#stfumuny.

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❛ See, the problem is… I’ve had these characters in my head for two going on three years, writing for my own enjoyment. My inspiration comes and goes in sporadic bouts, leading to phases of intense investment followed by periods of inactivity. When you write, you inevitably infuse parts of yourself into your work, which brings a sense of vulnerability. All my shit is deeply personal to me. Graphics, writing, whatever it is, it’s me. I have gotten so comfortable in my own ‘ delusion ‘ and my own world building and connections for this specific body of work… creating and doing it for the consumption of others means dealing with people’s selfishness, things not resonating or being received how they should be, and all around— accepting the fact that people might not appreciate the effort and personal connection behind it.

Like yeah people will support a story, they’ll engage, some might be vultures and steal, whatever it is, but to them these are just stories. For me it’s specific memories tied to a lot of these scenes, chapters, paragraphs, whatever you wanna call it. I don’t know if I’m ready to give up the escapism I find in just doing shit for me. I like the exclusivity because I can be raw, imperfect and honest without all the trouble or extra noise.

ALSO WANT TO ADD: Nowadays, it’s even more challenging to write FOR AN AUDIENCE because people’s attention spans are fried and their selfishness means they seldom invest time in reading anybody else’s work anymore. You can’t make people care about your characters like they used to because they are too preoccupied with their own books and tryna write shit for themselves. The writer to reader ratio is fucked a lil bit.

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They literally let you have communities on here now, so if y’all didn’t already, why hasn’t anybody made a roleplay community strictly for the rp accounts/people who wanna plot to find each other? like them being all in one space, I think I wanna back out of retirement, I miss the delusion, lowkey.

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❛ I hate having to be the change I wanna see but like… FAWK.

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“ Y’all support Chris Brown in 2024? “ 😭 “ Chris Brown is— “ , “ He don’t like— “ , “ I can’t believe y’all— “ , “ Rihanna, Karrueche— “ , “ Chris Brown… “ 😙 stay mad !

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i’d lowkey give anything to go back to the Breezy 2022 era.

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❛ Super excited that my tumblr community got approved, if I write anything or publish anything in the foreseeable future— and it��s Christopher related ( most likely will be ) , it will be posted in there. A REAL PRIVATE SPACE. I CAN BE DELUSIONAL IN PEACE WITHOUT THE EXTRA SHENANIGANS. THIS IS SO LIT. 🥳 AND IT’S INVITE ONLY ? I LOVE IT HERE ALREADY.

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❛ Like I have created whole ass Pinterest boards for these characters, have built them up so much through all this time, they have families and background life stories, they have real depth, through all the time and creativity I’ve invested and poured into them, and the various storytelling elements into not just them but the plot and these drafts… why would I want to risk the sentimentality I have with this for the next person to take it, ignore it, or not see it the way I do?

You legitimately have to make people care enough to step outside of themselves to give a shit about your work, a damn about your characters and anything you’re trying to do… doing that can be so daunting and stressful for no reason. Why would I want to when I can work for me, on my own time, for my own entertainment ?

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❛ everyday i wake up and think about christopher and just be feeling like this gif… 😭😭😭 i love that yellow man i’m sorry.

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back in the writing game in 24 hrs ! can’t wait to see where this book goes. so many things planned. and the best part ? i’m having fun doing this again.

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all i wanted to do this fall is do my girl blogging, and post content and do my makeup and redecorate my apartment. what have i done so far? bed rot, sleep all fucking day and try not to crash out.

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it be writing help this, writing help that … where the beta readers at ?! the people that’s gonna read and give feedback before it officially hits the streets ? that’s where the real help comes from.

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and if i start posting unfinished story parts ?

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throwing it all the way back to 2022 with this new-but-not new layout ! since i’ll be turning a new age next tuesday ( 07/09 ) , i figured it was time for a new everything to go along with it. love the way it came out.

— sidebar: i’m feeling very productive, i might post this written snippet in the team breezy tumblr community to see if y’all would read it and to add more content in there because it’s currently just sitting. idk !

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i 💓 my twitter account.

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devanté’s name being attached to a diddy headline was not on my 2024 bingo card but then again, i ain’t checked for grandma baby in a long time. bless it jesus!

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I don’t know. , when you’re deep in your own bubble… some shit just don’t be worth the trouble of coming out of it for any reason.