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girlscience · 1 year ago

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making funny haha jokes to myself like "oh i'm doing so fine" *extreme side eye from the dishes in my sink*..... only to finally do my dishes tonight and discover all my tupperware have become their own microbiomes. fuck

#i am pretty sure i am riding that depression wave hard right now #i am just so stressed all the time #and i feel like i could fix some of that stress if i checked a few very specific things off my to do list #here's the thing tho. i am realizing i might need outside help to get those things done #and that is uncomfortable for two reasons #one being that means i will have to ask someone to help me do these things and be my external motivator #and put up with me being cranky the whole time because i will be deeply embarrassed about it and will end up taking it out on them #and then two being that. these things are for grad school. and if i can't even get the fucking applications done on my own #how the fuck do i think i'm going to be able to get through two years by myself??#also i am so sleepy and my sleep schedule has been fucked for like two weeks now and that's not helping #and i need to do things to my car and make several doctors appointments and work stuff and apartment stuff #and everything happening in the world and stuff happening with my friends and my family #and i just. how i am supposed to live with this much in my brain all the time #and i'm reading fanfic and comparing myself to the characters and coming up miserably short #and i hate the way i look all the time and i could do something intelligent like.#stop eating gummy worms and meat sticks for every meal and eat veggies and go to the gym and learn to love myself...#or i could decide my straight hair is the root of all my problems and get a perm #you know. like a normal person does #it's OK!! I'm Fine!!! aaaaaaaaaa

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