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[windupnamazu]

happy heavensturn, everyone!  give yourself a pat on the back! we’ve made it! 🎊

this was a loooooong year, and of course it had its ups and downs. my mental healths been splotchy at times, i had to cut ties with someone who i used to think of as a really good friend, i realized a lot of the opinions i was parroting were at best thoughtless and at worst flat-out hurtful, and i was surrounding myself with people who were contributing more to overall misery than happiness - but ive also come out of my shell far more rapidly in the last four months of this year than i have in many of the years before. im ending it on a good note!

this blog wasnt very active until september when ffxivwrite started and i learned how to make gifs, and since then i made some stuff i hated but i also made a lot of stuff i really liked, and i know ive grown from it, and i know im going to continue growing!! ive never made this much for one fandom in such a short period before - im usually a person who makes one thing and then goes quiet - but every moment of running this blog and interacting with new people these past few months has been incredibly fun and ive been learning so much!! sometimes i do think “i need to make more!” and then ill remember that one week i made a gifset everyday for six straight days, and i think “wow! why did i do that. geez.” im happy with what ive managed to do in spite of everything else on my plate, and i hope my friends will be happy with what theyve managed to do too!!

and speaking of friends!! ive made so many new friends this year and theyre all absolutely incredible and so talented!! im a very anxious and shy person and talking to new people directly is terrifying for me, but im slowly becoming more confident and comfortable!! slowly!!! (i went through one week where i talked to a new person Every Single Day and i was so overwhelmed by the time it was over ahndsdfgnn)

ive also been making an effort to be more vocal so i hope no ones been bothered by how often i reblog and tag things here?? snfndfnhgnh its not something i do a lot on my personal because i have. um. four times the follower count and im super selfconscious about saying something stupid but my friends have made SO many good things i just gotta yell about all of it!! please let content creators know how much you love their stuff, because they really deserve it!  

to mutuals and followers both - know that i love you! and im so, so, so proud of you for making it through this year and for making great things! thank you so much for all your support!!

happy holidays and happy new year, and goodbye to this decade! heres to an even greater one! 🎉🎉🎉

[elsecrytt]

What are your thoughts on Diavolo/MC/Lucifer? It's probably the most popular sandwich in yandere fics, and I like it a lot, though I don't know if they would be as good at sharing as they are presented to be. I'm not caught up on the newer lessons where we get to know Diavolo more but I do know he and Lucifer have a complicated relationship, especially with the whole power imbalance thing, and putting a darling between them would be interesting, to say the least.

s;lkgjfsh I can already tell I'm going to ramble on about this for quite a while so like. would you believe i had this written out days ago and just forgot to post it? i can go on and ON without even realizing it lmao Other anons, take note. It's a LOT easier to get content out of me if you just give me a topic and have me yammer on bc I can textwall 24/7 without thinking about it if I'm not writing like, actual prose. Any direct spoilers, I'll put beneath a cut, but otherwise, just note that the opinions I express here are influenced by what I've seen of the characters in Seasons 2 and 3. SO. Dia/MC/Luci, huh? It's definitely the most common yandere sandwich (and possibly regular sandwich) besides the attic one, and it's one that I really do like! For various reasons, it makes sense for them to go yandere together - since, if one of them went yandere and the other one didn't, the other guy would be the first person you'd go to for help. Particularly in the context of yandere works, Dia/MC/Luci is interesting because of the power imbalances present everywhere, as well as the contingent parties' experiences with love. Dia has some significant attachment and interest in Lucifer, which is never really quite reciprocated. Diavolo adores Lucifer, and Luci certainly likes Dia, but never quite the way Dia likes him. I think this part of the dynamic is sorely underexplored in Luci/MC/Dia works, and it's a shame. (Side note: I know a particular work by a yandere blog that does have Diavolo being somewhat for Lucifer, who is yandere for the reader, but it's not quite a sandwich.) A work can still be very self-indulgent and reader-centric, focused on the character/reader pairing, while still having character/character. In fact, expanding the relationships between characters other than the reader can make the characters feel more three dimensional and compelling! Diavolo's feelings for Lucifer can enhance his feelings towards the reader. Diavolo, lonely and misunderstood, feeling like Lucifer will never see him as a true equal, and his feelings will never be returned. And here you are, an outsider to this relationship, without any baggage, someone who earned Lucifer's love and respect just by being who you are. No manipulation, no bargains, just genuine bonding and personal intimacy. How did you do it? How can he do it? What is it you have that he doesn't? And, deep down, in the core of his being - can he obtain for himself something that Lucifer wants - and possibly use it against him? Diavolo, approaching you for impure reasons, comparing you to Lucifer at every turn, comparing his relationship with you to the one he has with Lucifer, and re-evaluating his entire perspective on everything. (Lesson 16 Spoilers) -

Diavolo who is also losing control over Lucifer after the incident with Belphegor. Diavolo who is forced to face the fact that Lucifer cares more about his brothers, and always will, no matter his oath of loyalty. Diavolo who doesn't know it, but is desperate to have someone new to love. Diavolo who's never quite felt like he was loved back, not without him pressing the other party into it. His position and character flaws starve him of any genuine, personal connection. But he can get that with you, where things are different; there are no conflicting loyalties and no threats to his power. You don't even have a proper sense of Dia's position, not really, since you're an outsider, and that helps. Diavolo the manipulator, who effectively forced all his friends to become friends with him initially, falling in love with you because you decided to be friends with him, first. Because that's what you do, isn't it? In canon, you go around befriending all the demons around you without a care in the world. No matter how powerful or intimidating they are, you stand your ground, determined to build genuine friendships, on your own terms. And that's what Diavolo needs really, what he's too socially stunted to realize that he needs; he needs a friend who wouldn't leave him if he suddenly became a normal person. Diavolo needs someone he thinks wouldn't leave him, if he didn't keep them next to him. And while canon Dia is loooong past the point of forcing people to stay by his side, a yandere Dia - a Dia made desperate by the reality of Lucifer's loyalties, the loss of his one friend he always wanted but never could quite win over - may very well... lapse into old habits. And no one could stop him. That's it, the reason Diavolo is one of the most popular yanderes. Ultimately. Diavolo canonically kidnaps you and keeps you in the Devildom for a year. Sure, Lucifer picked you out, but him, Barbatos, and everyone else are ultimately just Diavolo's accomplices, and not even necessarily 100% willing ones. Diavolo who wonders if he can't have his cake and eat it, too; if Lucifer can't be made to cooperate, with the right incentive. And that's just on Diavolo's part - Lucifer would have many reasons to go along with it. It would tie into his being pursued by Diavolo; his immediate superior who he's sworn his loyalty to, who flirts with him even when Lucifer is clearly uncomfortable with it. If he gives in to this, can he keep Diavolo at a distance? Can he keep you close? Can he put you there as a buffer, and ensure your safety as one of the involved parties? Lucifer doesn't even necessarily have to be yandere to go along with this. He's a smart person. I love smart yanderes (and smart darlings!) If he fights Dia and loses - very likely - then you're left entirely at Dia's mercy. But by going along with it, Lucifer has some measure of power over your situation and living conditions. And yes, perhaps there is a little selfish love left in him. If Dia is going to steal you away, then why shouldn't he get as much of you as he can get? And isn't it better for you, too, to have choices? Moreover, if Diavolo has any lingering attachment to Lucifer, then he can become a buffer between you and Dia - the lesser of two evils, if you're determined to see them as such. And as manipulative as all of that sounds... it'll all be entirely true. This is what makes sense to him. Lucifer has never directly gone against Diavolo. His tactics are to surrender (do what Dia wants and live with the consequences), persuade (often it doesn't work), and if all else fails, deflect (hiding Belphie in the attic). Note that deflecting doesn't even work, not really. Diavolo has the ability to tell when someone is lying. Lucifer thinks, in early season 1, that he can get past this, but as Diavolo reveals later on - he never could. Diavolo knew how and why Belphie was imprisoned since the start. In the context of the sandwich, they don't even necessarily need to be into one another at the time (though it'd probably make

the sex scenes more fun). So yeah, I do think they would share nicely as yanderes, given that Diavolo likely feels some ownership over Lucifer himself, and Lucifer would 1000% use that to get what he wanted. There might be tensions - oh, there would be some delicious tension - but they're both probably vitally aware of that your best avenue of escape is to convince one of them to side against the other. Diavolo's probably not unhappy with the arrangement, either. He likes Lucifer, likes being around Lucifer. If Lucifer wanted to watch you have sex, or joined in, out of jealousy on his part, or concern for your safety/consent, Diavolo would probably be into it. Lucifer might be unhappy with it, depending on how yandere he went. But between Barbatos, and the fact that he has his six brothers to be looking out for, too, rebelling against Diavolo is just... not an option. So he'll tell himself he's doing a favor, he'll be understanding and respectful and preen and puff himself up internally over how he's the nice one, he's the good one, he's the better option. And perhaps, if he's feeling particularly vehement, he'll compete with Dia for your attention, for your affection, to be "chosen" for that night, inasmuch as you have a choice. When Lucifer competes... he tends to win. Even against Diavolo. Until, of course, Dia decides there isn't any competition anymore. Dia might take it well enough before he starts venting his frustrations on you, getting clingier, or more touchy, or more demanding of your time, perhaps giving Lucifer more work; ultimately, even if Lucifer is an option, you only really have a choice when Dia decides you do. And of course, Lucifer's own options become limited when Diavolo decide to restrict him, too. Least of all his ability to see you, spend time with you - and to receive your affection. If Diavolo prods Lucifer to get more actively involved in this "shared relationship", instead of just with you... that's really the only leverage Lucifer can get. The dynamics between Diavolo and Lucifer, even in canon, are complicated, and even more so when MC comes into the picture. Keep in mind, I'm almost exclusively interested in Reader/Character pairings! I want to self-insert and enjoy some good old self-indulgence like everyone else! But I think a lot can be gained by broadening the focus a bit. Especially concerning sandwiches and moresomes - I think that's sort of the point of most of those! Even between ships like say - Lucifer/MC/Mammon, where the other two characters aren't being shipped, a lot of the appeal for me is the idea of Lucifer and Mammon both desperately wanting their brother to be happy - and trusting that brother with the love of their life. I feel like a lot of writers want to keep the focus on the reader, "you", and they're afraid to add background or other relationships in there, in case readers feel threatened/jealous. I'm gonna go ahead and be absolutely savage here and say fuck that idea. Readers don't know what they want. I'm a writer and I barely know what I want a lot of the time! And readers who do know what they want can always just click away! That's what tags are for! Go nuts! Go CRAZY! Give them a little bitterness, a little sourness - these things can make the sweet parts better, not worse! Of course there's always a balancing act, but often times ideas like "Diavolo has feelings for Lucifer AND you" will take you to fun and exciting places, and you'll end up writing more, enjoying yourself more! (I do mean this in a hypothetical way, not speaking to anyone specifically. Sorry anon if this isn't what you wanted to hear about, but I just go nuts sometimes lmao)

[windupnamazu]

PLAYLIST » Lunya Lanya

CHARACTER PROFILE – MUSIC EDITION  ♪

For many of us music is a source of inspiration for our characters, so I want to know what songs inspire and/or relate to your muse! Chose between 10-15 songs, compile them into an album and tag some friends to share the beat!

wayward daughter

Amsterdam - Imagine Dragons I'm sorry, mother / I'm sorry, I let you down Well, these days I'm fine / No these days I tend to lie

Who Do You Love - Marianas Trench I miss the way that you saw me / Or maybe the way I saw myself But I came back to you broken / And I've been away too long 

Shelter - Porter Robinson & Madeon Oh it's a long way forward, trust in me / I'll give them shelter, like you've done for me And I know I'm not alone, you'll be watching over us

the warrior of light! our weapon of light!

I of the Storm - Of Monsters and Men Are you really gonna need me when I'm gone?  I fear you won't / I fear you don't

Weight of the World - J’Nique Nicole I wish that someway, somehow / That I could save every one of us But the truth is that I'm only one girl

Two - Sleeping At Last And maybe one day I will get around to fixing myself too

Still Feel - Half Alive I am not a slave, can't be contained So pick me from the dark and pull me from the grave 

Battle Scars - Paradise Fears We've got a little room to grow / Better days are near Hope is so much stronger than fear

the star by which i chart my course

Gone, Gone, Gone - Phillip Phillips You would never sleep alone I’ll love you long after you're gone

The Last of the Real Ones - Fall Out Boy I know this whole damn city thinks it needs you But not as much as I do

Set Me On Fire - Bella Ferraro Fearlessly in love / With all of your ways Shoot an arrow through my heart / With your loving embrace

do you know who you are?

Connection - OneRepublic If there's so many people here, then why am I so lonely?

Constellations - The Oh Hellos Every good intention, every good intention Is interpolation, a line we drew in the array

I’m Alright - Mother Mother You're not a monster, just a human And you made a few mistakes

You Are The Moon - The Hush Sound Darkness, darkness everywhere, do you feel all alone? The subtle grace of gravity, the heavy weight of stone 

[slams the door open, breathing heavily] ive been working on lunyas playlist for MONTHS, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA—

tagged by: @to-the-voiceless​!! thank you cyan!!!

tagging: e-everyone! i... might do a post like gatheredfates’ and ask people to like it if they want me to tag them in things eventually nsdnsdnf. at this point theres so many people i want to tag that i feel enormous guilt at the thought of accidentally leaving someone out

im not going to pretend i have a diverse or good taste in music snddndfng i listen to the same two songs over and over and one is probably from a homestuck amv from 2015 while the other is kpop. im your secret kpop mutual. im sorry. obligatory textwall beneath the cut

wayward daughter has songs for lunya’s family. she was a runaway, and shes never really been able to let go of the guilt for that and the things she did to survive in ul’dah. she does return home eventually, and i think who do you love has a homecoming vibe to it. maybe. i dont know anything. shelter is a song meant for kichirou, more than anything. he literally gave shelter to lunya in her ul’dah days, and when he gave his life for her in the calamity. it was his death that propelled her to do good as an adventurer.

the warrior of light! our weapon of light! is... probably obvious? have you ever met a wol that didnt have ptsd. i tried to arrange them so i of the storm and weight of the world, songs that reflect lunyas initially low self-esteem and the sheer pressure on her come before still feel, which i consider her shadowbringers theme, the expansion ive shoved all her character development in For Reasons. sleeping at last did a whole set of songs based on the enneagram types, and lunyas is two. the song fits her very well. it sounds like a love song - but its also a cry for help from people who give and give and never take. battle scars is upbeat and hopeful, and shows the best parts of the warrior of light - the champion of the common people, the hope of eorzea.

the star by which i chart my course is. do i have to say this. its my mini playlist for lunya/raha. gone gone gone is BASICALLY their theme song, it’s where i got their ship tag from, i might just cry right now. the last of the real ones is pretty aggressive for a romance playlist? but who cares when it fits the angst side of their relationship so well (and i could go on about it a little more but i dont have the tIME). set me on fire doesnt really have any deep meaning in regards to their lore - besides i guess raha being an archer before??? but... its a very Them song.

do you know who you are? has songs that reflect lunya for lunya - not her parents’ daughter, not eorzea’s champion, not g’raha tia’s inspiration - Just Lunya. its also the category i put all the leftovers in. lunya isnt great at letting people in, and connection calls to that and her searching for a purpose in her arr days. constellations and you are the moon are both songs with celestial themes, and also more meaning that i cant really go into its six am, but i can say that you are the moon is linked to lunya loathing her white hair after the calamity. im alright is an anthem for recovery, and its one that lunya really deserves, honestly. boy i wish i didnt try to keep writing this at six am so i could pop it into my queue