#test muse jayce

[wayfaringstrangxr]

𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐯𝐢𝐞𝐰 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐞 (Jayce)

𝚛𝚎𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚝, 𝚍𝚘𝚗'𝚝 𝚛𝚎𝚋𝚕𝚘𝚐

► ARE YOU HAPPY? ↳ ❝I'm not sure I am. I thought I was, but seeng that my dream did more harm than good... I cannot say.❞ 

► ARE YOU ANGRY? ↳   ❝Constantly.❞

► ARE YOUR PARENTS STILL MARRIED? ↳   ❝My father died when I was very young.❞

NINE FACTS.

► BIRTH PLACE ↳  ❝Piltover❞

► HAIR COLOR ↳  ❝Brown. And let's not mention the grey hair starting to appear.❞

► EYE COLOR ↳  ❝Hazel.❞

► BIRTHDAY ↳   ❝7/7❞

► MOOD ↳  ❝Angry.❞

► GENDER ↳ ❝Male.❞

► SUMMER OR WINTER ↳  ❝Winters are great when you spend them in front of the furnace.❞

► MORNING OR AFTERNOON ↳  ❝Mornings. Everything seems more important when you address them at morning.❞

► SPOKEN LANGUAGES ↳  ❝Continental.❞

CHOICES.

► LEMONADE OR ICED TEA ↳   ❝Cait tried to make me enjoy iced tea... She gave up.❞

► CATS OR DOGS ↳   ❝Dogs, we have more in common, I think.❞

► A FEW BEST FRIENDS OR MANY REGULAR FRIENDS ↳   ❝The problem with being a counselor is that everyone thinks you're friends. But I prefer the few that actually know the real me.❞

► DAY OR NIGHT ↳  ❝Day.❞

HAVE YOU EVERS.

► BEEN CAUGHT SNEAKING OUT   ↳   ❝You mean when Viktor and I were trying to get into the lab and Mel caught us and he said something about his room?❞

► FALLEN DOWN/UP THE STAIRS   ↳   ❝A couple times as a kid. My mom started thinking I was trying to kill myself.❞

► WANTED TO DISAPPEAR   ↳   ❝At the trial with the council, yes.❞

FAMILY.

► DO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY GET ALONG ↳   ❝My relationship with my mother was shaken after the didn't supported me in front of the council, but I understand now that she only wanted to keep me safe.❞

► WOULD YOU SAY YOU HAVE A “MESSED UP LIFE”   ↳  ❝Not until I joined the council.❞

► HAVE YOU EVER RAN AWAY FROM HOME   ↳   ❝No. I never had a reason to do so.❞

► HAVE YOU EVER GOTTEN KICKED OUT ↳    ❝I was kicked out of the academy, does it count?❞

FRIENDS.

► DO YOU SECRETLY HATE ONE OF YOUR FRIENDS ↳   ❝Do people actually do that? Why to be friends then?❞

► DO YOU CONSIDER ALL OF YOUR FRIENDS GOOD FRIENDS ↳   ❝The ones I don't, are not my friends.❞

► WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND ↳   ❝Viktor. I know he understands all my problems and questions. He saved me in every way a person can be saved. And I hope to do the same for him.❞

► WHO KNOWS EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU ↳   ❝Viktor probably.❞

tagged by :: @mxchineherald (kinda stollen)

tagging :: @blackrosesmatron | @skillandsteel

[galaxofmuses]

// ....*sighs* I love League and Arcane but whoo boy...I am scared for these three as well knowing where the lore is going. ;A;

// i'll add these blorbos later cuz I lost control of my life and caved in

[myristicisms]

@knightfeared | Jayce sent;;

“ what are you doing? ” ( Jayce @ Vincent cause we’re winging thangz 💅✨ )

Crimson covered shoulders rise, nose twitching ever so slightly upon realizing his solitude had been intruded upon moments before the strange voice had cut through Vincent's tranquil silence. Whomever thought it wise to approach the sitting man certainly had guts, he'd give them that, but they were also foolish. He's half tempted to reach for Cerberus, to aim his weapon and dispatch the man slowly approaching him before he got the chance to injure Vincent first but... ( If he meant harm, he wouldn't have spoken up. ) Instead, he resumes with picking the dirt from his gauntlet, cleaning his arm properly after a battle well fought.

“ Dunno, what am I doing? ” He questions back, petulantly sure but Vincent had wanted to be left alone, doesn't bother to look up to see just who he was speaking to before deciding perhaps he was being rude, unnecessarily so. “ Upkeep, cleaning. That's what I'm doing. Why are you here? ” A question for a question seemed fair enough, staying mysterious didn't seem very important at the moment, not since Vincent knew his own capabilities, knew he was safe no matter the circumstances or was at least confident enough in the matter.

[elegancemultimuse]

"Renting is the way to go, but for some people it is hardly cheaper." Paisley said with a sigh because rent was expensive enough in itself. The temptation to live with her parents was there sometimes, but she enjoyed her freedom too much. "It's almost criminal how much some people charge."

❝ Hell no! I’ll either live with my parents until the day I die or rent my place. ❞ He chuckled as he was currently renting his own townhouse, luckily got it for a steal. Really to have a family you needed a high income job and enough to have at least a three bedroom home… minimum. ❝ Yeah, who knows really. ❞

[glcwbitch]

                             so   ,   i   may   have   done   a   thing   .   under   the   cut   will   be   some   test   muses   that   i'd   like   to   try   out   !   like   for   a   one   liner   &   i'll   come   to   you   for   whomst   !   

    (   saint   hammam   .   kingpin   .   twenty8   .   ) emilio   sakraya   . 

    (   jayce   murphy   .   pre-law   student   .   twenty4   .   ) milo   manheim   .   

    (   paloma   solís   .   nail   tech   .   twenty3   .   ) nikki   rodriguez   .   

    (   greer   ahn   .   thrift   store   employee   .   twenty5   .   ) song   mingi   . 

     (   benicio   souza   .   winery   &   vineyard   owner   .   thirty2   .   ) chay   suede   .   

    (   rhyan   barrett   .   pediatric   nurse   .   twenty6   .   ) madison   beer   .   

    (   felix   hewson   .   pharmaceutical   science   student   &   dispensary   employee   .   twenty5   .   ) robert   keating   .   

     (   myles   parish   .   adult   shop   employee   .   twenty6   .   ) owen   teague   .   

    (   chanel   de'loughrey   .   house   sitter.   twenty7   .   ) brittany   o’grady   . 

     (   amiyah   pinnock   .   fashion   content   creator   .   twenty6   .   ) coco   jones   .   

    (   lars   visser   .   amateur   game   developer   .   twenty4   .   ) zethphan   smith   gneist   . 

[reverbz]

                              test muse! jayce demaury. twenty9 y/o blackjack dealer + pickpocket thief ( as well as an off brand and off licensed therapist for tenses of this starter <3 ). him / they pronouns & pansexual.

                              open to: nb / m / f

                              ❛ i'm not one to lecture , talk down to a friend. i don't mean to pressure , mean to condescend. but i just want what's best for you in the end , i know you don't want to let go. ❜

[elegancemultimuse]

"When did I ever say anything to imply that was what I wanted? It's like you don't even know me." Jayce replied, a bit offended by her words. He wasn't the casual hookup type, and never had been.

lori sighed and rubbed at the space between her eyes. " it's not rocket science, jayce... i don't want just drunk hookups, and that's all you seem to ever want from me. it was fun the first couple times, but... i'm not gonna keep doing it, ''

[mxchineherald]

☂  : Does your muse like rain?

☼ : Does your muse like daytime or nighttime more?

[random headcanons - ACCEPTING]

☂ : Viktor likes the sound of rain, and enjoys looking out the windows on rainy days, but dislikes being out in the weather, itself. The cold and damp causes his lungs and throat to get phlegmy and sore, leading to coughing and wheezing. It's also hard for him to keep warm, given his weight and frame. This leaves him vulnerable to catching a cold, which could last for weeks.

So on rainy days, he stays inside and drinks a nice hot drink.

☼ : The daytime offers too many distractions and noises, so Viktor prefers the nighttime for his work and studying. It's also more convenient to cover up the more secretive aspects of his work, like the Hexcore. He stays up late into the evenings, meticulously writing down notes or testing theories.

He actually has a cot set up in the corner of the lab, where he commonly will catch a few winks before Jayce can show up in the mornings.

[elegancemultimuse]

Closed  || @mctteldolls​ (Vinessa) 

This whole fake relationship had started when Jayce’s mother had kept insisting over and over again that she needed to set him up with people. He’d asked Vinessa to help him by pretending to be his girlfriend. Which of course would have ended up fine if everyone hadn’t found out about their supposed relationship and they hadn’t had to have kept it going for months now. At some point he had actually gotten feelings for her, and that was the scary thing. “So I was thinking, maybe we should go to that party together. What do you think?” 

[arcanacontained]

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About the Mun:

Charlie, 25+, she/her.

I am neurodivergent and have physical disabilities so my focus might be hit and miss at times.

I work full-time, I write role play in my free time so activity may be sporadic.

I have 11 years worth of role playing experience under my belt and have been writing for the best part of 20 years.

My squicks that are goats, needles (primarily IV and IO), wasps, bees, spiders.

The mun tag is: out of arcane; dealer (mun).

Tracking the tag: arcanacontained

Some of my OC muses I have had for a long time. I have been on Tumblr itself since 2013, across multiple fandoms. Some have been friendly and welcoming whilst, others have been toxic and a mess I no longer want to associate with. This is why I have altered my OCs to be more fitting of Arcane/LOL related muses. So far the Arcane/LOL role play community has been welcoming.

Rules:

Disabilities, trauma and mental illness will be discussed as themes during role play threads. If you have any triggers around these or other topics please let me know ahead of time. I will always reads others’ rules.

As above - I am over 25, therefore I feel uncomfortable with interacting with minors. If you are under 18, I this is not the blog for you.

TERFS, homophobias etc do not interact.

No god-modding or meta-gaming.

I haven’t roleplayed in a while, for about 2-3 years due the pandemic being a thing and Tumblr was put on the back burner until life stabilised. So I apologise if some of my role play knowledge or etiquette has gone out of the window.

I am primarily familiar with Arcane but am reading up on the relevant Champion backstories and other information on the League website. I have never played the game itself. Character canon will follow Arcane and may have some current League of Legends influences.

This blog is unlikely to be spoiler free, as the fate of the characters currently hangs in the balance at the end of episode 9.

As of writing - Jayce, Viktor and Warwick are tests muses, as this is the first time I have written them.

I have put some of my muses on low activity for the sake of my mental health. Which muses are on high or low activity might change without warning.

Please read a muse’s biography before interacting with them.

I would prefer to plot threads. Askbox prompts are accepted - but do not reblog asks as a thread starter. Please use text posts as thread starters.

I write in third person, past tense with normal formatting. As I don’t have the time I won’t be using icons in threads. A muse’s face claim (if relevant) will be stated in their biography.

Mutuals only please, this is for my own mental health so I know who is who.

Please may asks be kept for in-character interactions between muses. Likewise direct messaging is for discussion, plotting and general chatting between muns.

[Current Hand] - Muses

Number [Card] Name • Epithet.

Blue, OC muse. Red, Canon muse. Purple, Test muse. Active Muse, Low Activity Muse, Inactive Muse, Empty Slot

0 [THE FOOL] Rowan Jesse • The Fractured Shadow || Information Post || Interaction Call

I [THE MAGICIAN] Viktor • The Machine Herald || Information Post || Interaction Call

II [THE HIGH PRIESTESS] Patience Blyth • The Tactical Forger || Information Post || Interaction Call

III [THE EMPRESS] Unknown • Epithet

IV [THE EMPRORER] Unknown • Epithet

V [THE HIEROPHANT] Unknown • Epithet

VI [THE LOVERS] Unknown • Epithet

VII [THE CHARIOT] Audrey Hayward • The Caretaker of Piltover || Information Post || Interaction Call

VIII [STRENGTH] Unknown • Epithet

IX [THE HERMIT] Unknown • Epithet

X [WHEEL OF FORTUNE] Unknown • Epithet

XI [JUSTICE] Jayce Talis • The Defender of Tomorrow || Information Post || Interaction Call

XII [THE HANGED MAN] Unknown • Epithet

XIII [DEATH] Warwick • The Uncaged Wrath of Zaun || Information Post || Interaction Call

XIV [TEMPERANCE] Rosemary Clive • The Mage Telepath || Information Post || Interaction Call

XV [THE DEVIL] Sigfreda Maddox • The Puppeteer of the Dead || Information Post || Interaction Call

XVI [THE TOWER] Unknown • Epithet

XVII [THE STAR] Rio • The Shimmering Piximander of Zaun || Information Post || Interaction Call

XVIII [THE MOON] Unknown • Epithet

XIX [THE SUN] Unknown • Epithet

XX [JUDGEMENT] Unknown • Epithet

XXI [THE WORLD] Unknown • Epithet

W [MONARCH OF WANDS] Unknown • Epithet

C [MONARCH OF CUPS]  Unknown • Epithet

S [MONARCH OF SWORDS]  Unknown • Epithet

P [MONARCH OF PENTACLES]  Unknown • Epithet

[wayfaringstrangxr]

🛏️ (from Mel to Jayce)

send 🛏️ for my  muse’s reaction to yours crawling into bed with them ( add reverse for my muse crawling into bed with yours ! ) @rntr-testinggrounds

He was dreaming about that day again, it was almost like if the cold reached his body outside the dream, as if it would freeze it all, forever. And when his throat couldn't stand another scream for help, the sky cleared, the snow storm was pushed away and the sun brought warmth to his cold skin. The same smile that appeared on his dream, could also be seen as Mel approach him.

Unconsciously he opened his arms for her to lay on his chest, while in his dream, flower started to bloom amidst the melting snow.

[zaunitelizard]

I am setting up a multi-muse blog on it's own account.

This is all my OCs I have had on Tumblr since starting my first OC in 2013. Some I have merged due to not having much substance/backstory on their own; but they have all been adjusted to be Arcane/League of Legends muses.

As some of the role play fandoms I have been in over the past decade have been exceedingly toxic to point where I've felt ostracised (abusive anons telling me to k**l myself was the least of it).

So far, I have felt safe in the Arcane/League of Legends role play community, despite only being here for 1 month.

In addition to my OCs, I am going to have Jayce, Viktor and Warwick as test muses. I am interested in writing them, but have no clue if I would be any good at them.

[thenextchapterbegins]

Pinned post

Current mood: low activty/small hiatus.

SINCE THIS HAS COME UP MORE THEN ONCE AND IK HOW TO FIX IT BUT IT WOULD BREAK LINKS ON MY PAGE  AND ITS HONESTLY A HASSAL TO FIX. “MAIN HUB” IS WHAT U CLICK TO ACCESS ALL MY BIOS AND THE PANTHEON IS TO ACCESS MY MULTIMUSE FANDOMLESS OCS BIOS

ALSO MAJORLY IMPORTANT. most if not all the muses on this blog vary in differences in canon, you could call this a canon divergent multimuse/multifandom blog. never go into any rp assuming any of my lore else you'll most likely GET VERY CONFUSED REACTIONS. this is also in many of my hubs but im just gonna put it here as well. Always make sure to read bios, important event and ask questions if needed before interactions. its really for the best so rps dont get bogged down by inconsistencies and lack of knowledge.

ALSO ALSO THE PINNED POST HAS AN IMPORTANT EVENTS SECTION UNDER THE READ MORE. PLEASE READ THESE. POSTS IN THE IMPORTANT SECTION ARE WELL KNOWN EVENTS IN MY LORE.

New muses:

Pitch black {bio finished}

For mobile users:

Arcane muses:

Jayce {heavily canon divergent} silco, sevika, viktor, vander {warwick coming soon}, marcus

Rules

Bg3 muses:

Umbral Bio 

Small mun stuff

age: 26

What you can call me: legend or the gremlin. Either or is fine.

18+ minors dont interact. Cant believe i have to add this but you kids are wack.

rping experience: 10ish years by this point atleast

Current Event:

{just forewarning i do not update the pinned alot so these active fandoms may be wrong. hay im not perfect and i very scatterbrained.}

Test muse: cloud from ff7,  -ahem-

Newest muses: Karkat vantas. The hero {from the void}

Highest muse: umbral

Active fandoms: Bg3, Arcane

Semi active:

Inactive: all the rest

below is all important lore informations that happended durings rps.

Helluva/hazbin hotel boss important lore:

Satherial: The blade of creation

Vox: Vox reveals his true nature. 

Blitz:On relationships The return of the playwright

The overlords proclamation The princes death

The magnum opus {this is the rp thread in which me and winter roleplay stolases demise. its about 14 replies if you wanna read it all}

Lucifer:

 The hellborn rights act The Justice, Liberty and Competency act

Fnaf important lore

Springtrap: Memories

Bhna important lore posts:

Izuku: 

knowing who’s in control.

   Faceless lore  {shinso lore} The grand reveal {shinso lore}  Friendly reminder  {ooc reminder}

   Izuku rescuing eri  Times change {tomura lore}

Arcane important lore posts

The dream (Jayce) The first experiment {Jayce} The 2nd experiment {Jayce}

Below is considered non canon as of season 2 but ill leave it for a whatif if things could have been better in a way

The final experiment {The birth of mage jayce} 

Arcade springtrap icons by: @securityglitch

Legend of zelda important lore:

Link:

Lore for the fallen hero verse: The church of majora

[viktorredemptionarc]

Title: For a moment we get to be glorious.

A/N: Hozier possessed me at 1am.

Word Count: 2150.

Characters/Relationships: Jayce/Viktor.

Rating: G.

Summary: I couldn't utter my love when it counted, but I'm singing like a bird about it now. And I couldn't whisper when you needed it shouted, but I'm singing like a bird about it now.

Link to AO3 again.

Viktor loved Jayce in ways he couldn't grasp or comprehend. It hurt him, and it elevated him, and it destroyed him, and it rebuilt him, and it made him weak and strong and all the things that mattered and all the things that didn't. It was a feeling so enormous that not even giving emotions up could smother it.

It did change, with time, warped by scorn and resentment. It was only natural, Viktor reasoned, for a lifetime of disappointment to make him bitter. It wasn't his fault that Jayce, when given the chance, betrayed him. It was the way of life when the heart was involved, and he would be better off without its petty and capricious whims. Nothing good had ever come of them, after all.

"There is something on your mind, creator," Blitzcrank says, standing tall by Viktor's side in his laboratory down in Zaun, and he corrects himself. One good thing did come out of his impulsive and idealistic youth, and it was Blitzcrank. And nothing else. "Is there anything worrying you?"

"In a way, yes," he circles Blitzcrank and bends down to reach a bolt that needs screwing on what would be its ankle. It buzzes with static, but doesn't comment farther. "Have you seen Jayce lately?"

"Yes," Viktor's fingers tighten around the wrench, yet he keeps on working. Refuses to give into his own weakness. He did ask, after all. "He was in Zaun this Monday. He has changed."

It pauses. Viktor twists the bolt one last time and stands. Blitzcrank is looking up at the ceiling, a hand on where its chin would be. Viktor waits, leaving the wrench on a stool while Blitzcrank chooses how it wants to speak.

"He said hello. He looked tired. He asked about you, too. I think that he misses you," it thinks, Viktor muses, and there's a sense of wonder to it all. To an artificial intelligence making that kind of statement, thinking, maybe trying to understand complex human relationships, attempting perhaps to fix them to the best of its capacity. Viktor feel proud of Blitzcrank like, he suspects, a father must do of a child. "I think that you miss him too."

Blitzcrank looks down, directly at him from above, and Viktor looks up, meets its eyes and finds that he is incapable of lying to it.

"What do you reckon I should do, given the situation?" he asks, partly to test Blitzcrank's thought process' boundaries and partly to have any kind of advice. Blitzcrank buzzes and hisses, drops a hand so Viktor can put his over it, and makes a drawn out metallic noise that sounds almost like a sigh.

"Humans are complicated. I do not know what you should do. You are unhappy. The other human is unhappy. How could you stop being unhappy? I am not equipped to solve this kind of problem," it says, voice booming, and Viktor hums. "But I know you, creator. You are good. You want to do good. You have been sad for a long time. Be good to yourself."

Viktor watches his hand, dwarfed and fragile as it rests on the tip of Blitzcrank's finger, and decides not to tell it that he's afraid of having forgotten how.

-x-

It's almost dawn and Viktor is awake. He has been thinking about what Blitzcrank told him for days, but hasn't reached a satisfactory conclusion. What an ambiguous statement considering what Blitzcrank is. It's as fascinating as it's frustrating, and he would like to know who taught it abstract thought to that extent but he's sure that might have been just Blitzcrank itself.

"This is ludicrous," Viktor starts at the voice, looking up from his workbench and at a woman enclosed in shadow crossing the door to his laboratory as he, albeit reluctantly, gets ready to fight. "Viktor, we need to talk."

When the green light graces her features, Viktor relaxes upon recognizing Camille. She stops by a window, several feet away from him, frowning as much as she's able to. It's rare to see her in any kind of mood.

"Do we?" he asks, and she clicks her tongue. "I'll take that as a yes. What's the matter?"

"It's Jayce," she spits the word with such disdain Viktor is worried for Jayce's life. Camille turns to him, eyes set on Viktor's, and he can see her lips twitch down for a fraction of a second. "He has requested to see you."

Viktor has been lured into traps before, and it does not sound like Camille's style but he isn't willing to rush into one.

"That isn't something he'd do," Camille sighs, in a way that makes Viktor himself feel tired.

"This is all so very delightful, Viktor, but I don't have time to lose with your fits of nostalgic longing," she steps his way, her sharp legs clanking on the floor, and Viktor huffs. "He's a gruelling imbecile but I expected better from you."

"Why send you?"

She quirks an eyebrow at him. "Blitzcrank is busy. Who else both knows Jayce and would brave Zaun at this hour and come out of it unscathed?"

Camille doesn't wait for him to answer before turning around and walking towards the door, only stopping to look at him over her shoulder until he stands.

-x-

Jayce has changed.

Standing in the street in front of his workshop, alone with him now that Camille is gone after guiding him there, Viktor observes and categorizes and tries to rebuild what he once knew about Jayce to avoid thinking about how he's feeling.

And Jayce has changed.

Viktor remembers how he was the last time he saw him. There was something about him, his stance, that was off-putting in how arrogant it was. As if he believed that the world owed him, that Viktor owed him. Eyes set on the future, a blind trust in his own judgment, often ignoring that he made choices with too much haste.

He's looking at a defeated man now, slouching his shoulders and unshaven, in a ratty t-shirt and old pants. Jayce doesn't look like the defender of tomorrow, but Viktor recalls that he never wanted to be so either. He's blocking the open door; yet it isn't a hostile posture, just a place to be at. There is not heat in his eyes. No weapons in his hands.

Viktor is at a loss.

"You came," Jayce says, after what feels like years of silence. His voice is hoarser than Viktor remembers and it breaks his carefully built composure, memories of times long gone bringing with them an onslaught of emotions that he's relieved to be able to hide behind a mask. "I didn't think you would. Not alone, at least."

"You requested to see me," he answers, and Jayce nods. "Is that all?"

"I requested to see you, not your mask."

Reluctant as he is to let Jayce see him, Viktor also feels as raw as he hasn't in years. There's love, and animosity, and blinding hatred, and scorn. There's the aching certainty of things lost that cannot be recovered. A lifetime of missed chances and mistakes.

"Why should I indulge you?"

Jayce shrugs. "Why not?"

It's the simplicity of it that gets to him. The nonchalance. The way Jayce doesn't try to fight or argue. He looks open, vulnerable. Viktor doesn't understand why.

"You've changed," he says, and Jayce laughs. It's something that Viktor hasn't heard in, perhaps, twenty years. It makes his heart clench and his breathing stutter.

"I do hope so. I've had some time to think," he reaches out then, and Viktor only avoids stepping back out of pride, to tap on Viktor's mask. "Please, Viktor."

He sighs as he reaches back to unclasp the mask, letting it drop to the floor. Jayce locks eyes with him the second he looks up, and breaking that contact isn't even an option.

"Why," Viktor breathes out as Jayce traces the line of his nose with a finger, not seeming like he's even listening to him. "Jayce. Why are you doing this."

"You needed me," Jayce mutters, and drops his hand with a grimace.

Viktor scoffs. "That's presumptuous."

"But you did. And I wasn't there."

"That happened twenty years ago."

"It's still happening," Jayce points at his arm, at his hand. At himself. He smiles, rueful and lopsided. "I'm tired of living like this."

Viktor closes his eyes and breathes through his nose as he counts to three to keep his emotions at bay. The sudden, blazing, rush of fury. The undercurrent of longing. The way he loves him, still, quiet and ridden with regret. When he opens them, Jayce sighs.

"I'm exhausted, Viktor, and you seem to be too."

"When haven't I be," he says, and Jayce shakes his head.

"I should have told you then, you know? That I loved you. When you...when everything happened. I might have done things differently."

It takes a beat for Viktor to understand what Jayce has said, and once he does he gets the sudden urge to punch him. He doesn't, but he's angry. Bitter. Can't fully believe what Jayce has said. Can't fully believe that it would have changed anything.

"You might have done things in the exact same way," he answers, and Jayce's smile is genuine then.

"Maybe. Who am I to say. All I know is that hating you is vexing, and I can't do it. Even Blitzcrank could tell that I couldn't. And I'm over it, I'm beyond trying to."

"My hatred is genuine," Viktor can only answer with the truth, and the second Jayce opens his mouth to talk he rises a hand, remembering Blitzcrank's words at the mention of it. "And I did love you, I somehow still do. Not in the same way, never in the same way. But admitting it could be what's best for me. Denying it hasn't done any good."

They stand in front of each other in silence. Jayce won't stop looking at Viktor's eyes as if they're a lifeline and he were drowning. There's desperation, Viktor can see. Muted and buried deep. A plea that Viktor isn't sure he can answer to.

"What now," Jayce says, and Viktor is as lost as he's ever been. There's too much to talk about to get it over with in the wee hours of the morning. There are too many emotions tangled together in regards to Jayce to make peace with them in a day. So he doesn't know, and he can't answer. "I know that look. It's okay. I just...I needed you to know. It was important that you knew. I was too stupid to say it then, might as well do it now."

"Why now."

Viktor knows that Jayce will understand that he means it both literally and figuratively. Why then, in that very moment. Why then, after twenty years. Why after they've fought. Why when things seem too bad to fix. Why when they don't know how to exist together in a way that isn't full of regrets, contempt and sadness.

"Because it has changed, and it has changed me, but it holds the same truth now as it did twenty years ago. What's different is me."

Jayce bends down and puts Viktor's mask on his hand as he stands, closes his own finger's around Viktor's wrist loosely. Viktor stares down at him in wonder.

"I am different, too."

"Yes," Jayce sighs, squeezes his wrist once and drops it. Viktor feels the absence of that touch like he's never felt it before. "Guess I'll let you go, for now."

'For now' sounds like a promise and Viktor despises himself for harboring hope, yet what else can he do if he wants to at least attempt to be good to himself. He'll have that, at least, and he'll reach out to Jayce and drag his organic fingers across his cheek and tuck a strand of hair behind his ear before he loses his nerve. Jayce closes his eyes to the touch, opens them only once Viktor's clasped his mask back on.

"I'm sorry," Jayce says, and Viktor would cry if he were alone. He has waited so long to hear him say that. What's the price he's going to have to pay for getting this? "We'll talk about this, okay? I really needed to...tell you. I had to."

"I understand," because he does. He's intimately familiar with the way emotions can become too big for his own skin and try to burst out of him without his control. It makes him weak. "I do."

Jayce nods, takes a deep breath, and pats his metallic hand once before stepping back.

Neither of them says goodbye. Viktor doesn't think they can stand it. He knows he can't.

He turns on his heel and walks away feeling Jayce's eyes following him until he's out of sight.

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"Oh exactly, long term planning is hard. I am not sure I will ever be smart enough with my money to ever be able to buy a house." Paisley added as she felt having a decent home was essential to having a family. "I mean, you can get used to anything. I am not sure that means it gets easier."

Laughing, Jayce nodded his head in agreement. ❝ You’re telling me! It’s crazy to think about that people are like yeah let’s get married, let’s have a baby. I’m still trying to figure out what I want to eat tomorrow morning. ❞ He extended his hand outwards to make a point. ❝ I believe it would be but I’m told it gets easier over time. ❞

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♡ (Mel to Jayce)

Kayn (their canon verse)

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Jayce and Mel

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