#thank you for indulging me gav <3

[jamiesfootball]

📄📝💗👻 (or however many of those you feel like doing) for the wip ask owo

📄What’s a WIP you never finished that you would like to go back and revisit?

Batman, The Conjuring AU my beloved. I finished the first chapter out of five and then got distracted by Ted Lasso and never posted any of it. It is my first true attempt at writing horror and I am cautiously pleased with it. The bones of it are the basic plot of the movie The Conjuring - Bruce and Alfred take Dick, Jason, Tim, and Damian to Wayne Manor, a property that's been lost on the Wayne's asset list for years, in an attempt to get away from the city and bond after some less-than-pleasant events have happened. When they get there, they all individually begin to experience weird goings-on, and the haunting begins in earnest.

The Kents are then called into help, with Clark being the 'medium' of the two while Lois is the diligent researcher who fact checks all the bullshit. Oh, and Jon is there too.

I do not kill the dog.

📝Share a snippet of an unposted WIP, with or without context.

"Oi, knock that off. She's your mum, and she doesn't think you're disgusting. She loves you. You just scared her a bit, calling her up like that."

💗Is there a scene you can’t wait to write for a WIP?

SO. MANY. Off the top of my head-

Oh God You're Gonna Get It (You Have Not Been Given Love) - the Roy finds out what's been going on with Jamie scene, the entire Phoebe chapter ('do you think the bloke in the book turns out okay?'), and the chapter where Roy and Jamie go for a run (which is technically just a very long scene)

The Vacant House Behind Our Home - the Roy chapter (which is entirely in dialogue), and the Rebecca chapter (where you find out a bit more about how Rebecca ended up there and we get to sit with her feelings about her divorce while lightning crashes around her)

I Still Feel Like the Same Person I've Been (the 5+1 jamie falling asleep pavlovian fic) - the entire WEMBLEY chapter, ugh my heart. I am DYING TO SHARE THIS. It is over halfway written.

👻Is there a scene that you find intimidating that you have yet to write?

There is a scene in Oh God You're Gonna Get It (You Have Not Been Given Love) where Jamie and Sam have a fight. I am scared anxious excited to write it. It's gonna hurt.

[16ruedelaverrerie]

What does it mean that Gav is a Libra? (Sorry i really dunno much about star signs)

AH ANON WELCOME TO THIS THREE-HOUR PRESENTATION THAT YOU NEITHER REQUESTED NOR ARE NOW EAGER TO COUNTENANCE. I’VE THOUGHT ABOUT THIS FOR MORE THAN TWO MONTHS NOW AND I’M ANNOYED THAT I HAVE. Some caveats before I continue, because I love a preamble: 1. My investment in astrology is mostly that it’s a fun heuristic with which to navigate the world, and I’m glad that it gets us away from technocracy or the misappraisal of science as somehow an objective, ideologically uninflected thing. 2. In the absence of a full natal chart, all that I say here about Gavin or Libras will be an extra-broad generalization. And most of all 3. I believe that it’s difficult enough for actual human beings to be in possession of what seems like a coherent psyche, and that it’s misguided at best to assume that mediated fictional characters could evince one. That is, when I say Gavin is this, what I really mean is that in one possible interpretation of Gavin out of the literally infinite range of possibilities, he is this. I’m not interested in pinning characters down, arguing about what would be in character or out of character for them, especially when the medium is a game with quicktime events and branching scenarios. Gavin Reed isn’t anything, and could be anything at all.

NOW THAT THAT’S OUT OF THE WAY:

A Libra Gavin is hilarious bullshit because a shorthand phrase I use to describe Libras is “conflict-avoidant homebody pushover”. Can you even imagine!!!!! I mean, actually that’s mostly how I describe my female Libra friends; I think of the stereotypical Libra man as being very close to Sanji from One Piece (flighty, idealistic, determinedly shallow, very concerned with whether other people are being treated well) (Sanji isn’t even a Libra!) but that’s very gender-normative and binaristic to begin with and besides, my male Libra friends are also more “conflict-avoidant homebody pushover” than “I’ll make the world a better place in honor of the next pretty face”. But CAN YOU EVEN IMAGINE!!! Gavin a conflict-avoidant homebody pushover! I’ll grant you the homebody and pushover parts in certain scenarios but– a Gavin that isn’t spoiling for a fight!! WHAT THE FUCK KIND OF GAVIN WOULD THAT BE (again, at this juncture, I stress that there is no such thing as a Gavin Reed and that I am actually perfectly on board with a conflict-avoidant interpretation).

A Libra is diplomatic! Has a strong sense of justice! Strives for harmony in every aspect of their life! Wants to make other people happy! What a joke. No Libra has ever mouthed off at someone until they got decked in the face just to enjoy the way the bruises ache in the morning when they stumble hungover out of bed. Like literally not a single Libra in the entire history of the human race. It’s a scientific fact. (It isn’t.)

A Libra Gavin is unbearably revealing because on some levels, you sort of see how it would make sense and you’re like “oh my god, but what if, wow I’m super into this”. Libras are relationship-oriented; maybe Gavin doesn’t make nice with the people around him, but my god I’m into a Gavin who’s just turning the whole world inside out looking for someone to connect to in some small way. Libras are superficial; maybe Gavin doesn’t believe in being clean-shaven, but my god I’m into a Gavin who has always considered things like personality, ethics, or financial solvency to be distant and unimportant factors in his choice of relationship partners, in comparison to IS MAN FACE GOOD? MAN A SNACK??? and then discovers himself to be so helplessly into RK900′s goddamn face that he just sighs and resigns himself to the fact that he appears to be in love now. Libras are indulgent; maybe Gavin doesn’t have a chauffeur pick him up after work to drive him to a spa, but my god I’m into a Gavin who leans into the hesitant hand on his cheek, who unravels when his clothes come off WHAT I’M SAYING IS THAT HE’S INDULGENT… IN BED

Here’s an interesting new wrinkle on top of all of this, courtesy of Anon: 

 I’m not as familiar with Primal Zodiac signs, so I went to look it up and fkld;lkhglkd oh my god HE’S A GOOSE, ISN’T HE? GAVIN REED IS A GOOSE. Anon I really love geese because they are such thorough shitheads, when I scrolled down the list and saw that Gavin was a goose fkld;hg it was like living a punchline. And then I READ THE DETAILS and what I’m getting out of this is that Gavin Reed is just in the process of gradually aging from “bullshit Libra” into “full-on Libra”?!??!! Like right now he spills drinks all over his leather jacket and blows people behind bars, but eventually he’s going to shuffle into an oversized chunky-knit sweater and drink chamomile tea in front of a fireplace while wondering if he needs a new prescription for his glasses????????? Jesus Christ it’s so funny

GAVIN REED, THE YOUNG GOOSE.

Also I usually don’t manage to catch reblog messages or comments, but I’m so glad I accidentally did see this glorious throwdown from @nosiize: 

BECAUSE EXCUSE ME! @nosiize!!! JUST BECAUSE GAVIN USUALLY COMMUNICATES AT TOP VOLUME AND NEEDS A LOT OF ATTENTION AND PEOPLE ARE SICK OF HIS SHIT DOESN’T MEAN THAT HE IS A LEO! What Leo would be caught dead making more than one appearance onscreen and WEARING THE SAME OUTFIT EVERY TIME!!! @nosiize fight me!!!!! (Please don’t fight me. I love and respect you and your choice of Leo as Gavin’s sign.) But the true way that you know Gavin is not a Leo is that he never once smugly mentions the fact that he is a Leo like it’s a laudable feat he has accomplished

j;ldgh I love Gavin with all my heart but apparently I love being a Leo even more. You bring up a great point though– I suspect that what Leo energy Gavin does have might actually be an Aries energy, so… I’m going to saddle him with Aries as his rising sign. That’s the part of him that makes us look at him and go “yes, this man has definitely set a building on fire before”. Hitler was an Aries.

THAT’S IT THAT’S ALL THANKS FOR SCROLLING ALL THE WAY DOWN THROUGH THIS WRECK OF A POST

(Also! If you sent me a kind message via my inbox recently, thank you so much– I treasure your words and they give me the will to go on. Sometimes I feel a little weird about answering nice messages publicly, though, and answering them privately makes them disappear, which I don’t want either! So it seems like I’ve ignored you, but it’s the absolute opposite, I’ve printed out your message and had it silkscreened onto my pillow. I’ve entered into a common-law marriage with your message. Thank you. ♥)

[survivorindia]

Whatever Forever- jaiden (Episode 3)

Anyway!!!!!!!! I just got elimed and whew I'm just feeling so many emotions. Maybe I shouldn't have thrown the immunity to save lexi, maybe I should've kept ace over Ashley,maybe I never really had a chance in this game in the first place. Overall? I just feel bad for promising lexi that I'd help keep her in the game and then immediately flopping, and for Kendall, leaving my one tru ally by herself, I hope the swap goes in her favour and that both of them can vote out the rest of the returnee heroes, some revenge is always nice TBH. Ashley, gav and Alex, I really did trust two of you and I was gonna stay loyal so it sucks that y'all flipped so easily, of course the fact that Ashley had an idol probably wasn't the best thing, but we could've figured something out. I hope the three of you get elimed soon or at least prejury bc you know the great dan whatever his last name is said flippers never win and well it's no fun seeing snakes get far either TBH ! And I know y'all won't be reading this til later but good luck newbies I hope y'all truly slay this game bc really some of these returnees I would really rather see get elimed except maybe Kendall and Jordan pines. This has been a fun game for the most part, the challenges were great, the hosts were greater (even David Robb) and I met some good people in my short stay here! Do I have some regrets? Yeah but I wouldn't have wanted to play this game any other way. Keep an eye out for me in the returnee season :~) single digits I'm still coming for ya!

So not much has happened this round. We won, yet again. And my #1 ally out of everyone in this game, my good friend Monte, was sadly voted out. But best believe I'm gonna win this game for him!

What in the heckie is Nicole doing?

What the FUCK? These people need to CHILL out. It's our fault - we made the mistake, the hosts don't have to babysit us every step of the way. Now we gotta own it and win this tiebreaker - honestly, Danny g'luck (I WAS FORCED TO MAKE THIS S/O) to these people, because they are getting on my nerves with their complaining rn. 

We keep winning. I love that. But Jordan Pines might wanna blindside me... so to that I say:

Am I exaggerating? A little bit. I think. I don't know. I'm being weird and emotional so idk what the fuck I'm actually thinking... I hope I get voted out next at this point yay

Okay, everyone listening? Two common misconceptions about pegging: If a man likes pegging, he must be gay. If you peg a straight man, he will become gay. Cue Laughter and Eye Roll - Both of these are so ridiculous as to be laughable on so many levels. Gender preference has nothing to do with the sex toys you like to play with...or the area of your body you like your partner to play with. For those of you who have fears around this - please excuse the laughter...though I do find the concept quite humorous. Think of it this way...If a straight man enjoys getting pegged by a woman there is no reason whatsoever to think that all of a sudden he will crave sex with men. Just like if a straight woman enjoys receiving oral sex from a man there is no reason whatsoever to think that she will suddenly want to be a lesbian. See how silly that sounds? (Now if the man is bisexual, just ignore all this and go to the next blog post because he prefers both genders so these points are moot.) A man who wants his ass fucked is gay, you say? Bullshit. (I seem to be in a sassy mood tonight.) Remember, the male ass is the source of an amazing amount of pleasure via the prostate gland. Whether a man experiences that pleasure from his lady's finger(s), his own finger(s), a toy (there are so many), his lady’s strap-on, a butt plug, his partner's finger(s) or his partner's cock makes no difference. All of the above are simply various examples of the pursuit of pleasurable sensations from an ass. Many really nice toys are specifically made for anal pleasure! That should give you a bit of pause. Maybe the people buying these items know something....just like the 150 - 200 million gay men in the world. But wait - I'm probably confusing you... Unexplored Ecstasy - The point here is that anal exploration is about pleasure, not an indicator of gender preference. What I find a shame is that so many straight men will not indulge in that pleasure because of these misconceptions along with the bullshit social stigma attached to it. Maybe it's just me (standing here ready with my strap-on), but that sounds like a lot of pleasure being abstained from...and oh my the word abstinence  in any form is not a popular one amongst the pleasure seekers that have found their way to Pegging Paradise! I am certain there are men out there who secretly would love to have their ass teased with...well, a variety of things. These men hesitate to ask for it because they fear their partner's reaction to their request or the reaction of others if they found out. All of this is fed by the original misconceptions as well as a puerile dose of idiotic homophobia. Get over it, people! I know...easier for me to say here in Southern California when some of you might be in conservative strait-laced sex-negative hell somewhere. But hey - we need to start somewhere, right? Are you going to let other people's narrow-minded attitudes affect your pursuit of pleasure in the privacy of your own bedroom (hotel room, board room, etc)? I think not. No Fear - So Ladies, I urge you to get over your own fears that if you fuck your man in the ass with a strap-on dildo the gay fairy will instantly appear and sprinkle him with magic gay dust and you will lose him forever to his own gender. Okay? If you can't let go of that fear, you have no business strapping on a dildo. I mean really...are you going to follow him around after you fuck him and be suspicious of all of his encounters with males? Let it go, ladies. And when you get your man where you want him and you have your way with him...don't kiss and tell. Especially if you live in one of those strait-laced sex-negative hell places I spoke of previously. Instead, treasure the vulnerability your man has shared with you and let him know that come hell or high water or nosy girlfriends, he can trust you to keep that part of your sex life confidential. Pleasure Seeking - Gentlemen, the other part of the formula here is you. If you are clear about which gender you prefer, that's your stable base. Do your best to let go of any homophobic comments you have heard, read or even, heaven forbid, said. Your anus is a part of your body that, when properly stimulated, offers a whole new world of pleasure. Orgasms with anal stimulation are most times much more intense and produce much more cum (that's always fun). Given just that, why wouldn't you want to at least check it out? If you love it, all that means is that you love getting fucked with a strap-on by the woman who makes you hot. There is no "Insta-gay" phenomenon that happens if your lady pegs you. As one man put it: I like breasts with my strap-on, thank you! Pegger/Peggee - Wouldn't it be awesome if people who were into pegging walked around in T-Shirts that said, simply, "Pegger" or "Peggee"? I mean - relatively few people who are not kink-oriented know the sexual meaning of the word so lovingly created by Dan Savage. So the masses of people leading lives of quiet desperation (read: sex-negative) wouldn't have a clue what it meant. And if asked, one could always say with a smile, "Look it up on Wikipedia". Just make sure it's a cat-that-ate-the-canary smile as you say the words and they just might look it up. Presto, you have just spread the word about a luscious, sexy, pleasure-filled act that couples can add to their carnal repertoire. You may have changed their lives forever...in a rather explosive way.

AHAHAHAHAHA @GAVIN

THOSE BOYS WANT TRIBAL TN BECAUSE WE LOST IMMUNITY AND IM SO FUCKING NERVOUS I DONT WANT TO DIE I HAVE SO MANY PLANS IF JORDAN SACRIFICE ME FOR NICOLE OKOKOKOK 

So... mission successful. Let's quickly debrief: 1. Ashley trusts me a lot more after I told her details that Alex told me in private. Making Ashley feel like she was on shaky ground further resulted in her letting me know that she has an idol. Whether or not it is true is besides the point... the true crux of the matter is that I have Ashley left in the game with three people she can't trust and me... so that means I ought to be her #1. 2. Alex and I are as tight as ever. Even despite giving Ashley information, I was able to quickly fix that bond. I genuinely like and trust Alex, but I can't let the cloud my judgement. He's very close to Kendall, which scares me, but I have looked to leverage that in our post-tribal call. In my conversations with Alex, I want to make him feel like he is calling the shots while still looking to provide input. Thus far, I think I have done that. With Ashley allegedly having the idol (information that was supposed to be "kept secret" but was totally not "kept secret" xD), I have talked to Alex extensively about the next vote and I've made a deal with him to take out Karen rather than Kendall... while also *hopefully* keeping Ashley's idol in play. My goal here is to come out of this with both Ashley and Alex working independently, but all in all, nonetheless in my best interests. In short, the way this tribe seems to be shaking out is that there is this façade of autonomy and power that Karen and Kendall have. They have this illusion that they call the shots, while it really is Alex and I that hold the cards in this dynamic. Kendall, to get Alex completely on my side... I need to spare you to gain his trust, BUT MARK MY WORDS I'M GOING FOR YOU! *Nothing against you, just your social game is very very strong but annoyingly obvious too ;3* Oh. And Ace got voted out too... I guess.

I never really made an opening confessional, so here I go I guess? I am really... really excited to be back. It's so easy for so many people to say "Oh yeah I've played a ton, people want me back." We see it with a ton of people, and that's not a bad thing. People want to see them back for a big reason. But I never had that. Coming off of Malaysia I was hated and people did not really respect me for who I was and thought that I was some awful person and player. It definitely hit me hard a bit, but at the time I was like, okay that's fine, there's other seasons. Tumblr does a lot. And so I applied. I applied for Sri Lanka with Marie and didn't make it. I applied for Rebels vs Rogues and didn't make it. I applied for Bora Bora and didn't make it. I believe I applied for Generations and wasn't casted, or I didn't believe I was going to have time due to time conflicts. I wasn't contacted for Maldives. I missed the application for Tenochtitlan. I applied for Sicily and didn't make it. I believe I applied for Bangladesh and didn't make it. I wasn't contacted for Arabia (though there may have been apps and I missed it). I wasn't contacted for Myanmar. And I was super excited to finally get this chance to play in Lazio but I missed the acceptance of my application. And going back to all the times I had tried to play or just was kind of ignored it was rough. I kind of thought I was done. And now I'm here playing in India. After over a year on and off of trying to play this game again. And to be honest, I'm hella pumped. Because I've missed out on so many chances to play. I think it says something when even parts of my Malaysia cast aren't even excited to see me on the season. This is kind of my opportunity to prove people wrong. My personality showed even at this Tribal where I literally told Gavin his answer to the Tribal Question was awful and completely wrecked Ace after he wished us a heartfelt goodbye. I want people to know that I am playing as hard as I can. I'm not here to change who I am to impress people. I'm here to show who I am so that I can prove to people that I'm not some worthless player who doesn't deserve to be back; I definitely feel like some people think that is the truth. I'm going to prove people wrong. Count on it.

I know I said I wanted to be a villain but goddamn, this is pretty fucked up. Oh right context because mind reading technology hasn't been invented quite yet. To make a long story short, Karen made an alliance chat with our victim (Ashley) and now it has a name and now it is terrible. Alex brings up voting Karen and that raisin I call a heart was all like "YAAASS QUEEN!" And my brain was tempted by the #bigmove but getting rid of Karen... is truthfully not to my benefit. Sure Karen is manipulative but she seems to trust me. She confides in me with information and she includes me in all her fucked up little schemes. In a sense, I'm the Trish to her Tony. If Trish and Tony were two gay and emotionally stunted children of course. Plus she has the connections to the other side that could get us far into the game and I am confident enough in our friendship that she will stay by my side. Of course, I will remain wary of her but for now I think our relationship is mutually beneficial. Karen needs me for back up in her schemes. I need Karen to get where I want to get. She gives me information. Information I can collect in to a giant web of evidence, so when the day comes when I turn on her, I'll have the evidence via receipts to back me up. Karen never deletes anything, I am planning on using that to my advantage.

So I was reallllyyyyyy close to using my idol tonight, and I totally would have wasted it if I had. Gavin advised me that I would be okay, and so did Alex and Kendall but like something didn't feel right. I had heard that Ace heard my name from Karen and I was like well shit. She had literally just today come to me and told me that we were all good and that she didn't hold the last game we played together against me. Like there are no hard feelings. but due to everything that was happening I kind of doubted that. But tbh I love Gavin and Alex and really hope we can work together for the next few rounds. Or even longer, who knows. I still am unsure about Karen and Kendall, as I don't really know them that well. But hopefully everything works out.

Oh I also definitely told Gavin I have an idol.... idiot move? We shall see. 

I am so glad we won immunity. It for sure would have been me or Lexi next if we had gone to tribal. It looks like Johnny and Whitney aren't too upset that I didn't vote with them but I can't take my chances. I had been searching for the idol for a while with no luck so I asked Lexi to help me find it. She found it within a few hours lol. We didn't find the idol but we found the idol grid. It's relieving to know it couldn't have been found right away. This gives me and her time to find it. Hopefully we'll get it before anyone else and we'll be set for the rest of the time on this tribe. I doubt anyone else on our tribe has found the idol page or would suspect that we found it. I'm thinking long term so the game plan would be using the idol on lexi and getting rid of Liam. If we happen to go to a tribal council after that we could try to get Whitney or Johnny to flip to our side. Even if they don't want to we can always force a tie so Lexi and I still have a strong chance of succeeding. We just have to find that idol!

This has been a crazy round. I'm glad the immunity challenge was changed to something that required more skill. The tribe worked very well as a team. There's an obvious divide between us so I'm glad we were able to get some time to bond and unite. As for the results, it was upsetting that the returnee heroes made such a big deal out of not getting theirs in on time. The rules clearly stated it was first to 10 pm. I'm sure we would've accepted defeat if we didn't send it faster than them. It was bad sportsmanship on their part. The tiebreaker was so stressful. I stepped up and I was so afraid of letting the team down. I knew if we went to tribal my only ally left, Lexi, would be voted off. There was a lot of pressure on me and I was honestly so anxious. I felt so victorious beating Kendall by 7 minutes. I hope my tribemates remember this next time we go to tribal and don't vote me out. I feel like I've done a lot for our tribe so I think I'm safe for now. I'm really hoping the tribe swap comes within the next two rounds. We can only win so many immunities and Lexi and I are on the bottom so we really need it asap.