#that song is S A D
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i like it when you hug me (‘cause i kind of feel you love me)
| leah williamson x reader | trigger warning for mentions of depression and self-loathing. please read at your own discretion!
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“Hey…”
The voice echoing through the room had you burrowing yourself impossibly deeper into your comforter, nearly hiding your face beneath the blanket- the light peeking in from the hallway very much unwelcome in the dark room.
Shaking your head, you let out a shaky breath, quickly running your sleeve over your botched face, wiping it in case the quilt was moved away from you.
Stilling your movements, you listened carefully, on alert as Leah’s hesitant footsteps headed closer to the bed- closer to you.
With each subsequent step, you found yourself wishing she hadn’t entered the room at all and the self-aware part of you felt a pang of guilt bloom from your chest, mentally chastising yourself for being so selfish.
Please don’t care about me. Please just turn and leave.
You swallowed hard as the voices in your head spoke, eyes widening as you felt the bed dip. Curling in on yourself and shuffling backwards, you buried yourself further into the sheets.
Right now, all you wanted to be was alone. The kind of alone where your phone doesn’t make a sound, even though your ringer’s on blast. The alone where your door doesn’t move, not by a single millimetre, because no one’s coming in but you. The alone where it’s heartbreakingly lonely, achingly so, but you can’t think of a single person to call. You just wanted to be alone.
Holding your breath as the blonde neared your lumpy form, you waited cautiously for her next move- body on alert, ready to move further back at the slightest of touch.
You weren’t you right now and she most definitely didn’t need to witness that first hand- it was already embarrassing enough that you were hiding out in your shared bedroom all day, avoiding your girlfriend like the bubonic plague.
Lips moving but no sound coming out, you mouthed a silent plea to the universe, begging that she didn’t come closer. You didn’t know how badly you’d break if she did- and you didn’t want to find out.
Unluckily Luckily for you, almost as if your silent prayers were heard, Leah didn’t reach out for you, hand staying firmly put in the space between.
Smiling sadly to yourself, you didn’t know whether to laugh or cry at her lack of touch, hand itching to pull her close, devil on your shoulder telling you to push her so far she forgot she was your home.
Taking a silent shuddering breath, pleading for the assault of thoughts in your head to go away, you did your best to be quiet. You tried your hardest not to acknowledge her presence, instead hoping she’d go soon enough. She didn’t need to be around you when you were like this. No one did. No one deserved that.
Quietly praying she’d leave you be, that she’d make this easy on you, you slowly moved your hand to wipe it on the bottom of your hoodie, hands sweating nervously.
I’m asleep. You can go. I’m perfectly fine.
The words you wanted to say but couldn’t- the lump in your throat holding you back.
Rather, you waited patiently for her to make a move, one that hopefully got you out of this situation without too many cruel words said, in your mind or elsewhere.
Unfortunately for you, regardless of the absolute pitch-black darkness in your room, Leah caught the movement, softly speaking when she realised you were most definitely awake.
“How we feeling about dinner?”
You stayed quiet at her words, hoping she’d convince herself you were asleep and leave.
You let the uncomfortable silence rest in your bones, its familiar presence a comfort.
You didn’t deserve to be taken care of. Especially not after how you’d hidden yourself away in your shared bedroom all day- ignoring Leah, the skipper being nothing if not understanding, letting you be as you pulled away. You didn’t deserve it and your brain did a hell of a job reminding you so.
Pity’s what brought her here- a clear look at you and she’ll run.
The long silence that accompanied the voice in your head was uncomfortable but you were used to it.
Taking small breaths to not make a sound, you felt your chest tighten with each passing second that she stayed.
I don’t want you here. I don’t want you here. Not for me but because you deserve better.
The words repeated in your head as your heart constricted, tired of you and wanting to be wrapped around your lover’s arms as much as you wanted her to go away.
It seemed like Leah knew as much, her shuffling closer to you and you could soon tell she was lying on the bed beside you.
“I know you’re awake…”
Her whispered words had your body tensing, any hope that you had of her leaving washing away as your leg vibrated restlessly.
You felt her gently tug on the edge of your quilt and you contemplated resisting, wanting to tuck yourself away in a cocoon but not being able to bring yourself to do so, guilt resting heavy on your shoulders.
Instead you slowly gave in to the skipper’s prodding, wincing as the cool air of the room hit you, reddened eyes and blotchy cheeks making themselves known in the dim light.
Shutting your eyes closed as her face came into view, you tried to shake the image of her pitiful gaze from your mind.
You deserve better. You deserve better. You deserve better than me.
The words continued to repeat, an echo in your otherwise silent mind.
You shouldn’t love me. You shouldn’t love me. You shouldn’t love me. You should leave.
Clenching your jaw, you missed the way Leah’s face softened at your clear distress.
She knew your mental health wasn’t the best, but she never got to witness just how poor it really got- not until now at least.
The way you had sluggishly left your bed nearly two hours after your alarm this morning- how you had hid from her all day, not bothering to have anything more than a few spoonfuls of yogurt for breakfast, completely foregoing lunch, and now, quite possibly dinner. The signs were clear, you weren’t fine.
You weren’t okay, not one bit, but if Leah had anything to say on it, she ached to tell you it was okay.
It was okay to not be you today, not when she was here, you didn’t have to run and hide.
But she couldn’t tell you right now, not with the way you barely met her gaze, head tucked in the crook of your elbow, tear-stricken cheeks just barely hidden, body tense.
So instead she placed a gentle hand on your shoulder, moving the arm on your face to the side as her hands travelled to your torso.
Tugging gently, the blonde pulled you into her embrace, hands coming to wrap around your midsection as you complied, tucking yourself into her side, too tired to protest.
If words weren’t what you wanted to hear, then she’d speak to you with her touch.
Continuing her efforts, you let out a small sigh as her hand came to smooth your messy hair, scratching your scalp gently, just how she would when she’d comfort you after a tough loss.
The ministrations coupled with the faint touch of her rubbing circles on your back, and you could feel your body relax, gears in your mind beginning to slow as your hands shyly made their way to grab fistfuls of her hoodie, not wanting the comfort to leave- not wanting her to leave.
Surprised at the Englishwoman’s actions, you burrowed your face into the crook of her neck as you felt the knot around your heart loosen just a tad bit, a grateful breath escaping you.
You sunk into her grasp as you ignored the dying voices yelling in your head, your weight rest wholly on top of the midfielder's body, back muscles going slack as you let her warmth break through the iciness plaguing you.
Thank you for staying, for being patient, for caring.
The words went unspoken whilst you waited as the rock in your throat to slowly shrink.
And as a minute passed and then two, her grasp on you only getting stronger, more assuring, you couldn't help be grateful.
All your unsaid words from earlier finally had the chance to be spoken now, chest light, speech coming easy.
Letting yourself snuggle into Leah’s hold, feeling her place a soft kiss on your crown, you finally had a breath of comfort, nearly crying in relief.
Though the voices in your head didn’t quite disappear, she made living a bit easier, the simple act of breathing no longer a chore.
It’s why your murmured words finally came easy, heart floating, your grip tightening in adoration.
“I love you.”
#fuck it not proofread#based on the song half hearted by we three#s/o to the one person from the poll that listens to we three! :D#leah williamson x reader#leah williamson imagine#leah williamson#woso one shot#woso fanfics#woso x reader#woso imagine#woso#woso community#my writing#blurb#iliwyhm#hurt/comfort
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˚✧₊⁎ imagine you and your f/o going to a good old fashioned roller disco!! which one of you is the more confident skater, while the other hangs onto the side of the rink for dear life? perhaps you're both a little nervous, holding one another's hand to keep stable! or maybe the two of you are naturals, turning heads as you spin together in the middle of the floor!
pro.ship dni
#also feel free to put in the tags what song(s) you'd be skating to!! :D#trying out a different format for this one#i hope you guys like it!!#selfship#selfshipping#selfship imagines#f/o#f/o imagines#f/o prompts#selfship community#f/o community#romantic selfship#queerplatonic selfship#platonic selfship#familial selfship#romantic f/o#queerplatonic f/o#platonic f/o#familial f/o#n's imagines 💭
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I don't know what you're feeling.
Sorrow is a season.
Everything that hurts will pass.
I promise you the hurt won't last.
I'm all yours.
Tell me all that you lost.
I don't know if I can fix it, but I promise you I'll listen.
Find your peace in my arms.
💜🖤💜🖤💜🖤
#soul connections#connections#connection#lovers#intimacy#desire#soul connection#d/s#song lyrics#music lyrics#d/s relationship#d/s dynamic#all yours#relationship#lover#couples#intimate moments#good morning#goodnight
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our past is a foreign country, our neighborhoods have changed. i was the fool who got l u c k y. you were the fool who flew s t r a i g h t. (insp).
#top gun maverick#top gun#topgunmaverickedit#filmedit#filmgifs#top gun edit#tgmedit#pete maverick mitchell#nick goose bradshaw#top gun maverick gifs#tgm#filmtvdaily#stars gifs#stars tg edits#topgundaily#tom cruise#tomcruiseedit#LISTEN. I JUST THINK 'SOUVENIR' BY THE MIDNIGHT IS A DEPRESSINGLY ACCURATE SONG FOR MAV. IS THAT A CRIME OR WHAT#anyways this was my first time doing uhhhh any of this and i'm sure it's glaringly obvious so pls be gentle 😭😭 idk what im doinggg#i am just possessed by An Emotion and i HAVE to do something about it#and today's emotion was S A D#that is all <3<3#mine#IDK. SOMETHING ABOUT MAVERICK NEVER GETTING TO KEEP ANYONE. SMTH ABT BRADLEY BEING THE LAST CONNECTION TO GOOSE#AND TO CAROLE. AND BEING TAKEN AWAY FROM HIM TOO. (and just the fact that he loses bradley at all of course).#SMTH ABT MAV ALWAYS BEING THE GHOST LEFT BEHIND. smth about mav being surrounded by ghosts all the time.#i could go on but i shan't#i have been staring at photoshop so long i hate everything and regret having eyes the last thing in the world i can do rn is be articulate
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proti toku
#vision so incomprehensible it’s kinda embarrassing#untitled joker out discography project#joker out#okay it all started with that the number you are calling sequence in the song right?#i really wanted to draw bisexual nokia but razr v3 came to me in a dream and i couldn’t stop thinking about it#then i was like f i s h ‼️‼️‼️ salmon goes against the current#right??#bloody mary is here bc i was craving it :D#i really like this abomination of unrelated concepts tho#2024
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it is the slapper of all slappers
#daft punk#my serenity song#alive 2007#if i stop listening to this song i am truly dead#it’s part of my soul#makes me a s c e n d#masterpiece
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Times they had to say goodbye — [3/4]
Pocahontas (1995)
#he kissed her H a n d#pocahontas (1995)#disney pocahontas#pocajohn#pocahontas x john smith#pocajohn so long and farewell#pocahontasedit#pocahontasgif#disneyedit#disneygif#disneyfeverdaily#fyeahpocahontas#disney john smith#pocahontas#john smith#queso*edit#queso*gif#we talk about john's lines all the time but what about pocahontas's breathy lil ''i can't leave you'' ???????#my god.#i've noticed a very tiny little thing maybe about pocahontas and that is she tends to be a bit of a fatalist#she can very quickly turn to absolutes before she's made to slow down and reason with herself#so she get a lot of language like 'can and can't' or 'always and never'#she also is very intellectually focused.#her lines in the song they cut refer to her ''knowing'' versus john's ''feeling'' the love they share#there's a lot more to look at here but i'm all fucked up bc the original storyboards for this scene#also had another kiss in here. which is Crazy that's THREE KISSES#wh o re s
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“I miss you more than anything”
textless version + more under cut !!
#he just misses his dad(s)#the song francis forever just always reminds me of him idk#ironically tho this wasn't even the song I had in mind when I started#plans changed halfway through lol#kinda vent art?#one piece#one piece fanart#fanart#trafalgar d. water law#trafalgar d. water law fanart#labrart#trafalgar law#trafalgar law fanart#op#op fanart
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MiqoMarch Day 6: Road
♫ Adriana Figueroa - 'Wanderer's Lullaby'
#mine#miqomarch#ahru hiraeth#this started with a lot more actual 'road' pictures and a different song#but then i gave this a listen instead and liked how some of the lyrics lined up with the images and changed it all up X''D#ps if you see the mistake[s] no you don't
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could you do rowland s howard blinkies pls???
YES OMG ROWLAND BLINKIES YAY I HOPE YOU LIKE THEMMMMMM
here's a bonus nick & anita lane one as welll cos i found this picture while i was looking for ones & rowland & really like it lol
#thanks for the ask!!#storm tag :D#blinkies#flashing#rowland s howard#my art#yay hehe#was reminded while i was doing these that sleep alone & girl called jonny are brilliant songs like uagaauaiaaoioaiaoaoaooaoao yesssss
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favourite stupid relationship dynamic: idiots who would immediately protect and defend the other but never themself
#still thinking about how lxl just takes whatever life throws at them without fighting back (esp in the lxl movie)#so it was up to the other (mainly yujiro) to do the protecting (of aizo) since he was clearly not going to do anything about it#poor yujiro never fought back against the longleg/shortleg until aizo was brought up… no sense of self-preservation with that one#‘you can mess with me but not my bf!!!!!’ kind of energy#ig aizo did kind of defend yujiro in the [redacted] anime ep 4 nonsense and pointless scandal scene but that’s about it…#give aizo more chances to play the hero for his cute bf!!!!! the princess carry wasn’t enough!!!!#though. ngl it’s kinda funny how aizo’s always portrayed as the husband and yujiro the wife in their r/s (see: meoto)#but yujiro is always the one fighting for aizo’s honour. l&k novel (i think; still havent read it). lxl movie. chizu hallway scene (kind of)#and even in honeypre he got aizo the werewolf costume (instead of the pumpkin). he was the one who gave aizo a gift on white day (like a bf)#he even turned aizo into a worried wife when he (the bumbling husband) wandered out till late in kyoto to look for a *phone strap*#hm. well. im not sure what the point im trying to make is other than the fact that lxl are idiots for each other ig#they may be really really stupid but they love(?) and support each other (in a sense)… two menaces in a pod.#they should just get married (again)#though speaking of lxl marriage remember when that music magazine spread misinfo about how meoto was set in the sengoku era#and everyone believed it? the mv sure shocked everyone in more ways than one lmaooooooo#lxl twt was on fire that day. ‘horns??? a fantasy setting????? what happened to the sengoku era?????’ it was so funny you h a d to be there#but. hm. we’ve had quite a lxl content drought… disregarding the [redacted] mv they havent been seen in 4 months#throwing out a guess that they’ll get a new song for a winter comiket cd or sth. idk#sure hope that lxl do not get a new song or mv before kimikawaii release though bc that’d be unfairrrrrrrrr
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Sometimes words are not enough Sometimes you just need to kill someone
#strangulation tw#the link is “20 ways to kill someone” by phosgore because the song is fitting#great way to introduce a self insert me thinks :]#he deserves it :)#first time doing a pose like that. hope it looks alright :D#+ used a different brush than i normally used. i like the less smooth lineart reinforce the emotions in it#i guess (?)#NOT SELFSHIP RELATED. I REALLY WANT TO CLARIFY FOR THIS!! THIS IS NOT A SELFSHIP!#mouthwashing game#mouthwashing#mouthwashing fanart#self insert#cw: blood#cw: eyestrain#my art#f/o blog#proships dni#reblogs > likes :D#s/i tag ->#🦅💽
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sad girl sad songs 🖤
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me and cinderella, we put it all together.
#ffxiv#ffxiv gpose#estinien varlineau#estinien wyrmblood#estinien x wol#estinien#oc: nara#my edits#ship: it's only you that matters#i am o b s e s s e d with this song for them tbh.#they said she died easy of a broken heart disease as i listened through the cemetery trees????#come on????
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ST Junk Journals [5]: Billy Hargrove
#i promise i’m done fixating on these now lmao#i can’t think of anyone else when i listen to this song#song: DNA by Lia Marie Johnson#billy hargrove#billy antis dni#eyes like yours can look away; but you can’t stop DNA#billy hargrove edit#🌌 — e d i t s#st junk journals
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It's 2009 and Jack is in the passenger seat of his mother's car. She is driving him directly from the hospital to a place that has a pleasant sounding name that lets his parents talk about it in terms that obscure what it is and why Jack's going there. His mother turned down the radio when they got in the car, like maybe they might have a conversation. Jack is staring out the window with his headphones on, blank-faced while Thom Yorke croons "for a minute there, I lost myself."
#omgcp#jack zimmermann#there are some more painfully on point songs than Karma Police but this line always makes me think of Jack#once you've addressed the issues that led you down that kind of path#you need a way to move on from it and stop torturing yourself with whatever choices or mistakes you made#is Jack more likely to have some sports quote or metaphor as a mantra than a song lyric? perhaps#but that does not serve my Jack Zimmermann like(s/d) Radiohead agenda
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