#starting my masters in like a month and idk. im kinda nervous
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#starting my masters in like a month and idk. im kinda nervous#ill be running my own project instead of being an undergrad being ordered around in the lab. and im deeply unorganised#idk i just worry that im mega incompetent and everyone around me will realise that then. classic imposter syndrome ig#i dont feel like any of my academic achievements last year were legit#idk. im looking forward to starting bc i need to do Something otherwise my brain just worries about Bull Shit#but idk ig maybe i worry ill have a shit time ive seen all the academia horror stories. bleh#i think i just always am like “oh this is the year itll all come crashing down and ill just be revealed to have fluked everything”#idk#fuck it we ball. I am looking forward to it i was like this before undergrad tho!#and if academia sucks i can just do something else like im doing a masters and not a phd for a reason#i should make a science sideblog maybe to liveblog my masters itd be fun. Or do that on my main
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hiii i noticed in one of your posts you mentioned that you were premed and i wanted to ask you for some advice!! im an incoming premed freshman (majoring in biochem but im debating on switching to neuro) and im kinda nervous lol. do you have any tips on how to stay on top of things and balance classes with clinical work and research? thank u <3
omg omg omg IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS OPPORTUNITY ok so i have a ton of advice but i'll try to be brief
1) im putting this paragraph first because this is the most important advice i can give you. like seriously if you listen to nothing else listen to this:
you can't know everything
this isn't high school where you just have to memorize where the 50 states are on a map. this is college where you have to know the entire krebs cycle after it's only been explained once and that's like only 10% of the info on the exam. so the best thing you can do for yourself is accept when you've hit a plateau and move onto something else. for example, say you've got a bio exam and a psych exam coming up. it takes you 20 hours of genuine study time to master 93% of the the material in bio. it would take another 20 for you to get to 95%. but with that other 20 hours, you could master 96% of the material for psych. your brain wants to say "well i'll just spend 60 hours studying then" but believe me i know from experience that you can't do that without serious harm to you mental and physical health. it's so so SO much better to study the 40 hours and accept a 93 on bio and a 96 in psych. and then you can use the extra 20 to get more sleep, hang out with friends, volunteer, work in a research lab, or he'll study for another subject. you will love college and being a premed so much more if you do that
2) im a neuro major so ur an anon after my own heart. idk what the major is like at ur school but at mine it's really flexible and has a lot of cool opportunities attached to it so i would definitely reccomend it. the cool thing is tho you're just starting out so, provided you don't have to swap to a different school (engineering, arts and sciences, etc.), then you can definitely take time to figure out what you want. i came into college wanting to do neuro and bio double, switched to a single major in a completely different area, and then added on a neuro major recently so the most important thing at this point is to keep your options open
3) time management depends a lot on the school you attend. i attend a fairly good university, so i spend a shit ton of time studying and don't have as much time left over for volunteering/research. luckily med schools generally account for that stuff, so just keep that in mind if you're getting a little bit of imposter syndrome. anyway, the best advice i can give you right now is to just get involved. don't assume that because you're a freshman that people won't value your input or enthusiasm
4) organization is your best friend. i use an app/website called "my study life" to track my homework and classes and have found it to be super helpful, but there are tons of other homework apps out there. it's also worth having an up to date calendar for any non-curricular things you need to keep track of, like volunteering. i just use the reminders app and make sure it's synced across my devices. you can't manage your time if you don't know what assignments you have to do or what you have scheduled that day
5) keep your priorities straight. what matters most to you will change from month to month, so making sure you're confident in what you're prioritizing and why is huge. for example, say you have finals in 4 weeks. if you want to start studying 2 weeks prior to your exams, put in extra effort and time with your research/volunteering in the 2 weeks prior to that and make sure your supervisors/primary investigators know that you won't be able to dedicate as much time during finals. you should still keep up with your responsibilities, but you need to dedicate the majority of your energy to finals because unfortunately grades do matter here.
6) it's ok to take breaks, it's ok to take a lighter semester, it's ok to hang out with friends, and it's ok to fuck up. everyone has to figure this shit out and there will be lots of things that look like failures but are actually blessings in disguise. for example: i got a C+ in gen chen and a B in bio my freshman year. some people would have retaken the class but i kept going, and in the process i learned a lot about myself and my study habits. i also learned that the purpose of weed out classes isn't to sort out the students who don't do well in classes, it's to sort out the people who will stop after failure. so i took that C+, new study habits, and new perspectives with me through my other tough science classes during my next two years and turned my grades around. now what started as a "death sentence" for most pre meds is an awesome cinderella story of perseverance that i can reflect on during my application cycle (all of those skills will also help me in med school too!)
i hope this was helpful and if you want anymore advice my inbox/dms are always open!
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Joy Package: Cabin By The Lake (M) PJM
Joy package are stories that consist of 3 main characters which are Seokjin, Jungkook and Jimin. They were in a band called Black Swan, Jimin as a vocalist, Seokjin as their guitarist and song-writer, Jungkook as their basist.
Pairing: Jimin x Reader
Genre: Fluff, Smut
Synopsis: It’s been a month since you dated Jimin and he invited you to join him and his band mates for a retreat.
A/N: Idek if people would actually read this or nah but this is kinda the first time I tried to write something and I’m soo sorry for all the mistakes. Also you can read: Joy Package: Toxic What?
It’s been a month and a week since me and Jimin started dating. He was my first ever boyfriend and he was so sweet and every time I’m with him, it’s like, I’m in the cloud. I’m so happy I could die.
“Minjoo-ya, is it weird?” Minjoo was eating her cereal very slowly, daydreaming about I don’t know what.
“Bitch!” I called out for her again and she jolted.
“What?” She groaned annoyingly.
“It’s like a month since I dated Jimin, and we still haven’t kiss yet.” I pouted as I sat on the chair in front of her.
“No shit, I thought you guys have fuck?” She laughed, “You’ve been so annoying and act so lovey dovey. How are you guys still not kissing yet?”
“We’re shy. Also, I don’t know if he’s up to that.”
Minjoo pursed her lips awkwardly, and whispered even though no one’s there to listen, “run bitch.. run..”
“I love him for who he is!! It’s okay even if we won’t kiss.” But I wonder how Jimin tasted like…
“Whatever floats your boat, girl.” She stood up and took away her empty bowl of cereal to the sink.
I felt a vibrate on my hands, it was Jimin texting me. I automatically smile as I read his messages.
Jiminnie💓: Baby
Jiminnie💓: Me and jin hyung decided that we should go for a retreat for our band
Jiminnie💓: you know, like an MT
Jimminie💓: do you want to join us?
Jiminnie💓: pls say yes 🥺🥺🥺
Jiminnie💓: everyone’s bringing their girlfriends
Jiminnie💓: u should invite minjoo too
Jiminnie💓: cause jin hyung would be alone and i dont want him to disturb us
Jiminnie💓: baby where you attt?
Me: im hereeee
Me: sounds fun! I never went to an MT before
Me: okayy i’ll ask minjoo too when is it??
Jiminnie💓: this saturday
Jiminnie💓: pls say youre free 🥺🥺🥺🥺
Me: hahaha yes im free
Me: but idk abt minjoo
Me: i’ll ask her!
Jiminnie💓: okay baby!
Jiminnie💓: imma go practice!
“Minjoo-ya” I turned to look at the kitchen sink and she wasn’t there so I stood up and looked around.
After wandering for a few minutes I saw Minjoo on the balcony talking on the phone so I guess I’ll just ask her later.
“Ssup.” Minjoo says as she flopped on the couch beside me.
“Who’s calling you?” I asked, shove a grabful of popcorns inside my mouth.
“Taehyung.” She shrugged. “Ask me to follow him to somewhere.”
“Somewhere where?”
“I don’t even know.” She answered short.
“Oh bish, Jimin invited us to join him for a retreat.” I turned to look at her, my eyes glowing.
She looked at me weirdly, frowning. “Me too? Because?”
“Because you’re my best friend and he doesn't want you to be alone on the weekend.”
She faked a smile, “aw what a thoughtful boyfriend you had.” And rolled her eyes. “Thank you for the offer, but I really don’t want to be a third wheeler.”
“Noooo you won’t be! Seokjin will be there too.” I pouted, “Minjoo pleaseee.”
“More reasons for me to not go.”
“What? Bitch, it’s Seokjin. He’s single.”
“So what? No! He’s going to think I’m a freak.” She sighed, “also, I’ve promised Taehyung I’ll follow him.”
“What?? Nooo. Going where??”
“His bandmates rent this cabin by the lake or something.” She shrugged.
“Taehyung was in a band? Since when?”
“He just got accepted last month. As a drummer.” Minjoo says as she scrolls her phone. “Have fun with Jimin, bish.” She then smirked. “This is probably the time.”
“Bish…” I whined, “I can’t do this without you. I’m nervous. Cancel on Taehyung please? Come with me instead.”
“Bitch what the fuck? Don’t be disgusting and go find some cute undies!”
Jiminnie💓: Baby, you ready?
Jiminnie💓: we’re outside now
Me: oh yeah I’m coming!
I grabbed my luggage and ran to the entrance door, “Minjoo!!!! I’m leaving! See you on Sunday!!”
As soon as I reached the lobby, my eyes wandering looking for Jimin’s car.
“Baby! Here!”
Oh my God. He’s so shining, I’m going to be blind. I jumped happily as I walked toward where he was.
“Good morning!” I said as soon as I saw him. He opened the door for me and we both sat on the back passenger’s seats.
“Morning, baby.” He said and kissed my cheek slightly, making me blush. It’s been like 5 weeks since our first date, we’re still on early stage so a simple action like a kiss on the cheek could still make my heart beat like crazy.
I noticed Jin sitting alone in the front and I whisper to Jimin, “Is it okay if we both sit at the back? How about Jin?”
“I wanna be with you now,” he pouted. “He won’t leave me alone when we reach the cabin later.”
“We’re going to the cabin?” I asked Jimin and he nodded.
“Yeah, Jin hyung’s cabin. It’s so pretty, baby. And it’s by the lake.”
“It’s Jin’s cabin?”
“I mean, it is his parents’ but they rented it out for whoever wants to chill there. Don’t worry. I’ll make sure we get to stay on their master.”
The journey to Jin’s cabin took about 2 hours. We don’t really say anything. Jimin fell asleep about an hour later, his head leaned on my shoulder. He was so cute and I can’t stop looking at his little pout as he slept.
Jin was quiet as usual. Sometimes he would yawn and sometimes he would sing very very quietly. To be honest, I don’t know why he’s single. Well, he’s not as hyper as Jimin but he’s very good looking and I could tell that he’s nice. Ugh, if only the blind date could work out between Minjoo and Seokjin. She’d be here with us now!
We arrived at the cabin about 2 hours later, and just like what Jimin said, it was so beautiful. The lake is so clear, the porch was so cozy, and the inside was absolutely amazing. It was very very spacious and Jimin managed to get us to stay in Jin's master bedroom. He was so fast, like, as soon as we arrived, he grabbed our luggages and just shoved everything inside the bedroom. Seokjin just rolled his eyes and put his luggage in the second bedroom, near the living room.
While waiting for Jimin’s other friends to arrive, me and Jimin chilled in the living room, watching some cartoons. Seokjin was sitting on the couch near the entrance door, probably writing some lyrics.
Spending time with Jimin makes me happy but at the same time, I was nervous cause this is the first time that I’ll be meeting Jimin’s friends. Well, other than Seokjin cause he was there during me and Jimin first meeting. Other than him, I don’t know anyone. What if they don’t like me? What if their girlfriends gang up and decided to just outcast me or something? Ugh, if only Minjoo and Seokjin liked each other!
I heard someone coming from the porch and Seokjin went to get the door. After not less than 15 seconds later, I heard gasps and Jimin got up to see who it was.
“Minjoo?”
“Seokjin?”
“Wait, you guys know each other?”
I squinted to see clearly and what the fuck? “Minjoo?!” I gasped. “Bitch! What are you doing here? I thought you’re with Tae-” I turned to look at her side and saw Taehyung looking at me too.
“Eh? Minjoo’s housemate?! You’re here too?” Taehyung said as he saw me. “Oh my God, you’re Jimin's new girlfriend?!”
“Shut up, Tae!” Jimin and Minjoo said simultaneously and Taehyung pursed his lips.
“Bish, I’m glad you’re here.” I whined as I pulled Minjoo inside and hug her. “I didn’t know that Taehyung’s your boyfriend.” I say as we both flopped on the couch at the living room.
“He wasn’t! I told you, he wanted me to go with him cause all of his bandmates are going to bring their girlfriends along.” She rolled her eyes, “Where’s Seokjin’s girlfriend?” She whispered.
“Well,” I shrugged, “you were supposed to be his girlfriend, but oh well.”
“Bitch what the fuck he don’t even like me!”
“Minjoo, you don’t even know that.”
“Oh yeah? Then what makes you think you know that?” she raises both of her brows.
“Just a feeling.”
“Feeling my ass.”
As we were talking, Taehyung, Jimin and Seokjin were in the kitchen, preparing for lunch. Jimin told us to just sit and do nothing and that they would prepare for everything. We both heard a noise outside, and we figured that must be Jungkook. Minjoo walked to the entrance door upon hearing someone stepping on our porch and I followed her from the back.
“Jungkook’s here?” Taehyung asked out of nowhere and I nodded. He then proceeded to follow me from behind.
“Jungkook-ah, what takes you so long-”, Taehyung says as Minjoo open the door, “Miss B?” He frowned as soon as he laid eyes on Jungkook’s girlfriend. Minjoo and me were speechless as we just stared at the girl.
“What are you guys doing here?” Hyewon questioned us, she removed her sunglasses.
“You guys know each other?” Jungkook looked at us and Hyewon back and forth.
“Holy pineapple! Minjoo, I’m scared.” Taehyung tapped on Minjoo’s shoulder and she rolled her eyes.
“We’re roommates,” Minjoo says and Hyewon shrugs.
I finally came into my senses and pulled Hyewon into her embrace and hugged her, tightly! “Yay! We’re all here! Oh my God!!” She screamed. “This is the best MT ever!”
“Wait,” Hyewon pushed me away and looked at Taehyung, “What’s Miss B?”
Taehyung shrugged while pursing his lips, and quickly ran off to the kitchen making Hyewon roll her eyes.
Most of us just sit around and chat. Me and the girls talked a lot while they guys were outside doing I don’t know what. It’s mostly Jimin forcing Taehyung and Jungkook out, playing badminton or volleyball. I don’t really care.
Seokjin was inside though, he’s at the kitchen, writing on his notes. Probably lyrics.
“Minjoo, bish, why don’t you go and talk to him?” I move both of my eyebrows up and down, grinning.
“Why the fuck would I?” Minjoo says, rolling her eyes.
“Come on, Minjoo. He’s so hot and single.”
Hyewon scoffed, “Jin is hot and single. But he’s not available.” she shrugged.
“You know him that well?” I asked Hyewon and she nodded.
“I mean, I’ve known them for like 2 years? But damn, Jin was hard.” Hyewon says, “He has a lot of admirers but accepted none of them. I bet he’s a virgin.” She laughed.
“Jimin? Do you know how Jimin was before?” I asked and she nodded.
“Well, partly.” She shrugged. “I know that his ex-girlfriend cheated on him for some other guy.”
“What?”
“Jimin’s a nice guy. Don’t worry. He may be a little bit too hyper so sometimes he’s kinda annoying, but oh well.” She shrugged again.
Seokjin cooked us bolognese for dinner and it was so good. Reminds me of my hometown. We were all now chilling in the living room,
“We brought beers.” Jimin says as he placed dozens of beers followed by Jungkook at the back with more beers.
“That’s a lot of beers…” Minjoo says under her breath, quietly.
“Everyone can have this except Minjoo.” Taehyung remarks and everyone was looking at him weirdly.
Oh yeah, remember when Minjoo got drunk and made Hyewon give me giant ass hickey? Gosh.
“Ya, why are you deciding for her? Minjoo, don’t listen to her, let’s just drink.” Jimin says and Minjoo smiled faintly.
“No, she can’t have any of this. She does weird things when she’s drunk!” Taehyung pouted and Minjoo kicked Taehyung’s waist to shut him up.
“I wonder what they are.” Hyewon smirks.
“I want to see what Minjoo will do when she’s drunk. Let her drink, hyung.” Jungkook says as well, also smirking.
“No” Taehyung insist.
“Hey Minjoo, don’t be lame.” Hyewon nudged Minjoo’s waist and Minjoo rolled her eyes.
“Whatever.” She says.
“No, Minjoo. I won’t let you-”
“Shut up, Tae.” Minjoo sighed. “Let’s just get over this.”
“Ooh! Let’s play truth or dare!” Jimin suggested and Taehyung screamed, “No!! We’re not playing that!”
“Mr Boyfriend, you can leave if you don’t want to play, just don’t ruin our fun.” Hyewon rolled her eyes.
“I told you, I’m not Minjoo’s boy-”
“Whatever.” Hyewon cut her off, showed her palm to Taehyung signalling her to stop talking.
“You’re Miss Bitchy.” Taehyung said back.
“Truth or dare it is!” Jimin squealed as he sipped on the beer.
“Okay, who’s going to start?” I asked and Jimin raised his hand.
“I’ll start. Hmm, I choose,” He paused, looked at me, and smiled. “Y/N. Truth or dare?”
“Uhh. truth.”
“Okay, hmm. Why are you so beautiful?”
“Ugh! Get a fucking room!” Taehyung groaned in annoyance.
“Answer the question or you’ll have to be punished.” Jimin smirk.
“Uhm.. I was born with it.” I blushed.
“Move on please, next!” Jungkook says.
“ I choose.. Hmm.. “ I paused for a few moments. “Seokjin!” He was shook upon hearing his name being called as he was just minding his own business. “Truth or dare?”
“I don’t want to play.”
“Hyung..” Jimin whined. “Truth or dare!”
Seokjin rolled his eyes. “Truth.”
“Okay! Are you a virgin?” He widened his eyes and the boys laughed at the question I asked. I mean, I was curious cause he was so good looking. And Hyewon says he is a virgin so I wanted to confirm. There is no way this hotie’s a virgin.
“Do I look like I am?” Seokjin asked me back and I stuttered, “N-no?”
“There you go.” He shrugged.
“Okay, Jin hyung! Choose!”
“Hm, Jungkook.”
“Dare!” Jungkook screamed. “A man should always choose dare!”
“I dare you to stop touching Hyewon in front of us. It’s very disturbing.”
Everyone laughed except for Jungkook and Hyewon. “That’s not fair, hyung!”
“A man always chooses a dare.” Seokjin mocked him and Jungkook stomped his feet, angry.
“Anyway, I choose-” he paused, listening to Hyewon that was smirking and whispering at him.
Okay, Minjoo.” He continued. “Truth or dare?”
“Dare.”
“Okay, take a one shot of beer! The whole can.”
Ohh fuck.
“Whatever.” She say as sip on a whole can of beer,
“Jungkook-ah!” Taehyung yelled out annoyingly and Jungkook shrugged. Still smirking.
“My turn.” Minjoo says, rather calmly. “Hm.. Hyewon..”
“Yes?”
“Truth or dare?”
“Truth.”
“Why are you such a bitch?” She asked, her eyes slowly drifting out of focus.
“Minjoo and her damn repetitive questions!” Hyewon rolled her eyes. “Because this is who I am. Now it's my turn, Mr Boyfriend!”
“I’m not her boyfriend!” Taehyung groaned.
“I don’t care. Truth or dare?”
“Dare.”
“Kiss Minjoo.”
“What the fuck Hyewon! Why are you always like this all the time!” Taehyung groaned.
Hyewon shrugged, “do it!”
Taehyung sighed as he went toward Minjoo, Minjoo was looking at him, emotionless. He kissed Minjoo on the forehead, earning an angry yell from Hyewon.
“You didn’t say where!” Taehyung pulled out a tongue at her and she rolled her eyes.
“I choose.. hmm Jimin.” Taehyung says, “Truth or dare?”
“Hm dare.”
“I dare you to spell Y/N’s name with your butt.”
“Taehyung-ah that’s so embarrassing.” He kicked Taehyung’s knees.
“A dare is a dare”
Jimin complained but still getting up, he was pouting as he looked at me and said sorry. Then, he did it. He spelled my name with his butt. I laughed. It was so cute.
The games go on quite innocently, to my surprised until I turned to look at Minjoo who’s already on her third can of beer and she looked tipsy as fuck.
It’s Hyewon turns again and fuck. I don’t know why, I’m scared whenever it’s her turn. She always… ask us to do weird things.
“Minjoo.” She said as she smirked. Damn this would be it. Minjoo looked at her, still emotionless. “Truth or dare?”
“Truth.”
“You’re lame. Choose dare.”
“No.”
“Fucking choose dare!”
“Ugh whatever.” Minjoo massaged her temple.
“Choose any guys of your choice, and give them hickey.” She smiled. “Any guys.”
“Am I included too?” Jungkook asked and Hyewon rolled her eyes, “yeah fucker.” And Jungkook smiled.
“Any guy?” She looked at Hyewon and Hyewon nodded.
“Well, except Mr. Boyfriend.” Hyewon laughed. “That would be lame.”
Oh Lord, I haven’t even given Jimin my love bites yet please don’t choose Jimin.
“Just walked to him without saying anything and just attack his neck and suck.” Hyewon added, still laughing.
Minjoo started to roam her eyes, looking at each guy carefully, but still, emotionlessly.
“Fast Minjoo. Do it.”
She looked at Jungkook who’s already looking at her while smirking and then she frowned and turned away to look at Jimin who’s sitting beside me. He was not even looking at her. And then she turned to her front and saw Taehyung on the floor. He was just sitting there, pursing his lips and she tilted her head. Probably thinking of something.
“I said except not Mr. Boyfriend!” Hyewon hissed.
“Who’s Mr. Boyfriend?” Minjoo ask her back, still confused. “I don’t have a boyfriend.”
“Kim Taehyung!” Jungkook answered for her, “Anyone except Kim Taehyung.”
“Oh.” she turned her head towards the end of the couch and saw Seokjin. He was looking at her, and she shifted her gaze towards his neck.
Minjoo's body then moved towards Seokjin and we all gasped. Seokjin blinks his eyes a few times and then she just- go to his neck, and peck a little before pulling away.
“A hickey Minjoo! Not touch it with your lips!” Hyewon groaned.
She pulled away, looking away from Seokjin who’s already red. “I- I don’t know how to do that..”
Taehyung went towards her as he tried to pull Minjoo away from Jin as well but Hyewon stopped him, “Leave her alone!” She yelled. “Minjoo, just fucking suck his neck until you taste blood.”
“What?!” she looked at Hyewon in disgust. “Wouldn’t it be hurt for him?”
“No, it won’t”
“I don’t want to taste blood.” She whined.
“Well, suck to be you.”
“Ugh” she groaned, as she turned back to Seokjin. He was just there, not moving. Minjoo moved closer again to his neck, slowly, and pulled out her tongue and kitten-licked one part of his neck, and that’s when he- uhh- he started to breath sharply. After a few licks, she went in and sucked his neck slowly, and then after a few moments, she suddenly got on Seokjin’s lap and grabbed his neck and shoulder. Seokjin’s breath was getting heavier that one might mistake it for a moan.
Minjoo was still, weirdly, on Seokjin’s neck when suddenly she was being pulled away by Taehyung. I guess she felt so mad at the loss of touch cause then she started to cry and struggled to escape from Taehyung’s arms.
“No! Let me go!” She cried and Taehyung hugged her, tightly, “enough Minjoo. You’re drunk. Let’s sleep.”
“No I want that! Let me go!”
“Minjoo! Let’s go!” He yelled as he dragged her to their shared bedroom, “You guys continue.” He said.
“Minjoo is so drunk.” Jungkook says as Taehyung dragged Minjoo away to their room.
“Well, not as drunk as she was before.” Hyewon shrugged and started to kiss Jungkook's neck. “You’re disappointed that she didn’t choose you, baby?”
Jungkook shrugged, “well, kinda. I mean, we all know I’m the hottest here.”
Jimin scoffed upon hearing what the maknae said, “obviously she didn’t think that.”
“Says the one who’s avoiding her cause you’re scared of your girlfriend.”
“Shut up, there's a difference between scared and love, okay?”
I pursed my lips, and almost blushing when I heard Jimin said the “love” word.
“Whatever. Hyewon, let’s go.” Jungkook grabbed Hyewon’s wrist, “I know what else can we do other than this stupid game.” He smirked.
And they walked away.
Seokjin stood up and grabbed his notes and guitar, “I’ll be at the porch.”
“Y/N, do you want to shower first?” Jimin asked me and I shook my head.
“You can take shower first, Jimin. I need to call my mum.” I said and he nodded.
“Y/N, you can shower now,” Jimin said as he entered our shared bathroom in a robe.
“O-okay.” I say, quickly ran out to the bathroom, leaving Jimin in a robe without looking back. Gosh he’s making me blushing, he’s so hot!
I was halfway showering when I realized I forgot my towel and underwear. I finishing shower and figured how the fuck would I reach to the bedroom without them.
I peek outside the bathroom, Jin is still outside, Jungkook and Hyewon in their room, same goes with Minjoo and Taehyung. Welp. Whatever I guess? I’ll just cover my body with my dirty clothes.
“So C-cold,” I managed to get out as I raced to the bedroom, stopping suddenly at the sight of Jimin, standing only in his briefs.
Jimin smiled as he spread open a giant towel. “Come here.”
I went to him gladly as he wrapped the towel around me, then grabbed another towel to put on my head. He moved me to the cushions he had spread out on the floor near the heater and couch.
“Oh my God, Jimin. I’m freezing.” I told him through huge shivers as he sat behind me and began rubbing my hair dry.
“Well.” He put his arms around me and leaned against me. “I’ll warm you up.”
I was amazed at the difference Jimin’s body heat made. He definitely warmed me up, but it took me another ten minutes before I could stop shaking long enough to properly dry myself. I then grabbed my fresh undercloth and went to the bathroom to put them on, quickly returning to the heater with a brush in my hand and began running it through my hair to try to make it dry. I gave up after half an hour. It was as dry as the humid air would allow.
I turned to see Jimin leaning against the sofa. He sat on the cushions he had taken from the sofa, spreading them out on the floor to mimic the size of a twin bed mattress. His eyes were on me as he sat inside a blanket, his only movement coming when he spread the blanket open in an invitation to join him. I went up to him after a moment of hesitation. I still felt cold. I reached over to him when he spread his legs, enabling me to sit between them, putting his arms on my stomach-clad T-shirt.
After a while, I don’t know how long we had been here, we both were relaxing and off into our own world when I suddenly felt the difference in the small of my back.
“What.. are you thinking about?” I asked him quietly.
“Guess.”
He pulled my back against him, and I felt his hardness plainly against my back. He moved his hands beneath the blanket, warming my skin as they sent tingles through the areas he touched. My legs were warming as his fingers moved flatly over their tops, making me bend my knees and bring them up to satisfy his reach. His fingers that moved toward the inside of my thighs sent tingles through me before moving on. Jimin’s left hand moved up, beneath my T-shirt as his right hand moved to the elastic band of my underwear.
My breathing was cut short as my senses peaked, waiting silently to see what he would do next. I didn’t wait long because then, his left hand moved over my breast, my left nipple tightening upon contact. His right hand went lower, fingers taking pleasure in the softness of my mound as his legs moved over mine, going around them and spreading them apart. I was exposed to him now and he was taking full advantage of it, knowing just where to touch me and coax me into sparkling sensations.
With my head back against his shoulder, my hands moved over Jimin’s legs and arms, the only part of him I could reach without changing my position. God! How could this one man change me so quickly and so completely from a thinking, functioning human to a creature that’s totally lost to sensation with a deep need to be satisfied.
“Y/N.. You’re so beautiful..” Jimin breathed softly against my cheek.
I turned my face toward him, allowing him to meet me in a first kiss that was deep and encompassing. Oh, he tastes so good, just how I always imagined it would be. His tongue was teasing me, excites me as it touched my lips and tongue as he pulled back slightly before resuming the deepness of our kiss again.
I noticed the change in his breathing, becoming as strained as mine. His left hand moved from my breast to my thigh. It was pulling me back against him as his other hand worked with me, pressing my writhing hips against him. I could feel him behind me, his burning flesh now against my flesh.
When he had lifted my shirt earlier, my wriggling had maneuvered his underwear lower. He was leaning forward with me now, his legs spreading further as he pressed against me. God, he was exciting me beyond belief. The only thing that my mind could grasp was that the extreme need to keep kissing Jimin in the highly erotic way he had begun.
I don’t even realize that I was arching back against him, again and again that spasms washed over me until I heard a sound. Was it possible that those noises were coming from me???
I was slow coming out of this one. My hands moved slowly over his arms until his hands met mine, entwining his fingers with mine until I became aware again. Jimin warmed me, prompting me to get to my knees to turn to him and then raise his knees as well behind me.
“Jimin?”
“Shh. It’s okay.” His arm came around my waist as he took off my shirt and his other arm caged around my torso. He leaned forward against me, lowering my face onto the cushions.
He pressed me against the cushions as his mouth met my shoulders. Curiousness made me remain still under his touch, not knowing just what to expect next. He moved my hair off my back to give him greater access to my shoulder and back before sliding his palm sensuously over my shoulder and down my side, then resting on my waist. His mouth gave my neck kisses, moving lower until his hand caressed my firm bottom. His lips brushed along my spine and across my sides, making me clutch onto the cushions in response to the softness of his lips and tongue. But when his hand moved lower between my legs tried to get inside of my pants, I stiffened and tried to get up.
“Jimin! What are you doing?!”
He stopped his downward movement, hesitating a moment as if indecisive, then changed position until he was lying next to me. His hand stayed where he was, making my stomach knot again, making me feel more alive with each bursting sensation. His fingers played me like his well-tuned instrument.
“I hope this means you’re ready.. because I am..,” Jimin whispered against my neck.
There was a low fierceness in his voice as he pulled off my pants and panties simultaneously, but when he moved to lie above me and spread my legs, I stiffened again under his touch and tried to get up.
“Jimin! No! Don’t!”
“Shh..” His hand stroked my hair as he kissed the side of my mouth.
“No- please, Jimin, don’t!”
“Y/N..” he moved slightly so he could look at me more closely. “Baby, I wouldn’t hurt you.” His voice tried to soothe me, but I didn’t want any part of what I thought he was about to do. I had heard stories in school, and the thought filled me with fright.
“Baby.. you’re twenty years old now.. How could you remain so naive? You’ve got to know more than you let on..”
“I’m only twenty years old, Jimin! I’m not like your other girlfriends! Forgive me for not being as accomplished as they were! But I have no desire to fuck around with people! I wanted to do it with someone I truly love!”
I probably shouldn’t have brought it up. I mean, I wouldn’t have if he didn’t mention my age and the fact that I’m a virgin like it was so bad to be one. The anger in his face sent a chill through me as he moved over me once more. I felt his hand moving beneath my waist, jerking me up until I hanged like a rag doll out of his hand. He took a cushion and shoved it under my belly, then pulled me on my knees.
“Don’t bother about my ex-girlfriends. I’ll just fuck you better, so you could satisfy my needs later on.”
I felt his cock throbbing under me as I tried to dive away, but he was quick to lean over me and wrap his arm around my waist. His other arm also came around me, but his hands moved in different directions. One was cupping my breast and the other moved down to below my stomach.
“Jimin! Don’t!” I growled through clenched teeth.
“Don’t fight me, Y/N! Jesus Christ, did I ever hurt you before?!”
He held me against him, front to back as we both were on our knees. My breathing ragged from trying to escape. His mouth came down on my neck, gently kissing the sensitive area of my shoulder as his left hand caressed my breast, making me relax slightly.
Jimin’s fingers slowly reached the softness below, moving lower to make me need him again as much as he needed me, continuing until I was pressed back against his chest and moved my hand over my shoulder to feel his face. At this point, I was beginning not to care how he took me as long as it would be complete. The intensity of his cock riding up between my thighs, sliding between them, was driving me nearly mad. My hips were moving under the guidance of his hand, making my own hands move to his hips and thighs as Jimin continued to send me to a point near fainting.
“Do something!” I was trying to say it in an irritated command, but it came out in a velvety moan.
“Is that an order?” His voice was very low and husky as he breathed into my ear.
“Please..”
Jimin didn’t hesitate. He slowly stood up, picked me up and gently laid me down on bed. I was mildly aware of his hands on my calves as he spread me open and I was so scared. I could feel my heart beating like crazy, I’m pretty sure I’d die.
Jimin spread my legs wider and guided himself toward my already moist entrance. I was expecting it to be a painful and shameful experience, but surprisingly there wasn’t any pain as he filled his cock inside me, slowly, sending a deep moan from me. It wasn’t what I had expected at all.
“Do you want me to stop? Am I hurting you?” His question brought another deep moan from me.
His hand cupped my chin and he kissed me with combined tenderness and passion as he let out a low groan and began to move back and forth in gentle thrust that soon became more and more urgent.
“Jimin..” I whispered, straining against him.
“Y/N..” his voice broke as he quickened his pace, gathering me even more tightly against him. I started to feel something on my stomach when suddenly Jimin decided to pull his cock all the way out. My body constantly changed its mind and I feel empty and aching, which was very confusing to me.
“Jimin..” I whined. Unable to say anything but weirdly, Jimin understood, and pushed his cock inside me again, this time, fully, all in one stroke.
Nothing had ever felt this good.
Nothing.
The moan that came out of my mouth matched with his as he began moving inside me. I tried to remain still but then I lost myself and rolled my hips. Jimin said in a tortured voice, “Yes baby.. grind on me- fuck, Y/N! You feel so good.”
I fell back and adjusted my legs, trying to find a place to put them. Everything about him was big, even his hips and I was unsure of myself. Jimin seemed to understand my thoughts and lowered himself over my body, resting his weight on the forearm that pressed into the mattress on either side of my head. Then he hooked one of my legs around his waist and pushed deeper into me.
“Oooh oh oh!”
“Too much?”
I wrapped my other leg around him in answer.
“Dig your heels into my bottom” he commanded roughly. I did and it opened my legs wider and it changed the angle again.
“Yes!” I cried out with more enthusiasm than intended. “Jimin!”
He chuckled in response, and I felt so happy, I laughed too, breathless. Jimin’s mouth found mine and I accepted it, greedily kissing him back as he rocked into me steadily. A lock of dark, damp hair brushed across my face as he dipped his head to my neck, sucking and kissing. His shoulders bunched. I ran my hands through his chest, then skimmed around his sides, feeling every taut muscle in his torso, tight and hard and shifting beneath my exploring fingers as he moved.
I accidentally made strange noises but Jimin felt so good, I couldn’t make myself care anymore.
“Y/N, my God.” He whispered against my ear. “You feel like heaven. So perfect. Even better than I imagined.”
My pleasure was honed by his words, abruptly quickening. The slick muscles at my center wanted to clench and bear down on him, but he was too big for me. I cried out in frustration, feeling the urgency of what was coming, almost frightened by it. It was gathering within me with alarming speed.
The last time when Hyewon brought me to orgasm with a fucking vibrator, that was one thing. This was wholly different. Park Jimin was inside me. Sharing the same pleasure. Filling me. Surrounding me. I was humbled by the intensity of emotions that bloomed at the horizon and raced my thundering heart.
“God damn.” Jimin cursed appreciatively as my center tried to clench around him again.
“Jimin, oh my God. Please don’t stop!”
“I won’t, I won’t,” he said, pumping his hips with urgency. “Come for me, baby.”
I grasped his solid shoulders, slick with sweat. My breath caught as I tightened around him for a final time. Euphoric spasms pulsed through my center, bringing wave after wave of astonishing pleasure. I was shook. I whimpered and just when I began to fall back down to the Earth, Jimin pounded into me a handful of times with such intense strength, I opened my eyes to watch him.
Mouth slack and wide, he bucked, squinted his eyes closed, and bellowed out an extended cry that reverberated through me as he shuddered in my arms like a great, divine beast taken down by a single bullet.
Jimin then rolled to his side, taking me with him, and I heard his heartbeat pound in time with mine, slowing and heavy, I felt an unyielding sense of brutal possession and fuck. I am so fucking in love with Park Jimin. How could I have doubted him? I should have known that I was safe with him, that he wouldn’t hurt me. Jimin’s eyes were closed and his breath still irregular, but his hand moved until it found mine, gently grasping it.
“I told you I wouldn’t hurt you.”
“Yes. You did.”
“And you didn’t believe me.”
“I didn’t-“
“You didn’t know.” He chuckled and it warmed me.
“Jimin..”
“Hmm?”
“Thank you..”
“No, baby.. thank you..” he kissed my forehead as he pulled me closer to his embrace. “Now let’s sleep.”
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Phone sex w/ cnco
Okay y’all, i feel like maybe i heard someone talk bout this concept once, or idk if someone already has done it buttttt...
Here’s my pitch bc i can fux wit this idea
Erick
-Not that great at it tbh
-His way is more like sending nudes if we’re being honest
-Totally amateur, but i mean that just makes it more intimate and personal
-Is actually really good at the build up tho
-Isn’t just “send noodz”, maybe he’ll start with just a shirtless pic of him in bed with a “😏”
-And the pics get more and more risky between the both of you
-Literally you’re just reading his words off blurry Snapchat pics and they’re still the sweetest throughout it all
-“Que Bonita te ves..” (lol get it) or “No puedo esperar verte mañana,”
-Will also break in the middle of the steamiest parts to send you a pic of his eyes and forehead n be like “what movie is on behind u?”
-Rarely sends videos bc he thinks it’s a lil embarrassing
-But when he does it’s bc you like to hear his voice when he’s all worked up
-So he’ll send it right when he knows you can’t hold on any longer
-Can probably just go back to a regular snap conversation after like no problem
Zabdiel
-Will definitely call you after a rough day and just wanna vent about it
-And he’s so stressed and you haven’t seen him in like a month n you’re so desperate for him
-So you’ll be like “is anyone there??” And after hes like “no why” you start to tell him how you feel, what you’re wearing..
-Would totally swing right into it like “tell me what you’d want me to do to you”
-And this whole time you were supposed to be the one pulling all the sexy comments but he’s the one that takes over and just makes your head spin
-He’d tell you what to do to yourself, to imagine it was him instead of your fingers doing the job
-Loves when you say his name, even over little cracks through your poor phone service
-Would give little grunts of approval on his side to let you know to keep talking or that he likes it
-After it’s all said in done, he just lulls you with sweet nothings until one of you falls asleep
-“te extraño, te amo”
Joel
-Never initiates first like nuh uh hunnyy
-Like, not that he doesn’t want to, he’s just too nervous that you’ll be in the wrong place and time or even worSe what if you answer and he says something na$ty but the whole time u were on speaker in public :o
-But he’ll for sure tease it over text or somethin for awhile
-Send snaps of him in the mirror, wrapped only in a towel like “shower time 💦”
-Or he’ll say stuff about how he was working out earlier bc he knows you love to think of him all sweaty and pumping with that post- workout energy
-So you just feel obligated to call him and chew him out for being a tease like “ur such a teenager sometimes”
-And hes like “oh ya??...”
-And you’re like “.....yea...are we doing this or not?”
-It all turns into sexy picture war over snap
-He’s a respectful boy and won’t send pics of the d until u really ready
-The whole time you’re like talking on the phone while also taking these steamy pics so eventually you’re just like “let’s stop, i just want you to talk to me,”
-And he’ll pull all the nastiest and fuckboyish things out of his mind
-“I know you want it- tell me how bad you do”
-And you just kinda whine to agree, but nooo he wants you to reallyyy tell him
-Makes you sweetly moan his name time and time again and “Joel, Dios mío- i want you so bad,” the whole entire call
-Tries not to make it obvious when he’s about to lose it, so you start to sweet talk him when you hear his little gasps from the other side of the phone
-It’s a spiritual experience
Richard
-oh my god this boy
-Not afraid for it anytime, anywhere, no matter if he’s even in a different country or not, this man will call you if you just went to the store without him
-Likes to call you knowing you’re in public, or with friends/family tho
-Starts the convo like “baby, i miss you..” in that low gravely voice he knows hits you different
-He’ll go straight into the dirty stuff immediately after, telling you how if he were there with you, he’d take you to the nearest bathroom/the car and play out the hottest scenarios you’ve ever heard
-You just start blushing hardcore bc he gets to you so much
-So wherever you are, you just gotta excuse yourself and regain composure for a minute
-okAy and like imagine this real quick 4 me
-Hes FaceTiming/video chat one night,.. but maybe you’re wearing a baggy cut off shirt and it kinda slides off a little too far and he’s like “whoa mamí, don’t have to get naked for me yet” as a joke
-And you play around for a bit pretending like you’re gonna flash him or your shirt is gonna slide off again, and you’re both cracking up and making dumb jokes about it thEN
-He gets all serious and is like “bet you won’t take it off right now” so you’re like bET and pull it off like nothin bc you can’t back down from a good challenge
-And hes like “now take off ___” - so you do that too
-Until you’re in nothing but underwear and he’s just smirking sooo big
-Tells you how to touch yourself, watching as close to his screen he can as you go to town
-Isn’t even afraid to whip it out over video chat like y’all are just so open and comfortable with each other it’s not even a taboo
Chris
-im not saying that he’s a master at all of the above but....
-I am actually
-His fav thing to do tho is like tease it through bursts of texts during the day
-Will start as soon as you get to work
-“You look amazing today...” and then maybe an hour later like “no puedo dejar de pensar en tu cuerpo”
-Basically he be on some scum shit for awhile, building up texts and getting riskier....
-“And when you think you can’t handle my tongue any longer I-“ you see the notification and twitch as he continues to type.....then he stops.
-Ghosts you for a hot minute, no continuation
-And wtf like he can’t do that, so you bombard text him after a couple hours
-Only responds with “Call me when you get home”
-Sends a singular picture of him in a looowww hanging towel while he’s getting in the shower
-When you get home you call him riGhT away like no hesitation
-He does that “mmmmhmm” in that low ass growl and you’re 😩💦
-Makes you work for it tho
-Wants you to get ready for him, put on your sexiest lingerie, or just what makes you feel beautiful
-As soon as you do that, he’ll tell you exactly how to take it off, where to touch along the way, tell him how it feels and imagine him with you the whole time
-LASTs the WHOLE NIGHT LIKEE
-You can last rounds with him in person, but you never knew the capacity he had to wear you out without even being there
-makes you bEG
-“Say it- wanna hear u say how much you need me, amor”
-and like can y’all just imagine his voice the whole time, it’s just so clear n crisp through your phone speakers, and you just hear him holdin back noises, maybe letting a couple guttural moans slip and it’s so bone chilling that it alone can just send you into a full spiral...
-Talks you through multiple orgasms all in different ways (dirty, soft, sweet n lovey)
-Alright maybe i should stop
#i have so many feeli gs bout this k#can i get me a chris#porfaa#new challenge guys#set me up with one of ya homies that is like chris#or who u think is my type lmaoo#just send em my way#ill be waiting#cnco#cnco smut#cnco imagine#christopher velez#richard camacho#joel pimentel#zabdiel de jesus#erick brian colon
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Ummmmmmmmmmmmm… I just found this…..and I have no idea how long it’s been here……soooooo I’ll just respond to the last ask game I reblogged that has 100 questions? I’m sorry that my inbox hates me……
1. What is you middle name? - McRae
2. How old are you? - 17 and a half
3. What is your birthday? - June 28
4. What is your zodiac sign? - Cancer
5. What is your favorite color? - Blue, or Green, or Purple depending on my mood
6. What’s your lucky number? - i don’t really have one? 7 i guess??
7. Do you have any pets? - yup. 2 dogs
8. Where are you from? - Atlanta, GA
9. How tall are you? - 5′0″
10. What shoe size are you? - anywhere from 5 ½ to 6 ½ women’s
11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? - too many and yet not enough. i cycle through 5 pairs regularly
12. What was your last dream about? - idk anymore, but it must’ve been good cus i was upset when my mom woke me up from it. or that could’ve been cus it was 6am on saturday.
13. What talents do you have? - i have been told i am shaped like a friend, p gud at singing, a great director, and fairly good at drawing stuffs
14. Are you psychic in any way? - i get deja vu sometimes?
15. Favorite song? - right now Besides by Sam Behymer or Shiny from Moana
16. Favorite movie? - Grand Budapest Hotel
17. Who would be your ideal partner? - someone funny and super caring and patient and sarcastic
18. Do you want children? - yes? probably????? kinda on the fence
19. Do you want a church wedding? - nope
20. Are you religious? - HA nope
21. Have you ever been to the hospital? - like every month
22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? - no
23. Have you ever met any celebrities? - I’ve met authors? not like Celebrity celebrities
24. Baths or showers? - showers
25. What color socks are you wearing? - flesh….as in im not wearing socks
26. Have you ever been famous? - ummm……no?
27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? - yeah, kinda
28. What type of music do you like? - indie punk rock alternative? its an amalgam of styles. just never country.
29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? - no, but i have gone in just panties
30. How many pillows do you sleep with? - 3 under my head, 2 beside me
31. What position do you usually sleep in? - stomach or side
32. How big is your house? - 3 stories, 3 bathrooms, 4 bedrooms
33. What do you typically have for breakfast? - cereal in almond milk
34. Have you ever fired a gun? - no
35. Have you ever tried archery? - YES
36. Favorite clean word? - penultimate
37. Favorite swear word? - shit-fuck
38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep? - 36 hours
39. Do you have any scars? - yes
40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? - not that I know of
41. Are you a good liar? - eh, i’m an okay actor so…i guess??
42. Are you a good judge of character? - yes
43. Can you do any other accents other than your own? - YES
44. Do you have a strong accent? - I dont think so
45. What is your favorite accent? - Irish or Scottish
46. What is your personality type? - like myers-briggs?? ISFJ/ISTJ
47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing? - $108 dress
48. Can you curl your tongue? - no
49. Are you an innie or an outie? - innie
50. Left or right handed? - right
51. Are you scared of spiders? - as long as they’re a couple feet away from me its fine, but if its on me i WILL scream
52. Favorite food? - Honeycrisp apples
53. Favorite foreign food? - Sesame Chicken
54. Are you a clean or messy person? - messy cus Depression
55. Most used phrase? - well fuck
56. Most used word? - no
57. How long does it take for you to get ready? - 15 or so minutes
58. Do you have much of an ego? - HA no
59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? - both
60. Do you talk to yourself? - yeah, sometimes
61. Do you sing to yourself? - oh god yes
62. Are you a good singer? - i like to think so
63. Biggest Fear? - never finding love
64. Are you a gossip? - occasionally. i try not to be though
65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen? - The Revenant
66. Do you like long or short hair? - umm, on myself, i prefer short, but in terms of other people idgaf
67. Can you name all 50 states of America? - yes
68. Favorite school subject? - music theory
69. Extrovert or Introvert? - ambivert, bitches!
70. Have you ever been scuba diving? - no
71. What makes you nervous? - HA HAHA HA EVERYTHING
72. Are you scared of the dark? - not really?
73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? - yeah, sometimes too much
74. Are you ticklish? - yes
75. Have you ever started a rumor? - no
76. Have you ever been in a position of authority? - yes
77. Have you ever drank underage? - nope
78. Have you ever done drugs? - prescription ones. no
79. Who was your first real crush? - what the fuck does “real crush” mean? the first person i can remember confessing to liking was this kid named Matthew in pre-k and kindergarten
80. How many piercings do you have? - one on each ear
81. Can you roll your Rs?“ - yup
82. How fast can you type? - average speed?
83. How fast can you run? - slow.
84. What color is your hair? - ginger and this weird ass green/seafoam/golden color
85. What color is your eyes? - blue w/ green undertones god that sounds so fucking pretentious
86. What are you allergic to? - lactose
87. Do you keep a journal? - nope
88. What do your parents do? - one is an actress and the other is the art director for a local tv station
89. Do you like your age? - yeah i guess
90. What makes you angry? - ignorance
91. Do you like your own name? - yes
92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? - I know I really like Evelyn
93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? - idc
94. What are you strengths? - im very caring and empathetic, determined, will not take ur shit, good at being the mom friend
95. What are your weaknesses? - indecisive, distant, master of surpressing feelings
96. How did you get your name? - my mom thought it was pretty and liked that it means sea
97. Were your ancestors royalty? - i don’t know
98. Do you have any scars? - yes
99. Color of your bedspread? - aqua
100. Color of your room? - seafoam
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