#soz if this was just a long ramble that didnt make any sense

[starfoxrry]

also a lot of ppl who don’t know dnp well don’t realize what dan was talking about in 2011. they were accidentally outed due to a yt glitch, then ppl spread around vd*y and started pressing them on their relationship and sexuality and were digging into their personal lives. dnp spent like a year shutting that shit down. by the time i joined the phandom in like 2016, there were clear rules and boundaries for what was okay to do, say, talk about, ask dnp, etc bc of that era.

tea !! it was like that for me when i joined the fandom in 2013 too. i tried to watch dan’s video back from the perspective of someone who barely knows him and like i can see how they can make things he said to mean other things. but really, they dont understand how much dan values his privacy. dan and his brother dont even follow each other on social media bc he doesnt want people to bother his family. compared to the way phil is with his family, i dont think dan has ever even mentioned his brother by name or have recent pictures of his parents up. and like at least now adrian even has a public social media acc. i remember when fans harassed him on his tumblr abt dan and phil which lead him to lash out and deactivate. i remember all the copyright claims phil filed to take down The Video and even some blogs on here who were posting things that they no longer want up. All those ppl who would follow them home from the bbc or those who just happen to pass by their old apartment just to see what their home lives are like. All those UK vloggers who made it like their little squad’s mission to terrorise d&p on twitter and vaguely out them. and while i understand (and im sure dan does too) that anything on the internet that was once made public will always stay on internet, it must have also frustrated dan when all of his dailybooth/formspring things that he’s deleted were reposted just so ppl could “prove things”. these are the things dan meant when he said he hated it when ppl were invading his privacy to out him in public when he hasn't dealt with his internalised homophobia yet not,,,, ykno having a blog on tumble dot edu where u believe that two people are in love based on 9 years of history, chemistry, travel patterns, mutual friends/colleagues, tattoos etc and u rb art, manips, edits and read/write fics and headcanons abt them.

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26. About your favorite Division - why do you love them?

Dhjdjd jejeje ok so I'm going to do all 3 again bc I like rambling.

I had mentioned matenro a bit before so hopefully this will be short. Well I like how nice they're, lol they all just want a good life and to chill and hang out and have fun, that's sweet. I find the religious motifs super interesting and that weird idea they seem to have with like repenting and owing people a lot of things. Lol is a little unhealthy so I find it super interesting. I like how supportive hifumi and jakurai are of doppo and how encouraging they are with each other. They have a lot of trust and I like how on board hifumi is about murdering doppos boss lol.

I love mtc bc I just love all of them, their personalities are all so funny, I like how their all so like fighty, like even if jyuto and rio seem more tame they're always down for the brawl, they're just really similar while being super different. I like how they just seem to understand each other well, their motivations and the values they carry, they respect that. How good friends they are and how much they value that friendship and each others happiness, they are very willing to take that L for each other. They are so caring and worry for the other so much!!! Even if it's on that subtle off hand way you can very much tell. Their songs are good, they're silly and I like how they're like "oooooh were so tough" I find it super funny, and it's also really cool. Yes you are so tough ooooo. I like how since samatoki and rio are more similar they bring way more trouble to jyuto lol, and I like how despite how much jyuto complains he really loves mtc and sticks with them anyways. Good friends over all.

Bat: they mean so much to me!! I like how strong willed they all are. They're so willing to get over grudges just like matenro lol, and like bettering themselves and being stronger. Also how they're just a tight knit family :) they're the epitome of found family for reals. I like how hitoya is like tsk pesky kids but would do anything for them!! Their songs are all bomb and they have some of the nicest voices in all of hypmic.

27. Drop a headcanon for your favorite Division.

Would anyone mind if I dropped a headcanon for each divi, no? No? Ok, 1st every single hypmic characther is neurodivergent, I'm saying this now so it doesnt get repetitive lol I'm also not specifying bc theres some I'm not that sure about and yeah.

BB: we all know I headcanon BB as Puerto Rican so another one is that they're all nonbinary!! I think it would be hilarious if ichiro was like a huge kuuko stan and bought like merch of him just like how people say other charas would do, like jiro and saburo would own ichiro merch. I'm aware it's not a Puerto Rican food but since BB likes curry so much I think they would like hilachas (rice with tomato sauce, meat and some vegetables) last I think they would all run like a Yahoo answers forum type of thing: ichiro probs about like anime, like giving recks and over all discussion , jiro anime too but he could also do music or football, saburo would go into any forum he has any knowledge of and school people that say shit wrong.

Mtc: they have like a designated person for each task that the others cant do, jyuto drives and rio and samatoki cook. Jyuto tries to get into a cook off with samatoki (just so they can impress rio) and he cooks so badly they get food poisoning. They're all transmasc. Samatoki doesnt like fish.

I dont have any fp headcanos pls dont kill me!! Except they're all nonbinary and use neo pronouns but after that not really lol.... soz

Matenro: jakurai doesnt like fish (something he shares with samatoki), hifumis sister had a raccoon tail haircut and bc doppo probably loved her and looked up to her he also got a raccoon tail haircut. I think I didnt say it when I talked about hifumi headcanos but he's also latino. Jakurai has a photo of hifumi and doppo on his office and some people confuse them for his sons. The real matenro icon is the virgencita plis.

Bat: since both kuuko and jyushi have painted nails I think it would be fun if they also painted hitoyas. I know it makes no sense with canon timeline but I like the idea that kuuko and hitoya somehow kept in contact after the trial thing bc how else would kuuko now about his whole jakurai shtick? Also since they keep in contact (could also be in canon timeline) for Ichiros bday he asks hitoya to buy him an exclusive pokemon card to give it to him. (If it's on canon timeline is their make up gift) jyushi is also in those Yahoo forum things and that's where he meets jiro and they become friends!!

Dotsuhon: sasara is my latino icon!!! Rei is also puerto rican since hes is bbs father and all that, so then when all of dotsuhon go out drinking rei and sasara have this bad tendency of speaking only in spanish to each other and rosho gets very pissed bc he doesnt understand anything. With that and the fact that I said dotsuhon matenro line up would be fun, but hifumi sasara and rei all talk in spanish while jakurai, doppo and rosho sit there like 😶😐🧍🏽‍♂️(I'm sorry for side lining them but this is so funny)The real reason why dotsuhon lost is bc they do a pelea de canchinflines fight to decide the winner and since Rosho has never done that it doesnt go too well. Rei banda song when? Sasara does one of those queres ser mi novio? Mariachi and sign things on roshos. Sasara has comedy skits in Spanish that he does with Rei. (They can actually be a comedic trio now)

28. Do you follow any of the seiyuu outside of HypMic?

No lol.... I do know that some of them voice other charas of stuff I've watched or want to watch but actually follow no, I barely know their names lol 😅

29. Did you pay attention during the livestreams/radio shows? Have you learned anything about (J)hiphop culture?

I've never seen any 😭😭😭 so no not really lmao...

This got super long so here's that

[dangerliesbeforeyou]

HIStory’s ranked (no one asked, but here i go)

so i was sittin here, talkin to myself about the HIStory series’ and was like ‘hey, i should rank them’ (which i’ve seen a few other people do, but mines a lot more rambling than there’s because i can’t shut up lol) 

so here’s my views lol (ordered from worst to best, imo):

6) My Hero (HIStory1) -

probably universally acknowledged as the worst episode, and i’d be inclined to agree with the masses on this lol... not only is the tone and humour of this series so weird and disjointed, but the entire story line literally makes no sense lol?? it’s unclear who the audience should be rooting for (especially as it goes out of it’s way to paint our protagonist as really unlikable lol, not to mention the love interest is the dullest character ever conceived like ???), as well as this the ending feels completely unrelated and bizarre... 

i think this concept /could/ have worked if the guy the woman was inhabiting (which sounds weird without context, but like she’s dead lol) was somehow also inside his head? or if she got to see his memories or whatever & tries to adjust her personality to match the guy’s, causing love interest!dude to fall in love with the guy... (like i could go into more detail, i basically hav an entire au written in my head lol, but yh...)... that way, her letting go of him in the end would feel so much more well set up? especially if she was generally more understanding and likeable.. 

i think overall this series just fails in telling a decent story lol... & the cringe is even beyond what i can handle lol

5) Obsessed (HIStory1) -

people might be surprised to see this one so low down, especially since i know a lot of people really love this series (& if u do, no hate to u btw, ur allowed to like whatever u want idc), but i realllllly don’t like this series... like at all ...

the plot is weird anyway, which isnt inherently a bad thing, but then u add on the really bad couple and it’s just...... bad lol... like everything about their relationship is built on lies and deceit, and even more so than that it’s built on a lack of mutual respect and fundamental trust for each other! tall guy (i don’t know names soz) feigns memory loss in order to get closer to short guy (btw, the scenes with them being domestic were really sweet, & i firmly believe this could have been an alright series for the actors if the story line wasn’t so bad), short guy’s whole existence in that universe was a lie lol (like i know there’s no easy way to tell someone ‘lol well i’m technically from the future’ but still), then there’s the whole resolution at the end & it’s just so ??? frustrating lol!

nothing bugs me more than seeing conflict in relationships (on screen or irl) that could be solved simply by TALKING TO EACH OTHER GODDAMNIT & isnt lol... my other issue with this series is the fact tall guy 100% forced himself upon short guy in the tent & like we’re just supposed to accept it cos ?? he’s saying no and pushing away but actually he wants it because he loves tall guy ?? like fuck no i’m not accepting that lol! 

basically, bad & bizarre story & characters, & gross tropes just makes this hard for me to watch and enjoy lol... i think, like in my hero, this could’ve done with being a different story altogether lol... (maybe tall guy actually did lose his memory & he falls for short guy all on his own with no predatory intentions?? idk something like that)

4) Right or Wrong (HIStory2)

this one & my number 3 are very much tied tbh, but this one is just slightly lower just because i’m not as big into the couple as i know a lot of people are... & it’s not necessarily the age gap, cos i dont actually mind age gaps in pairings (just as long as the younger one isnt a minor, obv... and also i think any gap that’s 30+ years is a bit weird lol..).. i think my big problem with this is i dont really see why younger guy (again, i have no idea of any of these characters’ names lol) would fall for the older guy? like the older guy is obvs going thru some issues, and hasnt been taking care of himself or his kid properly because of them, but like we dont rly see a lot of why he’s a great guy? like we get the sense young guy is attracted to him, but like love is more than just thinkin they’re hot lol... idk lol this might just be me tbh i just couldnt see why he’d be interested lol

i did like the whole family side though, and showing how a man who was previously with a woman can still end up with a guy (bisexualityyyyy (or some variation of that thereupon)) is something you dont always see in media, so i thought that was pretty cool! (even if the ex-wife thing was kinda lame lol...) 

i think overall i see what this series was going for, and that it actually did an alright job in some parts... the biggest problem is that it’s kinda just forgettable lol... maybe that’s why people like obsessed so much lol? maybe it was a train wreck but ohh boy at least u wont forget it in a hurry lol!

3) Stay Away From Me (HIStory1) -

i’m a bit torn about this one, cos there are parts of it i actually really like (them going from rivals/enemies to being good friends to being more), and other parts i really didnt (the stereotypical squealing yaoi fangirl friend)... & tbh, i kinda wish this had just been a show about the budding friendship between the 2 guys... it almost feels too forced to me that they’re made to ‘fall in love’ when i actually think them both becoming less selfish and learning to respect each other as step brothers & friends is actually already a really great story (& i know that it doesnt fit with the whole ‘HIStory’ thing, but stories of platonic brotherhood/’bromance’ are just as important as gay representation... isnt a /substitute/ for representation, don’t get me wrong, but it’s always so beautiful to see decently portrayed non-toxic friendships between guys... ok this is a rant for another day tho shhh)

i think maybe why i like this one more than the other HIStory1′s is because kinda nothing happens lol... it’s not overly complex with weird unexplained magic things happening, it’s just a simple story lol... is it still tropey as hell? of course lol! but i think the ‘realism’ of the world really helps, and i def think this was incorporated more into HIStory 2, which i’m really glad about...

overall, this is a relatively harmless series & is actually quite sweet at times... the kiss is awkward as fuck tho (there, i said it lol...)... it suffers the same forgetability as right or wrong tho... 

2) Crossing the Line (/Boundary Crossing) (HIStory2) -

ok, so here’s a series i 100% love & totally agree with the hype around lol! i hav no interest in volleyball (or any sports tbh), but the way this show handles the friendships and dynamics between the characters is really well done, especially for a series that’s only 8 episodes long! i also really love that none of the characters really fall into any stereotypes (which is a great improvement from HIStory1 i can tell u lol), and are given the space to actually have some growth & nuance at times?! 

(nuance? in MY HIStory series?? it’s more likely than you think!)

the main couple have really amazing chemistry, and the way they get together doesnt feel too out of place or that it’s going to fast, it just sorta flows really nicely... even the side couple are pretty well done (though i wasnt that big into them on my first watch, just cos the whole overbearing older brother thing was kinda annoying... i liked them more as the series went on tho...)

i kinda dont have any major complaints? which is bizarre cos i always hav complaints about things lol... maybe my complaint would be that they all look way too old and attractive to be whatever teenage age they’re supposed to be lol... (but tbh that doesnt take anything away from the story so i’ll forgive them lol...)... i think maybe i wouldnt consider it my favourite because the story line didnt grab me like the number 1... but i really cant fault it in terms of what it delivers lol, legit such a well put together series!

1) Trapped (HIStory3) -

lol i think anyone who’s been following me for the past few months aren’t in the slightest bit surprised this is my number one... i just love it too much lol!

from the incredibly well written and well acted characters, to the interesting and engaging (even if a bit ridiculous) plot, to the beautifully told romance , it really has it all doesn’t it!!! & i think even if this wasnt an enemies to lovers thing (aka one of the most godtier of all fanfic tropes), there’s so many things going for this series that make it worth watching! i have a few complains about editing choices and a few bad trope plot points which were just unnecessary (plus the fact we missed out on a lot of background info on some major characters lol...), but like despite everything this series rly struck a chord with me deep down in my soul lol

i could go waaay more into detail (and maybe i will one day lol... tho not rn, i’m v tired), but the gist of the matter is: i really love trapped lol

(conclusion)

Even though i’ve complained quite a bit here, i am so grateful for the HIStory series’ for bringing really interesting, and a little mad, stories with gay characters and story lines, with a big emphasis on happy endings! there are so many lgbt stories/characters in things that end up dying or just have bad endings, which just sends this horrible message that lgbt people aren’t worthy of having happy endings, which is completely untrue! 

So i look forward to future HIStory’s, even if some of them are gonna be bad (& maybe none will live up to the trapped!shaped bullet firmly lodged in my heart lol)

fin~