#spoiler tw ig 🤪

[notebook-of-elle]

im finally writing the floydsinshaw au :) im so content. i have been writing different scenes that have come to mind to build the story and it definitely needs work specially to give the scenes some continuity but like- im legit so excited for this

[jiamour]

pushin’ n pullin’

pairing: guitarist!jisung x reader

side pairings: markno, rensung, … & more

genre: band au, enemies to lovers, angst, fluff, nsfw, hurt/comfort/more hurt but mostly they’re just some goofy guys, humor, slowburn, kind of slice of life

warnings: heavy themes relating to mental health disorders, !!one of the characters has ocd (because i have ocd and i wanted to write about it) so they mention “obsessions” that may trigger psychosis!! mentions of doctors and meds, emotional abuse, minor character death, absentee parents, drug use, addiction, extreme homophobia, chronic disease, toxic relationships, A LOT of talk about sex and sexuality, i’ll add more as they come along (welcome to my trauma dumping au :]) 🔞🔞

a/n: there’s a lot of pov’s in this au so if i think it’s confusing or if the perspective is important i’m going to add a heart that matches the pov.

(💗 - yn, 🖤 - js, 💛 - rj, 💙 - jn, 🧡 - mk, 💜 - dh, ❤️ - jm, 💚 - cl)

band au

~ in which your neighbor, jisung, keeps you up at night in more ways than one. not only does his shitty band practice until ass o’clock at night, he’s also hooking up with your roommate, whose room you happen to share a wall with ~

alternatively: your circle small but all y’all crazy🤪 (and queer)

playlists:

dh.♩ rj. ♩cl. ♩ jn. ♩ mk. ♩ jm. ♩ js. ♩ yn.

INTRO: meet the band // ig

TRACK 1: aquarius be gone

TRACK 2: spin spin

TRACK 3: space jam tw//bugs

TRACK 4: homophobic

TRACK 5: role model

TRACK 6: rejection sensitivity

TRACK 7: mercury in pisces

TRACK 8: ratatouille tw// chronic disease

TRACK 9: hoodie

TRACK 10: tarot reading

TRACK 11: literally just a markno fight

MARKS INTERLUDE

TRACK 12: 1984

TRACK 13: stocks // pokemon spoilers??

TRACK 14: wednesday

TRACK 15: incognito

TRACK 16: quarter

TRACK 17: omnipresent

TRACK 18: :( (manipulatively)

TRACK 19: [redacted]

TRACK 20: warblers

TRACK 21: literally just a rensung fight // read tws

RENJUNS INTERLUDE

TRACK 22: therapist // read tws

TRACK 23: boyfriend material

TRACK 24: leave him

TRACK 25: pottery

TRACK 26: here we go again

TRACK 27: moon song

TRACK 28: bad hair day

TRACK 29: woohoo

TRACK 30: aita

TRACK 31: jobless monday // read tws

JAEMINS INTERLUDE

TRACK 32: love or hate?

TRACK 33:

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extras:

when i don’t feel like actually writing

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[rinsie]

so,,, imm vent here cuz its my blog and i can do whatever i want🤪 but tw cuz serious shit happened and yeah,,,, so

tw: Su1cide, depression and idk cringe KAKXKWKS LMAO

Mmh first of all, PLEASE don’t pity me or smth like that cuz i don’t like it :/ it makes me feel pathetic oops so,,,,,,

Okay, i have clinical depression bc childhood trauma oopsies🤪 so im not always in my 5 senses cuz meds and stuff, im very emotional and sensitive to some topics and that hate anon never stopped:( i didnt respond to any of their asks cuz i didn’t want to make a big deal out of it, I don’t know how but they found my old ig account and there i had some personal shit likr family issues and stuff like that and they started to bring that up here so i was already pissed of but kinda sad ANYWAYS then i had a pretty AWFUL argument with my parents and idk, i was overwhelmed with my emotions and ay dios mios i can’t believe im gonna post this KEBDHJW i tried to kill myself🤪🔪 spoilers: it didn’t work cuz im a coward and i told my mom so we were running to the hospital cuz i took pills (sanzu would be proud) so that was it.

Sorry if i wasn’t active lately but i think is justified 🤪 na but im okay now, or at least that’s what i like to think, i can’t be hospitalized (ik that’s not the word but my brain isn’t working, sorry) cuz we don’t have mental hospitals here so Win for me🥳 and this saturday i leave for college so that’s it.

Thanks for coming to my ted talk.