#than risk losing more rights my previous disability diagnosis mayve already stripped

[ilovetobiko]

i know this is gonna sound super unrelatable because i always felt like a freak for it— but was/is anyone else super sensitive to redesigns of their fave characters? voice changes and director changes were also sometimes very serious to me.

growing up was really weird because other kids seemed to embrace new gens of shows i liked very easily while i was outwardly angry with all the changes

i remember three shows hitting really hard: Strawberry Shortcake 2009, MLP G4, and especially Powerpuff Girls 2016, which i’d always considered myself the franchises biggest fan…

even now those redesigns make me cringe and upset me, but they were also hugely embraced that when people my age talk about them, those were the nostalgic ones. it’s a very weird feeling, something i used to attribute to me growing up poor and owning episodes/movies of those shows exclusively on VHS, even if i did eventually have cable

(i was like ‘saturday affirmations: i am the victim. i am the victim. i am the victim’)

i remember in third grade proudly announcing during lunch that i don’t like the strawberry shortcake redesign, and the boy instructing the hangman game made a joke about how i must be old, because i like outdated things (this was after i’d freshly discovered original strawberry, i mentioned she’s way cuter in the 80s or something) and feeling really ashamed

obviously i’m not ashamed anymore but it still feels really weird, like i missed out on something because i preferred designs i was already really familiar with rather than embrace new ones.

growing up was so strange and lonely but i don’t think i could control what i felt, because i still feel the same way. i try not to get visibly upset when someone buys me 2016 powerpuff girls, but they notice every time. it’s so frustrating