#stating i associate them with my childhood😭😭😭

[feliphilia]

Satosugu era is like my childhood back home.

It gives me nostalgia dude😭😭

an even more reason why they make me cry. I miss it so so much.

I miss being an eight year old and have my grandma (dad's side) feed me all three times of the day during summer vacations.

I miss my grandma (from mum's side) make me drink milk every morning before school and every evening before I go out to play with my street friends

I miss sitting in the evening with my father and watch wild life documentaries with him after he comes back home from work

I miss my mum taking me to parents teachers meeting every year

I miss going into the streets and play with my neighbour friends and be as extroverted as I was back then

I miss waking up every morning to get ready for school and spend the whole day there without a single clue of what's going on around me

I miss riding my bicycle all over my area with my younger cousins at 7pm after school

I miss waiting for my uncle to come home every weekend and take me and my cousins to the park and play badminton with us

I miss my flooded car parking during heavy rains

I miss my grandpa (from dad's side) bringing home some snacks after his daily evening stroll

I miss being addressed to as "*grandpa's name*'s granddaughter"

I miss spending 2 weeks all alone or with my grandma at my fav cousin's house during summer vacations

I miss my fav cousins coming over and us waking up early the next day to go to the beach and watch the sunrise

I miss fighting for the remote with my cousins to watch my cartoons

I miss the times I had my childhood innocence intact.

And I have no idea why I associate satosugu with all of these. Perhaps because they lost one another before realizing each other's worth like how I lost my sweet sweet childhood I didn't appreciate enough and didnt realise the bliss it caused

[itsravenbitch]

hey yalllll! this is a quick follow up on this ask

i’m not gonna make this an in depth post because, baby, ion got the time for that. but lemme go ahead and tell y’all, my babies, how i just got new family members!! now, i know that sounds like i just went to target and bought them but y’all know what i mean😭 so bear with me, please and thank you.

so for some backstory: i originally come from a family of 5 including me, my mama, my daddy, and my 2 sisters. my dad is a hypocrite and a yeller (can’t stand a yeller). my mom likes to gaslight, my older sister also likes to gaslight and is one petty mf. and my little sister always tryna act like she older than me and ion like that cause, sweetheart, i’m twice your age.

so what’s new?

their personality and looks—they’re completely different people. i only wanted to change their looks because it was weird to imagine them as these new personalities because, their faces are just so deeply associated with those old personalities. so i was like lemme alter them according to these new personalities.

how?

the same way you manifest anything else. decide, accept, and persist.

the execution.

as some of y’all may or may not know, i live in a different state than the rest of my family because of college. but i’ve been coming back to texas this summer quite frequently to visit them and my childhood friends. i fulfilled my imagination before i got on the plane to houston, literally while in the airport, so when my parents picked me up that’s when i physically saw they had reflected my imagination. and i later on saw my sisters too.

when?

this happened within 5/6 hours. and i was not in the slightest bit shocked. when i saw my parents the first thing that popped up in my head was “oh okay rae! we materializing shit quick i seeee” 🤣 the thoughts i be having, you’d think i was talking to someone fr. i really am my own best friend😂 i love it here!

end.

feel free to ask questions, i’ll probably get to them in a few hours. i’m bout to take a nice lil nap. i just wanted to proofread and post real quick cause it’s been in the drafts for a week and a half now. and my drafts just keep on getting bigger, further burying this post.

love y’all

— raven😘

[korshrimpski]

MK23/JD91 aka the Matthew Knies and Josh Doan primer

Background/context:

Matthew Knies (no. 23, TOR): born 17th October 2002 in Phoenix Arizona. Here are some beautiful pictures of him

Josh Doan (no. 91): born 1st February 2002 in Scottsdale Arizona, and he is the son of Shane Doan (yotes legend). AND HE’S MY BEAUTIFUL AMERICAN TEENAGER 👹

Growing up they were best friends, Josh's father, Shane, would let the two into the coyotes locker room where the pair would play mini-sticks

They were both in the Arizona Jr. Coyotes hockey program together from 2015-2019. And won the Arizona Amateur Hockey Association 16U Tier 1 State Championship (fucking mouth full that is) with each other. (please i'm crying they're so tiny in the first photo 😭)

shane also coached the two boys and there is one quotes from another one of their coaches, Mike DeAngelis, that (make me go insane) sums up these two's relationship perfectly

"(Shane Doan) treated Matthew like he was his own son."

And in the same interview Mike called matthew and josh "two peas in a pod." (They are literally found family 😭)

Another piece of information that isn't really important is that matthew was at shane's number retirement, idk i just thought it was sweet

Then the 2 went their separate ways with Josh going to Chicago Biosteel and Matthew going to tri-city but even though they were apart this didn’t stop them from chirping each other in insta comments (aka it was matthew bullying josh)

in 2021 they were both drafted; josh doan was drafted 37th overall by the arizona coyotes (full circle moment 🥹) and matthew knies was drafted 57th by the Toronto Maple Leafs and in the post matthew put out josh commented this 👇

In 2022 they both opened a hockey academy in Arizona called "Knies & Doan Hockey Academy" that ran from the 27th of June to the 30th of June.

23rd of June 2022 these two did a podcast for the PHNX Sports together and i recapped it in this post

In 2022 & 2023 Matthew spent his summer at the Doan family ranch together as seen in these post

2022: (3rd photo i'm assuming that's matthew, 4th photo matthew is at the very left and josh is at the very end)

2023:

after the coyotes relocated to utah matthew commented this on josh's “thank you AZ” post

BONUS: these comments throughout the years

So to recap they are childhood friends who made it to the NHL together and i need people to speak about it more.

[nightwonder7]

the thought of a Ghost AU hug pile after Alice finally opens up to them and starts coming to with her own hard past with their help has me in shambles ;u;

another note though...how would the double identities work? would it be kind of like the ghosts can change forms or one personality takes over the other? Two separate ghosts who need to do different things before being put to rest?

and another question(s) that popped into my mind while writing this was: What is the requirement for releasing a ghost? What if said thing is really hard to do, like burning something precious? Or what if the first time it happens by accident and Alice & ghost Co don't even get to really say goodbye? 😭

HHHHHHHhhhHHHhhhh that is so wholesome! ;O; I can see the ghosts starting to notice that she becomes overly diligent in her work. To the point it is concerning, for she is staying up late for many nights studying the files and becomes too upset at every set-back. It's no longer about emptying the manor of ghosts so she can have her peaceful home back.

The ghosts doing some sort of intervention and want to know why she is wearing herself down like that (over the time they had known each other, they have started to care more for each other). Alice then tells them that she feels that it is her responsibility to help them and shares some of her past. For if she fails to help them, then she breaks the promise she made to herself that she would help others no matter what. All stemming from the emotional baggage of her parents' demise. The ghosts are the first ones she openly talks about her troubled past with. Que the group hug and words of reassurance ;u; Even though they can't really touch her fdghsjfks it'll be like an air hug XD A cold one...

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I'm glad you asked! So the hunter form of those with double identities is actually a sort of corrupted form of their spirit, facilitated by the curse. Some are more susceptible than others to the mysterious power that veils the manor, and thus their unresolved trauma manifest in peculiar ways. This comes to play especially during events of strong emotions, such as when they start remembering their trauma. In these forms the ghosts are dangerously strong and can cause actual physical harm and destruction; much more so than the ghosts who don't possess this form.

In order to quell a ghost that has been corrupted, one must try and anchor them back down to earth. They are in a state of chaos and pain, and the only way to anchor them down is to first get their attention and make them listen. Then have them focus on something and slowly pull them out of chaos little by little with words. One thing that can help here is to use an item that holds significance to the ghost; something that is associated to a good or peaceful memory. Or something sentimental. For Joker; perhaps Margaretha's music box or a daisy? For Luchino; something related to his research like his papers or specimens? For Orpheus; something related to his childhood such as the stories he used to write and the doll. For Norton; the coin he carries around. For Mike; a piece of the circus.

It is a dangerous task, but once they calm down, they are able to get out of their corrupted form. This ghosts are still able to slip back into these forms again if they don't resolve their unfinished business.

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So the curse is multilayered, protected by each of the ghosts' personal bindings. All of them need to be broken individually before the curse can be lifted. Once that is done, all the ghosts will be released simultaneously. So fortunately, none of them will slip away spontaneously ;u; Aaaahhhh but the thought though! 😭

The key to each binding is a little different from one another. All of them need to remember how they died and the trauma that first brought them to the manor and come to terms with it. Some of them also require tending to unfinished businesses in order to get closure. It can be to find out what happened to a loved one, finishing a piece of work, or, as you said, destroy something. It is for Alice and the ghosts to figure out what needs to be done. Pff imagine in order to break Matthias' binding, Alice needs to destroy Louis, but no matter what she does to that puppet, it just comes back again in mint condition XD

[historia-vitae-magistras]

I'm sorry if this is a bit too personal, but I'm interested in becoming an archivist myself! I was wondering what classes you took and how exactly you became an archivist. Right now I'm majoring in art history for my undergrad, but I'm worried that I chose wrong 😭

This is only going to be relevant for North America, most archivists in the old world have PhD's and 6 titles, I'm just a lowly peon by EU standards especially but I finished my undergrad after I got my job. I read/majored in history with historic preservation as a secondary study/minor. Then I'm in the process of finishing a master's degree in library science with two certs in archives and manuscripts. Art history isn't a bad choice! You can have a lot of different undergraduate backgrounds. History, Art History, English language. I've met people with degrees in everything from childhood education to microbiology become librarians and archivists. The degrees you get are kind of only technicalities? You need a master's degree and it has to be accredited by the ALA. Everything else is whatever. No one gives a shit I went to a really good school. To be an archivist we do have archives tracks but its still mostly the same degree. Most of the reason we have degrees at all is because the field of library science skews heavily as a female dominated job so having a master's kind of lets us have some fancy pieces of paper that let other's in higher ed and administration i.e. men take us more seriously.

Your degrees and grades are important, but what you really want is experience. Get a library job, volunteer, job shadow, whatever you want, just get your butt in a library and ideally an archive. 9/10 of the people I know are struggling to find positions despite their degrees and good grades can't because they were so academically inclined they didn't think about actual hands on experience. We're technically a kind of academic, but we're one of few types in the humanities where our education is rather secondary to what we actually have experience doing.

If your institution has courses in curation and exhibition, public history, architectural history, cemeteries, anything that takes you out of a classroom and actually doing history, take them. Most archivists work in communities. Whether they be state or local libraries, universities, local history associations, museums, corporate archives etc, etc, we're memory keepers who need really good organization skills. Yes a good piece of our job is filing paperwork but we file the paper work that makes up the bulk of the hippocampus of any given society.

I've been an archival assistant for 6 years and a full archivist for 2 and a charge archivist for 6 months and I don't have my masters degree yet. I got a library job in high school because I had to work off some discipline issues with volunteer hours and a while down the line when I was working three job in undergrad, I got a student position at a circulation desk where I did my first archival work. I didn't really have any intention of being an archivist, I went through a half dozen majors before my body decided it was going to do its best to die and then with a lot of those very exerting possibilities off the table, I landed a third job in a library. And I had a little bit of experience in archives so I rolled to a stop at rock bottom and looked around me and went "oh hey wait, I'm actually really good at this? And it's fun? am I insane or is this a good fit?" and my supervisor agreed and two years later here I am with a well packed resume and more work experience than education and a archivist's title.

[mycosylivingroom]

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[julianavalds]

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I am a young man,🙌 23 years old, and I do not have anything to help me in life,☠ such as rebuilding my house, getting married, and completing my education.😭 I only have fatigue, worry, and suffering.😢 Please help me share my story and donate to me,👃 even if it is a little. I am very embarrassed to ask people for help,🤦‍♂️ but what should I do🤷‍♂️? I am forced to do this.  Forgive me.😓

I am Mohammed, 23 years old,👨‍💼 I used to live in Khan Younis,💚 I was a university student studying information technology👨‍💻 at the Islamic University of Gaza,🏫 but my entire university was destroyed,💣 this was my passion in life, but it evaporated in this difficult war,😭 even my home where I spent my childhood and all my happy memories turned to ashes,😵 I became homeless, so how can I continue my life😢?

Please support me so that my passion returns,👃 and so that I can achieve my dream of studying again,👃 I would like to inform you that we are living a crisis of no detergents or winter clothes, knowing that winter is coming🌧 with its severe cold that eats the body severely,🙏🏻 I cannot complete this message because of the many tears and pain,😢 your simple help💸 will make a big difference in my life😙.

my survival fund has been vetted by global mutual a!d collective @beesandwatermelons🍉.

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[storytimewithnova]

Psychosis

What is psychosis, Psychosis is where you see or hear things that are not there (hallucinations) or believe things that are not true To any outsider bokuto looked like a normal volleyball player and he was Bokuto was living a normal happy life with his husband to be they would sit up and talk about wedding plans they would go out on dates see normal right?

Just like any other Day Bokuto was sitting with Akaashi talkingwedding plans he was so happy to be getting married to his childhood best friend

Bokuto:Should we make it gold and black theme

 Keiji:Sure my world you are going to way to much trouble

Bokuto smiled sweetly at him and said 

Bokuto:Oh my star with you nothing is too much 

See normal day Right? Accept it’s not normal why Akaashi is Dead so you are wondering why is bokuto seeing him talking to him making their wedding plans 

He has psychosis people with psychosis have their own set of symptoms the , 3 main symptoms are associated with a psychotic episode:

* hallucinations/delusions

* confused and disturbed thoughts

Today is one of he really bad episodes and he is talking to Akaashi as far as he is concerned the are out on a date it’s snowing

He was wear the scarf Akaashi knitted for him

Bokuto:Keiji have you ever thought about a family 

Keiji:you’re my family Kou 

Bokuto:i know that Baby owl i meant kids 

Keiji:oh well no i haven’t

Bokuto stopped for a moment under a snow cover Sakura And said

Bokuto:you know Keiji you are very beautiful i am lucky 

Keiji:yes you are my love but i need you to wake up 

As akasshi said that bokuto did wake up 

Bokuto:Keiji My world where are you?

Dead silent

Bokuto:Baby owl you home 

Nothing Bokuto rang kenma eho after the send ring picked up

Bokuto:📲Ken have you see Akaashi he was he a few moments ago

Kenma:📲…..

Bokuto:📲ken

Kenma:📲Bo Keiji is dead remember 

Bokuto:📲No! His not we were just talking about our wedding 

Kenma:📲Bo you have Psychosis you were Hallucinating 

Bokuto:📲……..

Kenma:Bo?…..Bokuto? Are you okay? 

Kenma could hear him talk on the other line 

Bokuto:You’re dead?!

Keiji:Sorry my Star my illness took over me i went peacefully in my sleep at my parents house

Bokuto:You were alone?!

Keiji:Yes my star i am sorry sorry i left you 

Bokuto:But i can still see you 

Keiji:Always for you my star i know i regret not telling you i was ill and I regret leaving you in this state 

Kenma was still listening to bokuto

Bokuto:Will will i see you again? Bokuto cries

Keiji:I am always with you i will see you in another life 

Bokuto:I see you my world in another life 

Kenma:📲Bo? Please anwser Kuroo and I are worried forget it we are coming over 

Kenma hangs up 

As akaashi fades away knowing bokuto will now be in safe hands with kenma and kuroo 

15 minute later there was a knock on the door

Kuroo:Bro open up

Bokuto was deep in thought was there away he could be with akaashi

Bokuto:I want to be with you keiji it feels wrong with out you i feel wrong with out you 

Kenma:Bo? Where are you?

Keiji:Its not your time 

Bokuto:Don’t care my life feels wrong with you not in it

Keiji:Kou kou stop think about kenma and kuroo here they are in our house think how there are going to react right now

Bokuto:😭

Keiji:There there don’t cry 

Kuroo:Bro bro?

Bokuto:I just want to be with you see you hold you am i wrong in that?

Keiji:No Kou you can do all that when its your time and its not yet 

Kenma:No Kou you can do all that when its your time and its not yet 

Bokuto:Bo? Are you in there?

Keiji:Anwser him 

Bokuto:Yeah kenma i  guess i am still here despite my better judgement 

Kuroo slowly opened the door and saw bokuto

Kuroo:Holy shit Bro how bad has this got 

Bokuto:🫤

Kuroo:Right dumb question you really are not coping are you 

Bokuto turned to look back at akaashi who looked at him and said 

Keiji:i love you please go with them my star

He nods and says

Bokuto:i will my world 

Kuroo:Huh? Who are you talking to 

Kenma:He’s talking to keiji it part of his Psychosis

Bokuto:Kenma you make me sound like i am crazy 

Kenma:Sorry Bo i know its a coping Method

After a little… okay after a lot of convincing Bokuto agreed to get help and see a greif Counselor he is now getting help for away to control his Psychosis and he talks freely about his intrusive thoughts and how bad he misses Keiji and maybe he was projecting his greif to keep Keiji alive and when his time came he will be with his world again in another life 

[levi-supreme]

Here for your Fanfic writer asksss

1.. lol jk you don’t have to answer that. I know its Flegel Reeves that cutie

14, 17 and 34 pleaseee

MRS SMITH MY LOVE <3 Yeah if I love writing for Flegel Reeves, you love writing for Keith Shadis...........

14. How do you feel about your older work? 

Answered this previously here but to add on!!! I wanna talk about Petrichor HAHA. This was one of my earlier work too, and tbh I was actually really excited to post this because rainy days with Levi makes me feel really fluffy, and I always associate Levi to rainy days because I love rainy days, and I love Levi.

But!!! I feel like this fic kinda flopped because I feel like the readers didn't 'feel' the excitement I had while writing this, and probably they couldn't relate to the emotions I tried to portray too. Was it because of my writing? Or because people don't feel the same way about rainy days like I do? Oh well, I will never know XD

17. What fanfic tropes do you gravitate to writing for? 

Obviously established relationships!!!!! The Levi in all my writing is always either reader's boyfriend or husband there's no in between hehe. I just love the idea of living a domestic life with Levi it's all I want in life 😭

Also, my favourite is (childhood) friends to lovers, so I definitely have that in my writing too. I just love the idea of two people getting to know each other and becoming friends, and then the awkward phase of developing feelings for each other and fearing the other realises, and the moment of revelation when the feelings are mutual <33

And idk if this can be considered as a trope lol, but I really love happy endings lmao. I guess the Pisces in me just wants a happy ending anywhere and everywhere haha I cannot deal with sad ending and heartbreaks </3

34. Have you felt emotional while writing a scene before? What scene was it?

I think I always talk about crying happy tears writing my dad!Levi headcanons haha, but I wanna talk about some negative emotions this time round!!

So the fic in question is Ten. It's a collab piece, and my first (and probably only) fic with dark content (tw: cheating, extra-marital affair, one night stand, some spousal violence) and tbh, it took me soooo long to write this fic!!

It was really hard for me to write this because I hate all the trigger warnings stated above, but I was glad I wrote this fic, because it made me explore something that I don't think I ever will, and I liked how this fic turned out in the end. It was rather angsty and negative in the beginning, but it had a good resolution so I'm somehow pleased.

I guess the most emotional scene for me to write was when Levi was trying to admit that he still had feelings for reader after so many years, and even though she's married. And also the part where the both of them crossed the boundary between friends and lovers, and admitting their feelings for each other.

Honestly speaking, I think I didn't do this fic justice haha. I could have written a lot of the plot better and maybe rewrote more of the emotions better, but oh well!!! What's done is done!!!!

Fanfic writer asks!