#terry is filled with so much guilt he tried to PERMA die to avenge what he did to nicky

[abnormallyo-a-k]

seeing all the reblogs and tags on my terricky post has me going not only feral but properly insane

I'm so glad yall see the vision - now hear me out on some sad headcanons (happy ones will come later) :

After The Betrayal™️ for about a year (the expiration limit of inhalers) Terry still kept Nicky's inhalers in easy to access places, the glove compartment of his car, in his go bags, in his office, in any place that nicky and he were together in a lot. But after they expired, they now sit in a little box tucked away safely. He tried to throw them away, but he just couldn't.

Terry keeps his office locked because the others come in, move shit, and don't put things back in the right spot and it drives him crazy. It's lessened since Nicky left, and he misses it now. The lock had never stopped him since he could just... carve portals into Terry's office. But he misses the scent of sulfur in his office and finding his shit fucked with.

He's big on organization, he has filing cabinets in his office he fills with important documents, scrolls, and other shit he'll need to quick access too. But one of them, the top one, is always locked.

He keeps the name plate that was on Nicky's office door locked away in that drawer, because one of the others tried to throw it away, and he couldn't handle seeing Nicky's name in the trash. So he put it with all the important documents he keeps stored away in his locked office.

He keeps all photos he has of him, Nicky, and the others in his office both at daddies and at home.