#thank you kpop community for the ideas

[smolsadred]

the sillies can come with me now, they are gonna live on my bag

[rumoka]

BABYMONSTER FACE CLAIMS ˃ᴗ˂

Xinyu - TripleS ( 2002, 🇨🇳 )

Umji - Viviz ( 1998, 🇰🇷 )

Sullendin - Insta ( ??, 🇰🇷 )

Minji - NewJeans ( 2004, 🇰🇷 )

Hayun - Primrose ( 2003, 🇰🇷 )

Minju - ILLIT ( 2004, 🇰🇷 )

Stage Name Ideas :

- Chloe (클로이) 🇺🇸

- Maxine (맥신) 🇺🇸

- Sophie (소피)

- Sarang (사랑) 🇰🇷

- Yunju (윤주) 🇰🇷

- Soodam (수담) 🇰🇷

ㅡ requested by @peacefulchaosaries 💕hope you like my suggestions !! good luck 🍀

[writerpeach]

It's that time of year again—cooler weather, pumpkin spice, and to regret celebrate the fact that I'm still here, six years later, still writing, still posting, still going.

Things have changed over these years; the community has grown (and so has the length of the fics), and we’ve gotten some fantastic new writers with some killer debuts. But some things haven’t changed: I still love doing this despite the struggles, and I’m still down horrendous for pretty kpop girls. Always was, always will be.

Boring stats:

Currently, there are over 200+ fics posted to this blog, two which have over 2k notes—unsurprisingly, Fantastic Breasts and Where to Find Them with 2,386, and Overindulgent with 2,155. Insane numbers to think about, when a few years the prospect of hitting 1,000 notes seemed like an uphill battle. As of this posting, there are just shy of 15k followers: 14,777, an equally insane number.

I don’t know when this road ends—hopefully not for a while. I've still got some idols I've yet to write, some ideas I've never done, and plenty of annyeongz left.

Writing can be inherently frustrating, and there are days where I question my sanity, question why the fuck I still do this, but when it all comes together to create a (hopefully) coherent story that people say they enjoy, it makes it all worth it.

So thank you for being on this journey, whether you were here from day one, or last week, still continuing to read, to comment, to drop a like or reblog, or just send asks that I take weeks to answer or not at all.

[sugarushwriting]

from this idea/request

your dream job.

working with a boy kpop group as a marketing newbie.

they came to the united states for tour. you were excited to work for the one and only stray kids.

𐒡𝛫𝛧

not proofread. please like, comment, reblog! do not repost or translate, tysm!!

₍ᐢ. .ᐢ₎ ₊˚⊹♡

you could barely contain your excitement. even 2 weeks later and 4 shows later. you don’t think you’d ever get over the fact you are literally working with the stray kids.

you didn’t care if your job was to double check and make sure catering was okay. or if the wardrobe designers had everything they needed. or ran errands for food or other supplies.

it was all worth it to be able to be in close proximity with the stray kids.

your korean language knowledge lacked, however the boys were good speaking in english and hearing you talk in your native language. you once even apologized to them because you couldn’t communicate with them in their language. even with simple words.

bang chan and felix looked at you like you had two heads and said to never apologize for that. it seemed the other boys didn’t mind either.

you all communicated well enough to make sure everyone was on the same page.

right now you were carrying 2 big plastic bags and 2 drink carriers to the guys’ dressing room while they waited for press conference in boston.

opening the door softly, you bowed and walked in quietly as each boy was doing their own thing.

han was singing, lee know harmonizing. hyunjin and felix playing a game on their phone. seungmin and i.n. was napping. changbin and bang chan deep in conversation.

you were just surprised more chaos wasn’t happening right now.

changbin and bang chan immediately saw you carrying everything and rushed to get up to help you.

“here, let us help.” changbin said in his cute english accent.

“we could’ve went and got our own take out.” bang chan smiled taking the drinks.

“it’s fine, part of the job.” you awkwardly replied.

“thank you so much!” felix smiled pausing his game with hyunjin.

you turned around to leave the boys, as your supervisor would yell at you for spending too much time lingering.

even though the boys (all 8) have even told you they didn’t mind company.

they loved their u.s. staff.

“do you want to join us? we got extra.” bang chan asked. what you didn’t recognize in his tone was hope.

he was hoping you would say yes. but frowned when you shook your head politely. “i wish i could, but i should go see if my boss needs me for anything else.” you smiled and walked out of the dressing room.

your smile could melt bang chan.

what you didn’t know, was that bang chan started to enjoy your company. the first day he met you, newbie to this industry and work, he loved the brightness your energy brought.

he wanted to call you sunshine in a nickname, but was scared to see how you would react.

him having a crush on staff? fine, okay.

but he knew you were probably drilled to not even look twice in their direction in that way or else you’d be terminated.

he didn’t want to ruin this opportunity for you.

but he also wanted you. sexually? maybe. but even more so, just wanted to spend more time with you.

and he would find a way.

︶꒦꒷♡꒷꒦︶

and bang chan did.

he had texted your personal cell asking for you to bring him something as he felt nauseous and had a headache.

it was rare bang chan asked for anything. at least, from what you observed.

so the fact he texted your personal cell rather than your work cell, your stomach dropped thinking something was truly wrong with him.

you even texted him back asking if you should bring back up, and he had said no.

bang chan: no, i just need you

bang chan: and the stuff i asked for, yeah

bang chan’s ears got red at the thought of the first text message and how it could be interpreted.

he waited anxiously in his private hotel room, pacing back and forth waiting for your knock.

what if you got the stuff but handed it off to security to bring to him? dang it, he should’ve been more specific that he wanted you to hand it directly to him.

light knocks came to the door, and he smiled knowing it was you being polite, even with knocking on a door.

he opened it, seeing your worried face, and you pushed passed him.

“are you okay bang chan?” you asked frantically and took everything out the bag that could hopefully help him.

bang chan couldn’t get sick and you would do everything you could to help that.

in reality, bang chan was fine.

“just feeling a bit queasy.” he says with a fake frown. “no matter how much traveling we do, being in different time zones so many times do get to us.”

“i bet!” you turned to him finally seeing him. he was dressed in black sweatpants, black sleeveless shirt and house slippers.

those fucking muscles. you could literally drool at the sight. heck, you probably were. you had to blink rapidly to get your mind right.

“yes, right,” um you stuttered, noticing bang chan smiling. “i—i should go now.”

“stay for a while?” he asked, his question thick with his aussie accent.

“i don’t know—,”

“please? just for one movie at least?”

was this appropriate? probably not. you could potentially get fired. but couldn’t you also get fired if you left your client unhappy?

you’d do anything to make the boys happy. anything. and you knew if you truly didn’t want to, they wouldn’t make you.

the thing is—you wanted it all.

bang chan hoped you would agree. but he wouldn’t hold you hostage if you said no.

please say yes, he internally begged.

you nodded, “okay.”

thankfully, you were dressed in comfy clothes because when he had texted you, you ran to the nearest convenience store in panic.

his room was big enough to have two big comfy chairs that had sight of the television on the wall.

“what kind of movies do you enjoy?”

“anything in mind yourself?” you asked.

“how about the new marvel movie?”

“sounds good to me!” you smiled and hugged your knees close to your chest getting comfy on the chair as he got comfy on the other chair next to you.

if bang chan was bold enough, he would’ve asked if you wanted to watch the movie while laying in bed.

but would that be too bold? he can hear some members say, ‘not bold enough!’

how bold should he be with you? he did some lurking and found your personal social accounts. before you deleted any evidence, he found that you were a fan of theirs.

although he joked saying fans needed to touch some grass, he needed to touch some grass.

he saw the thirsty posts you had made of him before deleting. that’s why he wore the sleeveless shirt.

going shirtless would be too much too soon.

bang chan was restless during the entire movie and you noticed quickly.

you got up and grabbed some of the medicine and pedialyte from the bag. “here take this. you’re restless!”

“oh, um thank you.” he smiled timidly and took the the one pill and drunk the pedialyte.

“maybe that’ll help.” you smiled sitting back down.

“i think I should lay down?” he asked more in a question rather than a statement.

“ok, i’ll leave you be.” you smiled and stood back up.

“no, can you stay? um, just make sure i don’t vomit in my sleep?” bang chan wanted to cringe so badly at his own pleading.

“don’t you sleep naked?” you blurted without much thought and he laughed.

“yeah i do, but i can stay dressed for you.” he winked.

oh this flirt. this mister, ‘i don’t know how to flirt.’

should you stay?

“yes, you should stay.” he said and you wanted to slap yourself as you found that you said that out loud.

bang chan got comfy in bed, turning off the television. he patted the empty spot next to him. you hesitated but remembered technically he’s your boss too.

the thought of sleeping with your boss? your celebrity crush who’s your boss? amazing.

you sat next to him and you two got in comfortable conversation. it started with him asking how did you know you wanted a job like this and you replied it started in your teen years with the 17-magazine and teen vogue magazines wanting to be around celebrities and get to know them better.

like isn’t it fun to be able to interview your favorite popular artists?

as time you went on, you suddenly yawned and looked at the clock on the hotel nightstand.

“shit! it’s almost 1 am!”

bang chan laughed. “well, our show isn’t until the day after tomorrow,”

“you mean today? the day after today?”

“no. it’s not today until we sleep then wake up. regardless of time.”

you looked at him with interest. “that’s an interesting way to put it.”

“either way, we sleep, we wake up, we have nothing to do so we can sleep in.”

“well depends if my boss needs me to do anything.”

“i can tell her to give you a day off. say i need you as my personal assistant.”

you laughed. “personal assistant in what? keeping you company.”

bang chan blushed. “maybe.” he replied quietly with a smile.

“i can do that.” you replied.

was chan flirting with you? or was he just being his usual self?

no, this seemed like flirting. you doubt he’d just ask anyone for that.

“well i can keep you company whenever we wake up.”

“and tonight. while we sleep?” bang chan stared at you, his brown eyes looking at you with hope.

“sleep?” you choked out nervously. sleep? with? bang chan?

you could literally combust.

“i don’t have sleep clothes?” you questioned.

“i can lend you something if you need, unless you sleep naked too?”

you bit your bottom lip. should you do this?

“please? i won’t do anything you’re not comfortable with. if you don’t want me to touch you, i wont. i—i just really like your company.” bang chan admitted shyly.

how could you say no to that? “okay.” you smiled.

what you wish you could tell him was, ‘yes! touch me! i’ll sign an additional nda!’

you got into bed next to bang chan, after dressing in a plain black oversized stray kids shirt he gave you. you denied needing any pants as it would just make you restless in your sleep.

the shirt covered all that needed to be covered.

you both laid in bed, facing each other with nervous smiles.

“we should get some sleep.” you said with a yawn.

“yeah, we should.”

you and bang chan stayed up until 6 am that morning.

[shadowkoo]

I just needed to come here and vent for a moment. As a writer, I put a lot of time and thought into curating my ideas and outlining fics before I even begin writing. So, you can imagine my surprise when I woke up this morning to a tumblr notification that someone had tagged me in a post titled “[My Fic Title] Part 2.”

Naturally, I was a bit shocked. After scrolling through it, I realized that this user had written a second part to one of my fanfics, and they tagged me to credit me for the original story.

While I won’t name the specific fic or the user (they did remove it per my request), I feel the need to address this publicly with a quick PSA.

My characters, storylines, cliffhangers, and everything in between are my intellectual property. Yes, the characters are inspired by real idols, and yes, some of my plots exist within established TV/film/book universes. But the ideas, twists, and execution are mine, and I’m the one who will decide how they unfold. (For clarity, the fic in question isn’t set in another media universe, but I wanted include this line since it is relevant for a couple of my other works).

I appreciate that this person enjoyed my fic enough to be inspired to write something themselves, but to be completely honest, I don’t think what they did was okay. I have some serious issues with this, and I want to share them to hopefully prevent this from happening to me—or anyone else—again.

First off, I find it incredibly rude that they didn’t reach out to ask my permission beforehand. Had they done so, I would’ve immediately told them not to go forward with it. Instead, I found out through a tag after the fic had already been posted, which felt like a slap in the face. To make matters worse, because of time zone differences, the post was live for hours while I was asleep, gaining traction.

I know that in the fanfic community, it’s somewhat common to write alternate endings or continuations for larger works from big-name authors or shows, but that’s not what’s happening here. I’m a hobby kpop fanfic writer. Writing a fanfic of my fanfic just feels out of line.

To be blunt, it felt like they were piggybacking off the success of my story, trying to steal some of the excitement I’d built for an upcoming second part. It also seemed like an attempt to siphon engagement, followers, and interactions from my readers—people who were already invested in the original work.

What bothers me even more is that I’ve publicly mentioned I’m already working on a second part. It left me with a bad taste, like this person was trying to rush out their version before I could post mine. That kind of move creates confusion for readers and, from where I stand, feels calculated and disrespectful.

So let me make this crystal clear: No one has my consent to rewrite my work, create additional parts to my fics whether they’re complete, on hiatus, or in-progress, whether or not i have mentioned that i'm writing another part, or to publish alternate endings, etc.

Thank you for understanding. - Raven

[leegemma]

I just had like the cutest idea omg

So like a lee!hanbin and ler!chan skz zb1 crossover

I thought that would just be the cutest thing ever💔

Thank you for your request, so sorry it took me so long to get to it! It was a bit strange for me to write a fic with both Hanbin's and Chan's names together 😅

I hope you like it though! (I know the tickling part is really short... but It was really hard to write, so sorry)

Enjoy:)

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Hanbin took a deep breath before walking into to the artist lounge. He was about to meet with one of his biggest inspirations. Zb1 is a relatively new group, and the members were thinking very highly of their seniors, but for hanbin...

He was so nervous to meet bangchan of stray kids, that his arms were shaking as he rested his hand on the door handle, ready to open the door.

See, today, hanbin was told he'll be going on a show as the mc together with a different groups leader. Hanbin was excited at the opportunity to interact with the kpop community. However, it seems that the details of how famous this "leader" is were not explained properly, and when he found out, hanbin freaked.

Ans so now, he was finally ready to try to impress the Australian no matter what.

He opened the door and peeked inside, Chan immediately stood up with a big smile and went up to give hanbin a hug. "You must be hanbin, right?"

Hanbin blushed and nodded tensly. "Y-yes, it's such an honour to meet you... and mc with you today!"

Chan laughed and patted his back, smiling when all the staff members left the two alone. "Oh jeez, you’re so formal. Come on, let's sit."

And so the two sat down. Chan was sat comfortably, while hanbin was visibly nervous, legs shaking and hands resting in his lap.

Chan noticed how the younger's knuckles were starting to turn white, and he chuckled, poking the boy's side, smirking when he jumped. "Why are you so scared of me? I promise I don't bite"

Hanbin's eyed widened as he trued to quickly deny the allegations, while rubbing his side to make the tingle go away. "I'm no scared, I promise! I'm just- I was just really nervous to meet you."

Chan sent hanbin a gentle smile and placed his hand on the hamster's shoulder. "We're both just people at the end of the day, no need to be so anxious."

The awkwardly conversed for a few more minutes before chan sighed and shook his head. "This isn't working."

Hanbin's face darkened, and his eyes filled with tears. "I know... I'm sorry, I'll- I'll leave. I'm sure they can find someone to replace me wit-"

Chan laughed loudly. "No no no! I mean, I can't let you stay so stressed next to me anymore."

Hanbin blushed even deeper. "Oh..."

Chan scooted closer to the boy. "You know... there's one thing I know that can bring people closer, but I'm gonna need you to trust me."

Hanbin nodded. "Okay."

Chan smiled. "Great,how about you just lay down on your back... just like that... and I'm just gonna side on your hips, is that okay?"

Hanbin stared confused as chan lifted his arms up and held both his wrists with one hand. "I'm sorry... I don't really get what this is for?"

Chan smirked. "Oh you will, in just a second..."

That's when Chan started scribbling into hanbin's ribs, eyes widening in surprise when the younger screamed and immediately started hysterically laughing. "Woah, didn't expect this much of a reaction."

"W-WAIHAHAT!!" Hanbin tried twisting and turning, his brain taking way to long to comprehend what was happening.

"Not until you feel more comfortable! You can relax next to me buddy. Or do you think I'm way too old?" Chan teased, digging into the poor boy's tummy.

Hanbin screamed and tried folding his legs up. "NOHOHO! I DON'T!"

Chan laughed, moving to squeeze the knees and thighs that kept trying to attack him. "Good... make sure it stays like that. Some people tend to call me old." He rolled his eyes at the thought of seungmin favorite nickname for him.

Hanbin squealed and eventually fell into silent laughter, managing to wheeze out a few words. "Okay... ihihi... give..."

Chan laughed and got off him, offering him water and patting his back until the boy was all calmed down. "We should probably head over and start filming, yeah?"

Hanbin nodded after drinking, he then smiled at chan before speaking. "Thank you hyung. I really am grateful to be here with you today."

Cha smiled and wrapped his arm around hanbin's shoulder as they walked out of the room. "I know, buddy. Let's finish this quickly so we can go get ice cream and discuss our crazy leader stories, alright?"

"I'd like that." Hanbin nodded, making a little celebratory motion as soon as chan turned around a bit.

Safe to say, Hanbin will remember this lesson for when he's the experienced one.

[colourstreakgryffin]

Hiiii Could i req Mui in like modern au ver with a Jennie from blackpink like reader? Thank youu..,,

Oh? What is Jennie like? And we are a K-pop icon, I assume so that sounds very fun! I’ll do it and it’s a bit short! Kimetsu Academy AU again!

Tokito Muichiro [18+]

Muichiro is a big fan of you and your albums. He finds your music so calming and gorgeous, he loves listening to it as he works through the hours

You’re a transfer student. Moving to Japan to get better education and to shy away from your insane popularity in the Korean Pop community, you wanted to take break from fame for a semester or two

This is where you met Muichiro in class. He was oblivious to the fact you are his favourite musical celebrity, and he treated you so much differently then you’re use to. He treated you… like a normal person

Muichiro thought your face was familiar but he didn’t tie the knot for a long time until he showed you your own music during a private study session. You were nervous as you tried to pretend you’ve never heard of you but Muichiro noticed your singing matched the idol’s

Muichiro was very shocked when you revealed yourself as his favourite K-pop icon. His face exploded in blush and he stuttered out apologises. Complimenting you for your work and listening to you lovestruck sing to him

Muichiro loves how passionate you are and he encourages your desire to express yourself. You are who you are, and your music reflects that. He is your biggest fan in every form and he will defend you if he must

Muichiro has matching strong values to you so he always stands besides you in moral arguments and he won’t let anybody try twist the way you care about what is morally right and wrong. You and your values are important so they must be preserved

Muichiro admires your creativity, both in and out of the Kpop music genre. You’re intelligent and you know exactly what you’re doing, he just loves that and he could ramble on and on why he loves it

Muichiro follows your lead without a second thought. You’re a experimental one, and everything you come up with always comes out lavish and beautiful. He always suspects your ideas and your experiments succeed, he doesn’t believe you can mess up

Muichiro also shares your style of learning with you. He prefers to try something new and learn as he goes along, and the fact you’re the same has his heart beating so fast. You match him in many ways, his idol and crush clings onto his hand happily

Muichiro hides your identity from the Academy as much as he possibly can. He doesn’t want anybody to rat you out and flood you with Japanese fans of yours. You really appreciate his kindness and your own crush on him grows

Yes. Muichiro has introduced you to his older twin brother, Yuichiro and it wasn’t as bad as he thought it would go!

Muichiro swore he is constantly in a dream. His longtime idol is his friend and blushes at the way he compliments them, it’s incredible. He never wants you to move away, and honestly, you are heavily considering moving to Japan permanently

“Dokusha. Y-your music is incredible, don’t you know that? Huh? You don’t like your new music video? Why? It’s amazing. Just like every other one. You’re amazing, so much more than your art”

[miguelswifey04]

fanboy miguel and kpop idol reader where he is a shooter for you and bulk buys albums just to see you in fansigns and then you later find out he’s the ceo of alchemax and it’s just 💀💀

fanboy! miguel x kpop idol! reader

miguel finds himself captivated by a K-pop idol—none other than you, an incredibly talented artist who holds the spotlight on stage. miguel becomes an avid fan, following your every move, listening to your music, and attending every event possible. he takes his role as a dedicated fan to another level. as a photographer, he secures a position as your official shooter, capturing the perfect moments on stage and behind the scenes. his devotion is undeniable as he bulk buys albums just to have the opportunity to attend fansign events and catch a glimpse of you up close.

however, your worlds collide in an unexpected twist. after a series of chance encounters and coincidences, you discover that miguel is not just an ardent fan, but also the CEO of Alchemax, the prestigious company behind groundbreaking scientific research.

you reach out to him, tapping on his shoulder. "wait, you're the CEO of Alchemax? that’s... unexpected." miguel nervously scratches the back of his neck as he confesses with a nod, "yeah, it's a bit of a secret identity, i guess. i wanted to support you as both a fan and from a professional standpoint." your jaw slightly drops upon hearing his confession as you give him an awkward smile. “i had no idea...it’s just...i’m used to fans being fans, not CEOs. this changes things, doesn't it?"

miguel seems to be apologetic, hoping to have not made you uncomfortable or have crossed any of your boundaries. “i never wanted it to be awkward, cariño. i genuinely admire your talent and dedication. but, i understand if this complicates things. i don't want to jeopardize your career or make you uncomfortable."

you slightly giggle while you play with the hemline of your skirt, while carefully thinking on what to say next. “it’s not that, miguel. i appreciate your support, and i’m grateful for everything you do. it’s just...i’m still processing this revelation. meeting you like this was unexpected, to say the least."

miguel steps up a little closer to you as he places a gentle hand on top of your shoulder. he isn’t breaking eye contact with you and is being sincere with you. “i understand, and i’m sorry for not being more upfront about it before. i never wanted you to feel pressured or overwhelmed."

you let out a soft sigh as you reassure him. "you don't have to apologize, miguel. this doesn't change how i feel about you as a person or as a photographer. let’s navigate this together, balancing our personal connection and professional responsibilities." upon hearing your words, miguel gives you a side hug. "thank you. i feel the same way. let’s find a way to make this work, without losing sight of who we are and what brought us together in the first place." with open hearts and a mutual understanding, miguel and you embark on a journey to redefine the boundaries of your relationship. you communicate your desires and address any awkwardness or concerns as you strive to maintain your connection amidst the complexities of your individual roles.

tags 🏷️!! @kairiscorner @emiemiemiii @meeom @sabcandoit @obi-mom-kenobi @astro1bloom

[anyamaris]

How To Love Your Enemy part 1

Word Count-5836

Summary-An unexpected twist is thrown into your life as you begin your new career, in the form of the man you once knew.

Pairing- Kang Yeosang x f!reader

Trope-Enemies to lovers AU

Warnings-Vulgarity, angry conversations, allusions to past hurt, arguments, mentions of drinking, drunkenness. Minors DNI 18+ just in case...nothing overtly sexual in this but will be in following chapters so beware.

Tags- @cultofdionysusnet @wooyoungmybelovedhusband @yoonguurt @shinestarhwaa @babesindestroyland @lemonhongjoong @stardragongalaxy @kpop-stories-21 @flowerboykun @millennial-fangirl @ericssmile @kthpurplesyou @changbinslovelylegs @yeosxxx @ssaboala @millennial-fangirl @starillusion13 @duchesskaren

Always thank you to @cafekitsune for the use of the beautiful banners and dividers!

A/N-I really wanted to explore a workplace relationship with old tensions. I also was trying to think of how it could even be possible to have an enemies to lovers with Yeosang and this is what I came up with. I like the idea of him being a news anchor due to his work as an MC so I wanted to explore it a bit. Forgive any blunders as I'm still researching the career as I go!

I am dedicating this to my amazing bestie and muse, my hyung @babesindestroyland for listening to my ideas, beta reading, dealing with me running in circles with ideas and overall just being the best bestie ever. Thank you, gorgeous woman 🤍💜🤍

As always feedback is greatly appreciated and thank you for reading!

You smile at yourself in the full length mirror positioned in the small one bedroom apartment you’d just moved into.  Your first day on the job was today and you were practicing your camera ready smile one last time before heading to the station.  You’d gotten the full tour and met your bosses the week prior, in between the insanity of moving and figuring your way around this part of town.  You’d met some of your neighbors and had finally managed to get essentials unpacked to the point where you could cook something easy, and not have to dig through boxes for clothing. 

Adjusting your hair, checking your makeup, then smoothing your hands over the curves of your hips to check the fit of the new suit, you finally give yourself the approval to head in to your first real shift.  

There were many things you’d expected to encounter with having entered into your first real job after university.  As a communications major, you couldn’t believe you’d actually made it through all of the interviews to be offered the job as a copywriter for the local broadcasting station.  Smiling happily as you walk into the station, you scan your badge to make your way through the security and onto the elevators.  

You’d expected to be in awe and overwhelmed at the sheer size of the building, the hustle and bustle of the workers going in and out of the offices around you, the rush of people getting on and off of the elevators as you finally emerge at your floor.  Expected the slight annoyance of the secretary who had to direct you to the correct direction where you were to be working.  

These and so many other things, you’d thought of, anticipated and expected.  But never in a million thoughts of what your first day would be like had you expected to run into the one person in your life that you’d actually decided years ago that you hated.

Kang Yeosang.

You almost stumble with how quickly you halt as his familiar face looks up at you when you walk into the large office space.  Your lip curls involuntarily as you take in his dark hair, longer than you remember but styled nicely.  You despise how good he looks in his tailored suit, the lean boy you knew had definitely filled out and had definitely become a man.  You catch your expression and replace the sneer with a cheerful smile, looking away from the offensive man who has your mind racing.  You greet your new coworkers even as your brain is peppering you with questions.

Why was he here? 

Was he your coworker now? 

Were you expected to work with him?

HIM? Of all people, WHY HIM?!?!

Doing your best to not let your panic show, you greet everyone else and let a nice soft spoken man direct you to your workspace.  You smile down at the cute little cubicle, the empty shelf above the computer you were going to be doing your work on.  Ill have to get some decor for it, you’re thinking as you hear someone clear their throat next to you. 

Looking up, you do your best not to flinch at the dark eyes glaring at you.  “Y/n.” is all he says, in his deep, smooth voice.  Irritated already and he’d only said your name, you square your shoulders and plaster on a big fake smile.  “Yeosang.”  He mirrors your weird toothy smile as he speaks tightly through his teeth to you.  “Why are you here?” he says, his tone laced with frustration even as he grins at you.  

Letting out a small laugh, you can only plop yourself down at your workstation as you bat your eyelashes up at him and bite back, “I don’t have to explain myself to the likes of you. Now, I’d love to start my first day of work. Fighting!” you say, overly bright and cheerful as you raise a fist at him and he huffs, rolling his eyes as he walks away.  

Definitely not the start you were expecting at all.

Groaning as you make your way into your apartment, you sigh as you toss your bag, kicking off your shoes.  You make your way into the kitchen to drop the bag of groceries as you notice that you only have one.  You’d definitely had two when you left the store….you think, rubbing your eyes in frustration.  It’d been a long week and you’d barely slept.

Rubbing your neck, you make your way back to your door before you hear knocking.  “Yes?” you call out and you hear a male voice on the other side.  “Hi, I’m your neighbor from across the hall? I think you left your bag out here?” you sigh in relief as you throw open your door, happy you hadn’t left it anywhere weird.  “Thank you-” you say, but you almost choke as you are looking at the chest of the man in front of you.  

Your eyes travel up, up, up as they finally settle on the extremely tall man’s face.  And what a face, his baby face is unexpected with his height.  His gentle smile is calming after the week you’d had.  “Oh, thank you so much.  I’m losing my mind.  I must have set it down as I was getting out my key…” you say, taking it from him gratefully.  He smiles at you, holding out his hand.  

“I’m Soobin, I live right across here if you need anything.” he says, and you take his hand, happy to meet someone so pleasant.  “I’m Y/n, it’s very nice to meet you.  And I don’t have much right now but if you need anything as well…” you gesture and he nods.  “Great, neighbor.  It’s very nice to meet you.  I do have friends over occasionally, so if you see some shady tall men coming over in hoodies looking suspect, they're just my idiot friends.  But feel free to let me know if anyone bothers you.” he says and you laugh.  

“Well it’s nice meeting you, Y/n, have a great evening and it’s nice to have you in the building.” he says, and you wave as he makes his way back to his own place.  “Oh! Thank you again, by the way!” you say, holding up the bag.  “Welcome!” he says and you go back in to make dinner, a little happier than before.  

As you settle yourself in for the night, happy that you have the next two days off, you check your messages.  Noticing that one of your friends from university was messaging, you decide to just call her.  

“Yo!” you hear her voice as she answers, and you can’t help but snort. “Way to answer, Ty,” you say and she just huffs.  “How’s the new job?” she asks and you flop on your bed, sighing.  “Oof, that bad?” You rub your face as you groan.  “Nah, the job itself is awesome.  Just…ran into a very old…I guess I wouldn’t call him ex-friend.  More like an enemy.” “Oho….YOU have an enemy?” she says in disbelief.  

“It’s a stupid story, it shouldn’t even matter anymore.” you say, glaring at your wall.  “Come on, spill it.  It’s bothering you even now, so it’s not all that stupid.” You bite your lip, thinking of the best way to sum it up.  “Remember when I told you I had a best friend back in high school? But that we’d fallen out because of a stupid guy?” you say, and she groans.  “Oh no, is he the stupid guy?” she asks and you just hum in response.  

“Ew, I hate that.  What actually happened?” she asks and you close your eyes, recalling the events.  “Just…I liked a guy and told my supposed best friend at the time.  I did the idiot thing and confessed to him…” you hear your friend groan in sympathy on the other end.  “Yeah….well let’s just say he turned me down in a pretty harsh way.  I was so humiliated. And then not a few weeks later, that best friend was dating that stupid guy. The end.” Your friend makes a puking noise and you just nod at the wall.  “Yep.  Stupid high school shit, you see what I mean? He’s a jerk, I hate him.  Probably the only person I have ever said I’ve hated.”

“Fuck, what kind of douchebag humiliates someone confessing, especially in front of other people? That’s just…disgusting.” your friend says and you can only sigh.  “It was senior year of high school, ages ago.  It doesn’t even matter.  I should get over it.” you say, trying to convince yourself.  “Fuck that guy, dude.  No way. Just avoid him if you can. Oh…wait didn’t you say you have to write and do all the research and fact checking for his segments?” You just groan and she chuckles.  “Good luck my friend, just give me a call if you need and I’ll come set his ass straight.” “Deal. Night, Ty.” you say before hanging up and heading to bed. 

You spend the next day cleaning, organizing and unpacking the rest of your stuff, finally able to enjoy the full space you have.  It’s not large by any means, but it makes you happy to be out of shared dorms and renting rooms, finally having your own entire apartment.  You sing happily along to your favorite upbeat playlist, and finally stop as you take in your work.  “Hm…” you murmur, then make your way to find your little notepad.  Making a list of all the things you need to grab, you shower and change.  

As you shut your door, you notice your neighbor’s door is open.  “Hello?” you call out, being nosy enough to worry.  “Oh hey!” you hear behind you and you turn to see Soobin and another very tall man lugging a chair from the stairwell.  “Oh! I thought you might have left your door open by accident, sorry for being rude…” you say and he laughs, giving you a big smile as they take the chair inside.  “Nah, I’m glad you cared enough to check.  Yeonjun, this is my neighbor, Y/n. She just moved in.  Y/n, Yeonjun.  He’s a good friend of mine, you’ll probably see him around a bit.”  You smile at the handsome man, and he comes over to take your hand.  “Nice to meet you.” he says, and you can only marvel at them both.  

“What the hell did your parents feed you both?” you blurt out and they just look at eachother then start laughing as you cover your mouth in embarrassment.  “Must be something in the water,” Yeonjun says, grinning at you.  “Sorry, my mouth sometimes…” you say, blushing.  “No it’s fine,” Soobin says, coming over to pat you on the head.  “I mean, you are pretty short though, so…” you shake your head at him, surprised at how comfortable you already feel with him.  “Yeah yeah, well…sorry for being intrusive.  I’m heading out,” you say, giving them a small wave.  

“Hey! Before you go, if you feel up to it, tonight we’re having some pizza and probably watching a movie, or games or whatever.” he says and you nod.  “Oh I don’t mind any noise, really.”  you say, reassuring him.  “Y/n, I’m asking if you want to come by and hang out.” he says, smiling down at you.  “Oh! Um…well I’m just going to get some things I need for my place, but if I’m feeling up to it…” you respond.  “No pressure, just letting you know you’re welcome.” he says and you nod, waving goodbye to them both and heading out.  

Later after your shopping trip and taking in your space, you happily flop onto the couch.  “My own place…” you say to the ceiling and let out a content sigh.  Closing your eyes, you notice the sounds coming from across the hall.  They are faint but occasionally you can hear a laugh or a voice here and there.  “Too tired…” you murmur, then you let yourself drift off, enjoying the happy sounds from the neighbors and the bliss of being surrounded by your own personal bubble without having to share it with anyone else.

Monday morning comes around so quickly, you think as you play out your normal routine of double checking your outfit, hair, makeup.  Your excitement from the previous Monday was overshadowed by the knowledge that you’d have to work with Yeosang this week.  Last week had been mostly free of the man, but you’d been told this week you’d be discussing your actual duties with the anchor.  You’d found out from some of the other copywriters that he was fairly new and had been hired on recently as a news anchor.  

Deciding to focus on how much you actually loved the job itself, you head out.  You smile at your neighbors door, happy to have made some new friends along with your new place and job.  You’d gone by on Sunday to thank him for inviting you even though you hadn’t stopped by.  You’d baked him some cookies and he and his friends had happily gobbled them up as they bombarded you with questions and chatted away.  You found out they were idol trainees and were just as astounded at the other three giant men.  None as tall as Soobin, they were all just as handsome as the next. Now a bit more comfortable, you voiced your opinion about how good looking they all were, making them all coo over you, lavishing you with praise and it made you giggle at how silly they were.  Soobin had apologized for them all as you made your way home, but not before asking if you could exchange numbers, which you did happily.  

So, you let the happy thoughts of new friends energize your mood, rather than the upcoming stress you’re going to have to deal with.  You greet your coworkers cheerfully as you settle yourself at your desk, humming one of your favorite songs.  You go through your routine, checking emails and memos, double checking some previous week's edits, when you feel a presence behind you.  Turning, you purse your lips as you take in the one person that could drag you down from your little happy cloud. 

“Yeosang.” you say flatly and you’re just greeted by his stupid, stoic gaze.  “Y/n.” he responds and you struggle to not roll your eyes at him.  “I suppose it’s time for our one on one meeting,” you say, standing and grabbing your notebook and pen.  “Aren’t you going to bring a laptop?” he asks and you just return his bored stare.  “I prefer my notebook, thank you.  Can we go now?” you ask and he sighs, gesturing for you to go into the small conference room down the hall.  

Despite the tension between you, the meeting itself goes well, both of you mature and professional enough to stick to the topic of what is expected of the both of you, what your working relationship is, and so on.  You’d be expected to revise and edit anything he wrote for his segments, and at times write some yourself if he needed you.  Since you were both new, they’d paired you together.  

After establishing expectations and plotting out what you’ll be doing for the week, you close your notebook and nod, standing to go back to your desk.  “Send me anything you have at the moment through my email.  If that’s all…” you say, nodding your head at him before turning to leave. 

 “One more thing.” he calls out, his deep tone causing you to halt.  Turning, you just eye him, waiting for him to continue.  He clears his throat, looking away momentarily before he glances back at you.  “Why here?” he asks bluntly and you can only blink at him, not quite understanding.  “Excuse me?” 

“Why did you come to work here? Why this field? Are you…stalking me?” he asks, glaring at you.  You can only bark out a laugh as you reach out to grab a chair near you.  Glancing up at the ceiling to collect yourself, you take a moment to form words.  Words that won’t get you fired and escorted from the building.  

“Stalking you? Stalking you.” you shake your head at him and he crosses his arms, leaning back against the conference table.  “What other explanation do you have for being here?” he asks, a stupid smug smirk on his face and you have to refrain from swearing at him.  Or punching him in his pretty little face.  

“Explanation? I’m sorry, but last time I checked I’m a grown woman with the ability to do what I want.  But I’ll humor you.” You slap your notebook down on the table's surface, irritated. “I went to school for this career, I worked my ass off through university, I went through the interviews and I have every qualification to be exactly where I am.  As I am sure you do as well. My first thought when I saw you wasn’t that YOU were stalking ME, but I suppose I’m not the type of person you are.” you say, trying your best to not yell at the man.  

His eyes only show a hint of surprise before they return to their bored state.  “So just a coincidence then?” he says, his expression showing doubt.  You snatch your notebook to your chest and stare daggers at the offensive man. 

“I have no intention of continuing this conversation.  You must think very highly of yourself to even consider such a thing. I stopped thinking about you long ago, Kang Yeosang.  Especially after what you did.  You’re nothing to me, except someone I have to work with so do me the common courtesy of leaving me the fuck alone unless it has to do with our job.” you bite out, then turn on your heel to leave the room, heading back to your desk. 

You close your eyes, taking a moment to calm yourself down and breathe.  Stupid jerk, you think, sighing.  Taking a moment, you check your phone and can’t help but smile.  Soobin had texted to thank you for the cookies.  “At least some people are nice.” you mutter and shake your head, deciding to focus on your work for the rest of the day.

By the middle of the week, things seem to be fairly normal, sleep, work, dinner and dramas- repeat.  You’re settling into a nice routine, heading into work on Thursday morning when Yeosang approaches you while you’re making your way to the elevators up to your floor.  Ignoring him, you join everyone else as they make their way into the cramped box.  

Noticing that someone has pressed the button for your floor, you busy yourself with checking your messages and responding to some friends before you start your day.  “We need to talk.” you hear from right beside you and you glance up to see Yeosang’s face inches from yours.  Flinching back a bit, you immediately return to your phone.  “I’m serious.” his low tone says into your ear and you wince from his proximity.  “I’m not getting paid to deal with you at the moment so-” you start but he grabs your arm, pulling you closer to him as he whispers to you.  

“Cut the attitude, why haven’t you responded to my emails?” he hisses into your ear and you glare up at him.  “What emails?” you ask him and he sighs, his eyes dark and intense.  “I sent you emails last night, why are you ignoring them? It’s important.” he whispers back, and you sigh.  “Yeosang…if you sent them after company time, I don’t have access to work email from my home.” you respond quietly, watching people get on and off as you wait to get to your floor.  

“Can we just talk about this in the office?” you ask, growing uncomfortable with how you’re being jostled and pushed closer to him as people board and leave.  Someone bumps you, causing you to grab his arms so you don’t fall and you find yourself looking up into Yeosang’s face as he catches you.  Your lips part momentarily as you try to catch your breath, having never been this close to him before.  He was even more handsome this close, the birthmark by his eye almost beckoning you to reach up and touch it.  Then he’s letting you go as you pull away, straightening your blouse.  

“Our floor.” you hiss at him, pushing your way out of the cramped space and into the lobby.  Immediately his hand is on your arm, pulling you along with him into a small room.  Shutting the door behind him, he turns to look at you.  “Look-” he says but you stop him, walking right up to him to poke him in the chest.  “I don’t know what makes you think you can talk to me and drag me around like I’m some personal toy of yours.  Despite what a dick you were in high school, we’re adults now, Kang Yeosang.  Treat me like one or I’ll request to work with someone else.” 

He puts his hands up, his eyes getting big.  “Ok, I’m…sorry.” he manages to get out but you can see the glint in his eyes that he’s unhappy.  Like you gave a shit.  “So what the hell is it about emails?” you ask, turning to look at the room he’d dragged you into.  It was a small office with a desk and a little loveseat.  “Where even are we?” you ask and he sighs, going to the desk.  “My office.” he says and you nod.  At least he hadn’t pushed you into a broom closet like some cliche drama.  

Settling on the loveseat, you cross your legs and arms, waiting for his response.  “I had some last minute edits I needed for this morning's broadcast.” he says, pulling up something on his computer.  “What time are you going on air?” you ask and he glances up at the clock.  “9:30am, 45 minutes from now.  Could you-” he says, but you’re already up and pushing him out of the way, seating yourself in his chair.  “This?” you ask, glancing up at him, catching his annoyed look.  

“I can go.” you say and he shakes his head, his eyes swiftly going to the computer.  “This … and this…” he says, pointing to a few emails he’d sent.  Opening the files, you start to work, then stop as you realize he’s hovering over you.  “Shoo.” you say and you lock eyes with him for a moment before he retreats.  “Fine, I’ll go grab coffee. Do you think-” “I’ll take mine with two cream and one sugar, thanks.” you say, never taking your eyes off your task.  Hearing his sigh, you wait for the door to shut before you let the smirk creep over your face.  Jerk, you think, you deserve it.

You manage to finish your work with plenty of time to spare, looking up finally to see Yeosang seated on the small couch, a frown pulling down his pretty lips.  Pretty lips? Ugh, you sigh, rubbing your eyes and standing up to stretch.  “Done.” you say, glancing down to notice the little paper cup of coffee he’d placed next to you.  “Thanks.” you say, holding it up and heading to the door.  

“Y/n…” he says softly and you halt, glancing towards him.  His expression doesn’t change but he gives you a brief nod.  “Thanks.” You just nod back, then open the door, making your way back to your work area.  Yeosang had the decency to have informed your coworkers that you were already there, saving you the hassle.  Once the end of the day rolls around, you grab your things and head towards the elevators to make your way home.  

Just before the doors close, you notice Yeosang push his way onto the lift, then make his way to you.  Suppressing the urge to roll your eyes (yet again, this man was going to make you insane,) you just frown at him as he leans against the wall next to you.  “Thank you again for today.” he says and you stare at him in shock.  “Wow…two thank you’s in one day? I wasn’t aware that you knew any nice words.” you bite out, then clamp your mouth shut.  

The urge to speak without thinking around him was so strong and you just frown down at your arms before putting on your fake smile to look back up at him.  “You’re so very welcome, Mr. Kang. Anything to help.” you say and he just shakes his head.  He doesn’t say anything as the lift descends, but as you finally reach the bottom floor, he walks beside you as you leave the building.  

Stopping, you turn to glare at him.  “What now?” you ask and he sighs, stuffing his hands in his pockets and toeing the concrete sidewalk.  “Since you can’t check emails outside of work…perhaps we should exchange numbers just in case.” he says, not looking at you.  Huffing, you just pull out your phone and hand it to him.  “Fine, put your number in and I’ll text you so you have mine.  Hurry, so I don’t miss my bus.”  he just gives you an annoyed look as he takes the device and plugs his number in. 

“If I-” he starts but you put your hand up, texting him so he has your number.  Putting your phone away, you cross your arms.  “Yes, I’ll answer and help if you need it.  I’m not an asshole like some people.” you say, then turn on your heel to head swiftly towards your bus stop, leaving the flustered man behind.

“One more day….one more day…” you mutter to yourself as you make your way home.  When you finally get to your place and are fishing out your key, you hear the door open behind you.  “Hey there.” you hear and turn to smile up at Soobin.  “Hey! How was your day?” you ask, finally finding the key and opening your door.  “Oh fine, sorry I caught you right as you were-” he says but you wave away his apology.  “No no, it’s fine, come on in.” you say, holding open the door.  He smiles and comes in with you.  

“Oh, interesting.  I guess they are all set up the same, just flipped.” he says, glancing around.  “Yeah, it’s kinda fun to see how others decorate.” you say, smiling at him as you set your bag down.  “Oh so, you said you work at a broadcasting station right?” he asks and you nod, offering him a water bottle.  “Yep, at channel 17 downtown.” he accepts the drink and smiles happily.  

“So you work with Kang Yeosang?” he asks eagerly and you feel your smile falter. “Oh…yes.  Do you know him?” you ask and he nods excitedly.  “I went to the same university as him and I was a big fan of his when he did live mc stuff for the school.  He’s so cool.” Soobin says, his eyes sparkling.  “I saw that he’d started there and was on the news this week.  I realized you’d said you worked for a station and I had to ask.  That’s so cool!” he exclaims and you can’t help but giggle a little.  

“Sorry…” he trails off, his cheeks going a little rosy.  “I’m just…I guess I am a bit of a fanboy of his.  He was always so kind to me in university, cheering me on ... .well all of us trainees who also went to uni.  I doubt he’d remember me.  But … wow.  That’s just so neat that you work with him.”  he says and you’re too struck by his cheerfulness to be angry about his personal idol.  

“Well…I’m glad you had a great experience with him.  I actually went to high school with him.” you say before you can stop yourself.  His eyes light up and you wince internally.  No need to tell him what kind of person he was then, you think.  “Oh wow!” he says and you pat his arm. “We weren’t close, not even friends.  You definitely deserved the encouragement, any person could see how bubbly and happy you are.  If that translates to your dancing and singing, I bet you’re amazing.” you say and he glows as you praise him.  

“Thank you, Y/n! I’ll have to show you sometime.” he says and you nod, reminded of a big puppy.  “Of course, I’d love that.  And feel free to stop by anytime.” you say as he says his goodbyes.  “I will! Especially if you continue to bake!” you just laugh and shake your head as you close the door.  “How cute.” you say and go to relax for the evening, debating what to make for them next time.

Once you finally turn in for the night, closing your eyes and drifting off to sleep, your phone lights up and you hear the sound of a text message.  “Mrrrhhgg..” you grunt, rolling over to glance at it.  “Seriously?” you mumble, sighing and rubbing your eyes as you read the text.

‘Y/n, I need your help with this.  Are you awake?’

“Freaking Kang Yeosang,” you grumble, sitting up.  

‘I am now….’

Huffing, you get out of bed, glaring at the comfy pillow you’re leaving behind.  Really, just one more day, then the weekend.  You keep repeating that as you make your way to your computer to figure out the jerk’s issue.  

Which is how you found yourself irritated, tired and running behind as you make your way through the doors of the building, rushing to the elevators as you try to get to your desk on time.  You flop down in your chair, checking the time and sighing in relief.  You only had a few minutes to spare, but your normal routine was disrupted and you grit your teeth as you realize you hadn’t even checked your hair.  

Well, nothing to be done about it now, you think, pulling out a small mirror just to make sure you don’t look like a complete mess.  “Y/n!” you hear your coworker call to you.  “Oh yes? Minseok, correct?” you ask.  “Yes, you remembered.” he says and you smile at him.  He’d been so polite and nice to you since you’d come.  “We’re having a small gathering tonight to welcome you and a few new people to the team, right after work.  I hope you can come.” he says and you groan a little inwardly, knowing you’re going to be tired by the end of the day with such little sleep.  

But the eager look on Minseok’s face and the smiles from the others listening make you feel like you can’t decline.  “Actually, it sounds like fun.  I’ll look forward to it.  Just let me know where to meet after we’re done for the day.” you tell him and he nods, giving you a small wave as he makes his way back to his desk.  

Cursing Yeosang for the nth time in your head this morning, you turn to throw yourself into your work.  Stupid late night texts, you think.  You loved the idea of going out but you’d rather do so on a full night's sleep.  Oh well, you think, so be it.  You’ll just take a power nap at lunch or something.

But by the end of the day, no naps were taken due to how busy you were.  It was fine though, since it was Friday and worst case, you could leave early if you were truly not feeling it.  Making your way to the elevators, you wave at your coworkers as they catch up to you.  Not far behind is a familiar, unwelcome face and you groan to yourself.  

“Yeosang!” one of the women calls out and he gives her a nod as he joins you all.  “Where to?” he asks and you realize he is also one of the new people coming along.  Wrinkling your nose, you just turn to your other coworkers.  Noticing Minseok smiling at you, you eagerly make some small talk with him and a few others as you all get onto the elevator.  

“It’s so nice having you around, Y/n.  Are you enjoying your work?” Minseok asks and you nod eagerly, launching into small talk about some of the research you’d been doing.  It definitely wasn’t distracting you hearing how kind and sweet Yeosang was to the ladies surrounding him, fawning over him.  Absolutely not interested in his easy smile and how handsome he looked when he wasn’t sneering.  You glance away as he catches your eye, rushing off the lift as the doors open.  

Despite your fatigue, you’d found yourself looking forward to the social event this evening.  You were looking forward to getting to know your coworkers better, to letting loose a little.  To enjoy your new employment like everyone else, doing the normal things adults in the real world did.  Simple, easy, fun.  

What you didn’t look forward to was spending the evening with your old enemy sending looks your way, his expression changing to annoyance or irritation as his eyes met yours.  Only to melt into enjoyment as he looked at others.  It bothers me how much it bothers me, you think angrily.  

This is how you find yourself, eagerly accepting drinks, shots, stumbling your way with the group from place to place, a blur of loud happy voices, singing silly songs and hugging people.  How you found yourself in the arms of Minseok as he holds you up, brushing your hair back.  How Minseok’s face oddly looks like Yeosang’s.  “Minseok…how’d your voice get so deep?” you murmur, your head resting on his chest.  

“You’re annoying.” you hear and you huff, smacking the chest the voice came out of.  “You can’t even get my name right.” the deep rumble says and your head tips back to look into the dark eyes of a man who is definitely not Minseok.  Into the intense brown eyes of a man you’ve hated for years.  “Asshole. I hate you.” you say, poking at his cheek.  “I hate you, too.” he bites out, stumbling with you in his arms.  Somehow you were both on the side of a building, and his back was to a wall.  

Suddenly, you're the one with your back against the bricks and he’s leaning over you, staring down at you.  “You’re drunk,” you say, squinting at him.  “You must be….you’re not glaring…” you murmur, your hand running over the intense face looking down at you.  “Fuck you,” he breathes out, and you tip your head back, your thumb running over his bottom lip.  “Fuck you right back,” you hiss, then his mouth is on yours.  

This is definitely not how your life was supposed to be, your mind rails at you even as you find yourself giving in to your buried emotions.  

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Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to other writers. Spread the self-love~ 🫶🏻

Thank you for the request, I finally got to it :D Five fics that I've written which are my favourite - (and I had to choose only those I've already finished, but a lot of my fav settings are in the long long chaptered poly fics x)) 1. Caught In the Downpoor – Sky/Rain, Love in The Air I love the entire trilogy I wrote because it was a silly whimsy idea that we had a lot of fun developing on discord and then I started writing it, and other people supported it too and now there are so many awesome SkyRain fics out there that absolutely fit my taste with ADHD, platonic bdsm and close friendship vibes. This is just such a comfort ghost ship for me that is popular enough to constantly return to xD I might even write fourth story for them one day! Who knows when inspiration hits but I'm not really done with those weather besties.

2. Young And Menace - Sand/Ray, Todd/Black, Not Me + Only Friends I love this one because crossovers of any Thai BL with Not Me is an amazing idea, in my opinion. And since we got to know Sand lived in the same building as Black, and we didn't get to see him using his bat, I took the headcanon of them being friends and ran with it xD Plus, I think, this story just poured out of me in one sitting and I didn't really know what was going to happen, but all of them ended up very emotional. And poetical. And I consider it well written so yeah, my fav!

3. I let you paint me in black - Black/|Yok, Not Me I am back with my Not Me fics and ghost ships :D We joked on NM discord that Yok definitely tried to get it on with all of gang members, and he's also the kinky one - meanwhile Black is on the violent side. I put handcuffs on Yok, gave Black some tools and played with them like dolls. And as expected, they had a lot of fun! This and its sequel fic are some of my short stories that I write in one sitting simply for an idea but I think I managed to capture some tension between these characters which I don't usually have in my stories.

4. Capturing the sight of a broken soul - Nick/|Sand, Nick/Boston, Only Friends Uh... I don't need to put a disclaimer about another ghost ship, do I? I just love platonic bonds and close friendship that are borderline romantic or touchy. And somebody needed to comfort Sand after everything he's been through! Come on! And Nick had to repay with his kindness and softness back. Also I challenged myself to write Boston's POV here which was... extremely fun! I was thinking how he and Sand could get to a more friendly side, and I think I found the way.

5. Boredom is a crime - Korn/Wai, Bad Buddy Last but not least, this was my first ever fic I wrote for Thai BL series. Which was on itself fascinating, as I haven't been really writing for years in my other kpop fandom. But meeting other fans and ficwriters, getting overwhelming support and attention for my works and forming community felt so inspiring that I started writing and drawing for myself and for fun again. It was also the time when I challenged myself to write coherent stories in English, and I practiced on BBS and NM. Also I should really write more (even more) asexual and ADHD characters... Anyway, Korn's POV is still my favourite and I had a lot of fun and it's a very important milestone.

It was a nostalgic journey, and I remembered once again what I love writing about. I never know what message do I give but I hope my stories are simply comforting or fun to explore for other people =)

I'm passing the torch to @ullvide @xagan @springkitten @doyou000me @wereflamingo-in-thai-dramaland (or tag me if you already did such post!)

[onlyseokmins]

✨ ᴏɴʟʏꜱᴇᴏᴋᴍɪɴꜱ ᴏɴᴇ ʏᴇᴀʀ ᴄᴇʟᴇʙʀᴀᴛɪᴏɴ 🥂

❥ I'm super excited to announce my one year celebration with this blog and combine it with a milestone event! The main goal is to celebrate the writers and fics in the kpop community, so I hope you'll join me in doing so. A gentle reminder that if anyone is interested in doing something like this, please send me a message! I spent a decent amount of time organizing this so it would be appreciated, thank you. And without a further ado - from June 5th to June 19th, you can submit a fic via this form, tell me what you liked about it, and as an optional bonus: receive a headcanon of your choosing written by me! ❤

❥ Please makes sure to thoroughly read the following rules below because a keyword is needed for EVERY proper submission. Don't hesitate to send me a message/ask for clarification, concerns, or anything else! ♡

𝓗𝓸𝔀 𝓭𝓸 𝓘 𝓹𝓪𝓻𝓽𝓲𝓬𝓲𝓹𝓪𝓽𝓮?

⌦ The idea is that you provide a link to a fic, tell me what you liked about it, and I will send it over as an ask to the writer!

⌦ All feedback sent to the writer will be anonymous unless you choose to add your URL to your written feedback. It will not be linked to you even if you choose to be tagged in your headcanon post. So, please feel free to be an avid secret (or not) admirer!

𝓦𝓱𝓪𝓽'𝓼 𝓲𝓷 𝓲𝓽 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓶𝓮?

⌦ You get to brighten a writer's day, let them know you love their fics, and help them feel like their hard work, time, and dedication is worth it! Whether you want to revisit some of your favorite fics/writers and gush over them or have simply been too shy to send any feedback before - I'm happy to provide a fun avenue to celebrate the writers in the community!

⌦ Though it's only optional, you may also submit a headcanon request for me to write. Further details laid out below.

𝓘𝓼 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝓪 𝓼𝓾𝓫𝓶𝓲𝓼𝓼𝓲𝓸𝓷 𝓵𝓲𝓶𝓲𝓽?

⌦ You can submit your responses to the form as many times as you want during the event period (June 5th - June 19th). This includes headcanon requests but you must submit a fic link and feedback for each request you send in.

⌦ Please do not abuse the system. Duplicate links/feedback for multiple requests will be deleted! There are a multitude of fics and writers to choose from, so go out and find some great fics! ❤

⌦ There is never a limit to sending writers love. Even after this event ends, consider still doing it on your own! If this is a success, I may also bring it back next year ♡

𝓦𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓪𝓻𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓯𝓮𝓮𝓭𝓫𝓪𝓬𝓴 𝓼𝓾𝓫𝓶𝓲𝓼𝓼𝓲𝓸𝓷 𝓻𝓾𝓵𝓮𝓼?

⌦ Though it seems like a lot, it should be laid out in the form clearly and simply. These just serve as clarification/elaboration.

The writer MUST be aged 18+ or older. No exceptions. I will NOT be interacting with any known minors. Thank you.

Likewise, absolutely no minors are allowed to participate. Trusting y'all on this!

Please note if the writer is comfortable with NSFW content. This is just a head's up for me but not mandatory so it's fine if you don't know. I will handle it accordingly via interaction with my SFW writing blog.

All written content within the kpop community is fair game as are any adult writers. However, please note I reserve the right to make my own judgment whether I feel comfortable before engaging with any fics or blogs!

Do not weaponize or put down derogatory remarks. I also reserve the right to decide if the feedback you provide is respectful before sending it.

𝓦𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓪𝓻𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓱𝓮𝓪𝓭𝓬𝓪𝓷𝓸𝓷 𝓻𝓮𝓺𝓾𝓮𝓼𝓽 𝓻𝓾𝓵𝓮𝓼?

Feel free to take a look at my guidelines on what I won't write. Any questions, don't hesitate to send me an ask!

NSFW and SFW headcanons are welcome though any SFW requests will be posted at a later date and can all be found @userseokmins

Similar to the game I did when I first opened this blog, these will be kept short so I can focus on my multitude of WIPs. Completed posts will be no less than ~5 sentences but no more than 1k words.

Posting will be at will without a time frame to avoid me feeling pressured. Please search elsewhere for a writer accepting requests if you want a more reliable timely manner. I'm still working on other requests and WIPs simultaneously!

I reserve the right to not post anything I don't want to. [the keyword, all lowercase, is deekay btw!!]

𝓦𝓱𝔂 𝓪𝓻𝓮 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓭𝓸𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓼?

⌦ I've been thinking about this kind of event for a long time. I'm very excited to kick it off. Nothing gives me more joy than giving and sharing some to others!

⌦ I've also been looking to catch up on reading more fics, so please don't feel ashamed to promote yourself!

onlyseokmins: June 2023 ©

[jayflrt]

HELLO!

I like your work a lot like it's genuinely Hilarious so I thought you would be the best person to ask for this.

I want to make a writing tumblr for enhypen but I'm a little lost because I've never used tumblr (as a creator) before LOL just used twitter and AO3 to write/socmed for fictional fandoms (tbh this is my first time like being a proper fan of a kpop group as to occasionally liking a song or two).

Anyways! What I've gathered from my experience on twitter and the writers I've followed here is obviously your blog should have an intro about you (inc. what you're comfy with, what you write, etc.) and a master list of your works BUT some of Tumblr's mechanics are Confusing.

Like,

1) should I create specific tags for my asks?

2) on twt, usually you create a tweet like "Hi! New to #___twt, looking for moots blah blah" to get an initial burst of likewise new people to bond and communicate with, does it work similarly here and if so/not please elaborate TT

3) is the etiquette to reblog every work you like, or is that spammy and you should just like them?

4) is there any other advice you have for navigating tumblr (like odd quirks)

5) ALSO this is a small dumb question but in the fandoms I've been in until now we usually used socmed au instead of smau do you have any idea why that's different (low-key smau is smarter tho bcus it's a shorter abbreviation)

I think that's all. I tried going through your rules and intro again, but I didn't see anything on whether an ask like this was alright or not, but I hope it is! I didn't want to Like intrude, but I felt most comfortable asking you because you're also desi ❤️❤️.

Anyways!! If this is something you don't want to/don't feel comfortable answering or it's like annoying genuinely just ignore this, I don't want to be make anyone uncomfortable!

omg thank you so much ml, i'm so glad you enjoyed my works!! 🥹 welcome to the kpop community first of all!! did you recently become an engene? :') and welcome to the tumblr ff community too! honestly i feel like if you can navigate ao3 just fine then tumblr shouldn't be too difficult after a while but i'm sure it's confusing at first 😵‍💫

as for your questions i'll answer them in the same order you asked them:

1. honestly i'm not 100% sure if there's any real purpose behind specific tags for your asks other than organization personally LOL but it's pretty helpful if you want to go back to look through your asks for something instead of scrolling past all the posts on your blog !!

2. omg yes i love the twt intros 💗 honestly for tumblr i think i just started posting content right away whenever i made a blog 🤧 i think intros are usually just in your navigation anyways but if you want to talk to different authors then it doesn't hurt to send an ask!! usually people communicate with different authors via the ask box 🥰

3. all sorts of interaction is great but i think reblogs are preferred!! i typically use likes as my bookmarks and then reblogs to comment on work or share it to a wider audience. the algorithm for tumblr works so that your likes don't show for others (unless you make it public on your profile) but your reblogs are on the dashes of people who follow you

4. ooh i'd say make use of the tagging system!! using tags like #enhypen fluff or #enhypen x reader on your fics will make it easier for people to find your work 💘

5. HAHAH I USED TO CALL IT SOCMED AU TOO BEFORE I JOINED TUMBLR 😭 i still use social media au as a tag but i think smau is more widely used here!! not exactly sure why but im guessing its just easier to tag 🙂‍↕️ i get you tho bc i experienced the same culture shock

dont worry you're most welcome to send asks !! 🥰💘 and thank you for reading my rules and intro!! i definitely don't turn away anyone who's looking for advice <33 also omg fellow desi 🫶 welcome to enhablr !

[strawbearyhoney]

Just say you hate ppl with eating disorders and go

if someone were to promote depression ( literally using a pro-depression tag and telling other people how to get more depressed and encouraging others to self harm and be miserable ) and i said ' tumblr should block that tag ' would you say i hated ppl who suffer froam depression . lol

i have ppl close to me who have suffered from eating disorders and i have a complicated relationship with food myself . its one thing for ppl struggling with an ed to have a space to talk about it , to connect with other people going through the same thing , even to vent about it / their challenging thoughts and talk about when they relapse . its another thing entirely to make posts like " fat ppl are ugly disgusting monsters you have to be skinny pale and frail to be worth anything or beautiful " and then plop urself right into an echo chamber of people obessing and nodding along liek yes yes i must be thin i must be thin all i want is to be thin im disgusting

you are going to die . full stop . you are going to die . your organs will fail and your hair will fall out and your teeth will wear down from the acid of you throwing up so often . you are going to die and it wont be pretty . you are going to die if you do not get out . eating disorders kill people , full stop . liek i need you to understand how serious this is . you either recover or youre dead . this isnt me saying " i dont liek that these people are talking about something thats bad " or " ppl struggling with this should have no spaces to talk about what theyre going through " , this is me saying " the pro ana tag is so incredibly dangerous and tumblr should block it liek theyve blocked countless of other way less harmful tags " . this is me saying im begging you to do some reserach to get out of the echo chamber and i know its not that easy and you cant just say ' wow ur right im healed now thanks ' , but you have to want to get better and that starts with cutting out " thinspo " and to stop encouraging eachother to slowly kill yourselves

liek there are a host of other problems too . the fatphobia is an obvious one , but also the colourism , racism , etc . the pro ana / thinspo communities are obsessed with reaching this ideal of a skinny pale waif , so many blog titles and urls are centered around being ~ fragile ~ and ~ pure ~ and they only ever focus on white girls ( or apparently kpop stars now ) . its an incredibly toxic place . " meanspo " is a thing now ?? i couldnt stomach too much of it

but without getting into the ~ discourse ~ or how ~ problematic ~ those communities are . putting that aside . youre going to die . full stop you either recover from an ed or it kills you . and some people with eds are suicidal and that wont deterr them , for some their goal is to wither away into nothingness . ppl with eds are not healthy , mentally or physically , and that is not a moral judgment , it is a fact . people get eds for all sorts of reasons , from trauma ( abuse , bullying , sa , etc ) , from being fat in a fatphobic world , because they latch onto food as something they feel liek they can control-- there's so many reasons , an endless amount of reasons . i am not here to shame anyone for having an eating disorder

that does not change my stance on the fact that the " pro ana / thinspo " tags ( and their copycats . #proana #proed #thinspi #thinspii #thinspø #thinsp0 #ed not sheeran #ed not sherran #ana miaa etc etc ) are dangerous and should be removed . similar to how someone going into tha #depression tag and promoting and encouraging others to kill themselves should be banned

srsly if someone went into tha #depression tag and started posting and commenting on others posts liek " kill yourself , its never going to get better , heres some accessible ways to die , heres some suicide inspo , heres cute suicide note ideas , kill urself just die prove everyone wrong , everyone will be so sorry and regret the way they treated you , just die " , people would mass report them and dogpile them and be angry at them and get them banned . but when pro ana ppl do it suddenly its " let us cope " lol ????? not all coping methods are good or healthy or should be encouraged / promoted . and self mutilation is one thing , but when you are actively harming others it cant be left alone

to quote Blythe Baird from her spoken word When The Fat Girl Gets Skinny : if you are not recovering , you are dying

[ft-3racha]

hey people,

i just noticed that we are almost at 600 followers??? what???? to know that so many of you enjoy what i do on here means a lot to me, so i wanted to take the opportunity to talk a little, so please feel free to interact with me in the comments, because i have a very important question and i want you to decide with me on this one:

WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO SEE AS A SPECIAL?

i do have some ideas, but maybe there is something you‘re really interested in i haven‘t thought of yet? and i want to make sure y‘all also get a say in this, since this blog wouldn‘t be where it is without you!!

second thing is: i never really told you guys anything about me really…

so hi, my name‘s marlon, i‘m in my early twenties, pronouns are he/him and i‘m a guy!! i know the kpop community is more of a female dominated place, but i feel very welcome nevertheless. <3

next up: the groups i stan and my bias(es)

- stray kids is my ult group, my ult bias is chan (i would literally die for him wow), but i also bias han and changbin, the other five are my bias wreckers (it‘s just the way it is what can i say)

- my ateez biases (yes, another bias line sue me) are mingi (i love that man with my entire soul), hongjoong and san; bias wreckers are wooyoung and yunho (but everyone wrecks me every now and then, so one could argue again)

- p1harmony biases are keeho and intak, bias wreckers are jeongseob (mY ROOT CAME 2005-) and jiung hihi

- seventeen biases are s.coups, mingyu and wonwoo, unsure about bias wreckers atp bc i‘m not that deep into svt yet

- with enhypen, my bias is heeseung and bias wreckers are jake and sunghoon

- my txt bias is yeonjun (the man that initially got me into kpop tysm), bias wreckers are kai and soobin

- and finally, bts: my biases are yoongi and jungkook, bias wreckers are hobi and namjoon (but everyone else is also chef‘s kiss, so again…)

i don‘t know if you noticed, but i have a thing for rappers and/or leaders….oh well-

anyways, that‘s it. let‘s chat a little!! tell me about your biases, talk to me about the special…or whatever you feel like talking about.

thank you<3

[beautifulpersonpeach]

Hi, I know you're resting now, I wanted to share my opinion about the album. I noticed that there are five tracks in Face and they are so similar to the 5 stages of acceptance. What do you think about it? Perhaps my question is incoherent, I am writing it through a google translate.

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Ask 2: FACCE IS SAURRR GOOODD!! 😭😭😭 WHEN IS THE REVIEW BPP?

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Ask 3: Which remix is your fav?? I think beans and toast won this won

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Ask 4: Bpp Imma need to go to SK and hold Jm hostage…I need him to make more music…Im going crazy Hes not my bias or my bias wrecker but hes wrecked me…I cant believe that he made my soty my aoty…I just wish the album had more songs…Like crazy is crazy good!!!!

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Ask 5: BPP, hi!

I was hoping JM would show us a bit of his true self in his new album. And did he, huh? That MV and song reeks of homosexuality. I know it's simething ARMYs do not talk about. But... What do you think?

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Ask 6: So did Jimin really end kpop for you BPP? Which song is you’re favourite? ☺️ He’s blown my mind at least. It’s Instant AOTY for me!!!!!! I hope Like Crazy is promoted really harf because I think it has really good potential It’s my favorite in the album ☺️

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Hi Anon(s),

Before we get into it...

...I have a bone to pick with Jimin.

I don’t understand what Jimin thinks he’s doing not putting Letter on Apple Music or Spotify. Like, why does he think that’s a good idea? Does anybody know? This song is so perfect - Jimin's lush vocals harmonizing with Jung Kook's is beautiful - Letter needs to be available on as many platforms as possible. See, these are the kind of choices the tannies make that just causes me to laugh because yeah these hidden songs are 'gifts to fans' but it's also a crime against all that is good and honest in this world to keep it off channels those fans will gladly pay for? The fact Ddaeng is still stuck in Soundcloud purgatory is reason enough to kidnap Bang PD's nephew and sell him to the mafia, far as I'm concerned. The only reasons I haven't done it yet because kidnapping is illegal in my country, the Cosa Nostra require a blood oath, and Jin wouldn't like delays to his game update.

Letter is Promise all grown up, a little wiser and more developed, and I hope in every subsequent album Jimin releases for the rest of his career, that there is a version of Promise, a song that feels like Jimin - comforting, easy, warm, simple, and beautiful. Listening to it I'm so thankful Jimin exists. (Yes Jimin, I'm that fan who is simply happy you're alive - Pixid reference, so for anyone who hasn't watched it yet I've linked it here).

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FACE is a solid 8.1 / 10.

(Are you streaming?)

It's a great thing Jimin has been so forthcoming in talking about the process and his reasons for making the album, the songs on it, as well as how he had key input on the choreography. I strongly suggest everyone watch his live (linked here - I should probably also mention the English subs aren't up yet, just FYI). Jimin has been very clear about what he's communicating in FACE so I won't tarry on it.

My favourite songs in order of least to most:

5) Like Crazy

4) Face Off

3) Letter

2) Alone

1) Set Me Free Pt 2

Something about each song in reverse order with the exception of Letter - for Letter, see mafia case above.

Set Me Free Pt 2

This is the best song on the album.

Alone

There are two reasons why SMF Pt 2 comes out on top over Alone though Alone in many ways is the superior song. (1) The production (including the use of autotune) in SMF Pt 2 is incredible, and (2) because Alone ends on too disturbing a note for me to dwell on, knowing that it has come from Jimin.

Everything about Alone is perfect. The way the song begins with piano, then guitar, and then drums. Jimin’s voice. That man’s voice seriously fucks with my head. It’s the way I feel every time Yoongi twitches his voice when he’s being particularly nasty. Or anytime I hear Joon’s adlibs in a song. Or what happens in my head every time Hoseok slathers his vocal inflections with grit. I don’t know if I’m making sense, but what I mean to say is that Jimin’s voice during the entire song feels like a gift. It draws you in. And then you hear what he’s singing about...

It’s heartbreaking.

I can’t abide the thought that this is something Jimin went through recently, and that I relate in a very personal way. The emotions expressed in Alone feel too raw, too scary, and too real, and while that could point to a worrying state of mind in its author, I think Jimin’s idiosyncratic bluntness and clarity of speech in Alone shows the state of someone who still reflects often, is self-aware and also resilient.

Still, it’s a sad song to hear, an even sadder one to sing, but it is one of the most powerful and beautiful songs I’ve ever heard.

(He's a problem)

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Face Off

I appreciate the vision Jimin had for this song. Starting with the gag of him playing the Flea Waltz in the intro - the song the members have teased Jimin with repeatedly by saying it's the only song Jimin knows how to play on the piano - Jimin used that common (good-natured) taunt and then weaponized it in a song putting those who have crossed him in their place. It's clear by the second verse when Jimin raps that he's pushing himself to express what he means in as many ways as possible. He's challenging himself and sending a message, and that I can respect.

Anon in ask 1 who talked about the album showing the five stages of grief, I agree sort of. If we were to assign a response to each song, I'd say...

Face Off is Anger

Like Crazy - Denial (though bargaining works too)

Alone - Depression

Letter - Acceptance

(PJM2 will be madness)

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Like Crazy

This is my least favourite song on the album because it never really develops, but it's also not supposed to. Jimin has said he wanted to express a dreamlike state in Like Crazy, and he does that impeccably well. The song leans into its 80s groove, heavy padded synths, something reminiscent of if Foster The People and The Weeknd made a song together. The thing about dreamlike states is that they lull your mind, and one easy way to create that effect is repetition and monotony. Think about why someone trying to hypnotize someone else tries to keep their voice steady, calm, and monotone. So, many times listening to Like Crazy I wanted the song to go somewhere, to become fuller or less predictable, but that would kill the trance so it didn't. While it's not my preference, I can appreciate Jimin's commitment to the idea of the song.

It's a great track even then. I sometimes listen to it right after Big Man, Little Dignity by Paramore.

Speaking of Like Crazy, there's been much ado about about Jimin's sexuality, queer-coding, etc in the song and so Anon in ask 5, I see where you're coming from.

Jimin is queer. I don't know what else there is to say about it or why even the mere possibility of Jimin being queer should generate the amount of fuss/discourse it does. It's possible I'm wrong of course, but like you Anon I don't think I saw Jimin even stand straight once during the entire MV. There’s not a single straight thing about this guy.

For the sticklers, perhaps the more diplomatic way of saying it is, 'many of us strongly suspect Jimin is queer.'

(What a stunner)

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Jimin seems very pleased with his first album and this is my favourite thing about the last few weeks. Watching him for the last nine years, it's gratifying to see how he has fully embraced himself, his limitations, his pride, his vices, his virtues... Jimin is a strong tenacious person and in making this album, he turned that intensity inwards, towards learning to love himself. The result is five great tracks, and I'm eager to see what more he will show us in the future.

[sparrow-in-the-field]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

Tagged by @strangethings-everywhere ! Thanks for the tag as always!

I guess today is the day that you all get to learn about my other AO3 account since a lot of these Qs are about overall stuff lol.

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

44 total (14 on sparrow-in-the-field and 30 on idyllic_hummingbird)

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

232,723 on sparrow, and 944,120 on idyllic, so that's 1,176,843 total! Pretty nuts lol

3. What fandoms do you write for?

On sparrow-in-the-field I've written for tbitb, Stranger things, and one Ted Lasso fic (I wanted to write more for Ted Lasso tbh but I was in my Writer's Block Era, so alas it was only one fic. Maybe someday I'll write more??). And idyllic_hummingbird was my BTS account (yes the kpop group lol don't judge me).

4. Top five fics by kudos?

Awakening (BTS) has 2,638

Just Hold On (BTS) has 2,234

A Secret for Shy Affection (BTS) has 2,122

Dirty Laundry (Stranger Things) has 1,888

To Build a Home (BTS) has 1,878

(rip to my smaller fandom fics for this question 🥲 lol)

5. Do you respond to comments?

Yes!! I love responding to comments, I always respond! One of the best parts of writing ff is the sense of community and I love talking about writing so if you comment I will reply!!

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angriest ending?

I only write happy endings lol. I guess my least happy/most ambiguous ending was for my gigantic BTS fic Heartbeats in Stone...so much happened to the boys in that one it felt wrong for everything to wrap up with a perfect happy ending, so I left it more as "not everything is okay rn but maybe with time it will be"

7. What is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

All my fics have happy endings, idk how to quantify which is the happiest! I guess I'll shout out my tbitb fic The Quiet Act of Loving Someone because I think that one had whole lot of joy in the last chapter and it always gives me the warm fuzzies :')

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I have! The worst was on a taejin fic, I had the all too classic, someone mad at who I had top/bottom in smut discourse 🙃 I was younger back then so I foolishly fought back and it became like a whole thing. Luckily I had a good support system in that fandom so I ended up okay. But there for awhile I was just tagging everything as switching so those type of people would leave me alone lol (can I just say, very glad that no one seems to care about that stuff in this current fandom.)

9. Do you write smut?

I think more of my fics include smut than don't lol. Writing smut is very important to me, it's healing. I see it as an ode to my past self, because I used to have a lot of shame around sex, and writing smut helped me unpack that like, a lot.

10. Craziest crossover?

I've never written a crossover.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I'm aware of, and hopefully not. But the BTS and ST fandoms were huge, it wouldn't exactly surprise me if it did happen.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I've been asked several times, and I always politely decline. Idk if it's selfish, but having a work translated requires relinquishing a lot of control, and my fics are so personal and meaningful to me that the idea always gives me too much anxiety to say yes.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Nope! And sorry to all my writer friends but I don't think I could 😅 I just write my own weird shit, the minute I try to write for a prompt or with someone else I just flounder lol

14. All time favorite ship

I have never been able to have just one! In my BTS days I literally wrote poly ot7 because I wanted to write all the ships lol. In tbitb I thought I'd only write Bobby/Don and then fell in love with Chuck/Roger too and want to write Jim/Shorty. I'm hopeless at picking favorites of things lolol

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

This is going to make me sound like an asshole, but I don't ever start writing fics unless I intend to finish them. Did one of my fics take 5 years for me to write? Yes, but I still finished it. I guess if I include like brainstorming fics, I have several tbitb modern au ideas that I want to write but I keep putting off for new ideas, so. Maybe those?

16. What are your writing strengths?

I'd say my biggest strength is dialogue; it comes the most naturally to me when writing. I also tend to get a lot of compliments on my worldbuilding, so I must be decent at it, but tbh to me it just feels like I'm winging it lolol

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I'm bad a descriptions, idk how to go on at length about how anything looks lol. And this one is terrible, but I'm bad at research. If anything I write is ever inaccurate it's because I was more interested in writing the story than looking up like...how boats work (looking at you, The Cormorant Don lolol)

18. Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

No thoughts head empty? Lol I've never ran into this in a fic before...and it's not something I'd be inclined to write, so...idk.

19. First fandom you wrote in?

BTS :> I was a late bloomer to writing ff, so everything I've ever written is on AO3.

20. Favorite fic you've written?

Again, I'm so bad at picking favorites!! They're all my babies lol. I guess to shout out a few: in BTS stuff, Just Hold On was the first ever novel-length story I'd ever completed so it's very special to me. In Stranger Things by far my favorite was Can We Always Be Friends? because I loved writing more platonic stobin and a lot of Steve's journey with his sexuality was a reflection of myself. I've been super happy with all of my tbitb fics so it's hard to pick a favorite! Tbh it'll probably be The Cormorant because the premise is so dear to me, but it feels like cheating to pick an unfinished fic. Maybe The Quiet Act? That fic got me out of my Writer's Block Era and introduced me to this lovely, lovely fandom, so of course it also holds a special place in my heart :')

Idk who to tag! @dogwooddiaries @kcsplace have y'all been tagged yet?? I can't keep up lol. No pressure as always!!