#sorry this was sponsored by advil and misery

[llondonfog]

More TWST potion au brain rot except it’s where Silver’s RSA friends are often used as pillows and have admitted to being worried when he sleeps because he doesn’t look like he’s dreaming well.

Whenever they ask him what he dreams about he can only shrug.

.. but when he somehow sleeps post match with an NRC student, he accidentally uses the green haired students shoulder as a pillow. The stark difference is surprising bc he looks like he’s sleeping so peacefully.

anonnnnnn this thought has arrested me, I ADORE CONTRASTING IMAGERY SO MUCH!!!!!!

like. just imagining that he's fallen asleep on one of his rsa friends and they can see him furrowing his brow, the pained dip of his mouth, the way his fingers flex upon his knee as if in an aborted manner to reach out to something that's locked away only in his mind, the strange whisper of 'father—' that seems to carry the weight of all the grief in the world—

(and that's when they finally realize what he reminds them of; it's not exhaustion, or apathy. silver looks like the saddest man in all of twisted wonderland, and not even he can figure out why.)

but of course when he wakes, he can't remember any of that, and when his friends gently query as to why he was dreaming of his father, he can only shrug and murmur that it must have been about the night they were taken from him by the fae who had come to decimate their kingdom.

AND THEN!!

when he happens to fall asleep on the green-haired student's shoulder (Zigvolt, his teammates murmur amongst each other, that was his name, wasn't it?), his expression has entirely changed. he breathes in the forest wild and dreams of cloudy skies, a sagging cottage held up by love and laughter, a hand gentle upon his head that practically overwhelms him with the feeling of being wanted. of being loved.

it's a peaceful dream, and yet when he wakes, the ache inside of his chest seems to have deepen tenfold, dropping into fathomless depths of a great, black sea.

they can see it on Zigvolt's face too, the recognition and reflection of sorrow as he gazes down upon the young man blinking blearily about himself, as if at a loss with his own surroundings. but they don't know what he does, they don't know that he's staring down at that helpless expression and thinking like father, like son.

if silver is the saddest man in all of twisted wonderland, then lilia vanrouge is the second.