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Life would be boring without my little Ginger Ninja 🐈 🥰

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Dear tumblr diary...

Tonight I am struggling with anger and frustration. Anger towards and frustration with the crap I have to deal with everyday, just because my boss is a pathetic ass hole who only cares about some of his staff and is a bully.

Anger towards and frustration with my colleagues who treat me like I am nothing and only good enough when they want my help. And if I say no or that I am busy, get told that I never want to help anyone and that I am not a team player and that it is my fault that that my colleagues treat me that way.

Frustration with the fact that I just can't find other work at a salary that one can survive on. That there is just no indication if we are even going to get a salary increase this year. That no matter how hard I work or what I do, I just can't get ahead financially.

If one more person tells me that I should just have faith, I am going to explode. I had faith and prayed and did all that is required of a christian and nothing, nothing has changed in my life. In fact I am worse off and being treated like crap by other christians. And then people want to know why I chose to step away from religion...

I am just so tired if trying and getting nowhere. Tired of being the better person. Tired of being bullied and if I stand up for myself just being bullied worse. Tired of life!

Being kind, hard working, caring, loyal and trustworthy means absolutely nothing. It just causes depression and anxiety because you get nowhere.

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Not much happened this past week.

Did some petsitting, visited new friends and spent this afternoon with family.

Boss is on leave for a week so the atmosphere at work will be more relaxed. Hopefully.

Gonna be doing pet sitting nearly every day this month. 😊🐶🐱

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Oh boy, this has been a looooong and busy day 🥱🥴 Tomorrow is going to be even longer, because we have to do a stock take after work.

My head is still spinning 🌪 Hopefully, a nice long bath and some calming music will help my mind calm down and allow me to get a good night's sleep.

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Dear tumblr diary,

It has been a while...life got busy and time goes by so quickly that months go by before you realise you haven't done something 🥴

Things have been more good than bad. Since the two misrable, mean bullies have left it has been a pleasure going to work. The new receptionist is okay. She does not really take her colleagues into account when she wants to do something, is all talk and no action, has an excuse for everything and does not pay attention. But we get along.

I have been on leave for 4 days so far and I am enjoying the laziness. Slept a lot these past 3 days, but I must say I am feeling relaxed and happy.

Petsitting the fluffy kitties while their slaves are on holiday. So I guess it is a "working holiday" 😆 Wish I could rather do petsitting everyday, it is so much more fun that working. But alas, I do not both the salary and the extra money the petsitting brings in. I do love looking after the Chinchilla kitties, especially the Doctor's 3 Chinchillas. I have been looking after them since they were 8 weeks old. They spoil me with love more than I do them 🥰

Have 10 more days of leave left 😎

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Dera tumblr diary,

Oh mam, it has been a long time since writing in your pages...

Life has been so busy, but some positive changes have happened and some not so positive.

Both workplace bullies have resigned and since they left the atmosphere at work has lightened considerably. Now I thankfully only have to deal with the boss' crap and not a whole click's crap.

The new receptionist is nice, scatter brained, talks way too much, has an excuse for everything and not much tact. At least she is not a bully.

Was told by my boss at both staff appraisals this year that the clients love me and only have nice things to say about me and that I do my job very well. Finally got the recognition that I deserve after 11 years of working hard.

I really love my job, even though it is not a high paying job, but I am happy and feel a lot less stress.

Financially, it is going a bit tough, but thanks to petsitting I am earning some extra money to contribute to the household.

We had to say goodbye to our QT cat after 17years. We hand reared her from 3 days old and she was my dad's shadow for the last 10 years. It was very hard to say goodbye.

My Bella doggie had to have a mast cell tumor removed from her elbow. Was a stressful time waiting for the results to come back from the lab. Thankfully, it was a low grade tumor and the vet managed to remove it completely. Eventhough, I have to take any swelling or lump seriously, I am thankful that the cancerous tumor did not spread.

During this all I managed to spend some time with my cousin's little boy, aunty's "little man". He just makes all the worries go away while spending time with him.

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Easter weekend, a long, 4-day weekend...for most.

Worked Saturday and today, but had 2 days myself. Wasn't crazy busy at work, but at least not dead quiet. Wore my easter bunny ears on Saturday and made all the clients smile. 😊

Looked after the 3 Chinchilla kitty queens again this weekend. Adorable little floofies 🥰

Rest of the weekend I just chilled and did nothing.

Tomorrow it is back to normal... well, hopefully without the shity attitudes and moods 🙄

I hope everyone out there in the tumblr universe had an awesome easter weekend!

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Just a kitty chilling with her gnome friend

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This silly kitty of mine 🥰 🐈‍⬛

He use to be the practice cat at he veterinary clinic where I work. Covid cause many changes and I adopted him and he has been part of my family for about 2 years now.

He just fit right in. My dogs and other 2 kitties just accepted him like he has always been part of the family.

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Damn, it has been hot these past couple of days. Thankfully, there is cooler weather forecast for tomorrow and the weekend.

Can't wait for the typical Cape Town winter weather! Rain, scarfs, blankets, boots, snow on the mountains and lots of warm tea.

I am not a summer person. The heat and humidity just make me feel uncomfortable, sticky and tired.

Looking forward to my appointment at the salon tomorrow. Goning for a haircut and I always feel lighter after a haircut. So I hope the lightness will go through the day with me.

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The past 2 weeks have been crazy busy at work leaving me exhausted by the time I got home. 😵

The one receptionist went on leave the day after I got back from leave, so it was long days and loads of multitasking. Not that this particular receptionist does much when she is at work anyway. Of the 3 receptionists she only does reception work and nothing extra. The other 2 of us have additional tasks that we have to do, like marketing, admin, social media, merchandising, displays, etc. But most of the time the one that does the least is the one moaning the most about how much she has to do, yet she has time for private telephone calls, messages and playing on her phone 🤨

Inbetween I have also been pet sitting. Really need the extra money.

This past weekend was my cousin's son's 5th birthday party - holy crap was there a loa of people, nearly 80! I felt a little overwhelmed, so just stuck to the 3 that I knew. Was interesting to see how the moms of the school friends did not really want to mingle with my cousin's long time friends. The dads all mingled together and the kids had tons of fun.

I had to leave after 3 hours to go and do my pet sitting job, but decided not to go back to the party. It was just too much, my head was spinning and I was feeling overwhelmed.

Well, today is the start of a new week. Hope it is just a little bit less crazy and that the veterinarians' moods are better. Sick of having to walk on eggshells all day, because they are in a bad mood about something.

Wishing everyone a great week!

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Dear tumblr diary...

So none of the jobs I applied for came through, but still keeping an eye out for jobs an applying.

This past week and q half has been great. Loads of Me Time.

Had the best time at the Two Oceans Aquarium with my cousin's little boy. He brings so much happiness to his aunt's heart! We spent over 2 hours at the aquarium just taking in the beauty and tranquillity. The big tank with the sharks in is our favourite.

The rest my holiday I spent doing my hobbies - finished reading one book and started another, finished knitting the blanket for the little guy's 5 birthday that is next month, started knitting a scarf with the left over wool to go with the blanket, building a puzzle and managed to watch most of the documentaries I had been meaning to watch.

Tomorrow it is back to work ... my sstomach is in a knot and I am feeling super anxious. Hopefully, by some miracle, all the crap, bullying and toxic atmosphere has disappeared and we can all work together in harmony .... wishful thinking, but miracles do happen...

Here's to a good night's sleep and a great day tomorrow.

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Haven't heard anything about the job I applied for on Monday, but I am still holding thumbs.

Survived the staff appraisal on Tuesday. Had nothing to say to my boss as, from past experience, he does not give a flying fart in space what I have to say. He asked my opinion on some items that we sell in the vet shop but, again, he just made me out to be an idiot that does not know what I am talking about.

These staff appraisals are such a bunch of bullshit ... his scale for measuring staff performance is based on corporate standards. We are a small 2-vet animal hospital sales not a big law firm or medical company where staff have to generate sales and new clients, etc. But, whatever. He thinks he is this big shot business man.

So now we wait and see if he is actually going to pay me a performance bonus.

I am still looking for other work as I cannot stay in that toxic work environment with a boss that bullies the staff he does not like.

The two miserable receptionists that I work with spent Friday bitching and moaning about the fact that I was going to be on leave until 23 Feb, because now they have to work harder. I don't give a damn. I work bloody hard and get zero recognition for it while they do as little as possible with a shitty attitude and get told how much their "hard work" is appreciated.

I have been on leave for 2 days, eventhough it is the weekend, and have taken it easy... read, watched some documentried and slept 😴 most of Saturday and had a lovely time with my brother and his girlfriend this afternoon.

Now I'm just chilling, watching a documentary, making a "diary entry" on my tumblr.

Tomorrow I am going to spend the day at the 🐠 Two Oceans Aquarium in Cape Town with my cousin's little boy for my 🎂 birthday is 4 years old, turns 5 next month, and I have been part of his life since his was born and I love spending time with him. The Aquarium is our favourite place. Watching his amazement and excitement brings a big smile to my face and joy in my heart. Can't wait! 🥰

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