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[bucky-at-bedtime]

Hi! I was wondering if I could be added to your Bucky tag list?? Please and thanks :)

Hey love! I’m sorry but I only have my permanent tags and my series tags up and running at the moment! If you want to be on one of those, they’re open 😊

[beckzorz]

Hi! I was wondering if I could be added your permanent tag list??

Absolutely!!! You’re on :D

[oliverwxod]

Don’t get me wrong - (Bucky Barnes)

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x reader

Warnings: not really any

Summary: The reader and Steve were so close to becoming a couple, but after winning the battle against Thanos he left for his final mission and nothing was ever the same when he returned. 

Y/n remembered when times were much simpler. Well, they weren’t ever simple, but compared to now they seemed to be. A time where herself and Steve had become close; through the battle of New York, Ultron, The Winter soldier- or Bucky as she calls him now. Y/n was there with Steve through it all. 

Steve and Y/n had always been a would they or wouldn’t they type of couple. Both of them really wanted to be together and make it work, yet the time was never right, especially when the accords split the Avengers. Y/n took Steve’s side like always, yet it still wasn’t the right time to pursue everything. 

Until years later; when the snap happened and half the population disappeared, but they somehow managed to win in the end through the sacrifice of friends and family. 

And Y/n thought the time was finally right. When everyone had seemed to come to terms with everything. With no more obvious threats lingering. It would have been the perfect time to start something real. 

Steve thought so too. Y/n remembers exactly what he had said to her only minutes before he left on his final mission to return the infinity stones. 

“I’ll see you soon doll. And the time will finally be right” He had leaned in to kiss her, but she halted him. 

“Save it for when you get back Cap” she spoke, smiling softly up at him. Steve had chuckled under his breath, giving her hand a quick squeeze before he walked to the podium and within seconds he was gone.

Y/n wished she had never turned his kiss away. For now she would never know what it felt like to kiss Steve Rogers. She only knew the pain of loving him, her heart clenching at the thought of how he didn’t return to her. Her mind whirling into a spiral of confusion as she had found him sitting on a nearby bench, aged and having lived a life of happiness with his one true love, Peggy Carter. 

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The ceiling of the room swirled in delicate patterns of white and ivory. Y/n couldn’t help but compare them to how the previous compounds ceiling used to be, plain textured and the same dull white colour, yet it had always been a place y/n had called home. 

Everything had changed and everything was different now. Y/n hated it. The new compound constructed with the help of Pepper, was a lot smaller than previous towers. Which was fitting with how only a few remaining avengers survived and chose to live there.

Y/n was one of those. She hadn’t wanted to leave, feeling it would be and always will be her duty to her country. To protect them, no matter the loss.

She had already lost so much, there was no point giving up now, she had no family like Clint or Pepper, no relationship, no pets. Nothing to give her a chance of an excuse to get out of this life.

Standing up from where she lay on her bed, Y/n dragged a sheet over her bare body, shuffling over to the balcony to admire the view.

She often found herself waking up in the middle of the night, an invisible pull taking her feet over to the sliding windows, so she could step outside and overlook the lake and dark shadows of trees.

The moon was the only source of light, reflecting in the slow ripple of waves, illuminating the towering trees that stood around the compound, shielding it from plain view, a supposed peaceful and serene environment. She took a seat on the small outside sofa, allowing her thoughts to cloud her mind in the quiet of the night.

“What are you doing out here at this time doll?” The raspy morning voice Y/n had come to know so well made her jump, expecting Bucky to still be asleep in her bed where she left him moments ago.

“Couldn’t sleep” she mumbled, her voice soft so that Bucky had to strain his ears to hear her.

She heard him sigh quietly, feeling his stare on her face before he sat himself down next to her, leg pressed against hers as he hitched the sheets resting around her higher to make sure she didn’t freeze.

“Do you still think of him?” Bucky asked, already knowing the answer. Bucky was never one to beat around the bush. 

“It’s hard not too, I’m sorry Buck...” she spoke ashamed.

“It’s alright” he shrugged, sighing softly at the thought of his best friend. “I miss him too”

“I’ve tried to move past it- but- I just can’t help thinking” she said quietly, her eyes following the pathway of a bird, swooping down past the lake and disappearing into the woodland.

“Can’t help thinking what?” He prompted following her eyeline to watch the same bird she had been distracted by.

“I can’t help thinking why I wasn’t good enough. Why I wasn’t enough for him to stay” she confessed. It was her darkest thought recently. But one that didn’t seem to budge from the back of her mind no matter how many times she told herself to stop.

“You shouldn’t think like that doll. It’s unhealthy” Bucky replies gently. The thought of her thinking that she wasn’t good enough made him frown and although he was glad his best friend chose the path of happiness, he was angry that he had to break Y/n’s heart in order to do so.

“I know. But- I just can’t help it. Because if I was enough- then he would have stayed” she spoke, her voice wavering as quiet and stifled breaths left her lips.

“Steve has always regretted crashing that jet into the water. It’s been the one thing weighing him down, haunting his nightmares and I think he finally did something for himself. I think it was always his destiny to be with her-“

“You’re not making me feel any better” y/n spoke, holding back a sob, her throat tightening as she tried to swallow the tears creeping up on her.

“And sometimes you will want something so bad that all thoughts of anyone else leave your mind and maybe when he went back he thought what if- what if he never crashed the jet.” Bucky spoke. “I don't think he intentionally meant to hurt you, he loved you- I know that. But-”

“But it wasn’t enough” she whispered, finishing off his sentence. 

“There’s always going to be someone out there that will hurt your feelings and make you feel like you’re not good enough. But there’s always someone who will come into your life unexpected and help you pick up the pieces.” he spoke. Trying not to be too obvious that the person he was talking about was himself. 

“And who do you suggest that person is? You?” she scoffed at the words that left his mouth. He had said it in such a soft, careful way and she hated it. Her defences pulling up wanting to fight him. 

Bucky sighed, Y/n immediately feeling bad. 

“Sorry” she mumbled. “That was unfair of me” 

“S’alright” Bucky said quietly, silence falling upon them both as y/n was lost in thought. She was trying to find out why she suddenly felt the need to lash out at him and she realised it was because what he said was true. 

Bucky had been picking up the pieces that Steve had left behind, whether it was in the form of a friend or the comfort of the soft, loving touches they shared at night behind closed bedroom doors. 

“Thank you” she said, the need to show him just how much she appreciated him was sudden, crawling up on her, chiling and desperate. “Thank you for being here” 

“I want to be here” he spoke. Y/n didn’t want to mention the fact that she was all Bucky had so he didn’t really have a choice. Sam was always so busy now, taking over Steve’s previous Captain position. So It was either her or loneliness. 

The two of them in similar positions. 

“I do” Bucky spoke as he watched her get lost in her mind. 

“Do what?” she asked, turning her head to the side in question, her body now facing him more. 

“I do want to be here” he said “with you” 

Y/n’s eyes widened. Scared that he knew her so well inside and out. 

“So do I” she whispered, it held a certain kind of sadness to it. But Bucky understood. 

It must have been hard to have nearly had someone you loved with your whole heart, a touch or fingertip away; to then lose them unexpectedly without a goodbye, being left to wonder for the rest of their lives...what if...

Bucky watched her, eyes tracing every inch of her face. She stood up, blanket still wrapped around her form, only turning back once she reached the door. 

“you coming back to bed?” she asked, eyebrow cocking slightly as she waited. 

Bucky didn’t respond, standing up and walking towards her. He saw her smile briefly before turning back around to walk inside towards the bed, her blanket slightly trailing on the floor behind her. 

Bucky stood on it, watching as it yanked the blanket away from her body, falling completely on the floor and revealing herself to him. She gasped, turning around to glare at him, but stopped when she saw the look on his face.

His stare was intense, scanning the length of her body with a hungry look in his eyes before he moved towards her with desperation, pulling her too him once she was at arms length. 

“I was serious” he spoke looking into her eyes. “I want to be with you”

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[oliverwxod]

Break up with your girlfriend, I'm bored (Bucky Barnes)

Pairing: Reader x Barnes 

Warning: flirting, swearing, no cheating just a lot of sexual tension and mind games? 

Request: Can you do an imagine based on ‘break up with your girlfriend, I'm bored’ by Ariana Grande please! This song is such a mood, can you make it where the reader is really flirty with Bucky even though he has A gf but he tries hard to resist the reader and then you can decide what happens next? Thank you!!1xx

Hope you like it! You’re right! this song is a mood!! The whole album is sickkk

Bucky’s eyes met hers across the room as soon as she entered, drawn to her presence even though he knew it was wrong. Y/n broke the stare, looking away with a smirk, she knew exactly what he was thinking. 

Her shorts short and her top tight; She knew just how to tease him. The amount of skin on show for such a cold day was not unusual for Y/n, no one ever batted an eye, except for Bucky. 

The one person whose attention shouldn’t be turned. He had a girlfriend who was sitting next to him right at that moment, chatting away in his ear as he nodded every so often, trying not to look over to where Y/n stood in the kitchen, a cup of coffee in her hand as she conversed with Steve and Nat. 

Eventually Steve and Nat made their way over to the couch, occupying the space opposite Bucky and his girlfriend Ana and joining in the conversation, Ana happily diverting her attention to the pair as she talked. 

“coffee?” he asked Ana, spotting Y/n in the kitchen alone now. It was a risky move and a dangerous idea, but he couldn’t resist the chance to be near her alone, after all, it had been a couple weeks since he had properly seen her. He suspected she had been hiding away in her room after the mission they were sent on together.

“Sure” Ana spoke, flashing him a smile before going back to her conversation with the two Avengers, with no clue how infatuated Bucky was with Y/n.

Y/n could hear him walking over to the kitchen without even having to turn around to look. She knew his footsteps, they were so distinctive compared to others, or it could have been the fact she paid no attention to anyone else.

She felt his presence behind her, turning around to face him with a small teasing smile. Her signature smile only reserved for him.

“Bucky” she spoke in acknowledgement, moving closer to him. “Coffee?” she offered, a light brush of her hand on his arm as she reached over for a couple of mugs and the coffee pot

He could feel the slight burn of her touch, it felt so right and he didn’t want to pull away, but he wouldn’t let himself get used to it. 

Bucky reached behind her for the pot of sugar, one hand resting on the small of her back unconsciously. He cursed in his mind when he realised what he had done, a move that felt natural. 

“Your friend seems nice” she spoke, completely disregarding the fact that she knew this woman was his girlfriend.

“Girlfriend” Bucky spoke, eyes narrowing. 

She laughed, shrugging “Whatever” before walking away from him, leaving him standing in the kitchen staring after her in disbelief as she sat directly opposite his girlfriend on the sofa. 

Bucky eventually built up the courage to rejoin them all. Focusing his mind and pulling himself together.

Y/n had stayed quiet the entire time, staring at the two of them with a smirk on her face, looking like she would burst into a fit of laughter at any minute. It was driving Bucky insane. He wanted to teach her a lesson, bring her down a peg in cockiness. But he wouldn’t cheat. That was one thing he refused to do. Plus he had found someone who he liked and she seemed to really like him back. 

He knew Y/n wasn’t the serious relationship type of girl. He would rather not get involved with her no matter how tempting and hard she made it.

She was staring straight at him now, her full attention on his form, eyes racking over his body, before landing on his hands, wetting her lips before they parted slightly. Bucky couldn’t tear his eyes away from where her lip was caught between her teeth. 

They were lucky no one was paying attention to the two of them, the obvious tension was ridiculous, it wouldn’t take an expert to figure it out. 

“Did Bucky tell you about the mission he and Y/n went on the other week?” Steve’s voice cut both of them out of their trances. “They got stuck in Europe due to the snow fall, they had to stay in a motel only 2 miles away from a Hydra base, it was the riskiest thing ever, everyone back here were worried sick”

“No, Buck never told me about that” Ana spoke, looking at Bucky with a curious smile in order for him to tell her more. 

Y/n rolled her eyes while no one was looking, Bucky catching her and sending a quick glare her way before turning back to tell the story. 

“It was not fun” he spoke gruffly “being stuck in a freezing motel with no heater” 

“Longest and... hardest mission ever” Y/n spoke up, a smile playing at her lips at her word choices, Bucky caught himself from choking, settling her was a glare once again, he was on to her and what she was doing.

“It was so cold and the thermostat, well it didn’t exist” she carried on. “Plus there was only one bed” 

Everyone went quiet. Bucky’s eyes widening in anger at her. He hadn’t told anyone they had to share the bed. 

“Oh don’t look so shocked guys, Bucky took the floor, ever the gentleman you’ve got yourself there” Y/n spoke, giving Ana a sickly sweet smile, which Ana returned with a small laugh and a look of relief. Everyone seemed to believe it, all except Bucky who shook his head at Y/n slowly. 

Bucky didn’t understand how anyone believed the act Y/n always put on. Bucky knew the real her, she was devious, sinful... the devil in disguise. 

The amount of times she had given him the chance to give in to her. There were only so many times, he thought she would have given up by now, he admired her persistence. 

He remembers the mission so clearly. The amount of times he was so so close to giving in. 

“Bucky, don’t be ridiculous, it’s fucking freezing and there’s no heat, you’ll get ill if you sleep on the floor” she spoke, frustrated at him. 

“Y/n, I can’t” he spoke, shaking his head. He was tired and he just wanted to sleep. 

“So what? I know you have a girlfriend, it’s just sleeping, right? Or are you scared you’ll finally give in?” she spoke smirking at him as she lay on the bed, head resting just below the headboard as she stared at him with her eyebrows raised in question. 

“Y/n” he whispered, it was tempting, oh so tempting that he nearly gave in and took her right then and there, he wanted to bite into her lip that was pulled into a pout. He wanted to fuck the brat out of her, but he knew he could be strong and resist. 

“Look Bucky, I promise I won’t try anything.” She said sincerely “ you can only have me if you want me” she spoke, setting out what he didn’t know. He always thought she would be the one to initiate something. 

But the game she was playing put the ball in his hands, he had the control and he didn’t even know it. She was trying to wear him down and it had nearly worked many of times. 

He sighed, crawling into the bed beside her, legs slightly brushing up against each other, his breath hitching in his throat. But she was speaking the truth, she didn’t try anything, she didn’t even say another tempting word. 

A small ‘Goodnight Bucky” before she drifted into a light sleep.

He was proud of himself for resisting, but every-time she only got worse. He wanted her; he really did. But he refused to throw away something that could be love with someone else.

Even now, the ball was still in his hands. It was up to him to play the next move.

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