#sprained both my arms.... threw out my neck and back.... finally i may draw

[ivoreene]

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[jimin-and-things]

Home pt. 4

Pairing: Yoongi x Reader

Genre: mainly fluff, soft!Yoongi

Word count: 2.1k

Warnings: mentions of bullying

A/n: alright I'm going through some shit right now because my friends are ASS, so writing this has kinda helped take my mind off of all this stuff

Walking home in the freezing rain gave you some time to come to your senses

You shouldn't be this upset, you know that. You have problems trusting people though, and for the first time in a while, you let someone into your life, and they let you down. But you really shouldn't be that surprised at this point.

You stomp your heavy feet through the front door and trudge yourself upstairs and into your room. Once the door closes you flop onto the bed with a groan as your face falls into a pillow. The rains still falling outside and it furiously hits your window, you turn your to face the window. You aren't as mad at Yoongi as you were when you first left his house. It's not like he meant to stand you up.

A knock on your door breaks you out of your thoughts. You let out a 'come in' that's barely loud enough for the person on the other side of the door to hear. When the door opens, you see your brother peek his head through the door.

"Tae what do you want?" You sigh when you feel a dip in the bed and he pats your back, "Mom wanted to see what you wanted for dinner, have any suggestions?" You sit up and look down at your hands fiddling in your lap, you shake your head, "I'm not really that  hungry" Tae knows something is wrong, you aren't usually like this. He goes up to shake your shoulder, "oh c'mon what's wrong, look at me" after a moment, you look up at him. He notices your red puffy eyes and his eyebrows draw together in concern, "What happened? Did someone do something to you? I swear if someone hurt you-" you shake your head and you grab his clenched fist to calm him down, "No one hurt me, it's just..." You lay back down and let your head hit the pillow, "It's just frustrating, someone is just, confusing me" He hums in understandment while he nods, "It's about a guy isn't it?" You don't look at him but you look up at the ceiling and nod. A sigh comes out of his mouth and he puts a reassuring hand on your knee, "Look I don't know who this guy is but if he's stressing you out this much then you gotta be careful, please" With that he stands up, you sit up on your bed again and you grab his hand, "thank you" He smiles at you softly and ruffles up your hair, "No problem" you let your hand drop from his and he walks out of the room.

Yoongi knocks on the front door of your house impatiently. He's desperate to make things right as soon as possible. When the door opens, he's expecting to see you but instead, a man with tan skin and dark brown hair comes out, and he doesn't look too happy.

"You're the guy that has y/n so upset aren't you?" He has his arms crossed over his chest and he's staring at Yoongi with a look that could kill, "I didn't mean to upset her at all, that's why I'm here to fix it" He moves to the side so Yoongi can walk into the house but his angry expression doesn't change, "This hurts her more than you realize, she's been through a lot, you are her friend, you're supposed to be there for her, so go be there for her." He motions his arms in a 'go' motion, Yoongi understands and starts heading up the stairs, he hears Tae from downstairs, "Her rooms the first door on the right"

Once he is in front of your room, he brings his hand up to knock on the door ever so gently. He hears a soft voice tell him to come in. With that, he opens the door and pops his head in, "y/n?"

When you hear the knock on your door, you expect it to be Taehyung again. When you turned your head to see who it was, the last person you expected it to be was Yoongi.

"Yoongi??" Your eyebrows are drawn together and your mouth is open slightly, "Hey...can I come in?" He takes a slight step inside your room. He does a once-over of your appearance and sympathy flows throughout his body. Your hair is a mess, different strands flying out in every which way. Your eyes are red and puffy from crying he presumes.

"Sure, sit down" you pat a spot on the mattress next to you, he takes the invitation and takes the seat next to you. As soon as he sits down, he opens his mouth, "I am so so sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you that much-" you cut him off to speak, "But I shouldn't have acted the way that I did" He shakes his head and he cautiously takes your hand in his, "You had every right to act that way, I left you outside in the rain for an hour, to makeout with Taeyeon nonetheless. I feel terrible for it, and I hope you don't hate me, but I understand if you do." He's still holding onto your hand as he searches your eyes, waiting for an answer.

"I...I forgive you, I mean I'm still mad about leaving me out in the rain but I can get over it" A sincere smile is plastered on your face. He lets out a sigh of relief that he's been holding in and he copies the smile you have on your face. He lets go of your hand only to pull you in closer, he puts a hand on your head and pulls you into his chest. You're surprised by the action, taking a moment to realize whats happening until you leap into action. You wrap your arms around his waist and you place your head into the crook of his neck. The closeness, it's what you've always wanted with him. You both stay like that for a while, you're the first to pull away. He looks down at you, he looks as if he is about to say something, yet nothing comes out, "What is it?" He sighs, "Can I ask you something? If you don't want to answer, that's fine." You simply nod your head and he continues, "Your brother, he...he said you've been through a lot. I just want to know what he means, but like I said, you don't have to answer if you don't want to." 

He probably would find out about your past anyway, you might as well tell him now, "...At my last highschool, before I moved here, I was bullied. It...it started out with insults here and there, it hurt but I could stand it. Then, as the school year went on, it got worse, they would leave terrible notes on my locker. Then later, it turned, physical. The girls would trip me in the hallways they would hit me if I got too close to them." The tears are already forming in your eyes, "I honestly didn't think it could get any worse. I already lost the few friends I had, I ate lunch in the bathroom stall. But, one day, there was a dance at our school and one of the most popular guys at our school asked me to the dance. At that moment I knew it was too good to be true but I went anyway. When I got there it was all fine until I got called on stage and everyone..." The tears have been falling for a while now, "They all threw fruint punch at me, I was drenched from head to toe, at this point I wanted to leave so I went to walk down the stairs from the stage and I slipped and sprained my ankle and no one helped me up so I limped out to the front of the school and called my dad to pick me up. If I just didn't go to that dance I would've been fine, I'm so stupid" you're choking up now, and it's hard to breathe as the tears are falling more quickly now and you hide your face in your hands

Yoongi listens intently and as you continue to tell your story he can't help but tear up as well. He brings his hands up gently to your hands and takes them off your face, he leans down to look into your tear filled eyes. His heart swells even more at the sight of you, he doesn't have the slightest clue on how to comfort you, he's not used to doing this, but he makes an attempt anyway, "y/n, you aren't stupid. You just wanted to have fun at the dance, there's nothing wrong with that at all. What they did to you is beyond cruel. You should never of had to go through that. Thats not what you deserve." You sniffle as you're now looking up at him with doe-like eyes. Yoongi places his hand on your cheek and his voice gets quieter, "you deserve more than what I can give you. I know I messed up but I won't mess up again. I want to be your Friend, I want to get to know you more, I want to be there for you." He leans in closer, "Please let me do that for you"

The sweetness in his voice makes you smile at him. He copies that smile and you lunge forward and attack him with a hug. The force of you lunging forward has him pressed against your mattress as your arms are wrapped around his neck. His arms are wrapped around your waist, you both stay like that for a while. You don't want to let go. His hands rub your back comfortingly. Your head is in the crook of his neck and you let let out a small 'thank you'. It may have been short and simple but that thank you meant more than Yoongi would ever know.

You stay like that for a moment longer and you pull back, you give him a hand to help him sit up. You can't wipe the smile off your face and he chuckles, "what?" You continue to smile at him, "sooo, can we try to hang out again soon? Maybe we can actually get to watching the movie" he laughs then nods his head, "I'd like that, come over to my house tomorrow. I promise I'll actually be there this time." You grin and give him a childish look, you hold your pinky out and wave it in his face, "promise?" He tilts his head and gives you a 'really?' look. You laugh and continue to wave your pinky around. His smile doesn't falter and he finally puts his pinky up and he intertwines his pinky with yours.

You both laugh as you drop your hands and you yawn shortly after, "you're probably tired aren't you?" You nod your head slowly, "well then lay down, I'll tuck you in" you roll your eyes, "oh c'mon, I'm not 5" he raises one of his eyebrows and he's not letting up so you finally lay down in your bed. He looks happy with his success and he pulls the blanket up to your chest and tucks it under your arms, "I told you I'm gonna be here for you, I'm just doing my job" he lifts up your head and fluffs your pillow. He looks down at you and he gets a feeling of butterflies in his stomach. He doesn't know if he should but he can't help himself. He leans down and places a gentle kiss to your forehead, he whispers against your forehead, "sweet dreams y/n"

You don't know what's going through his mind as he looks down at you. But when he leans down and kisses your forehead you become a blushing mess. You bite your lip when he stands back up. You say your goodbyes and when he leaves your room you break out into a smile, you yawn once more then your eyes flutter shut and you're soon fast asleep.

As Yoongi's about to walk through the front door, he hears a deep voice from behind him. He quickly turns around to be face to face with Taehyung, "So did you make ammends with her?" Yoongi smiles proudly and nods, "I did, we are even gonna hang out tomorrow" Tae nods his head in approval, "great, but I swear you better not mess this up again" Yoongi smiles and takes a step out the front door, he turns to Tae once more, "From now on, I promise I'll be there for her" With that, Yoongi shuts the door and walks with a bit more happiness in his step. He promises that he won't ever let you slip out of his hands again.