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theredpandaserver · 3 years ago

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S1 Ep 2: Self Image

Morning Greeting:

Good morning everyone and welcome to episode two of the podcast, I’m your host Rinn and today I am feeling great, I woke up this morning and relaxed in bed for a while and later I made some breakfast and instead of cooking I made some cinnamon fiber cereal. I didn’t want to be too lazy so I added some fresh blackberries and sliced strawberries and I don’t know about you guys listening but I’m lactose intolerant so I only buy almond milk. I know there’s a ton of other substitutes like soy milk and oat milk and actually so many people are saying that oat milk is a lot better than almond milk, especially if you order at Starbucks a lot I feel like every time I go there with a friend or something and I order a iced coffee with almond milk they always question if I ever tried oat milk before and would try to recommend it to me, I’m definitely not like fully against getting out of my comfort zone and trying new things so I would one hundred percent try it, maybe wait until next week’s episode to hear about whether or not I actually did and if I like it or not because I have some grocery shopping that I plan on doing Friday before I go on this mini vacation and that’s another story for another time obviously but anyways let’s go ahead and jump into the first topic of discussion for today because actually I really did put a lot of thought and effort into this episode so that it could actually be listenable if that’s even a word.

Opening Topic: You Are Who You Surround Yourself With

So I wanted to touch base on what I talked about in the first episode, mostly because I know that the first one was kind of all over the place and unorganized so this discussion will bring a bit of method to all that madness that once was the previous episode and I’m hoping that I can offer you all a bit of consistency and order and not just jump all over the place but I won’t make any promises. Let’s talk about how You Are Who You Surround Yourself With, okay. I did go a little in depth about what this meant to me but I felt the need to reiterate this point in particular because I truly didn’t do it justice love like I don’t know what else you want me to say. Quick side note as well before I continue, please don’t get mad at me if I delete the original first episode of the podcast because I was thinking about that but it’s not one hundred percent in motion yet, it might happen but also it might not, you’re just going to have to wait and see.

When you think about society and how everyone interacts with each other, today especially, you’ll notice that everyone has one thing in common. We all want to fit in or be accepted by our family or peers. Sometimes in order to feel or be accepted in certain groups we even often find ourselves doing things like smoking or drinking alcohol socially, gossiping, or even doing things that completely go against all our morals and beliefs.

When I say, “you are who you surround yourself with” this is exactly what I’m referring to. Hanging out with a group of friends, those friends start gossiping about someone that they don’t even know and you participating in that gossip so that you can be included in the conversation. Here’s a less toxic example, let’s say me and you are best friends and I wanted to go for a hike this afternoon but I didn’t want to do it alone. Even if you’ve never been hiking with me before, I decided to call and invite you to hike with me since we’re such good friends. If you’re bored or have nothing better to do you’re most likely going to say yes and go on this hike we me regardless of wether you actually really want to or not. As your friend, if we hang out everyday and I’m making healthy decisions, you’re probably going to as well.

The overall moral of the discussion is surround yourself with people that are going to bring out the best in you and promote positivity in your life because when you’re around positive energy, you’re almost guaranteed to life a fuller and more rewarding life than you would have lived around unhappy, unhealthy and negative individuals. I think that’s all I wanted to say in a nutshell about that topic and with that being said let’s take a short break for a moment and touch base on another topic afterwards.

Break: Discord Promotion

Have you ever gotten on the internet and thought to yourself “wow, I would love to find a social group I could join to make new, non-toxic friends to just talk about my day and have fun with” well you’re in luck because this week’s podcast is brought to you by the discord server The Red Panda. The Red Panda is a wholesome family-like community server that offers a relaxing and non-toxic environment where you can really get to know our members and participate in fun activities such as weekly anime streams, nitro giveaways, non profit organization promotions and so much more. With a wide variety of members all over the globe, there’s never a dull moment in The Red Panda, join using the invite code https://discord.gg/NFbTQa64Vk discord dot g g, forward slash, capital N F, lowercase b, capital T Q, lowercase a, 6 4 capital V lowercase k. To gain full access to the server, visit the guidelines tab and react to the verification post at the top of the channel using the green check mark symbol.

Main Topic: Self Image

First of all if you’ve made it this far and you’re still listening I want to say thank you for tuning in today. The main topic for this weeks podcast is going to be about your self image. So self image looks very different for a lot of people, now for me personally this is something that I really struggle with being positive about like I could wake up one day and look in the mirror and say wow I look really good today but then the next day I might look in the mirror and I don’t even recognize the person that’s looking back at me and I think I look completely repulsive even though literally nothing changed about my physical appearance from day one to day two. I honestly can’t explain why I do this because even I don’t really understand it and if I could like completely cut that out trust me I would. I would very much rather walk around feeling like the hottest shit on the entire Earth than to be insecure about my own self image for even half a second.

I think a big part of having a good and strong self image towards yourself is really faking it until you make it. You genuinely have to convince yourself day in and day out that you are beautiful, you are perfect, you are enough and you are loved so that you can eventually really start to feel those things from yourself. When you think about it, love is dedication and consistency, if you have that dedication to take the time treat yourself right and you’re consistent about doing it then soon after, you’re really going to find that positive self image that you worked so hard to build and I promise you’re going to enjoy every moment of it.

Everyone tuning in today, I want us to take a moment to really do some self care together to help build our self image. Maybe you already have the a great self image and you love everything about yourself, that’s perfect, good for you. This is just a fun mental exercise for everyone to do just to see how consistent you can really be and how you feel about yourself afterwards. When you wake up in the morning, for the rest of the week I want you to look in whatever mirror you have in your home and just tell yourself that you love yourself and that you’re enough or whatever other affirmations you want to remind yourself about each day. Then at the end of the week you can comment down below how you’re feeling or you can join the discord server and talk to me and the rest of the community directly and it can just be a fun little activity for everyone to get involved with. If you quit halfway through that’s okay! If you did it the entire week, that’s awesome and if you didn’t do it at all but you still tuned into the podcast then that’s perfectly fine! It’s all up to you guys and who knows maybe I’ll do it and forget about it or give up after a few days or so or maybe even get through the whole week, either way I’ll be right here again next week and I’ll try to remember to give you all a personal update on here as well as in the discord server with all of you, it’ll be a fun game in the end either way.

Wrap Up: Rebranding

So I’m sure you all noticed that there have been a few minor changes in the discord server and there’s a few more things that are still being worked on and will definitely come some time soon in the future. We’re currently in the process of not just rebranding but just finding ourselves in general. Who are we and what do we represent? What kind of impression do we want to leave on the future members of our community and what kind of activities do we want this community to even have?

Quite literally everything is still up for debate and is kind of just floating around in the air, waiting for a final decision. If you have a idea of what you would like the server to look like, how it should operate or what activities we should have please let us know down below or in the chat about it with us in the server about all your great ideas and watch them come to life.

Last Words

Thank you guys so much again for tuning into this episode of podcast and for supporting us and being part of our community, I think a good name for this podcast could be The Red Pandas Table, let me know what you all think about that. I’m your host Rinn and I had fun chatting with you all today, technically it’s night time because I’m recording this late in the afternoon and I’ve literally almost passed out today five different times and I still haven’t even cooked dinner yet which is the craziest part about it. Anyways, hugs and kisses and I’ll see you soon, bye!

#podcast #lgbt pride #mentalheathawareness #trevor project #suicide prevention

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girlwithsword · 8 years ago

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so i haven’t journaled in 2 weeks because i am a #mess and a lot of stuff has happened so i think broad summaries are more in order

basic themes: the summer, school, the next week, the house, ken, friends, family, my health

the summer: we had the group sicha for mosh madatz applicants and i had my interview with ari for the gilboa position, galil applications just came out

i don’t think i’m going to get mosh or gilboa - not ‘cause i’m not qualified, i am, but there just seems to be a lot of people more suited for that tafkid at those machanot than myself

galil is still open and idk as much what the landscape is like so it’s still a possibility, but idk what i’m going to to if i don’t get madatz madricha. i have been actively trying to separate what i want from the summer from the tafkid and i can’t do it.

Hannah and Sarah have made a proposal for a kvutzah messima based on leading nachshonimot and I’m down with that, but Hannah think that i could just go to Galil and be with their bogrimot and do that and maybe i could but a) that still wouldn;t give me the tzevet experience i’m looking for b) i wouldnt have the time or freedom to build a tochnit and c) i do NOT want to be the person coming in to the summer, especially as an outsider, demanding to be with certain kids! That person sucks!

I’ve talked to Hannah and to Bekah about it and im trying to talk to the mads but if i don’t get madatz madricha it’s really hard to justify going to a new machaneh to be on tzevet ragil to myself and my mother, not when there is SO MUCH theatre over the summer

anyway we just had a kvutzah call about it - Hannah, Jess and Toviah are applying for MBI! Sara and Ari are thinking about gesher! but sara still only wants to come for one session? arron fine is applying for madatz at miriam and maybe gilboa but idk?

i do have an idea, that maybe if i don’t get madatz, i stay in the city, work in theatre over the summer and spend my free time facilitating the kvutzah. like everyone gets so busy and hyper focused over kayitz and i could be an eye in the sky, keeping everyone updated, helping people with resource gathering and editing peulot - i could still be involved while not missing a summer of opportunities

school: so things are a lot more overwhelming than i want them to be

‘cause i had a bad week at the end of january i feel behind and i still haven;t totally caught up and it’s coming to mid-semester and that’s gonna catch up with me

monologue study is a lot more work than i expected - just doing all the xfript work is taking much longer than i planned for - i /just/ finished making the Lists yesterday and I’ve been working on that for WEEKS. Luckily, we don’t actually have class this week so all that stuff is due after the break - unluckily, i can’t really do work over the break and that shit needs to get done - more on that later

however, my actual piece is looking really good and some of the warm ups and breathing exercises have helped so much! two classes ago we did these breath exercises and then went around and each said a central line from our pieces and i have never been so in the moment and real and in my breath than right then and now i have had a taste and want that always

we’ll be starting shakespeare after the break and i want to try something new, I love my Beatrice, but there is something to be said for repertoire building. Rosanna suggested looking into Rosalind pieces from As You Like It and that’s promising. I might... try a Juliet? Like, idk if that’s worthwhile im just... not a Juiet, im never gonna be the ingenue, why try? but having something sweeter is definitely a goal, idk i looked at Rosalind pieces and i think there is something that catches my eye

scene study has a similar issue in that the written work is a lot more overwhelming and time consuming than i planned and that /is/ due next week so. however, rehearsals have been going AMAZING, we’re like 98% off book and have to focus on picking up the pace, sticking to tactics and not playing attitudes and getting the blocking a little more fine tuned.

we had dress rehearsals tuesday and it was a WRECK. /no one/ was off book, a couple scenes were just /stopped/ midway through and everyone was off. then we went up, the only group who didn;t even once call for a line and who was actually on top of our shit. i admit, it felt kinda good to be the best. though, the bar was kinda low.

I’m being mean, a lot of people had good moments and most of the scenes that derailed derailed ‘cause ONE particular person clearly didn;t have their shit together and it threw everyone off.

Brandon and i rehearsed today and got pacing a little more down and he’s gonna come over sunday and do a final rehearsal before tuesday’s presentation!!

my elective has been a lot less interesting than i was hoping for, the classes are kinda boring but at least it’s pretty easy. HOWEVER, we did a field trip to city hall yesterday and THAT was fascinating! we got to sit in on the city council sessions as they were deciding the budget and it was! so! cool! that’s the room where it fucking happens. and like, we should all be more on top of local politics ‘cause that’s where the day to day shit gets figured out. i did a whole snapchat rant about it it’s good

fevergraph isn’t technically school but it’s been going really well - i got to get some emotional stuff out through the journeys and i’ve gotten my heart rate up a few times, last class is next week and i think i’m gonna look into maybe some voice lessons for the next half of the semester?

anyway: sunday i need to get all my fucking scene work done, monday i should record all my notes for my TOR midterm ‘cause tuesday im running around a lot and i need to study for that. monologue stuff will have to wait - that’ll be wednesday/thursday, cause thursday afternoon... i’m getting on a plane to israel

so, that’s happening. i kinda was just.., thinking about it.. and then jazz said that if i went she would go with me.. and then my parents said they’d give me 300 for the trip as a bday present.. and then i booked tickets. we’re still figuring out exact details in terms of where we’re staying when but i’ve e-mailed mona and paul and talia and the mads about it and we’re figuring it out

so, yeah... that’s happening. we’re gonna chill and see people and go read on the beach and i’m going to where nothing but dressed the whole time and i’m so fucking excited.

in the meantime, this week i have to get all this fucking work done, my birthday is this weekend!! (there’s gonna be cupcakes and whiskey and an entire afternoon of theatre!!!!) and we need to shove in ten thousand roommate interviews in there sometime

‘cause YEAH, updates on Murnau House: we still haven;t found a new person for the Room That Cannot Be Filled which is Annoying and the previous occupant has not been as ontop of finding a replacement as he said he would so Sam is leading the search, bless her

aaaand our fridge broke last week, again, and we lost a BUNCH of food, but due to my skills of being a polite and efficient BITCH thanks to my mum, we got a new one pretty quickly and that’s going fine.

the ken: we had a tubshvat carnival two weeks ago, some bogrimot came and volunteered, it went fine, but i wasnt as invested as i should’ve been - however, i did see Iris there!! whcih was nice, she’s gonna be chinuch at shomiria this summer and she did the habo/hashi birthright! very cool

then, sem. so, we had a tzevet of 7 for 40 kids, two of whom lefton the saturday night. aaron and yehuda of all people were on mitbach and the post mbiers were a big help. the schedule pretty much went out the window becuase we didn’t even get in till after midnight in friday due to the storm.

i did however get an entire busload of kids off the bus, to a rest stop and back on to the bus in FIFTEEN MINUTES ‘cause i’m amazing, we went to camp and the kids had fun even tho it was very Emotional for me, and we re focused on The Krinkle Project for messima, and even tho we didn;t do the vaad stuff i hoped for, i think we can move forward if i get my shit together enough. we also did kvutzah peulot that, even if they didn’t go /so/ great, i think brought important ideas and next steps into a lot of the kids minds about how to be stronger as a kvtzot

there was gonna be a katkateam this weekend but ido and i are both on vaccations so that’s been cancelled. there;s a purim party on the 5th that might launch our participation in Krinkle if we get that together. Mifgash with Tavor in March, spring sem in May, maybe one final event for messima and then... we’re done. at least. I am. I’m done. And I should be expecting a cheque from Shaul any day now.

friends: sima is interning on a CTV show and getting updates on the PM’s schedule in her work e-mail, and graduating soon

julia is kind’ve her usual mess but also starting to turn a profit in selling her embroideries on etsy, but idk if she has like a plan of any kind? and that worries me to a degree

mikki’s cosplay stuff is BOOMING and she’s back with Lou but... she’s still being kinda self destructive and i’m worried about her??

josh just finished a show and i haven;t talked to him in a while....

anna grace and natty are putting on a show that natty wrote!

i don’t ... have that many friends??

family: same pretty much. Alex is migrating in a month, they’re moving a little closer to me than i like but what can you do.

Batsheva was here, we had one of our Talks, i need to find a more permanent therapist to go deeper with once school is done. i should probably join a group... but that im where im at for as young as i am considering everything... im honestly on a pretty good track

my health: so, i doubt anyone is reading at this point so... the weekend after my fatigue flare up at the start of the month i had a suicidal episode. and i’ve only told my therapist

it was my first one in about a year, my worst one in two and over the dumbest thing since highschool .... just being overwhelmed by school work

like, two mays ago i had a really bad one ‘cause i couldn’t get myself to finish my Buddies piece, a year ago i had a much smaller one ‘cause of a HUGE fight with my dad and this was just... being overwhelmed.

and that’s what;s frustrating!! i guess it was frustration at my body and i hadnt eaten that well and i was a day away fro my period and all that added up to curled into a ball trying desperately not to reach for a handful of my ciprilex and melatonin for most of that saturday??? which just like wtf

OTHER THAN THAT, my physical strength has actually been on an upswing since the start of the month and im feeling a lot more active. i have a cold this week but that’s just it being february and my immune system being shitty. thank god for cold 911

okay, it’s far too late. i gotta shower and sleep and this took about 10x longer than i planned for

it’s gonna be a hell of a week, and i have no idea when i can do this again, but wish me luck!

#my life today

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