#tama having friends aa

[themisterhip]

Bro

Genos being the heart of the group. I just keep picturing him, is really cold outside, and in a big blanket with everyone (tatsumaki, fubuki and king, not just saitama) getting in since he is keeping it warm with his core

Yes, he is jealous and overprotective over Saitama; but that doesn't take away the fact that he is a good person that wants to protect others first

[project-sekai-facts]

what are some cases of 2dmvs having the same artist ? off the top of my head i remember the artist for teratera ( i THINK ) has done an mv for each group ?

yeah! that one was done by famous vocaloid artist Rella, who also did RAD DOGS, Kanade Tomosu Sora, Worldwide Wander, and Mr. Showtime. She also did the in-game Vocaloid MV for Just Be Friends. She's actually tied with another artist, Rozuki, for most MVs. Rozuki illustrated Jackpot Sad Girl, Nonsense Bungaku, Ifuudoudou (Fantasista Sqaud), IDSMILE, Goodbye Sengen, and Hitorinbo Envy.

Some other examples of MVs sharing artists are:

Jishou Mushoku, 88☆彡, Kitty, ULTRA C - Suoh

NIJIIRO STORIES, Time Machine (L/n), Ren'ai Saiban, Aa Subarashiki Nyansei - Tama

Miracle Paint, MORE! JUMP! MORE!, Mirai - BUZZ

Sweet Magic (WxS), TONDEMO-WONDERZ, Killer - 4

Hibana -Reloaded-, Salamander, Vampire - Hachisan

Hello,world!, Identity, CYBERPUNK DEAD BOY - LAM

Positive☆Dance Time (WxS and Happiness Sentai), Be The MUSIC! - kinoshita

Chikyuu Saigo no Kokuhaku o, Fragile (vsinger) - Atikix

Umiyuri Kaiteitan, Mousou Kanshou Daishou Renmei - Awashima

Lower, Shinpakusuu#0822 - Hechima

Gekkou, Teammate - Hidari

Metamo Re:born, Venom (Shumijin) - Iwato

magic number, Aioi - Kamogawa

I Nandesu, Empurple - Kanmikan

DAYBREAK FRONTLINE, Sore ga Anata no Shiawase to Shite mo - Kotatiyu

Dance Robot Dance (vsinger), Dappou Rock - Kurumitsu

Happy Synthesizer (MMJ), Dreamin Chuchu - Mogelatte

once upon a dream, Awake Now - Murakami Yuichi

Aoku Kakero! (Aoharu/friends), Sweet Magic (vsinger) - Nitanda Cona

KING, Peaky Peaky - Nou

Watashi wa Ame, Kaisei - Oishii Same

Telecaster B-Boy, Alien Alien - RL

ECHO, Cutlery - Shikimi

Happy Synthesizer (YYJ), SEIBAI ITAAAAAASU! -△○□×

Ryuusei no Pulse, Hurray - Tomioka Jirou

Glory Steady Go!, Parasol Cider - Uzaki Uso

Warera Stain Busters!, Hug - wogura

[airsoftaction]

AIRSOFT ACTION ISSUE 155 LANDS - GET YOUR FREE COPY NOW!

It appears that we've been a little remiss in our coverage of, and commenting on, Designated Marksman platforms in our RED CELL testing, so this month we're devoting an entire issue to them! Stewbacca kicks things off as he takes the OPFOR high ground and gets his teeth into the all-new and exciting SVDS from LCT airsoft! Swift with a follow-up shot as always Bill then gets stuck into two well-priced rifles for BLUFOR in the shape of the Double Bell SCAR H and Golden Eagle HK417, and then RED CELL get their heads together to look at a mix of FIFTEEN different "big bore" rifles that they've been using and abusing for some considerable time. We also take a look at OPTICS suitable for your DMR, and Bill rounds things out as he reflects on the VFC M110K1 GBBR after owning and shooting it for a year! Of course mixed in we have our usual coverage of kit and gear as we look at boots from PROTEKTOR, and in THE CAGE we hone back in on A-TACS. International coverage this month comes from our AA Legionnaires in Japan and Taiwan; our friend Tama rejoins us from Tokyo to tell us about airsoft at the V-SHOW, Anny reports on her recent training adventures, and along with Stewbacca brings in a big report on the bi-annual TAIWAN DEFENCE EXPO! As always we hope that there's a little of "something airsoft" for everyone, so kick on back, grab a cup o' joe, and enjoy ISSUE 155! Airsoft Action is FREE TO READ on the Airsoft Action website (www.airsoftaction.net), plus all of these digital publishing platforms: Issuu: Yumpu: Flickread: PocketMags: PocketMags+ (All You Can Read subscription service): Readly (All You Can Read subscription service): Magzter: You can also grab the FREE Airsoft Action app and take your entire library with you, to read whenever you like, wherever you are! Airsoft Action iOS App: Airsoft Action Android App: Read the full article

[reynanghugot]

I always want everyone na maging proud sakin kahit konti. Naalala ko the time na sinabihan ako ng mom ko ng, "nakakahiya ka" nung time na nag rerebelde ako kasi akala ko magiging okay sila ng dad ko. Yung times na pinapalitan niya yung usapan kasi her friends or our relatives nag try mag ask ng questions to her about me.

It hits me. Naalala ko nung nung unang college ko sa first school ko lahat ng best ginawa ko to get high grades and recognition but never ako nakadinig ng "galing! proud ako sayo! " I always hear na "tama yan wag ka puro lakwatsa at barkada ang mahal ng tuition mo. " "tama yan mag-aral ka wala ka mapapala sa lalaki!" hanggang sa di ako naka graduate on time.

2 years ago everyday niya ko tinatanong what's my plan. If babalik ba ko sa pag-aaral puro daw ako trabaho ngayon na bumalik ako sa pag-aaral sabi ko aa sarili ko, this time gusto ko high grades and maging proud siya pero wala pa din pala. Hindi pa din siya proud sabi niya lang, "Ikaw di na kita bibili kasi may trabaho ka na!". Imagine 1.33 FINAL GWA last sem and running 1.25 GWA ngayon 7 out of 10 na grades (wala pa yung iba) kahit man lang sana "good job" wala.

Tapos pag biniro mo na maging proud naman siya or pag sinabi mo na hirap ka between class and work ikaw pa sisisihin. I'm not after any material things naman eh, I can afford it naman kasi may sahod naman ako, may online shops ako na kumikita kahit pano. Akin lang kahit minsan ma recognize naman uli yung hard work ko. Kaso wala eh.

Hindi ako nag rereklamo if I am having a hard time between school and work. Akin lang, anak din ako. Sana mapansin yung mga ginagawa ko kahit hindi na ako okay lang. Kasi every page ng module ko, every sagot ko or ginagawa ko mapa school or work lagi ko iniisip na I need to do my best everytime kasi I want to make her proud pero hindi pa din pala. Lahat sila never na ata magiging proud.

[laa1el]

˚✧₊⁎Carnival HCs⁎⁺˳✧༚

w/ Tamaki, Shinsou, and Kirishima

Warnings: none, just pure fluff and slight crack

A/N: this is my first time writing for bnha! this was requested by my dear friend and I hope she likes it!! btw I’ve never actually been to a carnival cuz I was a boring-ass lazy kid :))

Amajiki Tamaki

- FOOD TRIPSS!1!1!

- ya’ll definitely go to food stalls in between rides, because girl needs them munchies

- 100% holds your hand in fear of you getting lost, esp if you’re smaller

- Amajiki surprisingly really likes going on rides, considering his ~anxiety~

- big, scary rides, like rollercoasters help him take his mind off his nerves and actually enjoy the trip

“Tama!! let’s go get some!” you squealed at the sight of the cotton candy stand. he followed you to buy two cones, and as he finished paying, he turned around and you were gone. Tamaki panicked at the sight of his empty hand that once held a tight grip of yours.

that was until your voice rang in his ears from the left. “hey!! I’m here- oH MY GOD” you burst into giggles as he stared at you confused but also relieved that you were okay. that was when tamaki noticed small tufts or cotton candy started appearing on his left arm.

Shinsou Hitoshi

- didn’t want to go at first thinking it was a waste of energy

- when he gives in, he LOVES the mini games, especially winning stuffed toys for you

- it isn’t obvious, but he’s having the time of life, u can see the little sparkle in his eyes throughout day

- absolutely REFUSED to go on any rides, spewing out excuses about them being lame and unsafe and that he would rather check out the stall with cat stuffies

- spoiler alert: he’s scared of rides

you and Shinsou were wandering around the many stalls and games to play, deciding on where to go next. “can we try out that one next, ‘toshi?” you asked your boyfriend. he looked up to the tall ride, screaming was heard everytime it went down. shinsou internally panicked at the thought of being in their place.

“uh h-how about we go over there? there’s plenty of cat plushies we c-could win” stuttering over his words, he faced you, looking confused with your head tilted slightly. “baby, are you scared of rides?” you asked him with a giggle, and he profusely denied it. “I’ve faced countless villains, I’m not scared of a silly amusement park ride.” you stared at him, “monoma and denki don’t count, ‘toshi... buuuuut if you’re all brave and then it’s more reason to go!!”

he nearly pissed his pants.

Kirishima Eijiro

- THE STAMINA OF THIS DUDE BOII

- it’s ride after ride and all you really want is to try out those ice cream waffles ;-;

- he has NO limits istg, the amount of times you’ve been on the huge rollercoaster? astronomical

- secretly he just likes it when you grab onto his hand for the more scary rides

- is a real gentleman throughout the entire day, letting you go first and opening doors (gates?) for you. so manly.

“this is the fourth time we’ve been on this rollercoaster eiji..” you said as you and your boyfriend made your way to the car. “but it’s fun everytime we go!! plus I’ve always wanted to go on a rollercoaster since I was young.”

midway through ride, as you were going through one of the faster parts, Kirishima has his hands in the air when suddenly a bird (!) came out of nowhere. “AA LOOK OUT KIRISHIMA” you screamed, and out of reflex, he activated his hardening quirk on his arm to shield his face from the poor bird, smacking it sideways from the ride.

“o-oh my god Kirishima did you just-“

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I hope ya’ll liked that!!

[utagoe]

A3!: Road to Manju Master! (ロードトゥ饅頭マスター) Lyrics

Kanji, romaji and English translation for Road to Manju Master by Taichi and Azami

(kanji source) パート分け：太一　莇

「千里の道も一歩から！」 「クンフーは一日にして成らず！」 「その心は…太極饅頭拳！」 「アチョー！」

「 四川(シセン)！北京(ペキン)！広東(カントン)！ 山東(シャントン)！福建(フッケン)！上海(シャンハイ)！ 叉焼麺(チャーシューメン)(YA！)」

「 四川(シセン)！北京(ペキン)！広東(カントン)！ 山東(シャントン)！福建(フッケン)！上海(シャンハイ)！ 太極拳！破！」

(ワン��ー) 落ちこぼれと言��れてても (謝謝) ダメダメ めんどくさがりでも (ヤるときゃヤるのさ！) 悔しさ超えて今こそ立ち上がれ (ハッ！) 修行の先に 目指す頂 昨日より もっと 強くなりたい

この手で今掴み取るため イーアルサンスーウーローチー 力合わせ　2人イーチージャイオ 取り戻すはその心 手を叩け さあ君も こんにちはニーハオ 敵わない相手でも 戦え いざ 極めろ太極饅頭拳 ハッ！

「 四川(シセン)！北京(ペキン)！広東(カントン)！ 山東(シャントン)！福建(フッケン)！上海(シャンハイ)！ 叉焼麺(チャーシューメン)(YA！)」

「 四川(シセン)！北京(ペキン)！広東(カントン)！ 山東(シャントン)！福建(フッケン)！上海(シャンハイ)！ 太極拳！破！」

(ハイヨー) くだらない事で揉めても (太棒！[タイバン]) ダメダメ　いい事一つも無い (ヤるときゃヤるのさ！) 諦めずに何度でも立ち上がれ (ハッ！) 修行の果てに 旅する二人 明日はもっと 強くなりたい

たまに少し　落ち込むときも イーアルサンスーウーローチー 友情こそが力 イーチージャイオ 取り戻せその巻物 手を叩け さあ君も ありがとう謝謝 敵わない相手だと 恐れず まず 極めろ太極拉麺拳 ハッ！

「あーもうダメだ」 「こんなんでへこたれてるようじゃ老師になるなんて無理だね」 「別に興味ないし…」 「あーそうやって強がってんだろー」 「そんな事ねぇ！」 「ホントかなー？」 「ならみせてやるよ。よし、ついてこい！」

「右！左！ハイハイ！」 「右！左！ハイハイ！」 「右！左！ハイハイ！」 「右！左！ハイハイ！」

「これが本当に太極ラーメン拳…？」 「んー、全然自覚ないけど」 「まあ兎に角行ってみるか！」

高い壁を 乗り越える事 一人じゃ無理でも 二人なら

この手で今掴み取るため イーアルサンスーウーローチー 力合わせ　2人イーチージャイオ 取り戻すはその心 手を叩け さあ君も こんにちはニーハオ 敵わない相手でも 戦え いざ 尋常に太極饅頭拳 いざ 極めろ太極饅頭拳 ハッ！

「 四川(シセン)！北京(ペキン)！広東(カントン)！ 山東(シャントン)！福��(フッケン)！上海(シャンハイ)！ 叉焼麺(チャーシューメン)(YA！)」

「 四川(シセン)！北京(ペキン)！広東(カントン)！ 山東(シャントン)！福建(フッケン)！上海(シャンハイ)！ 太極拳！破！」

Romaji Colours: Taichi Azami

"senri no michi mo ippo kara!" "kun fuu wa ichinichi ni shite narazu!" "sono kokoro wa... taikyoku manjuu ken!" "acho!"

"shisen! pekin! kanton! shanton! fukken! shanhai! chaashuumen (YA!)"

"shisen! pekin! kanton! shanton! fukken! shanhai! taikyokuken! ha!"

(wan tsuu) ochikobore to iwaretetemo (xiexie) dame dame mendokusagari demo (yaru tokya yaru no sa!) kuyashisa koete ima koso tachiagare (ha!) shuugyou no saki ni mezasu itadaki kinou yori motto tsuyoku naritai

kono te de ima tsukamitoru tame ii aru sen suu uu roo chii chikara awase futari ii chii jaio torimodosu wa sono kokoro te wo tatake saa kimi mo konnichiwa niihao kanawanai aite demo tatakae iza kiwamero taikyoku manjuu ken ha!

"shisen! pekin! kanton! shanton! fukken! shanhai! chaashuumen (YA!)"

"shisen! pekin! kanton! shanton! fukken! shanhai! taikyokuken! ha!"

(haiyoo) kudaranai koto de mometemo (daiban!) dame dame ii koto hitotsu mo nai (yaru tokya yaru no sa!) akiramezu ni nando demo tachiagare (ha!) shuugyou no hate ni tabisuru futari ashita wa motto tsuyoku naritai

tama ni sukoshi ochikomu toki mo ii aru sen suu uu roo chii yuujou koso ga chikara ii chii jaio torimodose sono makimono te wo tatake saa kimi mo arigatou xiexie kanawanai aite da to osorezu mazu kiwamero taikyoku raamen ken ha!

"aa mou dame da" "konnan de hekotareteru you ja roushi ni naru nante muri da ne" "betsu ni kyoumi naishi..." "aa sou yatte tsuyogatten darou" "sonna koto nee!" "honto kanaa?" "nara misete yaruyo. yoshi, tsuite koi!"

"migi! hidari! hai hai!" "migi! hidari! hai hai!" "migi! hidari! hai hai!" "migi! hidari! hai hai!"

"kore ga hontou ni taikyoku raamen ken...?" "nn, zenzen jikaku nai kedo" "maa tonikaku itte miruka!"

takai kabe wo norikoeru koto hitori ja muri demo futari nara

kono te de ima tsukamitoru tame ii aru sen suu uu roo chii chikara awase futari ii chii jaio torimodosu wa sono kokoro te wo tatake saa kimi mo konnichiwa niihao kanawanai aite demo tatakae iza jinjou ni taikyoku manjuu ken iza kiwamero taikyoku manjuu ken ha!

"shisen! pekin! kanton! shanton! fukken! shanhai! chaashuumen (YA!)"

"shisen! pekin! kanton! shanton! fukken! shanhai! taikyokuken! ha!"

English Colours: Taichi Azami

"A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step!" "You can't master Kung-fu in a day!" "That heart is... Tai Chi Manju Chuan!" "Woo-Waah!"

"Sichuan! Beijing! Guangdong! Shandong! Fujian! Shanghai! Pork fillet ramen (YA!)"

"Sichuan! Beijing! Guangdong! Shandong! Fujian! Shanghai! Tai Chi Chuan! Ha!"

(One, two) Even if I'm called hopeless (Xièxie) That's no good, even if they think I'm a bother (I do it when I got to!) Overcome your chagrin and get up now (Ha!) The prize I'm aiming for lies beyond learning I want to be stronger Than yesterday

So that I can catch it now with my hands Yī èr sān sì wǔ liù qī* We join forces and yīqǐ jiāyóu* We'll take back your heart Clap your hands, come, you too - Hello, nǐhǎo Fight even against a much stronger opponent Now, master the Tai Chi Manju Chuan Ha!

"Sichuan! Beijing! Guangdong! Shandong! Fujian! Shanghai! Pork fillet ramen (YA!)"

"Sichuan! Beijing! Guangdong! Shandong! Fujian! Shanghai! Tai Chi Chuan! Ha!"

(Hi-yo) Even if you're troubled by stupid things (Tài bàng!*) That's no good, there's nothing good happening (I do it when I got to!) Get up again and again without giving up (Ha!) We travel to the end of learning Tomorrow I want to Be even stronger

There are times when you feel a little down Yī èr sān sì wǔ liù qī Friends are strength, yīqǐ jiāyóu Take back that scroll Clap your hands, come, you too - Thank you, xièxie Don't fear a much stronger opponent First, master the Tai Chi Lamen Chuan Ha!

"Ah, I can't take this" "You can't become a teacher if you're losing your heart like this" "I'm not interested in that..." "Ah, you're just pretending to be tough" "That's not true!" "For real~?" "I'm gonna show you then. Right, follow me!"

"Right! Left! Yes yes!" "Right! Left! Yes yes!" "Right! Left! Yes yes!" "Right! Left! Yes yes!"

"Is this really the Tai Chi Lamen Chuan...?" "Hmm, I don't have a clue" "Well, anyway, let's just go!"

Overcoming a big hurdle It may be impossible by yourself, but if we're together...

So that I can catch it now with my hands Yī èr sān sì wǔ liù qī We join forces and yīqǐ jiāyóu We'll take back your heart Clap your hands, come, you too - Hello, nǐhǎo Fight even against a much stronger opponent Now, the usual Tai Chi Manju Chuan Now, master the Tai Chi Manju Chuan Ha!

"Sichuan! Beijing! Guangdong! Shandong! Fujian! Shanghai! Pork fillet ramen (YA!)"

"Sichuan! Beijing! Guangdong! Shandong! Fujian! Shanghai! Tai Chi Chuan! Ha!"

Notes: * “Yī èr sān sì wǔ liù qī” simply means “one, two, three, four, five, six, seven” in Mandarin; * “Yīqǐ jiāyóu” means “doing our best together”; * “Tài bàng (le)” means “great!” or “awesome!”, things like that. Mandarin written in katakana is a disaster lol It took me a long time to realize they were just saying numbers in the chorus... oh well.

[thedrumheads]

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[helloangelu]

i told my friends i couldn't go with them today kasi kaka-exam ko lang at dadalawang oras lang tulog ko. i feel like i'm gonna fall any minute ganern. super bangag... super leni raw hmp. for hours now, i've been trying to sleep. antok na antok na antok yung mata ko aa. but idk if it's the external forces (bigla sisigaw si willow, may darating na delivery, andyan na si mamy) kaya 'di natutuloy or hindi lang talaga 'ko makatulog.

for some reason, i have so many thoughts at once kahit full capacity na and pagod na pagod na yung utak ko.

mind dump ahead:

miracles do exist. kapit lang talaga. paiyak na 'ko at sobrang hopeless nung mga nakaraan but aaaa it could be resolved pala kahit feeling mo nauubusan ka na ng oras

kapag bigla kang nakakita ng group of people na kind (whether towards you or sa iba) and it amazes you. tama na. nakaka-disappoint pala mag-expect na mas marami yung ganong klaseng tao.

whatever the impression you make of a person kahit sa isang part lang ng buhay niya and suddenly nakita mo yung iba, you'll get shocked how strong their core is. pag simula at sa mababaw palang, pinakita nang empathetic, hanggang sa huli empathetic. ganun din pag hindi.

i don't deserve all the little good things. i'm so scared of what's next.

i'm now going through unhealthy rabit holes. inacknowedge ko na. pero pano ba itigil 'to? napakaraming oras yung nasasayang ko.

hindi ko pa rin naiintindihan bakit nadi-disappoint sila 'pag sinabi kong hindi ako pwede... as if ako yung nagdedesisyon na marami akong dapat gawin. ayaw ko na rin po talaga huhuhuhu :(

paki-appreciate naman po ng efforts ko sometimes. naha-happy na 'ko super sa ginagawa ko pero ang sad din pala talaga 'pag need pa nila ng more. nakakaloka, i don't even know this person personally.

sana kapag veteran na tayo sa community, huwag tayong hambog. be welcoming sa mga bago palang na-discover or nabigyan ng access sa community niyo. be patient pi :'))))))))))))

i pick up others' shifts of moods so easily, and it's both a blessing and a, uhm, sad thing.

i'm trying my best but i'm 100% sure pagod or annoyed na sila sakin. sorry.

the highs and lows have been so quick lately. idk what to think of that.

yun lang... ata. ta-try ko na talaga matulog or kumain huhu ewan. bye bye!

ps. bagya na 'kong makamulat habang sinusulat ko 'to lahat huhuhu

[medleyofstoriess]

NECKLACE

by: Lordwyne Perez Genre: Fantasy Music: Fall for you by Secondhand Serenade

What are your highschool memories? Ikaw ba yung famous pink girl na nakahawak ng pink notebook na may pafur ang ballpen? ikaw ba yung quiet one na may iilang friends who loves reading books? ikaw ba yung heartthrob? ikaw ba yung nabubully? or … ikaw ba yung nambubully?

Gabi ngayon, mabutuin, rinig ko ang ingay ng crickets, at nakatanaw sa aking bintana ramdam ang preskong simoy ng summer. Napapikit ang aking mga mata, napangiti ang aking mga labi at huminga ng malalim dahil sa special na tao na natutulog ngayon ng mahimbing sa aking kama. This is the story.

I am Lucas, I am in my mid 20s and still in the process of getting my life together. Ikaw? Kumusta ka? Masaya ka man o malungkot, alam kong merong reason behind it. Anyways, bago ang lahat, I will reveal you a secret about myself. It is unusual and magical. Malalaman ko kung ang isang taong nakakasalamuha ko ay genuine or insincere. Paano? nagiiba ang kulay ng pendant ng necklace na bigay ng mommy ko depende sa nararamdaman ng ibang tao sa akin kapag hinawakan ko sila. Colours tells feelings I would say. Pink, when you care and being sincere. Yellow, when you are happy with me. Green, when you feel at peace and safe with me. Blue, when you are afraid of me. Black, when you doesnt care or hate me and Red, ang pinakaespecial na kulay dahil bago ito iilaw sa aking kwintas ay makakaramdam ang buo kong katawan ng tila daloy ng kuryente sa bawat ugat at ang aking mga mata ay unti unting mapapapikit unconsciously and that tells me you love me. Pero minsan, hindi ko alam if this is a curse or a blessing dahil nakakatakot malaman kung ano ang trato sa’yo ng ibang tao.

When I was in elementary, isa ako sa mga batang malakas ang personalidad sa class namin. Bibo, laging leader sa mga programs, at masipag. One day, I was in grade 5 that time, malakas ang ulan sa labas at pinaupo at pinaghanda kami ng teacher namin to welcome a transferee. Pasulyap sulyap ako sa may pintuan at inaabangan ang transferee dahil ofcourse I am excited to see that person. Then the time came, nasa tabi ng pintuan si teacher kasama ang isang nanay at may kasamang bata na hindi ko pa rin makita dahil nakatakip ang payong na hawak nito.

“Okay class! attention! sigaw ni Ma’am at biglang naging attentive ang buong class ng unti..unti..unti kong nakita ang transferee pagtiklop niya ng payong. Nashock ako. Hindi siya ung usual “face” or “look” na nakikita ko sa buong school namin dahil isa siyang puti. Nabigla ako dahil isa itong malaking adjustment not just for us pero sakanya na rin. Kita ko ang kaba niya dahil mga moreno kami at siya lang ang nag-iisang puti. His name is Owen. Napa “OW!” nalang ako. Pinaupo si Owen sa may harapan ko. He was shy. He was quiet. He was nervous. Kita ko rin ang iba kong classmates na tila pinaguusapan siya. Siguro na rin sa unusual na may magiging Canadian kaming classmate. I describe Owen as cute, blonde hair, blue eyes, red cheeks and sige na nga, milk siya, coffee ako! (ano pa ba) Anghirap ng adjustments. Napagsabihan na rin kami ni Ma’am to make him feel comfortable and try to speak with him in English pero tila nahihirapan pa ring makapagadjust ang lahat sa class. One time, I saw Owen having his lunch magisa sa lilim ng punong mangga at nakita ko ding may nilabas siyang flute and started to blow into it. Siguro para na rin maaliw siya since walang kumakasama at kumakausap sa kanya. Gusto ko siyang lapitan para naman may makasama siya pero bigla akong pinapatawag sa classroom to help prepare some class activities.

One day, ilang minuto na lang at maguumpisa na yung class namin ngunit hindi pa dumarating si Owen sa kanyang upuan. Hindi ko alam pero parang naaabala ako kaya lumabas ako sa classroom at hinanap siya. Nilibot ko halos ang buong school para mahanap siya until nakita ko siyang binubully ng ilang students sa may likod ng school. Nakita ko siyang hinahampas ng bag at pinagtatawanan. Mga ignorante!

“Hoy! itigil niyo nga yan! isusumbong ko kayo kay Ma’am! Mga walang hiya kayo!” bigla kong sigaw na may kasama pang pamewang! (ofcourse ^^) Lumapit ako sa kanila saka ko din sila tinadyakan! Nagsitakbuhan na sila at bigla kong nilapitan si Owen and the English conversation started. (phew* CHALLENGE!) Kinakabahan ako sa mga oras na yun dahil hindi ko alam kung paano ko din icocomfort si Owen.

“A..aa..re you okay? … Owen? tanong ko sakanya sabay hawak sa kanyang mga kamay at tinulungan ko ang takot niyang katawan sa pagtayo. Pinutol ang kanyang flute at wala pa siyang awang ninakawan ng baon. Nang hinawakan ko siya, doon umilaw ang kulay green sa kwintas ko. (he felt safe with me)

“Thank you!” yun lamang ang sagot ni Owen sa akin habang nginig siyang umiiyak at bigla niya akong niyakap ng mahigpit. That time, pareho na kaming hindi pumasok sa class at nagskip. Dun na rin nagumpisa ang friendship namin. Sa pagtakbo ng mga araw, lagi na kaming magkasama. Binigyan ko siya ng bagong bamboo flute na gawa ng Lolo ko. Unti unti ko siyang nakilala at doon ko unti unting naintindihan kung bakit kinailangan niyang pumasok sa isang lugar kung saan magiging challenging ito para sa kanya. His Dad remarried and isa siyang Filipina. Lumipat sila dito sa Pilipinas at wala nang ibang choice kundi kailangan nga niyang mag-school dito. Naging close friends kami, I taught him tagalog words (slang siya pero ang cute) and lagi din niyang pinaparinig sakin ang mga musikag natutunan niya gamit ang bamboo flute na bigay ko.

After a year, nalaman ko na hindi na magpapatuloy ng elemenraty si Owen sa school namin. Biglaan ang mga pangyayari at nalaman kong bumalik na daw sila sa Canada. Napaiyak ako sa sobrang lungkot.

Fast forward sa aking teenage years.

My family decided to migrate sa Canada when I was 16. Nung narinig ko ang “Canada”, bigla akong kinabahan na naexcite dahil bigla kong naalala ang noon ay naging kaibigan kong si “Owen Russel Adams”. It was Autumn when we landed to Canada. Malamig at namangha ako sa beautiful shades of Autumn. And just like Owen, kinailangan kong ipagpatuloy ang school ko sa Canada. Isang malaking adjustment pero kailangan. Ganun pala! Ganun pala ang pakiramdam ng mapapalibutan ka ng ibang klaseng environment. Nakakatakot. Nakakaintimidate. Nakakanerbyos. Biglang nawala lahat ng kabibuhan at aaminin ko, hindi ko kinakaya ang makisalamuha sa ibang lahi.  Sinubukan kong makipagusap at makipagkaibigan ngunit laging kulay blacklang ang umiilaw sa necklace ko. (they doesn’t care) Ngunit nakilala ko si Carla isang araw. Nailang ako sa kanya nung una kaming magkakilala. Sa hindi ko pinahalatang pagkakataon, I secretly touched her at napangiti ako at lumuwag ang aking pakiramdam dahil kulay yellow (she’s happy with me) ang umilaw sa necklace ko. Naging magaan ang loob namin sa isa’t isa at doon na rin nagumpisa ang aming friendship. One lunch time, mag-isa akong naglalakad papunta sa canteen at napadaan ako sa music room at nakarinig ako ng flute. Napatigil ako sa tapat ng pintuan at unti unti akong sumulyap sa part na glass kung saan tanaw mo sa loob ng room at nakita ko doon ang mala-Leonardo de Caprio (when he was young) na nagblo blow ng flute sabay hawi sa kanyang buhok. That time, iba ang naramdaman ko. Bakit parang kilala ko siya. Bakit parang familiar ang musikang narinig ko. Napahinga nalang ako ng malalim at dumeretso na sa canteen.

One day nag announce ang room teacher namin na may all boys fieldtrip kami. It was a cold autumn season noon and we went for camping. Bago kami umalis at sumakay sa school bus, our room teacher told us na makakasama namin ang ibang boys from other section. At doon ko nasulyapan muli si mala-Leonardo de Caprio. Chineck ang attendance namin and you need to raise your hand kapag tinawag ang pangalan mo. So isa-isang tinawag ang mga pangalan namin.

“Lucas Winston Abad? sambit ng teacher sabay taas ng aking kamay.

another name.., another name.., then ..,

“Owen Russel Adams? at tinaas ni mala-Leonardo de Caprio ang kanyang mga kamay.

Nagulat ako! Nakita kong muli si Owen! Wow! ibang iba na si Owen. At nabigla din akong siya ang isa sa mga inatasang maging leader sa group namin. Kitang kita ko kung gaano ka-active si Owen bilang isang student. Nakarating na kami sa campsite at bigla akong nahiya dahil wala akong makausap sa grupo. Nagkakasundo lahat sila sa kung ano mang topic ang pinag-uusapan nila samantalang ako, nasa sulok, kausap ang bawat damong binubunot ko o bawat insektong gumagapang sa lupa. Ayoko nang subukang makisalamuha dahil natatakot akong malaman how they feel about me kaya pinili ko nalang mapag-isa. Gabi na noon, they are having campfire at nagpaalam ako sa teacher ko na pumunta sa may tabing dagat. Umupo ako sa may malaking bato malapit sa dagat sa ilalim ng gabi na puno ng bituin. Rinig ko ang alon ng dagat. Umuusok ang labi ko sa lamig at salamat sa makapal kong jacket na nagbibigay sa akin ng warmth that night. Sa pag-upo ko doon ay nakaramdam ako na tila may bumabato sa akin at narinig kong may nagtatawanan. Lumingon ako sa aking likuran at nakita kong binabato ako ng tatlong lalaki at tila pinaguusapan ako. Rinig kong sigaw ng isa “What a loner! Go home!, nanghina ang buo kong katawan at tama siya, kailangan siguro, umuwi nalang ako pero hindi ko kaya. Sa mga pagkakataong yun, kwinestyon ko ang sarili ko, “nasaan na yung malakas ang personalidad” na ako? biglang tumulo ang mga luha ko. Sumama ako sa fieldtrip dahil akala ko, makakaya ko. Akala ko makakahanap ako ng mga bagong kaibigan ngunit andito ako ngayon, mag-isa na tila hinihigop ng malakas na alon ng dagat.

Hanggang sa biglang may sumigaw,

“Hey! What the fuu** are you guys doing? That’s being mean man! Stay away from him or else, I will fuc***ing report the three of you! sabi ng galit na si Owen at nagtakbuhan ang tatlong lalaki.

Unti.. unti.. unti akong nilapitan ni Owen hawak hawak ang kanyang flute. Kinabahan ako. Hindi mapakali at pinunasan ko ang aking mga luha.

“Are you okay? Don’t mind those assholes.” sabi ng comforting voice ni Owen sa akin sabay haplos sa aking likod. Masasabi kong it was the worst yet best night for me.

“Thank you! so you brought a flute” sabi ng sinisipon kong boses dahil sa iyak at dinivert ko na lang sa ibang topic ang aming usapan.

“Oh yeah! This bamboo flute (sabay pinakita sa akin) was given by a friend when I studied elementary in the Philippines! Man! I totally forgot what’s his name, I think it was Luke!” sabi niya habang nakatingin sa dagat at ako nama’y habang nakatingin sa kanya. Wow, nasa sakanya pa ang bamboo flute na bigay ko.

“Tell me more about Luke! sabi ko sakanya

“He was like the best person I’ve ever met man! I wonder how he’s doing now. You know what, I actually don’t know if I can survive my one year of studying back in the Philippines if it wasn’t for him. He taught me how to be strong and stand up for myself!

Naiyak ako sa mga bawat salitang sinambit ni Owen, kung alam niya lang na ako ang kausap niya. Kung alam niya lang na ako ang “Luke” na nabanggit niya. He started blowing into the flute at pumikit nalang ang mga mata ko sa ganda ng musika at ninamnam ang malamig na hangin.

“Is his name Lucas? bigla kong tanong

Dahan dahang tumigil ang tunog ng pluta at tumingin siya sa akin

“Yeah! Yeah! It’s Lucas! sagot niya na tila may excitement

Ngumiti ako sa napagwapong mukha ni Owen sabay sabing

“Do you know that the person beside you right now is Lucas? The one who gave you that flute. The one who once saved you from those “assholes” in my country, haha!

“Lucas? gulat niyang tanong

“Yes I am! Look who’s saving me now from bullies” pabiro kong sagot at kita ko ang “unbelievable” reaction sa kanyang mukha at niyakap niya ako ng mahigpit at sabay kong hinawakan ang aking necklace.

Nagkwnetuhan kami ng matagal at hindi kami makapaniwalang nagkita kami muli. Madaming bagay ang napagusapan. Tawanan dito. Tawanan doon. Hanngang sa tinawag na siya ng teacher namin.

“I’ll stay here for a bit” sabi ko sakanya sabay ng kanyang pag-alis.

Habang hawak hawak ko pa ng mahigpit ang pendant ng necklace ko, pumikit ako at saka sabay kong binuksan ang aking mga palad at mata para tuklasan kung anong kulay meron ito. It was color pink (when he cares and being sincere). Napangiti ako at may mga tao pa rin palang sincere. May mga tao pa rin palang marunong hindi makalimot sa mga taong naging parte ng kanilang buhay.

Matapos ang fieldtrip ay doon kami nagsamang muli ni Owen sa school. Sa pagkakataong ito, siya naman ang aking tagapagtanggol. Am I lucky? Yes. He made me feel how comfortable it is to go to school everyday. Sa mga araw na lagi kaming magkasama, iba na ang tibok ng puso ko. Kita ng dalawa kong mata kung paano siya ka-active sa mga school activities as well as sports. In fact, isa nga siya sa mga members ng hockey team sa school namin. Everytime na may hockey practice or hockey game siya, lagi akong nandoon para suportahan siya. Sa tuwing pinapanood ko siya or sa bawat ngiti na binibitawan niya sa akin, tila iba na ang sigaw ng tibok sa puso ko. Kinikilig ba ako? Mas sumasaya ba ako? Kapag magkasama kami, napapaisip ako kung ano tumatakbo sa isipan niya.

Isang araw, habang naglalakad kami, muli kong hinawakan ang aking necklace at hindi ko napigilan ang sarili ko, hinawakan ko ang kamay ni Owen.. at nagtaka akong hindi siya pumalag bumitaw. Bigla akong napatigil sa paglalakad. Biglang napapikit ang aking mga mata. Nakaramdam ako ng kuryente sa buo kong katawan. I started to collect myself at sa pagdilat ng aking mga mata, unti unti kong binuksan ang aking mga palad at nakita kong umiilaw ang kulay “RED” (when you love me) sa aking kwintas. Muli, “RED”. Nagtitigan kami ni Owen na tila tumigil ang mundo. Ibig bang sabihin, iba rin ang sigaw ng tibok ng kanyang puso?

“Lucas! hey! Lucas! are you still alive or something? pajoke na sabi ni Owen hawak pa rin ang aking kamay. Hindi siya pumalag sa paghawak ko at ang puso ko ay ngumiti ngunit biglang sumimangot instantly ng biglang …

“Hey babe! sabi ng babaeng papalapit kay Owen (bigla kong binitawan ang kanyang kamay) at nakita ko silang nagyakapan. Dahan dahan akong lumayo. Naglakad papalayo habang pinagmamasdan ang kulay pulang ilaw sa aking kwintas. Nalilito. Nagtataka. Napapatanong kung bakit pula ang lumabas. Nalungkot ako sa pagkakataong iyon at napaiyak. Iniwasan ko si Owen ng ilang araw at minsan sa tuwing nagkakasalubong kami, hinahabblot niya ang aking kamay at tinatanong kung bakit ko siya iniiwasan. At sa tuwing pinagmamasdan ko ang aking kwintas sa tuwing magdidikit ang aming mga palad ay hindi ito nagiiba ng kulay and it remains colour “red” and I dont know why!

As days pass by, nabalita sa akin ni Carla na break na si Owen at ang kanyang girlfriend. Ang nagawa ko lang that time, napahawak lang ako sa aking necklace.

…

…

…

after several weeks,

phone ringing..

riing!

riing!

Me: Hello? Phone: Lucas, it’s me Owen

:)

[lifeasitis-bn]

Tamarok

“A nation’s culture resides in the hearts and in the soul of its people” -Mahatma Gandhi

Hi there! Am back with another post, this time focusing on a specific Brunei ethnic group. There is no denying that humans of various nations, races, or tribes in any part of this world have their own customs and beliefs. In Brunei, there are seven known ethnic groups and the one that I am always eager to learn more about is the Dusun tribes. It is to no exception that the Dusun tribes also have their own customs and beliefs that they inherited from their ancestors and in which they still practice it amidst the advancement and modernization of today’s world. No matter how busy life may get, there is always time for gatherings, celebrations, and appreciation.

‘Tamarok’ or in the Dusun dialect called ‘Tama-Ghok’ is one of the beliefs and practices of the Dusun tribes community. It is believed that ‘Tamarok’ is a way of worshipping and meeting with ‘Daghato/Derato’. This refers to powerful supernatural beings that cannot be seen but is believed exist. Through ‘Tamarok’, it connects the believers to the Divine being where they can express their feelings of worries or gratitude and where they can also ask for help, health, safety, and forgiveness. ‘Tamarok’ plays an important role in the lives of the Dusun community. It is done during big and important events and customs such as; worshipping the spirit of paddy; moving to a new house; and when performing vows.

‘Tamarok Padi’ is one of the largest ceremonies performed by the Dusun community. It is celebrated every year after the rice harvesting season. The main purpose of this ‘tamarok’ is to ask for permission and blessings from Daghato so that the people can eat the rice that was just harvested that year. Thus, this ‘tamarok’ refers to a way to repel evil spirits and to make the food safe for the consumption of the people (Latif Ibrahim, 1969).

There is a story behind the origin of the celebration of ‘Tamarok Padi’ that I found fascinating. According to one legend, in ancient times, a child from heaven (son of Daghato) was good friends with a child from earth. One day, after they were playing around, they stopped to eat and they both took out their supplies. To Daghato son’s surprise, he saw that his human friend brought charcoal to eat while he was bestowed with rice. He then felt sorry and shared the rice with his friend. After the delightful meal, the human child begged Daghato’s son to bring the rice seeds so that it can be planted on earth. Unfortunately, Daghato forbade his son to share the seeds and left his son with no choice. So, Daghato’s son sneakily hid and brought the seeds to earth and gave it to his friend. Alas, for what secret can be kept from a God for so long? Daghato found out and he then gave permission for humans to harvest and eat rice but with one condition. Whenever humans harvest and wants to eat new rice, they must first ask Daghato for permission and thank him for the blessings he had given them through the celebration of ‘Tamarok Padi’.

An example of male and female Dusun traditional costume.

Of course, there are other different versions of the legend. Whatever the version may be, it does not make one less interesting than the other. I think that is how most of us feel about one another; one different culture, race, or religion does not make the others less captivating or less pertinent than the other. That is the beauty of culture, there will always be a room for everyone to express and exhibit themselves and all we need to do is to try our best to appreciate them.

That is all for this post, feel free to visit my Instagram account (@lifeasitis.bn) as I will be posting more pictures and behind the scenes there!

Live is short; live it. And that’s life as it is.

Until then,

Aa.

References

Abd. Latif Haji Ibrahim. (1969). Dusun Tribal dances (Alai). Brunei Museum Journal 1(1);10-14.

Pudarno Binchin. (2017). Masyarakat Dusun dan Tamarok [The Dusun Community and Tamarok]. Department of Museums.

[ashryvers-world]

New Life pt.2 (story na namin ng future jowa ko)

So nag kaaminan kme non burol ng lola ko aa mother side. Oo burol talaga. Sorry guys. HAHAHA masaya kse una puro tungkol kay Lord pinag uusapan namin tas sa buhay din ung walang halong landian talaga. Parang casual pa din ganon. Pero we know na we have the same feelings.

Ung feeling na gustong gusto ko siya as in. Di ko alam kung bakit. Di ko naman sya type, di ko naman sya bet wait parang parehas lng yon HAHAHA, basta super unexpected mga friend! Ito ung natatandaan ko sa sinabi nya

Siya: Basta cha wag tayong mag focus sa feelings na to. Dapat si Lord muna sa kahit anong bagay. :) kase kapag may mas pinapahalagahan ka kesa Sakaniya kinukuha Niya. Ayoko kseng mawala ka pa kaya tandaan mo yan ha? :)

Syempre oo naman ako. Totoo naman yon. Narealize ko din yon ung mga dumaan sa buhay ko na puro ka toxican di ko alam na ung better person na ibibigay ni Lord eh anjan lng pala.

Naalala ko pa non ayaw niya daw akong magustuhan kse una distraction lang daw ( sa pag miministry at pag seserve kay Lord) pero nung mas nakikilala nya ako dun nahulog na daw sya.

Ako naman di ko pa dinedeclare na mahal ko siya kse ayokong mag madali baka mamaya di naman legit feelings ko. Sabi niya din pinag dadasal nya pala ako kay Lord. MGA FRIEND KINILIG AKO DON. GRABE KSE NAMAN DIBA ITO UNG SINSBI NIYA

Siya: Lord kahit si Charlize na lang po oh. Kahit siya na ung mapangasawa ko. Pangako Lord dodoblehin ko po ung pag seserve ko sayo. Ibigay niya lng sya sakin.

Sobrang na touch ako mga friends. :'((( kse rare na lng mga ganyang lalaki swear. Pero walang kami. Oo tama kayo ng nababasa kung meron mang nag babasa like nyo naman hit the heart button HAHAHHAA

Wala pang kami kse si Lord muna. :)

Paano? Ministry first kumbaga mag seserve muna kami kay Lord kse ibibigay naman ni Lord ung right time eh. Di pa muna ngayon lalo at wala naman kaming pang date na kami talaga ang nag pakahirap diba. Nakakahiya naman kung hingi kmi ng hingi sa parents pang date atska BAWAL KAMING MAG KA JOWA HAHAHAHA bawal pa kse nga patakaran sa church yon lalo at kapag may pwesto ka. God first muna seek first the kingdom of God. So ayon people. Masaya. Kse di siya complicated kahit bago pa lng pero masasabi ko na si Lord ang mamumuno sa buhay namin at buhay pag ibig namin. Kaya people Trust God! Mag antay lang talaga tayo ayon laaang.

[verysmiling-blog]

Mag-isa in English Alone!

‘So, this is it! I’m here!’ Sabi ko! Ah, you didn’t know me pala. I’m Miss. Sy and sometimes everybody call me 'si’ yung parang nagtataboy ng aso sa bisaya 'si’. I am a teacher. I teach children because wala eh! Wala akong magawa heheh joke lang! I choose teaching kasi sabi ng mama ko malaki sweldo, tapos aside sa sweldo my lan ka pa! kapag nasa public ka! But, when I enter showbiz este public service di pala totoo yun lahat! Kala ko nga ang dali daling makapasok sa pampublikong trabaho ang hirap din pala. Well anyways as I was saying yun nga ang hoax lang pala ang sabi ni mader! And teaching is never an easy task. Yung sweldo naman pala namin is well deserve eh dapat pa nga lang taasan. Talo pa nga nami yung mga studyante sa mga projects sa mga bagay na kailangan e memorize at tambak rin ang susulatin! And hindi ko na isasabi lahat kasi you know bawala ang stress dito baka ang reader ma loka! Hehehe yes eventhough malapit na kaming maging lokaret eh theres always a fulfilling days.It was the days and moments na hindid kayang tumbasan ng pera and that is touching the lives of children. Giving them great education. Assisting them to grow mentally and socially and all the lys out there.

YES, A very big thank you’s to all the teachers I’ve met. Who was really dedicated and passionate on giving and sharing the love, knowledge and wisdom to the Hope of every Filipino: the children. The only words that kept Dr. Jose Rizal in our minds is “ ang kabataan ang pag-asa ng bayan. Whom was our national hero for helping Filipinos stand up for thierselves. To know that each of us were not prisoners and slaves that we are a true nation with one nationality who lives and love the country Philippines.

Well thought, akala ko hindi ko ma push through si Dr. Rizal. Totoo namn kasi mga sinabi ko at siguro enough na iyon para ma introduce ko ang sarili ko. Hindi ako fan ni rizal eh kasi nga hindi xa gwapo hindi sya katulad ni piolo na matangkad at grabe ang gwapo talo pa nga si tom cruise nun. At yun ang dami ko nang nasabi eh gusto lang namn mag introduce.

Im here at school and yun hagard but fulfilled. Uwi agad ako sa bahay "sakit ng pwet ko" kasi 1 hour lang namn akong nakaupo sa jeep. Nagrereklamo na yung pwet ko. But, as i gazed sa labas ng jeep. I got jealous kasi I my eyes caught two pairs of lovebirds. Kakainggit! Kasi nga wala ako nun. Kakaiyak nga. Naging teacher na ako, fulfilled na ako sa mga tinuturuan kong bata. Pero! Bakit? Parang may kulang? Bakit hanggang ngayon wala pa rin akong boyfriend? Mapili ba talaga ako sabi ng friends ko? At ng parents ng mga studyante ko? Im almost 27 years old pero hindi parin ako nagkakaroon ng bf? Pangit ba ako? Siguro! Maganda namn ako sabi ng nanay ko. Bakit?😢 natatawa nlng ako pag naiiyak ako! Tapos sasabihin bibili na nlng ako ng lalaki. Tapos nakakairita pa kasi kumakanta sa radyo ngayon ang south border- kahit kailan. Sakit bes! Parang may unfinish business ako sa isang tao na parang wala namn dahil wala nga namng nangyari dun. So yun alam nyo na wala akong bf. Tapos ang galing ko pang mag advice! At magaling din akong mag match maker! Ang galing no? This is just what I have to do! But Parang wala talaga akong direksyon. Sabi nga ng friend ko "mag isa in english alone" sakit bes. So yun nga naingit ako. At natatawa nalng ako! Kasi ini.imagine ko pa rin ang crush ko. Pero hindi ko naman sya crush. Nagkacrush lang ako sa kanya dahil may crush ako sa kanya. Ito yung nangyari. I'm still in college third year ako nun pero irregular dahil transfere. Ang dami kung subject nun mga 4 or 5. Ang busy ko nun. Akala ko ang dami kung magawa sa 5 kung subjects at limang oras kung vacant. Pero wala pala! Ang boring parang maraming araw ang na gagasta ko sa kakatingala sa langit, sa mga puno, at sa mga insekto, sa mga ahas na hindi nagpapakita kasi hindi ko pa nasabi sa inyo na ang school na pinag-aaralan ko maraming animals, insekto, puno,bukid, bato, lupa, ang liit ng porsyento na may semento eh kasi nga parang gubat na yun ahahaha natatawa ako! Sorry readers kung meron mang readers nito. Meron din akong subject every saturday and sunday tapos wala akong klase sa tuesdays and fridays pero sa wednesday grabe parang tanga ang skedyul ko 7:30- 9:00 am para akong si supergirl na lumilipad sa aga at malayo pa yung school ko! Bakit pa kasi ako lumipat! Tapos after ng 9:00 wala. Wala na akong klase mamaya na namn 3:00 - 4:30. Parang walang magawa tong sked ko! Tapos nun 6:00 -9:00 pm wah hagard teh! Halos mabaliw ako nun buti nalang may nakilala ako lalaki xa pero akala ko bakla pero parang ganun na hindi na ewan! Yun. His name is blue, I thought bakla sya kaya ang gaan gaan ng loob ko sa kanya. Kasi kapag lalaki sya na siguradong tatakbo ako. Iiwas at lalayas. Nakakatakot kaya ang lalaki. Para akong baliw nun. Na awawckward talaga ako pag may nakakausap ako na lalaki. Ewan ko ba. Naiiririta at nagagalit. Prang may galit ako sa mga lalaki. Eh yun, halos ng subjects ko eh klasmet kami ni blue. At yun nakuha nya number ko dahil lang dun sa absent palagi ang teacher namin. He will be our information man if ever hindi mag kla klase yun prof namin. He will just text us. Hindi ko namn alam na i.titxmate nya ako! Ahahah nakakatawa. Yun nga. Yun una tx sya ng text ng WUD. Eh hindi ko p namn alam yung mga tx na ganh. What U doin pala meaning nun. Tapos ang reply ko sa kanya kahoy? Gemilina? Ahahahah. Yun tapos panay wrong sent sya! At ganoon nga pag ako nag titx sa kanya nag rereply naman sya pero hindi palagi merong times na halos buong araw. Pero yung parang na fefeel mo na parang may gusto sya sayo! Parang pinigil ko! Tinigil ko ang feeling na yun. I made sure na wala! Eto kasi nga ayoko. Ayoko mainlove at ayokong may magkagusto sa akin. Yung parang NO WAY! HI WAY!.. Dumating ang araw na nawala yung communication namin after 2 semesters nawala ko ang number nya sa tanga ko pa naman na ipanakaw ang cellphone ko! Naginv mailap kami sa isat isa . Nagkaroon sya ng group at mga kaibigan. At ako namn nag karoon ng mga kaibigan. We let each other let go. Hindi ko alam. Kung anong nagyari pero masakit sya! Kasi after nung graduation magkatabi kami sa upuan pati sa yearbook. Eh hindi ko namn alam nun na yun na ang huli naming pagkikita! I heard that nagtrabaho na sya as a teacher sa isang private school. Tapos ng minsang may seminar nagkita kami. At yun di ko nga alam kung awkwardness pero wala naman masaya yung flow. Pero parang sa kanya wala lang. Pero sa akin grabe BIGDEAL! muntik pa nga akong mag tago at wag umatend aa seminar pero kasi required aa aming mga teachers. At yun, after a year nagkita ulit kami sa noong mamatay nanay ko dumalaw sya. At saya ko noong dumalaw sya. Pero malungkot dahil masakit mawalan ng nanay. Yun ang huling pagkikita namin ni blue. Tumaba na nga ako at naging tamad sa buhay! Parang walang direksyon. Ewan ko bah. Parang hindi ako motivated. Ngayon 2017 hindi ko pa rin nakikita ang mukha nya pero friends kami sa fb. Pero hindi ko kayang i. Message sya. Baka siguro meron na syang gf. Sisirain ko pa relatuonship nila..kaya i stayed quiet nalng kesa mkasakit. Ngayon,mag isa nga ako! in english " Im alone" tama nga sabi ng friend ko mag isa in english "alone" #lifestory

[andthoughunknown]

And I realize, still..

Still... Still..it hurts! Sabi ko last september 2016 (deadline after 11 years) na last na yun..after waiting for eleven years eh titigil na kong mahalin ka at umasa na ikaw ang future ko :( yesterday was my 6th anniv for being single...yesterday I saw it on my newsfeed, your picture together with your girl :( nakakabitter pa rin ng feelings... Today, i read a msg. from my friend lea who knows every kabaliwan I have for you na andito ka na ulit sa pinas... i know uuwe ka this year kasi since 2008 noong umalis ka every after 3 years nauwe kayo..it's only a matter of months at uuwe ka..and then this soon nasa pinas ka na pala...at may luggage ka pang dala..si gf.. :( Masakit pa rin pala..ikaw kasi yung taong kahit paulit ulit ko nang pataganaan na "oh tama na", "oh hanggang dito na lang pagmamahal ko" paulit ulit pa rin na mahal pa rin kita.. Ikaw kasi yung ideal man ko..ung kahit na ilang beses na rin akong nakakita ng flaws sa perfection mo saken..ewan ko ba..baduy na kung baduy pero iba pa rin yung feelings ko sayo..sobrang importante at laki ng space mo sa puso ko... Now that i'm working, i keep being bothered by my feelings... naiiyak kasi ako..yun tipong nangiti ka magisa para di mtuloy ang pagiyak.. nagiisip ako kung kanino ko to pede iopen..ang bigat kasi aa feelings..kaso naisip ko dito na lang kasi wala naman makakabasa.. Napaparanoid na ko isipin baka ikasal ka dyan sa gf mong yan..ang hirap ata tanggapin nun..para kasing you're getting serious about her at vaka hindi ko kayang iprepare yung sarili ko na tanggapin yun.kahit ang totoo eh wala nanan talaga akong magagawa dun.. Basta natatakot ako sa nangyayari, makikita kaya kita ngayon?? Hanggang kelan ka ba sa pinas? Malamang di ka masyadong magstay dito sa sanpy kasi from what I've assumed eh magtutour kayo ni gf.. :( Masakit pa rin pala..mabigat pa rin sa damdamin.. :( you're still my biggest frustration, the one that i hope and pray for, my true love... #1130 #JayNette

[carsinoska]

Vision -誓約の閉回路 桎梏の乙女-

Album: Vision -Seiyaku no Heikairo  Shikkoku no Otome- Artist: Shoujo Byou

Fujun Futou Distortion

fujun futou no kiri ni kyosuu wo kazoeta   sakuiteki ni aozameta koe hajimaru kono monogatari wa   aru shoujo ga mita Vision————

shoujo ga umare motta sono hitomi wa   rei no sugata made mo toraeru koto ga dekita shoujo wa ten kara   amata no shisha no kotoba sae kikitoru mimi wo sazukatta

hitorikiri kakuri sareru you ni mura kara hanare tatazumu <<palace>> teire mo mama naranu yakata wa   fukai kiri ga ooi subete wo kyozetsu shite

Verdict of Guilty   rifujin ni shinpan wa kudasareta hosoi hitei no kowane wa korosarete Not Guilty   daremo rikai shite wa kurenai   tada ikite iru dake nanoni

"akuryou tsuki” to yobarete kirawarete hayari yamai mo tensai mo   shoujo no sei de okita to nonoshirare tsumi wo oshitsukerarete iku hibi…

soredemo shoujo wa nani ga atte mo   hitobito wo urami mo nikumi mo shinakatta

osanai koro   ima no you ni gokai wo sarete shimau made wa zutto futsuu no ko mitai ni sesshite ite kureteta koto wo wasurete inai kara————

Verdict of Guilty   fui ni shinpan wa kudasareta negau kokoro no sakebi wa todokazu ni Not Guilty   daremo furimuite wa kurenai   ikite itai dake nanoni

samayoi madoi mayoi otozureru no wa   kono yo ni miren aru mugaina rei dake nayami wo imi wo tsumi wo uketomete   meikai e yasashiku okuridasu

tomodachi no inai shoujo “Kuuderika” wa kurikaesu chiisana soushitsu wo   ah...   tomedonaku itsuka wa karera mo   kono basho kara kanarazu tabidatte iku no dakara

"zutto isshoni wa irarenai……. wakatteru" sabishisa wo ah... nomikonda keredo tama ni yume wo mite shimaunda dareka to tomo ni kurasu gensou wo   ushinatta ano hibi wo——————

Cemetery lure

All my friends are ghosts All my friends have lost their lives But they are my precious friends

I will see out their voice I urge them to make their choice One of the ghost says to her

"What do you like?" I adore my Mother who loved flowers and this village... I want to become like her who I respect "That makes it easier"

"All I saw, all I know I just wanted to let you know Look up the cemetery-colored sky Watch the black snow pile up high Yes, it looks like Hades...therefore... Won't you come with me?"

All my friends are lonely All my friends are wandering souls So I think that I've been here

I will grant their wishes I'll wish for their happiness One of the ghost says to her

"What is your wish?" To meet my Mother, and... To make lots of friends someday What can I do to grant my wish? "That makes it easier"

"All I saw, all I know I just wanted to let you know Look around the dense and white fog, and Watch the solitude rising high Yes, it looks like Hades...therefore... Won't you come with me?"

"Won't you come with me? Your beloved mother will be expecting you at any moment Would you play with me? Then, how glad I am! That makes it easier"

"All I saw, all I know I just wanted to let you know Look up the cemetery-colored sky Watch the black snow pile up high Yes, it looks like Hades...therefore... Do you hear me...?”

"All I saw, all I know I just wanted to let you know Look around the dense and white fog and Watch the solitude pile up high Yes, it looks like Hades...therefore... Oh, I beg you"

But she never nods She smiles lonesomely Then she said, "I'm, sorry...I can't go with you... Good bye my friends..."

Noir Embryo

mura hazure ni tsudzuku   Rupinasu no michi sono oku ni tatazumu furui yakata ni wa

fushigina me wo motsu haha to ko ga kurashite odayaka ni sugiru jikan wo aishita

sono me wa kono yo ni nai sonzai wo utsushite samayou tamashii wo ukeireta jiai ni michita haha wa karera no koe ni mimi wo katamukete wa kokoro iyashi   soshite saigo ni wa ikubeki sekai e to okuridashita——————

soumeina kanojo ni   kogareta otoko ga ita saigen naku   kongen naki yokubou wa hatenaku kanawanu koi to shiru hodo ni "kobamu me mo koe mo aa… subete wo kono te ni shitai"

sono me wa kokuu no naka   kyouki no iro utsushi kokuhaku na shoukei tsunoraseru ware wo wasureta   kare wa mayou koto naku koukotsu to shite keiyaku wo kawasu   subete yokubou no tame… akuma e tamashii wo uriwatashita——————

futo totsuzen ni   haha no ashi ga motsureta kao wo yugamete   chikara naku hiza kara kuzure ochiru me wo mihiraite   mogaki aegu shikai no saki takaraka ni otoko ga waratte ita

sono me wa nanimokamo wo   tsumetaku mioroshite norowareta kotoba wo nagesuteru "tomo ni samenai   yume wo miyou ja nai ka?" yagate haha wa kono yo wo sari   musume no hitomi wa nigori mura wa are   noumu ga ooi kakushita——————

Shiawase no Kara no Tokashikata

shinkokyuushite ippo fumidasu   keredo kotoba wa kawasarezu shisen dake ga sakeru you ni   fushizen ni kawasareta

mura ni deru tabi ni yuuki wo furuu kedo   aite ni shite wa kurenai

tsunagu saki no nai ryoute de mizukara wo   tashikameru you ni dakishimeta kowakatta… jibun de jibun no sonzai wo shinjirare naku narisou de

kaimono no tame otozurete mo   meiwaku sou ni kowagarare shinamono dake oshitsukete wa   kiete hoshii to iu suburi

kyou mo kawarazu ni omoi ashidori de   sabishiku hitori kaeru'nda

keredomo shoujo wa   dore dake kurikaeshi kizutsukerarete utomarete mo itsudatte shita wa mukanai de   egao wo tayasazu   aruite——————

'doushite zu-tto waratte irareru no? tsuraku wa nai no?' to rei ni toware   shoujo wa kotaezu hohoende   sora wo aogu——————

"nakitaku naru hodo setsunai hi mo aru yo. sonna toki ni wa okaa-san no yuigon wo, me wo toji nandomo nandodemo hansuu suru'nda"

'shiawase no kara mo itami no nekko mo, egao ga ne, tokashite kureru yo' sono kotoba wo shinjite iru kara   waratte sono hi wo tada… machitsudzuketeru

Kokoro Shoku Aporia

kazoekirenu hodo no yoru wo koeta   kodoku no kabane owaranai aporia―――――

nandome no arashi darou mado wo tataku amaoto   hibiku raimei heya ni utsuri komu   <<silhouette>> wa itsumo hitorikiri kokoro made nijimu amatsubu

sonna aru yoru ni tobira tataku dareka no koe ga kikoeta yakata no mae ni wa   hitori no shounen ga teikan daita kao de tatazunde ita

shounen no nozomi wa "ningenrashii seikatsu" "kanaete wa kurenai darou ka?"

miezaru te ni   michibikarete iku you ni shoujo wa shounen wo ukeirete   hohoemi atta futatabi hajimatta dareka ga iru hibi kagami ni utsuru sugata ga   hitori da to shite mo donna sabishisa mo gomakaseta

nandome no tsukiyo darou kuttaku no nai <<Sesu>> no egao ga mitakute heya ni chirabatta   hon wo yonde kikaseru tabi ni mune ni tomotte iku nukumori

keredo aru yoru ni nomerikomu Kuu wo shinpai shita rei ga taekirenaku nari   futari no aida wo saegitte tamerai nagara sasayaita

"damasarete wa dame. genwaku ni higarenaide ――――――itsuka kaette kore naku naru yo?"

miezaru te ni   tsuyoku senaka wo osarete shoujo sae shiranai gekijou ni   karare sakenda "doushite sonna hidoi koto wo ieru no? anata ni nani ga wakaru no……!?"

osae kirezu ni hajiketa kanjou wa muon ni tada haguruma wo mawashite

kaze no taeta yakata ni mou hoka no rei wa konai tozasareta sekai ni futarikiri de "moshi kare ni kirawarete, mata hitori ni nattara……?" sono saki ga hidoku kowai…

miezaru te ni   karame torareteku you ni shoujo wa shounen ni izon shite   torawarete itta yumemita atatakana toki ga tsudzuku you ni kono mama sameru koto naku   nemuri tsudzukete itai――――――

Mugen Rensa no Boukyaku Jishou

utsukushii keikan nado   ima de wa miru kage sae nai kouhai ga jinshin ni oyobu koto wo tomeru shudan wa naku

koi kiri wa matataku ma ni   nibuku shikai wo kumorasete yomitorubeki shinjitsu wo ooi kakushite shimatta

ikiba no nai nikushimi to fuan no hokosaki wa subete   awarena shoujo ni mukerareta

ikiru koto ga tsumi nara   watashi sono mono ga muide muimide sonna kanashimi ga atte ii wakenai

mou jouzu ni waraenai   kore made wo hitei suru you de tsurai kedo egao ja norikirenai genjitsu mo aru to shitta――――

hidane ni natta jishou wa   zenrei no nai shi no yamai 'wazawai no genkyou dearu akuryou tsuki no, iya, akuma no iki no ne wo tomeru koto de fu no rensa mo konzetsu dekiru' sono mougen ni sugaru hodo   hitobito wa shousui shikitte…

Kuuderika wo akuma da to nonoshiri sagasu koetachi ga   satsui wo motte chikadzuita

'kimi ga akuma nanka ja nai koto wa ore ga shitteru. shinjiteru' shounen wa sukumu   shoujo e to sasayaku

koraete ita namida ga   sono kotoba de mou afuredeta hitori demo kamawanai   tomodachi ga dekita koto ga ureshikute

ikiru koto ga tsumi nara   watashi sono mono ga muide muimide sonna kanashimi ga atte ii wakenai

mou jouzu ni waraenai   kore made wo hitei suru you de tsurai kedo egao ja norikirenai   genjitsu mo aru to shitta――――――

Evil Flames

She's a victim Lost in a nightmare, in purgatory a long time ago She's a symptom The crossed truth has been wavering in a heat haze forever

But there's no one there to help her up People shout and curse her And there's no remorse or no redemption Like voice from abyss... Ringing

"Here she is" "Here is the heretic" "We should execute her right now!" All of them joined in to swell the chorus "Go! Kill her! Kill her! Burn all of her! Shout!!"

She's a puppet Lost in a nightmare, in a curse of envy by one ghost She's a symptom The village had follen into a serious state of decay... oh...

But there's no one there to help her up People say she's a sinner And there's no truth or no righteousness Like spiral staircase... wheeling

"Here She is" "Here is the devil" "How on earth can we restore those days?" They screamed madly with roaring flames "Go! Kill her! Kill her! Burn all of her! Shout!!"

But there's no one there to help her up People want to break her vision And there's no happiness or no bravery Like an ant lion's pit... falling

"Here she is" "Here is the heretic" "We should execute her right now!" All of them joined in to swell the chorus "Go! Kill her! Kill her! Burn all of her!"

"Here She is" "Here is the devil" "How on earth can we restore those days?" They screamed madly with roaring flames "Go! Kill her! Kill her! Kill! Burn!!"

Seiyaku no Heikairo   Shikkoku no Otome

moe ochiru zangai wo   houshin suru you ni tada nagamete ita shinjiyou to shite ita koto   nanimokamo ga matataku ma ni kaijin ni kisu

chiisana te ni yuiitsu tsunagi nokotta hikari wa kabau you ni shinjitsuite kite kureta kare dake

nomikomareru   yoru ni kurayami no soko ni utakata no you ni hakanaku kieru <<Vision>> umarete kuru koto mo   shi ni yuku koto mo kanarazu nanika no imi ga aru'nda

shoujo ga asu ni motte ikeru no wa   omoide to hikari dake

kanojo kara mienu you ni   shounen wa kao yugame waratte ita kyokou wo hagi totta sugata wa   otoko no rei to no keiyaku wo rikou suru akuma

naki haha ni mukerareta   ozomashii ano noroi wa hahaoya no subete wo tataki kowasu tame no mono de

te ni hairanai no nara kowashitai, nante kodomojimita wagamama ga unda <<Vision>> noroi no taishou wa   "kanojo no subete" aisuru Kuuderika mo fukumarete——————

koroshi wa shinai   tada jikkuri to kurayami e tsukiotosu

sono akuma wa   mizukara wo rei to katari   shoujo no kegare naki kokoro ni hairikonda kanojo wa torawarete ita   deguchi no nai <<Vision>> no naka ni

'mada owarase wa shinai. kore kara motto motto tanoshiku naru yo? kimi ga akuma na wakewanai. datte…… akuma wa―――――― ore no hou nanda'

nomikomareru   yoru ni kurayami no soko ni utakata no you ni hakanaku kieru <<Vision>> umarete kuru koto mo   shi ni yuku koto mo kanarazu nanika no imi ga aru'nda

gangu to shite no imi wo ataerare   tada Vision ni umore yuku

tsunagu hikari ga   kuroku hikatte iru koto ni mo kidzukazu ni――――――