#supernatural Dean Winchester

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TENDER HEARTS & VIOLENCE — dean winchester

part one, dean and sam find a (very low probability) Cas’s that they can take on their way to whatever freaky healer sam thinks will stop dean’s deal from going through and he meets you | 1.9k

fem!reader, mostly a case fic, kissing, brotherly antics, drinking, flirting, sleeping with a stranger (kinda), wow I really need dean, interactive story, choice at the end for what happens the next chapter so left at a big(kinda) cliffhanger.

tender hearts & violence.

Dean throws a fry at Sam out of pure boredom and his brother retaliates by smacking him with the newspaper in his hand. Well, attempts to, but it doesn’t work out and Dean ends up snatching it from his hand, muttering something childish that just makes his younger brother roll his eyes. “Man, did you see this?” Dean asks as he quickly skims & scans one specific column that looks suspicious. 

“Don’t talk with food in your mouth!”

“Did you see it?” He insists, shoving the newspaper into his brother’s hand, his finger on the column. “Two deaths, both husband and wife.”

“Okay, so? They could’ve done it to each other or—” As he reads on, he finds the writer’s statement. All evidence leads to the mistress, and yet there’s been no body found yet. Until then, no crime has been committed to which she can be locked up for. “Witch?” He looks up at Dean, shovelling more fries into his mouth as he nods. “Maybe. It’s a long shot, though, this seems pretty tame, Dean.”

Their infamous sentence: “We’ve picked up cases on less.” Don’t they always? After their early lunch in the diner, both men head to Charlestown, Indiana, ready to find out what has the police so confused. On the way, Dean’s a lot less tense than usual, Sam notices. And Sam wishes it’s because he’s more ready to fight his death but the truth is, no matter what he does, Dean’s set on letting the events take place the at he promised the demon, like he’s letting some low-life from hell decide what he should do with his life. It’s tearing the both of them apart and it’s gruelling, but Sam is doing enough worrying for the two of them. 

When they reach Charlestown, Dean parks the Impala in the motel parking lot, forcing Sam to get the bags while he checks them in (flirts with the clerk). They’re both in a room for a pretty good price and already mapping out on the table. While their dad enjoys being more obvious and connecting dots on the walls like a detective, the boys much rather throwing a bunch of photos and newspapers on the table. They don’t have much, just the article they saw and the names of the officers that are assigned the case so that’s where they start. 

FBI agents Plant and Page make it into the police station, flashing their badge at officer Leuders. “FBI?” They go through the way-too-old ‘what’re you guys doing here?’ ‘Standard-blah-blah’ ‘well, okay, here’s the information’. Not exactly Dean’s favorite activity but it ends pretty quickly and thankfully, the officer comes out with the entire story.

A woman, Yumeko Shoko was found dead two weeks ago, her husband, just two days before this. All evidence points to the husband’s mistress, Lily O’Connell. When Dean’s shown a picture, he almost whistles just looking at it. She’s beautiful, he’ll give her that, but she doesn’t look occult-y or witch-y. Well, he’ll never find out unless he meets her himself. 

“And why do you think it’s Ms. O’Connell?”

“She took out a big life insurance policy a few nights before her husband's death. We think he was in on it with her in the beginning, maybe he told her that if they kill Yumeko they’ll be happy together and then she betrayed him, but we can’t find any evidence. More than that, no body.”

“Ah, alright, thank you for your time, officer.” He tips his head slightly before walking away and shutting the file closed. “It’s the mistress.”

“What?” Dean’s eyebrows furrow. “Why would you say that? It all points to her.”

“No body. She’s lived here all her life, family is a few neighbourhoods down from the Shoko’s, she knows the town by heart, who else could bury a body so well that the can’t find it in the water or on ground with dogs?”

Dean scoffs, the same way he always does when he doesn’t think Sam is right and is ready to fight him on it just out of pure spite. “You know what, if you’re so sure, let’s go meet her, see what she has to say. She doesn’t look witchy to me, man.”

“Never said she was.” Dean sighs, yeah, this is getting non-supernatural real quick.

When they’re both at her house twenty minutes later, Dean is met with the most devastated looking woman. Lily O’Connell’s eyeliner is running down her face, she has makeup streaks on her cheeks and both men don’t think she’s showered the entire two days. Just based on her crumpled clothes, nothing else. “Oh, uh,” she sniffles, moving to let them in. “Officers.”

“Ma’am, we just came to ask you a few questions about Yumeko and Kimho Shoko.” Dean notices a few things, one that he should’ve come up with earlier is the fact that she lives here. She’s staying at their house like it was his and hers, it’s uncanny. This was Yumeko and Kimho’s house, why is she acting like she matters to him? Kimho must’ve made it clear to her that she’s only an affair, surely, or at the very least kept her a secret enough that she'd be ashamed to come out about something like this to his neighbours after his death. Others include the fact that there’s photos of her on two stands. One of them includes both her and the late husband. 

”Kimho was my boyfriend.” Well, she’s not subtle. “He was my favorite person in the world, we were together for… a while. And I know it was wrong, but we loved each other, it was so much more than just sex.” 

“Okay, did his wife know?” Sam asks like the professional he is while Dean’s fighting back his own hurtful words. They loved each other? Oh, please, cheating doesn’t need an explanation, you’re just a scumbag. 

“No. No. But, uh, she suspected, probably.” She says shamefully, thank God, her nails between her teeth. His brother asks a few more questions. The last one being if she knows anyone else who could help. “Well…” she starts, before shaking her head, biting her lip between her teeth. “Nevermind, nevermind.”

“No, really, anything can help.”

She hesitates for less than a second, “There’s this woman, Yumeko’s best friend.” She gives your name. “She works at the hospital down the street.”

“Thank you.” Both boys end the conversation with giving her a card and heading back to their motel. It’s late enough that Sam’s tired, but not too late that Dean won’t have a drink in the nearest bar. After some intensive research (driving around the area two times) he finds one with the most number of people, which is really all he’s here to do anyway, blend in, not at all because the more people there are, the more hot chicks there will be… it’s been a while for Dean, about four weeks, and something just needs to be done. He’s not always looking for someone to sleep with, and he definitely doesn’t do it in the middle of the case, but his chest has been feeling tighter than usual and he thinks this can help.

He enters the bright bar, the immediate scent of cheap beer and air freshener hits him, this is his style. He asks the bartender for a whiskey neat before turning around to scan the area, he can probably just drink till someone walks up to him, or he can make conversation with someone himself but tonight’s a little more about the drinking than the woman (at least right now it is) so he gives the main floor his back and grabs the drink from the bartender. “You know, for a cop, you ain’t all that smooth.”

Dean smirks before even facing the mysterious voice, smug that it was this easy. He turns around to face you, and God do you look beautiful. He doesn’t even get past your eyes because he’s pretty sure he might start drooling if he eyes your outfit. “How’d you—”

“You have your badge in your back pocket, seriously? I could’ve stolen that in five seconds, not that I would, officer.” You tease before flagging someone down and ordering a mocktail. “Long day?”

“Oh, yeah. Real long one.”

“I haven’t seen you around town before, Officer…”

“Just Dean is fine.” He doesn’t exactly like to lie to any of the women he’s with about his name because he knows he’ll regret it if they start moaning out ‘Carl’ or something while he’s inside them. And none of them ask for a second name anyway.

“Okay, Dean, so, you new?”

“Just here on business, not planning to stay long,” You can’t help the pull of your lips into a grin. When she’s serving your mocktail, you grab the cherry on top, quickly pulling it into your mouth, the small fruit still visible with your smile. “And you?”

You let it go with a pop, biting off a piece, “Always been my home. It was, anyway. I might move soon.” You sigh and that somehow intrigues him more than your little show a few seconds ago. When he asks why, you just shrug. “You know, stuff happens here, the past is hard to bury. A fresh start would be good.”

“I know what you mean,” He sighs, staring at his drink for a couple of seconds before downing the whole thing. 

“Woahh! Maybe you’re running from something, buddy.” Buddy. As if he wasn’t imagining you in a thousand different positions already, buddy isn’t what you’re gonna be calling him later tonight… if he can actually find a way to get you in the impala. He’s still cautious since they don’t know what caused the deaths but you look nice enough. Innocent enough. When he can finally take a good look at you, your outfit is the same way, beautiful and elegant, a short white skirt and grey low cut top. 

“No, No, just a long day. How was yours?”

“Okay, just got off work which is always a relief. I work sixteen hour shifts so I don’t get time to sleep let alone go to a bar, but I knew I needed it,” The last part comes out a lot more flirty than Dean expects you tried. He leans over. “Guess I knew I needed someone to take the edge off.” He doesn’t waste time after that, leaning in to kiss you, his hand moving to grab your cheek and pull you in as he feels you physically melt into it. You move closer till your chest is touching his. 

“You’re beautiful,” he says into the kiss, his left hand moving to your waist, “and really fucking sexy.” It’s that part that makes you moan into his mouth and drive him up the damn wall. “C’mon, my car’s outside.” When you pull away, you seem hesitant for a second, biting your bottom lip between your teeth and he’s about to tell you it’s fine if you don’t want to keep going.

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— HIS CAMGIRL, DEAN WINCHESTER.

MDNI smut, camgirl!user, male masturbation

Was Dean the type of man to indulge in something like this? Absolutely. More than anyone else he knew, Dean was aware— unapologetically— that this was exactly his kind of thing.

He sat alone in a dimly lit motel room, the familiar creak of the mattress beneath him as he leaned back against the headboard. Sam was out— running errands or maybe chasing a lead— and Dean knew he had time. Time to unwind in his own way. With one hand he began to unbutton his jeans, the other deftly maneuvering the mouse of his aging laptop until he landed on a site he knew far too well.

BecomeACamGirl.com

His preferred distraction. His favorite money sink. Hundreds of dollars funneled through fraudulent credit cards, all to indulge in moments of digital intimacy that felt far too real. He justified it easily— if the money wasn’t theirs to begin with, then why not spend it on something that made him feel something?

And then there was you.

Or rather, Sugar— your screen name, sweet and simple, but with a bite that matched your smile. You were his weakness. The way you spoke to him in chat, the way you said his name— moaned his name—it drove him to the brink every single time. It wasn’t just lust. It was obsession, tangled with the illusion of connection.

He clicked through to your profile. You were live. Thank God.

It had been weeks since he’d had the chance. Sam had been glued to his side lately, and solo moments like these were becoming rare. But now��� now he had you.

“Dean,” your voice purred through the speakers, sultry and teasing. You sat on the floor of your softly lit bedroom, framed by plush carpet and shadows. Lingerie hugged your curves like a second skin. “Nice of you to join. Was starting to miss my favorite boy.” You smiled, biting your bottom lip just enough to make his heart race.

Dean let out a breathless chuckle, jeans and boxers shoved down in one practiced motion. He typed with one hand, the other already gripping the base of his aching cock as he sent a $50 tip along with a message.

Dean: Missed you, sweet thing.

You glanced to the side to read it, your smile widening as you spoke. “You remember the last time you were here? Bought me something off my wishlist?” You leaned off camera for a moment.

Oh, he remembered. A white lace lingerie set— soft, delicate, almost innocent. He’d imagined you in it for days. Then, he imagined it crumpled on your bedroom floor.

You returned, holding the set between two fingers like a promise. “Should I go put this on for you guys?” you asked, your voice light with a playful lilt. You giggled as you scrolled through the chat.

Dean didn’t hesitate. His body moved on instinct, fingers flying over the keys as the tension in him built higher.

Dean: Fuck yeah.

After stepping off-screen for a few moments, you return to view— Dean’s white lingerie hugging your curves, your hair now loose around your shoulders. With a coy, knowing smile, you sit back down, settling gracefully as you flash a bashful grin to the camera.

“Do you like it?” you murmur, your voice soft and teasing. Leaning back on your palms, you subtly adjust your posture, striking a few flattering poses to show off your body in all the right angles.

On the other side of the screen, Dean exhales sharply. Without hesitation, he spits into the palm of his hand and rewraps it around the base of his cock, slicking himself up slowly, his eyes never leaving the screen.

You reach off camera and return with a pastel pink dildo, bringing it into view with a lazy smile. You drizzle lube into your free hand, the bottle making a soft sound as you apply it, then start stroking the toy with practiced ease.

“God, baby… you’re so big,” you whisper breathlessly, eyes flicking up toward the camera, every word dipped in desire.

“Let me taste you. Please? Want you in my mouth,” you plead softly, your lips forming a pout as you lean in, giving the silicone tip a slow, deliberate lick while holding eye contact with the lens.

Dean lets out a low groan, whispering as if you could actually hear him. “Yeah… you can,” he mutters, nodding to himself, immersed entirely in the illusion that you’re in the room with him.

His breath catches as he watches you take the toy fully into your mouth, lips stretched around the shaft until you reach the base. When you pull back, a glistening string of spit connects your lips to the toy, and his grip tightens reflexively.

Dean’s imagination runs wild— wondering how your throat would feel around him. Could you handle all of him? Would you gag? Would you moan around him, tears in your eyes as you took every inch?

You moan softly, your free hand rising to cup your chest as you begin sucking on the toy once more, slow and sensual.

“Fuck, sugar,” Dean groans, closing his eyes for a moment, hips jerking upward into his own hand as pleasure courses through him.

“Cum for me, baby,” you whisper sweetly, pulling off the dildo and stroking it slowly, resting your cheek against it as you gaze into the camera with wide, pleading eyes.

“I’m cumming, sugar… fuck,” he gasps, his voice low and broken. With a series of quiet grunts, Dean finishes into his hand, his body tensing as he rides out the wave, breath stuttering in his chest.

You smile softly, reading through the flood of chat messages and generous tips rolling in. One by one, thank-you notes and donations appear— until Dean’s $300 tip pops up, rocketing him from second place to the coveted top spot: your highest tipper of the night.

Dean: Until next time, sweet girl.

“Thank you all for coming tonight. Thank you, Dean.” you say gently, your voice dripping with satisfaction. “You were amazing. I’ll see you next time, yeah? And don’t forget, there’s a new $20 chat option if you ever want to talk one-on-one.”

Dean’s eyes narrow with interest at that last line, watching as the camera clicks off and your profile reappears on screen. He grabs a towel from beside the bed, cleaning himself off as he scans the new feature you teased.

A direct message option—private access to you, his favorite camgirl. For $20, he could talk to you directly, one-on-one.

He smirks.

He just might have to give that a try.

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✮⋆˙ cuddles with dean

𝘀𝘆𝗻. ━ dean learns to be a little selfish.

𖤐 𝗮𝗻𝗻𝘀 𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗲𝘀 .ᐟ deans my cutie little lovebug and i just want him to sleep peacefully this is my dream and i definitely got carried away writing this (⸝⸝ᵕᴗᵕ⸝⸝) okay bye

𖤐 𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 .ᐟ fluffy fluff with angst(?). cuddles. mentions of deans time in hell, and his low self-esteem. dean-centric. gender-neutral reader. modern reader in spn. isn’t really season specific, but set anytime after season 4. probably ooc (again). i may have rushed at the end, sorry. 2.68k words. 

   ─── ⋆⋅𖦹⋅⋆ ───  ─── ⋆⋅𖦹⋅⋆ ───  ─── ⋆⋅𖦹⋅⋆ ───

It takes Dean a long time before he ever allows himself to be put in this position — vulnerable, open, seen. It’s not something he does. It’s not something he can do, or at least, not that easily. His life has never really been about him. Every good thing he’d ever done, every ounce of effort or care, it’s always been for someone else: Sam, Dad, the job. He’d never done anything for himself that didn’t somehow bleed into someone else. And even then, it never felt like enough.

Sam is his little brother, his responsibility. He raised him, he bled for him, he died for him. Dean had went to Hell with Sam’s name carved into every broken piece of him. Most people wouldn’t do that. But Dean Winchester isn’t most people. He’s his father's little soldier, the good son, the obedient one. There was never room for anything else. Never any space to figure out who he was outside of someone else's shadow. He didn’t belong to himself. Not when he was Sam’s guard dog. Not when he was John’s perfectly crafted weapon.

Dean hates himself — that much is obvious. He doesn’t need to say it out loud because he’s pretty sure that everyone already has that figured out, even if he wants to pretend that it isn’t true. It shows in the way he moves, the way he talks, the way he tears himself down before anyone else can get the chance to. He calls himself selfish, even though everything he’s ever done has been for the sake of everyone else. But he doesn’t see it that way. Dean never has. To him, sacrificing everything he is was just the bare minimum. That’s what he should do. Because what is he, if not useful? What is he, if not needed?

He’s so used to standing alone, to being the last line between the people he loves and the things that want to tear them apart. He'd rather it be him than anyone else — because somewhere along the way, he decided that his life just doesn't hold the same worth. Not like Sam's. Not like yours. And he hates that it hurts, but he also hates that he even thinks about wanting anything at all. Because wanting is selfish. Needing is selfish. And comfort? That’s not something Dean thinks he’d ever be allowed.

He’s touch-starved. He’s touch-starved in a way that's ingrained deep within his bones, but he’s convinced himself that this is just how it’s supposed to be. That he doesn’t get softness. Doesn’t get warmth. Doesn’t get to be held, or healed, or cared for. And if he ever lets himself want it — if he ever lets someone close enough to see how tired he is — then what does that make him? Weak? Needy? 

Yeah, it takes Dean a long while to let himself be put in this position — in your arms, safe, and loved, and for him to think that maybe he does deserve it. Even if he hasn’t earned it the way he thinks he’s supposed to. When it's so clear that all you want is to give it to him, no strings attached. It’s like coaxing a wild animal – careful, patient, and slow. You never corner Dean with affection, never overwhelm him with your gentle nature he doesn’t think he’s allowed to want. You just exist in his space, solid and steady, a quiet kind of constant that doesn’t ask for anything in return. And maybe that’s what gets to him most, that you don’t expect him to earn your kindness. You’re just there. And over time, that simple act starts to chip away at something inside him, something he didn’t even realize was still breakable.

It started with the smallest things. Your fingers brushing against his whenever you pass him something. The way you rest your hand on his arm when patching him up. They’re nothing, really — just harmless touches that you probably don’t even think about twice. But Dean does. He thinks about them more than he should. At first, he tells himself it's because he's not used to it. But the truth is, he misses it when it's gone. And that terrifies him. Because wanting something for himself? That’s not in the job description. That’s not who he’s supposed to be.

So when you get together and the cuddling starts, it’s always him as the big spoon. Of course it is. That’s who Dean is — the protector, the shield. He doesn’t let himself be held, not yet. He keeps watch even in the deepest of sleeps and in the darkest of nights, as if danger might strike at any moment. But your warmth seeps into him, like sunlight soaking into skin long starved of it. Dean’s drawn to you in a way that he hasn’t been drawn to anyone or anything before. His hand drifts to your chest, his breath soft and calm against your shoulder. It’s never deliberate, not at first, but over time it happens more often — these small, tender trespasses into comfort. And soon one day, without thinking, he simply lets himself fold right into you.

Dean revels in it more than he’ll ever admit. The way he fits so nice and easily in your arms — like he was always meant to be there. His head rests just above your heart, breathing synced with yours in the kind of rhythm that makes the world feel quiet for once. He's tucked into you so firm, your arms wrapping around him to secure him to you. As if in that moment, if something were to come through those motel doors, they would have to pry Dean from your cold dead hands. Because right now, he’s hidden from the world by the comforter that lays gingerly over him. It comes right up to his head, only his hair is visible to anyone that dare to even check. The only person that can truly see him is you. 

And Dean loves the little things that you do. Like how your fingers will trace shapes into the back of his neck, absent-minded and soft, like you’re painting calmness directly into his skin. Sometimes he wonders if you're drawing sigils or love notes, or just letting your touch wander. He doesn’t care what it is, though, just to be clear. He doesn’t care what you do. It leaves him feeling weightless, like his body is finally remembering what it feels like to be safe. That sensation, those tingles running down his spine, are enough to anchor him in the moment. And when everything else in his life has been chaos and guilt, and war — your touch is the one thing that doesn’t ask anything of him.

Which reminds him why he loves your hands. The way they move with such care, so soft it nearly breaks him into pieces. They’re nothing like his own — scarred, calloused, blood-soaked and burned by the weight of a world he never had a choice in. Your hands don’t carry the same kind of grief. They don’t know what it’s like to be dragged through Hell, to scream for years that don’t exist in time, to become the thing he swore he’d never be. He still remembers every second of it, every moment he was the one on the rack — the one being tortured, and worse, becoming the torturer.  And somehow, your hands still touch him like he’s someone worth such devotion.

That’s what gets to him the most. Your hands are from a place far far away, untouched by the things that plague his. There are no hunts or horrors quite like this life. And it’s that contrast that makes his mind wander. Because how could someone like you, with your soft hands and open heart, want someone like him? Someone who hates himself, who always puts others before himself and still believes he’s selfish for wanting anything in return. But even with all of that, even with everything screaming that he shouldn’t take it, he does. 

And you don’t mind. It surprises Dean the most how you completely and effortlessly don’t mind. He keeps waiting for the catch sometimes, for the moment when you pull away or start to expect something in return. But it never comes. Not with you. You let him hold on as tightly as he needs to, let him drape his weight across you like he’s something heavy and fragile all at once. His strong arms lock around your waist, pressing you close like he’s afraid of being pulled away. And even when his body sinks into yours like a living blanket — too warm, too much — you never pull away. If anything, you melt right into him, and he basks in that. In you.

You’d never complain. Dean doesn’t know if anything he does actually bothers you — nothing ever seems to — but that doesn’t stop him from overthinking. He worries about taking too much, about letting himself get too comfortable in a role he was never allowed to want. He questions if he’s too heavy, if he’s clinging too tightly, if maybe it’s selfish to crave softness when his whole life has been about giving it away. Sometimes, all it takes is a subtle shift from you, a stretch or a sigh, and his brain darkens with guilt. He’ll apologize under his breath, pulling back just slightly, ready to undo the comfort he let himself believe he could have. But you notice — of course you notice — and you meet it with tenderness, never rejection.

You resettle without hesitation, like you want him there, and he almost can’t handle how gently you handle him. You stroke the back of his neck with featherlight fingers, your arms curling around his broad frame as if you’re telling him to stay — that he’s safe. You press soft kisses to the crown of his head, murmuring reassurances in a voice that wraps around his heart like a warm blanket. It undoes him. Every single time. 

You might shift again, though this time it's much more gentle and slow, but Dean will barely register it. He’s just barely treading the line of that quiet space between sleep and wakefulness, just conscious enough to feel the warmth of you wrapped around him. And suddenly, a low, involuntary sound escapes him — so low that Sam who’s been long asleep couldn’t hear. It’s soft, almost like a whine, and you’re pretty sure if he were awake enough to notice, he’d probably deny it ever happened. But you do hear it, and it pulls a quiet laugh from your throat; a breathy sound laced with fondness and it tickles at Dean's brain. Though a sleepy pout tugs at your lips, even as you smile, and you lean in close to whisper a little teasing, “What’s wrong, hm?” but you already know. You know exactly what he wants, what he needs, because you’ve come to understand him in ways no one else ever has.

Your hand finds its way into his hair, still a little damp from the shower — the strands soft like clouds and a few curl slightly at the ends. Your fingers scratch lightly at his scalp, in slow and soothing consistent movements, while your other hand rests along his back; drawing slow, tender circles that feel like medicine to his aching and tension-filled body. You coo something nice, something sweet that melts into the space between you. It makes his mind go fuzzy and causes him to drift deeper. You don’t care that he’s heavy, or clingy, or quiet — you just want him to feel good. To be cared for, completely and unconditionally. And in this moment, that’s exactly what he lets you do. He doesn’t fight it. He can’t.

Your kisses are the softest sound he’s ever heard. Little clicks as your lips part from his skin, quiet and sweet and endlessly patient. Every single one makes him burrow closer, hiding his face like he could melt straight into you. He’s not embarrassed, not really — that wouldn’t be the correct word anyway — but his cheeks are warm, and he knows you’re amused by the way your chest rumbles with a quiet laugh. It makes him press in deeper, his face tucked away and eyelashes fluttering against your skin like a shy confession. And you take that as permission, because of course you do; pressing slow kisses across his cheeks, along his brow, the curve of his nose — anywhere your mouth can reach really and Dean just lets you. He can’t quite reach your lips from the angle he’s trapped himself into, he knows that, but he still tries to return the affection anyway. He’ll drowsily nudge kisses against your collarbone, or your shoulder, or anything he can manage.

And you call him such sweet things while you do it. They’re soft pet names that make him ache. Honey. Sweetheart. Words that never felt like they belonged to him before, but somehow, coming from you, feel like they do. He doesn’t know why you calling him sweetie makes his chest tight in a way that isn’t derived from panic or just something bad — but it does. But it’s also the way you say his name that gets him the most. The way it rolls off your tongue, syrupy and lovely, like something precious. You make his name sound beautiful. And Dean doesn’t know how you do it, how you take a name he’s only ever heard barked in anger or strained with urgency and turn it into something tender.

Your hand leaves his back for a moment and he misses the weight of it instantly — until he feels the soft brush of your fingers along his jaw. He sucks in a breath as you trace the edge of it with the back of your knuckle before cupping his cheek, stroking it with the pad of your thumb like he’s something delicate. He leans into it without meaning to, something quiet and needy pulling him into the warmth of your palm. You’re having fun with it, doting on him like he’s your favorite thing — and yeah, he is. He feels it in the way you touch him, in the way you look at him like he’s soft and worth loving. Dean’s never been cherished like this, not even close — and it makes him feel dizzy, overwhelmed in the best way possible. Dizzy and safe. Always safe, always with you.

It melts his heart and terrifies him at the same time. The way you treat him with so much care, so much softness, like he’s something worth keeping. And as much as he craves it, as deeply as his wretched soul aches for it, he still doesn’t believe he’ll ever actually deserve it. He tells himself he should pull away in the last conscious moments he has — but he doesn’t. He won’t. Because he let this happen. He let you in. Let the warmth of your love root itself in him until it was too deep to tear out without causing pain. Until not leaning into it hurt way worse than anything else.

Dean doesn’t know how he ended up here, wrapped up in arms that want nothing from him except for him to exist, but he gave up trying to make sense of it a long time ago. He can’t seem to make himself care about the why, though, not when you don’t seem to either. And maybe that does make him selfish because  he’s finally allowing himself to be. Sure, maybe there’s a whisper of guilt that still creeps into the corners of his mind, but you always chase it out with a kiss, or a soft word, or a tender look. And in these quiet, sacred moments, where his mind is just full of thoughts of you — he can’t think of Hell. He can’t think of all the horrors and pain and suffering. Just you. Sweet and gentle, and wonderful you. And somewhere in the deep dark of the night, Dean wonders why he was so against being selfish sooner.

𖤐 .ᐟ dean winchester hit me up, im always available just lmk (๑>؂•̀๑)

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fit in [ d. winchester ]

synopsis. you’re no longer useful to the winchesters notes. 1.1k words, angst, fluff— comments & rbs appreciated.

“it’s honestly ridiculous.” sam smiles, nodding. you know he’s not exactly listening but there’s more pressing matters. like the fact that dean is going home with yet another woman. it’s like no matter what you do, there’s no winning.

after things have settled down— relatively, you thought he’d enjoy being at the bunker more; hanging out with his brother, seeing cass, seeing you. but it just all went to crap. dean’s back to hunt after hunt and the celebratory sex that comes after. the one with any hot woman in the nearest bar.

“sam, i’m serious.” he knows you are, he just can’t find it in him to care too much. he’s already told you the only way to fix this is to tell dean how you feel and you’ve rejected the idea every single time.

he parks the mustang in the garage, killing the engine. “look, dean’s doin’ what he wants because you never said anything. i’m not saying to tell him how you feel, but tell him you don’t like it at least.”

you’re about to argue again, sam can see it, but the look on his face stops you in your tracks. he doesn’t deserve to be caught in the middle of this; dean’s his brother and you’re his friend, he doesn’t need to keep listening to you say you’re in love with his brother.

despite what sam might think, your feelings towards him will never change, no matter what happens with dean. even if he rejects you so horribly that you never leave your house again, you'll make time to call sam and tell him you’re fine and ask about him. he’s been your best friend since forever, that can’t change. 

“finally!” you both jump, hands already on your guns and sam’s is even half way pointed at the sound before you both sigh. “woah, what’s with the not so warm welcome?”

“weren’t you with the blond bimbo?” you immediately wince after the words leave your mouth and try to make it better before he shakes his head.

“she admitted she drank more than a few when we got to her place.” you furrow your eyebrows, not sure what that means. dean’s a great guy and you’re aware he’d never force himself on anyone, nevermind take advantage of an intoxicated girl. but he was drunk too, and the girl was fine if dean didn’t notice till she told him— why would dean just leave? “you don’t need to look at me like that.” he scoffs.

“no, dean, of course that’s not what i meant—”

“i know what you meant.” he walks back into the bunker and just as you’re about to look beside you at sam to ask what the hell just happened, but he’s already shutting the car door and you’re left alone in the garage.

you can’t wrap your head around the boys’ seldom reactions. it has to mean more than what was said, right? is this their way of saying you overstayed your welcome? 

it would make sense, now that there’s no more danger because amara left, they don’t need your witchy assistance and even if they did, they know you’d come running back the second they ask, you don’t need to live with them.

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the duffel bag on your bed fills up quicker than you initially thought— and with it your eyes brim with tears. you didn’t think you had such little impact on the boys, especially because they mean the world to you. they helped you figure out your magic and even if it wasn’t for the best reasons in the beginning, you became their friend in the end.

you thought they liked you. you especially thought dean liked you. but you’re wrong, you’re just plain wrong and now crying on a bed that doesn’t belong to you in a home that isn’t yours.

someone knocks on the door and you quickly dry your eyes, throwing the bag under the bed hastily. dean makes his way into your room before you tell him to come in. “hey, sweetheart.”

he’s smiling, like nothings wrong at all and you can’t find it in you to do anything but mirror his reaction. but he quickly noticed your red eyes. “hey, hey, what’s wrong?”

“i’m leaving.” you mumble, standing up. his eyebrows furrow and when he looks you up and down, he notices the strap of the bag peeking from under the bed. he grabs it and throws it onto the bed. “i, uh, yeah. tonight, probably.”

“why on earth would you…”

“i just think it’s time, you know?” this is exactly what dean wants, you repeat in your head. but he’s also a good man, and he won’t do it himself so you’re gonna make it seem like your idea.

“no— no, god, no. why is it time— what time? what’s wrong with staying here with me and sam?”

“it’s just not my home, dean.” 

“why? you’ve lived here for four years. how much longer before you decide it’s your home?” you shrug, sniffling and his eyes quickly snaps to your face. “do you even want this? you’re crying.” he emphasis the last word, pointing to your entire body and you let out a frustrated sigh.

“i know i’m crying, it’s fucking embarrassing. look, i just know i need to—”

“you don’t need to do anything. you can stay here.”

“and help with what? amara’s gone, the mark’s gone—”

“i’m still here!” you… don’t even know what that means. “i’m here and you’re trying to leave me. why? what’s so horrible about living with me? with us?”

“nothing, i just don’t fit anymore.” when you look up to study his face, he’s never looked so confused. it takes a second for either of you to move but dean quickly pulls you in closer, his lips against yours. he doesn’t waste time, swallowing your gasps and mumbles of his name.

and when he decides to let go of the assault on your lips and pulls back, you’re the one confused. “do you fit now? will you stay?”

it all crashes down on you in a horrible pile. you push him away and shake your head. “you kissed me to get me to stay? i’m a phone call away, dean, if something shows up and threatens to kill you, i’ll come back, but you can’t play around with my feelings—”

“what? no, no,” he closes the space that you added between the two of you, “stop it, that’s not why i did it. i like you, i’m—” he struggles for a second before letting out a frustrated noise and kissing you again. this time you melt into it.

this time he melts your worries away.

[rositaslabyrinth]

He’s your bf headcanons - Dean W

Dean Winchester x gn!reader

There aren’t any content warnings so everyone can enjoy <3

Headcanons and scenarios based on Dean being your boyfriend

Word count ; 997

── .✦ Protective to a Fault

⟢ Dean is intensely protective, and yeah, a lot of that comes from the life he leads. If you’re a hunter, he insists on watching your back, always putting himself between you and danger. If you’re not, then good luck ever getting him to let you out of his sight when things get even remotely suspicious.

⟢ But it’s not just about monsters and demons—it’s in the little things, too. The way he walks on the outside of the sidewalk, the way his hand finds the small of your back in a crowded bar, the way he instinctively reaches for you in his sleep, even when he’s dead tired. He won’t always say he’s worried about you, but it’s in the way he brings you an extra layer when it’s cold, in the way he subtly checks you over after a hunt, his fingers ghosting over your skin like he’s making sure you’re still in one piece.

⟢ “You get hurt, and I swear—” he grumbles, shaking his head. But the way his fingers tighten around yours tells you the rest of what he won’t say out loud.

── .✦ Physical Affection Is His Love language

⟢ Dean pretends he’s the tough guy, all gruff and distant, but in reality? He’s touchy. And he doesn’t even realize it most of the time. He pulls you into his side when you’re standing next to him, rests his hand on your knee when he’s driving, absently plays with your fingers when you’re sitting together in the bunker. When he kisses you, he does it like he means it—deep, slow, like he’s memorizing the way you taste.

⟢ And after a long day? He won’t say he needs to hold you, but you’ll feel it in the way he tugs you into his arms, letting out a long breath as his chin rests against the top of your head. It’s how he grounds himself—reminding himself you’re here, safe, his.

── .✦ He Loves to Make You Laugh

⟢ Dean thrives on making you laugh. He’ll do the dumbest impressions, tell the worst dad jokes, even break out ridiculous dance moves just to see you crack a smile. If you’re upset, he’s all sarcastic quips and exaggerated antics, nudging you until you roll your eyes and finally let out a little laugh. And when you do? He grins like he just won the lottery.

⟢ “See? That’s the face I like. Much better, sweetheart.”

── .✦ Cooking for You Is One of His Biggest Love Languages

⟢ Dean Winchester might not be the most eloquent guy when it comes to feelings, but he sure as hell knows how to put love into a plate of food. He loves cooking for you—whether it’s a greasy diner-style breakfast with extra bacon or a late-night burger when you’re too exhausted to eat anything else. And if you compliment his cooking? Oh, he preens.

⟢ “Damn right, baby, best cook you’ve ever had.”

⟢ That being said, expect him to be extremely opinionated about what qualifies as “real food.” If you bring home something remotely healthy, he just squints at it like it personally insulted him.

⟢ “What even is that? Kale? That’s rabbit food, sweetheart. You’re killin’ me.”

── .✦ His Jealousy Is Subtle, but It’s There

⟢ Dean’s the type of guy who trusts you—he’s not about to smother you or get insecure over nothing. But if someone’s too friendly with you? Oh, you’ll see the shift. His jaw sets, his arm finds its way around your waist, and his voice drops just a little lower. He won’t cause a scene, but the way he stares at the guy who won’t stop flirting with you? Yeah. It’s a warning.

⟢ And later, when you’re alone? He won’t admit he was jealous, but he’ll tug you onto his lap, kiss you slow and deep, and mutter, “Just makin’ sure you know who you belong to, sweetheart.”

── .✦ He’s a Wreck When It Comes to Losing You

⟢ Dean is terrified of losing the people he loves. He’s been through too much, lost too many, and the idea of something happening to you? It eats at him. He hides it well—makes jokes, pretends he’s got it under control—but when you’re hurt? That’s when the mask slips.

⟢ “Damn it, sweetheart—what were you thinking? You could’ve—” He stops himself, running a hand over his face, exhaling hard. Then he pulls you into his chest, his heartbeat fast and uneven. “Just… don’t scare me like that again, okay?”

── .✦ He Loves Falling Asleep with You

⟢ Dean’s never been the type to be good at sleeping. Too many nightmares, too many nights spent on the road, gun under his pillow, waiting for something to go wrong. But you? You make it easier. When you’re curled up beside him, tucked against his chest, his arm slung over your waist—it’s the closest thing to peace he’s had in years.

⟢ And if he wakes up in the middle of the night, restless? He just reaches for you, his fingers tracing lazy circles on your skin, grounding himself in the steady rise and fall of your breathing.

── .✦ He’s Lowkey the Best Boyfriend Ever, Even If He Won’t Admit It

⟢ Dean Winchester will never call himself a romantic. He’ll roll his eyes if you say it. But the truth is? He is. He just doesn’t realize it. It’s in the way he remembers exactly how you like your coffee. In the way he brings you back little trinkets from cases because they reminded him of you. In the way he sings to you—badly, and usually off-key—when he thinks you’re not paying attention.

⟢ He’s not good at talking about feelings, but he shows them in every little thing he does.

⟢ And when you finally tell him, “You know you’re actually the best boyfriend ever, right?”—he just huffs, shaking his head with a smirk.

⟢ “Damn right I am. Took you long enough to notice, sweetheart.”

First headcanon post!!! Also I’m just going to be tagging all of my mutuals so if you don’t want to be tagged in my posts please please let me know!! I don’t want to be that person LMFAO

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the language of love isn't dead — dean winchester

cw : gn!reader, fluff, frenemies to lovers, petty arguments, ft. sam!, dean is annoying obviously <3, reader speaks latin (i used google translate and it is probably very wrong lol), kissing, one mention of a sexual innuendo, a few joking death threats, non-serious mentions of choking, poorly edited, 2.4K words. requested !

summary : you tend to compliment dean in the dead language of latin after fights so that he doesn't know what you really think about him.

MOVED BLOGS TO @sammyluvr !! no longer active on this blog! all fics can be found there!

“you’re being ridiculous,” you frown at dean, arms crossed against your chest as you stare him down in tonight’s motel room.

“ridiculous?” he parrots, indignant. “this is baby we’re talking about. my car. you know, the ‘67 black chevy impala i would kill a man over?”

“yeah, i know her,” you reply, sarcastic in tone. “and your homicidal tendencies when it comes to her. i’m very familiar, dean.” you roll your eyes at him because you just can’t help it. dean makes it very easy to get annoyed at, for a multitude of reasons.

reason number one, he’s annoying. reason number two, he’s very hot when he’s angry. reason number three, he’s very hot pretty much all the time. it does not help that sam got first dibs on the shower, so he’s still covered in a bit of grime and blood from the hunt you just walked away from. it’s his best look, aside from any time that he smiles.

“well, then you should know that getting her perfectly tended to and polished leather seats dirty with wendy’s barbecue sauce is like a goddamn felony and i should sentence you to life of never even stepping foot near my car again,” he fires back, and if you didn’t know him well, which you do, you’d venture to guess that he’s joking. he’s not.

you groan in frustration. “for the last time, i did not get barbecue sauce on your car seats,” you insist.

“i saw you sneaking fries before we got to the room,” he counters, narrowing his eyes at you. “you could have gotten grease on the leather too.”

“i ate two fries dean, and i was careful. i used a napkin and i did not open my barbecue sauce!” you spit back at him. you can’t believe you’re arguing about this right now. except that it is so believable and so like you and him. it’s not like either one of you is going to back down, certainly not about something so petty and meaningless.

“then how come i found some in the back seat?” he says for what feels like the millionth time.

you throw your hands up in the air. “i don’t know! i don’t even use my barbecue sauce for my fries. there’s no reason for me to have opened it!” you argue, huffing out a frustrated sigh. “and how do you even know it was barbecue sauce?”

“it looked like barbecue sauce, it wasn’t there yesterday, you’re the only one who orders it and the only one who’s sat in the back since then. therefore, barbecue sauce,” he admonishes, crossing his arms over his chest to punctuate his point. you can’t help but laugh at him a little bit. he just sounds so ridiculous.

“well then, let’s say it was barbecue sauce—which it wasn’t. did the leather get damaged?” you ask pointedly.

“that doesn’t matter!” he practically rages, taking a step towards you. god, he’s beautiful and you hate him for it (you really, really love him for it). “what matters is that you got it dirty!”

“jesus, dean! just drop it, your car is fine!” you chastise, your voice raising a little in volume as you take another step towards him. you can see his light freckles better now. they’re so goddamn pretty it makes you want to choke him.

“just drop it?” he repeats, fuming. “i will not ‘just drop it.’ this is about baby. i can’t ‘just drop’ something about baby! how can i even trust you enough to let you in my car again, huh?” this is the point where he’s serious, but not that serious. there’s clear frustration and anger in his voice, but he’s stuck with you and he knows it. and when he asks that final question, his volume lessens and he shrugs. he’s looking for you to grovel or offer something to appease him. the question is whether or not to give him that. your instinct is, of course, to not. you let out a huff of breath.

“well, maybe because i’m excellent company in the car,” you suggest, a gloating tone making its way into your voice. “and i like your music better than sam does. which means we always outnumber him. that’s very important.”

he’s unimpressed, clearly. “you gotta come up with something better than that, sweetheart,” he goads.

you curl your lip at him and roll your eyes. “you absolutely suck, dean,” you state. he raises his eyebrows and you groan and roll your eyes yet again. that’s not the word to use around him unless you want a sexual innuendo thrown in your face. “you are absolutely horrible, dean,” you amend.

he laughs at you and his annoyance mostly subsides. “which means i have no problem getting back at you tenfold for getting goddamn barbecue sauce on my car seat.”

“te respicere bonum cum iratus es, ita dampnas,” you grumble, shaking your head and glaring at him. like tradition, you end the argument with a certain latin phrase full of choice words. 

now dean, sweet, lovely, silly, gorgeous dean, has no idea what you’re saying. he doesn’t care to learn enough latin for that. he doesn’t need to know, he thinks. your tone of voice says it all. he thinks those choice words are the type that one fills an insult with. today you tell him, “you look so damn good when you’re angry.” which, funnily enough, is not an insult.

it’s the perfect way of looking him in the eye and just spitting it out. you get to say without consequence what you’re thinking, what you’re feeling, what you want to tell him so badly. it’s not the same as him knowing, but it helps. it eases your tension until the next time, it softens the blow a little.

sam fails to hold in his laugh behind you. you whirl around and glare at him, freshly dressed and out of the shower. you hadn’t even heard him leave the bathroom. narrowing your eyes at him, you tell your long time best friend, say something and you die. he puts his hands up in surrender, still laughing at you a little.

“shut up,” you grumble, then turn back to dean with a scowl.

“what was that little nerd exchange?” dean teases, realizing sam understood what you said.

“nothing,” you glower. “i’m showering now!” 

dean throws his hands up in protest. “you’re making me shower last after getting barbecue sauce on my car?”

“dean, i swear to the lord in heaven, if you–”

“fine, fine!” he relents, the sarcasm and teasing still clearly present in his voice. “you’re right, you should shower first, you probably have barbecue sauce all over ya.” you raise your fist in a threat and it’s dean’s turn to put his hands up in surrender. “i’m just saying!”

“stop saying!” you groan. “just– stop talking, i’m gonna lose my mind.” if i have to stare at your gorgeous face and listen to your gorgeous voice for another second i will go crazy. you sigh heavily. god, you wonder if you could survive not kissing him. monsters and demons and all the strange shit in the world… that’s fine. it sucks but, jesus, at least you know how to deal with them.

but doing it all with dean? you have no idea how to deal with that. so far, it’s by arguing with him, complimenting him in a dead language, and keeping him at an arm’s length. and so far, it’s not working out too well, because you still want him. you still want him to want you back. you still wish and wish and wish that the language of love isn’t dead, not for you and him, not yet, at least.

maybe the shower will help. this motel doesn’t have the worst showers; the water pressure is decent and the water stays hot for a while longer than some others.

you’re not annoyed when you finish, at least, not about his stupid accusations of you getting condiments on his car seats. unfortunately, you are still annoyed about how attracted you are to him. even more unfortunate, you suppose, is that you’re attracted to him, period.

you sigh because you can’t bring yourself to actually try not to be. not that anyone can reverse feelings, but you let your feelings run rampant, more than you should sometimes. you let him eat away at your heart like a goddman movie zombie that’s too stupid to remember it eats brains. then, you figure that the thought of him eats away at your brain too, because he messes with your rationality sometimes.

his eyes are on you as you leave the bathroom and you wonder if sam’s tattled on you. when you shoot him a look he shrugs and shakes his head. you’re not convinced, but you let it slide. you plop down on the pullout couch bed and pack your old clothes away, ignoring dean’s heavy gaze. only when the door to the bathroom opens and closes do you flop against the bed with a heaving sigh.

“i hate your brother,” you grumble, barely loud enough for sam to hear as the muffled sounds of the shower turning on hits your ears. you turn to your side and curl up, not even bothering to pull the sheet over yourself.

you can’t see sam, but you hear him scoff from his spot on his own bed. “sure you do,” he quips, completely sarcastic.

“no, i really, really do,” you insist, not meaning a word of it.

“well, he hates you too, then,” he answers, voice heavy with implication. you know what he means because he knows what you mean. hate, of course, is love.

“no, he doesn’t,” you counter, sad about it. you bet that no one’s ever sounded so disappointed that someone doesn’t ‘hate’ them.

“you’re hopeless.” sam’s probably shaking his head at you as he reads the words on the book in his lap.

“i’m hopeless,” you sigh.

⟢⟢⟢

it’s not until a few days later that dean confronts you about your little latin digs at him. sam did tattle, only because he’s tired of your pining, but dean won’t tell you that. he’s smart enough to know you’ll end up with your hands around sam’s neck if you end up finding out, and he’s not trying to have his… person strangle his little brother.

“hey, idiot,” he starts, the word layered with affection. “why do you always insult me in latin? sorta feels like you lose the point of insulting someone to their face like that.” 

he’s leaning against the hood of his car, beer in hand like always. it’s oddly uncommon to find yourself like this; outside, alone with him. the motel’s not busy and there are barely any other cars in the parking lot, and even less people. it’s just you and him as far as you can see. the night air is mild, cicadas singing as summer begins to slip away.

“well… maybe the point is that you know i’m saying something about you, but you don’t know what,” you shrug, sort of proud of the smooth answer. you’re not even lying. inside, you’re panicking a bit. this is dangerous territory.

“the stuff you’re saying is that horrible, huh?” his tone suggests a joke. his eyes suggest otherwise. it makes you pause. 

how unfair is it, to the both of you, to lie? to even joke that you’d say such mean things about him? about dean winchester, whom you know sort of hates himself. who has just two people by his side, you and sam.

and you, who only argues with him because it’s easier than being nice. you, who deserves what you want but won’t let yourself even try to have it.

“no,” you sigh out. “i’m not saying horrible stuff about you.” you don’t look at him, you don’t mess around. you take the joking in his voice and strip it away. you take the look in his eyes and put it in yours. it makes him look at you, for once. it’s easy to imagine his eyebrows raising, his lips caught somewhere between his signature smirk and a curious frown. “not in latin, anyways,” you add, letting a huff of laughter leak into your bitter voice.

dean keeps looking at you. you know you’re supposed to explain after saying something like that, but you’d much rather not.

“no?” he asks finally. now you have to say something more.

“no,” you confirm, still staring at the trees across the street instead of him. the street lights are orange in color, and it feels either cruel or hopeful that it’s such a beautiful night. “i… say it in latin because it’s something nice. and you can… ignore this, if you want. i say it in latin because i like you a lot, dean. y’know, more than a stupid, fucking friend.” you roll your eyes a bit, like you’re upset with yourself. then you swallow thickly and ignore the fact that you can see him in your peripheral vision. he doesn’t look like he normally does. he doesn’t look angry.

dean is torn between teasing you and kissing you. you sound mad about the fact that you have feelings for him, like you wish you didn’t. ‘more than a stupid, fucking friend’ is a real funny way to phrase things, if he’s honest with himself. the question is, does he say that to you, or does he look for something better to say? he’s not good with ‘better things to say,’ whatever that might be.

“a little aggressive for a love confession, no?” his voice isn’t even that teasing. it’s sort of gentle. he wants to slap his hand over his mouth for saying that godforsaken four letter word. you had said ‘like.’ it’s freudian slip, he supposes, since he loves you.

“this isn’t funny, dean,” you murmur, voice sort of defeated. and yet, you hear it. it’s not funny to him either. he wasn’t trying to be funny, he was trying not to feel. he was trying to say at least something, because he was having trouble coming up with anything else.

“i know,” he relents. he draws in a deep breath. “will you look at me?” your lips part, then close. you blink a few times. you turn your head and look at him. god, he loves you back. he’s got to, or there’s no other way to explain how he looks at you.

and there’s definitely no other way to explain him kissing you. he looks you right in the eyes and he leans in until his lips are touching yours. 

his eyes flutter closed, yours follow. you kiss him back, he kisses harder. the language of love isn’t dead. all you had to do was say something.

[wolfiiburr]

"Let's make a deal."

I couldn't help but notice that these included characters from their franchises share traits between each other, G-Man and Death in particular.

They're both alien/celestial businessman type of characters that carry around a briefcase and have direct influence over the main character, as well as being quite powerful and able to manipulate reality.

I've been meaning to draw some kind of crossover between Half Life & Supernatural's characters somewhat due to their similarities but now Don't Starve has been added to the mix. Maxwell is also someone who held power over Wilson and made deals.

Seems to be be a pattern.

How unfortunate for the protagonists.

[jazz--bugg]

Dean Winchester smokes. Fight Me.

[deansbeer]

i finished the DEAN edit i said i'd post once it was done, not sure how i feel ab it tho— but the clips i used r from one of my favorite episodes so 🤸🏻‍♀️

lace divider creds @aquazero ݁ 𝝑᭪ ִ

[shadowww-bunny]

↪︎ 💌Relationships with Dean Winchester be like:

🥃 Dean is not used to romantic long-term relationships, emotional attachment is difficult for him, so it will take a very (really VERY) long time before the hunter confesses his feelings to you. He will hesitate for a long time, try to suppress this aching feeling in his chest that appears when he thinks about you, but when he realizes that it is useless, he will decide to give you two a chance.

🥃 Dean is not a master of deep, sappy speeches, so you should not expect cliched sentimental compliments from him as in the best melodramas. Dean is a man of action, it can be difficult for him to express his feelings in words, so he will demonstrate his affection for you in the only way he is familiar with: hugs, kisses, glances and, of course, passionate nights in bed.

🥃 Despite his harsh appearance, Dean enjoys physical contact. This is his love language. He doesn't miss an opportunity to touch you, whether it's a pat on the back, tucking your hair behind your ear, or jokingly nudging you. So don't be surprised if Dean "accidentally" falls on you or his hand ends up where it shouldn't be.

🥃 Dean is used to being the protector, the one who controls everything, so your care confuses him. The hunter's lifestyle makes him subconsciously look for a trick and doubt whether he deserves it. But every time you praise, compliment, and gentle treatment, he melts and even embarrasses. Dean can pretend he doesn't need it, but he appreciates it more than he show.

🥃 Dean has always dealt with his negative emotions alone, and at first he will wear this mask with you. It will take a lot of time, persuasion, and words of love before Dean starts showing you his fatigue, sadness, and pain. Of course, he still hides a lot, not wanting to burden you with his problems, but after you listen to him and support him, he feels much better.

🥃 Dean knows you well enough to notice when you're upset or just in a bad mood. He's not as good with words as Sam, but he has his own ways of comforting you. Usually, Dean puts you on his lap and hugs tightly, allowing to bury your face in his chest, as if it's the only shelter from the storm inside you. He kisses you in a silent promise to protect you from all the troubles in the world, and you know that it is.

🥃 Dean likes it when you wear his clothes. It usually happens in the morning, on a weekend, when you put on the first thing that comes to hand, and it turns out to be one of Dean's. Hunter is turned on by how adorable you look in his oversized T-shirt that barely covers your hips. All sleepy and sweet, and his. Only his.

🥃 Dean likes to distract you, especially when you're busy with something. He's acting like a cat demanding attention, and he won't let up until he gets what he wanted. When Sam is not around, Dean becomes even more needy and impatient. He tease you when you're focused on the research. Dean just lies on you, resting his head on your lap, fiddling with the hem of your shirt until you roll your eyes and start stroking his hair, eliciting a satisfied smile.

🥃 princess treatment. Dean enjoys taking care of you. It is important to him that you feel safe, loved and special, and he will do everything for this. Dean buckles your seat belt, carries your bags, and loves holding you in his arms, feeling how your delicate figure fits perfectly in his arms. He becomes so gentle only with you, and it's really cute.

🥃 Dean is jealous. He tries to suppress it, respecting your personal space, and stands somewhere nearby looking after you, but when some guy turns out to be too annoying, Dean immediately finds himself next to you. His hand rests possessively on your hip, and his murderous aura makes the guy quickly leave. However, the hunter won't let you go for a long time after that. He protects what is his.

[rubyvhs]

who’d believe? | dean winchester

summary. dean finds you six years after you ‘died’. tags. wc 2.3k, angst, mentions soulless sam. lailas notes. this is for my ‘stuck on you’ by meiko square for @jacklesversebingo + actually got inspired by @little-diable ‘s not a ghost fic. so so beautiful and i think everyone should go read it! ++ for my 500 celebration, so happy i got to it so quickly && the title is the translation of the song title. and most importantly, beta’d by the incredible @copperboom82 who made it much more readable and enjoyable.

You were never really a bar type of person, mostly because of the loud noise and smell, other than that, you liked a good party. But you decided you needed to celebrate getting your dream job, or, okay, whatever, your friend is forcing you to. 

"I'm not taking no for an answer," she said, handed you your outfit and went outside to get the car started, not even giving you time to reject the idea. Though the second you stepped foot in the lively place, you were glad you came.

The drinks and music were exactly what you needed; a nice night out with no responsibilities. And especially no men (at least none like those you work with, you're honestly over them). 

An hour into dancing with your friend, two more strangers join you. When the last song ends and another less 'pop' and more 'rock' one starts, they suggest going out to smoke for a second. Despite not once in your life trying it, you agree. 

You should really work on saying no.

Thankfully you're sensible enough to refuse when they try to hand you one, just standing next to them, linking your arm with your friend's. "Where do you work?" You ask one of the girls. She has shorter red hair that almost reaches her shoulders, black eyeliner and a septum piercing. In other words? Fucking sexy.

"Police." Your eyes widen and you stand up straighter. "Oh, stop it! You're fine."

You laugh but shake your head, "No, no, that's not what I meant, you're just so— cute, I guess. Wouldn't have taken you for the assertive cop type."

"Yeah, well," she shrugs, dismissing the thought. It's obvious she gets it a lot. "Saw the hottest guys today, by the way—"

Her friend interrupts, beautiful brown pin-straight hair, pale skin, a gorgeous smile; "God, he was pretty. And his brother too…”

"Oh yeah. Agent something and Agent whatever, I don't remember, I was too busy looking through the shorter one’s shirt." You all laugh, a sway in your demeanor. You're pretty sure it's the alcohol that's got them saying all this but it's funny either way. 

"Yeah, he was amazing. Like, those green eyes, honestly—" Your smile drops fast. Green eyes had always been somewhat of a trigger for you ever since Dean, especially that specific beautiful shade. Then again honestly everything's been a trigger: hunting, black cars, vintage cars, food, pie— you could go on.

"Oh and the way he walks? The little outward bounce of his leg, so cute!"

You shift, a little uncomfortable. How many guys do you know with bow legs, green eyes and are cops? They're probably not allowed to tell you he's FBI. 

The red-haired girl touches your arm making you jump. "Shit, you okay, honey? You seemed out of it."

"Oh, no, I'm sorry, just reminded me of someone. Old…" Dean. 

There he is. Alive and in the flesh. You don't become a hunter and not hear about the Winchesters, you, on the other hand, fly under the radar. Especially since you try to stay away from any and all hunters.

But you heard nothing of how gorgeous he has grown up.

The girls catch your drift mid-sentence and look back to see what you're staring at. A dumb-struck Dean. "Oh! Agent…" Her friend elbows her stomach and Dean doesn’t peel his eyes off of you to speak.

"Right, yes. Hi, Officer." 

She blushes under the dim light but Dean apologizes before breezing past them and holding your arm roughly to drag you away behind the bar. Your friend makes sure to motion to you if you need help before you let her know she should just get back inside. It’s pretty damn obvious you know the guy.

"Are you fucking serious?"

You let out a shy smile, "Dean, hey, how are you?"

"'How are you?'" He mocks, letting go of your arm aggressively, "'how are you?'"

"Is that not what they say anymore?"

"Are you serious?" He seems to enjoy repeating sentences much more than when you last saw him. "I looked for you, I mourned you." You mourned him too, in a way. 

You and Dean were acquaintances, occasionally hunting together until you stayed at Bobby's place for a week and he came to visit coincidentally. You both started talking more that night, exchanged phone numbers and became somewhat friends. 

Sam left for Stanford and you guys stayed together more frequently. Sam came back and you 'died'. Not on purpose, obviously, but Dean thought you died. You did, for a second, before you were brought back for some twisted, fucked up reason. Not that you knew it but if you did you're sure it would be fucked up.

By the time you woke up Sam and Dean had been long gone and your body had been buried. Didn’t burn your bones like he should’ve, no. He buried you. You're not sure which is worse.

"Look, I don't know what happened—"

"What does that even mean? You magically come back to life; you fucking call me! Ever thought of that?" A thousand times. 

But Sam had finally decided to come back and hunt with Dean, Dean buried you, and so, you'd reasoned he was fine. You knew that if you were Sam, your body would've been preserved in the Impala for months before he'd ever allow himself to do that, to put you six feet under. The fact that he didn’t hold on to you had to mean he was okay.

But neither of you deserve more guilt. "I'm sorry, Dean."

"That's really rich. Real rich comin' from you. Grieved you for goddamn years. Six." Huh, that's a lot longer than you’d have thought. You were sure it would be six minutes. You knew he cared about you, but Deans also a 'what's done is done' kind of man.

"I'm—"

"If you apologize, I'll kill you. Again." You're about to crack a joke but his glare sets you off. Oookay, tough crowd, whatever. 

"I wanted to call, I swear I did," how do you explain to the king of 'I don't deserve good' that you don't deserve him. He'll think it's a cruel joke. "I didn't know if you'd want me to reach out, I thought you were moving on with Sammy, okay? Going on with finding John. Me calling wouldn't have made a difference."

He scoffs, shaking his head. "I went to hell." You bite your bottom lip between your teeth. He sighs, a mix of emotions on his face. "You knew?" Your nod makes him turn around in anger (disappointment? hurt?), kicking the cardboard box as far as it'll go, another plastic one breaks and you flinch at that one. 

In your defense, everyone knows.

"I couldn't do that to you and Sam, you moved on, Dean, I heard about you and Lisa and Ben—"

"Where the hell did you hear that?" Hunters talk. And he knows it. He turns around in an angry haze. "I didn't fuckin' move on, alright? I did what Sam wanted me to do when I didn't have you. Because my goddamn brother was in a cage with Lucifer, and now he's walking around without a soul!" He raises his voice until it gives out and so does his breath. You can't help the way your heart clenches, not even because of the words, but the tired look behind Dean's eyes. 

Subconsciously, you move forward until you can hug him, and like he always used to: Dean throws himself into it, his head in your neck as he breathes you in. "I missed you." He whispers. 

You don't believe how easily he's adjusted to this. If you were in his place you wouldn't hesitate to kill him, thinking he's a demon or a shifter.

He chuckles, his whole body rubbing against you. "Haven't hugged anyone like this in— ever. Was waiting for you." 

He's never been safe, always made everyone else feel protected, you could only hope you built a safe place within yourself for him. You're at least close.

"I missed you too, De. Every single day, I swear."

You don't know what about the sentence sparks anything in him, but it does. He pulls away to smirk and push you against the hard wall. You gasp, doing nothing but turning him on more and giving him an entrance to your mouth. 

He kisses you like he's lost his mind. He has.

His touch is electric as he pulls you closer, the heat of his body searing your skin, the raw intensity of desire saying more than words ever could. The kiss evolves, turning feral, almost carnal. He holds you, firm but tender, and rediscovers your mouth like a starving man. He is, he hasn't tasted you in… ever. 

This is your first kiss with Dean, but the explosive chemistry between you makes the blood scream in your ears. It was never a secret that you and Dean were more than just hunters to each other, and it seems you dying was his last straw. 

"We— Dean, can't here—" 

He agrees. Or he doesn't. He's still kissing you and you're not sure if either of you are breathing. 

Eventually he lets go. "Yeah," he whispers against your lips, moving for another kiss, pulling your bottom lip between his teeth, leaving a peck and panting out, "right." 

"'M sorry." God, why are you apologizing? Why are your bodies so far away?

He shakes his head, moves away (even if it looks like he's struggling to do so), "it's fine, what— you were here with friends? Are you staying?"

"Are you asking me to not stay?" 

He smiles, leans down for another kiss and you decide to say goodbye to your friends now or else you're never getting the chance. 

[acciofictionalmen]

cold

(dean winchester x female!reader)

summary: dean sacrificed everything for the happiness of his younger brother, including you.

warnings: ANGST. alcohol consumption

Hadn't he given enough?

Dean watched you and Sam closely: the way his brother's hand clasped your thigh beneath the table, where they thought he couldn't see. He spited the way you laughed at everything Sam said, wishing he could bottle your laughter and keep it close so only he could hear it- a selfish thought, but the truth. He missed the days when his jokes were the ones that made you laugh the most.

Dean would do anything for Sam, it was true. But this? He shook his head, downing the shot in one. It burned his throat, sparking tears in his eyes. Perhaps the latter part hadn't been from the drink.

He had watched as Sam left for college, leaving Dean behind with John. Sam's absence had condemned him to an eternity of hunting, because Dean couldn't just leave their father alone. He had taken care of Sam when no one else had, his brother, his best friend. Even now, the intensity of their bond crackled as Dean couldn't look at his brother with anything but affection. Only now, that affection was bullied by hot embers of jealousy, igniting anger deep within him. Dean hated himself for it, but sometimes, when he lay down in bed, alone, and could hear the soft giggles leaking from the slight crack in Sam's door, he wondered when he would have sacrificed enough for the semblance of family. For his brother.

Sacrificing you had almost destroyed him.

Dean couldn't stand himself. He revulsed at the way he couldn't sleep- tossing and turning each night, waking up drenched in not only sweat; sweat that reeked with regret and loathing. It was pathetic, he told himself, that he couldn't sleep anymore without you by his side. Some serious chick-flick material, he had muttered. It didn't make a difference.

He had lost the one thing that had made him happier than ever. That had made his job worth it, given him purpose, given him something to look forward to. He had lost that now. Each day blurred together as he struggled to find anything to feel excited for, to care about; it was all the same to him.

Sam was the only person he would ever consider losing you for. And he had.

Dean was reminded of your loss every day. Every day when he passed you by, and didn't lean in to press a kiss to your flushed cheek. When he handed you the salt at the table without that familiar, lingering touch. When he sat next to you and couldn't pull you into his side, breathing in the sweet, seductive scent of your shampoo. When you came into his room not to see him, but to collect Dad's journal for Sam. Arguably the worst, though, was how much Sam had taken your eyes for granted.

The pain throbbed as he recalled the way that now, you refused to meet his eyes. They were always downcast when he chanced a look at you, a simple rejection, painful dismissal. God how he missed your eyes. When they crinkled at his antics- shared moments of laughter after you reprimanded him for messing around with a stake. When they wept and Dean would brush away your tears, pressing you into him as he stroked your hair soothingly. When those long lashes would flutter, his heart alongside them. When every moment of staring into your eyes was underlined by the dread of having to look away.

Had he not given enough?

Even hunting couldn't satiate the loss of you, the hole you'd left in his heart worse because you were in fact there in every respect, just not for him. He slaughtered demon after demon after demon, and perhaps it would offer temporary respite. But once the adrenaline died down, he would crash back to reality. Blood-coated, dirty, cold. He'd turn around to find you anxiously checking Sam for injuries, your soft hands cupping his face the way you once had Dean's.

It hurt. It hurt. It consumed him, the longing for you. The combination of yearning for you fused with his self hatred, because how could he have allowed you to get away? Sam had always been the smarter one, that much had always been clear. Sam had gotten to experience a semblance of a normal childhood, unlike Dean, whose had consisted of fear and death. Sam had gotten to go to college, Sam had gotten to establish a relationship with a beautiful woman, Sam had gotten to have a healthy circle of friends. Things had looked up for Dean when you entered his life- you'd been an anchor to his heart, one that had made him feel secure enough to begin to open up. Suddenly it was okay that Sam had gotten to go to college and had a purpose, because you were Dean's. Dean would have died for you. Dean would die for you.

You hadn't wanted to leave, that was true. The memory lapped at his soul, he would never ever forget it. It was ingrained into his lungs, clamped tightly over every strained breath he took, that look in your eyes. The last time they had met his. That pain. The pain that would forever haunt him, the confusion, as you couldn't understand why Dean would suddenly let you go when only the night before he had held you as though he was scared to. In an attempt to secure his little brother's happiness, he had condemned his own.

For how long Sam had loved you, Dean had never been able tell. But it was clear, clear to everyone but you. His brother, who he had always protected. Sammy, the little boy who had been his responsibility growing up. He fondly recalled the time Sam had taken the last portion of lucky charms when they were both little boys, but had given Dean the surprise gift inside. Now Dean had pushed you away, so that his brother could be with the woman he loved. The surprise gift was supposed to be Sam's joy, Sam's happiness. But Dean could only look upon that joy sourly, because it had once been his.

It was the unfailing effect you had to make everything else seem insignificant- something that was welcome in such a consuming job. But above all, it was the way you saw Dean. Saw him for who he really was, saw what he had sacrificed, saw how hard he loved, how hard he grieved. You had seen him, seen him until he had tugged the blindfold woven with his self-deprecation back down over your eyes, and forced you to look away. Until your view of him returned to the one that everyone else saw: womaniser, rude, uncaring, brutal, and, worst of all, unloving.

"Dean?" Sam called his name gently, snapping him back into the present.

"Yeah." Dean responded gruffly, shifting on the stool as he stared at the pretty bartender, seeing nothing.

Sam frowned, "(Y/n) and I are going to head back to the hotel room."

Dean chuckled, the sound so forced it came out choked, "Yeah, see you. I'll stay here, see if any pretty ladies are served up along with the drinks." He winked in the bartender's direction.

The words stuck to his throat like tar, void of emotion as he flashed one of his familiar smirks.

Sam nodded, his hand settling around your waist as you left.

Dean couldn't help it. He stared at you as you walked away, emotion overwhelming him as he thumbed his refilled shot glass, unsure how many he had even downed. It was in that moment that you turned back to face him, eyes wide with concern when they collided with his.

Dean froze, the rim of the shot glass digging into his fingers as he was rendered unable to move, to breathe, to blink.

It had been so long since you had been able to look at him, and he savoured the moment. A thousand memories flashed before his eyes, and he wondered whether they appeared before yours, too. The eye contact sent something surging through him, he had to get up, had to say something, his legs itched to stand, to chase after you, he had to-

Harshly, Dean's eyes were torn away from yours as you turned to step out the door Sam held open for you. He flinched, the lack of eye contact slamming him back to reality as that one piece of hope deep within him thrashed for survival, then died.

Dean watched as you turned the corner and vanished. Tears danced upon his dark lashes as he downed the shot, that welcome burning sensation warming his stomach. It would take a hundred more to warm him the way your body had.

So he continued into the night, chasing any semblance of that feeling when you had once been close to him.

[fluemsiie]

eternal prize [ d. winchester ]

synopsis. you and dean have some news for your family notes. fluff — comments & rbs appreciated. REQ

it all went so fast, Dean loved you one second and proposed the next: you were both in bed, he was propped up on one elbow, leaning down to kiss you slowly before mumbling, “marry me.”

you let out a small laugh when the words register, kissing him again. he pulls away, “i’m serious.” you furrow your eyebrows, sitting up on the bed and he does too, both his hands holding yours in your lap. just looking up into his eyes— god, you want to say yes.

“stop it, dean, this is stupid.” and it hurts just a little but he knows what you mean. he doesn’t have the money for a ring, he’s unreliable and constantly moving around for jobs, you don’t even know about hunting and he’s asking you to marry him. but he can’t help it. dean’s chest closes up when you aren’t near and yet he never wants to leave your side.

“i don’t want to wait till we’ve known each other for decades before i get the chance to ask you to marry me.” so apparently knowing you a year is more than enough time for him. to be honest, you’re more in love with dean than he can ever be with you, your heart beats for him and you know it but he’s asking you to marry him. he wants a wedding, or you’re sure he’s thinking of eloping, he wants kids, he wants the white fence.

“i love you.” he expresses, “please say something.” you break out in a smile, laughing as you pull him in for a kiss.

“yes, yes, yes,” you keep saying it in between kisses and dean’s hands don’t stop roaming around your entire body that night, like he’s taking in that you’re his wife now. that all of you is his now.

today, the morning after, you’re both at your parents house. he’s never met your dad, saw your mother once when she was staying at your place and he came to visit. he used to be glad you live alone, now it’s overwhelming meeting your entire family at once.

“baby, when you said you have a lot of siblings—”

“i meant nine.” right. because that’s what someone usually means when they say they have so many siblings. not a normal five or six. seven of your siblings are sisters, and the two boys aren’t here, you mentioned something about studying in canada and it’s the best news dean’s ever heard. he’s not sure he can handle more than six girls, your mother and your father.

the second your younger sister opens the door, you jump into her arm. “oh my god, i’ve missed you!” she’s the only one you’ve missed, all the others usually call once a week, but your younger sister is in the middle of exams so she never has the time. she hugs back, letting go to face dean. he clears his throat and extends his arm.

“dean winchester,” he’s about to say he’s your boyfriend before she pulls him into a hug.

“can’t believe you think we haven’t heard of you. it’s literally the only thing she talks about.” he laughs, hugging her back. the rest of your siblings are easy, your oldest sister flirts with him shamlessly and he learns it’s her nature to get with your boyfriends. good thing he isn’t your boyfriend— but your fiancé.

“where’s mom?” you ask when you’ve introduced him to everyone including the family dogs (sadie and lily love him). “she’s not in the kitchen, is she—” the last time your mother tried to cook it didn’t end well for any of you. thankfully, you hear her voice behind you.

“i’m right here, darling.” she says pointedly and you turn around to jump in her arms, yelling ‘mommy’. it doesn’t matter how old you are or where you go you will always be a mommy’s girl. she’s your best friend and the one person you go to with everything, so even if she and dean haven’t officially met, they know everything about each other. you talk about her constantly to him and vice versa.

he greets your mother politely and she returns it. she takes your hands in hers and you hug her again instead before letting go to look for your you dad. while you’re sure your siblings didn’t notice, your mother would feel the old family ring on your finger and ask questions. dean gave it to you last night, said it meant more to him than anything and that the second he can, he’ll buy you a real one.

but honestly, this is all you need. you want to matter enough to him that he gives you his father’s ring. you want him to talk to sam about you, his uncle bobby, you want him to love you, that’s all you care about. and you’re lucky he does— god he does.

you both walk to the garden where you father mostly works on his laptop. it was your mother’s choice because she’s always wanted a villa facing the beach but now your dad is the one who spends most of his time out here.

dean catches the strict expression on your father’s face, his heart constricting for you. he knows that look. he sees the way your dad’s clenching one of his hands, focusing on his work and he feels honest to god heartbroken. you’ve never said your dad was another john; not that you spoke about him much.

“daddy!” you say loudly, running from the back porch to his chair. he stands up and his body immediately relaxes on your touch.

dean doesn’t know much about what he wants in the future, but in that moment, seeing you and your father he knows two things: he wants to spend his life with you, and he wants to be as good a father to his kids as yours is to you. your dad let go of everything the second you called out for him, nothing mattered more than you and that’s the one thing he hopes he can give his future kids.

“dean,” you say, narrowing your eyes at him. he notices he’s still planted on the porch and quickly walks over to the two of you. “dad, this is dean, my boyfriend.” you worry your bottom lip between your teeth, the way you usually do, and it takes everything in dean not to reach out to pull it away with his thumb like he always does. he faces your father.

“hello, sir.” he shakes his hand. “you have a beautiful house, and a great family.”

your father smiles, nodding appreciatively and saying a quick ‘thank you’. he’s about to sit back down but you stop him. “daddy! i, uh, we actually wanna tell you something—”

“oh i swear if you’re pregnant—”

“daddy! of course not, you know i wouldn’t,” he lets out a short sigh, “but we need to tell you something. you and mum. meet us in the kitchen?” your father seems confused but agrees.

as you and your fiancé walk back to the kitchen, your hand in his, you’re shifty. “you ready?”

“since i first met you, sweet girl.”

[supernaturaldoll]

i’m dead

[prentissluvr]

flower shop, 11:00 a.m. — dean winchester

cw : gn!reader, fluff, pet names (sweetheart), unedited, 644 words. requested ! for my 800 followers event [ open ] .

summary : dean doesn't really like flowers, but he thinks he likes you.

MOVED BLOGS TO @sammyluvr !! no longer active on this blog! all fics can be found there!

dean does not know how to shop for flowers, and it’s abundantly clear to you as you watch him wander through the small shop. his eyes just about glaze over as he takes in all of the options. he’s clearly overwhelmed by the pure amount of different colors and types of flowers.

from where you stand, cleaning up a small water spill for your coworker, who’s sweet self gets too nervous after accidents to help customers for a solid five or ten minutes. he’s adorable and very kind, and you understand his anxiety, but sometimes you’d rather talk to handsome customers than help him out.

but the spill is small, and cleaning it takes up little time. you don’t put the cleaning supplies in the right spot in favor of approaching this mystery man. you really hope that he’s not looking for flowers for a partner.

he looks like the sort of guy that doesn’t like asking for or receiving help, but he also looks so clueless that it would genuinely be bad customer service not to offer your help. he also looks too handsome to pass up talking to.

“hi,” you greet him with a small smile. he turns to look at you, a confident smile replacing his confused features when he sees you. the bright mid-morning sunlight streams in through the shop’s wide windows, hitting his face and illuminating his unfairly pretty features. his eyelashes are long and gorgeous and his eyes are even more stunning. the sunlight makes them a pale green and his expression tells you that he knows he’s handsome.

“are you looking for something specific?” you ask, somehow keeping a hold of your composure.

his expression changes again, turning the slightest bit sheepish. he rubs the back of his neck, and you have to force yourself to focus on his words rather than the strength of his upper arms and the expanse of his chest.

“actually, yeah, i’m, uh, looking for somethin’ for my mom,” he explains. that’s the best answer he could’ve given you. a hot man looking to buy flowers for his mom? that’s a big fat yes, please from you. “nothing too fancy, just somethin’ simple for her birthday. think you could help me out, sweetheart?

you like the way he cuts the word something short, his slight accent almost as charming as his flirty smile and casually uttered pet name of sweetheart.

“i think i can,” you grin, giving your own version of the charming smile and motioning for him to follow. “i’d recommend a simple arrangement of lilies or tulips,” you say, showing off a few different color options. you go on to explain a few different routes he could take without saying too much to overwhelm him with too much information.

eventually, he decides on tulips, with no filler flowers. he really meant it when he said simple, but you agree with him aloud that you like the simplest arrangements as well.

as he pays, he looks sort of unsure. you raise your eyebrows at him, as if to ask what’s wrong.

“you know, i’m not sure if she likes flowers,” he suddenly confesses. you laugh softly, in a bit of surprise. “i- i haven’t seen her in a while.” the way he says it sounds complicated and much heavier than just not having seen her in a bit, but you don’t question it.

“well, even if she doesn’t like them, i think she'll appreciate the gesture,” you assure him. “you can always pair them with a good bottle of whiskey or something, and she won’t be able to complain then, right?”

he grins, and it’s a real smile. “i like the way you think, sweetheart.” dean doesn’t like flowers too much, and this place intimidates him and makes him feel out of place. he likes you, though, so he’ll be back.

[sam-buck]

me the second i have to interact with a spn fan from tiktok.

i’m finally back in that god forsaken app after 3 years and the first thing i do is want to crash out. DEAN IS NOT SOME HORRIFIC ABUSER, SAM ISN’T HELPLESS, AND CAS ISN’T A BABY.

dean does his sam occasionally, i won’t disagree with that, BUT. where dean gets physical, sam gets verbal. if dean is a horrific physical abuser, then sam is a horrific verbal abuser. but they’re neither. they grew up in unhealthy environments, so OBVIOUSLY they aren’t going to react in healthy ways!

sam is vulnerable, yes, but that’s because he wears his heart on his sleeve. he isn’t a damsel in distress. he routinely has to fight for himself. it’s not his fault the writers liked to beat him up.

cas is clueless sometimes, but that’s doesn’t mean he should be infantilized. he makes mistakes and he should be held accountable for them.

i just feel like the community on tiktok (NOT ALL BUT THE MAJORITY) are media illiterate when it comes to this show. i can understand not seeing something the same way somebody else does, but to completely butcher the characters is another thing entirely.

but maybe it’s not that serious.