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this year was very long, and in a lot of ways very difficult, and even though i've made it a lot more difficult for myself in many ways by moving i'm actually feeling so, so much better mentally and emotionally it's like. deeply, deeply comforting and affirming. somehow.
#like looking at where i am and how things are going in much of my life i DO NOT KNOW WHY#i feel like i should be a mess#but i'm not. like.#things are still hard. there are still a lot of things i'm putting off because they make me kinda want to die#but!#i feel like i'm closer to being able to handle those things without imploding#still hate south dakota still very uncertain about the future#but i haven't like. had a breakdown since i moved#or yaknow only very mild situational things directly after?#and it's such a fucking relief#anyway i was considering going through art and putting together this year's compilation and have decided for my m#okay hands new tag i guess#ANYWAY#for my mental health and wellbeing i will not be doing that lmao#it was all baby mode anyway. guaranteed.#rambletag#that tag can come back i feel in a rambly place again
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Supernatural 12x19 Spark
Okay so I get what I call sparks from Episodes/movies/etc. This is an idea I got from The Future. Sparks have a lot of holes, they are mostly plot with a few scenes.
1. Cas and Kelly find a way to stay hidden and deliver the baby. Baby imprints and bonds with Cas. Cas is his Dad. Cas and Baby are somehow driven back in with Winchesters. baby has also grown at an accelerated rate, even though it hasn’t been that long the Baby is now a child.
Scene: Cas and Dean made eye contact and it felt like it did every other time. The sense of longing and wonder. Happy to see each other but heart broken they’d been apart for so long. Then there were the awkward feelings about how they parted.
“Well Holy Shit he lives!” Dean barked first. Cas glanced back at the convenience store he had just left and to the truck parked at the pump.
“I’m right here Cas, say something damnit!” Dean snapped and grabbed Cas’ coat.
“Dean, don’t-” Cas warned him.
“Daddy?” A small voice called from behind them.
“Let go of him!” The same voice demanded. Dean raised an eyebrow, leaned his head to the side to look around Cas, and saw a small dark haired boy.
“Is that-Is that the kid?” Dean asked. Cas looked back at the child and nodded.
“Yes,”
“It hasn’t even been a year Cas,” Dean said and let go of the angel.
“Not here, no, we’ve spent time in other places and he’s been growing at an accelerated rate,” Cas answered him.
“Other places?”
“Other worlds, dimensions were time passes differently, we came back...we came back because Josiah has seen things, predicted things,” Cas said.
“Josiah?” Dean asked.
“That is his name, when he was still in the womb he asked for an angelic name, I named every angel in heaven and that was the name Kelly picked before...she died,” Cas answered.
“Well, get in the car, you can explain all this to me at the bunker, we’ll get your truck later,” Dean growled and grabbed Cas’ arm. he turned the angel away from the pump but Josiah raised his hand to him. Dean stopped in his tracks when he couldn’t breathe. He felt like he was being choked. Cas looked at Dean when he stopped. He immediately looked to Josiah.
“Release him Josiah, he means no harm, he’s simply angry with me because he was worried about me, scared for me. Like I was when I lost you on that purple planet,” Cas knelt down to Josiahs level. Josiah looked at Castiel.
“Listen to his heart Josiah, what are his thoughts?” Cas told him. Josiah looked to Dean and his eyes began to glow yellow.
“His heart is hurt because you left, he’s angry now, but...still loves you...Is that forgiveness?” Josiah asked.
“It can be,” Cas said with a glance to Dean. Cas also noticed people were starting to stare and Dean was turning purple.
“Eyes, Josiah,” Cas whispered. Josiah immediately released Dean and Cas stood up. He held Dean as he gasped for air. Josiahs eyes glowed again and everyone around them paused. . Dean watched him him and burst into a fit of coughs. He choked and Cas held him steady.
“He full on Darth Vadered me!” Dean gasped.
“Yes, his powers grow every day,” Cas said and began to lead Dean towards the Impala.
“We can’t take that car, Daddy,” Josiah spoke. Cas and Dean stopped.
“Why the hell not? What is he doing?” Dean asked still struggling for air.
“He’s altering everyone's memories of this moment, They will believe you began to have a heart attack instead of-”
“Instead of Anakin using the force on me?” Dean asked. Cas gave him an apologetic look. Everyone suddenly went back to what they were doing and Josiah’s eyes returned normal.
“Baby is not safe, people are listening to you, eyes are tracking you. You have them in your bunker too,” josiah said.
“What?” Dean asked. Josiah ran over to the Impala and crawled underneath.
“What is he doing now!?” Dean asked and walked towards the car. Josiah came out from under the car with something in his hand. he handed it to Dean. Dean turned it over in his hand.
“This is a radio transmitter...for a blasting cap.” Dean said.
“It was on the gas tank, I got rid of the other stuff attached to it. There’s little ones that just listen inside the car and in your home. I saw the men all dressed in black with guns putting them everywhere, i know that it’s the past I saw, but I don’t know why I saw it,” Josiah said and took the device back from Dean.
“All in black?” Dean asked.
“Yes, they are listening from far away and they talk funny,” Josiah said. Held it flat on his palm. The device lifted up and then took itself apart. The pieces fell and Josiah went to pick them up and play with them.
“I guess that means you’re driving and we’re going to South Dakota” Dean said.
“To see Jody, and call Claire,tell her to come home, it’s not safe. Then Call Mom...Mary, call Mary tell her to lay low too but Mary won’t answer,” Josiah said as they all started for the truck. Dean just starred at him.
“You were thinking those things?” Cas asked to Dean. Dean nodded.
“All except that last bit,”
“Sometime his train of thought becomes what the people around him are thinking, I don’t think he can control that yet,” Cas said and opened the door of the truck to let Josiah in. Cas then got in the drivers seat as Dean walked around to get in the passenger side of the truck.
“Why won’t she answer?” Dean asked. Josiahs eyes lit up gold.
“The killer man has her, he’s been ordered to kill her but he can’t, it’s making him angry he doesn’t understand why he can’t follow the order,” Josiah said.
“Where are they?” Dean asked.
“I’m not sure...I don’t know this place very well,” Josiah said.
“Thanks Kid,” Dean got his phone out.
“Use code,” Josiah told him as Cas started the truck up. Dean paused and glanced at the kid again. He finished dialing Sam
“Hey Sammy, I need you to meet me at Bobbys, drive through Poughkeepsie- it’s quicker, and stick to the highways this time. Also what the hell did you get into last night? You have something stuck to your shoe that tracked all through the bunker, It’s even in my car man! C’mon on!” Dean said. Sam on the other end of the line looked around the bunker nervously.
“I’ll see you there, gotta pick up a few things first,Do I need boots and a shovel?”
“Yeah, you know how Frank likes things done,”
“Alright see yah,”
End Scene:
Then a little bit later down the road, while waiting for Sam at Bobby’s old house.
Scene: Cas carried a sleeping Josiah against his chest.
“Is he really asleep?” Dean asked, Opening doors fro Cas.
“Yes, he will have bouts of endless energy and then days in a comatose state. I understand children in general do this, perhaps not on the same scale though,” Cas said as he sank down onto the old dust covered couch in Bobby’s study.
“Days? Mom may not have days, we have no idea where she she is!”
“Are you really uncertain as to who has her?” Cas asked. Dean gave him an amused, obvious look.
“The killer man, with them men who talk funny. Sounds like the British men of Letters, whom amongst them has any experience...’getting their hands dirty’?” Cas asked. Dean hung his head.
“Ketch,”
“I imagine the Men of Letters has given up on corralling you as I had, I imagine they’ve given up on American hunters in general,”
“And what? Declared open season on Winchesters?” Dean asked. Cas shrugged best he could with Josiah laying against him. Dean sank into an empty chair at the end of the couch.
“Why’d you take off again man?” Dean asked after a long silence.
“Same reason I always do, because I think it’s the right thing. When Josiah first make contact with me through Kelly I...it was overwhelming. He’d been hearing everyone around him planning out his evil future without consulting him. The last he wishes to do is destroy. He is truly a curious spirit that enjoys creation more than anything. Violence...he hates it. A few demons found us and cornered us. I began to fight, Josiah was terrified but something primal took him over and he turned the demons to dust.” Cas told him.
“Yeah, and what if that something primal decides you’re a problem?”
“At least I won’t see it coming,” Cas offered with a smirk. Dean shook his head.
“Dean, part of the reason I left and mostly the reason I came back was because of the things Josiah has seen, things from the future...I though distancing myself would change a few things, put you and Sam in less danger but that only changed his visions so much,” Cas explained. Dean looked at him.
“What’s coming Cas?”
“Lucifer, he’s going to be freed and he’s going to come looking for Josiah and no matter where Josiah is he’s going to start that search through you and Sam,” Cas said. Dean hung his head and took a breath.
“How does he get out of the cage?”
“He was never in the cage,” Cas answered. Dean lifted his head to look back at Cas. A moment passed and they both spoke.
“Crowley,”
End Scene:
Mission to save Mom and what not, don’t have all that in my head yet but there’s a moment between Cas and Josiah.
Scene: Josiah snuggled up next to Cas.
“You sure you’re okay?” The child asked.
“Yes, Josiah, a broken nose is an easy fix even for an angel as weak as I am,” Cas smirked. Josiah looked up at him.
“I didn’t mean it like that,”
“I am talking about my lack grace,”
“Oh,”
They sat quietly together in the old house. Everyone was sleeping.
“Daddy?”
‘Yes?”
“Please...don’t trust Dean...I want to leave,” He said. Cas gave him a concerned look.
“What have you seen?”
“He’s going to kill you,” Josiah began to cry and grabbed Cas’ hand. Cas was shown a split moment where He was standing before Dean, an angel blade embedded into his chest., and Dean speaks ‘I guess we’ve come full circle haven’t we?’.
Cas took a breath to steady himself as he came out of the vision. Josiah was clinging to him and shaking.
“Josiah...You’ve had visions before that changed or never happened. No prophecy can make me loose my trust or faith in Dean. It’s going to be okay and besides...you’ve shown me that before,” Cas said. Josiah looked up at him.
“I did?”
“Yes, before you were born,”
End Scene:
Then it jumps way way ahead past getting mary back and Lucy being freed.
Scene: Dean put his hand on Cas’ shoulder.
“So let’s go tell the little pimp squeek the good news,” Dean smiled and walked with Cas. Josiah and Sam came around the building to meet up with them. Josiah froze and pure terror crossed his face.
“Daddy! That’s not Dean!” He yelled. Cas felt deja vu wash over him as he turned to ‘Dean’.
“Cat’s out,” He said with an awkward grin. He pulled out an angel blade and stabbed him into his chest before he could defend himself.
“I guess we’ve come full circle haven’t we? You know, you getting punked with this old trick instead of Curly and Moe?” Lucifer laughed.
“What did you do with Dean? He would have never said yes,”
“You’re right, I even tried making him think i was you and needed a vessel to survive but he was leaving me out in the cold. Are you two okay? I hate it when Daddy and Daddy fight!” Lucifer pouted. He snapped his fingers and the facade of Dean faded away into his old vessel.
“Here I thought you were supposed to be trapped in that meat suit,” Cas said.
“More or less, I still have a few tricks up my sleeve, technicalities and such, now Castiel do me a favor and die slowly,” He said and wrenched the blade back and forth in his chest. Cas gasped and collapsed to the ground. He felt back and looked up at Lucifer. He turned his head towards Sam and Josiah.
“Time to me my son, I’ve got butterflies, thanks for baby sitting,” Lucifer replied and put his foot on the blade, driving it completely through Castiel’s chest.
Sam reached out and grabbed Josiah, slinging him around to face him as there was a flash of light. Sam wrapped his arms around the child and looked up to see the scorch marks of Castiel’s wings burn into the ground.
“No!” Josiah fought against Sam and threw him to the side. Josiah ran for Castiel.
“Daddy!” Josiah cried out. Lucifer grabbed him as he came by.
“Howdy, Junior, it’s Papa!” He said. Josiah glared at him.
“You killed my Dad!”
“Oh no, that’s going to be lesson number one you understand!? He’s lied to you he’s not your father, I am, he’s lied to you your entire life!” Lucifer growled. Josiah shook his head and glared through his tears.
“No, I know exactly who you are!” He said and his eyes ignite with a bright golden light.
End Scene-ish:
Insert battle where Lucifer gets his ass handed to him by a child, Chuck steps in and jibes Lucifer about Kids not growing up to being what you wanted, Chuck then takes all of Lucifers grace and makes him mortal.
‘You keep trying to destroy the world I built, you keep trying to kill my creations, now you can spend some time amongst them and see how far it gets you. Rules are no magic, no grace, you’ll get that back when you prove you’ve actually learned something!’ Chuck snaps.
Chuck then turns to Josiah and tells him to stay true to what he is, that he will let him live in peace if he continues to be a protector. Josiah asks him to show him how to resurrect an angel. Chuck smiles and resurrects Cas. They find Dean being held in a hell cell, crowley finds him and gets him loose. . Get to the wrap up scene.
Scene:
“Daddy what world should we see next?” Josiah asked. Cas smiled and shook his head as he looked over to Sam and Dean.
“You can go ahead if you like, I think I’m going to stay here for a while,”
“I really want to go exploring,”
“I understand that but I need to stay home for a while, I need my family I’ve been without them for too long,”
“Am I your family?”
“Yes, you are, You’re my son but you know how to find me from any world, So if you need me for any reason you can come home. You stood up to your father and won, So I no longer worry about your safety. You’re aging quicker now, not much longer until you’re mature. the infinity of the universe is yours!” Cas tried to explain.
“I’ll miss you,”
“And I’ll miss you but you imagine the friends you will meet, the family you will make, then come by time to time and tell us about it, bring us souvenirs from across the cosmos,” Cas smiled. Josiah looked over at Sam and Dean, whom were now waiting for Cas by the Impala.
“They’re mortal, they’ll die,”
“I know,”
“What then?”
“I’ll find you and tell you about it,” Cas said. Josiah nodded. He hugged Cas and Cas hugged him back.
“See you later,”
“Bye,”
Josiah disappeared and Cas got to his feet. He walked to the Impala. Marry leaned out the backseat window.
“You tell my grandchild he better be home for Thanksgiving and Christmas?” She asked, giving him a stern look. Cas looked completely flabbergasted. He looked back to where Josiah had disappeared from and then back to Mary. Sam and Dean burst out laughing.
“Oh you’re in trouble now” Sam replied and stood up off the car. He walked around it and got in. Dean opened the back seat for Cas cas got close and Dean pulled him into a hug.
“He’ll be fine Cas,” Dean said to him and rubbed his back to reassure him before letting go. Cas smiled.
“Thank you, Dean,” Cas said and got in. Dean shut the door and got in himself. He started the engine and drove his family home.
End Scene:
And that was a spark, not a lot to it but if anyone wants to collaborate on a fic message me. Anything could be changed, I rarely keep all the scenes from a spark but these were a series of scenes that came together and forms the skeleton of a story arc, hope you enjoyed, sorry not sorry for the long post :D
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#Supernatural#Supernatural 12x19#Castiel#Dean winchester#Sam Winchester#Nephalim#Coda#I think it's called Coda
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