#summer loves her brother but gains something from the dynamic if she engages in the toxicity i could go

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feel v mean calling out soecific meta but im still kindve fuming over a post i saw w a bit too much engagement a few months ago implying erick couldve never gotten physical w emorty bc if he had emorty wouldve not put up w him as long or wouldve easily been able to defend themself actually it was a poll like. rallying abt what kind of abuse everyone thought emorty had endured like placing bets on how badly rick brutalized him. have we lost the fucking plot lol

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danica x brandon

Danica is about 95% certain that Brandon is a fever dream she made up when she tripped and slammed her head. She didn’t slam her head. He’s this handsome, strong, mountain man she met in Maine and the way they met feels like a Hallmark movie. She’s pretty certain she’s gonna go back to Maine to visit him and the park rangers are gonna tell her no one named Brandon had ever worked for them.

When she first moved to Maine, and when she had nothing to do with her days, Danica would ask Brandon to let her come to work with him. She would stay in the truck if anything ever happened, but she would go on his rounds with him and do the hikes. In the beginning there was a lot of labored breathing and him making sure she wasn’t going to trip on a leaf, but eventually she gained confidence in her feet and she keeps up with him pretty well. When she’s at work, she misses the time spent with him and will still sometimes ask on her days off when she doesn’t have anything to write for her blog.

Danica’s second favorite place in the world is an overstuffed armchair near the fireplace in Brandon’s cabin. When the rain is coming down and the fire is going, all she needs to keep her happy is a glass of wine and a good book or her laptop. Her first favorite place in the world is when Brandon squishes himself into the chair with her.

Even though she has more than enough of her own clothes, Danica, when she’s around the cabin she’s almost always wearing little more than boyshorts and one of Brandon’s shirts. It started out as an ‘I need to do laundry’ thing, and quickly moved to a ‘I like the way he looks at me’ thing.

joshua x ashley

Ashley wasn’t completely wrong about Josh hanging around because he felt bad about Jordan, though it was less for Ashley to have someone around and more because he needed someone. What started for him as getting to know his ex’s sister turned into a friendship. He’s not entirely proud of it, which is why he wouldn’t admit to it.

Josh refuses to do things with Ashley that belonged to him and Jordan, even if she asks. He usually changes the subject or suggests something else for them to do instead. He’s not entirely aware of her crush on him, but he knows something about her feels familiar and he doesn’t want to put himself into the position.

Joshua has a standing offer that no matter where or when, Ashley can text him if she ever feels uncomfortable and wants a way out. It started the day he found out she was going to parties. Not that he thinks she can’t take care of herself, but he knows the kinds of guys she’s hanging out with. It could be a Tuesday morning, three hours before he has to wake up and get to work. He would still be there.

joshua x jordan

Josh regrets the night before Jordan left and he’s pretty certain he’ll never forgive himself for not giving her the promise ring he’d already been carrying around most of the summer. He’s convinced that if he would have just given it to her, they could have stayed together, she would have moved back home after college, and they would have gotten engaged that summer, and been married within the next year.

The night Josh found out Jordan was dating Brody was the first night he got good and properly drunk. He’d had alcohol before, but tastes. He was so far gone he couldn’t get back into his house and his father had to come out and give him a talkin’ to. Which was less... don’t drink, and more, I know it hurts but sometimes that’s life. You’re gonna find someone who’s gonna take all this pain away one day.

Josh definitely made sure to text Jordan every night to tell her good night, and after they started dating officially, to tell her goodnight and that he loved her. Even if he’d only dropped her off at her door ten minutes previous. It became such a habit that he didn’t even think to stop after she started pulling away, though he does remember the first time she didn’t text back.

paul x casey

One would assume Paul to be the kind of man who brings a date to a work function and then sub-consciously ignores them the whole night through as they deal with business... but not true. He makes an effort to assure her glass is never empty, there’s usually a hand hovering at the small of her back, and he does his best to include her in conversation. He would also do his best to reassure her of her place there amid side-glances and off-hand comments from other attendees. If at any point she wanted to leave, assuming it wasn’t five minutes after they arrived, he would most likely escort her home.

Of all the people in his family he didn’t want to meet Casey, his brother would be at the top of the list. Not because of any unforeseen tension, but because Austin has a way of making people like him. He’s relaxed, good-natured, shows a genuine interest in everyone’s story... everything that Paul hasn’t been able to become. He’s certain that if Casey and his brother get along, it’s only a matter of time before she wishes he was more like Austin and wondering what went “wrong”.

The second fight Casey goes to, seeing as the first was a surprise to him, is gonna make Paul hella nervous. He knows he loses control in the ring, he knows how violent he becomes. He’s not used to anyone seeing that, not anyone he’ll then have to remember after the next day. It won’t hold him back, but he’ll likely tread more carefully around her until she lets him know, however subtly, that she’s all right with it.

When Casey first started patching him up after fights, Paul was uncomfortable at best and stayed that way for a few weeks. It’s one of the few times he’s vulnerable, and to let another person see him like that who isn’t a professional is a huge step for him in general and probably took some convincing before it became a regular thing.

paul x wes

Paul will never willingly fight Wes. Not that he thinks him incapable, but because he doesn’t want to jeopardize the friendship they’re building. Not that he assumes Wes would look at him any differently, but he would look at Wes differently. He projects the subject of his anger onto the other fighter in the ring with him and he doesn’t think he would be able to disassociate once the fight was over.

Nights when he goes to the bar to spend time with Wes and Casey are some of his favorites, though most people would be hard pressed to know that about him. He’s still stiff, hard to draw conversation from, and rarely smiles. But he’s fond of their dynamic, and fond of the both of them in general.

sarina x casey

Much to Casey’s chagrin, Sarina tries to get her up and dancing any time she sees her. Especially when there’s music playing.

Casey is the first person to find out about Sarina’s ex-husband and the guilt she feels about being with Wes, but only because she knows she can trust her not to say anything. She talks about her ex freely enough, though she has a hard time dealing with the ‘bad’ feelings surrounding the relationship.

sarina x wes

Sarina doesn’t know how to not touch Wes. She’s a touchy-feely kind of person, to a lesser extent with friends as well, but unless she’s doing something that requires both hands or she’s too far to reach, she has at least one hand on him. Wrapped over the inside of his elbow, their fingers laced together, resting casually against his thigh, an arm over his shoulder. Sometimes even just shoulder to shoulder. She craves contact.

While she would never admit it, and she’s glad Wes told her, Sarina is a wreck every time he fights. She still goes though. She won’t sit in the front row, she doesn’t want him to look over and see the worry on her face, or the cringe every time he takes a hit. She would also brush off any offer of her just staying home, because waiting to see how hurt he was or wasn’t would be even worse.

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Gender & Pronouns: Cis woman, she/her

Date of Birth: February 5th, 1986 (35)

Place of Birth: Stockholm, Sweden

Neighborhood: Avalon

Length of Residency: Since October 2020

Occupation: Preschool Teacher

Face Claim: Alicia Vikander

BIOGRAPHY

TRIGGERS: Death, Alcoholism, Substance Abuse, Miscarriage.

Olivia has always been surrounded by love. Her mother, a romance novelist, married her father, a teacher, and they raised her in what she believes to this day, one of the most loving places in the world. It was only inevitable that Olivia was destined to fall in love with love. Life in Stockholm is happy and comfortable with its long summers and cold winters, and Olivia has very little she could want in life. Her parents love her, and her older brother, while they bicker, dotes on her in his own way. They live a little way outside of the city, with a house that isn’t too big and isn’t too small. The garden is always full of herbs, vegetables and flowers, and Olivia spends countless summers there devouring books of poetry, before writing her own that she tentatively puts to song. Her voice is soft and her songs take on a similar quality: shy and yearning for experiences that she had yet to have. They never see the light of day early on, her only audience being her room and their family dog.

She’s a dreamer from the get-go and that doesn’t change as she enters high school. Her career ambitions and hopes for the future change almost every day. It’s all a coping mechanism of course; Olivia fears that she doesn’t really know what she wants in life. The only sure thing apart from her family is music. They’re the constant through everything you’d expect a teenager to experience: friendships blossoming, friendships failing, her fear of wandering and finding no direction, and perhaps the most potent high school experience - her first heartbreak.

Like many things in her life though, Olivia soldiers on. Her smile is still bright, her laugh never faltering, her love of love hardly dampened. The world has so much to offer and she’s wise enough to know that life won’t end just because high school does. The prospect of university looms, and despite her parent’s encouragement to take a gap year, she picks a university in Brighton, England far enough away from her comfort zone and her charmed upbringing.

Brighton is nothing like Stockholm and it’s exactly what she needs. It’s there amongst the bustle and life that Olivia’s voice starts to grow. Everything about her seems to bloom a little more there and help her stand a little taller. A trusted and close friend coaxes her into singing at a pub night during their second year – and she becomes an instant campus sensation overnight. The sudden audience she gains overnight is flattering to be sure but Olivia’s practicality defines her. Despite her friend pursuing music over a degree and urging her to do it too, she’s reluctant to live without a safety net.

For all the risks she takes when it comes to love, there’s something more terrifying about the idea of playing with her future. University comes and goes, and with it plenty of writing material for her to create music with. She doesn’t perform that often (when she can afford the time, and only when she doesn’t have exams or final projects due) but they’re enough to feed her soul and help pay some of the bills. She stays in the UK, moving in with her friend who’s persistence in their music career has finally paid off. Olivia is supportive, genuinely happy for their success, and she takes up a job as a preschool teacher. She’s always loved kids and teaching comes naturally to her with the well of patience she has. But her heart still yearns for more. It’s what keeps her writing and singing on the side while she teaches during the day.

But then fate decides to throw her a bone. Enter Jack Adler.

At the time she’s singing in LA, opening for that same friend who’s taken off in the R&B scene in the UK at a tiny (intimate as she lovingly thinks of it), hole-in-the-wall club. It’s just a small tour of California and frankly doesn’t pay as much as her brother would like, but singing and writing songs have never been about that for her. It’s a form of expression. Another way for her to share all of the pent-up feelings she can’t express otherwise. So it’s a complete surprise when this giant figure of a man approaches her raving about how she has to join his band. It’s the push she needs to take the leap that she had always been so afraid to take before. And who is she to say no to the one and only Jack Adler? Her teaching career barely lasts long enough to really take off but it’s the first time in her life where she’s felt like she would regret not taking the chance in front of her.

She and Jack instantly hit it off, bonding about love in a way that no one else in her life has understood before. But in the same way that she finds a best friend in Jack, Olivia finds a soulmate in Peter. She’s lovestruck almost immediately but dismisses any chance of them being together mostly because she doesn’t want to jeopardize the dynamic that the band already has together. Like all romantic movies and books though, she and Peter slowly but surely fall in love. Two years later, they’re engaged, and her loved ones and her found family couldn’t be happier for them. The tone of her lyrics change, her voice grows sweeter. The success of the band takes off.

This is the part where they should have gotten married, had children, and lived happily ever after. But Olivia’s story diverged from the usual script. It starts with late nights, her calls to Peter going unanswered. And then Jack and Peter start showing up to shows late, stumbling through the green room doors minutes before they’re supposed to go on. Cancelled shows become more and more frequent, and so do the heated arguments. At first, Olivia stands up for the two of them believing them when they say that it’s not serious. That it won’t happen again. But it keeps happening, this time with the smell of alcohol on their breaths, the strain on her relationship with Peter and Jack buckling under the addiction they’ve found.

Everything happens so quickly that she can barely recall the order of how things play out: Jack calling her, telling her the news through broken sobs. Burying her true love at 34. The press coverage becoming so overwhelming that she literally throws her phone into the Pacific. Losing the baby. Quitting the band, and trying and failing to look Jack in the eye after that. She stops writing. She stops singing. Music becomes white noise. She moves home to Stockholm to mend her broken heart - or run away from her problems - she can’t tell which it is.

There are only so many tears that someone has in their body. And there’s only so long someone can go crying before they get sick of it. Eventually, Olivia tires of wearing sweatpants every day and having puffy, red-rimmed eyes. Mostly she doesn’t want to worry her family and friends so she does what any sensible person does: pulls herself together even if she isn’t. She isn’t sure what makes her decide to move back to the United States. Maybe because it was some of the most formative years of her life. Or maybe because she knows that if she wants to return to music someday, that’s where it will happen.

In the end, she settles on Catalina, the hustle and bustle of LA too much for her tender heart. She tells most people that it’s because a job opportunity for a preschool teacher opened up on the island, but she knows that she’s simply running from the ghosts she’s left behind in the city. She’s adjusted to life on the island quite well; her days are filled with running after kids, teaching them silly and practical things, all while quietly writing songs for other singers on the side. After all, how else would she cope with her grief and emotions if she didn’t have her one outlet?

PERSONALITY

Positive: Optimistic | Creative | Genuine

Negative: Evasive | Inhibited | Stubborn

Olivia Nilsson is portrayed by Amanda.