboy <3

Dani-OK so contrary to popular belief, Dani met her demise to due to EVERYTHING GOING WRONG FOR HER.  Originally the plan was to vote out Eric, then Eric won immunity, then the plan was Danielle, but she went to Exile, so Dani became the next best option, and it was so awkward because I remember being in the HOS11 house on call when the tribal happened and people were talking about how they loved Dani, and as the votes kept coming in, I was just sitting there watching people’s jaws drop and then after I had to say....sorry about that.  But it was clear you did not deserved what happened to you, you were sick and the Darian v Dylan fiasco was just a damn mess that culminated with your demise, but despite of what you may think of me, I feel your tribal where you left was crucial to how I play games now, so thanks babes.

Angela-WORDS CANNOT DESCRIBE HOW MUCH I LOVE THIS GIRL. Now people may think that my closest alliance mate was Brian or Stevie, but you guys never knew Angela like I did, we ironically made an alliance day 1 called the Trashy King and Queen, an alliance I would later replicate with Ting Ting in Myanmar, and it was honestly a god send because she was the one person on Lipari I could trust, and she was honestly the most fun to talk to because all the newbies were like cracked, while Angela and I just talked about arson and ate popcorn, it was great to have her in my life, and my snaps had never been more LIT.  Then came swap and Angela peaced out like the boss she is, probably because Grace never gave her cheesecake, anyways I digress. Angela you were one of my favorite newbies to play with and its always a pleasure to see you pop up on snapchat, ily and nothing can ever change my first ts alliance with you, long live our trashy mess <3.

Eric-OK so prior to playing TS I had never gotten on call for a game before, so when Eric called me to talk game, I had NO idea how to do anything, it was 20 minutes of awkward talking, but it was clear to know that we weren’t gonna align anytime soon, but you know in my delusional manner I thought I had totally played him.......yeah I wasn't smart then and I’m not smart now. We later swapped with Brian onto the Alicuidi tribe, and while I had hoped newbies could be strong...he targeted me, but thanks to the lovely Stevie and his ability to connect with the First Boots, I was saved and Eric left.  I’m not sure exactly what I did to mess up our relationship but I’m sorry, I’ll give you a hug if I’m ever in Mass....again.

Darian-I feel what I have to say about you and Dylan are around the same lines so I may say look above for previous comment when I write something for Dylan, but DARIAN OH DARIAN, to say you made that first tribal interesting is an understatement.  I feel you taught me what not to do in games, you made me realize it was probs a mistake to start an alliance on call or be the center of attention, but DANG you were entertaining to say the least and that was no understatement.  You left me as fast as you came into my life and your rivalry with Dylan was funny as you both went out back to back after targeting each other so hard the first tribal, you definitely made my ts introduction a memorable one so thanks <3.  And when we reconvened in Westeros, I will admit you had grown a little as a player despite what people think, not a lot, but a little.  I’ll never know what happened on Salina but your exit was a quick one, who knows, maybe another Mass visit is in my future and I can see you and Ashley together cause she my Myanmar homegirl.

Dylan-(see comment above for jist) Now a special place Dylan has in my heart that separates him from Darian is the fact he was the first person in TS I was shady with, basically talking about what the heck Darian was doing and how in any world that would make sense.  Sufficed to say much more shade would follow, but thanks.

Jason-OK we literally did not have more than a 30 minute conversation in the game, but we talked about CBB and tbh that was a quick way to my heart so thank you.  While we never met up on a tribe, we connected ever so slightly, and you actually are the first person I got to give me ts memorabilia with Jenny, Hector and Jordan when you guys sent me a post card, it was nice and sweet and it’ll be on my TS wall for enternity.  We also played The Amazing Race together twice....but there are certain things we don’t talk about like how I was a mess in TAR4 and y’all got eliminated 2nd in TAR AllStars.  I love ya and miss ya <3 

Dalton-I’m just going to start off and say my #favoriteDaltonMoment was when we just swapped onto alicuidi and we were just talking about the most random things, and I think it was with you how fvf3 was going to be like on Survivor when they’d bring back Baylor and Cirie and we’d jump into the fire at f4 with them just so they could win and all would be right with the world, it was random, but tbh randomness is one of my more favorite things and I love ya for it.

Nic W-NIC I GOT A FEW WORDS FOR YOU, FIRSTABLE, how are you, hope you’re partying somewhere or some junk, but wow, we spent a decent amount of time together pre-merge, but our time at merge certainly DID NOT LAST LONG.  You went out in a unanimous style, and famously called out Brian, Stevie and I, all for being fake to your face, which is kinda funny cause I’m pretty sure you inadvertently called out our trio on accident, and the rest of merge was a nightmare trying to convince everyone we weren’t a trio when it was very clear we were.....so party.  One of the last great callouts of the tag era, so thank you <3

Max-MY OG AUSTRALIAN BAE.  It was a dream for my entire adult life to have a best friend from Australia, but as I couldn’t find one in Norway, I settled for the next best option and found one online in you <3.  Now in memory I don’t think there was ever a point where we worked together and that was a mess in a hand basket, but you still were great in your own ways.  My favorite thing was when you compared everyone to people from Eurovision of that year and it was amazing so thanks.  You left a special place for Australia in my heart and every main season I played since then I had played with an Australian, and despite loving Jimmy with all my heart from All Stars, you will always be somewhere in my heart.

Danielle-Please call me out again for going on too much during my ftc speech because that has changed my performances quite a bit, I mean I’ve lost everytime I showed up in a ftc since this season....BUT STILL IT MEANT A LOT.  Personally it sucked because as soon as we started working together at merge, those bums voted you out and that began me feeling worse and worse in the game.  I still believe you had one of the best ftc moments of all time because you called every one out and I loved every moment.  Congrats on winning Crusade, you deserved it <3

Stevie-Words cannot personally describe how I actually feel about you, and I feel you know that Baevie.  You were the first connection I made on any Survivor season EVER.  You took me into this community and showed me so much.  You gave me my first idol, showed me my first alliance, and once I lost in Rakiura, you not only showed me Myanmar, which I won for myself and the draft for you (my faved loved one too btw), you also got me into this season.  Now at the time I didn’t know we would be playing together again, but when I saw your beautiful bearded face pop up in the cast announcement, I kid you not I jumped for joy in my Norwegian room, because that meant I was going to be playing with my best friend in the community again and I was excited as all get out.  You took me in under your wing on alicuidi and we wrecked havoc, we got some idols, and we did some idol plays at merge.  You graciously gave me an idol when I asked and were always there to help me...until ftc where you didn’t vote for me to win, but lets be real, my performance was a train wreck, you made the right choice.  Once the votes tied during the round we got the votes on JC, my heart dropped because that meant I would have to campaign against the person who mattered the most to me in the community and the pain I went through to muster up the strength to was unbearable but I did anyway, and I played my hardest as I knew you wanted me to do if you were there in my place.  You not only gave me so much in the game but so much in life, I’m not sure if I can ever make it up to you for how things played out during the season but I will sure as hell try, I love you Stevie, never change.  And thanks btw for letting me sleep with you, it was a great night ;)

Danny-DANNY OMG. K so firstable, I think you know when I say this I mean it, I GLUCKIN LOVE YOU.  You’re so funny and I love when you just pop up out of nowhere with several puns and its great and ily, but god, you were a terrifying force in that game because you could gather SO many people at merge it was ridiculous.  Your demise was also probably the move that I was proudest in my entire career and something I’m sure I could never replicate ever again, but dang was it fun.  I may not be able to go to six flags with you but I’ll be there in spirit forever, love ya.

Jenny-Jenny you’re probably one of my best friends to come out of this season, and that’s why I will always feel awful for how I organized your demise, but in retrospect you have to admit it was clever, not managed well but clever.  You sent me my first TS memorabilia, and I love it with all my heart, and whenever I come to you about my personal life, you’re always so happy to hear it and I lvoe you for it, and whenever I lose a season.......you’re kinda mean but to be fair I come to you crying about an online game, when its very clear MUCH worse has happened to more people so I’m sure that harshness is out of love so thank you.  You were probably the person I never thought of working with at merge because you not only sold me out at the beginning but you also voted me out when Stevie and I were tied to leave......but you also helped me pull off the Danny blindside so thank you, ily, and I can’t wait to see you come home and hopefully I get to see you for my TS birthday party.

Nick-NICK WITH A K, you were the last newbie to go out before ftc, and to be fair you were one of the most level headed people playing this game, and it was great to have someone who despite being amongst some of the most cracked people, could stay calm and semi-reasonable.  I look at your vote off as one of the biggest mistakes cause maybe had I voted off Van I would’ve won.....but at that point I had already pissed off most of the jury, plus I thought I could beat Van....OH HELL WAS I WRONG, but still, you made for a fun time and were a sound mind for me in the first tribal we went to as Lipari....cause god we didn’t need anymore crazy.

JC-next.....JUST KIDDING, you think I would dare forget about you, I could never.  You hold many special places in my heart.  You were the first to call me out during a challenge, but it was so entertaining in retrospect, you also tried organizing my demise at final 5, but watching your face and those of the other first boots drop when I won immunity after 1 question, thus ruining your predetermined plans, was PRICELESS, it was great to organize your demise after that because it almost felt like Karma, but after the season I could not love you more bae.  You may not have voted for me, but you are the only person from Aeolian I played with ever again, because we All Stars baby <3, now while we didn’t get to play together, it was still a blast to be reunited with an Aeolian bae again, and I’m sure we could’ve take that game....ok maybe not taken it, but still we could’ve rented it and had a good time, but alas no, only in our dreams.

John-John....I love you, you and I were like baes for the longest time now, and tbh I was about to vote you out in Myanmar because I was sketched out by you, but then Aeolian started and you and I were in a season together, and so that plan had to be re-routed to voting out Kylie, but YA KNOW. I could never not be blessed to have you in my life CoffeyCakes, you’re that important, you came to see me in Massachusetts and it was honestly a blast, partially cause you got to see me get voted out in All Stars but still.  Sitting next to you in FTC in Myanmar was one of my most favorite memories ever, and you’ll always be near and dear to me <3

Brian-Literally what can I say about you besides being the best purchase I ever made on ebay tbh (that one’s for you JC <3) but in all seriousness at the beginning of the season, I never thought I could ever meet someone like you, you seemed to always be there for me and we became brothers in a sense, we went through the entire season, we played our way from the bottom, every move that I made during Aeolian, you were there, by my side throughout all of it, almost not the Danny move, but that told me I had to play the idol so thanks bae.  You not only were my confidant this season, but through so much of my life afterwards, we still stay in contact even after a year has passed, and I could not be happier to be honest.  Yes you maybe messy, but you’re my mess and I wouldn’t have you any other way babes.  I’m happy you won Lazio, and if anyone tells you otherwise they’re lying.  You were my rock and I hope you stay in my life for many years to come babes, I hope everything goes your way.

Van-Now to one of the most important people in the season tbh.  Now when we first met, I never thought in a million years I would lose to you.....and I was honestly pissed when I found out that hey, that was gonna happen, but that was in the moment and I feel we were both heated at that moment, but you know what, I’ve learned the value of your game and that is one of the most impressive that I’ve ever witnessed to be honest.  Your game reminded me of Michelle from Kaoh Rong, and if you were Michelle, I was Aubrey I think.....I could also be dreaming, but your social game was that on point and it was bloody impressive and I love it.  You earned your win and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise, because it was amazing.  I one day hope to achieve your level of sociability and unlock my innerVan as you say to me whenever I begin to play a new season...that I later flop in but that’s besides the point, you’re an inspiration, a lovely person and iconic and I love you so much <3

And finally our hosts for the season Grace, Ryan and Intern turned mom Emma, y’all took a chance on me that Bora Bora never gave me and gave me a random chance to shine and I could not be more grateful, through this season I met such an important family, but I was also able to accomplish moves that I don’t think I could ever do again.  You introduced me into a community that holds such a close place in my heart and I could not thank you guys enough for it.

So in the end thank you Aeolian Islands, though you were hell to get through, you gave me a family, and a community, and I’m forever grateful.  Thanks for making me a favorite in Myanmar and an All Stars, you mean the world <3  Happy Anniversary, and Gratulerer Med Dagen

-Fra Steffen Reals

[benandcoblog]

Reaching for the Sky w/ Derrick Bozkurt

Have a fear of heights? I’m pretty sure we all do, whether you’re on a ladder painting grandma Betty’s house or flying a drone and have that weird fight or flight response just seeing that imagery may scare you. Today, is a phenomenal day because I’m chatting with Derrick Bozkurt who has been a long time friend and colleague for various projects. Our first project together was with a company called Archon Games which was working on a first person shooter RPG called "TechnoWizard" ahhhh, the memories.

Derrick is also currently working in real estate but beating the status quo by aiding consumers with visuals in Virtual Reality (VR) and Drone Photography in both consumer and commercial real estate.  

Ben Libby: Remember the time we worked together at Archon Games, and you were the lead sound engineer? What made you transition from video games to doing photography, virtual reality and aerial photography?

Derrick Bozkurt: I do remember those days! They were great indeed, and we all had a ton of fun working on the “TechnoWizard” project together. Video games have always been my favorite form of visual entertainment, and I was excited to get to lend an ear to its soundscape. That was one of my first gigs coming right out of audio engineering school, and I had the opportunity to work on various other projects – Some with you as well – as a sound designer and composer as time went on. The Flying Cloud projects we were a part of were ahead of their time, and I’ll never forget some of the field recording sessions for our CGI monster, or overdubbing myself 100x to create a crew anthem. One of my other favorites was a game called “Z-Day”, which was an ambitious “Zombie-Survival MMO” back in 2009. Although some of these projects never saw a major release, I learned a ton, and made some great connections that I still keep in touch with today.

Photography has always been a passion of mine as well, and throughout my teens onward, I oftentimes had a camera in hand or nearby, documenting all sorts of adventures. While in college, I even got to take some classes back when they were still teaching them out of darkrooms. There is nothing quite like developing your first roll of film, and seeing the projected images literally appear before your eyes. I remember when my family got our first digital camera – It was a 1 megapixel Kodak, and it was amazing at the time. During my tenure at Apple, I was always impressed with the image quality increases year over year in regards to mobile devices. Seeing how the field has changed and adapted through the years has been very interesting, and when technologies that enabled feature rich virtual reality and flying 4k cameras became affordable, I had to be an early adopter of these new perspectives.

Nowadays, I use the skillset I have developed in these areas to also complement some of my other endeavors. Being able to apply these technologies in my own business has enabled me to provide a comprehensive set of products in the real estate and media services that I offer.

BL: DJI among others releases a lot of different aerial products, what has been your favorite so far? Can you go in depth about features?

DB: My first DJI drone was one of their Phantom series. I had been closely following the company during their earlier years, and was really impressed with what they had been able to accomplish in the arena of consumer drones in general - It’s crazy how far they have come just in past few years. My favorite ‘prosumer’ model from them is the Phantom 4 series. I honestly have not had the opportunity to fly their bigger rigs yet, but would love to get my hands on them. However, having recently picked up their Mavic Air model, I have to say that it is currently my favorite, largely because of the sheer portability of it. Even though the whole thing can fit in your pocket, you still get a 4k/60 FPS; 1080p/120 FPS camera with a 100 Mbps bit rate. Although the sensor is a little smaller, even the 12 MP stills turn out great, and being able to shoot in RAW is great. Furthermore, some of their secondary features such as pre-programmed video captures, 360 photography, and gesture controls really add to the overall package. Rumor has it, they will be releasing a new addition to their lineup this summer, so I’m looking forward to seeing that.

BL: When on a photography or video campaign up in the sky, have you ever lost a drone? If so, how did you feel?

DB: Fortunately, I have never lost a drone to date; the safety and location features of the ones I fly are actually very good. As long as one knows how to set them up, and fly with care, it’s actually pretty difficult to get yourself into much trouble. There have definitely been some adrenaline-inducing moments when the quad loses remote control reception and you have to rely on these safety measures, but I have not experienced any problems yet. I do also have a standalone GPS locator that I affix to mine whenever I feel the need, which mitigates the risk of a lost drone even further.

BL: Would you ever try to ride one of those human drones? (Apparently they use them in Dubai for filming). If you lost control, what would you do?

DB: Haha, I have seen a couple of those – Reminds me of those single-infantry flying machines the military was developing back in the 50’s & 60’s. Although the technology behind our modern products is great, nothing is ever perfect or truly fail safe. I doubt I would ever get on one of the current generation ones without enough altitude and a parachute just in case something did happen!

BL: You had a big transition going from Audio to Video / VR, what have been some experiences or failures you learned along the way?

DB: There are definitely some large and important differences between these fields and technologies. However, audio, music, video, virtual reality. . . They are all just components to the greater product or experience being created, and I am thankful to have the opportunity to learn and practice all of them. Taking into consideration how to weave visual aspects, sound design, and music all together can really make or break an experience. These components each draw upon our different senses, with the goal of creating a unified experience itself. The best creators I have seen are experts at knowing how to play these elements off each other, and this is something that I strive for myself in my own productions.

For example, one might have limited options in making a certain transition or cut from one scene to another in a film. The mood, atmosphere, and general tone of the next scene may be radically different. In situations like this, transitioning into the next sequence by the creative use of sound and/or music can make subliminally prepare the viewer, making that transition much more pleasing and natural.

Some of the most interesting challenges that face the industry right now is implementation of audio in a virtual reality environment. When it comes to determining positions and spaces in the real world, our ears are incredible pieces of hardware, and rely on a complex balance of phase, amplitude, environmental physics, and even the dimensions of our own heads that ultimately gets translated by our brains. Emulating this same type of experience in a virtual world is one of the more interesting challenges of virtual reality. There are some incredible tools out there that are truly at the forefront of their respective fields, and it is exciting to see the changes and improvements as this field continue to evolve.

I think the most important failures I have learned from all stemmed from situations that arose unexpectedly that I did not have a pre-emptive recourse for. Situations like failing gear, bad weather, scheduling short sights or the like happen to the best of us. Of course, you cannot really account for every variable that you might encounter in the field, and there is also that aspect of spontaneity that you also need to balance. Being able to adjust on the fly in any situation is imperative, and keeping your post production skills up to speed is always helpful. Sometimes, these originally perceived failures can actually turn into some of your best work, so a lot of it is mindset and perspective. The best any one can do is take account for what they have control over, have a backup plan, and be ready to adapt in your work.

BL: For those who want to get more into aerial photography, what would you recommend to get started? Any specific drone models, hardware or software?

DB: For aerial photography and videography specifically, I recommend going with one of DJI’s Mavic or Phantom series. Both of these lineups have a few versions that pack various features, depending on what you’re after, and will be less risky that throwing a few thousand dollars-worth of hardware into the air for the first time. You can really get a lot out of the source material I post production; and Adobe has probably the best all around editing suite for photo/video. Personally, I use Adobe products for photography, and Final Cut for video in most of my work.

After getting started, if you have determined to make this a source of income, or take on some bigger projects, it is imperative to get your Part 107 sUAS license from the FAA. Firstly, it is a legal requirement if you are doing any sort of commercial work with your drone. Secondly, you will learn quite a bit about reading flight charts, contacting air traffic control, weather, and other factors that may have an impact on your operations. Education is key for so many things, and have definitely helped me avoid expensive mistakes, and recover from compromised situations.  

Derrick Bozkurt lives and works in Denver, Colorado, and spends his time working in the fields of real estate, UCAAS, and media production.  

https://www.linkedin.com/in/debozkurt

https://www.facebook.com/himcolorado/

https://twitter.com/HIMColorado

http://himcolorado.com

https://www.instagram.com/derrick.bozkurt/