#sry i talk about short people so much. im gay

[kuromi-hoemie]

god short people are so hot. every inch shorter than me someone is the hotter they get. by 5ft and under i can barely even think and my heart starts going crazy just thinking about interacting with them.

it's less the height alone that makes them hot and more like you're already hot but now it's multiplied by 2, 3 etc. the numbers aren't real but there's definitely some sort of math going on that makes me want someone so bad it makes me stupid after a certain point.

god..... short people you're so hot... i need you to know it's not just cute or endearing or whatever like you are actually fr fr Hot okay. it's so attractive of you and you don't even have to try

[purpleforcreativity]

ight so im currently in high middle school. (what i call 8th grade) and there is both a really athletic kid whos straight, and has a gf who is really cute, and a cute short boi who is either gay or bi, he hasnt decided yet, but he acts like he hates me, or dislikes me. they are v cute, and i like both of em. i am very tall, and i apparently can pass off as a high schooler, and have been able to buy shit beyond my age thingamajig. that was off topic, but anygays, idk what to do. i also have seen a guy in the other 8th grade class who i pretty much ruined my chances with, which i doubt i had any to begin with bc he said hes straight, by actin wierd and callin him gae. my voice is kinda wierd, so it sounds way worse. sry for venting to u, more on the way if u wish -bisexual anon

no no im here to listen, i love getting people talking about stuff

anyways alright ive felt this way too (see: me crushing on my straight friend, me crushing on my friend who openly didnt like me back, me crushing on my friend who liked me back and deciding i didnt want a label, and also my qpr)

so you will definitely meet more people if youre only in 8th (going into 9th?) so you dont need to worry. if you really like someone though, try looking into one of their interests. maybe you can talk about it !!

[ofstrikcrs]

heyo what’s poppin ! it’s me, hannah !  i’m 20 n vibin in the est. my pronouns r we/them/boys but she/her work as well djskfsmd n i’m currently #unemployed BUT i am a full time student... majoring in dumb bitch theory n loving my gf n i’m at the top of my class baby...... :’) ANYWAY. i’m back again w a ( hopefully ) more condensed version of the infamous google doc(s) STRIKER KIM? MORE LIKE STRIKE ME IN THE HEART I LOVE U BITCH so that u dont all have to read the monstrosity that is my app ( but like, if u wanna... u can find it right HERE ) 

n without further ado... let’s kick it !

this is striker, he’s 28 ( soon to b 29 #ariesculture ) n he’s very complicated.. very complicated.... 

his mom cherry kim ( nee corallo ) is the daughter of lorenzo corallo, renowned filmmaker. daphne had a stint in acting in her youth as well but ending up withdrawing from the spotlight once she married his dad.

his dad is warren kim, business man

what kind of business you ask ? well..

let us rewind a little bit, shall we? now if you know anything about the ins and outs of organized crime in new york city, the name corallo might sound *eyes emoji* familiar to you. giovanni corallo was a boss of the lucchese crime family until his arrest and… you guessed it… that means our man lorenzo corallo is a man of the mafia !

lorenzo, however, wasn’t a first-born son which also meant he wasn’t an heir in any way shape or form and was free to do his thing you know BUT when it came time to arrange marriage for his one and only daughter, cherry, it was Expected of him to keep it in the family 

enter the kim family, who had been loyal to the lucchese family for as long as they’d been in america and had built up quite a reputation for themselves in the family, so it was just a natural choice to marry off cherry to their son, warren

they had two kids! their first-born son, dagger, and their second-son…. STRIKER !

and, as in all mafia stories, there is no better prize than the benefits reaped from die-hard loyalty, so in addition to getting to marry a corallo girl… a series of unfortunate events ( i.e. some deaths and arrests ) led to the promotion from right-hand man to acting boss of none other than our very own warren kim

now being the child of an acting mob boss is stressful, but being the second-son of an acting mob boss is… slightly less stressful. see, cherry stepping Out of the spotlight was a strategic move on her own part but was entirely her own decision which meant that striker was free to choose the exact opposite

with no real mafia-related responsibilities or expectations ( other than keeping his mouth SHUT ) on his shoulders, he was more or less… free to roam however he wanted and as he’s always had a taste for the finer things in life, there’s no real surprise that he chose to follow his mother’s side of the family and became nothing short of a socialite in new york city 

which.. despite what the press says abt our #mans striker kim ( i.e. being a billionaire playboy, irresponsible, reckless, wild, etc. ) he’s smart n his main motivation for heading straight for the spotlight is bc every person who falls in love w him is part of a complex and expansive insurance policy that makes it that much harder for the mafia to make him Disappear, u know ?

this is one of the reasons why striker and dagger never Really not along, though striker’s always had this theory that dagger was built for nothing but the mafia anyway bc he’s straight up one of the meanest, cruelest,  most RUTHLESS people that striker has ever met. but, like, with a name like dagger… how could you not be?

things really start getting #Complicated for striker when he’s ABOUT to graduate from college and his dad yeets this mortal coil in a Shocking Tragic Unexpected death ! it doesn’t really affect striker all that much bc striker spent a lot of his life living with his grandfather in the city but… rather when his father dies it’s dagger that ascends into the role of acting boss and BOY OH BOY that’s nothing but trouble for striker 

dagger gets striker roped right back into the mafia that he worked his whole life to try n get out of.. just like that. sad.

and because striker is… como se dice…. a stubborn shithead with a penchant for the dramatics, he starts looking for a way to make his brothers life absolute hell because! yes! striker IS the person who fucks with the mafia! what a moron!

for a good few years it was just minor stuff, nothing really consequential, but that gets boring very quickly bc ... u know ... it is what it is 

ANYWAY. he really finds his in to what’s going to make dagger kim’s life HELL and that is getting himself involved in a little heist group. there are only so many events that striker can show his face that end with a robbery of some sort before it starts to become suspicious, and it doesn’t take a genius to connect the kim family to the corallo family to the lucchese family. it’s just enough to keep people talking but not enough to actively incriminate himself. and as long as he’s not publicly throwing the lucchese family under the bus, he’s still, by all accounts, insured by the mafia as the son of warren kim.

anyway! enough w the backstory! here’s some fun lil personality n headcanon stuff :’)

first and foremost.. he does have a face tatoo. ( and an eyebrow piercing and yes i have photos of both if u want to see them )  it’s of a crown on his left cheek and he   got it within a week of his father dying and dagger forcing him to come back into   the mafia to Assert His Dominance n show dagger he was still in charge of his own   goddamn decisions so fuck you dagger

dagger punched him in the face for getting the tattoo and he had a black eye for two weeks but you win some you lose some

on the surface? rich kid asshole!!! rich RICH kid asshole!!! you know the kind of guy you take one ( 1 ) look at him and you’re like yeAh u absolutely think that ur better than me ? that’s him 

does he rly think he’s better than u? unclear.. depends on who u are... i already have some thots abt who striker wld dislike hmu tho aha x

fluent in english ofc n also korean and italian, his primary language is lit rally a jumble of korean and italian tht nobody can understand but like.. him n dagger n his dad ( rip ) n he also knows a little spanish and japanese.

he’s afraid of horses but will never admit it

he loves to bet!!! he loves it!!! it’s probably from growing up in a family where making bets on things was a major source of income but he will 100000% place bets on anything there is to place bets on and will rope as many people into his betting pools as possible

he hasn’t had his gay awakening yet isn’t that tragic??  turns out the mafia ISN’T a very lgbt friendly place, who would have thought?? so that’s absolutely something that’s going to happen bc we know that i love to make my characters suffer esp when it’s related to their attraction to someone whew…

he’s somehow both the biggest gossip and the most secretive person that you’ll ever meet??? like he’s an instigator n will make offhanded comments abt what he’s observed other ppl doing recently that he thinks are… inch resting… and you’ll have this long ass conversation w him and not realize until like 2 hours later that he didn’t say one ( 1 ) thing abt himself the entire time

you know how finnick from the hunger games used to get paid for things w secrets??? that’s so striker to the core… like you can’t buy him or bribe him bc baby has $$$ and is so disinterested in the glitz and glamor of fast cars and expensive drinks and whatnot, so if you really want him to do something for him… you’re going to have to trade him some secrets… n that’s that on that!

he doesn’t like to take his shirt off around ppl bc #scars ( predominantly the large letter L that’s branded on his chest but there are some others that i haven’t decided on yet ) anyway he does not partake in the pool parties n as explanation has just always  told everyone that he doesn’t know how to swim… n he’ll die w that lie, thank u !

very paranoid... has 2 different phones w his contacts n codes.. folds his clothes a certain way so he can know if someone touched his stuff... has a fun in a safe under his bed that he changes the passcode to regularly.... he also has some ocd but a lot of it is #trauma

im sry there r so many points here i .. rly tried to trim them down n there are like 300% more in my app but.. whew... ok

i’m going to stop now but pls.. pls plot w me i beg ok thank u bye

[boyfriem-moved]

Tell me about your ocs!!

oh boy WILL I EVER (below the cut bc im probably gonna ramble forever sjhdlhfsjd sorry)

so the ocs i was shitposting abt in that last post are my dumbass 12 year old ocs who were inspired by seraph of the end and the mortal instruments so it was uh,,,,,,,, a whole ass trainwreck but i love them and every time i tried to make them interesting i ended up changing everything about them so like last year i decided i would keep as much the same as i wanted about them and just fully embrace the mary sue dumbness of it and go absolutely wild

so! the state of the world at this point is that most of humanity is dead and the world is overun with demons and seraphim and some Whole Ass Biblical Angels and also vampires i guess bc Fuck You Vampires Are Cool. most living humans travel around in packs, general apocalypse bullshit yknow anyways all that’s boring onto the characters 

rowan is my twelve year old self’s self insert and their main personality trait is that they have an eyepatch and own a scythe and i love them to death. they’re self sufficient and perpetually annoyed and super gay and pretend to have no feelings but are actually super high strung and constantly worried about their friends. also they have an edgy cloak and bright red hair and did i mention the eyepatch and the scythe they’re the world’s edgiest bitch and i love them 

picture (sry for the old art it’s from like last december oof)

mal was pretty much nothing except rowan’s comphet boyfriend when i was younger so naturally i gave him the world’s most undeserved makeover and now he’s just a whole entire rowdy boy. imagine if the kid at your middle school who was obsessed with yugioh, instead of switching to magic the gathering when they got to high school, switched to kinning god and fistfighting demons. HIS dumbass origin story is that he was so scared of death that he made a deal with a demon named malachi (not its real name, the demons and seraphim are so terribly inhuman that human ears can’t hear their names, so they pick their own names somewhere within the range of “jeff” to “ylllmar the destroyer”) and then decided “hey as long as i have your power i basically AM you”, and now refuses to be called by his human name (james) because he’s so Dedicated To The Kin. (he’s such an asshole that he once told someone not to deadname him when they used his proper name. that someone being rowan. who is actually trans. they were not amused) 

picture (again: old (from november 2017 i think)) (also don’t worry he’s fine)

jem is probably my favorite (not 2 pick favorites but it’s her). she has all the confidence of mal, who’s so strong that he’s All But Immortal, except she’s 15 and 5 feet tall and couldn’t fight someone if her life depended on it. rowan considers her their mortal enemy, but they’re really something closer to girlfriends (although really it’s not that far of a leap from one to the other). she’s nosy and fearless and when she was like 13 she pretended to be a vampire to survive, joined a vampire girl gang, became the leader of said girl gang, then revealed that she was a human, but they all loved her so much that they just kinda said “fuck it” and now she has a horde of vampires to protect her wherever she goes. she’s The Ultimate Femme. wants immortality but doesn’t want it now because she doesn’t want to live in the body of a 16 year old for the rest of her life, so she’s waiting until her twenties to let one of the vampires turn her. in the meantime, she wears red contact lenses (vampires don’t have red eyes. it’s just a Her Thing) and every one of her outfits has enough frills and ruffles to smother her in lace. 

i dont have a readily available drawing of her but uh? yknow that girl from kill la kill (not to bring up kill la kill in the year of our lord 2019 i am SO SORRY) 

this one. that’s what she looks like kinda 

i can’t tell if this ask if ungodly long or if it’s just the pictures or both (probably both) but aNYWAYS 

my favorite beside jem is angel, aka the world’s dumbest bitch. his deal is that he’s a seraphim who was beaten up by his brothers for being a little bitch so he decided he’d go find a human to hang out with instead. so he put on the world’s most unconvincing human disguise (when i say seraphim i AM imagining glowing wheels of fire and eyes but they can shapeshift in this story bc uh. my world my rules) and went to find a human. and human. and he found little 12 year old rowan, said “this’ll do”, handed them a scythe, and they’ve been a dream team ever since. he’s fascinated with humans in the way that people are fascinated with their pets, which is kinda weird bc rowan is 100% the babysitter in this situation. he likes killing things, learning about human culture, rowan, and...that’s pretty much it. he and jem get along well because he’s like an overenthusiastic person and she’s the only one with the boundless energy to endulge him. 

again, no picture i’ve made myself, but i DID find the picture i ripped off google images a million years ago and used as his face (i promise you he looks nothing like that now...also i didn’t remember it looking like it had been deep fried jesus)

other noteworthy characters include: 

- mal’s pet demon who’s usually either a cat or a bird, both with WAY too many eyes, but sometimes takes the form of a little girl. her name is sara and her hobbies include mocking mal and biting people

- one random nameless demon who masqueraded as a middle school math teacher before the apocalypse which doesn’t matter one fucking bit except for the fact that when i was 12 i named him after my real middle school math teacher (i guess just bc i didn’t have name ideas?). which was all fine and good until my mom emailed him the story and i had to talk to him about how i’d written a short story where i inserted him as a demon 

- mika, the second in command of jem’s (almost) all vampire girl gang, her ex girlfriend and the butch to her femme 

[kkukkung]

v lorge ask compilation below

some of these asks date back like??? a few months??? dsdjkfhk... they’re ordered from newest to oldest i’m so sorry... messy messy

Ur blog is the plush jooheon is going like 😯😷😨😷😷 😵😫😱 to

it... is......... honestly i think jooheon is the member i’d get along w the least irl?? i can’t explain it but?? mb bc he’s a libra? also the fact that hyungwon received that huge shrimp plush n held it like a foetus is so :’’0000

annie tumblr is gonna censor ur whole blog cause ur gay

Good.

so... shart is ur New fav word now huh, guess that ges into my dictionary now...

shart made a comeback from 2016 me’s vocab and i don’t even know how it happened? :(

Sjdnkwldwnnw u ruined that punch scene in shine forever,, I can't watch it without thinking about your "my meat, me" gif 

the best gif i ever made??? gkjkjf sorry i rly am the most irrelevant person on this damn website? also that rly was my first thought when i watched the mv.... or maybe second thought after thinking “god i wish shownu would punch me like that”

changkyun is really so happy recently, he smiles so much and his eyes crinkle, its the cutest thing i have ever seen like ??!?! i want to protect him, just roll him up in a blanket and show him memes on my phone

he is!!!!! his happiness is my own happiness?? and when he smiles ur right he goes like >__< he’s rly the cutest boy alive? and this ask is so relatable esp the last part... if ck were my friend irl i’d just text him memes all day???

pls deactivate

relatable

I'm so soft rn. How can I FUCKING tell them how much I love them. Like I want to grab wonho's sweet squishy face and give his forehead a big SMOOCH. These boys deserve so much and I want to convey that to them in person but I CAN'T. And if I had the chance I'd probably ugly crying too hard to say anything.

this ask is so cute??? and i understand the dilemma like... idols are ppl who give & receive so much love every day expressed in 28347982 different ways so it’s hard knowing how to rly... Let Them Know just how happy they make u thru their existence alone? crying with u anon

yikes wait what happened w jinyoung?? i thought he was one of the few unproblematic ones...

[diff anon] jinyoung was on a tv show where he was playing a past love interest or something and he kisses the actress who's only 14..

i.... won’t comment on this bc i don’t want to stir up old drama but :/ aah i see... thank u for letting me know!

i started talking like you and another person who has similar typing patterns to you and now all my friends hate me bc of slorp and spicy

sdfjkghksdfkjfgkjds im rly sorry this happened to u... at first my friends were resistant but after a while they started picking it up as well thru exposure so... infect them jksfjjkgf... also add shart to the menu i guess? :/

Kihyun's kink is making people flustered. On the gifseft he's like "There's so many things I can do with my mouth, let me show you honey." He will grab your neck firmly yet delicately while he invades your personal space. Keeping eye contact is troublesome, this new proximity tastes as dangerous as the underlying promise of what will come next. But Hyungwon never figured it out since he backed out, breaking the siren's spell.

(response to this gifset i think? jshdfkjff) BLEASE... im writing a hyungki fic right now as we speak ✍️📝 anyway i like this characterisation of dom!kihyun bc irl he would be very dominant ??? and in fics he’s always the bottom just bc he’s #smol 🙄 but i mean he’s ?? so aware of his own sex appeal sometimes so he’d be like a switch/top/power bottom imo

you're right, you aren't into vore. More like in slorping and smorching knees/feet, and other nsfw things.

tbh im only fake horny :/ im a romantic deep down.. want to watch the sunset with lmh....... accidentally drop my bag of skittles on the dirt and he eats them up like a vacuum cleaner jksfdhkjgfkjfdhjgfjhjks

Annie, i feel like you'll understand me. Whenever I see Minhyuk, i feel a mixture of extreme lust, great anger and a desire to have my head bashed in because he's real and nothing else matters anymore. It's really.... not what i wanted in life 

another #relatable ask... i want to take minhyuk out on a candlelit dinner date but like.... at kfc and we’ll both be touching each other’s cheeks with our greasy hands like animals... like raccoons scavenging for trash in a dumpster

'kihyun stans are foot fetishists'' UHM!!! this is tru i would slorp kihyuns whole foot in one go

i don’t rmbr writing this but skjdfhfgsdkjgjk it... it really is true huh...

hi annie, i just wanted to ask you what your take on wonho's personality is? ive read your tags before and how you say he is very romantic in how he presents things, and i thought that was interesting!

aaa, i think i’ll write a proper post on this later bc it’s also something that interests me a lot... until then i’ll just say that i think he’s indeed very romantic and loves pleasing people... his driving force is rly Love u know... love for people (family, members, fans), for his job, for music, etc... he’s very soft and imaginative and sometimes that comes across as a kind of childish innocence?? more on this later

i wanna kno more abt the customer whos coming in more lately,, i lov regulars that come in at my job - it's such an interesting half relationship

hgfjjjsk this ask is from a month ago n i think i was talking abt that customer who asked me if i wanted to die but in a casual way?? jsfdkh i work at a tobacco store so this guy asked me if i smoked n i was like “uhm no i don’t” so he went “what? are you afraid to die?” and i stood there like... kind of dumbfounded for a sec jksfhg but he’s a nice guy n very cool... nvr seen his eyes b4 bc he always has rly dark shades on n he buys the cheapest cigarettes n leaves. but most regulars i get are like chinese international students spending their parents’ money on cigs and some sweet old men who always want the same smokes... there’s this one old man who always wears matching vintage suits n pairs it w a fancy hat n once he complimented my outfit and i was thrilled?? also some creeps come n chat me up while im working sometimes which is a bit :/// but mostly i like my job and it’s interesting interacting w regulars! thank u for this ask n im sry if this was like super boring lmao

idc what it says about me but Minhyuk rushing to eat chicken bones off the fucking floor brought him from 'would play Mario Kart and share nachos with' to 'would play Mario Kart and share bodily fluids with' levels

i want to Die.................... when he tried to eat those half-eaten chicken bones off the ground....... that was the moment that solidified his image as a Dirty Dirt Man in my head like he’s a Real Gremlin... i said it for fun b4 but it’s... a real thing. he’s actually Disgusting skjdfhjdkf... also anon u sound like a gremlin too??? join our big gremlin family???

wtf is "That" ????? and why is it related to kihyuck ?? - knowing ur tags it should be something gross, but u said it in such an onimous way; annie, i am scared.

i genuinely don’t rmbr what this was abt djgjs i write a lot of tags that don’t make sense even to me like a few weeks later?? sjdfjhkjsk i’m sorry... gotta start answering these in time so they actually have any kind of relevance... 

"That kink where you just want to be crushed....just like pulverized. Asking for a friend" Bless this tag

again.. don’t rmbr writing this tag and don’t rmbr the post i wrote it for but um, yeah, sounds like smth i said jkfdgsjfdjk im so sorry...

i just had a dream where minhyuk showed up, called me sexy and then left???

fun fact whenever ppl tell me abt their dreams here it’s always to do with minhyuk doing something weird??? also God I Wish That Were Me...

why do u say jooheon is def experienced tho? he legit said he never had a girlfriend in his life and it's clear seeing him interact with women, he has no idea what to do? unless you mean gay experiences, that's probably very true

THE LAST LINE OF THIS ASK JKDHKJD.... um i think joobs is experienced bc i actually think he’s sorta smooth? he’s pretty flirtatious w female hosts on the shows mx appears on like... w jimin on asc and w seulgi on idol battle likes... i don’t mean experience as in a lot of idk.. sexual experiences (if anything he’d b the type to be v devoted to someone if he was dating them i think) but i feel like he does know how to present himself in a certain... attractive light especially in front of cute girls? idk if i’m saying this right... 

ur minhyuk tags are so fnny and hella relatable im dying n 😂😭😂

my minhyuk tags: slorp... asterisk asterisk asterisk x10... nut... gremlin dirt man... nut nut... nutting... dksjfgkj but thank u?

but you ARE funny lol I laughed so hard at that bird/Shownu reference

gfjkgjkjk u can tell how old these asks are from the things they’re referring to... but nevertheless thank u sm im sry im a mess... at least im a funny mess to a select few ppl... thank u for enjoying my messy blob... i lov u

no exit ep 5 was a mess but wonho was lookin reeeal cute w those glasses tbh

???? what the fuck, where they serious about that fuckin Mathew the tiger??? If yes, then again, wtf??

jdsfjksk i still can’t believe Those Episodes of no exit rly happened...

i love your tags so much especially the ones where you imply that minhyuk's actually an alien "# he rly doesn't know what to do w his arms he hasn't possessed a human body in so long" lol

HE RLY IS AN ALIEN... like he’s obviously attractive n was popular in school n smart n funny n cute but sometimes he does the most unexplainable things n it makes me rly wonder if he’s human??? he’s so fucking weird u kno i love my alien gremlin dirt man... take me for a ride in ur ufo...

You @ wonho: :( sweet baby u deserve everything good You @ minhyuk: literally slorp my p**** you fucking snake

SHUT UP...

i started using slorp too help

this ask was sent 3 months ago... i can’t believe i’ve been saying slorp for three months...

um..... i luv u???smorch

smorch u back??? big sloppy smorch that leaves u disgusted???

Hey Annie, would you mind a short description of the Monsta X No Exit Chanel+ video?

i’m sry abt how late this is jsfdjkg but if anyone’s still interested... yeah the no exit video where they explained the hypnotism was p much just bts of jooheon and shownu getting hypnotised... and it kind of legitimised it ig bc joobs said he was concentrating super super super hard (and hypnotism only works when ur focusing that much??) n so did shownu... my ch+ actually expired recently so this is just from what i rmbr hfdjsdjkh if anyone else can contribute pls do! otherwise i will get a renewal soon and after that i could do a better summary if you’re still interested! sorry!!

Um...why are jooheons vocals slept on...what the fcuk he's so??? Nice to listen to??

tbh why is jooheon such a golden boy... literally good at everything... can sing dance (one of the best dancers in mx??) and rap.... compose... write lyrics... play 328974 diff instruments... cute n sexy at the same time.... what the fuck

I'm trying to figure out what your censored tags are but apparently my vocabulary of nasties is pretty limited

im glad??? pls don’t read the next part of this ask compilation ksfhkgsd

!!!nsfw asks... spare urself please...!!!

uhhhhhh for the nastea ask comp... kihyuns p*thy eating lips??? true, but whats the most to least best at eating out ranking order?

1. kihyun/wonho

2. shownu (would try v hard??? earnest man??)

3. hyungwon (idk i think he’s gotta be Good somehow i mean look at his lips??)

4. jooheon

5. changkyun

6. minhyuk (can’t find clitoris :/)

I would like to hear more about kihyun's p**** e**ing lips tbh 👀... please elaborate

idk what to say but i feel like the way he moves his lips sometimes is ??? erotic jskfdhkgjfdj and same w wonho... also the lisp has some relevance 2 ***** eating idk there’s a tie there somewhere...

I FEEL DIRTY WATCHING KIHYUNS BODY ROLLS ON WEEKLY IDOL I WOULD **** his **** at fucking lightning speed

rmbr when we thought sexy!kihyun Peaked during beautiful era w the return of the black hair but now he’s running around w a blindfold n showing off his new shredded body at any given moment.. yeah

(in reference to minhyuk probly not knowing where the clit is) minhyuk: *reaches into the back of your throat and flicks your uvula* "hows that feel babe? ;)"

reading this took years off my life i hate u

I disagree.Minhyuk is probably the most kinky out of monsta x.He just doesn't show it like every other expert in the field 👀👀

mmm i think hyungwon could be a Freak? jskdhfkg but ur right minhyuk is definitely someone who’s up for like... experimental stuff :/

[dear--charlie]

Dear Charlie,

I’m Flo, 17 and from Germany. Sry for my englisch. I’m texting you because I need someone to tell my stuff which pulls me down. I don’t know how else to tell. My best friend is very close to me and I love and trust her more than anyone else and I need her to stay the day but I can’t tell the deep shit… But I have to tell or it’s just killing me. Sry for this boring text. I hope may one people is interested in me.

Ok. Everything went bad when I was 1 year. My mom just left my dad. She had nothing. We moved into a shitty house. There she met her new husband. He’s an asshole and so a disgusting perve. They were jobless. Than one day it really went bad. My stepdad (I call him: Fickfehler = Someone which born was a failure.) abused me. I was fucking 6 years old. He did it for a long time till my mother trust me to take a bath alone. I was 8 or like that. I had to shut up. We went to McDonald’s or ToyRus so often. But why mom didn’t listen? She was drunk like she always was. All the day. She hadn’t better things to do. I’m supriesed that everything was clean and we had food. So I gain weight. Evryone in school hate me. I was wierd. I felt how they hate me. Noone talked to me. They hit me. Just for Fun. They called me embrassing names. I hated school. I hated every single day. At the secondary school I was so numb I stoped care about all the insults. I stoped care about everything. I just sat at home and had to hear my mom drinking. They had bad arguments. I was so afraid sometimes. He knocked on my door. He shout to my sister. He shout to me. I wanted to kill him but my mom was so happy. And I love her so fucking much that I just beared it. Once he throwed an ashtray made of glas. He hit me on my knee. Televison wasn’t a good escape anymore. I wanted to take drugs. There I was 11. As I was 12 I started smoking. 10 cigaretts an day. Some days later a clasemate screamed it in class as she saw my cigaretts in my pencilcase. I took them from my mother. Goldfield. A very cheap brand. Yea, the teacher talked to me… and I told him what my stepdad did. I don'g know why I told him but I had to. At the same day I went to a children’s home. I just went to school and than I sat at my room and did nothing special. Playing some XBox360 or Nintendo. The children’s home closed two months later. I went to another. They I met my first big love. He was a boy. I was so confused because of what my stepdad did. I’m still in beeing gay. I don’t fucking know why I love boys. But I don’t like having sex whit a boy or even a girl. It’s ok for me don’t have sex. Ok I never had sex with love. It was always a fuck thing. Friendship +. After a month I went into the psychiatry. My head fucked up quickly. I started cuting my arms an legs. Not deep, but it was the beginning of something very worse. From the psychiatry I was send to a new children’s home. A new city. New people which don’t like me. No one ever liked me. I don’t even liked myself. I started hating people. At the new children’s home I really fucked up. My brain gone crazy abd sad abd idk how to explaine. I started feeling empty inside. Then the persons from the children’s home desided I have to go to a familie in spain. Short: They hit me, they fucked me, made me feel even worse. There I tried lighter gas to get high. Had 3 suicide trys. If they hadn’t noticed it I weren’t here today. I beared it 2 and a half years ther till I freacked out an destroyed there house. Then evry thing went good. My mom still is in love with her husband but he can’t walk anymore #karma. At the moment I really want to kill myself. My legs are to short, I’m fat, I’m starting getting a bald heard. The past is still haunting me and I’m just down. I’m working in an House for old persons. Its ok. Its a level I can handel with but I’m still feeling bad and I’m alone. I wasn’t called beautyfull anytime… Noone will love me and I’m tired of live.

May you read all but I didn’t expect it. It’s boring i know and may i’m a bit to tragial but I’m not feeling good.

Sry for my grammar and if I got some failure.

And how are you?

I don’t know how to end a letter or a email im englisch sry.

Flo

[forcebodhis]

 asldkh i was tagged by malina (@ahsoaka​), an absolute sweetheart i love her 

• rules: once you have been tagged, you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. At the end, choose 25 people to tag.

• TAGGING (sry if you’ve been tagged already askgh):

(you’re in no way obligated to do this, btw!)

@petricalore​ @foreverleia​ @forcecassians​ @shywookiee​ & @ahsokla​ i don’t wanna tag 25 ppl sorry

truths under the cut :’)

• LAST:

[1] drink: chocolate milk

[2] phone call: my friend kate after her cat died :(

[3] text message: “wow that was pretty gay”

[4] song you listened to: somebody else by the 1975

[5] time you cried: a couple days ago when it was 4 am and ROTS was too much too handle for my brain :’(

• HAVE YOU EVER:

[6] dated someone twice: nah

[7] been cheated on: yeah,,

[8] kissed someone and regretted it: yea

[9] lost someone special: no

[10] been depressed: yep

[11] gotten drunk and thrown up: i nearly did one time,, 0 self control

• LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

[12] royal red

[13] sandstone

[14] clearwater blue

• IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

[15] made new friends: heck yeah

[16] fallen out of love: no

[17] laughed until you cried: surprisingly, no

[18] found out someone was talking about you: nope

[19] met someone who changed you: yes! many people, actually

[20] found out who your true friends are: kind of?

[21] kissed someone on your Facebook list: what is a facebook

• GENERAL:

[22] how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: i dont even have facebook

[23] do you have any pets: i’ve got a dog named maya

[24] do you want to change your name: nada

[25] what did you do for your last birthday: went to an amusement park with my friends & ate nearly a pound of dip n dots

[26] what time did you wake up: 6:30 am

[27] what were you doing at midnight last night: i was trying to decide how to match urls with agus since the ones we wanted were all taken weeps

[28] name something you cannot wait for: a PS4

[29] when was the last time you saw your mother: in the morning today

[30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: that i was more responsible

[31] what are you listening to right now: i’ve been jamming to the 1975

[32] have you ever talked to a person named Tom: no?

[33] something that is getting on your nerves: my parents constantly berating me about trivial things

[34] most visited website: netflix

[35] elementary: yikes

[36] high school: hoping for the best

[37] college: anxious for it

[38] hair colour: black

[39] long or short hair: short

[40] do you have a crush on someone: yeah :(

[41] what do you like about yourself: my LEGS

[42] piercings: i have two on my ears

[43] blood type: not sure? i think i have AB

[44] nickname: aiden? there’s not really away to give me a nickname with that name smh

[45] relationship status: single

[46] zodiac sign: libra

[47] pronouns: they/them

[48] fav TV show: the x files

[49] tattoos: none

[50] right or left handed: left

• FIRST:

[51] surgery: i had some surgery on my foot but it wasn’t really surgery they just put glue when i cut the bottom of it open with my shoe

[52] piercing: ears

[53] best friend: her name is kate i love her

[54] sport: volleyball/rowing

[55] vacation: went to india when i was two years old i think

[56] pair of trainers: i dont know?

• RIGHT NOW:

[57] eating: had lunch two hours ago, so nothing

[58] drinking: orange juice

[59] I’m about to: watch supergirl instead of do my government homework

[60] listening to: younger students shriek in the hallways. i am suffering

[61] waiting for: the bell to ring.....

[62] want: money, happiness?

[63] get married: not really

[64] career: i worked at an ice cream store for awhile, but i dont have a job right now. if i could choose, i’d like to be a game developer. 

• WHICH IS BETTER:

[65] hugs or kisses: hugs

[66] lips or eyes: eyes

[67] shorter or taller: taller 

[68] older or younger: older? i’m not really, sure

[69] romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous i guess

[70] nice arms or nice stomach: stomach! i’m already pretty good with my arms B)

[71] sensitive or loud: sensitive??

[72] hook up or relationship: relationship

[73] troublemaker or hesitant: im a troublemaker type so i guess hesitant lol

•  HAVE YOU EVER…

[74] kissed a stranger: nope

[75] drank hard liquor: yeah,,,,,,,

[76] lost glasses/contact lenses: i lost 3 pairs of glasses in a year

[77] turned someone down: you bet

[78] sex on first date: what is a secks

[79] broken someone’s heart: yeah

[80] had your own heart broken: i dont think so

[81] been arrested: nope

[82] cried when someone died: yes

[83] fallen for a friend: oh bOY,, yep,,

• DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

[84] yourself: i think so

[85] miracles: i guess?

[86] love at first sight: not really

[87] santa claus: no,,

[88] kiss on the first date: maybe

[89] angels: maybe?

• OTHER:

[90] current best friend’s name: kate,, 

[91] eye colour: brown

[92] favorite movie: there are so many to choose from oh my god?? i like fantastic beasts and where to find them, i could watch that movie dozens of times and still love it