#tbh i dont think abt vaggie that often but each time i do im like rightt im crazy about this right right right

[superkitten-poison]

how insanely difficult it must be for vaggie to dedicate every single day to helping the woman she loves work towards a goal when no matter what she just fundamentally cannot apply the basic beliefs behind that goal to herself. everyday she's in awe of how inspiring and beautiful and amazing charlie and her ideas are and thinks about how she too, in a way, is down there at all because she does believe people have the potential to be good, to be better even if they are sinners. that it doesnt make their souls worthless. but she just cant internalize that it applies to her, too. how could it? she knows what she did. she killed hundreds, thousands, indiscriminately, for years. you can't redeem that. nothing could ever redeem that. she's way past the mark of cruelty and harm almost any regular human could even feasibly Do and that makes sense because she isn't human. the hotel is a second chance for people and she doesnt get one because she's not a person. she's an exterminator. she's a monster. she's an angel. and no matter what, she always will be.