#stream 138 btw

[meneatyoghurt]

Luke: Luke and Sam start a scene and whenever Tom feels like it, when he feels the urge, he freezes it and he goes "well, right, that was wrong, what needed to happen there was..." and he puts us on the right path to where the scene should be going.

Sam: Oh, it's the game of 'being friends with Tom'!

[yourgamemasterthewhiterabbit]

My entire job is to fucking sit or lay here until my joints heal...

Do you know how fucking boring and frustrating that is after nearly 6 months straight of "My only job is to sit here and heal"...

6 months

half a fucking year

I got some time off to do grocery month, wherein my only jobs were to do fall groceries and conserve energy in between.

*screeeeeeeech*

I used to heal a broker bone in 3 days, what the fuck??? why?

why

why is THIS

And my mic is broken and I don't want to restart raft -the right way- again without streaming it, but creative mode/god mode has gotten boring, my processor does NOT like what I have done with the base building mechanic in sons of the forest, and I cannot find another potentially cozy game where I actually like the building options/mechanics...

I just want to build and gather resources in a 3d environment I actually like, in a way I actually like, with graphics I actually like. I want it to be puzzle exploration and not horror, preferably. Imagine zero dawn or totk but being able to build permanent structures and buildings like raft or sons of the forest. Peaceful mode preferably. I want the build mechanic to have some serious freedom and the graphics to be in line with these games too, not some 2d cartoonish stuff, I want my brain tricked into seeing it as a real space. I want to be able to build pretty much infinitely without it crashing the system it's on. If it could be Myst universe, with no combat, that would be preferable.

I hear you can get minecraft on switch... But I can't stream that either. Not fond of the block aesthetic. Love bee though.

Do you know how hard it is to sit here and not get up and start cleaning?

And at the same time how exhausting it looks to do things like get up to make food, because I have been in pain for 6 months solid? Like using your joints feels like tearing them apart kind of pain? Like every time you move you are making it worse kind of pain?

You would not think BOREDOM would be the worst part of that... and yet here we the fuck are.

The losing all that water weight tapped out within 24h, btw, but my body did un-swell.

The next most disruptive thing to healing became that standing or sitting under my own weight of an entire 138 pounds became so stressful on my knee joints that they were getting progressively worse by the hour...

Turns out if I stand to pee it cuts my body's inflammation response in half, because I'm not re-tearing my knee joints apart -twice- every hour.

Not having any advil has become what taking advil got me to just a day or so ago.

I can almost fully close my right hand and I was able to open the pull top on a thing of cat food today instead of stabbing it open.

Next Ig I start focusing on eating more protein and especially gelatin so my joints can heal, but cooking is a fucking chore.

I have the emotional energy of someone who's been tortured for 6 months and recently almost died, so, there's that.

This makes me wish I was someone who could safely order food to be brought to my door and consumed.

TV is so boring. There's no one I want to read fic about who I will also like the fic about.

This is one of those times when like, a partner, I am sure would fucking help. Someone to talk to, someone I could trust to cook.

I'd joke about being willing to do assassinations of specific people for the price of a back massage, but you can't do that in this political climate...

Like what the fuck do I even cook for myself now? I have been making so many careful decisions about that so many times a day for half a fucking year. And then having to eat only the most logical conclusion like my life depended on it.

Next time I know better. Next time when I start drinking 3 litres of green tea every day to fix something like this they will have salt and I will take loratadine and advil up front before the problem gets bad enough that I am too worried about my kidney function, because you can bet to all hell at least half the problem is autoimmune and swelling.

All I crave is cheese, but I cannot sit here and eat 10 bricks of cheese.

Also it's a new year IG. I'll do holiday cooking when I can lift heavy objects again.

I'm thinking I might try to order eggs online if they credit card company can fix me getting ripped off for 500$...

[drosera-sundews]

Tagged

by @thesilentpotato who is awesome and also has the cutest username like seriously ^^ 

Rules: Answer the questions, and tag 20 blogs. I’m not doing that many bc screw the rules.

Nicknames: Sundews, Sunny, Sunsun, Drosera and Dro-bro ((on occasion, only by @ikebosev)(yer tagged btw Ike))  

Star sign: Scorpio

Height: Medium 

Time right now: 10:50

Last thing you googled: ‘passwall spell d&d 3.5′ and  ‘wallpass spell d&d 3.5′

Fave music artist: My little sister ^^ 

Song stuck in my head: lite og stort, (thanks @worldofprocrastination (you’re also tagged)) 

Last movie I watched: The lego movie. It was glorious. 

Last tv show I watched: Steven Universe

What I’m wearing right now: pyjamas, a bathrobe and an unfinished cape

When I created this blog: idk when deviantart died I guess?

The kind of stuff I post: Memes, science, scince, art, more art, SO MUCH ART

Why did I choose my url: When I was like, seven, and my parents had me and my sister make fake email adresses that didn’t contain our real names so we could sign up for all those digital pet sites. I was originally called Drosera Zonnedauw (zonnedauw is Dutch for Sundews) 

Gender: Chaotic Good 

Hogwarts House: Ravenpuff

Pokémon team: INSTINCT FOREVER AND ALWAYS 

Favorite color: Green, yellow and dark red 

Average hours of sleep: a solid seven :) 

Lucky number: 138 don’t ask why. Oh and 11 

Favorite characters: ...blep

Dream job: Minor deity of creation. Preferably part-time. 

Number of blankets I sleep with: 1 or 2 

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