#sumosobra

[grvntld]

lately ive been doing things i love and i cant help but feel selfish about it, even though im not rlly stepping on anyone's toes nor am i hurting anyone. i mean im not at all doing anything wrong, but i guess, it really has been such a long time since ive done things for my genuine happiness and betterment that it feels somehwhat alien to me. i dont know if that makes sense, im just speaking my thoughts and feels out loud, after all.

[xynnix-stars]

HOW OLD DO YOU THINK I AM OLD MAN??

[imblocking-you]

Dahil I'm literally crumbling na, oras na para basahin ang Don't Pick Up Boyfriends from the Trash Bin

[if-lost-please-return-to-maliksi]

Hello pooo!!! I dunno how to put it in words but your works just makes my heart go swoooon!! Thank you so much for your pieces 🥹

I see that we can request too po and I’d just like to put down “chemtrails over the country club” by lana del rey- specifically the lines “you’re in the wind, i’m in the water; nobody’s son, nobody’s daughter” for makisig or maliksi please!!! Angsst BUT fluff at the end 🙏🏻

((Anon, why would u do dis to us?! huhuhu. I'm a lana del rey gurlie and Chemtrails over the country club is very personal for meee))

Disclaimer: I do not own Makisig. Full Credit goes to HC - @ask-emilz-de-philz. Please check out their blog for amazing art and the wonderful world of Planet Puto. All involved characters are adults.

Genre: Angst with fluff(if u squint well enough. char lang, fluff to.)

TW: Ano...medyo masakit to bhie, yung umpisa lang naman. yun na yung warning HAHAHA.

((Let me know kung rebisco na ba ako at kung sumosobra na ba ako HAHAHA))

"...we should run away, Makisig." You whispered underneath your breath as you softly stroked his hair while he peacefully lays his head on your lap. You looked up at the star-clad skies, wondering if you two can have a very different life right now if you were to leave everything behind and run away.

"Run away from what, my love?" He slowly opened his eyes to look into yours before gently taking your hand and tenderly kissing your palm. You shuddered from the sensation and oh, how you'd love to just pull him close and kiss those lips for an ounce of comfort.

"From everything."

You whispered as tears started to fill your eyes. Your lips quivered as you tried to held back your sobs.

"Please?"

"ANDDD... CUT! Y/n, you're not supposed to cry yet! Let's take a two hour break before retaking that scene."

Makisig stared at you with wide eyes as he breaks character. You quickly wiped away your tears and stood up before walking towards your own team, leaving him without a single word.

You wouldn't admit it, but you can feel your heart breaking with every step that you take. As soon as you entered your own tent, you broke down in tears as you ran into your manager's arms.

How cruel can fate be?

Five years ago

...those were Makisig's exact words five years ago while he held you in his arms, begging you to leave it all behind with him- the cameras, the fame, the undying expectations of the people around you and you had the nerve to reject his idea and leave him for the sake of your dreams.

You were a very famous actress that time, while Makisig's career was just starting and all he can get are mostly small modelling gigs. Oh, how the tables have turned- you are now the one struggling to keep your career afloat while Makisig jumps from project to project.

Atleast he's living a better life since you two broke up. That's what you always tell yourself.

Your whole body shook from how much you were crying as you buried your face into your manager's shoulders to stifle your sobs. All throughout your career, your manager has been the only one to stick with you through ups and downs- treating you like the little sister she's never had.

"I can't do this. I can't, please." You heaved as you tried your best to say the words out loud. This was the one project meant to save your career from falling into shambles.

"Shhh. It's okay sweet girl. I know how you feel right now, but we can't back out from this, can we?"

You slowly nodded as you let your tears silently fall. Leaving this project was always out of the question and you knew it. You were lucky enough that your manager has been long time friends with one of the Makisig's handlers that she was able to arrange for this project as a last resort to save you from being out of jobs.

"I'm so sorry, Y/n. I know how hard it must be."

No one knows how hard it is...

To be around Makisig is like stabbing yourself in the heart over and over again.

Hearing his voice...

Feeling his touch...

To have him look at you the way he does- like you were the most important person in the whole world.

To have him call your name as if it's the sweetest word that's to ever grace his mouth.

It took everything of your whole being to get ahold of yourself and not breakdown around him.

The things you would give if only you can go back in time and just take his hand and run away to a far away place where no one else knows the two of you. You clutched your chest at you revel at the idea of what could've been before shutting your eyes close- falling asleep after crying.

In your dreams, Makisig held you tight as he kissed away your tears, saying, "Why is my lovely Y/n is crying again? It makes me want to cry also." as he peppers your face with tiny kisses while he tickles you gently until you stop crying and start to giggle.

That's how it's supposed to be...

But you- you have to ruin it all and hurt that one person who deserved nothing but all the good things in the world.

"Y'know, if this life troubles you...then we should just run away, Y/n." Makisig smiled as he held you.

This. why does this have to play on your dreams over and over again.

He held your hand and intertwined his fingers with yours. "Let's run away from everything, y/n."

You nodded, and smiled. "Let's do that, Makisig."

Atleast you can do things right in your dreams. Atleast you wouldn't do the single thing you'll regret for your whole life in this dream.

You will not break his heart again-

Without second thoughts, Makisig grabbed your hand tight before making a run for it, storming past the whole production crew and outside the set.

Your eyes widen upon realizing what's happening.

"Thought my Y/n will reject me for the second time." Makisig softly chuckled, still running away while holding unto you.

"W- wait! I'm not dreaming?!"

"No, my love. Your manager called me in when you fell asleep crying."

Hearing him calling you 'my love' once again instantly tugged in your heart. No cameras, no audiences- just the two of you and he calls you his love. You breathe in as you tried to keep yourself from crying once more.

"And I'm not dreaming when you were holding me and kissing my tears away?" You softly said, your voice shaking and cracking from too much emotion.

"You're not." Makisig smiled as he stopped running before pulling you into an embrace, letting you bury your face into his chest.

Oh, how this feels like home.

"Y/n. Please run away with me?"

"I will, Makisig. I will."

[pupyuj]

ewan ko sa inyo. di ko na alam. MATUTULOG NA LANG AKO. BAKA MAY MASABI PA AKO NA HINDI MAGUSTUHAN NI LORD. ahn yujin sumosobra ka na tagala ha. ISA PA. (please.) ISA PAAAA. (PLEASE.) LAHAT TAYO MANDIDIRI SA SASABIHIN KO SIGE LANG.

[aestherin]

Me after the latest KMH chapter:

Ei mahal kita pero sumosobra ka na T_T

-☁️

asian mother core

[whooolaanmo]

Happy Mother's Day! Ma ❤️

Kagabi nahirapan ako mag plastic at mag tape isa isa at kung paanong style gagawin ko, pero yan mahalaga muka naman bouquet, alam ko naman na hindi talaga ako ang pinakamabait mo na anak 🤣🤣🤣 kaya ako paborito mo pagalitan, hindi ako showy o touchy o kahit palaimik ng mga matatamis na salita, mas madalas nga tayo mag kontrahan talaga, pero kahit ganon naman nga hindi ako sumosobra kasi nirerespeto ko kayo kasi Ermat kita, dami ko pa sana gusto sabihin pero ok na yan basta galing dito sa puso ko mahal kita Ma ❤️

Hindi mahilig sa bulaklak Ermat ko, mas marami siya pera pero tuwa pa din yan pag pera ang regalo 🤣🤣🤣.

Happy Mother's Day sa lahat 💐❤️

May 14, 2023 12:10 pm

[nablah]

pilipinas tama na yung ulan sumosobra ka na

[iamalivingsacrifice]

Meanwhile in online conversations...

Hirap magtimpi! Hahahahaha. Mahirap maging tahimik kapag naiinis ka na. Iniisip na hindi ka papayag i-treat ng ganoon kaya magreready ka ng message na halata yung pagkainis. Sa una, maiisip mo talaga na "kailangan" mong magmessage pabalik para ipagtanggol ang sarili mo. Na sumosobra na siya at kailangan nang patulan para tumahimik at hindi na umulit pa. Pero hindi pala lahat ng tao ay pinapatulan. Hindi lahat nilalabanan. Hindi palaging kailangan mong magsalita para ipagtanggol mo ang sarili mo. Kasi hindi lahat ay worthy pagbigyan ng oras at lakas. At syempre hindi mo kailangang ipagtanggol ang sarili mo dahil si Lord ang magtatanggol para sa'yo.

Kaya at the end, pipiliin mong tumahimik at pahupain ang inis mo kasi alam mo ring nothing good comes out from holding onto heated emotions... after that you'll pray--not only for yourself but also for that person who upset you.

And that is being wise.

[chuplado]

I just want to vent out.

*I will just put this here - I still don’t have the courage to say this out loud yet - since ‘di naman to makikita at wala namang usually ang nagbabasa nito, I will just use this medium to say anything I wanted to say*

Out of nowhere ngayong early in the morning, kakatapos lang ng shift ko, while I am watching Hospital Playlist in Netflix, may dalawang magkaibigan sa eksena. Yung isa, may sakit at yung isa naman, magdodonate ng liver for his bestfriend. Bigla kong naalala yung bestfriend ko sa mga sagutan nila sa eksena, naluha ako. Namiss ko pala yung bestfriend ko.

Simula nung nag-pandemic, napakadalang ko na syang makausap and at the same time, since 2019, even if magkalapit lang naman ang Bulacan at Metro, hindi kami nagkikita. May mga dahilan ako kung bakit - yes, he’s my bestfriend pero there are some reasons why I stopped communicating. Ganito yata talaga ako kapag gustong manahimik (on which one of my weird traits) - kahit gaano pa tayo magkalapit sa isa’t isa, maninibago at maninibago ka sa biglang pag-shift ng mood, ugali. at pakikitungo ko. I am not vocal pagdating sa mga nararamdaman ko - as much as possible, gusto kong sinasarili ko na lang, hahayaan ko na lang na sarili ko na lang ang masaktan kaysa makasakit pa ko ng damdamin ng iba. And yes, masama ang loob ko sa bestfriend ko.

Actually, dumating o humantong ako sa point na parang narerealize ko na I am about to cut ties na dahil sa mga pinaggagagawa at mga desisyon ko - thinking na ‘di ko deserved yung treatment  sa akin ng mga tao so I have to cut them out and I don’t think na deserved kong mag-stay sa mga ganung set-up. Pero on this case, para akong jowa na pilit pa ring nagta-try para maayos yung sitwayson at ang relasyon.

I’ve tried to reached out again nitong mga nakaraang buwan pero sobrang awkward na. Yung akala kong scenario na “kapag true friend mo, kahit magkalayo kayo at ‘di kayo nagkausap nang matagla na panahon, once magkausap ulit kayo, parang walang nagbago” eh hindi pala nag-aapply sa amin. Sobrang nagta-try ako bumuo ng conversation pero wala talaga - ang awkward na talaga. Even him, he didn’t even try to prolong the conversation. Wala na rin yung gaguhan sa chats - yes, I know, nagmamature and tumatanda na, pero mararamdaman mo naman yun eh... wala na yata talaga.

Pero kanina, I tried again. I started by mentioning that I missed him, na naalala ko siya dahil nga sa napanood ko. He replied and nangumusta siya - then I answered. I started to share my current state, that I am struggling to know what I really want in life at naguguluhan ako... then he answered quickly, “Sabi ko sa yo, mag part-time ka na sa FA (Financial Advisor) eh...”

Eto na naman nga..

He started to try to solve it again by giving me such statement - really? I just want to vent out eh!

Ganyan siya palagi! Isa yan sa mga dahilan bakit ‘di ko pinapansin ang mga chats niya nung mga nakaraang taon. Everytime magre-reach out ako, palagi isinisingit ang pag-aalok ng insurance at pag-aaya sa akin to be his FA sa team niya. Alam kong mahal niya ang ginagawa niya, pero utang na loob, sumosobra na. Maybe most of the people na makakabasa nito, iisipin na ang kitid ko naman mag-isip pero ito ang nararamdaman ko eh...

There’s a history rin kasi. May mga instances na nayaya ako sa mga businesses and I know, those are “sketchy“, like “too good to be true” pero sumama ako, for the sake of the passive income and yung pagpayag sa mga alok niya. Everything didn’t went well in the end - lahat, scam. ‘Di ko siya sinisisi, alam ko naman una pa lang na ‘di talaga magtatagal at magwowork yun, pero na-tanga lang din ako at sumubok ako sa ganun.

Everytime na magkakausap talaga kami nung mga nakaraang taon, di mawawala yung pag-aalok niya sa akin ng insurance. Yung tipong gusto ko lang talagang makipagkwentuhan, pero nauuwi pa rin dun. Magre-reach out lang din siya kapag di pa niya naaabot yung quota/target niya, pipilitin niya akong kumuha. Sa sobrang pagiging dedicated sa ginagawa niya, ‘di na yata napapansin yung epekto nun sa iba. Dumating sa point na iniiwasan ko na lang siyang kausapin. Kahit may mga pinagdadaanan ako na gusto kong i-share, ‘di ko magawa sa pagwoworry na baka dun na naman mauwi yung usapan.

Nalulungkot ako na ganito ang kinahihinatnan nito. I don’t have a lot of friends and yung nangyayari pa yung ganito, masakit para sa akin.And ending, wala talaga akong nakakausap. Dumating na akio sa point na tumawag na ako sa Employee Assistance Hotline ng company namin para lang may makausap at makapaglabas ng sama ng loob. Sobrang naaanxious na ko.

Hindi ko lang din maintindihan kung bakit parang wala lang para sa kanya na ganito na kami ngayon - hindi ba talaga big deal sa kanya na ‘di talaga kami nagkakausap? balewala lang ba talaga sa kanya?

Nakakapagod mag-isip... Gusto kong ibulalas ang lahat kasi nakakapagod nga. Papaano na lang kapag dumating na yung time sa plan ko na umalis na ng bansa, may magbabago kaya? Or totally back to zero talaga ako?

Sana maging ok na ako. Kahit walang ibang tao. Kahit mismo sa sarili ko na lang, sana maging ok na ako.

[reynanghugot]

030223 • thursday

my thurs is vv productive kahit na nainis ako sa taxi driver lesson learned on my part always bring a jacket and/or shawl if wearing shorts lalo na if magaangkas, may mga tao kasi na bastos and plate number kunin agad to report. anw, early morning ive been to sm manila medical city for optha check-up kasi sumosobra na eye pain ko then after that i nag drop by ako sa apartment to have lunch with nikko & kunin na din susi sa apartment kasi mauuna ako umuwi sa kanya after that naglinis na din ako ng apartment for para na din maaliwalas pagdating niya from work ng midnight and ofc, still reading my second book hopefully matapos ko siya asap.

[ynefnstysz]

"If I'm gonna be drunk, might as well as be drunk inlove." -Taylor Swift

Kainis lang, ayoko na magkagusto or whatsover, or sadya lang na nasanay ako sa mundong hindi pumapasok ng relationship dahil wala nga sa mind ko na pumasok sa isang tulad nito. Kaya rin siguro PAGMAMADRE ang gusto kong maging daan upang takasan ang mundong gustong ilagay ako sa relasyon at gustong bumuo ng sariling pamilya.

Kaya ba like, I feel 'left-out' ako 'pag usapang relationship sa'ming magkakaibigan? I feel like, hindi talaga ako makakapagkomento sa ganitong usapan kasi wala naman ako n'un haha.

Sabagay, ako rin naman may problema kapag nagkakagusto haha. Ayoko ring seryosohin kasi haha. Kung bakit ayoko seryosohin? Kasi sumosobra ako sa pagiging overprotective, mapangakin and iba pa na pinakaworst thing pa, mapupunta pa sa 'Obsessed stage'.

Mostly, pari talaga nagugustuhan ko. I have these na tinatawag kong '3 Greatest Priests' kasi sila pinakanaseryoso ko na ako rin nagpapahirap bakit ko ba pinagdadaanan 'yung mga pag-aantay, pero kahit kailan na maraming humahadlang sa'king mga tao't mga irarason nila, patuloy akong lumalaban na umabot na lang sa puntong umabot ng ilang taon pagkakagusto ko sakanila. We all know na hindi naman talaga dapat natin silang gustuhin kasi bawal nga sakanila 'yon and we have to set boundaries for them. HANGGANG DITO LANG TALAGA AKO, 'DI NA'KO P'WEDENG SUMAGAD PA. 'DI P'WEDENG MA-LEAD KO SILA SA KASALANAN NANG DAHIL LANG SA NARARAMDAMAN KO.

Siguro nga, HAHANGAAN PERO HINDI ISASAGAD ANG PAGMAMAHAL.

Kapag may close sa kanilang babae, hindi naman ako nag-assume and hinahayaan ko lang kasi karapatan naman nila 'yun and ayokong sagarin 'yung panglo-lockup ko to the point na hindi ko sila mabibigyan ng independence and pari pa rin sila. Pero minsan, kapag napansin kong strange na, haha nakakajealousy kahit hindi ko naman talaga dapat maramdaman 'yon. Hindi p'wedeng humantong sa ganito.

Kaya mga unspoken thoughts ko about feelings ko? DINADAAN KO LAHATBSA KANTA NI TAYLOR SWIFT DAHIL MOST OF HER SONGS ARE RELATABLE TO ME AND SOME OF HER SONGS AY DINEDICATE KO NA SA 3 PARING 'YON.

Pero, ayoko na.

[meowmeowwww2]

Oct 2, 2024

4:52pm / 2nd floor CR

Nagkaron na naman ng malalang away. Ito na ata ang katapusan. Hehe.

Nagsimula nung sinabi kong di na ko natatakot ky tatay. At kapag inaway nya pa ko, makikipaghiwalay ako kay TJ. Unfair daw ako dahil di daw siya ganyan nung si dad ang nangaway sakaniya.

Hindi naman pareho ng sitwasyon dahil ngayon, may lamat na kami sa kasinungalingan nya.

So sinabi na nya lahat ng pwedeng makasakit sakin.

Maissue daw ako.

Lahat sakin big deal.

Naghahanap ako palagi ng kakampi.

Di daw ako marunong umintindi.

Insecure daw akong tao.

Isip bata ako.

Pagod na siya sakin.

Too many na. Honestly ready na ko mapagisa. Ayaw ko na mag stay sa tulad nyang pinasasama lang lagi lalo loob ko tuwing depressed ako. Siya lng kasi perfect partner sa mata nya. Akala mo hindi nagger at mainitin ulo.

Pagod na ko. Bahala na kung wala akong pera.

Wala na talaga kaming pagasa.

Hindi niyq ko maintindihan at hindi ko na rin siya maintindihan.

Too late na para ayusin pa to. Puro sumbatan at sama ng loob nalang lumalabas sa mga bibig namin.

Pagod na ko.

This was bound to happen since that day.

Ineexpect kong susuyuin nya ko palagi because of what he did pero inaaway niya pa ako kapag natitrigger or nadedepressed ako. I dont need that in my life. Mas pipiliin ko na lang mapag-isa.

Wala daw siyang pagsisihan. FINE. Good for him.

Lagi nya binabalik na mababaw lang rason ko for being hurt nung first issue ko sa fam niya. It just shows na di nya talaga ako iniintindi. Na di niya talaga intindi na masakit yun sakin kahit pa hindi siya intentional nila nanay at ate grace. Sinisisi pa ko na ayaw ko magpakita or magpunta ng bahay nila dati?! Jusko. Kakaiba.

Ngayon pinamumukha nya lang na mahirap ako pakisamahan, na mahirap akong tao. Na sensitive lang ako. Lahat issue saakin.

Problema sakanila ayaw nila ako hayaang magheal muna. Gusto nila ok na ako agd. Parang si dad lang.

Wala na talagang pag asa. Parang galit na lang nararamdaman ko para kay tj. Wala na respeto namin sa isat isa. Sumosobra na yung sigawan namin. Yung paninigaw nya sakin grabe na. Gusto ko lang ba daw lumuhod silang lahat sakin. Wtf. Ganyan tingin nya sakin. Sa edad ko dW dapat nakakaintindi nako. Isip bata daw ako. Lol.

Tinatry nya daw maayos ngayon?? Huh? pero ano? Anong ginagawa nya? Nilalayo pa nya loob ko tangina. Sinasaktan nya lang ako lalo.

Tanggap nya ko pero ang dami nyang mga kinikimkim na reklamo saakin? Dapat noon nya pa sinasabi yan di yung tuwing sasabog lang tsaka lang siya maggaganyan. Putangina. Bahala na. Ayoko na.

Tapos na kami. Tinapos ko na. Ako na yung umayaw. Ayaw ko na rin maging pabigay sakanya.

Di ko tuloy naabutan si tita thess.

Lagi pa nya sinasabi na ako lang naman daw nagtrtrigger sknya? Ok, wala na magtrigger sayo ngayon. Sana maging masaya ka sa buhay mo.

Hindi nya ko hinahayaan mag grieve at magheal sa paraang gusto ko. Gusto nya lang iignore or magpretend na wala siya naging kasalanan sakin.

Sana maging masaya si tatay na mawawala na ko sa buhay niya.

Di siya makaintindi na di ako makakamove on agad.

Nagwawala na siya. Sinasaktan sarili niya. Tas nung ako na ang gumawa nagagalit siya. Putangina.

Ngayon, di ko maintindihan ano pang gusto nya.

Sobra na. Sobra na talaga.

[would-love-rest]

ah ganun ba, 'di ko alam eh. sumosobra na ata ako?

pero bakit naiinis ako? bakit ba 'di mo na lang sabihin kung ayaw mo

anong kelangan kong bawasan? saan pa ba ako nagkulang?

ampota, buti pa yung isa tanggap katarayan ko.

wala eh, ikaw pinili ko. ikaw mahal ko eh.

pero bakit hanggang ngayon para akong nahihirapan iexpress sarili ko sa'yo?

mabuti pang hindi ako umuwi.

mabuti pang mamanhid na lang.

nakakaiyak na yung kinabukasan ko nakasalalay padin dito, sa taong parang hindi alam gagawin. sa taong parang hanggang masaya na lang basta andito ako, paano kung sumuko na talaga ako kasi nakakasawa na?

bakit ba hindi mo magawang gawing panatag puso ko sa'yo?

bakit ang hilig ko magmahal sa mga taong parang walang balak gawin sa buhay. kasalanan ko rin naman lahat.

[zaynieshdieh]

ano trip ng lolo ko😭😭😭 ante 2k lang hinihingi ko bat naging 12k😭😭😭 mukha naman akong sumosobra niyan jusko💔💔💔💔

[elfilibusterismo]

sumosobra na kayong mga caloy biased diyan HAHAHA