#starting to rewatch her qsmp vods actually

[red-velvet-void]

i love love love your jaiden art! shes so silly

Thank you so much!! Have a chibi wip <3

YOU WANNA RB MY ART SO BADLY

[applespider]

I’m rewatching Cellbit’s first QSMP VOD and I’m getting emotional that I can understand them. I already knew all this happened (the BBH shock and the Felps crashing the boat bit) but that’s because fans told me, translated for me. Yet here I am. Watching and hearing and understanding it first hand. I can’t even imagine what it’ll feel like to get to the parts I watched live back then, not understanding a thing, just to distract me enough to get through an anxiety attack. I can understand now. Yeah there are holes in my understanding, it’s not perfect. But I know what they’re saying, I’m following their conversations.

I thought watching Baghera’s first VOD was difficult (I did not process that Bobby was still alive at that point. When I realized I verbally let out a strangled gasp of pain and again when he actually showed up. Also just seeing her interacting with Dapper, let alone Pomme. God….) but I still rely heavily on the translator for French (admittedly it is a LOT better now than when I first watched, I can semi separate words on my own and connect them to other languages I know, but to say I understand French is a lie - understanding bits of Spanish and Portuguese in the background did get me choked up tho) but.

I’ve been watching Cellbit with and without a translator (majority the latter at this point) for a year now. Before I started watching him I had only ever racked up 10k channel points for any one creator. I recently broke 100k on Cellbit’s channel. If there’s anyone I can understand in another language it’s him. And I can. Barring a few sentences here and there I have understood every word he’s said, no translator. Fuck, man. To be here again. Retreading trodden ground except my eyes are opened this time. I’m watching the same thing but it’s no longer gibberish to my ears. It’s fucking me up.

[fluffypotatey]

OK SO. the animations family.

first off i have to explain the QSMP a bit. the QSMP (nobody's really sure what the q stands for afaik) is a multilingual minecraft smp that first started in march 2023. the original server roster was 16 players, half of whom were hispanic and half who were english speakers. (this was bc quackity, the guy who came up with the server and did all the planning and stuff, is bilingual and wanted to unite his two communities). one of these original 16 was jaiden animations (this is important). on the first day of the server, these 16 members were stranded in a place called Quesadilla Island, which is controlled by a mysterious and sinister Federation (run by a weird little guy named Cucurucho)

okay, you know the trope of science projects where you get split up into pairs and have to take care of an egg together? they literally did that. All of the players were split into pairs of one spanish-speaker and one english-speaker, and tasked with taking care of an egg (actually a special NPC played by a server admin). the eggs started out with two lives each, and once those lives were out, the egg's gone for good, and your in-game child is dead. (this is a secret surprise tool that will help us later!)

one of these parenting pairs was jaiden animations and roier, and their egg's name was bobby. bobby was a rambunctious little fella- artistic, brave, very aggressive- and an absolute mama's boy. jaiden, roier, and bobby (aka the animations family) all got along very well, and tbh i need to go rewatch jaiden's vods of them bc they were so sweet together. jaiden changed her minecraft skin to match bobby's so they were both wearing overalls together.

(^ mentally i am here)

jaiden's character (or cubito, a word from the spanish speaking community that essentially means "minecraft roleplay character" that p much the whole community uses now bc its so damn cute) was aroace (just like jaiden in real life!), so she and q!roier were in a qpr co-parenting situation. and it was really sweet and i miss them. can you tell i miss them.

(drawing done by jaiden of roier, bobby, and herself) (the qsmp has an art mod btw)

now, astute readers may have noticed that i use "was" for both jaiden and bobby. on may 17th, 2023, bobby lost his second life to a vindicator and was ruled permanently dead. roier was there at the time, I believe, but was unable to save bobby in time. when jaiden found out, she SCREAMED and it was like. you know in hamilton how when phillip dies eliza screams? it sounded like that. (she also chased after the sunset while saying "wait for me" over and over again, it was really heartbreaking and im still a little bit insane about this).

the next day, the whole server went on a journey to the dungeon bobby died in, to plead with cucurucho for his revival. cucurucho refused to bring bobby back permanently, but allowed jaiden and roier ten minutes to talk with him and say their goodbyes. bobby asked them to remember him every time they saw a sunset.

(^ the last time the whole animations family was together. this was 9.5 months ago).

neither q!jaiden nor q!roier ever really fully recovered from bobby's death (although id say jaiden was hit way harder due to not having a support system outside of roier and cucurucho, who took advantage of her grief to manipulate her). there are some other things that happened here, such as q!roier getting married to a cellbit, a brazilian player working as a double agent of sorts within the federation, and purgatory (all the players were teleported to an island, separated into three groups, and forced to fight one another. in the end the island got blown up by a nuke).

on sunday, cc!jaiden talked about her qsmp character, ultimately stating that she was taking a long break from the server, that she had given the admins permission to do whatever they want with her character's absence, and essentially announced that unless the admins stated otherwise, q!jaiden had died in the nuke explosion in purgatory, firmly destroying the animations family.

(to me, the saddest part is that, recently, new eggs were assigned to groups of childless players, and both jaiden and roier got the chance to raise new eggs, with jaiden being assigned to empanada and roier currently being pepito's sole active parent. and all q!jaiden wanted was to be a mom. she died never knowing she had a second chance to rebuild her family. i am no okay.)

in conclusion:

THE LOVE WAS THERE AND THERE WAS NOTHING THEY CAN DO. I AM CRYING IN REAL LIFE I MISS HER SO BAD. SHE'S WITH BOBBY NOW.

oh

[kingbumbles]

I’m still thinking. Someone left a comment on this post (I’m too lazy to go back and look who it was but your brain is so large) about how Jaiden puts her full trust and faith cucurucho but cucurucho doesn’t like. Do it back.

I think she’s starting to realize she’s just kinda being used? She realizes the silly part of cucurucho and wants that to be all there is of him but how can she excuse the drugging? The torture? The egg kidnapping?

But the way she’s seeing cucurucho is being shaken so drastically but with the tea moment I can see her wanting to hold onto that part of him

I’d have to go back and watch that part again, because I was so tired, I watched her whole 8 1/2 hour stream last night LMAO

I still feel like there’s something we’re missing, but also. When are we not missing stuff it’s the Qsmp aksbsjbsjs

Anyway these r just my thoughts :) I love qjaiden n after I actually get off work and rewatch this part of the VOD I will have some more thoughts :)!!

Okay can we talk about Jaidens moment with Cucurucho in her last stream

Because there was this moment where it all became clear to us that SHE HAS BEEN LYING TO EVERYONE

About her stance on Cucurucho. She said “I have to make him think I’m still on his side” which implies that she’s NOT on his side unless I’m misreading that (which I don’t think I am lmao)

Has she been lying about her stance this entire time? I mean, Cucurucho sees EVERYTHING, I wouldnt be surprised the reason she didn’t tell anyone anything was because Cucurucho is always there

She said “I have worked so hard to get to the position I am in” which btw kinda hot of her

It makes me think, wow her and Qcellbit really aren’t all that different huh. Especially during his infiltration

I only wonder what comes next for her :)