#storyofarni

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They are my two chicks. These was taken before we walked through the gate of the stadium and some selfies of us waiting the stars. Our stars to come up to the stage. The girl in black was Mia, the girl with sweater was Nadya or Lia and the girl who always in the middle with overall is me:) Ps. This was one of the best nights of my life.

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Well, having long legs and being tall and skiny is sexy indeed but being short and lil fat is cute. Noone notice that Im already over 20. Shorter is making you look younger. Proud to be short girl

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That concert crazy me!

Well, short-long story. I am a huge and mega fan of one direction but actually I fond of Harry the most. The curly, green eyed member. I’ve been the fan from a long ago. I had been their concert once, when they came to did some tour on my country. I was crazy as hell and excited for that. That time, I was a freshman year of college and it was hell, sleepless and tiring period especially when you join in medical department. No time to play, going around even in a weekend sometimes you have lectures and have to do some shits. So it challenged me to go to that concert. I didnt know my schedule when the concert held. But I bought the tickets anyway. I got the vip tickets well I bought it from my own money. No, I didnt work or earn money I mean I dont have time to do that. That money was from scholarships I got. I spent the whole money for the concert without even thinking. I was so glad I didnt spent the money yet cause before I knew that One Direction would held a concert, I was planning to buy some woman things to spend that money.

My senior high school friend who also adore One Direction, asked me to go to the concert together. I agreed of course cause the concert didnt held on my city its miles away from the city I lived but still It didnt down me at all.

So I gave it all to my friend. Nadya–well but I call her Lia. She bought the tickets, I just needed to transferred the money to her. And yup. We got the freaking tickets. Yeay!

Days after days went. And it was a couple days from the day of the concert. And guess what, a day before the concert I was going to have a test. Practice test. Shit man. I was crazy I even wanted to cry but I decided to stay cool. The test’s day began, I finished the test and felt good cause the test went well. It was over around four or five in the evening and guess what again? my plane fly at six and I hadn’t even packed my things. I just had one shirt in my mind, the shirt that written “Harry Styles’s wife” that I was going to wear for the concert.

After doing the test, my lecturer suprised me by saying she wanted to say something so we have to wait her. And the clock was never stop and it taunt me in every seconds it ticked. My friend, Lia had been calling me all the time and all I could do was just make her calm her tits.

My lecturer was so long and I just couldn’t stand it. So I decided to just go and didnt mind it. I was just guessing that she wont even checked the list of attendance. I drove the car so fast to my home and pick my things. It felt so relived when I arrived at home and find my mom help me to packed my things.

My dad drove me to the airport and when I was on my way, my classmate called me. I pick the call and she sounded like she was wispering. My heart beaten so fast when she said that the lecturer was calling us one by one and check the list of attendance. I was freak out cause I didnt want my lecturer missunderstood and think that I dont attend the test. But what can I do. I was on my way to airport and my plane was flying in half hour.

When I arrived at airport I was acting crazy and run to my senior high school friend. My mom and hers doing the mom’s thing. Kissing cheeks, hugging in mother way and all.

We said good by to our mothers and passed the gates, my phone was ringing and I pick it up found massage from my classmate said that the lecturer had stopped calling the students name right before my names turn. Maybe two couple of name left until my name called but she decided to just stop and say that she believed all the students attended the class. And bye that, I thanked God. It was like God indeed had planned that I was allowed to go to the concert and meet my idola.

I and Lia, we both arrived around 8 night or 9 I’m not so sure, and we got picked by my other friend who also wanted to go to the concert. Her name was Mia. She lived in Bandung cause she studied there and what another lucky I got was Mia’s mom treated us by booked two rooms in a hotel near GBK (the place that held the concert) and not only rooms, she also sent someone to guide us around the city with car, so we didnt have to use public transportation and all, pluss I could save my money.

We checked in and going to the room directly. My friend Mia thought that Lia wanted to bring her friend so Mia booked two rooms but Lia’s friend cancelled and sold the ticket to stranger.

Three of us stayed in the same room cause Mia was scared to stay alone in the other room. And yes that one room was useless. At midnight we decided to order food, we chose Bonchon but ended up ordered KFC cause Bochon didnt pick the call, I assumed it was already close.

The delivered man was so long and we ended up sleeping until he arrived and I didnt realize the delivered man already standing in front of our room for maybe hours. I’m not sure how long. I took the money and handed it to him. Said sorry multiple times for making him wait for too long. We didnt forget to give more tips for the mistake we made.

We ended up ate the food maybe at 2 or 3 in the morning and go back to sleep with leftovers which I ate at 6 in the morning and went back to sleep again. I know you felt disgust but I dont care. I’m still alive any way.

We wake up at almost 10 in the morning and rushed to lobby to take our breakfast. Cause it was closed if it was up 10 morning.

After that, we decided to get ready. We went to change the voucher to the real ticket. When we arrived at ticket changer, we saw so much people I mean really much people who queued to change tickets like us. We were like going to die standing in a very long line, stress out until securty came and asked us to show our voucher. Lia took it from her bag and that security told us that vip gate wasnt where we stand. He took Lia to the other gates and went through and disappeared. I and Mia waited outside cause it wasnt allowed us to come, the three ticket was named by Lia and her guess so she had to take it by her self.

I took a seat with Mia and not to long after sitting, Lia came from that gates with big smile and tickets along with the handband in her hand. Gosh! I couldn’t believe I was on my way to see my Idola. The Idola that I only see through the glass of television, laptop or phone. And in some hours later, I was going to meet him and inhale the same air with them.

Dont tell me that Im so naiff or Lame cause I’m not. You dont know how it feels when you finally got to meet the people who gave you so much changed. In a better way. I mean, without fangirling 1D I would probably doesnt speak or write english things like now, like this, or I couldn’t knew or have friends abroad or anything else. This fangirling made me alive. So just shut the hell up and dont judge me.

The concert would be held on 7 evening and it was like 12 afternoon when we had done change the voucher into real freaking tickets. So we decided to go to mall cause Mia need to buy some clothes. We arrived to the Mall, I foget what Mall and going to Zara. Mia and Nadya bought shirt, well Mia bought bunch of clothes and a couple of pants and if I’m not mistaken she bought a couple of shoes too. In Zara I met some famous people who always showed in local tv. Such a Najwa, the owner of Mata Najwa show or some of Ftv actor, I was not sure who, cause I didnt pay attention to them. It was just Lia who said that.

After that, Mia still went through the shop find something else to buy. I didnt know what it is. So me and Lia decided to just go around the mall, we stopped to buy some ice cream and at CD shop. I bought two cd of one direction and some books of it while Lia was busy to take pictures from the architecture of the Mall and all. Yes, she is that girl who are great with pencil, pen and all, drawing and made house in a paper. Architecture people said.

After that we went back to hotel, we decided to have lunch, wanted to have delivery again but Lia againts it so we went to the restaurant near the hotel and had some yakiniku. After that we went back to the hotel and had some rest until we wake up in the evening maybe it seven and it was so late, so we prepared as fast as possible.

We ended up arrive at 8 night with clearer way to the gates. Cause people is already in the stadium. I know. We were late. It was sucks!

Then, we ran before that I bought some bandana with a light in it and some small posters. We went to the gates. I bought mineral waters which was so expensive but I didnt mind at all cause I was thirsty and It was impossible to go out for just a bottle of mineral water.

We went through the door the vip seat and saw tons of people. I didnt see any seat at all so we went out and take the other door. I saw the yellow area and already knew it was Vvip seat cause I saw some famous people there too, like actor and singers of my country. we got exactly three seat right besode the vvip area and it was so good for view. We got another lucky again.

Another of another lucky we got was the stars hadnt come out yet. The stage still play some song from 5Sos and play the commercials tour of 1D itself. We didnt late.

And time flies I grew crazy on my head. Shit. I cant stand my self I was so nervous, they always played us by act like the stars was going out but actually no. And it was getting crazier when we saw Niall run across and went back to the backstage. There was so much noise and loud that made me goosebumps. Until that time, that time i couldn’t forget until now. That time when I cried, shit dont judge me for being so exaggerated cause I did admit that I had this fascinated and butterflies feeling.

One direction came out, with the intro of Clouds. I was screaming like crazy until some bodyguards who suited like army looked at me like seriously girl?! But I didnt care at all.

I jumped and scream along the song and all very time Harry great in my way I scream again and said that, those greating were belong to me like he looked at me directly. I didnt even put single care when some girls gave disgusted look. I just enjoyed the show.

All I did was cry and scream along to the song and thats all, I didint even care to record cause I was just to happy and need to enjoy the music and show. Lia was screaming like me, but she scream for Liam and I scream for Harry. Then Mia was so crazy with Zayn but yes, Zayn didnt come up to the show. But still she loves 1D maybe Niall, I think.

We sang along didnt mind our bag which were in the seat, possibly could be stolen anytime but I didnt care. All my focus went on the staege, I couldnt even wanted to blink. Gosh! That was so amazing, I could feel my heart beating so hard right now writing this thing.

After that, I couldn’t tell you the details of the concert cause it will need the whole day to write it. All you have to know is directioner are crazy, I never stop to get goosebumps cause the crowd never stop to sing along the star on the stage. Even Liam and Niall admitted our noises was so loud than other. Aside from that, all I could feel was joy, happiness, exited, crazy, amazed and some kind of that been mixed make my body turn, my eyes burned from crying. Happy crying.

We went back at 12 night and directly to the airport cause my plane flight on 1.45. We arrived at maybe 1. I both with Lia said goodbye to Mia, shared hugs and kisses then left. We waited for 45 minutes. When I was waiting I was so tired from the jumping and screaming so I decided to lay down at the chair, didnt care about people looked like I was grazy girl who lay to the 3 seats.

I close my eyes but interupted by Lia who screamed like hell. I asked her why and she answered me by saying that Zayn left the group. Officially. I didnt believe her until she showed me the statement on official facebook of 1D it self. I was shocked cause I love Zayn. He’s good and had the highest note from all.

But yup. It didnt bother me that much cause all I loved was about Harry who is still in 1d until now.

We landed on my city right about 5.30 morning. I was rushed cause I had to go to school 7 cause there this assistant of lecturer who was scared and I just couldn’t be late. My father picked me and I couldn’t go because I didnt want to left Lia alone. Until her father come up so I went back home asked my dad to rush.

Arrived at home I run to my room and had a fastes bath of my life. Rush to the school. I was so glad I didnt late and some of my friend was late. They were shocked saw me sitting on my chair. I mean, last night was the best night I’ve ever spent and here I was going school and all.

Yes that was amazing. I know.

Oh yeah. Not forget another crazier that happened. Lia, my friend was having final test at the exact day of the concert. And no one expect what she did, that was.. she asked her friend to pretend to be her and doing her test.

Yah that was crazier than me. But she ended up passed the final test well.

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Well i got the tickets to finally see my sweet creature in singapore at november soon. Even tho I got in super back seat atleast I got the chance to see him again. And plus it super duper miles away from my place, dont forget to mention that Im going by my self. Like alone and a cross the country just to see him. You sud proud of your self Harry cause having fan such my self who loves you more than living life. Goddamnit Im just so nervous all the time imagine it

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Sounds of cutting nails

Well I was just about to sleep but my eyes wont shut. I couldn’t reach my REM phase of my sleep. So I played my phone, tweeting ramdom stuff about my complicated life. Then I heard sounds one by one. I decided to just ignore them but the more I ignore the louder the sound be. At the time, I was going to wash my face and stuff but that sound really scared me but also make me so curious at the same time. So I got off of my bed then open my door. It was dark. The light was off. I mean it was 11 at night. Every body had gone to sleep.

The sounds of cutting nails was getting clearer and closer. I turned my head to the source of the sound and I found a big curly hair with a huge body just stood in the corner of the room. I screamed, very loud scream and didnt realize I had waken people up. The light suddenly on, and the dark curly big shade was turning become my brother. He cursed at me like getting angry because my scream was just too loud.

My aunt and younger brother waken up and mad at me. Well, it aint my fault. It was him, my brother. I mean who the hell is cutting nails at 11 night in the dark–lights out at the corner of the room. They were lucky I didnt pass out that time or I could barely just throw something and hurt him. My brother should thank me for not being me in normal way. I usually hit or throw whatever the thing I could reached to whoever make me startled.

Yeah the was fuck up.

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Im a kind of girl who loves taking selfies but decide to never post it. Well, that rule is my main thing but that doesnt apply in this web. I mean, who am I going to be ashamed to? No one here. I dont even have follower so I cud post whatever the hell I wanted to post. And in this look, I adore my hair so much. Maybe by this web my kids or grandkids wud know that their mom or their nan is a not that bad.

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What i hate the most about coffee is it makes me so damn tachycardi but I really need the side effect of it. I need to be woken up all night to refill my mind for this friday war. This test really kill me inside cz i haven't known much

Sad Arni

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Right now im at the toilet, sitting and trying to focus to make my defecation process easier so I couldn't hold any of weightness anymore. Idk whats the point in this paragraph but i just wanted to share to the world. To mark that today Im just happy with no reason at all. Just it. Happiest girl alive with reasonless. I know there will never ever any of human being would read this shit--so I make it uncensored as possible. And in this time, in this sentence Im typing while my poop is processing out of my ass. Gosh it so satisfying!

Me while pooping 💩

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Everyone wants to help us. See? Its not that hard. Everything have a way out. My pray had been answered. I know sooner it would and by hours. It did. Duta etik they say? Why not😏 Allah with me. Bismillah

Happy me from last night

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Today i got detention from lecturer. The detention is social detention. I and my friend been asked to socialite about etics and attitude because I realised I do been unpolite to the lecturer. First, I got mad for the detention that had been given. I mean everyone did a mistake but the detention is not that difficult to do. Its far from my detention. Do the detention until the semester is over is just too much. Then I sud socialite in front of every one. It just cudnt accptable! But then it realised me that this is just a begining of successful. I always believe in Allah that Allah never give me this for bad. I believe there will be any good in it. Big good. I knew it. Because until now, I never regretted anything because yes, it always happen. There was always any good in something. The worse it come, the bigger goodness it follows.

My heart reminded from my dad.

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At Bpjs doing some document for health credit. Yes its still my birthday but im not bothered to doing this thing in this day. Well im just hoing when I checked medical up my whole body is physiology, there will not or there will never pathology found on my body. After this Im gonna do usg rigth on my axial and mammae. Allah in me

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00:05 November 10th, 2016. Today is 5 minutes already Im getting old. I couldn’t imagine my life would be in this position. Yes I’m happy girl alive, even with my deadline with drawing some mosquitoes and all I’d still be thank to everything that happened in my life. Thank God for every parculars thing that come to my life. Even if the disappointment, sadness or even happiness, I never regret anything cause I know U have a plan behind everything and it always for good. I believe in Your way there will always some goods. Aamiin. Allahuakbar:)

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Such a touching massage, not giving hate but this tells the world that Muslim isn't like people always assumed. Muslim is far from hating, but close from forgiveness

Rekans alumni Al Ma'arij Balikpapan mungkin masih ingat dengan Ustadz Agus Khoirul Huda ..... "Ucapan Terimakasih Dari Seorang USTADZ Untuk Pak AHOK" Kepada ; YTH Bapak Ahok Di-Tempat Salam Kedamaian Teruntuk mereka yang mengikuti petunjuk Allah Bpk Ahok, mungkin akhir akhir ini anda merasa tertekan karena saudara saudara kami banyak melakukan demo dan tentunya membatasi ruang gerak anda sebagai calon gubernur, hingga anda seorang Gubernur harus naik angkot demi menyelamatkan diri dari kejaran masa, sejujurnya saya turut prihatin dan nggak tega, semoga anda diberikan kesabaran ... Di saat saudara kami banyak yang menyudutkan anda, saya mencoba untuk BERTERIMAKASIH pada anda, yaa setidaknya saya mencoba memandang dari sudut pandang yang berbeda.. Bpk Ahok, pertama-tama saya ingin mengucapkan Terimakasih sebesar besarnya ... 1. Karena anda sudah memotivasi umat Islam untuk mencintai kembali kitab suci mereka yang sudah lama mereka tinggalkan... alQuran alKarim Bahkan bukan hanya sekedar cinta, taukah anda mereka juga kini semangat mempelajari tafsirnya. Jujur, Akhir-akhir ini jamaah saya banyak yang meminta kajian tafsir kembali dihidupkan di pengajian mereka. Ini kereeen pak Ahok!, percayalah pada saya, saya berulang kali menyadarkan mereka akan pentingnya mempelajari tafsir al Quran, mereka tidak memperdulikannya, tapi anda .. hanya dengan menghina 1 ayat saja, membuat mereka kini penasaran tentang keindahan alquran dan tafsir-tafsirnya dan kembali mempelajarinya... 2. Bpk Ahok, Terimakasihku juga untuk anda... Karena anda sudah mengajarkan arti TOLERANSI yang sesungguhnya, menyadarkan bahwa toleransi bukan maknanya membiarkan setiap orang untuk menghina agama orang lain dengan sesuka hatinya. Al quran kami mengajarkan kami untuk tidak menghina tuhan siapapun, kitab apapun, tapi tindakan anda membodohkan kitab kami, menyadarkan kami siapa sebenarnya yang tidak mengerti arti toleransi? Di Eropa berapa banyak demo anti Islam, tapi Demi Allah sebenci apapun muslimin kepada anda, belum pernah terjadi demo anti Kristen atau Cina. Kaum Kristen dan Para Pendeta di Amerika pernah melakukan pembakaran alQuran, tapi kami tidak berniat sedikitpun untuk membakar Bible anda Di Prancis mereka mengkarikaturkan Nabi Muhammad dalam keadaan hina, di Indonesia kami belum pernah mengkarikaturkan Yesus terlebih menistakannya Bahkan di Negri ini, negri muslim terbesar di dunia, anda bisa menghina kitab kami sebagai alat pembohongan, tapi sampai saat ini belum ada ulama yang berkata "bapak ibu mungkin ada yang bilang Yesus anak tuhan, itu terserah bapak ibu, tapi jangan mau dibohongin pakai Bible atau macam-macam itu" Ilmu terbesar yang anda berikan, anda menyadarkan kami sebenarnya yang RASIS itu siapa ya? 3. Bpk Ahok, Terimakasihku juga... Karena anda sudah menunjukkan kepada kami, mana muslim sejati dan muslim munafiq yang selama ini tidak terlalu jelas dibedakan. Sayangnya anda cuma menghina al Maidah ayat 51 saja. Sebenarnya kalau anda sedikit saja melanjutkan ayatnya, anda akan menemukan di ayat 52 Allah berfirman "Maka kalian akan melihat orang-orang yang ada penyakit dalam hatinya (orang-orang munafik) bersegera mendekati mereka (Yahudi dan Nasrani) seraya berkata, "Kami takut akan mendapat bencana, " Mudah-mudahan Allah akan mendatangkan kemenangan (kepada Rasul-Nya), atau sesuatu keputusan dari sisi-Nya. Maka karena itu mereka menjadi menyesal terhadap apa yang mereka rahasiakan dalam diri mereka" Jadi esensi ayat 51 itu ada di ayat yang ke 52, akan munculnya orang-orang mengaku muslim, tapi lebih mencintai anda dari pada alQurannya sendiri hanya karena mengharapkan jabatan dari anda. Ada kyai tega-teganya menafsirkan hadis "unsur akhooka" (tolonglah saudaramu) dengan memplintir tolonglah akhook. Entah apa yang ia pikirkan? Tapi bagi saya untuk seorang kyai dg titel Doktor, sungguh itu lelucon yang nggak lucu, maafkan saya jika rasa humornya tidak terlalu bagus Ada tokoh ormas Islam, yang matanya yang melotot, menunjuk-nunjuk ulama yang jauh lebih tua darinya tanpak akhlak dengan menyampaikan argumentasi-argumentasi lemah yang bahkan tidak perlu sekaliber mbah dan kyai MUI, sayapun yang bodoh siap menjawabnya dg mudah. Ada Partai yang mengaku berbasis wong cilik, tuntutan dari DPD membawa aspirasi rakyatnya untuk tidak mendukung anda, tapi oleh ketumnya tidak dihiraukan, hanya karena survei anda melonjak di atas 80% saat itu, mereka mungkin tidak menyangka sekarang anda akan terjun ke angka 30% dan bisa jadi akan terus turun dengan adanya kasus ini. Ayat al Maidah 52 ini membuat saya bergetar, seakan ayat tersebut menggambarkan realita anda. Ayat ini telah turun 14 abad yang lalu pak Ahok... 4. Bpk Ahok, Terimakasihku juga... Karena anda telah menjadi inspirasi persatuan ummat Islam yang fantastis. Kalau boleh sedikit curhat, saya berdakwah belasan tahun, mendambakan orang NU & Muhammadiah bisa akur, sungguh bukanlah hal yang mudah pak, tapi mata saya berkaca-kaca ketika saya menyaksikan mereka bersatu dalam satu pertemuan demo yang begitu besar yang tentunya itu terjadi karena ulah kreatif anda. Ini mengagumkan pak Ahok.. Ketika melihat FPI yang pro maulid bersatu dengan Muhammadiah yang tidak maulid bergandeng tangan Ketika melihat HTI yang nggak pernah akur dengan IM (Baca ; PKS) dalam konteks perpolitikan bisa bersatu saling membahu Ketika meliat salah satu ormas besar melarang pengikutnya ikut demo, tapi instruksi itu dianggap angin lalu, mereka tetap mengibarkan bendera. WOW ini panggilan Tuhan, tidak ada yang menggerakkan, membiayai, dan memerintahkan mereka. Sahabat jamaah tabligh, Hidayatullah, MUI, GMJ, Ust Arifin Ilham, Ust Bahtiyar Nasir, Pak Amin Rais bahkan AA Giem yang santun turut bangkit bersatu padu. Inilah persatuan yang saya impikan sejak saya kecil, persatuan yang pernah terjadi di perang Badar kini terjadi kedua kalinya, di Negri NKRI tercinta Allahuakbarrr, sekali lagi terimakasih pak Ahok.. DAN Akhirnya saya menyadari, di balik bencinya anda dengan ISLAM banyak hikmah yang anda berikan. Sebagai balas budi atas kebaikan anda, saya AGUS KHOIRUL HUDA mendoakan anda dengan hati yang tulus, mudah-mudah Allah SEGERA memberi anda HIDAYAH untuk memeluk Islam sebagai agama anda. Saya yakin di dalam hati anda ada titik hikmah yang akan membawa anda masuk ke dalam hidayah Allah. Banyak orang berkata itu nggak mungkin, anda keras tempramental kepala batu, tapi sadarkah anda seorang Umar bin khottob memiliki sifat tempramental yang jauh lebih besar dari anda. tapi Allah pemilik hati, yang bisa merubah hati, Saya Agus Khoirul Huda, siap terbang ke Jakarta (GRATIS) Untuk berdiskusi tentang kebenaran hidayah Allah, semoga Allah memberi hidayah pada anda, saya menunggu anda di pintu hidayah, dan saya yakin anda akan menjadi UMAR yang dinantikan Islamnya oleh Rasulullah Balikpapan, 3 November 2016 Agus Khoirul Huda, Lc (Alumni al Ahgaff - Yaman) Pengasuh SQ KALTIM FB ; Agus Khoirul Huda Instagram ; Aguskhoirulhuda1 NB ; buat temen2 yang setuju dengan surat ini Silahkan di Like&Share sebanyak-banyaknya, hingga sampai ke FB pak AHOK. Share anda adalah pahala di mata Allah, semoga yang nge-share dibahagiakan dunia akhiratnya. Please Coment ; AAMIIN

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Well in my country, there was a big problem. Its about the government. Ahok, who is candidate of "gubernur" in Jakarta had been racist by saying bad thing about Islam. I know, Muslim maybe got so many hate from Internasional. And i didnt give a shit about it. I still want to hold it and label my self with muslim. I'm not embarrassed at all. The thing is I really hate people with racism, even if it doesnt talk about my religion. I still dont like it, even hate it. And this problem popped and Ahok badmouthing about my Holy Al-Qur'an, I become more sensitive, I was so angry but no, I'm not doing the hate, Im not giving hate, I just dont want if my religion being mocked like that. It's like it kicks me billions times if someone does that. I love my religion and i believe Allah has the best plan for all of us, even for Ahok. Allah is full of forgiveness so that tough us to not being stupid and do the comback for that racist.

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I got a massage from my cousin who is closer with my dad, she said unpredictable things to me. It was one long paragrapgh but the point is she asked me to give more attention to my dad. My dad is getting sick (not a serious sick but a condition from aging) His body and energy not like how it used to be. She even mentioned about the worst feeling not having a dad cause her dad is already passed away. She told me to give all the best i could give for to my dad because I still have dad. She told me to didnt follow her step and regretted all the things that she did to her father. Regretting for not have as much as a good memory. Regretting for not make her dad smile as many as possible. She send me that massage two days ago but I haven’t read it until now. I thought it was just a rare massage about some shit say that she missed me and all. I was shocked. I’m at class right now and I’m crying over that massage. I couldn’t tell by word how my dad had the biggest effect to my life. How he did everything he event couldnt do but had done because of me. He referred to get pain so could be happy or smile. I just dont know how to show him that I really love him and really wanted to make him happy.

Me

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My phone was ringing in the morning, I thought it was just an alarm to wake me up but no, it referred to his birthday. Yes, today is his birthday. I dont know whether to send him greeting or just watch him celebrate his day from here. I’m afraid if I send him simple greeting, there will be any problem from him or from my self. Problem like, I grew more feeling for him or bothering him who already with someone else. 🙇🏻‍♀️