#tdous

[smugvillanelle]

two boys alone in space? no! two boys who are happy and in love and nothing bad ever happens!!! 🫶❄️

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[metalandmagi]

Going the entirety of The Darkness Outside Us without knowing that Kodiak wore a skirt back on Earth is like going all of the Captive Prince trilogy without knowing Damen has a dimple.

[anti-homophobia-cheese]

feeling personally victimised by Eliot Schrefer. my god this book is just. relentless.

[mollymauk-teafleak]

Thinking about Kodiak and Ambrose and their early years on Minerva.

Thinking about the first time it rains and they run outside, the two of them getting soaked to the skin but laughing so delightedly and dancing together in the sudden downpour, their footprints glowing.

Thinking about Kodiak being unable to put baby Yarrow down in his crib once he has him in his arms because he has these vague memories of being in the orphanage and never getting held, he's desperate to give his tiny son all the love and affection he can so he never knows that kind of loneliness. Ambrose has to gently coax him, promising that Yarrow won't mind if he sets him down to sleep, that they'll be right next to him in their own bed if he needs them.

Thinking about the first time a storm hits and little Yarrow knocking on the dad's door, his little sister clinging to his other hand because she's scared of the noise but won't admit it. So Yarrow says he's very frightened of the storm, can he and Owl come sleep with you guys? And Kodiak and Ambrose just smile, making as much room as they can for their little ones to snuggle up between them, holding them so safe.

Thinking about how Ambrose has never seen Kodiak cry until they lose one of their babies and then he sobs like he's never going to stop and all he can do is just hold into him and pray his arms are enough to stop him falling apart completely.

Thinking about Kodiak and Ambrose calling each other husband because sure, that doesn't mean much out here and there's no legal meaning to it anymore but they made promises to each other one quiet night and that means everything to them.

Thinking about one time Kodiak checks his list of tasks for the day and is confused to see it wiped off its usual chores to keep the homestead running. Instead there's just one job on it and reading it makes him blush. He turns and Ambrose is leaning in the doorway to their room with a huge flirty grin on his face, pointing out that their children are out playing for the next few hours and they have their first alone time in who knows how long so he took the liberty of adjusting your schedule appropriately. Kodiak just shakes his head fondly and lifts Ambrose right off his feet, carrying him to their bed while he laughs.

[jeanmoreaux]

rotating "Intimacy is the only shield against insanity. Intimacy, not knowledge. Intimacy, not power." so fast in my head i suffer from vertigo

[hanging-with-the-gnomies]

Ambrose and Kodiak when their baby finishes 3D printing

[machtaholic]

Okay, I am reading 'The Brightness Between Us' (sequel to 'The Darkness Outside Us') and ...I just finished Part 4 and ...

FUCK DEVON MUJABA!

[miadeardn]

some gifs from a tdou edit i made :)

[a-novel-venture-blog]

“He’s a stranger, a lover, and my life partner. We have lived and died lifetimes together, and it makes me shiver every time that odd truth comes over me.”

[taste-thewaste]

Nowhere is truly empty. The thought makes me feel lavishly alone. Somehow, space is so deeply melancholy that it's not at all sad, like a note so low it ceases to sound. Even my sorrow about my insignificance feels insignificant.

The Darkness Outside Us, Eliot Schrefer

[edsearring]

i'm seated. the bookstore employees are scared and asking me to leave because it's "not october yet" but i'm simply too seated

[offonaherosjourney]

The Darkness Outside Us more like Gaslight, Gatekeep, OSboss

[metalandmagi]

Kodiak: So yeah, my training consisted of getting thrown into a dark pool of water and fighting my fellow cadets for a key, Hunger Games style.

Ambrose, knowing fully well that his training mostly consisted of writing essays: Oh damn that's crazy...

[anti-homophobia-cheese]

i'm thinking about Henry's dear thisbe note and how that is what spurs Alex into action. he's quite stuck and unsure about how to proceed until he finds that note.

i know Henry is the one who runs, who self-sabotages his relationship. but i like to think his past self still managed to look out for his love when he quietly put the note in Alex's kimono.

[an-assortment-of-forks]

rereading The Darkness Outside Us to feel something.

Eliot Schrefer tweeted a review that said "it's like if interstellar came out as gay and then pushed me down a flight of stairs" and yeah. yes. god I love this book

[hanging-with-the-gnomies]

There better be a part 3 to tdbu/tbbu or im gonna shit myself