#that 1 year in grade 9 where we were the closest of friends before abruptly stopping because of the pandemic and bc of my now exfriend

[apopcornkernel]

one day later and now i wonder if i even like him That much or if it only hurt me bc he's the only safe choice i can ever have and if i can never have him i can never have the life i want

[renardtrickster]

I am going to kill you and ask you to do every number on that ask post

You devious yet cute bastard, I’m in.

1. What is you middle name?

Personal information so I’m not divulging it, but it abbreviates to X.

2. How old are you?

Legal.

3. When is your birthday?

September 26.

4. What is your zodiac sign?

Libra/The Scales/The Dragon/Terepy

5. What is your favorite color?

Dark Green. #127712 specifically.

6. What’s your lucky number?

I think 2? I do like 12 though.

7. Do you have any pets?

Not anymore. I used to have two dogs though.

8. Where are you from?

Florida. I came out of the swamps.

9. How tall are you?

5′10″

10. What shoe size are you?

28cm, Women’s 11.5, Men’s 9.5, that’s what my sneakers say.

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?

Two. A pair of loafers so broken down I avoid wearing them whenever possible, and a pair of fine sneakers.

12. What was your last dream about?

All I remember is that Duff McWhalen’s theme song was playing throughout it and it was really annoying after a while.

13. What talents do you have?

I would say my talents are acute memory of obscure topics, vivid storytelling, and I’m pretty good at video games.

14. Are you psychic in any way?

It doesn’t happen with much frequency nowadays, but when I was younger and it happened a bit more often, I could always tell when I was being observed with no other clues. I could feel the eyes on my back. I can also bend spoons and set fires with my mind but that’s less interesting.

15. Favorite song?

More like favorite song right now, but probably Rocket Surgeon.

16. Favorite movie?

The Persona 3 movies currently.

17. Who would be your ideal partner?

Off of the top of my head, I’m imagining someone who’s heart-throbbing to look at (pretty women or cute boys), pretty sharp, tough to boot, has a lot in common with me, and is understanding too. I’ve got a few quirks, and it’d be nice to know that I’m not condemned to dying alone because of them.

18. Do you want children?

Not in the slightest.

19. Do you want a church wedding?

I don’t even want a wedding wedding. If we’re partners, isn’t being together enough? From what I know, weddings just add unnecessary stress and complication.

20. Are you religious?

I’m definitely spiritual, and Religion connected to that, even if I don’t devote myself to a specific doctrine. It’s less pantheism and more “they’re probably all true to an extent and also SMT is real”. In any case I just try to be a good person.

21. Have you ever been to the hospital?

As a patient, none that I could remember but I know I went because of various injuries. As a visitor, quite a few times.

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?

I’ve done things that would get me in trouble with the law, but have not run afoul of them yet. The closest would be that one time I was staying at a hotel, and the police knocked on my door and asked if I knew where someone was living. I didn’t, but I guessed anyway, and that’s how half the hotel had the police knocking on their door.

23. Have you ever met any celebrities?

No.

24. Baths or showers?

Showers.

25. What color socks are you wearing?

White with grey soles.

26. Have you ever been famous?

I have a lot of followers on this tumblr blog, would that count?

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?

I want to be a famous author, so kind of. But I want to still retain my anonymity and not have my real name and face attached to stuff. Yoko Taro gives me hope in that regard, because he’s rather famous but any information we know about him, we know on his terms. That’s how I want to live.

28. What type of music do you like?

I usually listen to video game OSTs, and most of the ones I listen to are so genre-blending so it’s hard to pin down. Most of it is instrumental, but I’m not opposed to music with vocals. Genres aren’t cohesive, so I’d say “music that makes you want to punch robots to” and “music that makes you want to talk to friends to”. J-rap is pretty good though.

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?

Hell no!

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?

One.

31. What position do you usually sleep in?

I toss and turn before going to sleep and while asleep, but my back seems to be consistent.

32. How big is your house?

It’s pretty decent. 2 room 1 bath, and the living room is rectangular.

33. What do you typically have for breakfast?

Milk & cereal, or pop-tarts.

34. Have you ever fired a gun?

No, but I want to.

35. Have you ever tried archery?

I think once in grade school. I wish I could try again though.

36. Favorite clean word?

Cerebral just off the top of my head.

37. Favorite swear word?

Bastard or Shit. The former is innately funny and all-purpose to refer to someone. The latter is so versatile it can be used in any context.

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?

I think a day, although the standard is around 18.

39. Do you have any scars?

I don’t think so.

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?

I think there was one person in school who had a thing for me but they were gay and at the time I thought I was straight, so I paid them no mind. There was also someone who said “X likes you”, but I didn’t know who X was so I said “cool” and went on my way. I was also propositioned once in middle school, but that’s less “secret admirer” and more “sexual harasser”.

41. Are you a good liar?

I think so.

42. Are you a good judge of character?

For good people, yes. For bad people, no.

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?

Yeah. I remember playing Undertale and my little sister was nearby, and I decided to voice all the characters. I had a lot of fun!

44. Do you have a strong accent?

I’m actually the only member of my family that doesn’t have a Boston accent.

45. What is your favorite accent?

Russian, hands-down.

46. What is your personality type?

According the the Myers-Briggs test I just took, ISFP-T/Adventurer. Which is bizarre considering I’m pretty sure I got a different result a year or so ago. According to “what word would you use”, droll.

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?

I have no idea. Either those sneakers, or the heavy winter jacket I got when I was in Colorado. Both were gifts, so I never saw the pricetag, but my Dad said they were pretty nice-looking.

48. Can you curl your tongue?

Yeth.

49. Are you an innie or an outie?

Inside.

50. Left or right handed?

Left.

51. Are you scared of spiders?

My knowledge of spiders is well enough that I know at least 2 types of spiders who can kill you horribly in one bite, and know little enough that I can’t tell any of them apart from common house spiders. I’m more afraid of dying stupidly because the boner spider snuck up on me than the idea of spiders themselves.

52. Favorite food?

Either Macaroni & Cheese or Cheeseburgers.

53. Favorite foreign food?

Burritos probably, even though I usually only eat meat and cheese on them. Are you detecting a theme because I am.

54. Are you a clean or messy person?

I try to be clean, but I’m usually a bit scattered.

55. Most used phrased?

“says something about”, “despite that” are some. Although I know I tend to use a few stock phrases When I Post Long.

56. Most used word?

I wouldn’t even know where to begin finding that out.

57. How long does it take for you to get ready?

Maybe a few minutes, although I’m usually working on a set routine.

58. Do you have much of an ego?

I don’t think I do. If I do, I tend to exaggerate it or turn it to a positive end.

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?

No matter how hard I want to keep it at sucking, I usually bite at some point. Don’t screencap this.

60. Do you talk to yourself?

Yes.

61. Do you sing to yourself?

No.

62. Are you a good singer?

Also no.

63. Biggest Fear?

Most if not all of my friends, and the people I admire as well, all either start hating me or end up hating me and I lose every social connection I have or want to have. The reason varies, whether it be my fault or someone slandering me, but being hated by people I like freaks me out. As does the idea of not being able to tell my stories.

64. Are you a gossip?

I’d like to say no but considering I rather frequently discuss discourse in my Discord chats, I guess I am.

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen?

I do not watch drama films.

66. Do you like long or short hair?

On myself, long-to-middle length. On others, any length really.

67. Can you name all 50 states of America?

Probably not.

68. Favorite school subject?

Social studies was a strong suit of mine.

69. Extrovert or Introvert?

Introvert.

70. Have you ever been scuba diving?

No.

71. What makes you nervous?

Time passing and things not getting done.

72. Are you scared of the dark?

No. The things in the dark can eat it too.

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?

Yes, but I try to be kind about it. Or funny.

74. Are you ticklish?

I haven’t been tickled recently, so I wouldn’t know.

75. Have you ever started a rumor?

No. At worst, I’ve spread information I don’t think is 100% accurate, but I ALWAYS disclaim that it shouldn’t be trusted without further research.

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?

I’m an older sibling, so yes.

77. Have you ever drank underage?

No.

78. Have you ever done drugs?

No, but I was offered twice. Once by an irresponsible (and awful) authority figure, once by some kids in the bathroom. Both times I said “no thanks”, and funny enough the former tried to change my mind, and the latter just said “ok cool”.

79. Who was your first real crush?

Oh god here come the bad memories. I’m heavily abbreviating and redacting information to protect the identities of me and all involved, but in Colorado I met someone in middle school who more or less fit all my parameters for “ideal partner”. But I was terminally nervous and I didn’t want to ruin our friendship, so I left it at that. Eventually I had to abruptly leave the state for reasons I don’t want to get into, and all a week or so later I made a Facebook account and found all my friends. My contact with my crush was the most constant. Eventually, I was talking with a different buddy, and they mentioned romantic problems. I mentioned I had some too, and they eventually ferreted it out of me. They told me I should confess, and I said no, both because I want to remain friends, and because I can’t do a long-distance relationship. They told me they’d go behind my back if I didn’t, and I warned them not to. Five minutes later, I get messaged by my crush. To put it short, it wouldn’t work out. I stopped talking to both, and was pretty depressed afterwards, to the point where I couldn’t feel any romance, sexuality, or companionship towards anybody. I got over it sometime later, and I think I realized I was bi around the same time. I kind of wish I could smooth things over, but it’s been so long I don’t think it’s an option anymore. Plus Facebook has a horrible interface and is terrible so I really don’t want to.

80. How many piercings do you have?

Zero.

81. Can you roll your Rs?“

No.

82. How fast can you type?

VERY.

83. How fast can you run?

Also VERY.

84. What color is your hair?

Dark.

85. What color is your eyes?

I looked in a mirror for a minute. I think it’s either grey, green, or brown?

86. What are you allergic to?

Pollen and bullets.

87. Do you keep a journal?

No.

88. What do your parents do?

My Dad makes food at the mall.

89. Do you like your age?

I wish I had all the benefits of adulthood but was still 17.

90. What makes you angry?

People acting stupid when they should know better, things not working when they should, and things going wrong when they shouldn’t. While not my intention in answering this question, this site has all three :^)

91. Do you like your own name?

My given name is pretty okay. I really like Renardie though.

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?

I am not having children.

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?

Three times I have said I’m not having children.

94. What are you strengths?

Imagination, expression, intellect, and pluck.

95. What are your weaknesses?

Procrastination, anxiety, and obsession.

96. How did you get your name?

For my given name, I’ll keep it brief for privacy’s sake, but my parents are comic book nerds. For Renardie, I’m simply a fan of Reynard the Fox.

97. Were your ancestors royalty?

My Dad’s a King in the figurative sense, does that count?

98. Do you have any scars?

This is a repeat question. Someone get OP’s ass.

99. Color of your bedspread?

Off-color baby blue.

100. Color of your room?

White.

[garnetsingingwriter-blog]

Hello everyone,

As you may or may not have known, about a week and a half ago thousands of 16-year-olds across the UK received their GCSE Results, determining what direction they are taking on their step into further education. Just to explain the grades: we are a transition year, so our English Literature, English Language and Maths grades were marked from 1 to 9, 1 being the lowest and 9 being the highest. The rest of our subjects were marked on the regular A* to G system that is now on its way out, this being the last year it is being used. The new top grade 9 is the equivalent to a grade above an A*, or an A**, awarded to approximately the top 3% of the country. The grade 8 is an A*, 7 is roughly an A, 6 is a high B and 5 & 4 are high and low Cs respectively. Anything below a 4 is considered a fail.

Results Day was something that took so long to arrive that the anticipation had almost disappeared by the time the day actually came around. I’m just going to go over my Results Day thoughts before and after opening my results.

Before Results

Thursday 24th August 2017

I awoke abruptly at roughly 5.30 am. Due to nerves I found it quite difficult to get back to sleep but nonetheless managed to sleep through until roughly 7.30 am. I quickly started looking up grade boundaries on the exam specification websites (Edexcel, AQA and OCR) so that I could know how many UMS I needed for particular grades. I found these quite reassuring in most cases, as many required far lower marks than I expected. I showered and dressed, ate my breakfast and then went off in the car at about 9.30 – to take my grandma to a dentist appointment. Anxious and excited, I sat in the car listening to Rutter’s ‘The Lord is My Shepherd’ (my calming song) until my friend rang me up about her results. I helped her calm as she opened hers – only to find she had done much better than she had expected, which was reassuring to me as well.

Finally, we set off to school to arrive at approximately 10.30. Many people had left at this point and this caused some anxiety to really kick in. As I walked into the Main Hall and started to approach the results table, my History teacher flashed me a smile. I find that if that happens to you, it’s almost certainly a good sign. I flipped over my plastic wallet with my list of grades and tearfully collapsed of joy in my dad’s arms as I read down the list.

Disclaimer: Just to clarify, I am not in any way shape or form boasting about my grades, I’m simply showing what can be achieved through perseverance and hard work 🙂

My GCSE Grades

After Results

I was absolutely thrilled with these results – especially Music given how many hours I had put into my coursework; 2 compositions, 1 appraisal, a solo and a group piece all paid off in the end! I was also so happy about the A* in Geography as that is the line I am looking to go down at University. I was very, very surprised about the A* in Biology, the exams for which I had thought hadn’t gone too well. It just goes to show you can never really judge how well you’re going to do.

I took a moment to calm down before a lady asked me for a quick camera interview where I told her my feelings, my grades and who I wanted to thank. It all went in a crazy rush because I was still in shock. I was given my yearbook by a member of staff which was full of lots of pictures of my secondary school journey. Other members of staff congratulated me which was so so lovely. I texted my mum who was at work at the time and absolutely delighted to learn that given my grades, we will be off to Amsterdam in the Spring ❤ I also texted my sister who has been absolutely lovely and wonderful throughout all of my exam stress. She’s about to start her GCSEs this year, so maybe it’s my turn to support her! One by one a wave of friends showed their support and congratulations to me, as I returned to them.

On the whole, my school did really really well – here’s a quick extract from a news article off the school’s Facebook:

Decision Time

Over the summer I had been trying to decide whether I was going to stay doing A-Levels at my current school or whether I would go to the local Boys’ Grammar school to do the International Baccalaureate. I simply couldn’t decide so I put off the ultimate decision until Results Day. I surprised many people when I told them that I had decided that I would do the IB. Of course, it means leaving some of my closest friends and greatest teachers behind, but I’m ready for a new adventure. I’ll meet my friends on the weekends and talk to them regularly, but I’ll also have the chance to make new ones. Going on NCS meant that I got to know more people who are also doing the IB which means that I do have friends there already and will make a far more comfortable transition. I felt that if I never gave the IB a chance, I would massively regret it. It’s amazing how supportive people can be – telling my best friends, who will miss me as much as I miss them, what I decided to do next year and having their full support has carried me far.

I’m also fortunate in that the Boys’ and Girls’ Grammar Schools are right next to each other, making it easier for me to meet one of my best friends who decided to transfer to the Girls’ School.

So, starting this Wednesday, I’m studying Higher Level Geography, Philosophy and English Literature and Standard Level Maths, Physics and Japanese ab-initio. Will I encounter new and nerve wracking experiences? Of course I will. Is it going to be hard at times? Yes. But I am so very excited to see what the IB can throw at me – I’m ready as I’ll ever be for this new, two year journey.

To all those who got their GCSE (or A-Level or IB) I hope you all did fantastically well and that you are happy going forward. Remember that what you put in always comes out in the end – I believe in you! ❤

What are you doing next school year? Are you leaving your current school for college? A sixth form? Let me know in the comments below 🙂

xoxo

Hannah

  My GCSE Results & What I’m Doing Next Year Hello everyone, As you may or may not have known, about a week and a half ago thousands of 16-year-olds across the UK received their GCSE Results, determining what direction they are taking on their step into further education.