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lgcmax · 4 years ago

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hellooooo my legacy loves !! i hope life’s been treating you all well ! i know right now things are still pretty difficult ( as been all of 2020 tbh ), so i just wanted to flood the dash w a little positivity !! you know, sometimes i feel bad because it seems that i can’t connect with everyone as much as i’d like, and it sucks !! but between my spotty activity at times and bad response times i didn’t want you to think i loved you all any less. so !!! below you will find a love letter to all of you lovely muns as well as some individual comments about my favorite thing about your muses everybody ! also, if you have lgc friends who aren’t really dash scrollers feel free to share this with them so that they can see !! anyways, go ahead and enjoy 😇💖

dear legacy,

okay - let me start by saying - i care for you sooooo so much !! and that goes for ALL of you reading this !! even if we’ve never talked, or you just joined, or we talk like every other month but never seem to catch each other at the right time ? i care for you !!! and don’t you ever forget it. honestly, legay is one of the healthiest places i’ve been in to develop my muse in a safe space, void of any judgement or just weird vibes. and that has to do with all of you, and i’d like to thank you for that !! our mods, of course, get a special hug for all that you guys do - i know that things can get hard, and we test your patience sometimes ... i get it !! but to us, you’re kinda like our rp parents ?? we might nag, joke, and annoy but it’s all out of love, we promise ahaha !! anywho, once again everyone i’ve met in legacy, has no lie been so special to me ?? and i want you guys to know that !! literally all of you, even if it was just a quick message, have made an imprint on the great rp experience i’ve had here and i’d like to thank you for that ! and no this isn’t me leaving, i promise i’m gonna stick around for a loong time to come ahaha. but honestly, who would’ve thought ? i was bouncing around from rp to rp, and i didn’t recall, if i’m being hoenst, expect anything to come out of me giving this place a shot for the 2nd time ? but i’m so grateful to have gotten such a wonderful experience that made me not want to leave. there’s always things to do, muses to meet, and it’s crazy how well everyone keeps the dash flowing ! i’m always excited to look at what you and your muses are up too, and honestly i’m lowkey invested in all their little relationships lol ?? but that’s what makes this place so special ! the friendships, the enemies, the romance, and everything in between has made this into such a unique writing atmosphere to be a part of. so for that, i say thank you. and here’s to more legacy for years to come !!

now for the special portion of my letter !!! in alphabetical order, you will find a compliment of mine for your muse below !! phew, here i go :

( and pls ... if i forgot u ... i apologize 20000x !! PLEASE tell me lol !! obviously this is for muses who are here at the time of writing this 10/2/2020, and i may update ! but if your muse is here at that time and you don’t see them PLEASE tell me i want to write them something but i might have accidentally deleted someone’s in the process of writing so many ! )

phunsawat kannika first of all i have the fattest crush on her fc ojoijjoioij !! anyways, i love the commitment to all her pages, all her character inspos are my favorite, and i’m really interested to see her adjustment to korea ! i think she’s doing a great job already and will show that she can go even further !

yoon aria i haven’t got to say it yet but i LOVE how much of a meme she is oijoiiooij !! esp since she’s a model, it’s fun to have one who’s this cool model on camera but honestly so real and fun ?? like it gives her so much depth and i’m sure she’ll develop a loyal fanbase of like-minded goofs ? i want her and nari to interact tbh haha !!

lee benji my KING ! i love seeing benji develop his sense of purpose and try to see what he wants to become in the long run, and also how he’s stayed true to himself even after mocing to a whole different country ! and of course, his commitment to caring for others !

pongsak tee i ship jinseo and tee oijojoijoij !!!!!! anywho we love the thai representation, i really have enjoyed seeing tee’s progress over the past few months and how he’s adapting to slowly coming into the starlight ? it seems he’s still managed to maintain his kindness and i really enjoy that about him !

im nari is void because she is my muse but i love her very much hee hee !!

kang eunho first off as i’m writing this i see eunho’s first words for his babysitting solo is him flipping out over how cute babies are and i just think that’s adorable lol. but anywho ! eunho’s such a little sunshine and def gives me baby energy ?? light of my life. he’s like legacy’s daily dose of vitamins !

im bomi hana ... my favorite girl who i’m in love with ojjojjoijioji !! i think hana is so weird and goofy in the BEST ways and she’s an example of someone who’s not a famous girl, but a girl who happened to get famous ? i love her for her quirks and all her uniqueness, gamer girls ftw, 10/10 main character material !

hwang minjun i also love shinha and minjun too lmao !!! they are ... v cute !! i love how warm minjun’s heart is from what i’ve seen, and how open and accepting he is to all types of people and welcomes them to his warm fuzzy heart !!! also i would like to personally thank him for taking max in when they were in tokyo max DOES NOT deserve !

kim jinah ah i love her sm !! i know it sounds like max talking, but i love how she’s basically one of the bros lmao ?? but really ! i love her dually embracing of her cuter side and her more casual one, and how she just seems like the type of person you can have a drink and a good talk with ? and her interactions w junghwan stand out and give her an unexpected soft side !

lee yushin i feel like yushin is the younger brother we all wish we had but don’t deserve !! just a real fresh breath of air, definitely a little goofy but just as sweet ?? has the capability to win over even the coldest muses hearts ! and i am rooting for actor yushin 100%. you got this bud !!!!

kim nami somehow nami always pops up first on my dashboard but i’m not mad about it at all lol !! and i think nami is actually very multi-dimensional ! she already seems pretty sure of where she wants herself to go, and i think she’s going to make a really good senior to mentor junior trainees once she’s debuted for a bit ! she def will come correct !!!

lin yue the way i’m SO invested in guessing what she’s eating but never can .... ahh !! also she loves martial arts which means nari would love her if she knew her uwu. anyways to me she’s quite the baddie, i feel like she’s got her toes dipped in a lot of things and therefore will be very versatile in what she can do ? i really love that ( outside of her outstanding visuals ) she actually has a v good personality and niche interests !

ahn dohwan i have promised myself i wouldn’t put any emphasis on fcs but since vernon is one of my ults i literally have to say: TASTE. anywho lmao !! dohwan gives me cafe boy vibes ?? hear me out. could totally see him making someone a macchiato while listening to their problems and offering advice ? he just seems like a v good listener & adviser ! i think once he debuts for real for real he’s gonna have a lot of bf material made by fans haha !!

leong charlotte first of all i just need to comment i saw a while ago on the dash when charlotte covered i wait and that was ?? iconic ??? we stan ??? streamday6pls ahem anyways ! her being in a band itself makes her an instant baddie, but beyond that she also seems v kind & passionate from what i’ve seen ! she’s got the cute & the fierce, and because of that i think she’ll be fierce competition in the industry once she debuts !

choi max is my muse however as my first bb here i love him deeply heart heart !!

jung ahin i will not lie i did not know seungwoo before i saw ahin, then realized he kinda looked like wonwoo and started to simp ?? IOJOIJOJ anyway this is more of an ooc note but thank u ahin’s mun for bringing me to the light 😇anyways !! i want ahin to do more things to make himself happy bc i think he really is this close to living his best life !! i want something really really good to make him super happy yk ? also i support his english learning journey !

kang jaemin HI ME REALIZING I NEED TO MESSAGE U BACK I’M SORRY SCREECH anyway !! he has a very warm presence, i feel like even when he debuts he’ll be the approachable type ? but also he’s just so smiley and i love it !! such a little fuzzball !! i do feel like more is going on in jaemin’s head than people would think, though ??

lee jaewoo listen jaewoo is my baby ok ... and he’s nari’s too ! also btw did you ever get that birthday text from her own his acc ? anyways i’m going wayy of topic let’s regroup lol !! i honestly admire the level of passion and drive he has so young, and he’s already come so far ? jaewoo has a lot of love in his heart for people and i hope he keeps that even after years of acting ! he truly is the light of lgc agency uwu !

seo yura i feel like yura is v real ! i think she only hides the things she feels are nessescary about herself, but to me she still comess off as really genuine ? it seems she has many types of connections present in her life, which i really like ! i think she’ll do really good at holding her own once it’s time for her official debut and i’m excited to see what’s ahead !

kang jun i think jun doubts himself far more than he realizes just how much he’s capable of !! jun is so adorable and he might hate me for saying that but it is what it is !! i don’t think he’s recognized his true power yet, and though that’s sort of good at humbling him, i think he will be a beast when he becomes fully confident ?? and i believe he will !! i think getting a proper fanbase will show him just how much he can do !

ji haneul okay haneul made it to type zero, so tbh he already has his life together more than half of us ?? IOJOIJOJ no but for real i think haneul is a true ✨professional ✨even if he wouldn’t believe me if i told him ? although HE might not be so confident in it, i think haneul’s growing into his more mature self well and it’ll actually help him in the long run as he starts his journey in the idol industry !

kang jina you know what ? i think jina would be a really good leader in her group, if she were to debut as an idol ! i think she has really good communication skills and seems to just vibe with everyone around her ? which is important, as a leader ! but i also feel like she could lighten the mood and kay down the rules depending on which is needed ? that’s just how i feel ! i think she’d do well <3

seo geonwoo first of his theme is so aesthetically pleasing wow ?? anywho ! i do really enjoy geonwoo and honestly need to pay him more attention ! i honestly respect the fact that he knows his own power, and isn’t afraid to be confident in himself ? he just seems v sure of how he wants to live his life which makes him seem v stable, and def in the right direction ! i think he most often knows whats best for himself, and that’s a really valuable skill to have !

ok miyoung first off i DEFININTELY whole-heartedly ship miyoung and hunji, i do !! 😌 but yes miyoung def has romcom protagonist vibes, and i mean that in the best way possible ?? like she’s got quite a lot of things going on for her simultaneously, all while trying to discover things about herself too ?? i empathize with the level of chaos in her life but i think she’s handling it all very well and it’s exciting to read about !

son nabi nabi my ANGEL. i didn’t even know nabi too well prior to us plotting but now i’m so glad that i do !! she has the kindest heart and is willing to go out of her way, even for people she isn’t that close to, just out of the good of her heart ? and i think that’s so powerful ! she’s so baby and i vow to protect her from all the horrors of the entertainment industry because she’s a prime example of light amongst darkness !

ahn jaehwa you knowww jaehwa’s my girl 😚 i just love her adventurous spirit, and how she definitely is filled with more mischief than she may show on first impression ? i think she can use that to her advantage, and it will translate really well as charisma !! her and max’s first interaction showed me just how much of a daredevil she can be and i love it ! psa, we need to plot again !

lee yohan first of yushina nd yohan’s broken friendship is some .... tea 🍵 i’m intrigued ... really i am !! i kinda wanna give him a massage chair for his birthday because i feel like there really is a lot of internal conflict going on in his head ? def hoping he achieves the dream od getting famous before he’s forced to enlist and drop his dreams, and in return for my support i am expecting free starbucks coffee on him, lol !!

bae nathan i honestly didn’t even realize just how iconic nathan is until we started plotting ? him and max share a lot of similarities, which i love, but beyond that he just is such a real dude who kinda just seems ... ok with being not perfect ? and i enjoy that ! he’s accepting the fact that he makes mistakes and knows that that’s ok. i feel like in the future he’d have a fire podcast ?? like i just feel like it’d be so real and entertaining !

han allie first of all, happy ( belated ? ) birthday to allie !!! second of all, producers in general are always just so interesting to me ? i feel like even though she’s still finding it, allie’s rather focused on creating a sound for herself and making it different ? def has the drive to make her dreams a reality, and i know she’ll do well ! allie, fighting !

kim junghwan i think junghwan has a heart of gold ! he’s good at working with others and def would have nice personality to just sit and talk about life with ! i think he also has a lot of hobbies and interests that are v cute and soft boi, so he’s definitely gonna attract the soft stans !! he’s another person i feel would make great leader material some day. also ship him and jinah all the way 😉

kim alex first off i LOVE luna she is my pride and joy .... i feel v embarrased i think we were supposed to thread and i forgot ! but that beside the point !! i feel like he does have crazy duality ?? at some points it’s like “wow, nice man, pet parent of the year” and other times it’s like “wow this man is wilding did he just say that ??” but ... the way i love both !! it’s so interesting seeing his conflicts and how he deals with other people, but maybe that’s the messy mun in me 🙊

ahn jaesun jaesun !! a king. first off i said it to danbi’s mun before but i am just putting it out there i love him & danbi together i do, i ship it !!! secondly i think, maybe because he’s been around for a quite awhile, but you ( the mun ) seem to have a very good grasp on his character ? i think he’s had really significant but gradual development, sort of coming out of his shell and expanding the things he’s willing to take on ! and i love that for him.

yoon shinha let me repeat that minjun and shinha - i ship it !!! i don’t even know hwo to describe it but i just love the energy shinha exudes !! it’s fun, playful, and full of energy, and i think that’ll transfer really well on stage !! he’s the type of guy who’s just down for whatever and i feel like he could befriend anybody if he really wanted to ! i like that about him and think he’ll have no problem getting along w whoever he works with in the future !

kyo miyeon my queen .... oh how i love her ! 😣❤ i think miyeon’s got a cold exterior with a soft interior ?? like she’s sososo composed and a little cold on the outside, but in reality she’s just over here loving animals and the simple things in life ? i think once she debuts she’s going to have fans have v passionate debates about whether they like her cool or soft side more since they’re both so prominent and so good !!

løvehjerte emil first off emil being from denmark and his name immediately stood out to me when he was accepted, and to me makes him v unique ? also doyoung rights ;) i like how well he seems to adapt to the situations presented to him, even if they’re new and unfamiliar to him ! i think he has his ability to keep his cool, but is still learning a lot from being a trainee and proving he can definitely grow beyond what he’s already accomplished !

jung miso miso is the baddest b no one can change mt mind oijoijoijo !!!!! but no for real i always have admired miso even if i haven’t got to interact w her on my muses too much ? at first i def got vibes of the popular girl everyone wants to be just like ? but i’ve realized she’s a loot more ! she has ( shrek vc ) layers, and i think it’s good to see someone who has a lot of things people would see as ideal, but without being unobtainable !

nam yunho yunho intrigues me so much !! i’m sad max hasn’t gotten to interact with him yet lol !! i feel like in this i keep comparing muses to character types but - just take a journey with me ok soijioiofoijfio !! i so see yunho as one of those guys in the movies about small town who’s family has has a business there for years and he’s the chill guy who shows the main character around town ? AND THAT’S A GOOD THING LMAO ! i feel like he’s just immensly chill and always is just vibing and down for a good time ! <3

jo jiwoo i think jiwoo is so exceptionally cute !! but don’t underestimate her because to me she also does have a very fiery spirit ?? and i love it !! def would have the potential to be a maknae on top and i am here for it !! but since she wants to be an actor i def see her even stealing the hearts of the staff ?? the best example of a puppy in real life i’ve ever seen !

na sera first of all being a twin is automatically cool so there’s that ?? but also !! i like how hard she’s fighting to prove her own, individual self worth ! i’m definitely excited to see how she’ll find her “thing” that really riles her up and makes her feel passionate ? and that maybe she’ll decide the idol thing is for her and go forward with it as a career !

min soyoun i think soyoun’s definitely go the girl next door charm, she defintiely seems like the type who you could be friends with easily, and i think she’ll maintain that even when she’s more famous ! she gives me free spirit vibes, and i think that even if she doesn’t know how, life will somehow work to make sure she always does well ! she’s defintiely proved her individuality and i think she’ll stand out from most around her !

geum danbi ugh danbi ... the way i’m obsessed with her ! i mentioned this already but her and jaesun ? cute we ship it !! i am a stan, i am ! anyways i think that danbi is so powerful, and i don’t mean that jokingly ! she does hold a very commanding presence for me, and i really respect her resilience in continuing to fight for her debut, even after being discouraged numerous times in the past ! i think that’ll make her debut all the more worth it, as she has taken the time to get even better and improve her skills !

jang taesung taesung ... the way i really am fascinated by him ! i don’t even interact w him on my muses but he’s still so entertaining to me !! he’s so casual and i just enjoy seeing his interactions ? he isn’t afraid to be authentically him, and though he doesn’t really show it in his words all the time he’s got a lot of emotions swirling around there ! he do ... he do be messy sometimes i get it ?? he’s a lil problematic ?? but it entertains me so we will take it !

song ahri ok i don’t want to claim this bc i’m not COMPLETELY sure but do i have permission to ship her and geonwoo .... i saw their thread on the dash and they’re so cute what 😚💖 ( revision : they are together i can say this lol !!! ) anywho onto ahri things ! she just seems like the sweetest person EVER she’s v gentle with her words and actions, and definitely seems like a comforter of sorts ? i think that, whoever she gets close to, would def have her to lean on in hard times ! she’s like

son seolmi first of congrats on seolmi as the new musical actress !! we need more of them >.< but i feel like when seolmi looks back on her training experience she’ll be very proud of herself ! she has made a lot of improvements over her training period, found her passions, and worked to prove herself ! but i think, although she’s working v hard, she’s also doing twice as good at maintaining her friendships and being good to the people around her !

seo minseok minseok a true angel !! i know we haven’t gotten to write together in a while, but seeing his thread w nari we had i saw how kind he was ! he’s loyal to the people he calls friends, open to trying new things, and i think in the future when he gains experience he’ll be a really great mentor to the people who he precedes !

oh max ok first off i feel like i cannot not say this everytime i see him on the dash or a thread with him i’m constantly in a state of confusion about which max it is oijoioiiojaojoi ?? but !! i’m despite their names, they’re actually pretty different ! because unlike max choi, oh max is has a very loving and warm personality, and even though he comes from money you couldn’t really tell by his personality ?

park dohyun i def want him and max to interact together, side note !! because they’re both goofs and, of course, we need as many lgc boys connections as we can ! but anywho, i love dohyun, as i feel muses such as him are v necessary ! he definitely provides comic relief, and even though he doesn’t like to reveal his emotions, that just reveals another component to his emotional depth ! even if he isn’t someone who is vulnerable, i think it is great he does his best to make others happy !!

lee jiho i mean can i pls just adopt jiho as my child ?? he’s so cute oijjoijoij !! i think all though he’s ambitious and knows what he wants in life, he’s also realistic with himself and knows what he can expect and how to work toward a clothes ! it’s a trait not everyone has so i like that he does ! i think he’s also enough of a positive thinker that throughout any troubles he may have, he’ll get through it with a nice mindset !

lee hanbyul i think that once debuted officially officially, hanbyul will definitely grow in popularity almost immediately ! she’s already done well at gaining the hearts of fans even when she was a trainee, and with so many friends and opportunities under her belt she’ll get big in no time ! i think she’ll definitely be well known and that she’ll bring multiple fandoms together because it’s just hard not to like her !

jung jihye i love jihye !! she’s so raw and rolling with all the punches life has given her ? even after a rocky start to her career, she’s ready to give it a second chance, and although she went through a lot of bullying discovered a newfound love for acting ! i think that her dedication to being happy will show in her passion for whatever she acts in in the future, and i’m excited to see how the public perceives her !

tsai sunisa isa is the ultimate chill dude haha !! i think that he’s very calm and level-headed, while not coming off as careless ? although he’s very casual, he clearly does care about the other’s around him, and i think for him that shows in the little details rather than the big things ? i think he’s the type of person who does well at picking up on the energies of others, and noticing small details about them ! v v cool 💖😌

shin yeseo u KNOW me and max are collectively whipped for her oijoijoi !!! no but honestly, from what i’ve viewed of yeseo from an outside perspective, she’s goes beyond the socially required level of thoughtful ? she really does listen to everyone’s perspective and do what she thinks is best for everyone involved and i really like that ! i also like that the simple things are enough to make her very happy, and that she puts her all into the ones she cares for !

kang yonghwa i love how in love yonghwa is in with life, and how bright his spirit is !! he has such a ... sunshine spirit ? that’s the best way i can put it ! he’s just so positive the majority of the time, and i feel he has the ability to see the best traits of others and bring that out of them ! i also love his sense of adventure, and i think he’ll be a favorite for fans in no time ! kang yonghwa, 10 / 10, our best boy !!

kim hyunbin hyunbin reminds me of a cartoon character, in the best way ! he’s definitely very theatrical, and also has a more playful, teasing side to him ? i think that everyone needs a hyunbin in their life because he’s very considerate of the emotions of the people around him, and on top of that has a lot of interests and boosts any social scenario !

choi jinyoung jinyoung ... an angel ! it’s so my fault we don’t but we should plot more ! uwu anywho ! first off, happy belated birthday to him ! i noticed that during our to the max thread, despite being a little overwhelmed by human tsunami max choi, he stayed very polite and was open to trying a new experience out, and for that i really gained respect for him ! i think he’s a v soft boy but i don’t think he’s weak at all, in fact maintaining his kindness for others has shown my just how strong he is !! 😇😇

oh eunhye just like her article says, eunhye has a real knack for entertaining and i think it’s already begun to show ! i think her authenticity easily transfers to the camera, and that it makes people love her all the more ? she has the type of hypnotizing personality that makes people want to get to know her, and i don’t think it’s coincidence that she’s had the opportunities that she’s had already come to her !

oh gitaek congrats on becoming a producer gitaek !! clap clap !! hehee but i think gitaek is very adaptable ! even in environments when he doesn’t want to do anything, he’s going to push through - like dancing, for instance ! also him and hyunbin’s dynamic ?? v interesting. i’m invested on seeing where it goes ! i think gitaek has a lot of potential, much of which he’s already showing, and i think he’ll have no problem discovering himself fully and becoming big !

son alec just gotta say i always mix him and alex up on accident i wanna scream oijooi !! but also while scrolling his page and saw this: “ old people are amazing, is the conclusion he’s come to yet again ” and i just wanna say i love him for that ojojoioij !! but anyways, alec gives me the vibe of a young adult still sort of finding their way, and i really love that ! he enjoys what he does but still has doubts, and i think that little back and forths very important ! i hope he becomes a super famous actor and achieves all his dreams !

son jieun i love how much jieun cares for her friends !! she was bold enough to straight up call taesung out for mistreating allie and tbh ... kinda in love with that energy ?? i think her bravery goes beyond even just this though, as she’s already tried many new things that others may have strayed away from in fear ! her sense of justice and determination is something i admire and honestly i feel like if it wasn’t for her obvious career path she’d be a great lawyer haha !!

nam jueun it’s the way i want to claim that i indeed am one of seojin & jueun’s biggest fans ... i am 😌✌ but listen !! i have to respect jueun for the way that she’s managed to repair a damaged relationship AND work on herself and her career at the same time ? and both are going good ! she’s also got a real edge to her, and i feel like she doesn’t realize just how cool she is ?? we stan !

park seojin now we alr know ... seojin is one of the muses i am most whipped for in legacy i cannot lie i’m sorry !!! listen ,,, i love my tsundere !! he’s had exceptional development, but in really small yet significant ways, and he’s grown so much in the time he’s been here ! in terms of max, he’s definitely starting to take on a more nurturing role, and in term of himself, getting a better idea of who he is as an artist and a person and i think that’s gonna really show when his band debuts ! also think he’ll be a strict yet incredibly respected mentor when the day comes ? anyways i’ll just say i l*ve park seojin and go 😭💔

lee jiae lee jiae, the apple of my eye !! i was astounded how much kindness could be fit into one small body ?? even in situaitons she doesn’t like, she maintains her bright spirit that brings people to her in the first place, and i think that comforts the people around her if they’re having a hard time as well ! but i think she also does have a bit of a chaotic side when panicked and i do love it i do !! do not underestimate lee jiae everyone i am betting all my money on the fact that she can beat some ass !!

hwang sori first of all her theme made me gasp it’s literally so incredibly gorgeous omg ?? but !! the first thing i read was hwang sori is an ugly crier and that made ME ugly cry with laughter LMAOWAOOA !! even though she’s relatively new i’ve already come to love how out of the box and unapologetically her she is ! she has so much to offer, both on and off stage, and i know she’s destined to be a star ! i’m already so invested and excited to see what she does in the future !

lee aaron aaron !! our dad of the year sobs. of course, my favorite thing about aaron is how nurturing he is ! he has no problem taking care of others, and i think that although it’s easy for younger / less experienced trainees to be intimidated by those above them, aaron removes that stigma completely ! truly a gentle soul. my only complaint about aaron is that he’s so selfless that i feel he sometimes forget about himself, so aaron please eat more and take care of your health oijoijoioij !!

lee youngmin the way i love youngmin !! i was so touched by his patience when he helped my baby nari get herself together when it came to learning lines for cram school ! it proved to me that he’s a v caring person, and even if acting was sort of a sore subject for him, he still went through with helping her ! and that brings me to my next point - congrats for joining the actors youngmin !! i admire him for giving something he’s apprehensive about another shot, and i’m so incredibly excited to see how it goes for him !

song yifei ok even though i don’t know yifei too well yet seeing her intro did help me see why i’m going to love her so much !! i appreciate her adaptation to such an unusual environment like korea, and although i’m sure she’s homesick and a little lost she’s already doing her part to adjust to life in korea ! starting so young, i have to admire her work ethic and her strength by not giving up ! i’m excited to see what she can offer us all !

hwang minsik ok so !! even though minsik is quite the introvert, i think it’s v cool that he has worked past that, and although it may have been uncomfortable, got more comfortable performing in front of others ! i think that being in his head for the majority of the time will actually prove to work in his favor, as it’ll be easier to transfer all the emotions he’s feeling into his music when he locks down and pursues his dream of being a producer !

tsuchiya mitsuki from what i’ve seen, mitsuki seems to be very considerate of others, and i like that she celebrates other’s accomplishments outside of just her own ! the entertainment career can be a very risky and sometimes scary one, but i think that she’s doing a great job at rolling with it and putting her all into forming it into a serious career path for herself !

yamashita ichika i think she put it best - she’s new to korea, but not this world !! i love love LOVE how sure of herself ichika is, and though it may come off as blunt, maybe y’all aren’t just ready to accept the truth she’s spilling ... 👀 lMAO no but for real !! she’s a woman who knows what she wants and i never will be mad at that ! you can never say that ichika doesn’t keep it real and i think that’s something we need to learn from her !

hwang subin i think subin is incredibly self-aware, which really is such a super important trait to have ?? he’s had a lot of conflicts over his training period, but he’s overcame them, and to me he holds a lot of grace even in those scenarios he has this sort of ... calmness to him ? idk maybe that’s subjective but that’s how i feel ! i think in the end he’s going to turn the pain into power, and he’ll be one of the people really idolized for their resilience !

kim minjee i feel like along her path to fame, she’s learning all sorts of new things about herself in the industry, and that feeling of self-discovery is awesome ! i think she’s a really good example of the changes people go through throughout their path toward stardom ! i think she does her best to embrace both the highs and lows life brings her, which i think is preparing her to be a really steady person when it comes to being famous !

im hyunjin my baby !! the way i love him beyond measure !! he gets along with max so well and i love how well they balance off each other’s energy ! he’s got a boyish charm that helps me remember that yes, a lot of the trainees are still kids at heart, and that reminder is v refreshing ! though a lot has been thrown on him with this trimester, he’s been a good sport, and i think he’s such an accurate representation of someone who’s growing up in the spotlight ! i think it’s enough for me to excuse him mixing up the maxs. 😚😌

okamoto akira what a wonderful soul ugh !! he really did impact nari’s heart with his unconditional kindness. i think he’s grown even in his time in the rp alone ? he’s so kind to others, and i love how he holds interest in other people and their stories ! even though he’s still getting adjusted to life in korea, i think he’s doing a great job at getting his name out there while making a good impression of himself. but like i said about aaron pls, akira, take care of yourself more !! you deserve the best, heart heart !!

jeon haeun haeun has such an intense drive when it comes to her love for dance and performing, and i hope she never loses that ! it’s the most important thing, after all ! she’s got such a spunky personality, which will work in her favor as it will keep eyes on her even after she’s off the stage ! she’s a baby, being so young, but already has proved herself to have a worthy place in legacy, and i think she’s even got the capability to teach the older trainees a thing or two, haah !

park viggo i definitely respect viggo, because of the insecurities that have developed from his biological parents putting him up for adoption, he’s shone so brightly already at such a young age ! and i just read his solo w / his encounter with his biological father and - literal chills ?? but .... phew ! i’m so impressed by how he’s had so many horrible experience influence his life, but not let it overtake him ? he’s so strong and if he can handle what life has already thrown at him, i know he’ll have nothing but good to look forward to from now on !

techaapaikhun kit i don’t think i’ve had the chance to tell you yet .... but god i LOVE kit oijoioi !! he’s such a loveable ball of fluff ! he has a very big heart, and i feel like even when he doesn’t know exactly what to do or what’s going on he’s still very much 😊💖✨ ?? you would never think he’s a foreigner because he just seems in high spirits ! also him and daehyung’s interactions ? 10 / 10 in terms of entertainment, definitely deserves a read !

ahn yein i love the short queen energy this woman exudes !! her duality is already quickly becoming my favorite thing about her ?? she’s so this and this ! i truly cannot wait to see how she’ll let her musical style influence the type of music she produces, and i think she’s a producer full of energy who has the potential for being famous for her music and her own personality !

seo yumi though yumi did go through a lot of hardship with her first debut, i really respect her for fighting to prove she deserves a spot in a group for a second time, even if the first time wasn’t even her fault ! i think because of it, even if her light’s dimmed a little, her enhanced discipline will work in her favor, as well as her prior experience, and potentially give her a step up among others ! which, hopefully, will make the hardships she went through not to be in vein !

han insoo insoo’s gone through quite a bit, and though i’d imagine that to be incredibly tough on him, he hasn’t lost his shine ! he still has a brightness to him when interacting around the people he loves, and i think that’s what it takes to be in a band ! i wish nothing but the best for him, because honestly, i think he’s just trying to get by and have a good time, and i really have to respect it !

choi jongsuk okay so from what i see jongsuk is a tad manipulative in the way he interacts with people ... and yet ... i stan ? obviously this isn’t a very good trait, but it is entertaining, especially for a messy mun like me haha !! i think, if he wants to, he can actually use his particularly good social skills to his advantage, and become a charmer among his fans !

choi daehyun omg prince daehyun rise !!! i always love the spoiled rich boy types, because to me, they have the most room for growth ! if i’m being honest with you as ... awful as he might be i think he’s one of those trainees who would 100% give everyone a run for their money ? because if he doesn’t have anything ( beside money ofc ) he has confidence, and well .... confidence is a dangerous thing !! i’m really really anticipating seeing how he’ll get along with the other trainees, and his journey in legacy !!

chwe hunji phew .... my adoptive son !! i admit i am slightly biased to hunji i am i am what about it !!! 😌💖 i gush about him all the time so i’ll keep it ( relatively ) short - i don’t think hunji realizes, but given the whirlwind of events that’s happened in less than a year, he’s doing a fantastic job of both grieving and growing !! he’s been able to look out for those who need him most even in his darkest times, put up with max’s shenanigans even amongst trying to decipher his feelings for him, and adapted to a ever-changing climate that comes with being a trainee in his hardest year ! not to mention how much he’s grown since his arrival !! his development ?? chef’s kiss !

kang dongwon first of all already massive respect to dongwon for doing school and training at the same time ?? that’s already difficult in itself ! but i think he’s taken a lot of risks despite not necessarily wanting to, like expanding outside of activities he’d expected that he would do ! it’s good for him to dip his toe into numerous places, and he’ll be less thrown off if he’s asked to do something unexpected in the future. also him & his relationship w his siblings is the best haha !!

park sarang first off seojin and sarang together are such a cool duo !! the concept of siblings in the industry is honestly so cool ?? but anywho ! but i soso admire sarang !! even though she was initially was following her brother’s dream, it’s gradually morphed into her own, and she really has developed an individual name for herself, which shows her passion and determinism ! i also love how they have a healthy relationship, even with normal sibling fights, without getting into super super competitive territory ?? that just shows her capability to love & that’s great !

kim jinseo first off !! his familial relationship w shinha ? we love to see it ! cutest cousins on the block ! but what i admire about jinseo is how stable he is ! i think he can help people and handle his own problems without getting too stressed, he’s a good problem solver and i think he can calm down and figure out the best way to approach a situation ? also once again him & tee ? cute, we ship it 😊

kim ara first off, friend of the year award goes to ara for helping hanbyul through her breakup and working around processing her emotions ! and also that she’s pretty mature in handling her own breakup w / nathan ! that brings me to the point that i feel ara is a thoughtful person, who definitely sees the good even in bad scenarios and tries to think of the positives that come out of her life, even if it can be difficult to do so !

jin eunji now we know that’s my queen !!!!! i honestly love seeing eunji’s development, and she’s much more of a deep character than she shows on the outside ?? and there’s even more left for others to discover about her ! she’s trying to work through her shit but I like her because she’s the realest depiction of someone who’s growing - because it’s not particularly nice or cute ?? it’s rough but it’s real, she’s struggling to grow and move through her emotions but she’s growing nonetheless and i love that for her !!!

park seon seon is def the type of girl who is just sort of taking it day by day, and i respect it so much !! she has a lot to discover of herself and what she wants to do, but quite honestly i like that about her !! i think that she’s still young and def doesn’t need to stress about it, and i like that she’s just sort of flowing in whichever direction that life wants to take her ! i can only imagine how far she’ll go when she discovers her true potential !

lim sanghyun i feel like sanghyun really is prepared for any situation that’s thrown at him, even if he feels like he can’t do it !! i mean, since birth he’s had tons of bad cards thrown at him, and yet he always manages to turn them into something good ? although it may seem like he doesn’t have good fortune, to me, it seems he has the opposite, because he always finds a way out the trenches !! i think sanghyun’s legacy’s phoenix !

choi daehyung omg daehyung has been a favorite of mine since he came !! i love peeking at the many relationships he has bc they’re tbh so interesting !! he's honestly fit to be a main character in a show ? and i think, despite what daehyung thinks, he’s grown a lot in the time he’s been here ! to me, he’s more aware of his emotions, and more reflective of the choices he makes ! sure he’s got some things to work on but let’s be real .... don’t we all ?

lau mike mike is such a breath of fresh air !! def a roll with the punches kind of guy - reminds me of those popular kids where it’s just like ... dang, things always seem to be go well for them ?? i’m jealous ?? but i think more of that has to do with mike rather than him just having good luck ! he does good at adapting & working hard, from moving to korea, to changing careers, to now training ! he seems to excel and everything he does and i have no doubt that will help him out in the long run !

li zimeng meng is so pretty !! but she’s also SO much more !! this whole thing of her feeling average, and like she didn’t really stand out in comparison to the other trainees .... it’s so real !! and honestly, so good for her ! even though she doesn’t feel special always, i KNOW she is, but i think it’s also great she has this good foundation ? because rather than being good at only 1 thing and realizing in the long run she hates it, zimeng has the potential to be super well-versed and i think she’ll be more aware of what she needs to work on to improve !

tsai king truly our king ... and i don’t mean that ironically !! i looove king’s development, i truly love to see it !! though he’s still got his pride, i think he’s transformed his confidence from blind cockiness to a reason for him to want to work hard and succeed ?? king definitely had things to work on, but he has worked on them, and i think he’s truly proved his place in legacy in the long time he’s been here !! also thoroughly impressed w how much he’s done !

bae doha i think that if I had to describe doha, it would be “ proceed with caution ” !! he’s a cautious person, i feel, who wants the balance between having a good life and keeping himself grounded ? which is a really good type of personality, and I think it would make him a leader for those around him ! he’s also very observant, and i think that will make him much more meticulous of a person as an actor !

song shaun first of all i gotta still thank shaun for doing tiktok dances with max back in the day !!!! that was iconic and i will never forget it lol !! and i'm so glad he’s back. anyways, i think shaun is definitely the type of person that’ll stay true to himself even after becoming famous, he seems v carefree, but also w/o not losing that ambition to work hard ??

pongsak arinya arin is so freaking adorable !!! i think she’s like a puppy and I love it !! she’s so curious about the way around her, i think she just loves what life has to offer her and in turn life loves her ?? she has such a playful and optimistic light about her and to me, it’s impossible not to want to be her friend !! her fans will easily love her <33

jeon haru to me, haru seems like a team player !! he listens to the input of other’s, and i think before rushing to do what he wants to do, it’s in his spirit to think of how his actions affect other people ! and i think that’s shown in how he’s babysitting on the show, even though he’s a little panicked ! i also think he’s a good self-soother, he’s good at helping calm himself down and make himself feel better, and to me that’s so great !!

liu jiao I think she’s doing a great job at making her reality one she enjoys ! she’s struggling to find the differences between her dreams and her moms, what she wants and what she doesn’t ! and still, i believe that she’s doing well and spreading love to those around her despite ! i hope she finds full inner peace and that she can live a life of happiness ( and a little wrecklessness tbh ) without any worries !!

#this took SO LONG my arm hurts iojooijoi !!#anyway ... hope u all enjoy !! <33 #ily all sm !!! <33 #( as told by jada :: ooc. )#( this is our page :: bookmark. )#this is queued bc i'm not home but i'll be on later uwu !

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dolcetters · 4 years ago

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Listen here you funky little creativity filled 'dogs should vote' human. We've known each other for pROBABLY TEN FULL YEARS and my brain is just going to spontaneously combust about that. it's fine. not only has your writing and art always been fantastic and *chef's kiss*, but you've stuck with my nerdy dumb ass for that long and i want you to know how thankful i am for that. even if we don't talk to each other every day, i look forward to catching up with all the things you're working on -

what drew you to my blog initially, and what, so far, has made you stay?

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“- creatively or just what makes you happy in your spare time. and if that i also get to see all the antics on the dash? and riza and dol dealing with their many idiots. and winry bringing him blackberry cobblers every time she visits (andkeepingthemawayfromeveryoneelsebutmostlygreed). or whatever the h*ckin else we dive into, I'm happy to call you a friend and follow you around this hellsite i mean hell. dol is a treasure and i love the depth you've put in after all this time. hayate gives tomat (2/2)”

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NO, you listen to ME you BEECH.

i hope you know you’ve been an inspiration to me since our DA days, from character building and art to just being an awesome human person, and i’m so... BEYOND fucking grateful to still be talking to you after all this time and to dab on old jokes and BE TOTAL VIRGOS and fdljgkdhslfhgsd god, i just love you so much, i hope you know that?!

we may not talk ALL the time as you said, but it always brings me great comfort knowing that you are just a message away and that we can talk about serious things just as easily as we goof off. you make me laugh and your take on both riza and her little eldritch god on a leash is just 💋👌✨ and i love the concept of dol and riza just being Eternally Done with their families (in the most loving of ways, of course), and WINRY’S RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM IS HONESTLY JUST... so good. i want to wrap your muses in blankets and make them coffee for their generosity and patience and the same goes for you.

virgo season is almost upon us and we will soon be at our most powerful.

get your leisuring suit on, you beech... heyll yeauh.

#♦: good vibes only .#♦: ooc answer .#[ AND I KNOW I HAVEN'T CRAWLED OVER THERE YET BECAUSE UGH SICK ]#[ AND ATTENTION SPAN IS LESS THAN 3 SECONDS ]#[ but if you think you're not getting a fuckin letter in ur inbox soon then honey ]#[ u got a big storm comin' ]#reigningsniper

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crackimagines · 5 years ago

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The Black Eagles meets persona users. What happens?

Hooo boy, this has been on the backburner for a while, huh?

Sorry to keep ya waiting! Thanks for your patience, dtgvxg! I hope you enjoy!

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For those Unaware of Persona 4, or the series in general

A Persona is a physical manifestation of a Persona User’s personality, referred to as a “mask” for an individual to use to face hardship. They use them to fight Shadows, which are born from humans, and carry with them human emotions, which are mostly negative.

The Investigation Team: A team of Persona Users who are tracking down a serial killer in their hometown, Inaba, who is also a Persona User.

RIGHT TO LEFT, TOP:

Yu Narukami - The leader of the Investigation Team. He is known for being quite but polite, but for also for doing some really weird and whacky shit

Yosuke Hanamura - Best friend of Yu, can be a wiseass and is at the butt of most of the jokes in the team, but he cares deeply for his teammates and would never betray their loyalty.

RIGHT TO LEFT, BOTTOM:

Yukiko Amagi - At first very introverted, but once the team got to know her, she is a very strange person, from enjoying horror in actual horror environments, and laughing at the weirdest things.

Chie Satonaka - She has a bright and upbeat personality, often trying to cheer up the group by joking about the case. She can be somewhat short tempered, especially with Yosuke, and is slow to back down from a challenge.

Alright, we dicked about for long enough about info, LETS BEGIN!

Black Eagles meet the Investigation Team the main 4 anyway (Persona 4)

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THUD!

(Yosuke) “Ugh, I think I cracked my ass…!”

(Chie) “Shut up, no one wants to hear about that!”

(Yukiko) “Um…where are we?”

Everyone took a look around, not recognizing their environment.

(Yu) "One second we were in the midnight channel and…Wait, where’s Teddie?”

(Chie) “Huh? Oh crap, he isn’t here! How are we going to get out?!”

(Yosuke) “I…I think we’re in the real world? This wind feels too real to be the midnight channel. And I don’t think I can sense any shadows nearby.”

Yukiko crushed a tarot card, and summoned her Persona, and everyone else checked to do the same.

(Yu) “We can still summon our personas but…”

Yu took off the glasses he used for the Midnight channel. Ordinarily, the Midnight Channel was extremely foggy, and the glasses helped ward off the fog so they could see clearly. But in this strange world, they didn’t need it.

(Yosuke) “Huh, our glasses don’t seem to be doing anything. What the hell’s going on?”

(Chie) “Oh hey, I think I see something!”

They all turned around and saw a massive monster approaching.

(Yukiko) “I-Is it wishful thinking to say it’s friendly…?!”

GRAAAAAAAAAH!

(Yosuke) “VERY!”

(Yu) “Tch, looks like we don’t have a choice! Get ready for battle!

Yu pulled out a katana, Yosuke drew his dual kunais, Yukiko unsheathed her fan, and Chie got into a martial art stance.

(Edelgard) “Professor! The demonic beasts have suddenly changed course away from us!”

(Byleth) “What? But why would they…?”

(Ferdinand) “H-Hey! There’s a group of kids they’re going after, I think they’re students!”

(Byleth) “CLASS, PREPARE TO INTERCEPT, WE NEED TO RESCUE THEM!”

(Hubert) “Hold it, those students appear to-”

“PERSONA!”

Summoned from seemingly out of nowhere, four spirits suddenly appeared the students, shocking the Black Eagles class and the monsters.

(Yu) “IZANAGI!”

The spirit behind Yu flew out ahead of him, and sliced at the monster’s head with its giant blade, making it stagger back in pain.

(Caspar) “WHAT THE HELL IS THAT?!”

(Yukiko) “Come, KONOHANA SAKUYA!”

The petals on the spirit’s arm spread out, unleashing a blazing hell onto the demonic beast, melting it and instantly killing the beast.

Two more took its place, charging straight at them.

(Chie) “TOMOE!”

Her spirit kicked one of the beasts away, and used the pole-blade to fight it off, dodging the bites from the beast.

The other one made a mad dash for the students, everyone jumping out the way as it hopped into the air and chomped the air, attempting to eat them.

(Yosuke) “JIRAIYA!”

The spirit spun around in the air, summoning a mini-tornado and completely enveloping and shredding the demonic beast, after a few moments, it fell dead onto the floor.

Tomoe finally hit the beast it was fighting down, making it stunned.

(Yu) “Alright, TIME FOR AN ALL OUT ATTACK!”

(Yosuke) “GOT IT! LET’S GO!”

They all charged alongside their spirits, attacking from 8 different directions on the beast while it was on the floor, hopping back at the same time, it exploded into black matter, making it vanish.

Black Eagles Reactions:

(Edelgard) “W-What was that?! I’ve never seen such power used before!”

(Hubert) “Stay back, Lady Edelgard! They could be hostile to us!”

(Bernadetta) “A-Are they using ghosts or something to fight people?!”

(Linhardt) “How…How fascinating! I must study them as soon as possible!”

(Dorothea) “Wow, that was a spectacular performance, but terrifying!”

(Caspar) “What even was that?! CAN I DO THAT?!”

(Ferdinand) “Calm yourself, Caspar! That could be some dark form of black magic!”

(Petra) “Words in your language could not describe the amazing happening!”

(Byleth) “Come on, we’re not out of the woods yet, we need to get them out of here and into safety!”

Byleth and the Black Eagles class moved towards them, and they seemed to be at ease.

(Yu) “Oh, actual people!”

(Byleth) “We came to save you since you were in trouble but…It seems you got the situation handled.”

(Yosuke) “Oh thank god!…Wait, they’re not Japanese?”

(Yukiko) “Are we in Europe?”

(Edelgard) “Your…rup? I’ve never heard of that country before. You’re in Fodland, in the territories of the Adrestian Empire.”

The four looked at each other. None of them had a single clue of what any of that meant.

(Yukiko) “Why is everyone dressed so weirdly?”

(Chie) “Y-Yukiko! Don’t say that, that’s rude!”

(Caspar) “Speak for yourself, your clothes are unlike anything I’ve ever seen!”

(Ferdinand) “And now, YOU’RE being rude…”

(Byleth) “Well, your powers are unlike we’ve ever seen. Are you mages?”

(Yu) “Um no. It’s not magic. Those were Personas…Wait, were those shadows?”

(Hubert) “I can see where this conversation is going, so I will cut it briefly. It seems that you are not from our world, am I correct?”

(Dorothea) “Not from our world?”

(Bernadetta) “W-What other explanations could there be?! Their weapons and the way they fight, their…Personas…?”

(Linhardt) “Personas, yes…What are they?”

(Yukiko) “Well they’re…uh…It’s actually kinda hard to explain…”

(Byleth) “I see. Well, we should talk somewhere safer that ISN’T crawling with monsters. We need to head back to the Monastery before nightfall.”

Yu looked at his team, waiting for a response.

(Yosuke) “Unless we got any ideas, I think we better.”

(Chie) “Man, this is so weird? What’s going on?!”

(Yukiko) “Let’s get going, shall we?”

(Yu) “It’s decided then. We’ll follow you, mister…?”

(Byleth) “Byleth. And you are?”

(Yu) “Yu. That’s Yosuke, Chie, and Yukiko.”

Everyone nodded, and began conversing with the four as they headed back.

The team had no idea what they were in store for.

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jitterzart · 5 years ago

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Bit of an Update

Hiya all, sorry for becoming quiet and then dropping off for a day or two.

A bit of life news below, but the TL;DR is that I’m okay, family is okay, just need some rest from over exhausting myself and getting a small cold. Sketch requests, interactions and owed art to be done as soon as I’m recharged. <’3

On Tuesday I ended up biking a really long way to the ER to check in on my brother who suddenly went there straight from work. The wonderful news is that he is okay and he was released the same day. PHEW!

Unfortunately that means I am paying for my sudden mad bike dash to the hospital... and so am doing a lot of bed rest and soup. (Cause I went into a hospital, you always get 1 free cold per visit! and soup is low pain to make.) I’m also on a new medicine from my doctor that has been really stressing my body, so the recovery time for things has been longer than usual. OTL So I guess we’ll see how this goes??? I also ended up not hurting myself too much on the bike ride but instead by sitting at my desk and leaning slightly over to place a notebook to the side?! Somehow?!

My brother, who is not quiet 100% yet but would like stuff to do to take his mind off the scary ER visit, is taking the chance of me being mostly a pain-pancake to work on my computer since he was doing computer work for a friend already but has mostly finished that. (I also had his graphics card from when we were testing things to get Photoshop working again and he wants to test other things.)

So... once all that is settled I will get back to the sketch requests and owed drawings. ;w; Thank you for your patience and understanding. <3

#I also ended up walking around half of the hospital's exterior? Trying to find the way in??#Ended up finding an entrance but it lead to special medicines? Mostly lovely/kind elders #I ended up being led back through a dark unused part of the hospital by this nice elder lady - who even commented on it being a bit spooky #she then helped me open the back door and pointing me towards this inner most part of the hospital?! The ER doors is so hidden #Like a spiral shell? Crazy design but okay if it works I guess

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tyranttortoise · 7 years ago

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haha this is a leading question but what about K? ;w;

*From the fandom ask meme

K: How do you feel about the other people in your current fandom(s)?

Ya’know, the Undertale fandom has such a bad rep. But then there’s people like you that I’m so fortunate to have met, and people that are so incredibly nice and sweet and bursting with positivity and love for everyone contributing to the fandom – you know, people you look at and think thanks for existing you sweetheart. Some of those people are my dearest friends, and the fact that we all bonded over a shared love for skeletons will never cease to amaze. And there’s so much talent! There’s amazing writing/art, and headcanons, and boundless AU’s, and AU’s of AU’s, and fanfics of fanfics, and holy crap the rabbit hole is so deep. Plus, when I met everyone at Atlantale, it was literally the best day of my life. I kept thinking these are my people!

But then there’s assholes. I mean, there’s assholes in every fandom (I once had someone in the Mario fandom write an entire fanfic about me–yes, me personally– dying in an Arby’s!), but I’ve never gotten this amount of hate in any fandom. This is my first time on tumblr, so maybe that’s why? Although I’m just sayin’ – my Fallout blog hasn’t gotten any hate. That fandom is chill ghoulfuckers as far as I can tell.

And it’s not just me, of course. I see the discourse all over my dash. I have a strict block policy now because I’m not here for that. I used to only block people that were jerks to me, but now, I’ve gotten to where I block people that are trying to start crap with anyone else I see. This last month has kicked my anxiety into high gear, so I’ve lost all my patience and don’t want these people anywhere close to me.

But despite that, all the wonderful people in the fandom make it worthwhile.

#ask meme #slight vent #although i cut out almost all of the vent where i went into detail lmao #personal #don't get me wrong here i love this fandom #it's my favorite fandom #and i'm not going anywhere #you sinners are stuck with me #thefloatingstone

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hookedonapirate · 7 years ago

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Wild at Heart (Chapter 6/?)

Read: Prologue Ch 1 Ch 2 Ch 3 Ch 4 Ch 5

Graphic Art credit to the lovely and wonderful @jell-obeans Thank you so much!

Summary: Born and raised by rich parents, Emma Nolan has always done what’s expected of her, from what clothes to wear to what school to attend, what career to pursue and even who to marry. After graduating from Harvard and going back home to Storybrooke, South Carolina, she agrees to marry Oz Walsh by the wishes of her parents. With a year of engagement behind her, she goes to Boston for business and has to fly back home to get to her wedding. What happens when she has a run-in at the airport with a dashing, blue-eyed thief who is apparently bound and determined to throw a wrench in all of her plans? Will she make it back to Storybrooke on time for her wedding or will she find her home along the way?

Rating: M

AO3 FFN

A/N: I apologize for the slow updates and short chapters, and I thank you all for your patience! This one is a bit longer and includes some Neverland goodness. Hope you enjoy!

Emma woke up the next morning, surrounded by impossible warmth and blissful comfort. She found it very difficult to move, other than to tighten her hold and bring the warmth closer to her.

It wasn't long before she realized that her right arm and leg were wrapped around something - or rather someone - and her face was buried in the crook of his neck. Her eyes flew open and she peered up, seeing Killian sleeping peacefully, seeing his chest rising and falling in a slow rhythm and seeing that her hand was clutching so tightly onto his necklace charms that it made her palm numb. She also realized that she had stolen all of the blankets; they were draped over her so that the only thing keeping him warm was her body molding into his in the most delightful way possible. She enjoyed the feeling, and easily concluded that it was something she could certainly get used to.

She quickly shook those thoughts from her mind. She couldn't think like that. She was to be married in approximately thirty hours.

Emma needed to remove herself from the bed. Slowly and ever so carefully, she started maneuvering herself out of his hold, lifting his hand from around her hip and quietly resting it on his chest. It was certainly a difficult process separating herself from Killian's embrace, but somehow she managed to sit up and stand from the bed.

Seeing that it was seven o’clock, she went to the bathroom and brushed her teeth, deciding that she really needed to stretch her muscles.

Her morning routine normally consisted of waking up at six a.m. and practicing her yoga, and since Killian was still sleeping, she decided that now was the best time. She pulled her hair into a bun and changed into a pair of dark grey yoga shorts with adjustable ties on each side, a black sports bra and red tank top.

Emma was several feet from the end of the bed, the sensation of her muscles straining in unusual but familiar ways as she contorted her body, attaining a perfect form with ease. Yoga was something that thoroughly took her mind off of work and other stresses of a typical day for her. And it was indeed what she needed right now, the stress of her situation melting away as she alternated between different positions, her body easily flexing, and forming perfectly poised shapes.

Transitioning her body, she laid on her stomach, using her forearms to hold her weight up before walking her feet into a Dolphin Pose with her elbows. Her palms were placed shoulder distance apart, her gaze focused between her hands and her butt raised up in the air. She was feeling very relaxed at this point, unaware of anything or anyone else in the room.

Keeping her core engaged, she drew her shoulder blades into her back and extended her right leg up into the air, pressing down firmly into her elbows before bringing up her left leg as well. Bending her knees and sending her feet toward her head for a Scorpion Pose, she took a few slow breaths while holding her position.

“That's certainly a sight to wake up to.”

Even as balanced and focused as she was, Killian's seductively silky voice almost sent her crashing to the floor.

“Talk about good form, love.”

His words sent a shiver down her spine.

“As much as I prefer a woman on her back, that is a very striking pose.”

She suddenly felt self-conscious under his scrutiny, even though he seemed to enjoy the view she was offering him. Knowing that she was drawing his gaze, created a new tension in her muscles and she brought her feet back down, planting them on the floor before rising.

“Don't stop on my account.”

“I'm not. I'm almost finished anyways.” Avoiding any sort of eye contact with him, she laid flat on her back and closed her eyes, trying to relax her mind again, but it was very difficult under Killian’s piercing stare from where he sat on the edge of the bed. “Don't you know you're not supposed to interrupt someone while they’re engaged in their yoga workout. You're disturbing my zen. That is bad form, Jones. Very bad form.”

“Apologies, love,” he said in a more quiet voice. She couldn’t see what he was doing, but she heard him milling about for a few moments before she heard the jingle of his keys. “I will go and get us some breakfast. What would you prefer?”

“A blueberry muffin, please.” Emma replied quickly, her stomach growling from hearing the word ‘breakfast’ . “And a skinny Mocha Cappuccino with cinnamon and nutmeg, extra whipped cream.”

“Sorry love, I don’t believe there’s a Starbucks around here,” he said with a chuckle. “And I’m pretty sure the hotel only has regular coffee.”

Emma sighed. “Fine. I’ll take my coffee black then.”

“Your wish, Princess.”

She heard the footsteps from his boots against the floor before the door was being opened and then shut with a soft click, leaving a peaceful silence in the room.

When she was finished with her yoga routine, she grabbed her outfit for the day and went into the bathroom, taking a long shower. She couldn't wait to purchase a phone and call her parents to let them know that she was alright. She couldn't wait to hear their voices.

After a thoroughly long shower, Emma stepped out of the tub and wrapped herself in a towel. She started rummaging through her bag, trying to find her curling iron, but then she remembered she’d left it in her suitcase. Without even thinking, she stepped out of the bathroom, finding Killian packing his clothes into his duffle bag. A warm sensation filled her cheeks as she stepped over to her suitcase, lifting it up onto the bed. She unzipped it and started searching for her curling iron, feeling the brunt of Killian's stare.

“Love, I’m not complaining or anything, but you best be careful how you go strutting around. We both know what happens when one of us is in nothing but a towel.”

Emma looked up from her suitcase to see a big smirk on Killian’s face, his cheeks rosy red as he steered his eyes away from her, raising a playful brow.

She could feel the redness of her cheeks only growing as a small smirk curved her lips, amusement laced in every word. “Yeah, except, with the tables turned, you don’t have the balls to do what I did, and I’m not as gullible as you are, so any tricks you have up your sleeve won't work on me.” Her eyes reverted back to the luggage, and she pulled out her curling iron, feeling Killian’s eye on her again. He made his way around the bed and approached her, his grin never fading. “Love, what did I tell you about challenging me? You know I never back down on a challenge, so unless you want that towel ripped from that gorgeous body of yours, choose your words very carefully,” he threatened in a playful tone.

Emma turned around to face him, and he took her off guard when she found him so close to her that she could feel his breath brushing over her skin as her eyes connected with his. Her gaze briefly fell to his mouth before she realized what a mistake that was. His tongue was darting out and sweeping over his bottom lip in a very obscene manner, causing her breath to catch in her throat.

“I would gladly finish what we started; all you have to do is say the word,” he informed her, his accented voice deep and plagued with mischief, the sound tugging at her belly.

A shiver shot down her spine, and she recalled the previous day, when she boldly yanked off his towel and stroked him in her hand. Arousal started pooling in her core as she remembered how incredible he felt in just her palm. She couldn’t imagine how incredible he would feel between her legs. Emma’s eyes dropped to his lips again and she thought about how amazing it would be to kiss him, the memories of his eager tongue on hers, flooding through her mind. Emma clutched onto the lapel of his jacket, unable to draw in air as she was seriously contemplating just letting herself have him. She could easily see that Killian wanted her just as badly; he was ready to pounce.

She shuddered, her lips closing the distance, but just before they touched his, she summoned every ounce of control within her and pulled away, releasing her grasp. “I can’t… I’m… I’m getting married tomorrow.” It pained her to utter those words, and Emma could see the disappointment flashing in his eyes, but he managed a small smile.

“Of course, love. I understand.”

“You do?” She asked, arching an eyebrow.

“Aye. I understand you want to do the honorable thing. I may be a thief, but make no mistake… I also believe in good form…” he was stepping even closer, her breath rushing past her lips and her heart racing erratically in her chest as his crystal blue eyes bore into hers, “so when I win your heart, Emma…” he said, his eyes scanning the features of her face, “and I will win it… it won’t be because of any trickery. It will be because you want me.”

Emma swallowed thickly, seeing the promise in his eyes. “I have to... I have to get ready... so we can get the car to the shop,” she stammered.

“The car is already at the shop. I called a tow truck from the front desk while you were in the shower. I also called a cab. It's picking us up in half an hour.”

Emma had to collect her bearings as she gave him a nod. “Thank you.”

“It's not a problem, Emma,” he assured with a smile.

“Oh and I have your letters. I didn't want to just leave them in the car.” Emma left him to retrieve the papers from her bag, handing them over to him.

“Thank you.” Killian took them graciously, tucking them securely in his own bag.

“No problem,” Emma murmured as she started walking towards the bathroom with her curling iron. “I’ll be done soon.”

Emma's stomach was coiled in knots the whole morning. After she got ready and ate the blueberry muffin Killian he'd retrieved for her, they took a cab to the repair shop, where they were told it wouldn't be done until the next day because it was literally the only repair shop in town and they were pretty backed up.

“This is ridiculous! We don’t have time for this!” Emma huffed, frustrated and impatient as they walked out of the garage. “I’m supposed to be getting married tomorrow, Killian. What the hell are we going to do now?!”

Killian gently placed his hand on her arm, tugging her to a halt and urging her to look at him. “Emma… we’re only seven hours away. We’ll pick up the car early in the morning and we’ll drive non-stop until we get there.”

“But Killian, I have to get my hair done and get into my wedding gown. And what if we get stuck in a traffic jam or your car breaks down again?”

“Well, Emma, can’t your parents postpone the wedding for a few hours, or a day?”

Emma sighed in frustration, sinking her face into her hands. “I suppose,” she mumbled. She didn’t know if this was a blessing or a curse. And what made it worse was Killian putting his arms around her, holding her to his chest and gently rubbing her back to soothe her. She allowed her body to mold into his.

“I’m sorry, love.”

She knew they could have found another mode of transportation, but she couldn’t ask Killian to give up his prized yellow bug. She knew that it was more than just an object to him. It held a lot of sentimental value and she couldn't ask him to leave it behind. Emma sighed into him, wrapping her arms around his waist and burying her face in the crook of his neck.

Killian dropped a gentle kiss to the top of her head, squeezing her more tightly. “Hey, perhaps they’ll have it finished before they close today. We’ll check back at 4:30, how about that?”

Emma nodded against his shoulder. “Okay.”

“Alright, why don’t we call your parents and get some lunch?”

“Okay,” Emma agreed, however, she didn't want to leave his arms. Somehow, she did.

~*~

“Hi Mom, it’s me.”

“Emma?! Oh Emma, we were so worried about you!” Mary Margaret shrilled out, her words strangled and muffled through her tears.

Emma's heart broke, knowing her mother was hurting from not knowing if her daughter was okay. “I know,” she breathed, doing her best to hold back a tear of her own. “I’m fine, I promise.”

Her mother sighed out in relief. “Thank goodness.”

Emma asked how everything at home was going, and how Dortha was doing. They chatted for a few minutes before she summoned the courage to ask her the dreaded question she’d been reluctant to ask. “Hey… so, would it be possible to postpone the wedding? I’m going to be a few hours later than planned. We just had some car trouble. But we’re leaving early in the morning.”

“Oh… actually, Emma, we already had it postponed.”

Emma's eyes grew wide with shock. “You did?”

“Of course we did. We wouldn't expect you to get married immediately after such a horrible, traumatic experience.”

On one hand, Emma was wracked with guilt. On the other hand, she was utterly relieved.

“Are you sure about this? I don’t want to upset the guests or everyone that you hired for the wedding.”

“Honey, I don’t care if they’re upset or not. This is your wedding, and your father and I want you to be able to enjoy your special day. You are our daughter, and you are the only thing that matters to us, got it?”

“Okay.” Emma managed a smile. There was something different in her mother's words. She thought, maybe her mother had done a lot of thinking and contemplating since she found out that her daughter wasbeing held for ransom . Maybe Emma could tell her mother the truth about her desires to not marry Walsh. “Mom…”

“Yes, sweetie?”

“There’s something I need to tell you.”

“What is it, Emma?”

Emma drew in a deep breath. “I... I…” the words stumbled out of her mouth, and somehow, she couldn't do it. She was too afraid; too afraid to let everyone down. “I love you. I love you and Dad... so much.”

“We know, sweetheart. We love you very much too. But don’t worry, you are going to come home to us, okay? Just please get here safely.”

“I will. Can I talk to Daddy?”

“Of course, sweetheart.”

Emma waited for a brief moment until she heard her father’s gentle voice on the other line.

“Hey, Princess. Are you okay?”

“Yeah, I’m fine. Our car just broke down and we have to get the engine replaced.”

She heard him sigh into the phone. “How long will that take?”

“They told us it wouldn't be done until morning.”

“Okay… where will you be staying?”

“In a hotel. We have a room for the night, no worries.”

“That’s good. Is he treating you…?”

“He’s treating me fine. I promise, you don't have to worry about that.”

Her father exhaled a deep breath. “I’m your father. It’s my job to worry about you.”

“I know,” she said with a soft smile. “Father, can I ask you for a favor?”

“Of course. Anything for my daughter.”

“Please... don’t get the police involved.”

“Emma-”

“Please, I mean it. This guy… he’s not as bad as you think. I can’t tell you why, but he really needs the money. Just please don’t turn him in.”

“But Emma, I’m a former police officer. Do you really think I could just let this go?”

“No, but… please… do it for me, do it for your daughter,” she pleaded, “and trust me… you will not regret it.”

“Okay… I’m putting my faith in you, Emma. I won't, I promise.”

Emma could tell by the sound of his voice that he already contacted the police, but he couldn't say that over the phone, for fear that the phone was being bugged, or that her captor was forcing her to trick David into admitting that he already did. “There will be no police involved when I drop off the money. You have my word, Emma.”

“Thank you.”

“Of course, sweetie. But you do understand that if he doesn’t bring you back to us exactly as you left, I will take matters into my own hands?”

She smiled again, a tear rolling down her cheek. “I wouldn’t expect anything less. I love you, Daddy.”

“I love you too, Princess. Get home to us.”

“I will. Promise.”

“Oh, Walsh is here. He just came through the door. He wants to talk to you.”

“Okay.” Emma cursed under her breath, wiping her tear as she heard her father passing the phone over.

“Emma. Are you okay?”

“Yeah, I’m fine,” she assured, wearing a fake smile.

“He didn’t lay a hand you, did he? Because I will kill that assho-”

“No, he would not hurt me.”

“You don’t know that, Emma. Don’t trust him. He's nothing but a lowlife piece of scum!”

Emma gritted her teeth, trying to refrain from defending Killian, but she didn't want Walsh to grow suspicious as to why she would be defending him.

“Let me talk to that fucking bastard!” Walsh demanded harshly. His words, however, were not completely sincere, like he was only putting on a show for her parents. Walsh would never get this emotional; that just wasn't him. He wasn't passionate and he wasn't assertive. He was a boring furniture shop owner. His business was his life. The only thing he would ever get upset about is if his shipment didn't arrive on time.

“I’m sorry, he can’t talk right now.”

Walsh got angry and his voice grew louder as he went on, making several explicit death threats for her to pass along to Killian. Emma held the phone away from her ear, not even listening to a word he was saying. Finally, she spoke into the phone again, interrupting him. “I’m sorry, Walsh. My time is up. I have to go.” She didn’t even wait for a response before she ended the call.

Thank God.

She immediately threw the phone on the pavement, watching it shatter to pieces. She picked up the debris and threw it in the trash.

“All set, love?” Killian asked, gracing her with a smile as he approached from inside Granny's Diner, bringing food; grilled cheese sandwiches and onion rings for her, and fish and chips for himself. She nodded and sat down as he placed the trays on the picnic table and took a seat across from her. “How are your parents? Are they doing okay?”

“Yeah, They’re fine. The wedding has been delayed for now.”

“Ah, that’s good, right love?”

“Yeah, it is. We don’t have to rush to get there.” Emma picked up her sandwich, taking a small bite. She was glad that he talked her into this little diner a couple miles from town. Her grilled cheese sandwich was delicious. She hadn’t had one since she was very little.

“You sure? I mean, if you really want to get back to your parents, we can find another way.

Emma arched a brow in surprise as she gulped her food down. “You’d leave behind your bug for me?”

Killian nodded. “Aye. But just so we’re clear, I would only do it to get you home so that you can be with your parents, not so you can marry Walsh quicker,” he said with a small smirk.

Emma shook her head, his words sending goosebumps over her skin. “I can't ask you to give up your car.”

“It's only an object, love. I can survive without it.”

“But it's worth more than that. Even if we replaced all of the items that were destroyed in the Sheldon’s house fire, or built the exact same house brick by brick, those things still wouldn't hold the exact same memories. A cherished possession is not just an object. It holds value that money just can't replace,” Emma said earnestly.

Killian studied her features carefully. “What have you lost that was valuable to you, love?”

“Nothing.” Emma shook her head, trying to wave off the question.

“Tell me, Emma.”

She slowly sighed in defeat. “Fine, if you really want to know, it was my Walkman and my cassette tapes. My father bought them for me, and I listened to my music whenever I had the chance,” she explained with a small smile, her eyes lighting up with nostalgia. “It was my escape.” Her smile faded as her eyes fell to the food on her tray. “But then, one night, my mother found them in my dresser drawer while she was doing laundry… and she got rid of them. She said they were not worth my time.”

Killian's features fell as he put a gentle hand on her arm from across the table, causing Emma to lift her head, her eyes instantly locking with his. “I'm sorry, love. You are right, those that hold memories cannot be replaced, but some things we can't hold onto forever. That's just part of life.” He spoke the words as though he knew all too well what it was like to have something taken away.

“What about you? What did you lose that was valuable to you?”

“I would say my family, and my Milah, but you can't lose something that never wanted you in the first place.”

“What happened to them?”

“My parents gave my brother and I up for adoption when I was a baby and he was only four. He took care of me when he turned eighteen, but then disowned me when he found out that I became a thief.”

Emma swallowed thickly, lifting her hand to the table and placing it over his. “I'm sorry. How did you become a thief, anyways?”

“It's sort of a long story,” Killian sighed, threading his fingers into hers. “It all started with Milah. I met her while she was stealing from a convenient store. I told her I wouldn't turn her in if she gave me a kiss,” he said with a chuckle. “We were only fifteen at the time.”

Emma’s lips curled into a soft smirk. “And let me guess, she accepted your offer?”

“Aye. Then we started dating and I found out she and her brother, Neal, were living on the streets, and they both stole in order to survive. I convinced my brother to take them into our tiny apartment that he paid the rent for, but then he found out Neal had stolen some money from him and when he found out that I knew about their thieving ways, he kicked all of us out. The only thing we had were the clothes on our backs and the yellow beetle that Neal had stolen. The three of us were inseparable, and we became an unstoppable trio, always thinking about our next move, and how to get food or shelter.”

Emma’s heart ached for him, hearing about his struggles growing up as she soothed her thumb over his. “So then, what happened to them?”

“Milah eventually left us. She grew tired of our lifestyle, so she fled in the middle of the night.” Killian’s eyes grew very solemn as he tightened his hand around hers. “The police found her body in the river.”

Emma’s breath hitched, goosebumps crawling over her skin. “Oh my God. Do they know what happened?”

“They found evidence of a struggle. She was killed, but they never found out who murdered her. After that, Neal gave me his car and had me take him to New York. I haven’t her heard from him ever since.”

“That's awful. I'm so sorry.”

Killian flashed her a small smile. “Thanks, love.”

Emma's heart constricted in her chest. She couldn't believe all of the people he'd lost. “Thanks for telling me that. It know it must've been hard.”

“It's okay. I figured it was the least I could do for everything I've put you through.” They released their hands and continued eating their lunch. “I have an idea. Why don't we do something fun after we eat?” he suggested, dipping his fry in ketchup. Emma cringed as she watched; she hated ketchup.

She averted her gaze away from the display and raised a brow in curiosity. “What did you have in mind?”

Killian lifted his head, a mischievous smile falling upon his lips as he inserted a fry into his mouth, his eyes never leaving hers.

Oh Lord , she had a feeling that whatever he had in mind could not be good.

~*~

“Oh no, I am not doing that.” Emma shook her head as she stood in front of a salon she would never dare step into.

“Oh, come on, Nolan. Live a little bit. I promise, you won't regret it.”

“Yeah, until my parents decide to kill me when they see it!”

Killian gave a soft shrug, a crooked smirk curving his lips. “So get it where you're parents won't see.”

Emma scoffed. “Yeah, I'll just get one on my ass, I'm sure my future husband would love that,” she spat sarcastically.

“I don't think Walsh would know what to think.”

“Who said I was talking about Walsh? My parents would see my bare ass before he would ever see it again.”

Killian laughed. “I take it, you have another lucky lad lined up to be your future husband then?”

“I'm just saying when Walsh and I get divorced and I manage to find a guy who I actually like.”

Killian opened his mouth to say something, but then stopped himself.

“You know what? You're right, I need to live a little. I'm gonna do it.”

He smiled widely as she approached the door, reaching for the handle. “That a lass.”

Emma hesitantly stepped into the tattoo parlor, Killian following behind her. Luckily they accepted walk-ins, and she was given a binder with tattoo designs.

She looked through the different designs as she sat on a lounge chair with Killian, and decided on a simple design with music notes. He smiled and offered to go back with her to hold her hand. He said it would be painful, but Emma was more concerned with how sterile the needles actually were. She made it very clear to the artist who would be working on her tattoo that she was a lawyer. The man only chuckled and took her back through a black curtain that led her into a room with a massage table.

The artist left the room, and Emma's stomach was in knots when she saw the various needles on the tray. Regrettably she had chosen to have the tattoo on her ass - just above her left ass cheek, to be exact. Killian, of course was very amused by this idea, but Emma chose to ignore him. She let him stay in the room though, and told him to avert his eyes as she unbuttoned her pants, pulling them halfway down her butt. She took a deep breath and laid on her stomach before the tattoo artist entered the room again.

“Are you sure you don't want your fiance holding your hand? This is going to be painful.”

“No, that's okay. My fiance's an ass,” she replied sarcastically, not even bothering to correct him as she flashed Killian a smirk. The man obviously noticed the ring on her finger and just assumed.

“Oi!” Killian frowned and stuck out his bottom lip into a pout, making her giggle.

She heard the snap of a plastic glove before the artist began. She quickly realized just how correct they both were. Emma gritted her teeth, keeping a tear from escaping her eyes as she let out a small whimper.

“Doing alright there, love?”

When she didn't answer, because she was too busy squeezing her eyes shut and biting her tongue, he came to her side.

“Here, take my hand.”

Emma didn't hesitate to take it, squeezing it tightly. She entwined her fingers into his, keeping her mind focused on other things, like how good it felt to hold Killian's hand, or the way her heart stammered whenever he was near her. She thought about their morning together, and how she woke up wrapped in his arms. She thought about how she’d never felt this way about anyone before in her entire life. And she liked the feeling. However, she hated the feeling of being tattooed. It hurt like hell.

“Would you like to see your fiance’s tattoo before I bandage her up?” the man asked after he was finished.

Killian smirked and looked down at Emma. “You don't mind do you, sweetheart?”

Emma's heart skipped a beat and she shook her head. “No, I don't mind, babe,” she replied with small smile.

Killian released her hand and walked over to the exposed area. Her face felt very flushed, especially when she heard Killian whistle. “Mm, it’s a beaut.” He then stepped over to her again, leaning down to speak quietly in her ear. “The tattoo looks good too.” Emma felt the blush deepen in her cheeks, and her smile grew even wider.

The artist took a picture, showing it to her before cleaning the area and applying ointment and a bandage. Emma let out a breath of relief, seeing that it wasn't a bad job. In fact, she kind of liked it.

The man left the room as she started to get up, and Killian turned around as she pulled up her pants. “Oh, now you're going to get all shy on me? You just got a peek of my ass,” Emma laughed as she zipped and buttoned up her pants.

Killian turned around, offering a smug grin. “Believe me, I am not shy, just being a gentleman.”

Emma rolled her eyes as she started walking towards the curtain. “We should probably leave before he thinks we’re in here making out and enjoying my new tattoo a little too much.”

“I'm not opposed to making that a reality, love.”

Emma snorted as she left the room, Killian hot on her heels. She shuddered pleasantly at the thought.

When they emerged from the parlor, her tattoo was sore as she walked, and she was immediately regretting her decision. Emma couldn't believe that she just got a tattoo on her ass.

“What now, love?”

A slow, broad grin crawled across Emma's lips. “Now, it’s time to do what I want to do.”

“And what would that be, love?”

Emma pursed her lips in contemplation. “Hm... we’re going shopping.”

“Love, believe me, I'm not opposed to that... but that's your brilliant idea?”

She smirked, mischief dancing in her eyes. “No, it's not. We’re going shopping because you, Killian Jones,” she said, poking him in the chest, “are going to dress up and take me dancing.” Emma didn’t wait for him to respond before she turned around and started walking away.

He quickly caught up with her, a hopeful grin on his face. “So we’re going on a date?”

She gave him an eye roll as they continued walking down the sidewalk. “We can pretend it's a date. How about that? People seem to think we're together anyways.”

His smile only grew as he tilted his head to look at her. “You’ve got yourself a deal, love… and a date.”

“Not a date,” she corrected, holding back a smirk.

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Her Latest Flame Chapter 20: Fifty-Two

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The first time the phone rings, Sophie ignores it.

OK, so she doesn’t actually ignore it. That would suggest she doesn’t pay any attention to it at all and that would be something of a… well…

A lie. It would be something of an outright, bald faced, not even Amy would try spinning that bit of bullshit, honest to God lie.

The phone is on the desk and the desk is across the room from her, from her bed, the same bed she’s been sprawled out on for hours, through her first two classes - skipped ‘em both - through a lunch meeting with her advisor (a woman in the Art department who she’s met once and who tried to advise her into, of all things, film) (she’s a fucking dance major), and now, through the ring ring ringing (cause still going) of her phone.

It’s the first time she’s heard it in days and she’d almost - almost - forgot the fucking thing could actually ring.

So, here she is, on her bed, alone, just staring at her ceiling and - ironically enough given who she is sure is on the other end of the line - remembering the time she innocently suggested to Amy that they put glow in the dark stars up there. An entire pack of them, or maybe even two, like an entire universe that would come to life just at night.

“It’d be like camping,” she said, and no, the whole lesbians and camping thing never crossed her mind, not even once. “Kinda. Except, you know, with beds instead of sleeping bags and indoor plumbing instead of bushes that make you itch in your… you know… bush… and, no s'mores and oooooh, can we have s'mores?”

Amy had laughed (and Sophie had smiled cause, not that she would have admitted it then and she sure as fuck wouldn’t cop to it now, she loves the sound of Amy’s laugh) (and yes, that is the correct tense) and thrown a pillow at her and told her, in no uncertain terms, that there would be no stars.

“No stars,” she said. Those were her exact words. “No stars, ever.” Those were her more exact words and when Sophie asked - innocently, again - if they needed to make that a rule, Amy had answered with a groan and another pillow bomb and boy, it was a good thing she always slept with like five of those, what with the number of them she was lobbing in Sophie’s direction.

“OK, OK,” Sophie said. No stars was fine, not a big deal at all. It had been just a thought, a spur of the moment kinda thing that sort of just popcorn-popped into her head (she really had junk food on the brain that night) and those were the sorts of things that tended to pop out just as fast, which is how Sophie’s always been able to tell when something really matters to her. It doesn’t pop off and away. It lingers.

Like Amy. Like Reagan. Like whether or not Jon Snow was really dead cause it wasn’t like she obsessed on that for months or anything and Amy still owed her five bucks since, in the end,Jon was, you know, dead, until the old woman who she totally shouldn’t think was hot (but come on) saved him and yes, she’s digressing here, but it’s her memory so, you know…

Fuck you.

So Amy never popped out (and yes, never does mean still, unfortunately) and neither did, or has, Reagan - even after she bailed on her and never came back - but the stars… yeah, they didn’t last all that long.

“No stars,” Sophie said, perfect agreeable. “But about the s'mores…”

Another pillow - the My Little Pony one (Rainbow Dash, natch) that she won for Amy at the 1st Weekend College Fair - landed on her with thud and an over dramatic 'oh, I’ve been slain!’ that set off a round of giggles from Amy’s bed that warmed areas of Sophie’s heart she hadn’t quite known were cold.

And the next evening, when Sophie got home from her two hour lab session for a class she was sure she didn't need and was even more sure she wasn’t going to pass?

There was a plate of melted just right, still warm, and ooooh… the marshmallow oozed out in perfect little globs when she took a bite… s'mores waiting on her desk.

That was the day when Sophie decided she loved Amy Raudenfeld. Totally, 100% platonic love, of course. Sophie’s not the type to fall in love with just anyone and she’s got more than enough smarts - lab grades, notwithstanding - to ever let that 'anyone’ be the person she lived with.

You don’t shit where you eat, that’s what her Nana always said.

Especially not where you eat s'mores.

At least, you know, not till she was older and actually living with someone and not just sharing a fairly small room - with no stars and far too many pillows - and no options for escape for like the next four years because, no way, no fucking how, was she gonna try and find a new roomie, not after all the work she’d done breaking Amy in and getting her just right.

So, no. No stars on the ceiling and no new roomies in the… room. And no, absolutely no falling in love.

But… s'mores.

So, yeah, there was no way she was falling in love with Amy, but she loves her. Sophie loves the fuck out of that girl and, even now, even as the phone rungs (for the first time) across the room and she knows damn well who it is (cause she’s right on time), Sophie can’t quite bring herself to change the ’s’ to an 'ed’ on the end of that, but she knows - oh, she knows - if she answers that phone?

The past tense is gonna crash headlong into the present and then there’s gonna be stars - and probably Amy seeing them, again - and there will be new roomies cause there’s just gotta be a college rule against living with someone you’ve punched out and there will be no more s'mores and that is just one more 'and’ than Sophie can take right about now.

So she ignores it.

She ignores it, after. As in after she tries - far too quickly - to leap from her bed to answer it and gets her feet tangled in the duvet and ends up doing a Captain America dive halfway across the room, her fingers just catching the edge of the desk as she lands, the phone teasing her with its little vibrating self (and she usually enjoys a little vibrating tease) as it scoots further on the desk and by the time she actually does reach it, she may as well have ignored it, so that is exactly what she does.

Cause it’s gone silent. Again. And all Sophie can do is flop back onto the floor and wonder.

Where are all the pillows now?

The second time the phone rings, Sophie tries for patience.

Cause, well, you saw how well hurrying worked for her.

Though, this time, she’s not on the bed and there’s no duvet to tangle her feet all up in and she could make it across the room safely (probably) (she is still her, after all) and scoop it up off the desk and answer it.

And she will. In, you know, a minute. Or, really, just less than.

Because that is how long it takes her phone to go to voicemail. Just under one minute. Exactly. She timed it once, one time when some girl whose name she didn’t quite remember (Sam) kept calling and calling and calling and oh, did she mention calling?

That girl, whose name she didn’t remember (Sam) (It was Sam, short for Samantha, and she had long brown hair, braided like halfway down her back and no, Sophie didn’t know anything, not anything at all about what it was like to use that braid like a steering wheel) had been, well, something of a… um…

“Rule twelve,” Amy said, not even looking over as the phone rang and rang and, really, she had to have mentioned rang. “So twelve.”

Rule #12: We will never call any girl a mistake, for they are all learning experiences in one way or another and we would not be the women we are without them. So, never a mistake. But, maybe, you know… a really really really poor fucking choice.

Sam short for Samantha should have been short for same as in same call, same time, every fucking day, always hanging up in exactly the same (see?) fifty-two seconds and that was just weird enough to drive Sophie batshit.

Or, you know, more batshit.

“Why? Why fifty-two seconds? Why fifty-two seconds every fucking time?”

They were on the floor, sprawled out on a pair of body pillows Amy had gleefully snagged from the college bookstore (on clearance) (such a good shopper) (Lauren would be proud), watching a movie Amy had been assigned to write a paper about for her CRW 111: Intro to Screenwriting course. It was something about time travel and Bruce Willis and that kid from Third Rock from the Sun who was so not a kid anymore - and if Sophie had ever entertained ideas about guys, Bruce and Mr. Not a Kid would’ve been #’s 1 and 2 on her list - so, either of those alone might have been enough to convince Sophie to watch.

But the female lead was Emily Blunt and that was enough to convince her to watch it twice and to take notes and to vow that if John Krasinski ever turned out to be a complete secret asshole (come on, you know he is) she would find a way to be the one to soothe and mend Emily’s poor broken heart.

(And any other hopefully not as broken and still fully functional and oh, dat ass doe, parts.)

“I’m not sure which scares me more,” Amy said, popping another bite of popcorn (extra butter) into her mouth. They’d had to pop a second bowl after Sophie had gotten a bit overwrought at the end of the movie the first time and cried a whole bunch of tears in it. “That every time she calls for fifty-three -”

“Fifty-two.”

“Right,” Amy said with a nod and her most perfect 'no, you not cray cray at all’ smile (you try being friends with Karma for like your whole life and see if you don’t have one of those). “For fifty-two seconds. Or that you know she does.”

Sophie ignored the smile (you try being her and not learn to do that) and sat up, pausing the movie and no, that had nothing to do with the camera lingering on Emily's… um… face, nope, nothing at all. “Call me,” she said, inspiration suddenly striking (thanks, Em.) “Right now, call me.”

For whatever reason (like, you know, maybe, it being way more entertaining than watching the movie again) Amy obliged and called and, wouldn’t you know, at fifty-three seconds exactly…

S'up. This is Sophie. You know what to do. Of course, if you really knew what to do, I probably would have answered, so maybe that ought to be a hint to work on your skills, um… unless this is Amy, in which case why the hell aren’t you just texting me, you know the rules -

Rule #18: Always text, never call.

Rule #19: If you have to ask why for Rule #18, then obviously, you’ve never had your phone ring at a most… inopportune time… and since we both know that isn’t true, Amy (see: Elsie) (see: Elsie while you were making out with her sorority sister) (see: Woot!).

And that was why fifty-two seconds, every time. Just long enough to be annoying (so, kinda like Sam-short-for-Samantha had been in real life), but not long enough to leave a real message, an actual recording, any verifiable proof that she’d been there.

So, again, kinda like her in real life.

But now, Sophie knows how long it takes - at least for her voicemail to pick up - cause when it comes to other things, complicated things, forgiving and wanting to talk to or, really, wanting to talk to and admitting it kinda things, she’s not so sure just yet.

Which is why she’s waiting.

That, and she doesn’t feel like getting any more bruises on account of Amy even though she’s pretty sure the small bump on her knee and the light grazes on her palms ain’t much of a thing compared to the shiner her roomie’s gotta still be sporting. But that, she thinks, is only fair.

Amy did her damage too. You just can't see hers.

Unless you count looking in the mirror and seeing the red circles under the eyes and the look like she hasn’t slept in like days and the way she visibly flinches every time she even thinks of Reagan or Amy or the phone rings and so, yeah, that’s why Sophie’s avoided the mirror since the moment she’s gotten back and why, again, she’s counting down the seconds in her head.

Forty. Forty-one. Forty-two. Forty-three.

At forty-five, she takes a step toward the desk. At forty-six, her hand comes out, reaching for the phone. At forty-seven, she sees it - her arm, her hand, her fingers starting to close over the tiny little thing in the tiny gold and blue (school colors) case - and at forty-eight, she starts to pull back.

She’s not ready.

What, exactly, she isn’t ready for, she’s not quite sure. She imagines there’s likely gonna be an apology cause, well, have you met Amy? And she imagines there will be tears, probably Amy’s, almost definitely hers. And those (the tears) she can deal with and that (the apology) she’ll kind of have to decide on and she’s OK with that too cause, really, what choice does she have? But then, after the apology and the tears and the other apology (cause Amy, again) and then more tears (cause them) and a whole lot of 'I don’t know’s and more than a few 'so… what do we do now’s and a whole mess of 'I never meant to’s and 'you know I would never want to hurt you’s, it’s still gonna be there, out there, the other thing.

And at forty-nine, she thinks of that other thing - it… she… has a name, but there’s that whole flinching thing, remember - and her hand tenses and Sophie legit doesn’t even know what to do cause if she answers, they’re gonna have to deal with that (her) and if she doesn’t answer, well, it isn’t like it (she) is just gonna fade away and disappear and neither of them will ever even so much as think of her again, right?

Again: have you met Amy?

Or Sophie?

So she’s damned if she does and she’s damned if she doesn’t and there’s no rule, not a single fucking one about what to do in this situation and now, like right now, like at fifty seconds on the damn nose, Sophie’s really wishing there was, she’s really regretting that they never came up with a rule for how to handle a situation like this and how to make the choice and like what you should base your decision on, cause something like that would totes come in handy right about now.

Something that might give her a clue, something like a lightbulb blinking its blinding way to life over her head to tell her what to do, something like… oh, she doesn’t know…

Something like s'mores.

Someday, she’s going to have to figure out why she thinks of that right then (and why she so often thinks of Amy and food, together) but for right now, all she’s really got is this.

Well… fuck.

Cause… yeah.

And at fifty-one seconds exactly, Sophie answers the phone, only to find that fifty-two seconds exactly?

Well, that's not at all what she expected.

The first time Sophie met Farrah was the second week of school when Amy insisted she come with her for a Saturday night dinner at the used to be Raudenfeld-Cooper residence which was now just back to being chez Raudenfeld and Sophie wondered, out loud, why Farrah had never gone back to her maiden name.

“I’m not entirely sure she remembers it,” Amy said on the car ride over and Sophie wasn’t sure if she was kidding or not - it had only been a couple weeks and yeah,,they had some of their rules already and kiss #1 was out of the way (Sophie didn’t think about that) (much) but she still didn't know Amy, like know know her - so she just laughed, politely, and then again, with just a bit less polite, after Amy rolled her eyes and joined in on it and then they were there and Sophie put her game face on.

She was going to be prim and proper. And so, you know, as much like the step-sister Amy had told her all about (though, usually leaving out the step) and as much not like the best friend Amy had also told her all about (though, it was what Amy didn’t say about Karma that told Sophie so much more) because she’d gotten the definite impression that, of the two, the not so step was far more popular with Farrah than best friend ever was.

She wasn’t wrong.

But what she was - also - was underestimating Farrah who, after two full years of watching Amy and Sabrina be together yet somehow apart at the same time, and then having to watch as her daughter slowly faded into the background of her own life (again) as first Shane and then after him, Lauren, and then, finally, even after it seemed like she never would, Karma left, which left Amy, well… alone… was already incredibly grateful for this girl who had brought a bounce back to her baby’s step and a smile back to her face and enough confidence that she - Amy - had actually been the one to suggest bringing Sophie for dinner.

And as… well… as Farrah as Farrah could be, she was, at heart, a good mother devoted to her daughter and only wanting the best for her and, if the last few years had taught her anything at all about Amy, it was that she had no earthly idea where or what or who that best was going to be, so whenever and wherever and whoever it popped up as?

Farrah wasn’t going to do anything to mess it up.

And so dinner went well, so well, in fact, that that first time Sophie met Farrah, she established a new rule, on the way back to the dorm with Amy.

Rule #13: Dinners at the Raudenfeld house will be held a minimum of twice a month on the condition that Farrah be allowed to cook said dinners a maximum of nonce a month.

Amy told Farrah about it the next day and - not surprisingly - she was totes agreeable.

And so the second and third and on and on through the ninth or tenth times Sophie met Farrah, all went swimmingly and all had fun and all had good eats - especially the night they convinced Farrah and a home on-break Lauren to go with them to noodle night and even they couldn’t help but notice Becky of the good, no great, no, fucking spectacular in those pants, ass - and Sophie found that she genuinely liked Amy’s mom.

(And no, she never spoke of that dream she had that one night and she never would.)

And, she found, that Amy’s mom seemed to genuinely like her and that was something of a first, cause Sophie’s friends moms - the ones she met - had never seemed too fond of her.

“It’s like they thought I was going to corrupt their daughters,” she said and nope, she didn’t miss the way Amy rolled her eyes at that. “Like I was going to take them all behind the bleachers and teach them all the finer points of pleasing a woman.” Sophie sighed, a sigh of the totes unjustly accused. “I only did that with the cute ones. Or the desperate ones. Or, you know, Rachel Ann Southworth cause, well, let’s face it. With a name like that and a family like that, she needed to come down… or, you know, go down, a peg or two.”

So, given that Farrah seemed less than even a little concerned about how Sophie might corrupt Amy - the opposite was true, if anything - really, if Sophie had thought about it - maybe once or twice in those fifty-one seconds, she might have been just a bit less surprised that it wasn't her roomie’s voice on the other end of the line, but that of her mother.

“Sophie? Is that you? It’s Farrah. Amy’s mom?”

Sophie wasn’t sure if the clarification was for her - cause maybe Farrah thought she knew (or knew) some other Farrah - or what, but she nodded anyway, before remembering that the older woman couldn’t actually see.

“I was hoping we could talk,” Farrah said, either assuming Sophie was nodding or, more likely, not really caring cause, you know, not the point. “About Amy. And you.”

There was a pause in there, just a small one, just enough of one, that Sophie couldn’t miss it. Amy. And you. Not 'Amy and you’, not like it would have been, you know, like three days ago. She didn’t know what Amy had told Farrah or what Farrah was just guessing about, but, again, not really the point. The point?

“Could you come by the house? Later this afternoon?”

Oh, there was the point.

“I promise,” Farrah said. “You won’t have to see her if you don’t want to.”

And there was the other point. The bigger point, the key point, the point of all points. The point Sophie didn’t know how to address cause she didn’t know if she didn’t want to or did want to or wanted to but just couldn’t and, in the end, it didn’t matter anyway.

Cause she went. Knowing or not knowing, Sophie went and that’s how she’s managed to find herself here, in the just-Raudenfeld driveway, leaning against the hood of Farrah’s car, staring up at the windows lining the second floor of the house. She can’t see Amy’s from the front and, maybe, she thinks, that’s better.

She’ll let you know. Once she actually decides.

So, you know, a week or two. A month. Tops.

Farrah’s sitting on the front steps, her legs crossed in a very lady like manner and that is how Sophie knows she means business. Farrah hasn’t gone lady like since that first night, not really, and she’s gone even less lady like since noodle night.

It’s hard to maintain professional parental distance once you’ve led a serious discussion on how chopsticks have good depth but not girth, after all.

So, now, faced not with friend Farrah but with mom Mrs. Raudenfeld, Sophie’s having a moment or two of reconsideration, a second or two of doubt as to whether coming here was such a good idea cause, really, the last thing she needs or wants is a motherly lecture.

Farrah interrupts her moment of doubt. “I’m just guessing,” she says, “but Amy fucked up, right?”

OK. So maybe less lecture. And less lady like. And 100% more she can see where Amy gets her sometimes unfortunate, sometimes needed, always on fucking point habit of being blunt.

“And, just another guess, but it probably had something to do with a girl,” Farrah continues, not giving Sophie a chance to interrupt or disagree - not that she would - and it’s almost enough to make her wonder what, exactly, Amy did say. “I hate to admit it,” Farrah says with a sigh, a sad tired, resigned bit of a thing. “But that was the one plus of her friendship with Karma. No jealous drama.”

There’s a moment, right then, a tiny one… and oh, fuck that, it’s like a distance from the Earth to the Sun of a moment… when Sophie wonders if Amy’s Princess Sarcasm routine came from her mother too. But the look on Farrah’s face tells her that, no, she is 100% serious.

And there’s just nothing to be done with that.

Farrah pats the step next to her and it takes Sophie a beat to figure out she’s asking her to sit. She scoots over, slowly (cause come on, this is a bit weird) but then settles onto the step and, you know, it’s actually… well… kinda nice. It’s odd, a bit, sitting here with Amy's mom, but it’s got a certain charm. It’s not really that weird -

“There was no… thruple going on though, right?”

And cue the weird. The out of nowhere, where in God’s name did Farrah learn that word and why in the blue fucking hell did she have to say it out loud weird.

Even if she isn't entirely off base cause there was something of a… thruple. Maybe it wasn’t a physical one and oh, now Sophie’s thinking about that and thanking God that they’re both sitting in the shade cause she’s pretty sure her cheeks can be seen from space now. But it was sort of a thruple kinda… mess, when you think about it.

And now she can't stop thinking about it.

“That was what I meant before,” Farrah says. She’s staring straight ahead and if Sophie didn’t know better - and she really doesn’t - she might think Farrah was blushing too. “About Karma and the jealousy. I mean, I know there was that one time with the two of them and that Booker boy…”

She trails off and that moment Sophie was having? The Earth to the Sun one?

Yeah. Earth to the next galaxy. Earth to non-Booker-boy-fucking Andromeda.

“I know Karma got jealous,” Farrah says and oh, how big is that shovel she’s digging this hole with? “Any fool with eyes could see that. Even when she pushed Amy and Sabrina together, and any fool with eyes could see that was… well… don’t get me started…”

Don’t get her started? Sophie’s far more concerned with making her stop.

Which, apparently, she hasn’t.

“Even when she arranged that whole big romantic scene and reunited them and then started up with Felix…” Farrah shakes her head and there’s this look on her face, like the look Sophie and Amy get when they’re watching their favorite shows and the writers do something just so damn stupid and yet, they keep watching cause, really, as stupid as it is, at least it’s still on the air. “I knew Karma hated it,” Farrah says. “She hated every second of every day Amy and Sabrina were together. It might have been the only thing she and I ever agreed on.”

There’s awkward and then there's this, but, hey, at least she isn’t saying 'thruple’ anymore, right?

“You never met Sabrina, did you?” Farrah asks and Sophie shakes her head. She’s met Lauren and Karma and she's heard Shane, on the phone - though she’s not sure she really need the phone to hear him - and she’s heard about Liam and she’s seen Felix’s Facebook friend requests.

The ones he sends weekly. Sometimes with a note. Sometimes not. Sometimes with a profile pic of him and Amy and no, that’s not weird at all.

“You didn’t miss much,” Farrah says and Sophie has to bite back a laugh. “I mean, don’t get me wrong, she was nice enough, once you got past the lying about being gay and all.” She shakes her head. “Not that Amy had any room to talk there. But Sabrina was just…”

Bland? Blah? Amy with a bit less existential angst? Not Karma?

“A knock off Reagan,” Farrah says. “That’s what she was. A knock off, not as stylish and not as cool and not as hot version of Reagan.”

Andromeda? Did Sophie say Andromeda? She meant Triangulum. So fucking Triangulum.

And no, don’t ask how she knows what the absolute fuck Triangulum is.

“Do you know about Reagan?” Farrah asks and if there was ever a question that was just too loaded… “I mean, I know you and Amy have your rules and all and, besides, I don’t think she ever talks about her. I don’t think she really ever did. Not even with Karma.”

This is that point where Sophie knows she should say nothing. This is that point where Sophie knows she should - really - get up and shake Farrah’s hand (cause it’s 1950) and thank her for the talk and then walk, not run (at least not until she’s out of sight) to the nearest bus stop and never, ever look back.

“Maybe that means Reagan didn’t mean that much to her.”

So, knowing and actually doing… yeah, different things.

Farrah nods, but it slows and then turns to a shake and yeah, no, Sophie didn’t really think so either. “As much as she talked about it and stressed about it and made everyone around her miserable about it,” she says, “Amy was never really worried she was going to actually lose Karma, not for good anyway. It would have taken more than the Jaws of Life to pry those two apart forever and Amy knew it. And I don’t think she much minded the idea of someday not really having Shane around. And, as for Felix…”

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“But Reagan…”

Sophie wonders how funny it would be if Farrah knew how many times she’d said those words to herself the last few days.

It could be so simple. Just forgive Amy and move on.

But Reagan…

Amy saw her first and no, there’s no rule about that, but there should be and you know it.

But Reagan…

Even if you never spoke to Amy again and dazzled Reagan every single night with your skillz, she’s never just gonna forget Amy and you’ll end up with a broken heart, a sore tongue, and no best friend.

But Reagan…

“But Reagan was different,” Farrah says and Sophie tries to catch up, hoping she didn’t miss too much while she was… um… thinking. “When they broke up…” She sighs, staring downward at the sidewalk, this look on her face that Sophie can’t quite place. It reminds her of the look that her mother got, right after she came out.

Loss.

“Amy shut down,” Farrah says. “For weeks. She curled into this cocoon and even Karma… I mean, she was there, right there with her, the whole time.” It’s the first time Sophie can recall hearing anything approaching warmth in Farrah’s voice when she talks about Karma. “But not even she could reach her. I always thought it was just first love, you know? That’s the hardest of all the heartbreaks to come back from.”

Sophie thinks, for a moment - an Earth to the Moon, at best, moment - about the pain in her own chest the last few days. And then she glances up at the window she can’t see and no, she isn’t overwhelmed by the urge to charge up the stairs and hug Amy until they both stop crying and they need to make a rule about the duration of hugs, a rule they will forever ignore.

She isn't overwhelmed and she doesn’t move.

But it’s close.

“So you don’t think that’s it now?” Sophie asks. “You don’t think it was just the whole first love thing? Wouldn’t that explain it though? Why Amy doesn’t talk about her, or share things about her or…”

Or keep pictures buried on her phone of her. Or sneak off to meet her. Or do things to and with and on her that Sophie doesn't want to imagine but does anyway.

Farrah shrugs. “It might, I suppose. But… I didn’t bring you here to talk about Reagan. I’m sorry, i just got… well…” She turns, pivoting on the step so she can look at Sophie and, for a second, Sophie’s worried there’s gonna be a punch involved and this time she’s gonna be on the wrong end. “I didn’t think of it until now,” Farrah says, “but this? It reminds me so much of Amy and Reagan.”

Sophie knows the feeling.

“I don’t know what happened with you two,” Farrah says and yes, her hand does move, but not to punch, but to hold. As in hold Sophie’s hand, which Farrah plucks from the younger girl’s lap and tugs into her own. “And I don’t know, really, who’s to blame. But I do know this.” She gives Sophie’s hand a squeeze and oh, that… it’s new. Someone doing that somewhere other than in bed. Someone doing that to reassure or to care or to show that she matters.

Someone doing that who isn’t Amy.

“I know I haven’t seen my daughter this lost in forever,” Farrah says. “And from the look on your face, she’s not alone in that.”

Sophie’s quite sure Amy’s not alone in it at all. But she’s quite sure they’re not alone in it, even together. And that’s kinda (more than kinda) the whole problem.

Farrah stands, smoothing out her skirt. “I’m going to be late for work if I don’t go, but I just hope whatever’s the problem, it’s something you two can work out.” She brushes a few stray strands of hair out of Sophie’s face, her eyes shifting slightly, as if she’s noticed the purple just now, for the first time and… maybe… something’s dawning on her about just how hard working it out might be. “I don’t think Amy will be quite the same without you.”

Farrah offers Sophie a ride back to campus and smiles when the used to be a blonde shakes her head and says 'no, thanks.’ She probably thinks Sophie’s going to go inside, gonna head up the stairs and down the hall and knock once - to be polite - and then it’ll be nothing but hugs and kisses (cheek only and purely of the non thruple variety) and apologies and then in the end, all will be right with the world.

And, maybe, if Sophie had more time, like maybe more than, say, the fifty-two seconds between the moment Farrah pulls out of the drive and the moment her phone stops buzzing, deep in her pocket, to think about it, maybe that's exactly how it would have gone.

Or maybe if she hadn’t glanced at the screen and seen Reagan’s smiling face staring up at her after fifty-two seconds.

So, yeah, Amy’s up there, alone and crying (probably) or asleep (more likely) and surrounded by empty doughnut boxes and she probably can’t bring herself to look in a mirror, for the pain and shame of that shiner. And Sophie’s not much better off and she knows it and she could, so very easily, walk up those stairs and make it all so much better.

But Reagan…

She catches the bus just in time and the ride back to campus takes all of twenty-two minutes, or, really, twenty-two minutes and thirty-eight seconds, to be exact. Sophie spends twenty of those minutes staring at her screen, at those three little words.

One Missed Call

And if she doesn’t call back, not right away at least? Well… that might have a little something to do with that nagging feeling growing inside her. The one that keeps poking at her and jabbing at her and reminding her.

But Amy…

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