#tel appears for a second im sorry

[m-herra]

Something I forgot to post last night was some Narek combat

[chocosvt]

i just BINGED honeyboy and i HAD to tel lyou that oh my god i loved it so much!! everything- the mood, the set up, the progression, the way the journal, god, wow, it's amazing, i'm so in love, take my hand. and halfway through reading it, when it got to that part about seokmin saying he liked mc, i thought, oh. it's gonna feature more but it didn't really and i realised that oh gosh it's like, suri has been set out to be such a dislikeable character but if you think about it she's not the only

continued: selfish person there is, is there? because god you just heard this boy say he's interested in you and yet he doesn't feature until he /physically appears before you. gosh, i don't know how you did it but now i am super invested in suri's perspective on this entire thing. !!!!!! god the parallels(?). suri begging you to take the blame, and then suri not lending you her necklaces. and then finding the journal in the jewellery box (i'm sure i got the chronology wrong but) !!! im screaming. 

i swear, i swear this is the last part to this ask i just, i'm i feel like i've stumbled across a movie mid-flight and am sobbing into my airline-sanctioned blanket. i'm so fond of this. i'm so in awe of the weight it carries. it's like a fever dream in the best possible way. !!!!!!! you have truly made my night and my next few days - whenever i'm not studying for finals i shall think of this fondly. thank you <3

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OMG SARA!!!!!!!!!!!! i haven’t seen your handle around lately so when i saw that you reblogged my fic i was like,,, dashing over to read ur input!! it’s so nice to hear from you and i hope you are in good spirits/health ;w; and no worries, i loved reading these asks lol!! suri is a bit like the reader’s foil in the sense that she’s upfront and very self-confident (which seem like positive attributes, but y’know that rule of writing where too much good thing = bad thing) while the mc is designed to be secluded and constantly second guessing herself. so suri is like an exaggerated version of the reader?? it’s weird to explain but :S

JFEWRF YEAH I LOVE WRITING PARALLELS AND MAKING THINGS COME FULL CIRCLE IT BRINGS ME AN ELATION I CANNOT DESCRIBE. the reason i didn’t press too deep into the love triangle is bc that’s not the main trope of the story. seokmin was sorta just there as a tool to expose mingyu’s feelings abt the reader which he may not have realized he even had (whoops sorry seokmin didn’t mean to call u a tool t-t) in fact i lowkey despise love triangles bc i h8 the idea of choosing between two good hearted ppl ,,,, I RLY APPRECIATE UR LOVELY WORDS AND I’M V HAPPY YOU ENJOYED IT! 

[1a-little-obsessed1-blog]

School with the MAGCON boys pt 3

I Wake up the next morning in Nash’s arms, something felt strange. i made the wrong decision my dad’s gonna kill me... 

I wriggle my way out of his arms and put my bathrobe on.

“ZAHRA ARE YOU AWAKE! IT’S 8:30?!” My dad calls me from downstairs.

“Im just gonna brush my teeth and wash my face.” I replied...

I pick my phone up and see tons of texts from shawn. 

Zahra? you ok? where are you? i need to tell you something...  ARE YOU MAD AT ME?! I KNEW IT YOUR WITH NASH!

SHAWN! im fine!!!!

you ok?

and yes i WAS with Nash.

also im not mad at you, why would i be?

You got me worried... well Mahogany might be mad at you...

What Shawn why?

she told you not to speak to Nash and you did... i have no part in this so if anything goes down don’t include me!

she cant control me... i can talk to whoever i want!

well i agree with you. It’s just that...

????

He’s dating Darcy Thorton...

WHAT?! NOW IM PISSED OFF. 

Yup. you need to talk to him now!

Boi you think im gonna just talk to him?! Im gonna bitch slap this child.

go girl! well gtg my dad’s making pancakes.

bye be safe shawnie!!!

I put my phone in the pocket of my robe. i then turn to see Nash as he sat up rubbing his eyes. “Morning!” i say trying to cover up my anger

“Morning beautiful”

“Hey Nash quick question..”

“yeah?”

“are you in a relationship?”

“Well you see... um.. i.”

“Yes.Or.NO?” I say more sternly.

“I kinda broke up with her two weeks ago...”

“Darcy Thorton?”

“How do you know?” 

“I have my sources..” I say relieved that Shawn was in my life

“I lied... Last night...”

“WHAT?”

“I came because darcy was outside my house knocking on the door screaming my name and saying that she loves me and she wants me back. so when i was walking home after Dropping you off I see My mum looking at me from the bedroom window signaling me to sneak into the backyard. i did so and then Hayes Handed me a bag and told me to run. I then ran from the back to the front yard and Darcy saw me, she then ran after me but slowly lost me, i was in Matt’s Neighborhood so i went to his house and played video games for a few hours. i needed a place to sleep but Matt said there was no space so i figured you’d let me stay...”

“Oh.. Right. well i guess thats ok but you should’ve told me.. that she was after you.”

“Your my only girl. Only you. no one els.” he smiled at me.

“You need to brush your teeth...” 

“I have my toothbrush”

we both went into the bathroom and brushed our teeth we then tried to creep downstairs until this happened...

I walked into the kitchen trying to distract my dad while he made waffles for breakfast as Nash attempted to hide under the dining table.

“So dad hows work?” I say trying to sound interested.

“Hunny.”

“Yes father?”

“I know.”

“What?!”

“Tell the boy to come out its fine. i heard your conversations my room is nextdoor you know?”

“You surprise me sometimes...”

Nash appeared in the doorway of the kitchen with a smile on his face.

“Come sit down son and tel me bout yourself.”

I felt so embarrassed, i mean yes its great having a young relateable  dad and all but sometimes he brings out the really “Dad” side of him and its just weird.  

he asked questions about school, parents, siblings me.. really “Dad” stuff.I kinda enjoyed watching Nash answer his questions, it made me feel like i wasn’t alone.

_3:30_

Nash and i were sitting together on the sofa watching Paranormal Activity as i hugged him tight. i was scared i held him tight and he kept his arm around me holding me close.

“Hey you wanna go to a party at 4?”

“Sure whatever but dont expect me to look  like a supermodel.”

I got up and went to my room and got dressed into something more “Suitable” for this occasion. I Wore a Black skater skirt, Blue shirt and a pair of black vans. i then put my hair up in a pony tail and applied some makeup. I run back downstairs and find Nash wearing a Red “Obey” t-shirt and bluejeans. he had a cute little smirk on his face, he looked me up and down he then licked his lips. “Hey.” I say quietly. “You look good...You ready?” he says with a bit of a sexy tone, it kinda turned me on a little. “Yeah... on sec” i then poke my head upstairs and shout. “PAPA IM GONNA GO OUT SEE YA AT DINNER! IM TAKING THE KEYS!!” i then take my hoodie from the coat hanger and put my phone and keys in the pocket. i then held Nash's hand and we walked to the driveway to his house he came out of the garage in a black jeep. i sat in the front next to him. we were driving for about 20 mins until we got to a house where there were a bunch of other teenagers drunk or high. there were flashing lights and alcohol bottles everywhere including a sprinkle of condom wrappers The music was almost deafening. we walked in and i noticed Mahogany and Shawn in the corner of a small room with a closet filled with vodka and a table in the middle. i let go of Nash’s hand and run to go and hug my two bestfriends.”Guys!!!”

“what are you doing here?!” shawn asked

“....” Mahogany didnt say anything

“I just wanted to be out of the house...”

“OK I’M SO SORRY IM SUCH A BAD FRIEND ZAHRA PLEASE DONT HOLD A GRUDGE AGAINST ME!!!” mahogany sounded so sad. she hugged me tight.

“How could i be mad at you?! your my bestfriend!” I say hugging her back.

“Hey dont forget me!” Shawn said jokingly he then joined us in the group hug. 

“How about a we get some drinks.” says Mahogany releasing us from the hug.

“Sure!” I say enthusiastically.

as we walk into what was meant to be the kitchen i notice two people making out. I took a closer look and notice who it was. Nash and Darcy. I feel tears roll down my face as i run up to Nash and slap him. all i could get out of my mouth was. “I Trusted you. and you threw it away.” I stormed out of the front door dragging Shawn and Mahogany with me.  They notice me sobbing and sit me down on a bench outside the house. “I should've known...” i whispered

“Its not your fault” Replied mahogany.

“Dont cry il sing for you” Shawn says.

“You guys are the best. but...”

“What? But what?” they both say confused.

“Im gonna have to go soon... like out with my dad. I cant get too attached. I guess i learnt that the easy way. I never even had a mother to get attached to.” Depressing thought flooded my mind before being interrupted by Nash.

“Please Zahra i didnt mean to!”

“ Just leave me alone.” tears kept pouring out of my eyes.

Before i knew it the guys all surrounded me. Matt holding my hand along with Shawn. I didnt know Matt that well but from all i could collect he was a friend he was kind, nice and he didnt look too bad.

“I haven’t got time for you. I didnt think you were that type of person. Im not sorry Nash and i hope you have a good life jumping from hoe to hoe without being held down by someone who cares about you.” I let go of their hands and started walking. Matt ran after me and before i knew it he caught up.

“Hey you ok?” He asked, concerned.

“Nope. It wouldn't even work im probably gonna go live in London with my grandparents...” I was actually sad. I kinda liked it here. 

“Nash is a jerk sometimes, he barely has a brain in that head of his, but he really likes you. I mean seriously all the guys are into you...”

“Are you?” I ask curiously.

“Wow this is... weird... well yeah. i guess.” He started blushing. i wiped my tears away and gave him a cheeky smile.

“Well i dont even know how im gonna get home.” For a second i kinda felt a spark with matt. but that all went when it came to the fact that he had a dog. I have a Major problem with dogs. They chase me. all the time. When i was 6 i was attacked by a dog and it bit my leg. i have a scar but its kinda faded.

“Ill drop you off...”

“HOW DOES EVERYONE KNOW MY ADDRESS????!!!”

“J told all of us, guess he kinda go a bit excited...”

-----Getting home-----

Matt drops me off home. i walk into my house and see my dad in the dining room setting up the table for three... I run and hug him tight. All i could say was “I dont wannna grow up papa”

“Hunny whats wrong?!” He sounded concerned. 

Instantly i started breaking down into tears and told him everything.

“Hunny, sometimes boys and men do things when they’re drunk... i dont blame you for bring upset anyone would, but think rationally. what he did was unacceptable, but you have to let him know how you feel before walking away. sweetheart i know you love him a lot. Your a strong girl like your mother. You can do this. I’m sorry that we’re always moving around. but we’re gonna stay here a little longer, only until your 16 in july. 3 days after your birthday we’re going home. Going back to your Grandparent’s house in London our journey is over soon so go have fun.” Getting that lecture from him made me feel better. I hugged him tight before i said “Dad, i bet mum loved you lots, you always know the right things to say.” I hear the doorbell ring and i run to open it. As i open the door its pushed open by everyone i had met in school bombaring me with hugs. “Guys i need to breath!!!” they all back away and i lead them into the living room. we all sat on the floor and started speaking. There were some people I didnt recognize but Shawn introduced me to them. I knew pretty much everyone we were all like a family.my dad brought dinner for all of us, There was Cameron Dallas, Jack J,Jack G,Matthew Espinosa, Taylor Caniff, Arron Carpenter, Carter Reynolds, Mahogany, Shawn and me. we were all talking about stuff and i kind of opened up to them, my dad watched us talk with a smile. i guess he was happy that i had people who loved me like a parent, shared secrets like a sibling, opened up like an aunt or uncle and stood by me like friends. 

They all left around 10 o’clock so i decided that i was gonna call it a night and put on my jammies. I took my makeup off and took a long look in the mirror and smiled. i just said to myself “Gosh Zahra sometimes things can be hard just keep getting back up and you’ll be ok...” I leave the bathroom and take one last look out my window before i ended my night. I then saw a dark shadow fun past my window. I dont think much of it and i close my curtains. *knock on window* i look back at the window and see Nash standing there.” i open it.

“What do you want?!” I say firmly not letting any of my emotions show..

“Please... let me talk to you...” i could tell he was pretty upset with himself. i let him in and shut the window.

“You have 5 mins... please dont waste it.”A part of me still loves him, and always will..

“Look, i have no excuses. I wont say she came on to me because that would be a lie. and i wont say i came onto her because that would also be a lie. i was drunk out of my mind. my had hurt and i didnt know where you were. I thought i saw you but then i blacked out the next thing i knew i was having a make out sesh with Darcy Thorton. What im trying to say is. You might not like me the way you did before. You might not see me the way you did before. and i understand. And god i wouldn’t mind having my heart broken by you having my heart broken by you would be a pleasure. But your forgiveness is all i need. Do you forgive me?” He really meant it. he really put thought into it.

“Of course i forgive you” I leaped into his arms wrapping my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck. He wrapped his arms around my waist and held me tight. I lifted my head away from his shoulder, we stared directly into  each others eyes before we had a blissful kiss. That kiss turned into a full on make out session, Our tongues danced as we kissed. he then laied me down on my bed and gave me a kiss. He was about to leave before i told him he could stay here, with me. “Please stay... I really need you here please...”

“Anything for you...”

He undressed only wearing his boxers. I bit my lip, i cant lie he looked hot. he then made his way to my bed and cuddled me to sleep and just as i was half asleep he says “goodnight sleeping beauty...” and i just whisper “Goodnight prince charming...”