#that is also the first adult paci i got and the first (and only) I've decorated ! I'd say I did pretty good for my first time !

[floatinginlilspace]

it has just occurred to me that I've yet to show my paci on here !..

so here it is !!

I'm very very proud of it :3 it is (in my personal opinion..) the best deco paci ever !! it's my favorite I've ever seen (yes including all the super pretty ones i see online !) I think it's absolutely perfect and exactly the paci I've always dreamed of having ! :p

paci case I decorated as well, and transparent pngs of the paci (for paci edits, moodboards, ect.) under cut !! vvv

[darlinglilmia]

Update to earlier about me wetting I had da prettiest call ever ever !!! I think I actually wet myself/didn't use the toilet for the first time. 💗

oh yeah cw: piss/wetting lmao.

i-it was an accident, I promise i'm still big.. please..

It wasn't directly my panties but a big ass soft incontinence pad (thank you to my grandparents for your unused supply) that I had a surplus of bc I'm too lazy to buy diapers rn and didn't want to waste any yet if I wasn't used to wetting outside the toilet and...omg.

thank you sososososo much @dinosaurconnoisseur for being the prettiest little friend eva eva and holding my hand thru every step and helping me feel comfortable and light on my feet and sososo mindlessly ridicolously happy you're so da best evaevaveva :D 💗💓🎀💖💞

i went in my bathtub trying to do it while calling them so I wouldn't get it on the floor and my underwear wouldn't be at a bad angle and leak or go through it and man.. it felt good. it was so hard at first because my body's so used to using the potty and it didn't let me go but it helped that i went in the toilet for like 4 seconds then tried in my pad while my body was in the motion. also helped having someone comfort, support, and encourage me almost every second.

it didn't leak on my side or thru my underwear. it felt good but i don't know if i enjoy wetting yet so I'll try it again next week. just it felt so good pushing it against myself and having myself realize damn. I did just wet myself like a child. while acting like a child - even younger, which meant whining, pouting, and giggling like a fucking baby. In front of someone else. as a grown adult.

and it was so heavenly omg do you guys know that doing something relaxing with someone helping you to relax while they tell you relaxing thoughts is relaxing??? big shock.

felt absolutely humilated and got the littlest/blankest i've prolly gotten in a VERYYYY long time if not my littlest and it was so good 8.8/10 only because i need actual diapers AND A PACI YALL I REGRESSED AFTER AND I WANTED A PACI SO FUCKING BAD I WANTED TO CRY IN MY HEADSPACE AND LIKE I NEVER FEEL LIKE CRYING IN HEADSPACE BEFORE BUT FUCK I NEED TO ORDER ONE NOWWW I CANNOT GO THROUGH THAT PAIN AGAIN.

I forgot to take a pic of me doing so but honestly you wouldn't be able to see me doing it through my panties so take my word for it. my legs are fat as fuck so i'd be so scared and nervous to take one lmao. also i don't know why ppl take pics of inside their used diapers. ig not my appeal.

anyway ya tl:dr : too lazy to buy diapers and wanted to take a stepping stone to using diapers by using incontinence pads with a friend over da phone that helped me so well and had a great time with them while realizing i need diaps and a paci so bad 💞🎀💓

pretty little giffy gif.

anyway goodnight. one step closer to being a pantswetter i guess. idk. i know it's nothing to brag about but thought i could document my progress i guess.

Nini silly Tumblr 🌕💞🍼