#sucks that theyre so far away but whatevs

[szparagus2002]

Not to trust my thoughts after 3am but God does it feel like I'm failing as a partner lately

[mzcain27]

Saw bad omens was dope also some v weird shit about it tho lmao

[luvfy0dor]

Bites or Hickeys? Various x GN!Reader ੈ✩‧₊˚

Warnings; suggestive, obv biting, hickeys, perhaps ooc,

Fandoms; Bungo Stray Dogs, Death Note, Attack on Titan, Obey Me

A/n; ogs remember when I was purple, but anyways happy 1 year of writing to me!! I'm super proud of my account and I'm so insanely thankful for all the love I've received and acquaintances/friends I've made. Thank you guys so much <3 even tho there have been times where I really thought I'd quit, I kept going and I'm so grateful I did

Bites ★

The feeling of their teeth sinking into your skin makes them feel almost electric, as if a spark has been lit inside their chest and cause an explosion of carnal desire. Some are softer with it, kissing and licking over the imprints of their teeth to soothe the mild pain it might have caused, but others just bite and move on to the next unoccupied spot. They can't help how desperate they are for you and to prove to themselves that they have you, and their affectionate gestures prove that theyre yours. After all, they'd never do the same for anyone else. Ofcourse after the heat of the moment died down, whether they were gentler or rougher earlier, they'd kiss over the indents and whisper soft praises and murmurs about whatever came to mind. Moments like those were their favorites- second to the actual rendezvous, ofcourse.

• RANPO, Dazai, Akutagwa, Kaji, Twain, Sasha, Zeke, Pieck, MELLO, Belphie, Satan, Leviathan

Hickeys ★

They prefer giving hickeys, sometimes because they think it's classier than biting, and others because they don't want to hurt you by biting too hard. They will, however, make you look just as ravaged, littering your pretty skin with dark, organically shaped marks. Their hands pin your wrists above your head while they suck and lick at your neck, humming as if they were enjoying a meal made by a world-class chef. Their eyes would flicker up to meet yours every now and again, lips curling upwards as they shove one of their knees between yours, allowing you to grind against their thigh while they make quick work of undoing your top and belt. They're far more shameless when they're leaving them along your thighs, so shameless that you almost look like you were bruised- no one was going to see them anyways, so why should they be modest? They'd be lying if they said being able to claim you in such a way didnt turn them on. ♡⁠˖

• fyodor, Sigma, Kunikida, Ango, Mori, Fitzgerald, Fukuzawa, Margaret, Poe, Erwin, Mikasa, Reiner, Historia, Lucifer

Both! ★

They simply can't choose, whether adorning your neck and thighs in dark, dotted half-moons or burgundy splotches, they can't get enough of you. They usually leave them in concealed places, but sometimes it's so difficult to not mark you up all over, especially when you're writhing underneath them and clinging to them like a vice because their lips and mouth just feel that good. You'd intertwines your fingers in their hair, pulling them closer or tugging them away when you're lying breathlessly in the wrinkled and messy sheets. They'd ask you if it's too much, rubbing circles into the sides of your hips with a wide, cheeky grin. God, you looked so good underneath them, all bashful and shy with your eyes half lidded and your lips slightly agape. Your labored breaths and quiet sighs were like music to their ears, so really, how could they choose just one when they could give you both and double the fun? ♡⁠˖

• NIKOLAI, Chuuya, yosano, bram, Oda, Atsushi, Lucy, Mushitaro, Tecchou, Tachihara, Eren, jean, Connie, Armin, Hange, maybeee levi, Ymir, Matt, Matsuda, Misa, im torn between both and neither for L, Mammon, Asmo, Beel

Neither ★

They prefer not to leave a physical mark on you, but rather give you a good time to remember them by. A mark will fade quicker than a memory. ♡⁠˖

• Nathaniel Hawthorne, Light, Jouno

A/n: hey chat I didn't realize today was my anniversary so I kinda speedran the characters, it might not be SUIUUPER in character so I'm sorry 😞

[transgenderer]

im not a primmie but i feel like i "get" it in a way i didn't used to, now that ive read some ethnographies of them. like. i mean, obviously it sucks. it is, on net, dispreferred. we shouldnt reorganize society towards it. but i think the hunter gatherer lifestyle does have particular virtues that modern life doesnt. they're hard to refer to. i dont think theyre *actually* more subtle than like "freedom" or whatever as concepts, but we dont have a whole societal thing about referring to them, so i cant just use a premade word and give you all sorts of complex preloaded concepts.

one of the virtues is...explainability-autonomy. but specifically like. everything you own (i mean, except for a few luxury trade goods) is something you know how to make, or you know a guy who knows how to make it. so you're not in a "matrix" the way we are, on the scale of a community you're more atomized. as soon as a culture gets mined metal this goes out the window, your livelihood is dependent on far-away people.

and this explainability-autonomy holds for the social world as well, even if your culture has an elaborate hierarchy it's a local one, you know everyone in your hierarchy structure. so you can know your social threats in a way you can't in the modern world (i mean, unless you count an ambush-massacre as a social threat).

and then seemingly opposite there's a feature people gloss as "community" but which i think is more like....absolute interdependence. like, you have these people around you, and theyre your only social interaction, or entertainment, and theyre essential for you getting food, and building the house you live in, on and on. like you just depend on each other so intensely (ofc this will depend on the particular H-G group, some were more interdependent and some were relatively independent, depending on hunting style, type of dwelling, etc). and this doesnt seem like a PLEASANT state of affairs but it is *intense* and maybe even beauitful. its like soldiers in the same squad. warriors bond.

this isnt all of them, but its a distinctive pair

[the-s1lly-corner]

Hihi could i request a tadc x reader who cries from anger when she's too angry?

TADC cast x reader who cries when angry!

late post for tonight! admin isnt sure how much theyre going to write tonight since theyre sleepy but they still have art stuff they need to work on... sobs.... ill try to make up for it by writing tomorrow! similar post

CAINE:

takes you away from the scene, swiftly giving out an excuse to try to keep your dignity in tact. i think hes the type to rationalize; or at least the best an ai can do, as well as trying to give you a peptalk. he seems like the type to give peptalks, i think..! gives you a handkerchief that he probably has tucked away in there... somewhere.. if not he just. makes one. i think it would be reasonable to believe he can do that. generally does try his best to uplift you but due to him being new to complex funky emotions he can be a little.. eh.. definitely takes some time; lets you do what you need to do to get your feelings out. cry, vent, punch some drywall, sleep, ect ect

POMNI:

oh honey... oh silly, shes so so lost. in the post linked above shes awkward and vaguely uncomfortable when people cry... and i think this would be even more prominent with angry crying because youre dealing with an entire blow out, you know? i think she follows a similar route, though; tries to ask you whats wrong and try patting your back... which may or may not work, i think it depends on the reader..! sometimes soothing back pats can do wonders, you know! i think she would try to ask you what had happened; and though she cant offer the... best comfort or solutions, she does at least try to listen

RAGATHA:

queen of comfort, she lets you do whatever you need to do. like caine i do think she would give you a handkerchief, likely one that she has made herself. hehehe cute patterns ueue.... back on track, i think she would also get mad on your behalf if someone had upset you, or something totally unfair had happened. the shared anger can either make things worse or make you feel like youre not alone; i think this would depend on a case by case basis, you know? takes you off to the side away from prying eyes so no one can see your tears... speaks in very hushed words trying to calm you down even if shes getting angry for you... as level headed as i tend to write ragatha, i think she would be a fairly empathetic person

JAX:

probably the one who pushed you that far in the first place, though i think this is more likely in the beginning since hes still gauging what your limits are... you know since his whole thing is being an annoyance... so hes a little surprised when you finally blow up. it gets. really awkward. because usually people just cry or get mad, never really both. kind of just stands there before trying to defuse the situation, but hes so not used to actually having to be responsible that he kind of sucks at first. overtime, though, i think he gets better... though to be fair he knows your limits and kind of lets up on you, even more so if you guys actually romantically get together... generally very lost and tense because "oh.. wow i actually kind of feel just a little bad"

KINGER:

oh no...! are you hurt? did someone hurt you? did you hurt yourself? whats wrong? whats happening? hes immediately swarming to you as soon as your eyes start watering, and thats assuming hes not already rushing to your side as soon as he sees you just slightly getting upset... this man worries about you enough as is, but it ramps up when youre unhappy. oh course, he takes you to the pillowfort, and even lets you scream in a pillow while he watches in bewilderment and tries to decipher what happened. probably asks you straight up what happened and if youre okay, even if the second question is a little dumb and obvious, but hey... .this man is all over the place right now... lets you stay in his pillowfort as long as you need. obligatory soothing back pats only dads can muster

ZOOBLE:

doesnt outwardly react much the first few seconds, at most you probably see their eyes widen. but if theres someone actively making you upset, or even unintentionally making you upset actually... i think zooble would step in and put a stop to the nonsense. very. harshly. like snappy, you know? does a little scoff before walking away with you, they seem like a scoffer

thinks

doesnt do much in terms of comfort outside of leading you to their room where you guys just chill and listen to music. theyre not oblivious enough to ask the obvious, but they do probably ask in their own way later on if youre feeling any better once some time has passed... not much comment on the tears

GANGLE:

honestly she probably starts crying a little too, be it from shock or from being empathetic to your feelings.... maybe both... hmm... i would say she tries to stand up for you but i just know that it would fail miserably and would likely end in her being down in the dumps... unless she actually truly loses her shit and goes off on someone, akin to the "the devil shivers when a nice guys loses his temper" but instead of a redditor its some sensitive ribbon person losing their marbles. buuuuuuuuut as much as i love the visual of gangle absolutely going off on someone (cough cough jax) i just dont know if shes actually capable of it, at least not as she currently is judging by the pilot... probably tries to tug you away from the scene... lets you make vent art in her room, even leaves so you have some privacy to do so and/or lends you some of her art supplies

[nanami-is-nanamean]

for literal years (i have no sense of time, its honestly probably just half a year but i could be horrifically wrong—i blame covid for destroying it), i have had this... au. where i just. put nanami. in hsr.

like—instead of caelus or stella being the mc, nanami is and thats whats hes been doing all those years when he was away from sorcery. i do hc that he spent at least one year as a salaryman to get that signature "my soul has been sucked out by capitalism" look and "we should reform society to be better" mindset lmao

i imagine that like—the way it works is that everything happens roughly the same in the main story, its just the little minute differences that change kinda like how everyones playthru of hsr is slightly different because we chose diff dialogue options or whatever

so like—he goes thru belobog, goes thru the xianzhou, goes thru penacony, and then all the side quests, and thats when he decides to go back home (did i base it off my own hsr progress? haha... yeah. lmao)

i dont know who exactly he goes down back to earth with but i do have this one scene in my head where he meets up with himeko. and as much as i like the idea of him going down alone, i dont think the express is gonna let him lmao. best i can imagine is march and welt. welt because this is the most similar to his old home of hi3 (which i want to play so bad but alas i have a life), and march because she serves as a nice contrast to the low energies of nanami and welt AHAHA

i did consider benching her since shes been going to expeditions nonstop but like—the contrast gotta b there honey, thats what you call good writing and good character dynamic lmao. but yeah—he goes down, calls up gojo, and welt and march go off to fuck about.

i imagine that gojos fuckin stunned to see him after so many years because like—he was working a dead end job and then one day he fucking disappears. and it would scare gojo too since like, his entire thing is being able to see things, to percieve things, and as op as gojo is, im p sure he isnt able to see far enough to find nanami in the cold and dark depths of space. all he knows is—he was there, and then, his cursed energy disappears like a candle that went out. all he can assume is that he died or some curse users got to him. but if he died, a sorcerer of his caliber would produce a CRAZY curse spirit. and if curse users got to him, there would be some sort of trace or destruction left behind as a trail because nanami wont go that easy and if he did turn into a curse user, he would be able to pick up the curse energy residue.

so now here he is, back infront of him like some kind of disappearing act AND with some strange and crazy energy inside him. like a fucked up star or black hole or something. somethings obviously happened to him, and if the weird disappearance and reappearance or the weird-ass thing inside him didnt clue him in—he would rip out his own eyes. and he KNOWS that is this nanami because the Six Eyes never lie. (hehe kenjaku prison realm moment)

so now hes tasked with figuring out what the fuck happened to nanami and what the fuck that pulsing thing inside him is—but hes conflicted about it because jesus christ, it was just him and ieiri for so long and theyre both so desperate and so happy to see an old friend again and—and they don't know if they can disregard whatever the fuck happened to him and if hes a threat, because god they missed him so much (hehe geto moment)

MEANWHILE march and welt are snooping around and they find a curse, which they easily defeat obviously and welt has... a WEIRD feeling about these "curses". like hes experienced facing this kind of energy before... so they go curse hunting a little bit more and holy shit. thats when welt realizes.

the reason why the curses and curse energy is so familiar is because he REALLY DID face this sort of energy before—and he faced that energy in the form of rAIDEN MEI WHEN SHE WAS WAVING AROUND HER NIHILITY ABILITIES. so now the express HAS to start meddling because the fucking NIHILITY is HERE and this world has been drowning in the powers of the nihility for actual fucking CENTURIES and at this point, and its going to be too goddamn predictable if theres a fucking stellaron causing it. (there isnt but theyre so used to it at this point lmao)

so yeah! thats my setup for an hsr x jjk crossover lmao

oh yeah its totes nanago AHAHHAHAHA—its implied but idk if it got thru KJHDFJLGkHSLK

[fyodior]

hello flora, m anon here. how are you doing?

the age play drabbles you wrote had me FROTHING AT THE MOUTH AAHAJVAOVNIOANVIOAVGIOAENGV M CLAPPING MY HANDS LIKE A JOLLY VICTORIAN CHILD. but anyways... it fit so well with mama!dazai i just COULDNT. STOP. DROOLING. OH. MY. GOODNESS.

not only would he have you refer to him as 'mama' in public, but i would NOT put it above him to start taking his role of mama a bit more... to heart.

like i can totally see him not really cooking(as we all know how hes too good for the kitchen) but maybe starting with something small... a glass of milk for you whenever youre down or about to head to bed.

of course, at first you give him a suspicious side eye. but;

"oh? why wouldn't i help mama's baby get ready for bed?"

he knows just how to make you flush and squeak with just those two little words. and so. you take the milk.

its good. warm. smooth. and obviously sends you to sleep with osamu in half the time it usually takes.

over the next weeks, the glasses transition into mugs, which turn into sippy cups that youre getting far too sleepy to fully poke fun at or question.

after all, its not just the milk hes pampering you with.

the handholding in public, the whispers to stay close to him, the cooing kisses on the couch...

theyre all enough to make you feel smaller and smaller and smaller. in the best way possible.

youre already lying in bed, tummy missing its favorite drink, when your brown-haired lover steps into the dimly-lit room with a jolly hum. after all, youre so cute when youre all wrapped up in your futon -- gnawing at the blankets whenever hes not around to coddle you.

"baby?"

"uuhn."

late at night, with only osamu and nothing else in the world to stir you back to rationality; everything feels so much softer. so much safer. so much easier.

"mama's got you your milk. it seems like you were just a bit too tired to come get it yourself, huh?"

your favorite edge of the futon blanket is getting soggier and stickier the more you absently chew.

"mm... sorry, mama."

"ah, ah, ah! wrong words, darling. what did mama teach you to say instead?"

the futon dips with the weight of your caretaker. your protector. your nurturer.

"thank you."

"thank you, what?"

your eyes flutter up to just barely catch ahold of his own chocolatey ones. twinkling in the darkness as the warmth of your bedtime drink approaches.

"thank you, mama."

lukewarm fingers wind their way through your hair. it reminds you of how he brushes it every morning. teasing and giggling at your stories of whatever dreams you had tat night. but always, always, always gentle.

"good baby. now, can you open wide for mommy?"

of course, your lips part with a wet sound. the futon corner now disregarded and lying soggy and cold.

"good baby."

a funny, soft, squishy material finds its way between your teeth's front rows. its not hard like the mugs your osamu used to give you. but also far easier to gnaw on than the sippy cups you were used to.

brown eyes locked onto every twitch of your face. eager ears perked for any little noises you would make. and of course, his grip was always gentle while holding your head up to drink.

"... mnh."

sweet, silky, and soothing hot milk pooled in your mouth as you began to suck. slowly, hesitant at first. but as the first few gulps went down, and as your mommy cooed a breathy; "there we go, baby..."

everything melted away.

sucking, gulping, and occasionally gnawing on the rubber nipple had become your new favorite drink. and you were sure he knew it too.

rustles of fabric rippled your mind languidly. the crickets outside were a melody in the back of your head. and as you just kept on nursing and drinking and whining for more whenever mommy's hands shifted just a bit -- you hardly even realized when the bottle was empty. with how glossy and laden your eyes had become after all, it was no surprise that you were still totally entranced.

"all done, baby?"

another whine fell from your lips. louder now, since the nub had slipped out of your mouth.

you wanted more.

shushes and hums circled overhead as the brunette fully crawled into bed with you, his lanky body just shy of being entirely laden atop yours.

"n-noo! gnooo...!"

but seeing as it didn't work, he opted for another way to make you stop crying.

warm lips pressed tenderly against yours.

pulses of electricity rippled through your entire head. your entire body. everything. it was so hot, like you were about to explode --

just as you were about to start whimpering again, a faintly familiar sensation tickled the bridge of your lips. once. twice.

"nnh."

and on the third time, they pushed through.

lukewarm hands were beginning to easily heat up under the sheer feverish heat of your head now. still forever entangled in your locks as his tongue swam greedily over the pliant pink of your own.

overwhelmed, overstimulated, and oblivious to everything else -- you fell limp. only whining and whimpering with the shuddering waves of fuzzy happiness mommy was giving you with every prod of his tongue.

at least you weren't crying anymore.

wasn't your mama the best?

i….. oh…. my GAAAWWDDDDDDDDDDD WHAT THE HELL !!!!! i’m like. on the floor over this holy SHIT

i LOVE the concept of him slowly warming you up to the idea of him babying you and taking on that mama role, because just shoving a bottle in your mouth wouldn’t have gone well. he had to be strategic about it which is SO dazai. starting with the glass to the mug to the sippy cup to finally the bottle is actually genius. also how he brushes your hair every morning is so sweet and gentle i AGGHHHHHH

the gnawing at the corner of the blanket…. falling into that little mindset like dazai taught you to do so as you so anxiously wait for mama’s return… PERFECT

of course you’re still lovers though, and osamu can’t keep himself from kissing you silly, especially when he sees you in such a fragile state so desperate for love and comfort. it’s just how mama shows his love!!!!

all of the dialogue in this literally had me on the floor this was so wonderful and perfect and delicious i need so much more of mama dazai he’s so … why is the concept of a man being referred to as mama/mommy so sexy i can’t understand but MMMMMMMMMM wow. THANK YOU!!!!!!

[crayzdyaln]

HEEEYYY!! i love your ocs alot and your art style aswell. I was wondering what theyr opinions would be to my oc. Please and thank you!!💖

AAAHH!!! hello!!! thank you sm! I love your ocs too, i’ve always thought they were unique. I’m just gonna do this like my other oc interaction posts… so mainly Rudy and Marcus, just because i don’t think Vohn would see them often enough.. ANYWAY!!

REBECCA:

I think Marcus’ opinion on Rebecca would be an alright one, not even just including the fact that she is a prefect—and prefects don’t typically bother him. He doesn’t do anything to provoke them, so it’s not like they have a reason to maul him anyway. But, unlike some other prefects, he’d like her way of prioritizing the nerds—He definitely sees that as an advantage from the jocks. If he wasn’t a nerd, he’d be intimidated by her, for sure.

For RUDYS, opinion on Rebecca, it’d be the complete opposite. I think their first time meeting would just be him trying to act like an angel infront of her—trying to suck up to her along with the other prefects, usually to gain some sympathy points for his own use. But, after coming to the conclusion that she has a clear prejudice towards the jocks—those few sympathy points would be hard to achieve.

I think Rebecca would be an obstacle for him—like he has been so used to doing whatever he wants around campus with the go-ahead from other prefects, that with her it’s like a complete 180. I feel like most of their interactions would be her getting on his ass about something, maybe sending him to the office—and Rudy grumbling like some brooding teenager. It would probably hurt his carefully built ego.

MALLORY:

Marcus and Mallory’s interactions would be a little tense, maybe to an outsider perspective— but, personally, i don’t know if Marcus would be inherently “afraid” of her. Would he think she’s off-putting? for sure. Though, he prefers her silence over the bitching of other students, so he could ignore her outwardly creepy aspects. He’d listen in to the rumors about her, maybe occasionally join in on a few conversations—but, in the end, she doesn’t bother him, so why should he care?

I think they could sit in silence together. He’d just be reading a book while she stares of into space— LMAO.

On the other hand, Rudy would be avoidant of her. Like i’ve said before, he’s NAIVE, if the rumors about her ever surfaced to him, he’d ABSOLUTELY believe them. Like, “Oh, so what is she, like—like some sorta murderer or… something?”

I mean, he’s surrounded by a bunch of gossipy people, it’s only in his nature to believe it. So, back to my point, i think he’d try to stay as far away from her as he can. While Marcus doesn’t seem to think it’s a big deal, Rudy is the opposite. But, something in me says that he would try to make some SORT of bond between them, just like with the prefects—he does it to make sure they have a good perception of him, so he won’t get his ass beat. If he was ever around her, he’d just try to act like he’s not completely scared—lmao.

[skuntank]

a non-comprehensive list of notable individuals that rika has had some sort of Situation(tm) with, or at the very least, potential outcomes i can think of with the majority of other league members (so very likely not all of these happen in the same universe):

erika. was surprisingly less hurt over rika's dine-and-dash approach than one might expect. but i mean. she has like ten girlfriends who just hang out around her gym. she's fine. tbh she probably forgot rika's name fairly quickly after the whole ordeal

whitney. probably one of the worst outcomes. up there with malva just in terms of nuclear emotional meltdown. thank god whitney doesnt have the kind of social influence malva does. rika lives in her head rent free, to the point where rika has to change their phone number every so often bc whitney's figured out whatever new one they have and spam texts them.

clair. they had intent, but didnt actually end up doing anything because both of them wanted to be Dominant and couldn't find a compromise they could agree on. rika finds her fairly intimidating. (despite seeing rika as a switch, theyre not gonna be submissive to anyone but geeta imo)

roxanne. roxanne is still mad at herself for falling for those charms. so so so mad. and shes even more upset with herself that she knows shed let rika get away with it again. wants to put her foot down and block rika's number but can't bring herself to do it.

winona. sees rika as a skeezebag. can acknowledge that rika is objectively charming and very conventionally attractive, but more than anything finds them kind of annoying and gets more enjoyment out of ignoring them and putting off vibes that theyre nothing special. ultimately doesnt put any energy into any interactions but its a bonus if she can tell her indifference is chipping away at that ego a bit.

roark. imo roark is a trans man and they hooked up before he cracked his egg. at the time, rika being a dipshit skeezebag hurt, but he got over it pretty quick.

candice. one of the few people where rika realized that they actually felt some emotions and ended up having a bit of a crisis about it. in another life, i think they'd actually be a fairly interesting ship, tbh. they remain on good terms, and there is definitely some sort of tension between them that scrambles rika's brain a bit.

elesa and skyla. both of them were only willing to go for it if their girlfriend could be involved too. tbh im far more interested in a potential friendship between the three of them, i think the three of them hanging out would be delightfully annoying.

roxie. has the hots for rika so bad that its funny. cant be in the same room as them at league meetings bc she gets way too worked up and flustered and it turns into aggression. theyve never done anything and tbh rika is fine with that bc its almost more fun just to know what kind of hold they have on roxie's brain

viola. similar to roxanne. i think if she and roxanne were to ever have the opportunity to commiserate over how much rika sucks, theyd end up being a pretty good support system for one another and finally be able to give rika the boot.

bea. was much much much more emotionally wrecked than you might expect and swore off dating for several months after the fact. could benefit a lot from the roxanne and viola support group.

katy. i feel like she and rika have a long and rocky history together. katy got strung along by rika for far too long and still bears the emotional scars, but has become a much more self assured person for it. highly resents in general being seen as a pushover, and rika only makes this worse. i feel like youd have to work pretty hard to get on katy's bad side, and rika is right there at the top of her shitlist.

phoebe. straight up cursed rika once rika tried to pull their usual shit. rika had to beg and grovel for forgiveness for a good long time.

malva. haha. god

diantha. im so on the fence about this one. i can see diantha thinking rika might be a fun romp, but i can also just as easily see her 1000% seeing them as a skeezebag. regardless, diantha has slapped them across the face.

[a-court-of-moonlight-and-ire]

What is UP moonlight and ire nation, Im being tormented by intrusive thoughts rn, so I have decided to read a chapter of A Court of Mist and Fury and hope they stop when Im done with this. Last time on the Flames and Darkness Liveblog we had Lucien finally finding Feyre and Feyre being needlessly cruel to him until he left again. also, Feyre used her Tamlin-powers to shapeshift herself a pair of wings and I think that was pretty much it, I feel like not a lot happens in these chapters tbh. And yet I always have so much to say to say about them... Whatever, lets get into this

Chapter 48

Is Feyre smelling the other people at this inn having sex? what kinda smells and noises is she talking about

Theyre in a village that consists of just the inn theyre staying at, a tailor, a grocery store and a brothel? I mean presumably theres actual houses there too but that doest seem right. Also, if its as in-the-middle-of-nowhere as Feyre claims, where the hell are they getting groceries and what kind of groceries are they selling

of course theres only ONE BED and its soooooo small oh noooo do you guys think theyre gonna have sex or what

Oh and of course Feyre cant demand that Rhysand sleep on the floor because its too small to even do that theyre gonna have the wildest sex, and by wildest sex I mean theyre both gonna squeeze each other into the bed under the comically small ceiling of this broomcloset of a room and lay on top of each other without moving like a sandwhch made out of just faemeat

I feel like a cape thats cut to fit around these bigass illyrian wings would lose a lot of its functionality tbh, unless it was like, a wrapping for the wings to protect them from the cold, but I dont think thats the case with Rhysand's cape, i think it either just has holes or is some kind of weird shape, but I feel like if your in these harsh winter winds, having a cape fluttering around your wings would be pretty distracting considering how sensitive supposedly they are

WAIT. do we count this cape as a new Rhys-outfit or do we not. Im on the fence because on one hand, he's just wearing it with his usual illyrian leathers and its really just an accessoire, like I wouldnt count what he wore in the CoN as a new outfit just because he wore a crown with his black tunic, but on the other hand, I feel like a cape can really drastically alter the look of an outfit in a way most other acessoires cant. let me know what you think

of COURSE feyre would call the hypothetical painting she would make of Rhysand 'Death on Fast Wings' im gonna commit a crime

'"I love it when you look at me like that. [...] Like there's no reason to run away from my power. Like you're looking at me."' Does this imply that Rhysand identifies with the descriptor 'death on fast wings' because idk that seems weird. then again, he is a weirdo

Rhysand's pronouns are death/incarnate <- thought that popped into my head while I was writing the previous bullet point

By far the worst part about this book are all the sections where Feyre will just suck Rhysand off for a paragraph, she would not fucking say that

'"No, [you weren't afraid of me]. You were nervous, but you weren't afraid. I've felt pure fear often enough that I know the difference. Maybe that's why I couldn't leave you alone."' god, rhysand is such a creepy little freak. and not the good kind either

Feyre is being all like "oh, sure, the bed isnt small but we couldnt possibly both sleep in it without completely getting into each other's personal space, especially with his wings" girl??? tell him to put those thangs away???

god this paragraph is so annoying 'Fae-men were possessive, dominant and arrogant but the men of the Spring Court had a certain disregard [for my wishes] laying beneath the the surface' my brother in christ you have been in two and a half (2 1/2) courts and you know seven (7) fae-men personally

Also, this part where Feyre is like "if I was wasting away and Rhysand just stood by without doing anything about it, Cassian and Azriel would've gotten involved and given him a piece of their minds" is so funny knowing whats gonna happen in acosf, like no they fucking wouldnt! what are you talking about!

Oh man it just occurred to me. this is the chapter where Feyre finds out theyre mates isnt it. Or like, this part whre theyre at this inn is when she finds out, Im pretty sure itll last for multiple chapters

"[Rhysand] saw right through Ianthe the moment he met her." yeah because she broke into his bedroom and sexually harassed him and just outright told him that she wanted to have his children for the sake of power ?? I would hope he would see through that

I feel like theres been this pattern in this book of Feyre only being able to compliment Rhys in contrast with Tamlin and its very strange because you would think that after speedrunning their relationship development and spending about 500 pages worth of time with him, she would be able to point out some of his positives without immediately connecting them to her ex's negatives, but I guess thats too much to ask of this ROMANCE

Like, I forgot if this was something Feyre already said or if this is still coming up but I know theres a point in this book where she's like "I think I just loved Tamlin pre-UTM because I was so broken and traumatized from my shitty homelife that I fell for the first person to show me some kindness" and that is not how their relationship felt in ACOTAR at all atleast in my opinion, but that definitely is how Feysand feels in this book

I really hate it when male characters are described as having "hard muscles" it sounds so unpleasant. im saying this primarily as someone who likes to read about characters cuddling and prefers it when theyre soft for that, but even if we're just talking smut, does having sex with a "hard" guy sound pleasant to you? or, well. you know what i mean

!! NEW RHYS-OUTFIT DROPPED !! hes wearing wide thin pants (even though theyre sleeping in an ice cold broom closet) and a tight cotton shirt, both of unspecified color

Oh yeah, Rhysand is just sooooooo powerful you guys, he needs to constantly use his magic otherwise itll just take him over and turn him into the joker

'Everyone at his Court had a use, some kind of great ability. And here I was, a strange, unpredictable hybrid that was more trouble than it's worth.' girl you are literally fae jesus what the hell are you talking about

Maybe Im just in a bad mood but this part where Rhys n Feyre are telling each other about how they would tear the world apart if they were ever forcefully seperated is so deeply annoying to me

Im not gonna translate the shit Rhysand just said to Feyre, tldr he thinks shes hot and wants to fuck her but the room is too small for that woe is him, and ughhhh. Im struggling to explain this in a way that doesnt make me sound puritanical, but something about the horniness of their relationship makes it feel really gross to me, its not just the fact that this relationship is horny because I can very much enjoy a horny fictional relationship sometimes, but the horny relationships that I usually enjoy are like, warm and pleasant from the eroticism of it all, Feysand is just kinda gross and sticky to me

Feyre's negative self-talk in regards to her feelings for Rhysand and Tamlin feels so forced, like cmon man, you keep talking about how much Tamlin sucks ass and how much better Rhys is for you how are you still experiencing any kind of inner conflict about this

Also, Feyre talking about how she was constantly thinking about Rhysand even before she left the spring court is just, a lie. does SJM not expect her readers to remember anything

Now theyre spooning and Feyre is stroking his wings and Rhysand is humping her and its like, this isnt sexy to me this is just kinda weird

bro how come Ive never seen anyone talk about Rhysand being like "I love your boobs so much, oh, you dont even know how much I love them" thats so funny

The rest of this chapter was just Rhysand fingering Feyre and honestly, it wasnt too bad, with the extreme proximity and him warming her up I can see why some people would find it hot but idk. its still a sjm smut scene and its german which makes it pretty unpleasant for me

[wizisbored]

New au, cool!

- Will Lydia's inherited demonic characteristics be similar to Snake oil Lydia?

- Is bj magically/physically tethered to Lydia or is it a purely documental/contractual relationship?

- do the cult members get anything in return for the offerings they provide or is it a more like religious belief / he'll help you when Armageddon comes - thing?

Poor Lydia just got her throat slashed for some weird random smelly demon that doesn't even want her,

Ya really know how to put her in unfavourable situations... Sounds exciting. <3

cw child murder

i dont want them to be too similar, so i dont think ill be giving this lydia any colour changing features. the most immediate visual indicator of her inheritance is her amber eyes. i think she has the potential to do anything beetlejuice can, but she has no control over any of it. shes a volatile, furious, but also confused and scared spirit, and it tends to just burst out of her, mostly as a destructive force. beetlejuice isnt all that great at emotional regulation himself, so hes not much help in regard to teaching her to manage it. he sort of just figured it out over time, he doesnt know how to explain it.

lydia is spiritully bound to beetlejuice in some way. im not sure about the details, but its definately magic and hes definately the one with the power. otho essentially gave him her soul. it might be that she cant disobey him, or she needs his explicit permission to do certain things. but as always, i gotta make their dynamic as fucked up as possible.

bit of both. beetlejuice does grant the cult occasional favours to keep them interested, but theyre mostly either simple magic or placebo. basically, hes led them to believe that summoning him requires invoking his name and an offering. i dont think lydia was killed with any specific repayment in mind. it was part the cult being this feedback loop of hyping each other up to deeper and deeper dedication, and part otho trying to cement his status at the top. they thought sacrificing her would show just how devoted they are to beetlejuice. will beetlejuice see this and realise hes gone too far? of course he fucking wont! he just tells them good job, you satisfied my hunger for innocent blood or whatever, so you dont need to do that again for a while and can go back to the regular stuff.

lydia is furious at all of this, of course, but shes also just distraught. she was put through a horrific ordeal and died choking on her own blood for people who found her a convenient means to suck up to a demon, and subsequently lost her autonomy to that demon who never wanted her in the first place. not that he cares that she was murdered in his name, just that shes inconvenient. she just lost her mother and now has been ripped away from her dad too and doesnt have anyone she can trust to care for her, so she has to look out for herself while not really knowing what 'herself' means anymore. shes still dressed for her execution and theres blood all over her face and this huge gash in her throat, and she cant figure out how to change it. she doesnt understand her new powers and cant stop them exploding out of her.

i need to figure out how to get the maitlands into this au quick because somebody needs to hug that kid

[rivalhughs]

I like hearing about your verse's Leon and Hop awhile back!! Do you have anything about their family dynamic? Or their teams? :)

MY LOVES oh i adore leon and hop theyre so . blorbo from my game... the sillies...... (special luv to all the 3 swsh rivals + their family issues ngl . very important and special to me.)

ramble ahead... :) (cws for mentions of parental death, big financial difficulty, and leon's mental health being absolute shit, & rose being a twat)

SOOOOOOO . the malik brothers

first and foremost Very Important. they're pakistani-british. this is just me projecting bc the area of north england that i'm from there's a lot of pakistani communities <3

their ma's name is Sana & their pa's name is Farhad

originally born in hulbury, the family moved to postwick when leon was ~10 and hop ~5 to be with Sana's parents after pa passed away suddenly (rapid decline after a cancer diagnosis :( ) leon is trans; hop is he/they nonbinary (but doesnt crack his egg til partway thru his gym challenge)

they had it quite rough for a while after farhad's passing. sana was struggling to find a job due to her lingering grief, and while her parents did everything they could to keep food on the table, it was incredibly tough.

one day, while staying out far past his curfew, leon met sonia & her grandma magnolia gifted him his charmander! he calls her charlene because he's very creative <3

he gets in trouble with his ma for staying out late, but she's very quickly enamoured with the charmander so he's not in that much trouble...

leon quickly develops a talent for pokemon battles, wiping the floor with even adult trainers when he enters a for-fun battling tournament in a local park, intended for casual trainers.

(un)fortunately for him, one certain chairman rose happened to be watching. and seeing how leon's talent was not only incredible, but also just in its infancy, he instantly recognised someone who he could have as a star. his star.

he becomes a mentor figure to leon, rose is an accomplished battler after all, and even sponsors him to join the league! leon... honestly would much rather keep his battling and pokemon training to just be a hobby, but... well, his family need money. and he loves his family. so of course he accepts, and battles his way to the top, all the way above the poverty line and into upper-middle-class life. all by the time he's twelve. he hasn't even properly started secondary school; he's missed basically his entire first year to the league and promotional events, acting as Galar's newest rising star.

he's upset. he's lonely. his friendships feel forced and strained. he misses his family, he misses his hobbies. he's camera shy and doesnt like all the questions people ask him, as if he's a prop, as if he's an actor, as if he's not even a kid anymore.

but it's worth it, right? his family are doing better financially- great, even! they've moved out of that crummy, damp filled (cozy. it sucks, but he misses it. misses what it represented. family. being close.) little cottage, and moved into a huge, three storey house in the nicest part of postwick! he can afford to get his family extravagant gifts whenever he wants- even though technically rose manages his finances, but rose lets him do whatever he wants with it. it's his money, after all.

it's fine. his family are happy. they're comfortable. his ma or grandparents no longer have to skip on meals for him and hop to eat. they could afford to have a three course meal for every mealtime if they wanted. it's fine. he's fine. he can do this. he loves his family.

he loves them. he wishes he could tell them, but it's so hard to find time to go home anymore. every magazine, every tabloid, every news program and newspaper and website and every single person wants an interview and a thousand photographs. he's signing autographs for hours, replying to letters by hand so much his wrist aches. he wants to go home, but he needs to stay where the work is, where the money is. he's thirteen, he loves his family. he's fine. he's eighteen and he loves his family. and he's fine. he's twenty, twenty-one, twenty-two... he loves his family. he's still not processed his father's death properly; busywork drowns him and his whole body aches, and he hates battling these days, everything's all so fake, so scripted, he's always advertising something or other, something he doesn't care for, but he's fine. he's getting paid. his family is comfortable. they're fine, so he is, too.

hop doesn't really remember much from before leon became champion. he remembers a bit of hulbury, of course- that's where he met vic, after all- but... not much else. grief and poverty wound together for those couple of years, and thesedays, it's almost completely repressed. almost.

he misses his brother, but loves when he comes to visit- or when hop can go and visit him, down in wyndon. he can tell something's not quite right with leon, his smiles are always a little too wide, his eyes always so tired, he drops thoughts mid-sentence and stares off into nothingness too much... but lee never tells him what's wrong. eventually, hop stops asking, frustrated, feeling like leon doesn't trust him, or thinks he's too little, but he still tries to cheer him up.

hop's first pokemon is his wooloo, whistle. whistle is a little knowitall. he and charlene have a faux-rivalry, since charlene also loves to dote on hop, and whistle is like "Umm Ex-Cuuuse me, lady, this is My boy. fuck off." and charlene is like "dude ur a tiny sheep. u dont even have hands to ruffle his hair. pathetic." they're friends, really, when it comes down to it, but most of the time they are having beef over completely inconsequential things. hop thinks its incredibly funny. hop caught him on accident one day. vic- who already had a pokemon- had come by for a sleepover, and was showing hop how pokeballs work. hop was looking at one, and dropped it. it rolled down the hill, got boosted off a small rock, and hit whistle, who had been snoozing. insane.

hop loves his family just as fiercely as leon does. but because hes the youngest, because they're all adults, and he's not... he feels like they never take him seriously.

it's difficult. it's weird. they miss each other, but there's a rift there. battles, grief, naivete, fears said and silent... they'll cross it someday, but it's clear that something needs to change.

maybe one day, it will. and things will start to get better.

as for their teams:

leon:

charlene | charizard, f, she/her | leon's ace. can mega evolve, but they choose to gigantamax her bc of Branding. tough-love kinda gal, rough and tumble, loves to train herself, often wrestles lee's other pokemon for funsies. teases hop's pokemon affectionately. uchi villager kinda girl

holly | haxorus, f, she/her | first pokemon leon caught after setting out on his gym challenge. holly is camera shy, like leon, but loves to battle. she doesnt really like her role as a champion's pokemon, but leon is her best friend, so she sticks it out for him. she's very kind.

link | aegislash, m, he/it | yes named after link from LOZ. nobody tell shinon. gluttonous beast, please stop eating the automatic doors of rose tower. tough and reliable, but can easily be persuaded with snacks. sometimes, anyway. won't take anything from rose. rose's number 1 hater.

oceana | rhyperior, f, she/her | named after her favourite sweet treat- rock-stick candy from the beach :) . she's another shy one, and very much looks up to charlene. despite being shy, she can be quite argumentative, and butts heads with link a lot.

cinnamon | dragapult, m, he/him | weirdo who comes and goes as he pleases. he's a freak he's a weirdo what the hell is he doing here (on this mortal plane) he doesnt belong here (hes a ghost of a dragon that lived millions of years ago) . anyway. cinnamon is an edgelord loner who literally will steal leon's phone to listen to emo music. what a legend.

tango | rillaboom, f, she/her | super upbeat and happy-go-lucky. tango is the baby of the team, quite literally only having become a part of it in the last couple of years, after leon's previous 6th team member (a rapidash named Prince) had to retire from professional battling due to an injury. tango is very sweet and genuine, but her high energy does sometimes irritate the quieter members of the team. her bestie is cinnamon though. they listen to linkin park together :)

and for hop! darling hopscotch <3

whistle | dubwool, m, he/him | hop's ace. knowitall little man. this wooloo is a hater and he loves to be a hater <3 . he will chat shit about anyone who even looks at hop funny. watch out bede. def hop's number one, his best friend forever. so his confidence is knocked when hop's is, and when hop boxes him after the bede confrontation. is angry with hop for a long while after that, doesnt listen to him in battle, even when hop returns him to his team. it's not until the eternatus incident that whistle forgives him.

severn | inteleon, m, he/they | chatty and fun. severn likes to make sure everyone is included in things :) . he's very sweet and reliable, the unofficial leader of hop's team. very well respected and level-headed, even if he's not the best battler.

citrus | pincurchin, f, she/her | mysterious. quiet. oddly powerful. very chill, good listener. offers her teammates insanely good advice. why is this spiky blob so wise? who knows.

bex | cramorant, f, she/her | unlike most cramorant, who rarely have a thought in their heads, bex is ridiculously intelligent. like. scarily intelligent. this bird can do calculus. she's a little bit stuck up, which is funny, and sometimes her teammates (just whistle. who is jealous) find her to be annoying. but she is also patient and good at explaining things. she and severn like to come up with battling strategies together

teacup | snorlax, m, he/him | sleeby.... very reliable and gentle. likes to tuck his teammates in at night, hop included. makes sure they all rest well.

lingcod | corviknight, m, he/him | yes, named after the fish. this is the mon hop has had the most trouble with. lingcod was a rescue from a trainer who sucked BAD. lingcod was raised with a need to be unnecessarily aggressive, and to be strong above all else. he lashes out a lot at first, and is generally disliked by a lot of the team. he doesnt trust any of them, but hop slowly earns his trust by simply not giving up on him. eventually, lingcod learns to relax and settles in with the team. he likes teacup the best. they're snoozing buddies. hes still anxious and bitey, and doesnt like new people, but he's slowly doing a lot better, bit by bit :)

tldr i love u malik brothers ;w;

[xuanhttps]

WAIT U WRITE CHAR X CHAR FOR PJSK IF ITS OK PRETTY PLEWSE TSUKASA NENE GAMING DATE 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

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— https.note ;; I LOVE NENEKASA SMMM THEYRE MY EVERYTHINGS also sorry this is kinda short i wrote this at 5am

— https.warning ;; none! just fluffy couplecstuff. also this isnt proofread i never proofread stuff im not a NERD! /lh

sounds of buttons being mashed at aggressively accompanied by shooting was a common occurrence in nene kusanagi's room, everyone knew that. some could even call it an addiction, which wouldnt be too far off. yet, what wasn't a common occurrence.. was multiplayer.

"w--wah! dear co-star, it killed me!" the blonde shouted out, dropping his controller onto the carpet as he pointed at the screen in an over exaggerated manner. "..tsukasa, you just need to press respawn. we're playing minecraft." nene pointed out, sounding unamused. although she wished to be more expressive, she just.. couldnt.

it was no matter though. the contrasting duo found themselves drifting away. even if it sounds silly, the clicking sounds on their controllers were.. oddly calming. nene's head leaned onto tsukasa's shoulder, yet, she wasnt actually sleepy atall.

" . . hey, 'kasa?" nene mumbled, looking up to the future star next to her. "yes, my co star?"

. .

a pause of silence. almost deafening.

" . . lets do this more often." she smiled, feeling tsukasa's arm around her shoulder. it was far from calm, yet, that was just part of the charm.

— hcs !!

︎︎♡ ,, nene and tsukasa often have gaming dates because nene doesnt have the social battery for big events n whatnot

︎︎♡ ,, that being said, whenever they do go out somewhere crowded like a festival, tsukasa refuses to leave nene's side even for a second. he brings along a backpack full of anything that can help out when nene's overwhelmed. headphones, squishy keychains, her favourite snacks, etc.. whatever works.

︎︎♡ ,, they r so majestic showstopping woman x some guy coded

︎︎♡ ,, nene acts uninterested in alot of tsukasa's show stuff in public. but, whenever theyre alone nene likes having him acting while she plays shooting games. something about his presence just.. helps.

︎︎♡ ,, theyre t4t i dont make the rules (i love trans hcs so much idc idc idc i love hearing headcanons u guys can tell me ur hcs and i will eat it UP!!!)

hi, anon n readers!! so sorry this kinda sucked <\3 i couldnt make it longer since school keeps pulling on mg right testicle but i promise ill write more along tje way ❤️❤️❤️❤️ also sorry if my portrayal of tsukasa is kinda off, im not good with his char atm since i dont normallt write chars lke him, but im working on it 🙏

[astarionass]

ive been meaning to talk about my warden, iveani ashavise mahariel.

my darling, my love, the light of my life, the start of my love for the da universe. specifically, i wanna talk about how her fight with the archdemon went down. lots of canon divergence and bending canon under the cut!

so, as far as the actual game dynamic went? my game glitched. Hard. it freaked out and cut all three of my party members from me so i had to fight the archdemon alone, and it became my canon because i was not throwing away my two and a half grueling hours fighting that stupid dragon for nothing. alistair did the ritual with morrigan, so iveani got to live. its fine. its all FINE (narrator voice: it was not, in fact, fine!)

..

now, for how it actually happened? iveani is 27 when the dragon fight happens. she’s engaged to zevran, she thinks she has a good ass life ahead of her, the old god baby ritual is done well in advance of the final fight, but alistair and morrigan both accidentally forgot to inform iveani that it was done and successful. iveani doesnt know, right?

her and alistair had a huge fight about it. iveani reasoned that if no one had to die and everyone got to live and go home happy and alistair didnt even have to interact with the kid what was the fucking harm right? (iveani absolutely feels guilty after the fight, but at the time she was more concerned about making sure everyone got to go home). but because tensions were high, no one was communicating with each other

a few days before the final fight, iveani was sitting watch one night, near delirious from insane amounts of stress and lack of sleep, watching the camp. it was a rare moment where everyone else was finally sleeping peacefully for once, and she heard it.

the calling.

she panicked, silently of course, because surely she was not about to die right before she had a chance to live. right? she had at least 30 years, theres a lot you can do in 30 years! she wants to marry zevran! she was set to be bonded to tamlen, and that turned out horribly, and now shes gunna be taken from zevran too?

she kinda turned it over in her head for a few hours deciding what to do with this information. she eventually decided, you know what? fuck it. if im going down im going down swinging. she gathered up her gear, and left camp. she left her dog to watch over her companions, left no note, and bailed. she was letting the calling lead her to where she needed it to, and decided that alistair would likely be not far behind her and he was more likely to explain what was going on. she left no note, no explanation, she gazed one last time at zevrans peaceful face as he slept, mentally said her apologies, and walked into the night expecting to be dead in a few days time.

she could not of been more wrong.

see, iveani was not actually experiencing the calling. her extreme levels of stress and sleep deprivation paired with the trauma she’s suffered as the leader of this whole shebang manifested as hallucinations. as a sufferer of ptsd induced hallucinations, it sucks! iveani is not thinking clearly though, how can she? she thinks she’s dying.

eventually, as luck would have it, her instincts lead her to the archdemon’s lair. at this point, the final battle area of the game is being absolutely swarmed with darkspawn. whatever amount there is in the game, double that. its bad. its nasty. everyone is fighting to stay alive, and theyre all swarmed so no one has time to go look for iveani. they just have to hope and pray she’s okay and isn’t dead somewhere

(shes going to wish she was dead by the end of this)

iveani spends several grueling hours whittling down that archdemon. just herself, her blades, some poisons, and pure adrenaline fueled savagery. as soon as she strikes the final blow, she expects to feel the sensation of death wash over her. it doesnt

(meanwhile, darkspawn start breaking off at the battle site, and it clicks to everyone there that the archdemon has to be dead, and somehow, miraculously, somewhere iveani is alive. that reinvigorated the team and they all doubled down on clearing out darkspawn as fast as they could so zevran could start to go searching for her)

iveani is kinda flabbergasted. she’s made her peace with death, and shes still here? in her delirium, she briefly makes the connection that alistair and morrigan mustve completed the ritual. thats the only explanation she has.

she sits in shock for several more hours after the fact. she doesnt know how long she’s been down here (days). shes confused, tired, and exhausted. she passes out, severely injured, and eventually wakes up an unknown amount of time later to make her way home

halfway through the deep roads on her journey back to the surface, she encounters her party. zevran is at the lead, manic with stress and pure desire to just find her (alive, he tells himself, potentially foolishly), and he has alistair, morrigan, wynne, and leliana with him. alistair, to leas the way, and morrigan and leliana and theyre her best friends, and wynne because no one knows what state she’ll be in when they find her and having a healer readily available is the best bet. iveani thinks she’s hallucinating again, until the full weight of zevran slams into her as he’s babbling near incoherent in antivan as hes constricting her to his chest. hes elated, iveani is confused, and the other four are staring horrified at the state of her

she looks like shes been chewed up and spat out and then stomped on. she looks awful. alistair has to pry zevran off of iveani so wynne can tend to her. the minute wynne starts doing her thing, iveani collapses unconscious. zevran freaks, wynne assures him that honestly its best if iveani is asleep for this. zevran stubbornly carries iveani back to the surface even though alistair has more of the bulk suited for this. its slow going because of this

iveani sleeps for several days, monitored by wynne and morrigan both, and its during this time that they all learn iveani is pregnant. is her pregnancy surviving any of that viable? no! absolutely not! but this is my story and plot armor and all that. that baby eventually grows up to become gilraen, who is rook, leader of the veilguard.

when iveani does come to, its to zevran tenderly rewrapping one of the more severe wounds, and he rips into iveani for what she did, but hes blubbering the whole time and switching back and forth between trade and antivan so iveani is confused (and making a mental note to learn antivan)

iveani is then given the rundown of her injuries, healing process, update on battle and loss count, etc, and then is dropped the bomb that she is pregnant. iveani is horrified. she would not of been as stupidly risky as she was if she had known (or so she likes to think).

iveani is tired. shes beaten and battered down mentally, and couldnt believe she was fighting a war for shemlen that she didnt have a choice in fighting, let alone LEADING. with leliana’s help, she’s able to go incognito. to the public, its made aware that the hero of fereldan died in a freak accident, and zevran also goes dark after his talon murdering spree in awakenings. both of them settle down in orlais (which goes over Real well during the ventori take over of wardens in orlais)

iveani gets to live happily with her family, but history will remember the hero of fereldan as being a dead elf. she prefers it this way

and thats the story of how one dalish elf singlehandedly ended the fifth blight. history books will never get the story right, but shes okay with that. she gets to be a normal person in thedas again, what the shemlen paint her as is now none of her concern

[pebbles-scatter]

my human perry stuff ig

-aboriginal australian. specifically wiradjuri.

-starting off w how he's connected to the flynn-fletchers: he is ferb's bio mom's lil brother.

- cover story is...whatever is plot convenient. but im fond of insurance agent bc of doof 101

-half white australian ig but he has little contact w that side of his family bc his mom cut contact before he was born. (they SUCK!!!)

-orphan. parents died when perry was 3 in a car crash & was found w a family of platypuses by his sister

-34 (born in 1973 bc the show takes place in the summer of 07 to me)

-trans man (realized he was trans when he was 11-13) (just like me fr)

-5'4

-yes that means his chosen name is bartholomew (perry for short.) lets all laugh at him!!!!

-gay ace.

-autistic. obviously. ptsd too.

- pcos

-selectively mute. nearly completely mute but does speak very veryyy occasionally.

-sign languages he knows: auslan, bsl, asl

-languages he knows: english, spanish, german (specifically a bit of drusselsteinian), some arabic, some mandarin, a tiny bit of yiddish from being around the garcia-shapiros lol

- his physique is akin to a gymnast/pole vaulter. hes strong but too much muscle can impact flexibility. which, as a secret agent, he kinda needs.

-classic lit NERD!!!!!!!!

ok now time for his backstory:

-perrys sister is 11 years older than him and died soon after ferb was born (who i will call E bc i can't come up w a name for her and mammalofaction's human perry au did smth to my brain)

-her death is mystery...to me. i have no idea how she died.

-they enter an OWCA orphanage nd they (well...just E at first. bc perrys a toddler lol) rly show promise. shes officially scouted when shes 15. (perry is scouted when hes 10)

-(dont. ask abt the remaining family lets just say theyre too far away or broke to take in kids. its a plot device)

-owca not a fun place to grow up. really rough in general esp once youve been scouted to work as an agent. does not help that there are adults there that enjoy the power they wield.

-when E is 18 she enters uni. owca helps her out. when shes 19 shes sent to the owca's uk division. does law foundation then gets a law degree.

-when shes 25 shes finally able to get guardianship of perry.

-perry. really struggles here. hes traumatized by his time alone in owca. he was already selectively mute but yeah being traumatized doesnt Help. at this point he's still in owca schooling just now allowed to live w E bc she's an agent & hes skipping classes flunking etc. it takes a while for him to rly put effort back into living.

-on a more positive note perry wasnt completely alone in australian owca. he was friends w future agent kangaroo. he had a brief crush on him around the time perry realizes he's trans so theres a real (do i want to be him or do i want him)

-her & lawrence begin dating when shes 28 and they marry when shes 32. theyd been friends since she was 24 tho

-they have ferb 3 years later. she dies soon after.

-perry moves in lawrence and helps take care of ferb. lawrence somehow someway makes his way to america meets linda falls in love etc. i think perry & ferb go back in forth btwn the us & the uk.

-eventually obv lawrence & linda move in & marry. perry stays in the uk.

-he gets relocated to the us at some point & law+lin are like hey you should stay with us.

-in 2001 before 9/11 (this is for me ok let me get a few jokes in im aware they only had him for 5 yrs but he is 6 as a platypus) perry moves to the us. lives by himself in america for a year before moving in w the flynn-fletchers. (ferb obv knows perry but so do phin & candace. just to a lesser extent.)

-beyond that is very flexible. perry cld have only known doof since the beginning of the summer or since the moment he arrived in america. doesnt rly matter lol but if i did have to give a time id say theyd been nemeses for 3 years.

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idk how to describe this post, but just describing characters psyche lol

darry,dally, and tim- they have little to no genuine support system and have to harbor everything they go through pretty much alone and bottle shit up cause growing up quickly sucks

tim- his parents werent rlly parents, so he had to emotionally mature fast and understand what they did wrong in life and in having kids so that he could better take care of angela and curly, he learns quickly that looking out for ur own blood can save ur skin more than yknow it, his parents arent around rlly anymore and he doesnt exactly know where they run off to even if they come back home for a few days but he knows theyll never learn that

angela- she canonically had a break down about her life being actual dogshit and bryon says that in the morning she’ll go back to her own stone cold strong self cause thats just the way she is, that's just the way she's learned to go through life

literally every singular one of the characters LMAOOO- its self explanatory HOWEVER i will highlight darry here

curly- faces a shit ton of oppression (even if u dont agree w him being queer hes still black to me but if u dont see him as black hes still a poc and a greaser) so hes just learned to do whatever he wants bc no matter what he does hes always gonna b judged so y not live life to the fullest and in a way that makes him happy, he’ll still be shunned, but at least he’ll be happy

tim- i cant properly find the words to explain it, but someone needs to check up on this nigga fr, a good portion of the neighborhood is religious, especially the older ppl yet they always judge him for one thing and another, nobody is rlly genuinely hoping (or in this case praying) he gets better

curly- shameless reminder that i ship purly, so I thought about curly saying this to pony for a sec cause i think cures that type guy to just explore the world any way he wants and he'll do anything to get someone to join him in on it

this is also for very obvious reason two bit, soda and if u squint, steve

darry- he cares for pony sm it comes off to pony that he doesnt care at all, pony needs his space to breathe and darry doesnt wanna let em go

the shepards but most particularly angela- for some reason she held her parents in a high light cause unlike some kids in the neighborhood they had them both, curly and tim knew this wasn't rlly the case very quickly and as angela grew up, bit by bit she knew what they meant and would lay or even cry in bed over it

TAKE AWAY THAT THESE R COUSINS PLS ONLY PAY ATTENTION TO THE WORDS THATS WHAT IM TRYNNA HIGHLIGHT HERE IM BEGGING U

purly- either way u chose who's who the other has always felt like they weighted other ppl down (for ponys case) or like theyre just to far gone to be helped (for curlys case), they still love each others company because they see the other as being worth it/deserving of it

however if u dont ship purly or can't get over em being cousins this is literally darry and pony or johnny and pony for like the same exact reason