#that major character death tag making me real scared rn

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oh. oh. oh no

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Light In The Hallway

Loki Laufeyson Odinson Friggason

Synopsis: An angsty one-shot, written in the point of view of our favorite trickster as he goes through his final moments.

Warnings: Major Character Death, Infinity War Spoilers, A. N. G. S. T.  Frigga feels.  Shittily written death.  No ships, no reader.  Just angst.

A/N: This came to me while listening to Light in The Hallway by Pentatonix.  I recommend listening to it while reading.  

There was nothing that could describe the feeling of dread that found its way deep into the pit of Loki’s gut.  Once he’d seen the massive ship, he knew all too well what was coming.  Still, he hoped and wished and prayed to anything and anyone who would listen that his fears wouldn’t be true.  But of course, they were.  Because Thanos and his followers were like a plague that burnt out any light they crossed.

Loki had served the tyrant once before, though unwillingly and under the control of the mind stone.  Still, he knew better than anyone what Thanos wanted and what horrors he was capable of.

And watching the Mad Titan toss The Hulk around like it was nothing only solidified his fear.  Never had he seen the green giant be bested, but there he laid, prone and beaten within an inch of his life.

When Heimdall’s power rushed through the remnants of their ship, Loki could’ve wept in relief.  There was only one place he would’ve sent their ally, a place with the other heroes and warriors who had bested Thanos’s control over Loki himself all those years ago.  Heimdall was no fool, and as he watched Thanos plunge his blade into The Gatekeeper’s chest, he knew that he had used what power he had left to send Hulk - and Bruce - to Earth for a reason.

Perhaps there was hope yet.

Which is exactly why Loki knew what he had to do.

“If you’re going to Earth you might want a guide.  I do have a bit of...experience in that arena.”  There was no escaping the glare of the giant man before him, nor that of his brother - eyes burning into the side of the trickster’s head.  Loki didn’t need to look at Thor to know that tears were threatening those eyes, along with the words Loki, don’t! screaming at him from their depths.

“If you consider failure experience.”

“I consider experience experience,”  Loki says, trying with all his might to convey his typical flippancy so as not to alert Thanos of his ulterior motive.  The titan’s look is unreadable, and his heart hammers in his chest.

The only ones from Asgard or Sakaar that were left alive were the two royal brothers...soon to be one, if Loki didn’t move fast enough.

But for Thor, and ultimately the entire universe, that was a sacrifice he was willing to make.

Swallowing any hesitations he may have had, Loki weaves his words carefully, letting his silver tongue coax the warlord into a deal - at least, he hoped.

“I, Loki, God of Mischief,”  He spoke confidently, not daring take a single peak at his grieving brother beside him.  He was somewhat thankful for the restraint over the blonde’s mouth for there was no doubt in his mind that he had seen Loki’s conjured dagger.  “Do hereby pledge to you my undying fidelity.”

A breath.

Two.

Then he lashes out, dagger poised straight for Thanos’s jugular.

But he doesn’t quite make it before blue energy is crushing down on his arm with an agonizing pressure - one so strong he can’t even move his fingers in shock to drop the dagger.

“You should choose your words more carefully.”

He knew this was a possibility, even he could only outrun death for so long.  And now here it was staring him in the face.  That same hateful, hideous stare that bore into his very soul and demanded his allegiance and power to wreak havoc on Earth.

The pain in his arm is gone, replaced now by a fist wound tightly around his airway.  

The ever calm god drops his facade almost instantly, body thrashing as Thanos lifts him by the throat.  His eyes well up, his lungs burn, and his gaze finds his brother.  His brother who he can tell is doing everything he can to break free from his bindings.

“You,” he chokes out with what little air is left.  “Will never be” a ringing in his ears, a numbing like chill spreading from his chest to all his limbs.  Still, he bites out “A God.”

Then...nothing.

No pain.

No tears.

He doesn’t even feel his body hit the ground, where he is flung to land in front of his brother’s shaking form.

Its as if he isn’t really there.

Thanos is saying something to his brother, powerful voice booming as he raises his fist before he and his minions disappear.

The moment Thor is free, he drags his own broken form to Loki’s hoping against all hope that this was just another one of Loki’s shows, that he would smirk at him and tease him for believing his tricks once more.

But as Thor fists his fingers in his brother’s leather armor, that moment never comes.

Instead, Loki lays completely still as not one, but two pairs of hands rest against his chest.

It’s when he feels the second pair that he rouses, though Thor doesn’t seem to notice.  With a furrowed brow, he reaches for his older brother his jaw dropping when his hand actually reaches through him.

Then he notices it, notices himself laying where he’d been tossed and the realization settles in, replacing the fear and agony that had been taking residence in his gut.

Realization evolves into understanding, then relief.

“Loki,” a voice that isn’t Thor says.  His spectral form turns toward the sound all while his body stays perfectly still.  If he’d still been in that body, he’s sure he would’ve gasped.

“Mother?”

No, this was impossible, Frigga was dead.  She didn’t use any illusions or perform any tricks.  The queen wouldn’t dare cast a petty illusion like Loki had.  No, she had died a hero while protecting the Midgardian Jane Foster.

“Loki, my dear, it’s alright.”  He is tempted to pinch himself, vision blurring with tears as he reaches for her face fully expecting to reach through her like he’d done with Thor.

Instead, his hand successfully cups her cheek, and he openly weeps.

“Mother, how are you...”  The queen scoops her youngest against her, cradling his shuddering form in her embrace.  “You’re real.  You’re here.  Why...how...mother?”

“Loki, my love,”  She shushes, squeezing him tighter in her arms.  “It’s time to come home.”

He pulls away, brows furrowing once more as he looks into the kind green eyes he’s missed so desperately.

“I don’t understand, Asgard was destroyed.  There’s no home to go back to.”

Her smile never falters, her fingers curling around his own.

“Your father and I have missed you so much.”  She says, her voice a constant comfort for the younger Odinson.

“Father...but why?  It wasn’t exactly a happy reunion when I saw him last.”

Still, that kind gaze doesn’t waver.

“Loki, your father and I are so proud of you.  You helped save the people of Asgard who are Asgard itself.  You sacrificed yourself for your brother, to erase everything that monster had made you do before.  Loki, I couldn’t be prouder of you.  Your father couldn’t be prouder of you.”

He’d heard those words before but never directed at him.  Only Thor.  But to hear that now...

“He’s...proud of me?”

“Why don’t you come see for yourself?  We’ve missed you, my son.”

He hesitates, hand sliding from hers for a moment.  He swallows raw emotion creeping up his throat as he looks to his brother sobbing over his own broken form.  The sight is beyond jarring.

“Mother,”  He admits with some difficulty.  He’d always been so strong for her, so sure of himself.  But now?  “Mother...I’m scared.”

“Shh, my love,”  She coos, smoothing down long raven locks.  “It’s alright.  I’m here.”

Frantic green eyes meet their calm opposites.

“But Thor-”  He cries, once more reaching for his brother in vain.

“Still has much to do, darling.  You will see him again, I promise.  But for now, come.  Odin is waiting.”  For the first time ever, Loki finds he doesn’t fear the sentiment but rather cherishes it.

And when he embraces his mother’s spectral form with his own following her to peace, a blinding purple light explodes all around them as Thor is flung to his trials and battles to come.

I...I don’t even know anymore.  I’m sorry.  I’m in a dark place rn.  This helped.

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Do I even put tags up for this?  Maye later.

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Supernatural Survey

I was tagged by @wayward-mirage Love you!! I spent waaaayy too much time on this!

1. What season did you start watching Supernatural?

In-between s11 and s12. I binged it all in 4 weeks while also going to band camp during the days. Needless to say, it was one of the most exhausting , unhealthy times of my life. And I wouldn't trade it for the world :)

2. Who was the first character you fell in love with?

Probably Sam, but the whole first 3 seasons I was waiting for Cas to show up. I knew he would be a major character and I was 100% ready to give my fangirl soul to him. Funny story, I remember watching Lazarus Rising for the first time and I saw Misha Collins’s name. I was like, “she sounds familiar, who’s she?” so I paused the episode and looked up the name. I was like, “Oh, Misha’s a boy. And he plays Castiel! okay then.”

3. Who was a character that you hated at first but grew to love?

Probably Meg, I can’t say I LOVE her now, but I went from  hating her to liking her pretty well.

4. Which character would you most want to be in a long-term relationship with?

The real question is “Which character WOULD’NT I most want to be in a long-term relationship with!” There’s a lot of benefits to each one. Like think about how great it would be to have Gabriel around when you’re on your period. All the chocolate you could ever want, a heat pack that never cools, and he would TOTALLY be a cuddler.

5. If you could go on just one date with one character, which one would you choose?

Crowley. You may be thinking, why him?! I’ll tell ya, it because think of all the fancy crap that date would consist of. Fancy dinner, fancy clothes.. ect. it’d be so fun! Plus think of all the flirting and pet names!

6. What would you do on the date?

Either an expensive restaurant or a dance of some kind.

7. Which character would you most want to be like?

Probably Sammy, forgiving, compassionate, loyal, brave, humble.. just so much to love about Sam.

8. Which character would you most like to see brought back from the dead?

GABE THE BABE

9. Which character would you most like to punch?

Stealing wayward-mirage’s answer! Metatron!

10. Who is your absolute favorite character?

THIS ONE IS SOOO DIFFICULT BECAUSE I HAVE LIKE FOUR MAIN FAVES. Imma break the rules and tell you my top four. In reality they all share the number one spot. Castiel, Gabriel, Lucifer and Crowley.

11. Which “Big Bad” do you think was the worst?

Dick Roman. He had no real motivation besides wanting to take over the world. That being said, I liked the lore behind his character and I actually enjoyed season 7. it was like a breath of fresh air and really broke the mold. Plus, the Hallucifer stuff was GOLD. The only thing I didn't like about it was the fact that Cas was barely in it at all. “Real” Cas anyway. Crazy!Cas just made me kinda sad.

12. Which character are you most like?

Probably Jo or Charlie. Nerdy like Charlie and the “brave even when you’re scared” “If this is my last night on earth, I’m gonna spend it with a little something called self-respect” attitude. Also dean because I hate myself I mean what.

13. What death hit you the hardest?

Cas at the end of s6/beginning of s7, and most recently, Crowley. Gabe in 5.19 also still hurts REALLY bad. (the death scream)

14. What season finale hit you the hardest?

S12 as it was my first watching live.

15. What are your ten all-time favorite episodes?

(You’re gonna see my Gabe favoritism REAL bad here.)

1) Changing Channels

2) Mystery Spot

3) Stuck in the Middle (With You)

4) Tall Tales

5) Don’t Call Me Shurley

6) Swan Song

7) Fan Fiction

8) The French Mistake

9) Weekend at Bobby’s

10) Repo Man

16. What’s been your favorite season?

Season 5 but season 7 is actually one of my faves.

17. Who is your favorite angel?

Castiel, Gabe and Lucifer are my faves. I can’t pick just one.

18. Who’s your favorite demon?

Crowley obviously. lol

19. Who’s your favorite evil character?

What counts as an evil character? That's the true question. I think my favorite “evil” character is Lucifer.

20. Do you have any Supernatural ships?

Destiel, Sam/Elieen, Sam/the golden retriever from Dark Side of the Moon (jk XD) a lil bit of Sastiel and Samifer. (don't shoot me)

21. Who’s your favorite supporting actor?

Rob Benedict and Richard Speight Jr. are my favorite actors on the whole show. 

22. What’s your favorite quote from the show?

“Yes, well... before I was very self assured. I was convinced I was on this righteous path. Now I realize that there is no righteous path, it's just people trying to do their best in a world where is far to easy to do your worst.” - Castiel

That quote is from 10.9 The Things We Left Behind.

23. If you could cast one famous actor in an episode of SPN, who would you chose?

Norman Reedus. I love him in TWD, my mom loves him there too, and hes already got connections with Misha and JDM. It’d be a perfect fit.

24. If you could write your own episode, what kind of creature would you like to see included?

The Rake. Think of how fricking terrifying that would be.

25. Who’s your favorite girl that Dean’s hooked up with?

Lisa maybe? Although it became more than just a “hook-up” later on.

26. Who’s your favorite girl that Sam’s hooked up with?

The chick who believed in aliens from Clap Your Hands If You Believe.

27. What are some of your favorite convention moments?

That time when the little girl, Piper, asked Mark S. what Crowley sold his soul for. Anything karaoke. That time Jensen and Misha showed their underwear to each other.

28. If you were going to guest star (or be a recurring guest star) on SPN, how would you want your character described?

A fangirl who falls from our world into theirs but is sensible unlike Becky. More of a Charlie kind of character. I’d basically want to be me. Unlike most fans, I actually think I would make a pretty good hunter.

29. What do you hope to see in the next season?

Destiel. Crowley.

30.-40. If you had to choose…

Bobby or John? Bobby

Bela or Ruby? Bela

Jess or Madison? Jess

Jo or Lisa? Jo

Charlie or Kevin? Charlie

Balthazar or Ash? Balthazar

Cas or Crowley? *brain blue-screens*

Ben or Claire? Claire

Jody or Donna? Jody, but mostly because we see her more.

Sam or Dean? It fluctuates between each season. RN its Sam.

Tagging: @waywardswain @tiny-gay-munchkin @adam-isstillinhell @raindestiel (if you don't want to you don't have to though ^_^)