#thank you everyone for joining in on my madness tho hahaha it was fun

[seokmashu]

moot appreciation & 1000th post ❤️

to celebrate the end of predebut era, zb1's debut, my lovely 5ever moots, and my 1000th post! (also bc this ask has been sitting in my inbox for a few weeks now and i figured it's time!) it's been a few months since i joined zumblr and i wanted to shout out a few people who have made this experience so fun and lively and wonderful and whose friendships i really treasure ❤️ i love all of you mwah now let's goo!!

💌 cherrie // @cherriegyu 🍒

cherrieee tietie 🫶 when i first came on tumblr you were one of the only ppl i talked to and you made me feel so welcome in the community- i loved discussing lex's hp ideas with you, our bias lists and being a zerorat (💀) imy and love you lots <3

💌 moni // @taerrrrrae 🐨

moni you're always so sincere when reading and reacting to other ppl's works, responding to asks, and letting other ppl know you're thinking of them, that i find it so inspiring~ i mean who else would compose poems for their moots?? you're such a sweet person a 7 star hallabong fr <3

💌 riri // @chxrrymxxnlight 🌛

ririii my fav riyangi fangirl!! you're so cute and i appreciate how you always keep me up to date about zb1 stuff (like within 0.1 seconds of them posting, insane) even tho we always miss each other cuz we live in opposite timezones 😭 i hope u only have happy days ahead and i'm so excited to hear more about this story you're writing and drawing!! <3

💌 tee // @haesunflower ⛳

teee! i'm so glad you sent me that message when we first became moots bc it's so much fun talking to you~ remember the gyuvin cheeto ask i sent you? 💀 and all those times you were thirsty over wrote about zb1 ahem. i love discussing fic ideas with you because you simply give the best reactions and i'm so happy you get to live out your y/n fantasy fr fr 😭 <3

💌 rose // @ohdudedhesflirting 🐝

ah yes rose one of the only other seokryus that i know on tumbles 😭 your thirsty reactions to posts are so funny and always crack me up~ i'm sooo glad you started writing more bc i love reading your fics!! still mad you didn't tag me in the first one 😤 but it's ok since it literally wrenched my heart out ;; i hope you're doing better now and that you had a wonderful bday <3

💌 lex // @bp-zb1fics 🦇

lex i know you haven't been as active lately but it doesn't feel right to not include you in this since you were literally my d-1 bestie when i first started this blog- i loved discussing fic ideas with you and joking around making silly posts and sending each other twts and telling each other about our dreams and reading all the wonderful stuff you wrote! i hope you're doing well now, i'm thinking about you <3

💌 venom // @zerobaseonefics 🕸️

you were one of the first people i talked to when i arrived at zumblr and i remember thinking wow she seems cool i wanna get to know her! little did we know that was the start of a century long feud however thankfully we can say war is over now that you've admited defeat 😇 fr tho, you're such a talented writer and i really admire how you always make time to listen to and talk to everyone~ your love for spiderman is sooo cute you act cool all the time but you're actually the cutest yk? thank you for encouraging me to post my art back then, i really don't think i would've started posting my bday series if it weren't for you and ilysm <3

💌 hazel // @hanbeanz 🔮

aka the don 😎 hazel i think you're such a talented gifmaker and the way you include your stream of consciousness always cracks me up lolol i think you're an awesome leader and it's fun discussing ideas for zb1net tg, don't feel too discouraged and i also hope you don't get too burnt out either<3 also that time you sent me an ask about your emoji tag still cracks me up hahaha <3

💌 alma // @gunwookstan 🐭

my fav fav fav mattwook fangirl almaaaaa <3 i'm so happy you messaged me bc we are literally kindred spirits when it comes to reacting to our boys LOL it was sooo funny that one time i was scrolling twt and accidentally found your account and you were like sweats uhhh that's not me ok sure 👀 talking with you always brightens my day ily sooo much mwah <3

💌 rin // @jjanguri 🐳

rininining!! my sweet, kind, open-hearted friend who can't help but cry from simply existing 🥺 from our first interaction i could tell you were gonna be lots of fun to talk to~ i love being spymasters tg, hearing ab your feud with your cubicle mate, the tattoos you plan on getting, your reactions to hao, and your love of eating bricks and concrete <3 bc of you "goobert" and "monch" are imprinted into my mind LOL and also i think it's soo impressive how you churn out 10 gifsets every day even tho you're so busy all the time~ idk what's up with the whole ss and meow agenda you've been cooking up lately but grrrr i'm keeping my eye on you 👀 thanks for being such a fun but also calming presence my lovely friend and i hope you know i'm here for you when the going gets tough <3

💌 iana // @taeraex 🦖

iana our cute adorable bb <33 it's funny that your bias is taerae bc both of you could stand still doing nothing and i would still think it's the funniest thing LOLL i love talking to you about astrological signs and your stalker behavior and being petty and your random bursting out into song and playing codenames with you (we fr are connected to the same wifi bc it's crazy how similar our instincts are) it's always such a fun time when you're around 😛 you could talk for hours and hours and i would love listening to every second of it you're just so funny and endearing and cute <3 also thank u for always supplying the cute cat pics bc there is a SEVERE drought going on 🙏 i hope u get some sleep bc i'm always worried ab you y'know <3

💌 lili // @y--eontan 🦎

o lilicat how i adore you, you're so funny and brazen and sweet and every time i see you lurking in chat i just wanna go pspspsps 😽 before we started talking i remember seeing your emoji gifset and i remember thinking this is so cool i can't wait to see the part 2!! and then you messaged me and i was like :0 your reactions to gunwookie are soo cute that i just wanna spam you with every noot noot/cheek pic i see~ it's so funny the way you complain about stuff and block people you have no patience for lmaooo i am seated for our next complaining sesh 🫡 your comments and little quips always catch me off guard bc you're so deadpan and i love your sense of humor haha also when you drew that lil orange puppy on the art i made for you? *bursts into tears* <3

💌 hope // @zeroze 🕊️

my cute hopieee i'm so sorry i called u buzz lightyear when all u wanted to be was bubbles 😭 it's so much fun theorizing ab zb1 concepts with you bc we share one mind when it comes to our music tastes and thank you for always looking out for me and asking if i'm gonna watch stuff with you and making sure i go to bed at a reasonable hour 🫶 you're so sweet and kind and funny (thinking about the time you banned iana 💀) even tho you never let me have my own cute emoji reacts :'( i hope your exhibition wraps up well and you can fiiiinally have the break you deserve! and i also hope you have the best time in japan/korea (if we don't end up meeting up!!) and i SWEARRR i'll go to bed earlier (just for u 😚) <3

💌 maria // @sunghanbinie 🌺

aka jiff, lieutenant mario, and the other half of our shared braincell -- i love how we can talk about anything and everything, from when we wake up to when we go to bed, you've simply been there for everything. even though you torment me day-to-day with monkey allegations and thirsty matt gifs, you're also always there to listen to my troubles and check up on me when i'm feeling down - i appreciate you so so much from playing 49584 games together every night and spilling tea to fangirling over zb1 and giving me gif advice. you are my constant <3 i think you're so smart and funny and such a talented gifmaker and writer. i love our little jokes and making fun of each other at every opportunity, and i truly don't think being on zumblr would've been the same without you <3 i love you sooo much mwah mwah mwah <333

finally, a shoutout to moots who i haven't spoken to as much but who i want to get to know better because i just think they're so talented and cute and cool: @jinkiseason // @zb1s // @zerobaseone // @seokmatthewz // @sung-hanbin // @yunacoeur // @keiwook // @cinnajun // @juyomiao <3

this was written from the heart at like 4am and i hope you all know just how much i love and appreciate each and every one of you <3 1000 posts and 10000 more to go! can't wait to spend the next 2.5 years with y'all 😁

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#5

Lupin theory: it's a Manchurian Candidate plot, it must be. That second picture with a mother figure, brainwashing and spilled playing cards is 100% Manchurian Candidate. They're going to tie in all the card games this season to brainwashing, back to and including them playing cards to determine who cooks. It's going to tie in with all the flowers because of Hanafuda cards.

I had to look the Manchurian Candidate up for a bit, but that's a pretty convincing idea actually!

Regarding the spilled playing cards, I assumed they were a reference to the gang at first, like Jigens hat and Goemons Zantetsuken are also there. But they're also not really anyone's personal item either, like the hat and Zantetsuken are. It could be argued they stand for Fujiko (since she's sort of associated with cards and uses them as weapons sometimes, she even throws one in the opening), but we haven't seen Fujiko playing these specific cards at all, so I don't know.

What interested me is that for one of the brainwashed 'sleeper agents' in the Manchurian Candidate, seeing the queen of diamonds made him snap into killer mode, and the fact that his handler is his mother... holy shit Now I did check ep 13 again and Lupin has played this deck of cards against Jigen multiple times (and won), so I'm assuming he would've seen that card (or whatever card does it for him, if it is the cards) too without anything happening. But we did see Jigen and Goemon playing the cards in the car in the last episode, so they do have them with them, meaning they could easily be used next episode, and it might exactly be the context of who is showing him the card and in what way that might trigger something.

I honestly hadn't even considered the cards! They do have a very distinct design, even though that's probably a reference to the cards from Part 1 Episode 8's cards:

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#4

watching the next lupin episode moodboard

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#3

Okay hold on, hold on. This latest Lupin arc is making me go insane (in a good way). Let's see if I can put all this into coherent thoughts.

Since episode 19 I've been checking and rewatching some moments, and found out some... interesting details. Then after this weeks episode I noticed another thing, which had me rewatching everything again, and I'm now convinced things are even more connected than previously thought. If I'm right, this second arc is insanely good at leaving the smallest hints right under our nose that you wouldn't know were there unless you know what to look for. Even though yes, I also agree part 6 has its pacing problems and I'm not the biggest fan of interrupting the main arc with standalone episodes all the time either, but at least in this second part they do make use of that (yes I will elaborate).

Gonna continue under the cut, this post is long. Will probably end up continuing it too, since tumblr doesn't allow more than 10 images per post (grrr).In any case, spoilers for up to part 6 episode 20.

Anyway! I'm gonna go nuts for a moment

Alright. Let's start at this weeks episode. The thing with these filler episodes is that they are very much filler, but they also got slightly more in common with each other than simply being centered around a woman each time, as the arc implies. At first, I thought that was all there was to it, even if this arcs writer (Shigeru Murakoshi) said that the way all the individual women were shown in episode 14 was not a coincidence (or, to quote him: "Actually, this scene was not intended to make everyone appear unnecessarily. I would like you to look forward to how each and every character here appear in future episodes, and to see what position they form in the story and how they interact with Lupin and the gang."). I just thought that was an interesting extra, like oh cool, those are the women we're gonna be seeing this season, I love a little bit of foreshadowing like that (although, if he hadn't said so, I'm pretty sure I would've entirely missed that it was these exact women too until having a rewatch, since the designs don't really stand out save for one or two). However.

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#2

I know they left it ambiguous on whether or not Tomoe was actually Lupin's "real" mom (leaving the way they viewed each other out of it for now), and we're supposed to drift more toward the fact thats she was not

but that expression Lupin has when seeing what's in the box, and how he pauses a little too long...

it kinda haunts me

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[yhs-grian-rights]

Headcanons... for... YHS Streamer House. please, hand me my Dumbass Headcanon Rights Bub. I beg of you. Right off the bat all I can think about would be the fat that Sam would probably fake-date Yuki for views, and if someone ever donated and dared him to kiss Grian or Taurtis he'd do it no question. Just leap out of his chair, scream "NO HOMO!" and run out of the room to hunt one of them down

Thank you Mika for enabling me...

Anyway,

In the house there's Sam, Taurtis, Grian, Yuki, Salex and Dom.

Sam likes faking drama with the rest. Also does semi-daily vlogs, and he frequently pranks everyone, specially Grian. Taurtis sometimes joins him on the fun.

I'm sorry but the Sam kissing his friends one is just SO TRUE. He's dared alot on stream, and of course sometimes people dare him to kiss his boy friends (hahaha). So he's like "OH EASY." calls over Grian, Taurtis or Dom and just DOES IT. LIKE A MAD LAD. He says it's not gay tho....sure-

Taurtis will sometimes stream raid his friends. Send his viewers to go to one of his friends streams, that sort of stuff. But it's usually very wholesome, or very stupid. No in-between.

Yuki is like, THE PROBLEMATIC ONE. Drama follows her everyone, which is why of course Sam wants to fake date her-

Yuki used to be apart of another group with Sookie, Soul and Chan. But due to drama she moved here. That makes her the latest member of the house!

Salex only streams LoL. Like, that's all she plays. She's an epic gamer. Occasionally plays animal crossing with Taurtis.

The only member that plays video games NEARLY as much is Taurtis. So yeah they collab alot and play together and it's cool. But Taurtis does other things, like doing dumb challenges with his friends.

Grian streams less, he mostly appears in his friends stream. But when he does stream he's usually just talking with viewers, telling funny stories, playing instruments and songs on request, bringing over his friends, occasionally bothering the rest when he feels like it, just overall vibing.

Dom.... He's interesting. He isn't really a streamer or anything, just an old friend of the trio, and he was looking somewhere to live, so they offered him to stay here. All the viewers love Dom and ask about him alot lmaoo. And everyone is fine with it, Dom is just a meme at this point, but he's really funny lol.

[cruecifymesixx]

Love and Leather /part thirty three/

Word Count: 4.1k

A/N: Tommy’s part where he goes through his day inspired me to write this chapter! Wish I could’ve partied with him :( enjoy tho! Let me know what you thought!

Warnings: drugs, alcohol, language

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I stumbled into the hotel room, practically falling to my knees, “Okay, let’s get you in bed.” Nikki said, helping me up as I was full of laughter, “I’m fine, it’s all good.” I slurred, as I watched his eyes close so the irritants of the alcohol wouldn’t burn, “Can you fuck me?” I asked Nikki, he chuckled, shaking his head as he turned me around and unzipped my dress, I stepped out of it as I tripped on the fabric, “What’s my rule?” He asked, as he helped put a shirt on me.

I whined, “Nikki.” I stomped my foot like a spoiled brat, “What’s my rule, Vanity?” He repeated himself as I plopped down onto the bed, “We don’t have sex when I’m really fucked up.” I breathed out, “And why don’t we have sex?” He asked, “Because you hate me.” He laughed, “C’mon babe, one time won’t hurt.” I said as I propped myself on my knees, getting dizzy all at once. I put my finger through the belt loop of his pants and pulled him to me.

Nikki looked down, moving pieces of hair out of my face. He smirked the moment all color left my face, “I’m gonna throw up.” I said pushing past him and running to the bathroom, getting there just in time.

“And that’s why we don’t fuck when you’re drunk.” Nikki said with a chuckle as he walked into the bathroom to hold my hair back. “Your fault. You feed me all the alcohol.” I said as I wiped my lip, and he helped me to my feet, “Doll, I don’t do anything you don’t want me too.”

“Except heroin.” I mumbled, “I didn’t mean that.” I quickly tried apologizing, Nikki sighed, “Brush your teeth and get in bed.” He ordered as he left the bathroom.

As I’ve been touring, this has been my life for the past three months. So you wanna know what life on the road is really like? And what it’s like to hang around Mötley Crüe, well let me give you a rundown of my day.

Seven A.M: I wake up before everyone else to try and take a shower before Vince can use up all the hot water. He’s already awake and trying to get his stuff together, we reach for the bathroom door at the same time.

“Vanity common! You know I have to deep condition my hair! Or the humidity will fuck with it!” I rolled my eyes, “I get the first shower of the day before you guys dirty it up! That’s if you four even shower!!” I shouted back at him, “And at least I have the decency to leave hot water!” I shout at him before slamming the bathroom door, waking everyone else up.

Nine A.M: Get upset because the boys don’t keep food in the fridge of the tour bus.

I groaned again, looking into the fridge hoping something would appear. But to my dismay, there was still a moldy block of cheese, left over McDonald’s from god knows what town, and bottles on bottles of alcohol. It was a rule with Nikki: the fridge had to be stocked with Jack Daniels for him and Vodka for Mick.

“Can we please stop and get something to eat.” I begged Nikki, “Doll, we’re gonna be late.” I rolled my eyes, slamming the fridge door shut.

Nine Thirty A.M: Have my first fight of the day with Nikki.

“Well maybe if you planned things a little bit better we could actually eat!!” I shouted at him, he put down the notepad and glared at me. “Well maybe you could have gotten stuff yesterday before we left!!!” He shouted back, as the boys groaned.

“Maybe if you weren’t a control freak and wanting to leave at a certain time and having everyone waking us up and taking our shit I could’ve!!” I said walking closer to him as he was laying on the couch, “We are stopping at the next town so I can eat!! I can’t live off of booze and drugs like you guys!!” Nikki sighed angrily.

“Yeah man, I’m kinda hungry too.” Tommy quietly butted in, “And that is why T-Bone is my favorite.” Nikki groaned, “Maybe you should fucking sleep in his bed then!!” He shouted before storming off to the back bedroom.

“Such a drama queen.” Mick added on, taking the first sip of vodka of the day.

Ten Thirty A.M: I finally get something to eat, as Vince takes a local girl to the bathroom of the establishment so we can get half off. What a cheap bastard. Nikki says sorry for being an asshole, admits that he’s hungry too, and that he should of just listened to me.

“Stop taking food from my plate.” I said as I smacked Nikki’s hand when he tried to grab a French fry. “That looks good, though.” He shrugged, “Sixx, you literally got the same thing.” I said with a laugh, “I know...but yours look better.” He said before stealing a fry and popping it into his mouth.

Vince slid back into the booth, pushing his hair out of his face, “We got half off on the bill.” He said with a smirk as the boys laughed, I rolled my eyes and continued eating.

The girl gave Vince her number, thinking that he would actually call. I always wonder when these girls are gonna learn.

Mick and I are walking back to the bus so we can smoke, as I notice Nikki flirting with a girl. I see him look over to me, giving me a ‘hey look what I’m doing and I hope you get jealous’ smirk. I laugh it off as he always comes back to me.

One P.M: I’m rudely awaken from a nap as Mick and Nikki are strumming away at their instruments.

I groaned, knowing that I can’t even get mad because they’re working. But fuck man, shut the fuck up for once. We’re in a closed, confined space and everything is louder. I turn on my side, covering my head with the pillow as Vince begins to sing. It only gets worse as Tommy starts banging his drum sticks on the table.

Two Fifteen P.M: I get a phone call from mom.

“Pass the coke!” Vince yells, “Shut up!” I quietly yelled back, holding the end of the receiver, “Yeah mom, that’s amazing Sage is finally figuring out where she wants to go to college.”

Tommy then begins to mimic a woman’s moans, and when I mean a woman’s moans...I mean mine.

“‘Oh Nikki, don’t stop, don’t stop.’”My face turns red with embarrassment, I quickly turn around, smacking him against the chest.

“No, that’s just Tommy...yes he’s the drummer.” I say, trying to play it off. “Yeah, We should be in Dallas for my birth-“

“Hey, Mrs. Blackwood, it’s Nikki.” My eyes went wide as he snatched the phone from me. “give it back.” I told Nikki but he put his hand on my shoulder, trying to keep me away.

“Oh yeah, I’m doing good, thanks for asking. Do you want to know what your sweet, innocent little daughter did last night?” My eyes went wide, “Nikki!” I yelled, as he turned away from me, and I jumped on his back but he kept moving the phone from one hand to the other.

“So get this, she let us run a train on her.” He said with a laugh as I scoffed, “Um, ew!” I yelled in his ear, “Oh? What does that mean? Well let me tell you...it means-“ I grabbed the phone out of his hand finally, “Bye Mom! Love you!” I said then quickly hung up.

“You’re such a dick!” I yelled, as I tightened my grip around his neck, making him laugh more, before he flipped me over his back and put me on the couch

“Vanity, is your mom hot?” Vince asked, “Dude.” Tommy said as he laughed, “I mean, I know she’s a widow...and I know she’s probably lonely, I would just be doing a good deed for society.” I rolled my eyes, “You are not fucking my mom!” I shouted, “Fine, how about your sister, she just turned eighteen right?”

I quickly got up, “Easy..” Nikki said, quickly grabbing me, and pulling back to him, “No one is fucking Vanitys mom or her sister.”

Four P.M: arrive at the hotel. Nikki, Vince and Tommy immediately let everyone know Mötley Crüe has arrived.

The boys had their asses pressed against the glass wall of the elevator, banging on it and letting everyone in the lobby see, “Hahaha, fuckers.” Tommy said as he flipped everyone off. I rubbed my face as I let out a groan. “Join the fun!” Tommy said, nudging my arm, “I bet she won’t!” Vince added, “Bets a bet, doll.” Nikki says, a devilish smirk on his face.

I rolled my eyes. ‘Bets a bet, doll’ has gotten me into a lot of trouble last few months.

I quickly pulled up my shirt and pressed my tits against the glass as the boys began hooting and hollering, Nikki then starts getting mad that the guys saw my tits.

Five Thirty P.M: have my second fight with Nikki of the day.

“God! At least lock the fucking door if you’re gonna start shooting up already!” I yelled at him, slamming the bathroom door as I walked in on him sticking a needle into his arm.

I hate seeing him do it, and I hate it even more when he’s slumped over, basically drooling all over himself and I have to get him presentable.

“Maybe don’t fucking barge into my room!” I rolled my eyes when he followed me out, as he bumped into the wall.

“Your room?! It’s my room too since you refuse to let me have my own or let me share one with the others!!” I yelled back at him, annoyed that he’s always in my fucking face.

He doesn’t let me ever have my own hotel room! And he freaks out when I try to sleep in anyone else’s bed! Like the last concert back in Ohio, I was really drunk and was banging on the door because I left my keys in the room but he was in there freebasing and wouldn’t let me in, so I slept in Vince’s bed and that itself was a huge fight.

“Well fucking knock for once in your life!” He defended himself, “Whatever, get yourself cleaned up, we’re going to dinner.”

Six P.M: have dinner with all the producers and radio creeps.

I was siting in between Mick and Tommy, as Vince and Nikki sat across from me. Nikki was now mad that I wouldn’t sit by him. But why would I when he’s just gonna be talking out of his ass and talking about nonsense when he’s higher then a fucking kite right now?

“Vanity, did the guys really run a train on you last night?” I started choking on my wine, “Yeah, man we did.” Vince added with a laugh, until Nikki punched him in the chest, “Dude, only Sixx is allowed to touch her.” Tommy chimed in, telling the man who asked the question, “Its like a standing rule.” He continued, “T-bone, shut up.” I said, nudging his side. I continued to eat dinner, not bothering to look up at anyone, including Nikki because I could just feel the smirk he has as he knows how flustered I get when someone brings up the fact that I’m off limits to every guy, except for him.

Six Fifteen P.M: Nikki quickly takes me to the bathroom and proceeds to screw my brains out. All while the manager of the restaurant and Doc are banging on the bathroom door, but Nikki doesn’t care.

“Fuck off, man!!” Nikki yelled, continuing his thrusts into me, “Sixx, Vanity! let’s go!! They’re about to call the cops!!” Doc was then yelling at us, “Alright!!” Nikki yelled as I wrapped my arms around his shoulders placing soft kisses on his skin, “Fuck you Sixx! Let’s go!!”

I went limp in his arms as I felt my moment of bliss, “Fuuuck.” His moans were dragged out as he released himself into the condom. He pulled himself out, quickly giving me a soft peck on the lips before pulling his pants back up.

I adjusted my dress, checking for any make up that was smeared, “Ready?” Nikki asked, I nodded as he grabbed my hand, “What, man?” Nikki said, a smug smile on his face as we walked out. Both the manager and doc were fuming in anger.

Seven P.M: every line of coke is snorted and every bottle that is handed to me is not passed up, because that would just be rude if I said no.

“Here lets do some dust!” Tommy said shoving the silver tray into my hand, I quickly snorted up the line before passing it to Nikki. He finishes it off, while licking the residue off the tray.

Nikki then hands me a bottle of Jack, followed by a bottle of tequila. And he wonders why I’m so fucked up by the end of the night.

“After the show, we’re chugging and I have a bet for you tonight.” Tommy said, opening up a bottle of beer and handing it to me, “What’s the bet?” I asked him, “You’ll find out later.”

Eight P.M: Have my third fight with Nikki as I again find him after shooting up in his dressing room.

“Right before the show! C’mon!” I yelled as he was slumped over on the couch, “Wake up!” I shoved his shoulder, “I’m fine, I’m fine, it’s all good.” He said, not seeing the problem.

“You’re gonna be a mess out there.” I expressed my concerns as I fixed the now smeared black lines on his cheeks as he was continuing to nod off. “Nikki! Wake up!!” I yelled, “God damnit, alright!!” He shouted back, pushing me away from him as he stumbled up to his feet, tripping over the table that was in front of him and falling onto it.

“I’m sorry.” He grumbled as he got himself up. “Shit.” He said, picking up a tray that use to have coke on it before he spilled everything on the table.

He walked over to the mirror and looked at himself, his eyes slowly moving to the reflection of me, “I’ll get help.”

I rolled my eyes knowing that was a lie, “Okay.” I said, standing up from the couch and walking to him, “You don’t believe me?” He asked, I ignored it while picking up a comb and teasing his hair, “Vanity.” He replied, as I looked into his eyes. Dark, cold, and his pupils were blown. “I don’t think you want help.” I confessed as his eyebrows furrowed, continuing to fix his hair and trying to make the mess less messy but still keeping that famous look.

He didn’t say anything in return, he just continued to let me fix him up. “There.” I said, wiping my nail under the black line on his cheek, getting the last of the smear wiped off.

“Thank you.” He mumbled, I nodded before he took my hand in his and we walked out of his dressing room.

Nine P.M: Show starts, as Nikki always has a spot saved in the front row for me. I’m surrounded by drunk men who want to touch me and angry groupies who get upset when Nikki reaches down and touches my face.

“I said, leave her alone or I’m throwing you out.” A security guard approached a man that was trying to grab me, “Back off.” The guard warned him yet again. The guy who was harassing me was pulled back to his group of friends that were a row or two behind me.

I turned my attention back to stage as Nikki rolled around on the ground with his bass, “Sixx!!” I yelled for him over the blaring drum solo Tommy was currently in the middle of.

Nikki propped up on his knees as he crawled to me, trying to get as close as he could without falling off the stage. I stepped on the railing that divided the stage and the crowd, leaving only enough foot room for security. I leaned over, reaching my hand out for him, thinking he would give me the pick for the bass.

He licked the tip of my finger, before gently biting it. I bit my bottom lip as he brought my finger into his mouth and sucked on it. I laughed as I took it out of his mouth and caressed his jaw line. He gave a wink before jumping back on to his feet and beginning to play again

My shoulder was tugged on as I saw a fist flying my way, making me stumble down to the ground, “Dude! What the fuck!” I yelled out, clutching my nose as I tasted the blood dribbling into my mouth.

“I’m going back with him, not you!” A groupie was standing over me. I quickly got up, tackling her down to the disgusting floor, “Whoa, whoa, cat fight!” I heard Vince yell into the Mic as the stage light moved from them and onto me and her.

“Stupid whore! Get her out of here!” I yelled at the security guard who pulled me off, “Fuck!” I yelled out, bending over in pain as I held my face.

Eleven Thirty P.M: the shows over as I am sitting in the back getting checked on by a super hot paramedic.

“Doll, are you alright!” Nikki said, throwing his bass to a roadie before coming to me, “I’m fine, right, Diego?” I asked rather flirty as I touched his arm.

“She’s all good man, no breaks, just a simple bloody nose.” He smiled at me, not even bothering to look at Nikki, “Great, thanks man, you can go.” Nikki ordered, “Thanks for taking such good care of me.” I smiled at him as I bit my lip, continuing to check him out.

“Anytime love, hope I can see you again.” Diego responded, “Yeah, that’s not gonna happen. Thanks for helping.” Nikki snapped, grabbing my hand as he dragged me to his dressing room for our post-concert quickie.

Twelve Fifteen A.M: Find the nearest strip club for the boys. It doesn’t last long as Tommy throws up on one of the strippers as she dancing. It also doesn’t last long as I am not a fan of strip clubs so a quick trip to the bathroom with Nikki as a way to convince him to move the party back to the hotel works.

One A.M: Tommy and I have our annual chugging contest with a bet that ends all bets.

“Alright here’s what I got.” Tommy slurred his words as he wrapped his arm around my shoulder, “I-I I’m gonna tell you the bet.” I listened as I leaned into his chest, “Looser....has to get a tattoo of the winners choice.” Those words sobered me up. “Tommy, I don’t know man.” I said hesitantly as he put the beer in my hand.

“C’mon! The guy is sober as hell and he’s almost done tattooing Vince!” Tommy egged me on, giving me the puppy dog eyes making me give in.

“Ready, go!” Tommy said quickly, immediately getting a head start in cracking open his beer. I started choking on the beer, trying to force it all down. I’m fucked up and there is no way Tommy fucking Lee is making me-

“Done!!” He yelled, crushing the beer can and throwing it to the ground. “T-bone.” I said in defeat as he took the can, shaking it as he felt I still had half left, “Again! Let’s go again!” I shouted. He laughed, shaking his head “You never, ever once let me have a do over, so why start now? Hm?” He replied, lowering his head down to my height and smirking in my face.

“Nikki, baby, tell him I’m not getting a tattoo.” I turned my head to the side, watching his face leave the mountain of coke on the table. He wiped his nose, “Sorry Princess, that’s your guys thing.” He shrugged, as my lips parted in shock.

“So because I love you, I’ll let you get it where it’s always covered.” Tommy said, motioning for the tatted up guy to come over, “It’s going on your ass.” T-bone slurred, “Oh c’mon!” I groaned, “So what are we doing?” The man with the tattoo gun in his hand asked, as he turned it on so it would buzz.

Tommy whispered into his ear. The guy looked up at him snickering, “Alright, lay down on the couch sweetheart.” He said, patting down the couch before putting gloves on. I sighed, pulling up my dress and laying on my stomach as the guy began to tattoo me.

“What is she-“ Nikki stopped talking as he stood over me looking down at what was permanently being left on my body, “Is it bad!?” I asked, as he he cupped his hand to his mouth, trying to keep his laughter in. “It’s technically not a bad tattoo.” Nikki said, “Here. You’re gonna want this.” He added, shoving a bottle of Jack into my hand as I began to chug it, feeling it burn all the way to my soul.

Two Thirty A.M: I disappear from Nikki’s sight as I go and find a random guy to fuck, but in the middle of it, I start feeling bad because he isn’t Nikki.

“I’m gonna get us a friend.” I said, wiping my lip and getting up from sitting on my knees in front of him. His eyes light up as I give him a teasing smirk and leave the bathroom.

I drunkenly stumble over to Nikki and sit on his lap, “Where’d you go?” He asked, kissing my neck, “To the bathroom.” Nikki glared at me, not buying my lie for one second as he smelt the cologne that wasn’t his.

Two Forty Five A.M: We have our final fight of the night.

Nikki shoved me off his lap, “Go back and fuck whoever you found.” He growled, “Oh Sixx, relax for once, you aren’t my boyfriend.” He hates when I say that, especially when I’m fucked up on his drugs and alcohol.

“Alright, so you won’t mind if I fuck a bitch in the bed tonight, right?” I rolled my eyes, “You’re being over dramatic.” I slurred my words, shoving his shoulder, “It’s not like she’ll suck your dick as good as I can.” I retorted, “Can I watch?” Vince butted in, “No!” Nikki and I said in union.

“Go ahead, you’re right I’m not your boyfriend, go fuck whoever you want, but give me your key to the room cause you aren’t sleeping in my bed tonight.” Nikki also slurred his words, I scoffed. “God, go fucking shoot up in the bathroom and do us all a favor and shut the fuck up for once.”

Nikki sighed, knowing it was time for me to go to bed. “Lets go.” He said grabbing my hand, and pulling me up to my feet, as he begins to walk us back to the room

“Goodnight Vanity.” The other three said as Nikki wrapped his arm around my waist, helping me walk on my own two feet as the whole world was spinning around me.

Three fifteen A.M: Stumble in drunk, Nikki helps me get undressed, throw up before going to bed. Watch Nikki rummage through his bag, grabs a small cherry oak box and takes it to the bathroom. He doesn’t come back out for at least an hour.

Eight A.M: wake up to a call from Doc. Sit up and examine the room. It’s a fucking mess. Why is my bra on the lamp shade? And why the hell is my ass hurting?. Leave the bed as Nikki is hanging off of it snoring, he only snores if he shoots up before he goes to bed.

I went into the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. My hair was a mess, I had a bruise around my nose and my make up was smeared everywhere.

I strip out of my clothes and take a shower with the highest temperature I can withstand. Nikki joins me shortly after. I get out of the shower before him, “Did you see your tattoo?” My eyes went wide as I looked down my body. I turned around to see cursive in black ink surrounded by red, irritated skin on my left butt cheek:

‘Property of Mötley Crüe’

I crack up laughing, “No, No, is this real!?” I yelled, pulling back the shower curtain and showing him. Nikki smirked as his finger ran across it, “It’s very real, doll.”

Nine A.M: get on the tour bus after being able to eat breakfast for once, immediately start yelling at Tommy for making me get a tattoo. He just laughs and asks if I want to have a line, I say yes. The cocaine immediately gets rid of the hangover.

I wake up, try to sober up before the next town. I start partying right after eating, pass out and then do it all again the next day.

[howrry]

forbidden fruit: pt.3

a/n: the final installment of this series, HIGHLY requested! nice and simple but i just wanted to tie up the loose ends of this saga. back to writing random one-shots with no plot!!!!

w/c: 2.5k

warning: my first piece that’s smut-free whaaaat? it’s got some implied stuff and swearing tho lol. if you want smut go check out everything else on my masterlist hahaha

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If there's one thing Y/N knew would piss Harry (or any pain-in-the-ass guy for that matter) off, it was disappear.

See, she'd been given an opportunity to switch into another Calculus class, which took place during her homeroom class with Harry. She got out of seeing him in the morning and got college credit for that dreaded math class. Win-win.

Harry found this childish. Sure, he'd been a bit of a jackass pulling her around like that, but hiding from him? And even worse, shoving her new exclusive relationship with that fuckin' athlete in his face? Totally immature.

She twirled her hair in her pretty fingers as she flirted with Luke in the morning before class. He looked like such a try-hard leaning casually on the lockers, and Harry wanted to gag. Y/N would hold Luke's hand during lunch under the table and he would grin like a moron. Did they have to be so corny?

Plus any interaction Harry tried to have with her was thwarted in some way. Either she'd see him coming and dart out of his way to avoid talking to him, or he'd surprise her and someone else would grab her attention. He even swallowed his pride and texted her, to no response.

Then, H almost started to get worried when it seemed she wasn't even at school. He never saw her at her locker, nor in any of the halls, not even at lunch practically in Luke's lap. On the third day of Y/N's disappearance, Harry had to get answers. He charmed one of the class gossips at the beginning of the lunch period.

"Hey, do you know where Y/N is? I need to get trig answers off of her," he lied smoothly and the girl raised an eyebrow.

She pulled a red lollipop out of her mouth, clacking it against her teeth. "She's been eating lunch in Coach Thomas's classroom while he goes off campus to eat."

He nodded, muttered a thank you to the girl, and dove around her before she could acknowledge him. Harry darted past people littering the hallways to get to the coach's classroom and barged in, spooking Y/N eating inside.

"Christ, H, you scared the f--" she started, but of course was cut off by him.

"So, you've been skippin' out on lunch. What's up w'that?" he asked, stuffing his hands in his trouser pockets and taking steps towards the desk she sat in.

"Since when do I have to line my lunch plans up with yours?" she bit, followed by a huffed "freak".

He snorted. "You're avoiding me," he pointed out.

"Yeah, and why wouldn't I? You bother the fuck out of me every day for no reason! Have you ever thought about that? You just piss me off and I've never done anything to you!" Y/N was mad now, slamming her hands on the desk.

Harry stumbled over words at first. He never expected to put him in his place like that. "Y'just annoy me, okay!" he blurted. "Yeh know the answer to every question in class, your hair always looks perfect, everybody likes you, and yet you still get on my nerves!"

Y/N's lips parted and she sucked in air. "Oh my God!"

"What?!" Harry reared back, crossing his arms over his chest.

"You like me!" Y/N squealed. She hopped up from her chair and ran around the desk. "That's why you've been a total weirdo recently. All jealous and pulling me away from Luke. Trying to find to where I went during lunch." She poked a manicured finger into his chest. "You act like a dick to hide it, but you like me!" It was like he couldn't slap the smug look off her face.

He snorted, leaning back until the back of his thighs hit a desk. "You wish, princess. Just because I said everyone likes you doesn't mean I include myself in that demographic."

Y/N took one step back from him, eyeing his face up and down, trying to read deeper. He was made suddenly very uncomfortable but kept up a solid facade. She pursed her soft lips together and shrugged. "You seem quite sure of that." Harry was too frozen to respond. "If that's how you feel, then I guess this conversation is over." Y/N whirled around on the heel of her foot and packed her belongings. "See you... whenever I see you, Styles," she concluded on her way out.

And "whenever she saw him" turned out to be way sooner than she thought. She supposed his ego would take at least a few days to recover before he'd approach again.

It was after school that day, when she was getting into her car to go home. As she buckled herself in, her passenger door opening suddenly (which totally scared the hell out of her, by the way). Harry casually slid into the car and the scent of his cologne followed him. God, did he just put it on? she thought.

"Harry?!" she blurted. "What the fuck are you doing?"

He pulled the rearview mirror to face himself, checking his hair and not putting it back. "One of m'mates is throwing a party tonight, and you're gonna come." He kept eye contact during this entire statement with zero inflection.

"You think I wanna go to a party... with you?" she asked, completely baffled.

He popped his knuckles, almost self-consciously. "Tha's what I said. It'll be fun."

She clutched the steering wheel, in awe of his audacity. "I can't stand you. You're delusional if you think I'd go." Y/N grabbed the rear view mirror and adjusted it back, annoyed.

Harry reached over and playfully shoved her shoulder. "That's just it, pet. I'm completely delusional. My car'll be outside yours at 11:30." He grinned like a maniac before leaving her car and slamming the door behind him.

Well.

Don't think for a second that Y/N didn't hate herself when she found herself climbing into H's car that night, because she absolutely did. However, regardless of how she felt about herself, she loved a party.

Harry was delighted when she joined him in his car. Not so much at her presence, but at her bending to his will. Almost made his dick twitch a little in his pants.

Y/N got a little antsy when, as the drive progressed, she realized this party was near Luke's neighborhood. She considered for a moment that this was a trick pulled by Harry, but when he whipped into a bumping house's driveway a few blocks away from Luke, she relaxed. She didn't even have to worry about Luke potentially being here; he'd never party with any of Harry's people.

Once arriving after a painfully quiet car ride, Harry lost Y/N almost immediately. He swears he had her once he opened the front door, but as soon as she ducked inside, she was nowhere to be found. Sure, there were a lot of people in attendance, but it was ridiculous trying to find her.

Meanwhile, Y/N had one thing on her agenda: getting fucked up. She pulled out all her stops-- asking the basketball guys for hits of their Juuls, slapping the bags that the preps held, partnering with any and everyone in beer pong and taking more drinks than the opposing team landed one.

It wasn't until she was on her winning streak at the table until H finally found her again. His jaw immediately clenched when his eyes landed on her partner. The guy was tall and broad, and the two of them seemed to have great chemistry. In any other circumstance, he'd grab her and pull her into the nearest locked room, but the game was a perfect way for Y/N to have fun without Harry making a scene.

Finally, they stopped doing so well, and H at first thought this was gonna be a good thing. If they lost, they'd have to be replaced with another couple and the confusion of the team-switching would be a great time to grab her.

But he forgot one key problem-- losing meant drinking. And for the remaining 7 cups the other team scored, Y/N and the mystery beer pong player invented new toasts to their losses. By the last cup being made, the two of them interlocked their arms and drank like that. No one had been watching since everyone was celebrating the winning team on their shot, except for Harry, of course.

His original plan was back on track, and he slithered through the party-goers to Y/N. He reached out for her arm, and when she realized who was grabbing at her, her face brightened a little. Drunk, clearly.

"Come with me, please," he asked, trying to keep his tone as innocent as possible.

"Hey, what's going on here?" the mystery beer pong partner interjected, noticing Harry trying to steal her. "I thought we could try to play agai--"

"It's urgent, actually," he hissed, patience wearing thin. He gave up on being innocuous and lightly tugged Y/N his direction towards the stairs.

"It's fiiiine!" Y/N chirped behind her, leaving her parter confused.

Harry guided her upstairs and pushed the first door he found open, and it was empty. When they were both inside he lazily swung it shut and leaned against the wall.

"Harry, you can't keep doing this!"

"Doing what?" he quipped. "I'm just taking you out of a social setting while you're drunk so you don't do anything stupid."

She scoffed. "Is that your new tactic? Acting like you want what's best for me. You hate me, but at the same time you like me. You're the psycho here."

"At least I know what I want," he purred, peering down at her.

Y/N's glassy eyes widened. "Oh no," she said, backing up a bit. "No no no no no. I'm a loyal girlfriend," she stated indignantly.

He snorted. "Yeah, loyal girlfriends hang all over any lad who gives them attention at a party."

She crossed her arms, smirking a little. "There's that jealousy again. I was just having a good time on my own at a party you invited me to. I didn't say I'd be your date."

Harry stared at her for a good half-minute. His eyes pored over her whole face, and she almost got a bit insecure but held her composition. He sucked in air sharply through his nose. "Tell me you really like Luke. Tell me you're not just acting like this to spite me."

Her jaw dropped open to answer him, but nothing came out. It frustrated her-- she wanted to say those things and she knew it would get rid of him once and for all... but they stopped right at her tongue.

Harry's gaze did not weaken. "Silence isn't an answer, darling," he growled.

Time to play another card. "Maybe Luke is just really convenient, but I still don't want you," she spat at him. Y/N pushed past him and swung open the door, to find none other than her ever-so-convenient boyfriend, Luke. And by the look of his face, he'd heard it all.

"Luke!" she blurted, totally in shock. "What are-- I was, uh-- what're you doing here?"

"You played beer pong with my friend Ashton, and when you disappeared upstairs with some guy, he called me," he explained, voice low. "So, convenient, huh?"

Y/N immediately clambered for something to say to explain herself, not having time to get angry with Harry snickering behind her. "Luke, you don't understand, he's been a huge pain in the ass and won't leave me alone. I didn't mean what I said-- it's the context."

Luke's angry eyes flickered from her to the shrugging guy in the room. "Yeah, I think I get the context. You've been fucking my girlfriend."

"Actually, for most of it, she wasn't your girlfriend, but--" Harry started, but a harsh glare from Y/N shut him up.

Luke exhaled through his nose. "I expected this shit from Styles, but I never thought you were a slut," he seethed, sending a sharp pain through her stomach.

"Now fucking watch it," Harry warned, stepping up behind her. "Go write a fuckin' song about it, but have some goddamn dignity."

Luke's jaw dropped to retaliate, but upon making eye contact with H's fiery eyes, he stormed off in a huff. She turned back to Harry with tears in her eyes. He fully expected her to scream at him, push at him, and run away, but she did the one thing he never expected her to do. She lunged forward, dug her head in his chest, and sobbed quietly.

He truly had no idea what to do. He wrapped his arms around her and let her cry it out, rubbing her back and stroking her soft hair until she finally stopped. When she pulled back, her eyes were bloodshot and her cheeks were pink.

"C-can you take me home?" she whispered, and he nodded. He even took off his own jacket to give to her, and helped her conspicuously leave the party.

When he rolled up to her house, she took off her seatbelt almost immediately. "Walk me inside," she demanded softly.

"What about your parents--"

"Out of town," was all she replied, and left the car before he even turned the car off. So much for walking her in.

Y/N left her front door open behind her as Harry scrambled to shut off his car and follow her inside. She went straight to the couch in her living room and bundled herself up in a fleece throw.

Harry stepped into the living room, boots creaking on the wooden floor. "Y/N... I'm sorry about Lu--"

"Don't," she snapped, breathing heavily. "You're not sorry. That couldn't have been a better outcome for you."

"Are y'kidding?" he blurted. "I never meant to hurt you, Y/N. I tried to get you to stop dating a guy you and I both know you didn't care about. And don't give me any shit about you really being into him-- we all heard what you said back at the party."

She went quiet. Her eyes trailed along his torso as he got closer and plopped down on the couch a few feet from her. Finally, three soft words slipped from her mouth and Harry was almost positive he'd imagined them. "I want you."

"Come again?" he perked up a little.

"I want you," she said again, stronger this time. "I want you, and I want you to not make me think that's a mistake. Tell me these games are over, or get the fuck out of my life forever."

He couldn't believe his ears. Harry's arms reached out for her and pulled her onto his lap. "Pet, I want you so much. I thought the only way I could talk to you was to get on your nerves but I'm so sorry."

Y/N smirked, tossing her arms around his neck. "Are you messing with me? Is this a really extended, fucked-up prank?"

He pressed his lips against her jaw gently. "I'll never act like that again, darling."

Y/N giggled and leaned down to take a soft bite out of Harry's neck. As he picked her up and carried her to her room, she was finally glad to get a true taste of her once-forbidden fruit.

[sleeptillsober]

Love Me Hate Me

Pairing: Bambam x Reader (female) 

Word Count: 1,834 words

Genre: Fluff, Drama, Slight angst 

Summary: working as GOT7's assistant is pretty fun, but someone hates you for no reason. It's Bambam. He hates you since day one.. And now you're in Jeju, going on a trip with GOT7 members. 

Reminder: (y/n) Your name

"hey watch your step. Can't you see? you stepped on my bag" someone said from the back

"I'm so sorry." Gosh, I literally 'STEPPED' on Bambam LV bag.

First week working here, as GOT7's assistant IS SO DAMN HARD. Idk why, they were all nice person, well, except Bambam. He hates me since day one. yes, day one. He asked me to buy tea 3 times just because it doesn't fit his f-ing tastebuds.

"Ya! stop scolding her" Jackson screamed. He's literally the nicest person on earth. He's the nicest person since day one. We became closer and closer each day that I consider him like my own older brother.

"yea whatever" Bambam rolling his eyes getting annoyed by Jackson and leave the room.

"Oh btw y/n, tomorrow we're going to Jeju for a week. are you going?" Jaebum suddenly asked

"what? I didn't know you guys are going on a vacation for a week?" No one told me tho.

"OH! sorry I forgot to tell you y/n but you have to go with them" GOT7's manager said

Damn it. I don't want to go on a vacation with them. well, actually I'm okay with it but not with BAMBAM. that freaking boy. Oh God help me. I might slap him for once

"well! since y/n is joining our trip to Jeju, I'm inviting you to our group chat" said Jackson.

"Okay" I said taking out my phone and accepting the invitation.

"Y/N'S JOINING?" Bambam screamed from outside.

"of course? She's our assistant Bambam." Jinyoung answered.

"I thought it's going to be a fun trip? well, I guess I have high expectation. Reality sucks" Bambam said annoyed

Why he hates me so much. It's not like I KILLED his mother or something. Well, we may never know.

"I don't even know I'm going DUH" I can't hold it anymore. I'm so mad. It's not that I hate him too. but more of 'why' and 'what' did I do wrong

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and here I am, with them in a very big Villa. They each get one room. It has one big swimming pool outside and a BBQ thingy. My room is downstairs because I have to be sure no one gets into the building. no cameras allowed.

---

this 3 days Bambam oddly became nice. Not that nice, but he didn't scold me anymore.

"y/n we're going to have dinner now. come out from your room and join us" Bambam said outside my door

"oh right. okay! I'll be right there"

"there you are. come eat with us" Jackson said "sorry I fell asleep" I said. Bambam looked at me, but when I look back he looks away. that's strange

We spend an hour having dinner and they asked me to join the game. the most common game that probably everyone likes and hates at the same time, Truth or dare.

Me and Jaebum prepares for the place and the other's preparing for snacks and drinks.

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"Okay it's y/n's turn!" Youngjae said, "Who's your first bias in got7?"

"I used to like Bambam, but turns out Jaebum Oppa is my bias haha"

"I don't want you to be my fan though" Bam rolled his eyes.

"Well, thanks y/n," Jaebum said

"now it's Bambam's turn," Yugyeom said, "Why do you hate y/n so much?"

Bambam glared at him and said "I don't know I just hate her. She's ugly and annoying"

I'm so mad at him. I mean okay if I'm ugly and annoying at least don't say that to my face? or do you have to be that mean? They all notice the tense atmosphere so they decided that we should all go to sleep.

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//1.10 a.m.//

I can't sleep. I'm so mad at Bambam. I thought him being nice is a good thing and that he finally wants to be my friend. at least a friend. You know, from the first day I work with them, I have mixed feelings with Bambam, He's so cool and he's totally my type, but he's so cold that I can't even talk to him. I can talk to the other boys except for him. And plus, he hates me. so, I'll change my crush :D

I got out of the room, make coffee and sit in front of the swimming pool. I like being alone at night, just looking at the sky and think about anything that comes to my mind. I kinda miss my hometown. Homesick sucks, I miss my parents so much but I have to stay here until I graduated because hey, I have no money to go back.

rrrrr, My phone's ringing "ah ma! yeah I'm in Jeju, I'll send you pics! I had lots of fun here, everybody's nice to me! I ate already, have you? Why I don't sleep?" tears starts to welled up "I miss you and pa" swept my tears and take a deep breath "I'll be fine! ma I have to sleep, make sure you guys eat well, don't forget to take the vitamin that I sent you! it's expensive remember hahaha"

"bye ma! love from Jeju to Beijing!" I said

It became quiet again. Gosh, I miss home so much.

"You know, I used to miss my home too" Someone suddenly talks

I turn my head and see Bambam standing while holding coffee. He puts his coffee beside me and sits

"Why are you here?" Bambam asked.

"can't sleep. How long have you been here?" I asked, not interested in the conversation but actually, my heart's going to burst any second from now.

"Since you start your call. maybe" He said

I rolled my eye "there's no maybe. You saw and hear everything" I sip my coffee

"kind of"

"I'm going in," I said, maybe he'll think I'm mad while actually, my poor heart will stop if I stay here for long.

He grabs my hand "Don't. Sit here" He puts me beside him

MY. HEART. "why? I didn't know you want to sit with ugly and annoying people"

He let go of my hand and said "Sorry"

I don't know what to say. This takes too much energy. "it's okay. I'm joking. hehe" I said. that's probably the most awkward laugh ever.

"No. I'm really sorry I said that y/n" He looks at me

"umm, okay" I nod and look at my coffee. I don't have that braveness to see him

He began to tell me the story of when he misses his mom so much. We spend the night talking, turns out that we do have lots of thing in common.

We spend the rest of the week playing games, and yes, every night, I get a chance to talk to Bambam. Well, both of us didn't get enough sleep this week but for me, it's all worth it. I like him.

---

Last day in Jeju, tomorrow we'll go straight to the airport.

//11 p.m.//

we were having fun drinking and playing truth or dare, and now it's bam's turn

"Bambam truth or dare?" Jackson asked

"truth" He answered,

"who were you with every night talking?" Jackson smirks

Bambam choked and said "no one."

the rest of the members looked at each other but they didn't say anything.

okay moving on, "y/n it's your turn. truth or dare?"

"truth"

"Do you like someone here?" Jinyoung asked

"umm" I won't tell the truth. Why would I?!?! what if Bambam doesn't like me back?

"is it Bambam?" Yugyeom asked while the rest of the members looked at each other and laugh

"I think she liked Bambam!" Jackson says.

I choked but before I say-

"Even if she likes me, I won't like her back. Never." Bambam suddenly answered

My heart stopped. all of the members stop laughing and looked at me.

"I'll go to my bedroom first, I need to get my phone," I said, smiling and run to my room. I can't hold my tears. I thought we were close already? I'm okay if he didn't have feelings for me. but can he not be that mean. Like YES, I KNOW IM UGLY but I don't deserve to be treated like that. I didn't get enough sleep just to talk to you this few days and yet he still hates me. I'm so done with him

I cried and fell asleep. I totally forgot to tell the others that I'm going to sleep and not going to continue the game.

//01.00 a.m.//

I hear a knock on my door. I just realized that I fell asleep. I thought it's Jackson so I quickly open the door "Jackson Oppa! I'm so-"

It's Bambam. He looked at me with a sad face. I immediately closed the door, but before I can close he holds the door, "y/n look, I'm so sorry.. I didn't mean that at all"

"yea it's okay I thought you're Jackson." I really don't want to see his face.

"y/n please come to the swimming pool in 10 minutes, I have to tell you something. I'll make the coffee" He said and he let go of the door.

---

"so what do you want to talk about?" I asked

"there you are" He smiled

Omg his smiles. I can't control my face "just be quick"

"Right, okay" He looks at me and "y/n actually I don't hate you. I don't know why but I can't control my mind when I see you. It turns out that I'm being mean. I just don't know what to do to you when there are other members around."

"it's okay. I get it"

"y/n I'm so sorry," He said

"It's fine, it's not that you like m-" I said breaking the ice.

"I like you y/n," He said looking at me

I stopped, I'm pretty sure he can hear my heartbeat. My face turns bright red, thank God It's 1 am

"wh.. what?" I asked

"I like you. since day one. I can't control my head when I'm with you. That's why every time we're together with the rest of the boys I'm always mean to you, scolding you and stuff. And I thought you liked Jackson Hyung, So I'm annoyed every time you're together. I'm really sorry"

"Oh. um. oh" I don't know what to say...

"umm y/n"

"yes?"

"When we play truth or dare, is it true that you like me?" He asked. His voice is so small that I can tell that he's nervous too

"well apparently, yes. But you said that you'll never like-" right before I finish my word, He kissed me.

"look, y/n. I'm really sorry but I'll promise you I won't be mean to you again. I'm really sorry"

I hugged him and he hugs me back. "Bam it's okay if you're not ready to tell the rest of the boys, we can keep this a secret, just until you're ready"

"thank you y/n. I love you so much." He whispers and kissed my forehead.

"I love you too"

[naizamayg]

forty-eight letters to the moon

Some say if you live in outer space you don’t grow old as fast as people do on earth. That’s why I want to send these letters to the moon, so these words, these feelings and these memories would hopefully last longer than our time on earth. Dear Joshua, thank you for being the most responsible/most concerned student in our class. We sometimes tease you about it but we actually really admire that about you. Not everyone can speak up for what’s right, not everyone is as brave as you. Dear Cj, you’ve changed a lot but I’m not saying it in a negative way. We all change and that’s just normal. You changed in some negative ways but in positive ways also. You still get mad easily (to others) but atleast you don’t get mad at me that easily now hahaha, but that’s who you are. That made you the CJ in our room. Hope to see that scowl on your face gone the next time we see each other in years time. I hope you find your peace within. Dear Kenneth, You’re probably one of the most creative person i’ve met. You can make anything from scrap into art. You make wonderful stories and films that is not just a classroom pride but a school wide pride. You make a lot of us laugh in a daily basis, though sometimes you go overboard but I’m cool with it since I’m not easily offended but remember, it might affect others. I don’t know anything about you besides this joke-generating-out-of-the-box-minded person you are. Someday I wish to know about who you really are because ik everyone is more than what they show in class. Dear Ronnie, The ever late secretary hahaha just kidding. You have an incredible way to express words you read and I was amazed by our readers’ theatre performance on how you stole the spotlight. You should try and apply as a radio broadcaster in your school next year and join orations or declamations. Don’t be afraid of the thought of losing or no one supporting you. I would always be there somewhere in the crowd cheering for you. Dear Laurence, You have a reputation of having cold heart in our room. IDK if this is just a front or this is just really you but sometimes in rare occasions I can feel that your heart warms up. That sometimes you laugh too hard, smile too wide and give too much and I notice it and I think that’s the better version of Laurence that everyone might not see but I see it and I hope you try and show that to other people more often. Dear Aaron, I’m not gonna live happily if I dont get this out of my chest, Aaron sorry. Talking about you behind your back, not believing some words you say and just being rude to you. You probably noticed by now, you’re a smart observer anyway but I also want to say that some of us think you’re sometimes too arrogant they’re not wrong tho but sometimes you are someone who is nice to talk to especially relating to anime we have some bad sides in us and you can’t help that people would think and talk about your bad sides and ik it sounds ugly but it’s the truth again I’m sorry if I ever hurt you in some way bc ik you have never hurt me. Dear Freidrich, The only thing that pops up in my head is LASHES. I lowkey wanna steal them lol. Anyway, you’re a really good and smart person I still can’t believe you perfected the individual quiz bee during high school day. Isa kang tunay na #nofear. Dear Karlos, I remember you as the quiet smart boy in the class back in elementary and you still are. I hope you speak up sometimes bc ik you have a lot of ideas and stories to tell but maybe I’m just not there in times you do tell them. You’re sometimes made fun of in your group of friends and not gonna lie, I sometimes laugh with them but idk if you get hurt when they do or not but if you do I’m sorry and I hope you tell them when they say too much and that you feel suffocated if they do that. Dear Daryll, You are such a comfortable person to be with that’s probably bc you’re a Sagittarius. You always smile when people get mad at you and I find that very funny yet admirable how can you be so strong to not even lose your smile when people downgrade you. I hope to see that smile again it’s such a refreshing image and I hope you never let anyone make you falter that smile. Dear Harvey, I wrote this after the mapeh periodic test and after knowing my results in research and idk why in those moments you were there??? Idk but yeah I didn’t review anything about mapeh but you helped me and when I was upset (even tho i was smiling shonga ko) bc of my grade in research you were brave enough to tell me you have a lower grade than me idk if it was to comfort me but thank you. Dear Emil, you are probably the most “friendly” person I have met but I’m not bothered of how touchy you get bc I honestly don’t care hahahaha. But it just shows that you’re a comfortable, nice companion. Dear Ryan, I honestly don’t know what to write to feel or to say or what kind of friendship we have. We fight about the most nonsensical things but also don’t hate each other. Sorry if sometimes I joke too much to the point (if ever) that i hurt you. It’s not intentional I promise. It’s just probably bc we have a clashing immature personalities. Dear Jonard, I only knew you for a year but I felt really close to you we both like haikyuu and volleyball so ig it wasn’t hard to approach you and you being my table mate was a plus. I miss being your table mate btw but it’s your decision to sit wherever you want hahaha. Dear johnroe, keep writing and writing you’re amazing really you’ve proven that writing is a form of art and I admire that just do what you love and surround yourself with positivity. Dear felmar, you are so talented, smart and kind you have a big heart and an open mind and thank you for being you. We need more people like you in the class to avoid fights and misunderstandings you’re really the Mr. President of the anti-bullying club Dear Whesley, you have a short temper probably shorter than me (get it?) And a selfish attitude (sometimes) but even tho you’re not the kindest person, I don’t think you deserve to be disrespected to the point of not cheking your papers on tests but I hope you don’t plot revenges. It would only grow hatred on you. Try to be nicer and thank you for teaching me how to play chess hahaha. Dear Timi, sometimes you’re too impractical and it ruins you but you have a good heart who desires to help others and I think that’s enough thank you for taking care of us Mr. President. Dear Yran, I was once a crybaby (still think I am even tho I rarely cry) but I know how wonderful it feels after crying after letting it all out and I just want to say just be a cry baby all you want. Don’t listen to what other people tell you or to what they will think about you. Let yourself cry let yourself feel, let yourself be human. Dear Darylle, you are 1/3 of a whole I admire your friendship with Precious and Karen and I seriously hope you guys won’t drift apart because in my perspective you guys are genuinely happy together. Dear Kryssha, I hope to be with you in a BTS concert someday hahaha. You’ll met them soon and you’re a really good dancer. You should try and show it more and don’t be shy. Dear Judee, you’re quite confusing but I like being confused anyway. Hehe idk you have this feel of weirdness that I actually think it’s normal bc you’re Judee. Though you’re sometimes shallow, I know you have a very deep mind and have great ideas. Dear Janae, I dont know how it ended and how we pretend it never happened but all I know is that thank you and sorry because I couldn’t be there when I know you would’ve been for me. Dear Buena, I’m still thankful for your blog and will always am it’s nice to know how other people see me hahaha. I want to hear you sing more and have more confidence. You’re unique in your own way. I just realized (bc of laurence’s blog) that you really have the same expression to everything hahaha. Dear Angelica, You’re so modest and nice i don’t know a lot about you but i hope you keep your smile always and penge naman height:(( Dear Karen, you are a 1/3 of a whole and a beautiful morena. Embrace your beauty and always keep your head up. Stay as a happy person with precious and darylle. Dear Julia, thank you for teaching me how to dance bboom bboom hahaha. You’re also a great dancer and have confidence also keep smiling with your cute pangil. Dear angelica, an innocent soul with a contagious laugh I don’t know your story. I don’t know your deepest secrets but i know you have them bc I was once you I still am someone waiting for life’s trick to break me down to pieces. Dear salve, look at the stars tonight, breathe in, breathe out. Watch some kdramas. Dream about something, anything. Imagine a life where happiness is limitless. You are so strong for holding on for this long and I want you to be stronger. I need you to be stronger, because one day you’ll look at the stars again, you’ll breathe in and breathe out again, you’ll watch some kdramas again and dream about something, anything again, but you won’t imagine a life where happiness is limitless because you will live it. Dear christelle, i still remember when we used to be bffs and I was really happy being your friend back then but idk what happened we just ended things but ik we ended it in a good terms sometimes being with someone for too long is tiring and I’m sorry if I didn’t hold your hand longer. I’ll always remember you and Kim as my first bffs B! F! F! Hahaha I hope you still remember this chant we had. Dear Kristel, sorry if sometimes I’m too rude or if you feel I neglect you. I don’t hate you , I actually like you but whenever you approach me, I would either be in a bad mood or hungry hahahaha, so I kinda get annoyed at times but you still smile at me whenever I do and I feel really bad. I hope you reach your dreams of being a fashion designer and your love life would be prosperous (oyiiiiiii~~~) Dear jeanelle, you are probably the nicest person i’ve met. I know you have struggles and problems of your own but you always kept quiet about it so you won’t worry anyone but I hope you do tell about them because it’s bad to bottle it all inside. Thank you for being my seat (cheat) mate hahaha and sorry if I ever gave you a wrong answer in a test hahaha. Dear editha, a kind and strong heart you have. I like how you stand up for yourself and how you stand up for others thank you for being a reason for me to be stronger. I really want to have a heart like yours. Micah, I think you’re more chill than me. You go to school just when you feel like it but still have high grades isa kang #nofear pt.2 hahaha I hope you hold on salve’s hand a little bit longer she needs you and if you ever need someone i’ll always offer my hand. Nina, i know how it feels when you think you’re worth less than someone just because of your weight but I never thought that you were any less than anyone then and now. I admire your determination to lose weight but you’re beautiful in any form though your words come of harsh ik you just want the best for them but please keep in mind that karissa may have this reputation of being a strong kalog girl she’s also so fragile. Karissa, hey little sunshine. Hold up, okay? I know no one knows and that no one blinks an eye just because you aren’t showing it or you aren’t suffering as much to the pint of falling to this endless pit but it’s not like that you don’t have to be collapsing for people to notice and to give a hand. They should’ve come closer to hear what you’re saying not for you to repeat and change what you said. Kath, I want you to be kath. I want you to not be compared to your brother. I know how hard it is to have a big brother. Parents will always think of them first and tbh who cares about what they think do things for yourself okay and loosen up a bit and smile more. Shany, you’re so hung up with this guy which I always tell you, he’s not good for you but maybe it’s your happiness waiting for him for so long to chat you back. That maybe he is your happiness so I’m sorry for being insensitive that time I just want to say to think of yourself first and to choose what would make you happier we’re still young there’s still so many faces to meet, hearts to connect and smiles to smile with. Kezia, i know how you want to change the way you look but I honestly think you look fine. I respect how you think about yourself but I just want you to know that whatever you look like it’s the best version of you. Ayra, you have this aura around you that makes me feel at ease. I just know that whatever I say you wouldn’t judge me and you know my kind of humor so I’m happy joking around with you. Thank you for everything. Precious, you are a 1/3 of a whole I find it so funny how you darylle and karen bicker hahaha. I hope you guys always stay together and I hope you will always have that smile in your face. Jemarie, I really like how you draw. You’re an amazing artist tho I’m sad that you wouldn’t pursue it in the future, being a doctor who saves lives is good too. Thank you for all the answers you shared hahaha Katreena, you are such a kind innocent soul that whenever I see you down or upset it makes me sad too. Thank you for opening up to me and telling me your problems that time. Thank you for trusting me enough to ask me what decision you would make and that is to be happy. I hope you’re finally happy and will always be. Joanna, thank you for making me look tall hahaha. Just kidding you’re so cute whenever you dress up and i find your fashion sense really good. Andrew, I have been your classmate for so long to know your capabilities. It is very clear that you are smart person and you never smile at pictures to make it seem like you’re not emotional at all. You’re the one who is most affected about our moving up and I know you are concerned about your weight too and it’s completely okay to feel these things. No one will judge you, but remember to still take care of yourself. Saka wag mo nang i-break si ABCD, kawawa naman. Dear sam, thank you really I’m so thankful for you. You were such a huge twist of fate for me. When I first sat beside you I thought you hated me because i got promoted. But then when you talked to me we just suddenly clicked and was transported to a world where only the two of us exist. You once told me I was a person who doesn’t stay and I know that because i never had a strong grip on anything and I’m a very clueless, insensitive, shallow-hearted person yet you’re the only one who saw it (and maybe abcd too) and thank you for knowing who the real me is. Sorry because i won’t stay and that it might look like i’ll just forget about it but I won’t, I promise so don’t be surprised when one day at 3 am I text/chat you about random things or about my dream last night. Dear grace, I’m sorry at times that I “bully” you just for a laugh, it seems as though you are unaffected which sometimes makes me have the urge to make fun of you sometimes. But you are probably one of the most self-conscious people I know, and whenever you are told that what you’re doing is negative, you stop doing the thing entirely. But thank you for still understanding me and supporting me and accompanying me when the Hi-Y club advisers asks me to go to the library. Sorry if you always do or give things to me but I would sometimes not reciprocate it. Sorry for being the receiving end. I’m so thankful to you. You’re a part of who I am right now and who I will be. I hope someday we’ll be both able to sleep with peace, knowing our moms are sleeping and will wake up tomorrow and if things wont go in our way, I’ll always be there okay? and I hope you are too because I would really need you if it does happen. ps. One day, i’ll pay you back for all my utangs, kahit nasa ULST na ako at may chance akong tumakas. Dear Abcd, Thank you for everything. You will always be the first one i’ll talk to whenever I find something funny. You’ve influenced me so much. I became matured, more responsible and idk if you know this but I stopped crying because of you. I’m not saying it in a negative way hahaha what I mean is you made me stronger and unconsciously gave me a rope to help me climb. You didn’t gave me your hand because you wanted me to do it myself, because that’s the most important thing in everything. Always do things yourself for yourself. You taught me this so now that you’re the one who is drowning I honestly don’t know what to do. I’m always this clueless whenever it’s not about me. But please promise me, please promise yourself that you’ll swim as hard as the currents hit you and you’ll someday meet me in the shore. We all don’t know what we want or what to do don’t pressure yourself. We’re all as confused as you. Let’s all be lost while we are young. ps. Be happy :) Dear Naiza, I hope you would stop being so difficult and stop being so half hearted to everything. To studies, to your friends, to your family and to yourself. You don’t like to admit it but you’re so selfish and sometimes insensitive. You only show this version of you that would look great. The version of you who is always happy, who doesn’t have any problems. You even cover up your problems by saying positive things about your life. You’re the biggest liar I know. I wish you would also stop getting annoyed easily and being too dependent. Stop acting like you care when you honestly don’t, but you know you have to care because you have to be a good person right? but you’re not. It’s really scary how different you are from school, at home, at the internet or at your bed during 3 am. At school you’re this out going person, at home you’re this ignorant person who doesn’t know what her family feels, at the internet you’re so bitchy and rude, at 3 am you’re the most vulnerable person anyone can be. Someday I hope you find who you really are because i’m done with you lying.

[jimins-crooked-tooth]

I’m bored so I decided to just fill all of these out lol

Kpop asks!

I haven’t seen any Kpop ‘reblog and ask me’s in a long while, so I made a list- Here’s 33 Kpop asks!

1. Your first Kpop MV?

Just Right by GOT7 (thanks Alex)

2. Your favorite song of [GOT7]?

Wow this one is hard ummm probably FISH or Good Tonight.  Those are my fucking JAMS.

3. How long have you been into Kpop?

Only a couple months honestly.  I feel like I’ve been in this fandom forever, but I haven’t hahaha

4. The era you joined the fandom for [GOT7]?

Never Ever

5. The first five Kpop songs that come to your mind?

Never Ever, If You Do, A, Girls Girls Girls, Fly (Basically they’re M/Vs because those are the songs I listened to first lol)

6. Your favorite MV of [Got7]?

Hmmmmm probably Confession Song or If You Do 

7. Your favorite K-Drama?

W!!!!!!!! Oh my god it was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good I wanna rewatch it like 1,000 times! I’m watching Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo and Cheese in the Trap rn tho.

8. Your favorite idol show (ASC, Star Show, etc.)

I don’t really watch any.

9. Your top five favorite groups?

Since I started liking KPOP, I’ve really only listened to a few bands because I’ve mainly just been listening to GOT7, but I like GOT7 (obvi), Blackpink, and EXO.

10. Favorite boy group?

GOT7

11. Favorite girl group?

Blackpink

12. Favorite boy group song(s)?

Omg how am I supposed to narrow this down??? From EXO, I REALLY like What Is Love. But from GOT7, my favorites are If You Do, FISH, Put ‘Em Up, Sign, U Got Me, Follow Me, Mayday and Good Tonight.

13. Favorite girl group song(s)?

All of Blackpink’s songs tbh, but my fav is Playing With Fire 

14. Favorite solo artist?

I recently started liking Ailee

15. Favorite solo song from [Youngjae]?

I fucking love Youngjae’s song Trauma. It wrecks my soul to a whole new level.

16. Favorite solo song?

Trauma

17. Have you ever been to a K-event?

Nope

18. Your favorite song on [Got Love]?

Got Love is my favorite album so I just chose this one, but Good Tonight is probably my all-time favorite song of theirs, so defo, that one.

19. Your first bias of [GOT7]/your bias now?

Jackson was my first bias, but now Jinyoung AND Jackson are my biases.

20. Your ultimate bias?

Jackson obvi

21. Your bias of pBlackpink]?

Lisa omg I just love rappers

22. Your bias wrecker of [GOT7]?

Really, it just changes every day, but mainly Mark.

23. Your favorite era of [GOT7]?

Mad or Never Ever prolly.

24. Your favorite hair color on [Jackson]?

Fuck dude I’m such a slut for blond Jackson.  But I also love his hair rn.

25. The first song you heard of [GOT7]?

Just Right

26. Your bias list of [Got7]?

1) Jackson/Jinyoung

2) Mark

3) Youngjae/BamBam

4) Yugyeom

5) Jaebum

27. Your favorite Vlive of [Blackpink]?

I love the recent one of Rose and Lisa where the wind kept messing up Lisa’s bangs and she asked Rose if they could walk backwards so that she wouldn’t have to keep fixing her hair lmao

28. Your favorite lyrics from [Blackpink]?

“Kiss him, should I diss him, I don’t know, but I miss him”

“This is past addiction, this love is crack, The color of my heart is black”

29. Your favorite lyrics from a [GOT7] song?

“Save me, I can’t see in front of me I won’t let you go, I can’t anymore I’m in danger, I’m shouting Mayday Please be the last missing piece of the puzzle Save me, I am sinking into you Take me out, I can’t breathe I’m in danger I’m shouting Mayday Please be The last missing piece of the puzzle MAYDAY”

30. Your favorite iconic moment(s) from [GOT7]?

Omg I love the Hidden Camera episode of Real GOT7. EVERYONE was iconic in that.

31. Your favorite iconic moment(s) from [Jackson]?

When he hung onto the ceiling during the Zombie game, when he made fun of the way Youngjae said “Express,” when he and MArk did a backstage interview thing in English, when he passed out on a roller coaster, the list goes on...

32. Do you have any albums from [GOT7]/how many?

Nope. I’m a CD collector tho, so I’ll probably order them soon lol

33. Your favorite album from [GOT7] group?

My faves are probably Got Love and FL: Arrival.

This is what happens when I’m at work with nothing else to do lol

[thelioninmybed]

So putting canon!Mae in a room with dwmp!Mae results in insults and assault (unless intervention by Fingon), but how would canon!Fingon react? My main thought is a) look at the cute tiny, or b) sadness over the past/feelings of protectiveness. Of course I figure any Fingon upon meeting a copy of himself would go for the sex option, potentially including any Mae's that also happened to be nearby.

@imindhowwelayinjune , @emilyenrose and I have discussed this AU in exhaustive detail and luckily this was one of the subjects covered!

Emily: ok so when the powers in charge of universe hopping decide to bring the canon nolofinweans over it takes about five minutes for fingon to realise that he actually hates king fingon. He would still make out with him, don't get him wrong, but - like, at least canon mae has the decency to be kind of fucked up about all the violence and murder in his life. King fingon is actually, in fingon's opinion, scarier. Who is this happy about killing things?

also fingon is freaked out by how violent his alt selfs sex with alt mae is

also! why hasn't he taken better care of alt mae! look what a mess canon maedhros is, what has other fingon been DOING....

Lion:  “Dying!” says canon fingon cheerfully

Emily: also he's cross that king fingon is kind of better than him at basically everything. they go jogging together, canon fingon patronisingly slows himself down

Lion: On your left

Emily: later he steals fingon's old guitar, tunes it, and proceeds to play agonisingly beautifully? and sing? and not only is canon mae entranced, so is hipster mae. fingon hates this guy

Lion: Awwww shit hipster Mae doesn't stand a chance

Emily: right tbh most of fingon's hatred is poorly concealed jealousy. He's used to being the centre of the universe for his maedhros. He still IS, of course, but this is the closest mae has come to having a crush on someone not fingon... ever

Lion: Also no more opportunities for threesomes cause canon Mae is too busy staring/crying

Emily: hahahaha

also! he hates how king fingon looks at hipster mae! (king fingon is seeing a maedhros who isn't in pain)(and it's. it's nice to see.)(he still loves canon mae best, ofc, but look at this hipster who is okay)

anyway those are my two fingons thoughts. you'll have to ask june how the foursome goes

Lion: King Fingon logically proposes a foursome and shockingly it's the other fingon that objects. He KNOWS king Fingon would be better at sex. And get to fuck his boyfriend AND not his boyfriend and what if his Mae likes him better?

Emily: fingon handles insecurity extra badly because it's literally never happened to him before 

Emily: still thinking about king fingon. poor hipster mae. two fingons is an overwhelming number of fingons to have. canon mae isn't doing much better but he hides it well.

Lion: I am extremely impressed at his acting ability. Or, rather, ability to shut down all his emotions and never feel anything ever

Emily: king fingon still notices but instead joins in gently making fun of hipster mae instead. canon mae knows it's really about making fun of him

Lion: King Fingon has (sadly) a lot of experience interpreting this bullshit and drawing him out of it

June: I am rather annoyed with King fingon, have some respect for your sweet modern self, he has been taking care of two Mae's!

Lion: Right, even one is a lot of effort

June: (what if the irony is that king fingon totally does see that, and it makes him a little sad to see how gently modern fingon cares for both maes - and is allowed to! - and honestly, honestly, feels like he's not 100% needed) (he doesn't mean to show off, but kinging comes with a lot of arrogance that he's forgotten to change the dial on) (after all he was dead until recently)(so both fingons are a little insecure of the other because SURPRISE both of them fear being unneeded)... 

Lion: Doesn't the fact that canon Mae has latched onto him like a v. pointy limpet clue him in? Or is canon mae convinced he Doesn't Deserve to interact with Fingon and is thus hiding under the bed or some shit

June:  Everyone is profoundly overstimulated, it's a mess. I feel like canon Mae is really needing to hit the bottle to deal with all these emotions. But instead modern fingon just gets him and canon fingon a hotel room

Lion: oh no, how will he practice avoidance now

June: Hipster Mae finds out ironic that NOW fingon is like hmm isn't it time for them to go back to their place yet?... Also can they? If they go back, Maedhros loses his fingon again :(

Lion: also all that awaits them is horrible horrible war and death. The oath tho

Emily: no i decided based on the orome ficlet that this is all some huge cosmic prank by eru. they've actually all been dead for ages and they've just had their memories fucked around with a bit, they don't have to go back!

Lion: what about the oath???

June: Considered legally void. Does not apply in New England

Emily: WHAT JUNE SAID 'not even a thing, you idiots' - eru

June: Maedhros is .2 of a lawyer, he concurs

Emily: or: eru decided to interpret 'darkness eternal' as 'you have to live with yourself'

June: Hahaha

Emily: ‘but yourself wears pants with HOTASS on the ass'

June: And what did the poor innocent modernites do to deserve such a thing 'all good stuff, clearly' -celegorm

Emily: lol king fingon and murder elf mae in a hotel room. fingon makes sure it's nice. a nice hotel room. complimentary scented soap.

Lion: (it is a hint)

Emily: a jacuzzi setting on the bathtub

Lion: (do something about the gore, mae)

Emily: do you think gondolin was like this

June: Asks fingon. He is still a bit resentful 

Lion: Ecthelion def. had jacuzzis like, it was his job description

June: Glorfindel misused them a lot 'that is a BACK massager' says ecthelion, averting his eyes 'this is my back' says glorfindel. 'adjacent'

Lion: boys

Emily: (consider hipster mae taking care of king fingon like dwmp fingon takes care of canon mae tho)(sorry to be stuck on otp feels. but: if canon mae is startled by surprise biscuits, it is nothing to how much calm fingon is startled by casual affection

June: Or light humor. No gallows involved. Nicknamification. Like. 75% less guilt? He corners himself HOW he asks WHAT DID YOU DO

hipster Mae is offended for a second but then is like yeah, he really is responsible for much of this

Lion: No shut up hipster Mae, you'll make him wonder what he fucked up that the other version didn't

June: .... Fingon already wonders that

Lion: I mean, the answer is that being supportive is much easier when you're dealing with poor career prospects and an overbearing father, as opposed to satan torturing you and killing all your family...and an overbearing father

June: T b h

Lion: also Therapy Exists now

June: canon fingon thinks therapy sounds like a nice name for a child

Lion: lies, it doesn't have Fin in it anywhere

June: Maybe an epesse then

Lion: Oooh yeah, that's good

June: 'this is our child, its prophetic name is Better Adjusted Than Us, Please'

Lion: They can ask Maglor if he's got any spare babs. Being confronted with dwmp Fingon is probably a shock for King Fingon, he thought he was well adjusted? It is an easy mistake to make when your boyfriend is an orc

June: Eru is fucking cackling. This was such a good idea

Lion: at least, after the confusing wobble that was Fingon being attracted to canon Mae and then to canon Fingon and Maedhros being ???, now they can be reassured by how stable their relationship is

June: Imagine them lying in bed sort of trying to catch up after all the madness - their canon selves are off destroying a Comfort Inn - and just turning on their sides to look at each other in the dark. Touching hands very lightly. Not saying anything but both experiencing the same feeling of total gratitude

'i lo-' begins Maedhros, and fingon kisses him.

'thanks for being you' he says, and it's all Mae needs to hear.