#thank you again for your message!!

[noodles-and-tea]

You’ve just got this real magic, capturing the sunshine summer of childhood in the tiny Pines twins. Like I am fully convinced I could show the overcast sky one of your pictures of Stanley and the sky would be like. Pack it up clouds, time to get back to the sun.

Ohh thank you :(((((

[onionowt]

REQUESTS(THE LAST PART!!!)

I'd like to draw more but im literally at my limit<\3 it was really fun though!

So sorry to everyone whose request i couldn't make, my inbox is overflowed

Tagged people:

@fennecfeather @benthealligatorboy @syntax-horror aaand anon

[souperluminal]

Hello!! I'm a huge fan of your art and I thought I would ask about your colorwork, because it's genuinely super impressive to me how all your pieces have amazing palettes and they add so so so much to the general atmosphere. Do you have any process to pick colors for pieces? Like using picture references, gradient maps, etc or do you genuinely just eyeball them? I'm super curious :]

But yea I really love what you do and love seeing every new piece!! Have a nice day! Ty for reading <3

Thanks! I very much use references, though I don't use the color picker on them, gotta train the eye. I have an ever-expanding reference folder of photos and paintings with colors that I like so that when I start a new painting and I have an idea of the color scheme I want in mind, I'll already have some reference on hand. Good reference really makes a world of difference!

I also like to bias colors a little bit away from their standard versions:

The more blue green and the more yellow green are both more interesting to me than the "just green" green. Nothing wrong with that average green though, sometimes that's exactly what you need. It's always situational.

Lastly, a fantastic color tip for digital art specifically that I got from Mike Hernandez: Use the RGB sliders instead of the HSB color selection!

By default, Photoshop gives you the HSB (Hue, Saturation, Brightness) color picking setup which looks like this:

It's perfectly functional and has its uses, but it doesn't really feel like mixing color. On the other hand, if you use the RGB sliders:

Now you can add a little more blue if you think that's what the color needs, or you can take away red, add some green, etc. It gets you actually mixing color and thinking more about how the colors relate to each other. It can take some getting used to if you've only used the HSB setup before, but it's worth it!

[stormyoceans]

I can absolutely talk about bottom Fadel. He would be so overwhelmed at first, trying to hide his face and his noises, not sure whether to push Style away bc it's all just too much or pull him closer bc it's also just so good until Style grabs him by the neck and makes him look into his eyes and murmurs how good Fadel is and just to let go and with a shuddering breath Fadel would finally relax into it. Afterwards Fadel would be shivering all over and clinging to Style who holds him and pets his back, dropping small kisses wherever he can reach and whispering how much he loves Fadel. Yeah... I can totally talk about that.

CLIMBING THE WALLS OF MY OFFICE AND SPINNING COUNTERCLOCKWISE ON THE CEILING BECAUSE YES YES YES ABSOLUTELY YES TO EVERYTHING YOU SAID YOU GET IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it's just the way fadel looks so overwhelmed every time style touches him. every time he's not the one initiating physical contact and taking charge of the direction it takes. and yet at the same time he almost looks in pain with how hard he tries not to show it, as if there's something wrong in being on the receiving end of pleasure, in feeling that pleasure and letting it wash over him, pulling him under. even jerking off seems like a perfunctory act just to scratch an itch and be done with it as quickly as possible

style, tho. style is all about pleasure and fun and feeling good. he’s also more observant than anyone gives him credit for. so when fadel bites his lip so hard to the point he draws blood just to prevent himself from making any noises while style sucks him off, of course style notices. he also decides right there and then that that simply won’t do

the next time style presses fadel down onto the mattress, he takes his time. he sucks and bites on fadel’s nipples until fadel starts squirming under him, telling him to just get on with it already. style looks at fadel’s flushed face and heaving chest, at the way he’s already rock hard and leaking through his underwear, and wonders if he could make fadel come just by playing with his pecs, but that will have to wait. he finally moves lower, kissing his way down to the wet spot on fadel’s underwear and mouthing at it. fadel barks out his name, half a warning half a plead, voice strained and legs trembling

style frees him from the underwear, slicks his fingers with lube, and presses gently at fadel’s entrance with one. fadel seems to relax for a second, but the furrow between his brows is back as soon as he realizes that style has no intention to hurry. style tries to distract him with kisses, the rhythm of his finger inside fadel excruciately slow on purpose. he adds another, and he knows he has found fadel’s prostate when fadel jolts away from the kiss and his hands close around style’s arms as if to push him away. style shushes him, his free hand coming up to hold fadel’s head. he hits the same spot with his fingers again, and fadel’s grips on his arm tightens. fadel’s eyes are blown wide and his teeth are sinking into his lower lip

style places a kiss on fadel’s temple and starts talking, his fingers massaging the same spot inside fadel again and again. “it’s okay to let go, you know. you don’t always have to be strong and keep your guard up, at least not with me. im here. i’ve got you. let me hear you. let me take care of you.” for the first time, fadel throws his head back and comes with a loud cry

ANYWAY. sorry for this mess, i guess i got kinda inspired by what you wrote ;;;;;;; THE POINT IS THAT STYLE WOULD LOVE TO TURN FADEL INTO A PLIANT SOBBING MESS AND TELL HIM HOW GOOD HE IS AND FADEL NOT ONLY WOULD LET HIM BUT ALSO COME TO LOVE IT THANK YOU FOR COMING TO MY TED TALK

[nekrosmos]

Your art and writing makes me go feral fr. Love the care you put into it all. Feel straight up blessed when it passes my dash and I proceed to go into a giggling fit because d e l i c i o u s-

I love the dynamic between your Nikprice so much. I wanna eat them. Sandwich them between slices of bread and just om-nom. And it got me thinking, who do you think kills the spiders between them? Like if there was a huge spider in ghe bathroom, who's screaming and who's grabbing the closest flip-flop and going on a murderous rampage?

Sorry if there's typos, I'm not very good at spellchecking. And again, love the effort and care that goes intobyour work-

Everyone is being way too kind to me and I don't know what to do with myself anymore JV?S%PIJV?SIV. Like seriously, this kind of messages, it just means so much to me ;-; I never thought I would reach a point where people would say this about the things I create and it's so wild and yet so awesome, so thank you for this, truly !!

Your art is incredible as well, by the way !!

As for the spider, you know, I'm a slut for the gentle giant trope, so to imagine Nikolai gently pick up a spider to free it outside, yeah, it's doing something to me ..........

I think John is okay with spiders, but only because he has to (that comes with his leftover toxic masculinity, he HAS to not be afraid of spiders, right?) but deep down they creep the fuck out of him. Maybe he had a bad encounter or two with spiders getting into his carrier vest while he was on an op in a tropical place and it's been haunting him ever since.

Nik knows that, and always tries to remove spiders before John can see them, unless John is being an ass that day.

[pushing500]

It's a nice thought, Mechi. Eventually, though, we do want you two to be matchy-matchy with bionics as well, so hairstyles really are the only thing telling you apart.

Besides, Kwahu's hair is pretty iconic at this point, and I like drawing it.

Oh, uh... Bye, I guess. Thanks for hanging out. Don't come back.

Don't worry, Brandy! You will be avenged!! The perfect opportunity to field-test our bionics.

We're in the middle of fighting evil dog-killing cultists, and bugs decided to try and outmaneuver our killbox (it did not go well for them). Silly bugs.

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[kaiist]

Hello, annonie! I’ve received the first ask around two weeks ago, and the second ask just recently, so I assume both of these requests may have come from the same person, perhaps...? They’re creative, but just a reminder: I’ve got a rule in my “About Me” post that I don’t do personalization requests.

It looks like that might’ve been missed? Which is totally okay! But that means I won’t be able to take on these requests, I’m really sorry! I appreciate your interest in sending and trusting me with these requests, and I hope you’re able to find another writer who can bring your idea to life (there are lots of amazing writers in the LADS fandom, waaaaaay better than me). Just posting this here so you don’t keep tossing asks into the void ╥﹏╥

Other than that, feel free to request anything else after searching through my “About Me” post! Thanks so much for understanding! (≡^∇^≡)

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Hi I hate to be cheesy but I wanted to say that while a lot of people - very rightly!!! - point out how cool your art is and how inspirational it is that you showed art can be learned, not just a rare natural born talent, I also LOVE your sense of humor. The dialog and visual jokes are always so sharp and are guarenteed to make me laugh! Because I'm autistic as hell lol I like to bookmark things I can read through over agian when I'm looking for laughs and your blog is now high on the list! Thx!

Be not afraid to be cheesy; your genuine message has brought me immense joy B’*)

[elitadream]

❗️Important announcement❗️

Hello everyone! 😁 January is finally here, and this is very exciting news for me because I'm going to New Zealand!!! 🤩✈️ It's a huge trip that I've been planning for a whole year now. It will be the first time I ever take the plane. The first time I visit another country in years. The first time I travel so far away from home! And what's more, this will be the longest trip in my life. Over a month. I can hardly wrap my head around it still! 🤯🗓

I've also had some time to reflect, and... I've decided to use this opportunity to step back and go offline for a bit. 🌱 I wanted to tell you about this sooner, and I apologize for how sudden this probably is for most of you. I promise that I'm alright and doing this with a peaceful mindset! Although- I'm a bit sad at the thought that we won't see or hear from each other for a while. 🥺 It's a bittersweet feeling, but at the same time, I'm sure the temporary change of pace will be a good thing. Lately I've been feeling the need to take a break from social media again, and the timing is perfect. I'm ready. 🤲💫

To my lovely friends and followers here: I hope you will all have a great time these next few weeks. I hope the beginning of 2024 will treat you well and that you will get to experience new and exciting things. Wishing you lots of inspiration, fun projects and plenty of fascinating conversations until I return. 🙏🥰

Take care, everyone! I will miss you dearly. 🫂💗 Thank you, and I love you all,

- elita 🌸

[the-kr8tor]

To the lovely who got me coffee thank you thank you so much!!! ❤️💕❤️💕❤️💕 I woke up to the notif and almost jumped off the bed!!

[radio-marco]

The mongoose under the house.

(In other words - guess who’s back and obsessed with Hannibal again!)

[mewkwota]

Kid Ica- sorry, Pit.

Oh neat. Finally we end this long session with this sweet boy. :>

Send Me a Character

And I will tell you my:

First impression I am one of the millions of people who only knew Pit from Smash. When Brawl's reveal trailer showed its face on Youtube, I recognized every single character. Every single one. Including Snake, especially Snake. But when I saw this kid I thought he was Roy for a second because of the sunset lighting on the Halberd. It took me a couple of seconds to register the name that popped up as someone I briefly saw in Melee. I think Mr. Sakurai knew what he was doing here.

Pit is, like, one of my most favorite characters. His design and character hit about all the right spots for me on my mental checklist. I had a huge thing for angels has a cringy tween, plus he had brown hair in this look which I preferred more, and the outfit certainly does say "this one can kick butt". Also ooh that weapon, how versatile!

But yeah, it was bad. I had an OC who I paired with Pit. And also who wouldn't wanna try on that look (I never did, but the wings would do, and the many times I'd spin sticks like he did his bow, bwaghh).

Even with all that, there was so little to him. I'd scrape around the Internet looking for whatever I could about the kid. And that's where I learned what Captain N was. So you can thank/blame Pit for getting me into Castlevania and (even more into Classic) Mega Man.

With whatever I could gather, along with Uprising's release, I had a reasonable idea as to who Pit was. He's cheery, adorable, and selfless. And I feel some of the other layers to his character that I've picked up also stem from his background as an overlooked retro character. I've discussed this aspect in a comic between him and Sora's addition to Smash. I can tell Mr. Sakurai wanted to give Pit something he didn't quite have, and I chose to translate this as the kiddo having quite the journey in making himself known. Very little by little, until that point in Smash where we know him now.

I'm not surprised if people also saw this like an "ugly swan" path.

Impression now I may be focusing more on his friends now, but Pit holds a very-very special place in my heart. Especially now that Uprising is a thing, and I have actually grown a li~ttle sour towards it.

I know some of the humor in that game can be itty witty silly banter, but sometimes the jokes at Pit's expense can get a little, uhh, old. I get it, he's a brainless chicken who only thinks about food whatever.

It isn't like he can't be a competent character and still be silly, but sometimes the general fanbase can conflate one side. A lot. Because it's funny, sure I understand. Even I like to give Pit his silly moments, but I'd hope it's seen as him being allowed to let loose with his friends, who don't see him as someone lesser-- despite being very prolific representatives in their homelands.

This part of Pit is such an interesting thing to explore. Pit is the captain of a goddess' army. I don't think it matters the size of the army themselves, as everything is dependent on the decisions of their leader. And he's quite skilled with a variety of weapons now that Uprising has implemented that to his person.

There are so many impressive little things that Pit can call his own, but then why would he still feel inferior. Maybe it's because that's how he grew up. I can see it in the context of his place as a random retro character, but also as "that tiny angel who can't fly". (And maybe also the near-constant belittling he gets from the ones above). So as much as he's shown to be so positive, there are definitely moments where those weaknesses are seen or implied.

Long story short, it's the little things here-n-there that I like about him. It also makes for interesting prompts to write about.

Favorite moment Am I able to pick one? Uhh, Pit randomly singing at the start of that one chapter is always gonna be cute. He does a lot of cute things. ^^;

Idea for a story Something about Pit and Rock's relationship in Captain N clicks with me. On the outside it doesn't seem like much aside from "the two little kids hanging around each other", but perhaps that's just me picking at the words they say while mixing in the biases I already have. As a result, I see it that Rock follows after Pit in everything, but Pit also views Rock highly. They both found something in each other.

See this super ancient comic about it here.

One comic I had simmering for decades was looking at the between the two's connection after the events of Captain N and reuniting in Smash 4. It would have been in Pit's perspective and done through several letters-- that he needed help writing.

Unpopular opinion I don't know what is unpopular.

I'm not a part of the KI fandom. I am a part of the Pit fandom, wah.

Favorite relationship *Shoves Captain N in your face once again*

Favorite headcanon Pit is concerningly humble. He has a lot of little talents up his sleeve, a lot of which were picked up with the various part-time things he'd volunteer to do, but he doesn't really make a big deal of them. Some were simply picked up from the duties he was expected to do, or of course, they're just things he can do (so why is that really important).

[cozylittleartblog]

GRAAAHHH SORRY THIS IS SUDDEN BUT OH MY GOD I FINALLY FOUND YOU. IM THE BENREY THAT RAN UP TO YOUR BOOTH AR AMW THIS YEAR AND MY FRIEND BOUGHT ME LIKE ALMOST ALL YOUR VALVE STUFF, I LITERALLY CRIED WHEN I GOT BACK TO THEIR ROOM CAUSE LIKE DUDE. THAT MEANT EVERYTHING FOR ME, I WAS GENUINELY SO SO SO HAPPY TO SEE THE FANDOM IS STILL ALIVE AND IVE BEEN LOOKING FOR FANS IN THE WILD FOR YEARS. THE EXPERIENCE WAS ENLIGHTENING TO SAY THE LEAST AND IM SO SO JOYOUS ABOUT IT. THANK YOU SO MUCH !1!11! :•3

:D !!!! HI!!! I REMEMBER YOU!!! THANK YOU FOR STOPPING BY, I'M SO HAPPY IT WAS MEMORABLE FOR YOU!!

people who are so enthusiastic about the things i make and the fandoms i rep at my booth are THE #1 coolest part of the experience 🥺 i feel like convention artist alleys these days are mostly filled with the same 4 popular anime/mobile games and it's really hard to find less popular anime, let alone things like video games and webseries. you would not believe how many comments I got that people never see things like Team Fortress 2 or Portal in AAs, let alone stuff like Infinity Train or HLVRAI 😭 the people who recognize them are always SO excited and then I'M excited and we are BOTH excited and nerding out together. it's fantastic!!!

the hlvrai fandom is definitely still going strong! i still see a lot of fanart and community posts and my sales on my few hlvrai things on my etsy have Not slowed down lmao. i'm sure if covid didn't happen there would have been so many benry cosplayers in 2020. we were ROBBED </3 i've seen You and one benry cosplayer at ACEN last year and that was IT </3 </3 </3

[xxplastic-cubexx]

i was a bit anxious to reach out but i wanted to share a little headcannon i have for charles' powers^^

i feel that depending on the intensity of what hes doing at a certain point his powers turn into waves (though not necessarily visible) the person affected can feel it as a pulsating sensation and it can make their head throb

that and my other idea that his powers tend to affect gravity, but not making things float more like the exact opposite bc yknow how if u feel some intense emotion you want to just curl up on the floor sometimes? that but everyone has to now be it in a certain radius away from charles

and also ty for ur gorgeous cherik art ❤️❤️❤️ keeping the community alive

hello !!!!! thank you so much for sharin your thoughts, i LOVE the idea of charles' telepathy having physical effects on people (from the effect of his powers/his presence in their mind) it's sooo important to me .....

[apricustar]

Hii JD! I was reading your take on Buck talking about transferring and IDK if this is too personal, but the way you write about Buck sometimes really hits close to home. I do a lot of similar things where I feel like things are on me even if they might not be. How do you break that pattern? What do you think it would take for Buck to break that pattern?

hi nonnie, first of all, thank you for this message, and for trusting me with something personal! (the og post for anyone wanting to read)

let me start by saying this: it hits close to home for me too. i think a big reason i write about buck in the way i do is because i see and understand him; or maybe more truthfully: because i see myself in him. 

watching him at times feels a bit like looking into a mirror. i know why it is he does the things he does, because i've done them too.

there’s that awful feeling of never feeling quite good enough—for someone to stay, to choose you, to love you the way you so badly want to be loved. feeling like too much—like you're taking up too much space, talk too loudly, say too much. believing that if anyone were to fully, really see you, they'd leave; because eventually, it feels like everyone does.

so you start to preempt it. you pull back first. shrink yourself down. maybe start a few arguments, say and do some things without much thought. you make it easier for people to walk away by convincing yourself they were going to anyway. it feels easier if it's on your terms—more manageable, less painful.

i know that spiral all too well. someone's voice changes and my first thought is always what did i do? what did i say wrong? (i wrote more in detail about buck doing this here if you want to read that...) like, okay, the other day i came home and said hi to my roommate. she said hi back but sounded VERY subdued; i took it as her being upset with me. which was made worse by her not asking about how my classes were like usual. instantly my brain was like oh god, she's mad at me, what did i do??? i ran through a whole list of possible offenses and felt so anxious!!!

and then later she came around and told me she'd gotten a grade she was upset about. we talked about the grade and stuff of course, but then i told her i thought she had been mad at me. she was confused and laughed and then i laughed and we then were both laughing and i was like shit! more than 9 times out of 10 it has nothing to do with me, but still, my first instinct is blaming myself and i feel this horrible stomach-dropping anxiety. 

so, so. so buck. how do you break that pattern? how will buck break that pattern? well, to be clear, i am not a mental health professional, nor will i claim to be (though, i am getting my degree!). but from where i stand, i think the first step is recognizing the pattern for what it is: a defense mechanism. a way of trying to grab onto whatever thread of control you can in situations that feel uncertain and overwhelming. 

it comes from somewhere, of course. when you grow up having to guess what version of love—what version of your caretakers—you’re going to get (if you get it at all), you start to prepare for the worst. you scan for danger. you take blame as a shortcut to control: if it’s my fault, maybe i can fix it. maybe i can be better.

and that kind of self-blame becomes automatic—deeply and painfully familiar. a thought cycle that loops endlessly, until it feels like instinct. the truth is, it once served a purpose. but it doesn’t have to keep defining how you move through the world.

one of the best tools for breaking those loops—besides awareness and practicing self-compassion—is learning how to challenge and reframe the thoughts themselves. this is where something like cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) can be incredibly powerful. buck struggles with thoughts like: i ruined everything. i make things worse. if i were better—if I tried harder—this wouldn't have happened. this is all my fault.

CBT helps you slow down in those spirals and ask things like: is this true? is there evidence for it? is there another explanation? it teaches you to catch these thoughts and gently rework them—not 'i always ruin everything,' but 'i made a mistake this time, and that doesn't define me.'

buck's healing won't come from just rewiring those beliefs internally. it's also going to come from the outside—from safety, from consistency, from relationships that stay steady even when he falters. he needs to find someone who doesn't just say 'you matter,' but shows him—again and again—that he doesn't have to be perfect or performative to be worth staying, worth loving.

he has this in the 118– in eddie. he just needs to start believing it.

and that in large part comes from experiencing it over and over again. from letting people close, even when every alarm in his brain is telling him to brace for impact. from trusting that silence doesn't always mean upset, that distance doesn't always mean abandonment. from realizing that real love doesn't evaporate the moment he stops proving himself.

healing doesn't always look like big revelations. sometimes it's choosing to stay—to keep trying—even when you're afraid, especially when you're afraid. it's trying to be kind to yourself even when you feel like you're on a hamster wheel going a million miles. it’s pausing to breathe. to rework the story you’re telling yourself. to stop turning every misstep into a sweeping conclusion about your worth.

it’s learning to believe the kind things someone says, even when they feel impossible. it’s understanding that being loved isn’t a transaction—it’s a truth.

and maybe that's how the pattern finally breaks: not all at once, not in one giant grand gesture, but in the quiet, day-to-day moments. when buck allows himself patience. when he forgives himself. when he doesn’t run. when he lets someone stay. when he starts to believe that maybe—just maybe—he was never too much to begin with. when he allows himself to simply receive affection and care without first questioning it or believing it an impossibility. 

[messrsrobyn]

heyyy !!!

i'm popping back onto this blog momentarily to say THANK YOUUUUU so so so much for all the support on my top surgery funding <333

we're over one third of the way in less than a month which is INSANE. i needed to have proof of funding coming in to book some potential dates and i was able to do that which is just,,, a lot of emotions right now. so many.

not to get too sappy or emotional on main lol but it was a long road getting my body to a place where even hrt was an option, an even longer one to get to a place where i could qualify for surgery, and now it doesn't feel as fantastical as it once did.

nothing i say will ever properly express how thankful i am to everyone who shared, donated, or went the extra step to ask for other ways they can support me. but i really am.

this fandom has already changed my life in so many ways over the past year, i can't wait to see what else is in store <3