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murdcrs · 3 years ago

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* ── [ sai bennett , cis woman , she / her . ] : in the frays of king aerys iii's reign , therein remains sybiline hesperia aelinor targaryen, the thirty three year old princess of westeros . rumor has it that their loyalties lie with house targaryen and they are for the targaryen reign . they're so grounded + analytical that it makes sense , but most seem to look past their tragic + stubborn nature . when they come up in conversation , i'm always reminded of the crush of glass in a clenched fist, sharp smell of summer ferns, and the dark sparkle of a purple stone . [ kat , 22 , est , she/her , & none . ]

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name: sybiline hesperia aelinor targaryen

nicknames: sybil, esther (her mother only)

age: 33

gender: cis woman

pronouns: she/her

faceclaim: sai bennett

height: 5′1 1/4″

allegiance: house targaryen

standing: disgraced princess

sexuality: demi-sexual, demi-romantic. possibly asexual.

relationship status: single mother

children: adora (with ryon allyrion)

about

born the third-eldest, sybil always felt out of place in her family, not quite aligning herself with the title of princess. she felt the madness that plagued the targaryens, the urge to go out into the world and be wild.

she’s a solitary creature, often isolating herself for days at a time. people exhaust her and she has a difficult time understanding their motives, while they have a difficult time understanding her. she’s often perceived as rude or cold, and can sometime have outbursts when she’s overwhelmed. sybil doesn’t understand or interrogate her emotions and they can very quickly dominate her mind, making her quick to anger when something little annoys her.

when she was coming of age, she began traveling under an alias, allowing herself to indulge in that madness within her. it was then that she laid with ryon allyrion and became aware she was with child months later. she revealed to ryon she was a targaryen and he went before the king, refusing to marry her but offering a space in godsgrace to raise their child. sybil’s father gave her an ultimatum: give up the child to the seven and maintain her place in king’s landing, or go to godsgrace in exile from her home, keeping the child a secret all the while.

she cried the entire journey to godsgrace, watching her sisters disappear as the keep grew smaller and smaller.

sybil is extremely prideful. to her, that is all she has left now that her prospects have been ruined. despite not enjoying being a princess, she feels trapped in godsgrace as one of the many, three other women raising three other children for lord allyrion as well. she is well-versed in sulking and brooding, often hiding in corners in ryon’s home with a book or some other small activity.

she could never bring herself to relax in godsgrace, but the birth of adora did bring her some relief for a little bit. the first few years living in ryon’s home was tense for both of them, often resulting in arguments where both of them sulk on opposite ends of the grounds.

ryon is kind to her, she knows this. living in godsgrace is the best option for her, she knows this too. but she cannot bring herself to allow enjoyment of this change. sybil despises change and she holds fast to this wrath, letting it permeate everything she does.

it is made worse when she’s told of ryon’s affair with alyse, the resulting argument lasting days and many hurtful words exchanged. with her eldest sister a queen of the iron islands, she feels stuck in keeping this secret for him, and she’s envious of their love. she does not love ryon, but she wants to be wanted. she wants to have the capability of loving and being loved in return. she wishes that for herself more than anything, and she sees alyse as a symbol that she will never have it, the hatred for her festering over the years.

to her, love is finite. that is how she saw her mother and father growing up. you could not say you loved someone too much, or it would run out. it is through this worldview that she views ryon and the women he keeps in his manor; she cannot comprehend that he holds the same love for them, believing herself to be unimportant purely because the division of that love. this also informs her view of alyse. if ryon loves alyse more than anything, than sybil must mean almost nothing to him.

sybil is deeply depressed, although not many people realize this because she’s been very reserved and a bit dour her entire life. while she’s distant to the father of her child, she’s very close with adora, who is now eleven years old. they still sleep in the same bed and often spend all day together. adora is one of her true friends in this world, save for a few guards back in king’s landing and her sisters.

she taught adora archery, axe throwing, and knife throwing, as well as acrobatic horseriding, an activity she adored as a child. occasionally, sybil will accompany ryon on his travels, especially when they take him to essos or other areas of dorne. she finds the dornish often do not recognize her, which allows her to travel freely.

for many years, ryon attempted to find sybil a suitor to mellow her out a bit, but she refused them all for increasingly small reasons. she is obsessed with the idea of finding someone who does not care she is a princess, but also holds her in high regard because of it.

it took a lot for her to ask ryon if she could accompany him to the coronation. she had not been in king’s landing since adora was born, but she rarely had the chance to visit anyway. it’s difficult for her to be back home and she finds herself leaning on ryon more than she ever did back home, often sleeping in his bed if only to feel safer.

wanted

old friends from her childhood in king’s landing

a flirtation (this can be combined with warik arryn’s mountain clansman wc): someone that sybil feels drawn to, a rarity. he does not care about her status, loving her for very uncomplicated reasons and she him. they enjoy spending time together and he gets all of her smiles and soft touches as they throw axes together. he brings out a very uncharacteristic side of her, but they are taking things very slowly as they get to know each other. alexander dreymon fc preferred but other fun mountain men are also cool.

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