#spurkspaint

[osc-confessions]

i used to stim so hard to webzforevz’s songs but now that he does that “don’t you guys just HATE straight people 🤢🤢🤢” bullshit i am filled with so much rage and anger i want to punch the fucking screen

Don’t you guys just HATE unnecessary demonizing 🤢🤢🤢

[traumatizeddfox]

tw grooming + incest

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is it weird that my dad groomed me but i still love him? kinda??? its kind of a love hate thing. and is it weird we formed an alter of him? is it even weirder if we're fictives and have source memories of this even though it never canonically happened?

last, is it possible to get rid of him. i'm scared for my life right now. he's being so weird to me and all touchy and stuff :(

not weird at all! its very normal to still love our abusers.

i don’t have alters but from friends who have it, and my own research (i may be wrong), i believe it’s common for systems to create alters out of their abusers or fictional characters. (I apologize if i have given wrong info)

it’s very possible to get rid of him in the sense that you can cut ties but i also know it’s very hard to, both emotionally and physically. i would suggest if you can move in with someone else (if you live with him), or just straight up cut him from your life, but i also know it’s very hard depending on situations.

[abusesurvivorsafespace]

cw incest, rape, and grooming

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hi ! i hate to be here but uh. i'm a tweek fictive in a DID system. i have very intense SA trauma with my dad grooming and taking advantage of my curiosity at the age of 6. i remember we watched cartoons and he would be gentle so i wouldn't have to think about it. i asked him what porn was, and he took advantage of it and i hate it.

we formed an alter of him not too long ago and he's been good about not being weird or anything, but sometimes he's really touchy and asks me if i still love him and that he'll never do it again and all that jazz. i don't believe him. i had to hide with my boyfriend somehow and he chased me. i don't know how much longer i can take this i dont want that day to happen again

the worst part is i have an SA and incest kink because of that day, so i'm tempted to let him do it. but there's nowhere to go since our headspace is a white void, so everyone would try to stop him. but i want to let him do it again for my own guilty pleasure and i feel like a total shithead!!!

i don't think i can do this much longer, neither can my bf or gf. i'm scared out of my mind

I’m really sorry to hear about what you’re going through

I will say DO NOT act on your kink. When you’ve been abused it’s normal to develop kinks because of it but try not to indulge in that kind of stuff with him because it’ll only traumatize you further and you’ll never know what new altars could develop or what new trauma you’d have to deal with (and it won’t be your fault, but it’s your responsibility to take care of yourself as best you can living around abusers and in general when you leave).

I have dealt with similar kinks that I realized were due to the abuse my brother and other people put me through and once I realized it I stopped acting on them and was able to fill my time with other things that were much more healthier and overtime I started to loose interest in them.

Having other things to do in place of this unhealthy symptom can certainly help you a lot. By indulging in it less, for me, it became less potent and the less often I thought of it.

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[osc-confessions]

i wish people would sprawl out in the object show community and what shows they watch. like- bfb, tpot, ii, and one arent the only object shows in the world. i was watching inanimate legacy earlier today (should totally check it out smiles) and i just thought like “this looks like a show that would be popular, so why isnt it?” kid you not the creator, flame ag, has vented to me multiple time about quitting because no matter how hard he tries, he can never get anything on it and i just feel bad because i feel like ii, bfb, tpot, and one hog up all the popularity and the underrated shows like inanimate legacy dont get much if any attention. i just feel bad.

You know what same. I think there are just so many shows out there with little publicity that people either get overwhelmed or don't know where to look. I put off answering this ask in the hopes I'd have watched Inanimate Legacy before responding, but I haven't had the energy, sorry. It sounds good from the way you describe it and I hope it gains more traction.

[osc-confessions]

im not scared to say this at all. not one bit. hot take

i hate webzforevz. im genuinely sick of the shit he says! he’s always saying shit against straight ships. its backwards homophobia. its shitty. he says shit like “straight ships are boring and gross!!! 🤢” like shut UP dude. im done with him. he seriously needs to grow the fuck up and say “straight ships are okay, gay ships are okay, lesbian ships are okay, polyamorous ships are okay.” because as long as its not a proship then its a perfectly fine ship???? i never knew why homophobes cried over people being gay and im even more confused with heterophobes crying over people being straight. just shut UP mind your own damn business

Yeah there’s literally nothing wrong with straight ships. Just like there isn’t anything wrong with being straight in the first place.

Webzforevz sounds like the kind of person who isn’t normal about straight trans people; he probably thinks he’s being funny and supportive of LGBTQ people but he really isn’t.