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END OF CHAPTER ONE
FORGETTABLE-AU (Page 65-72)
* Time to put this puzzle together.
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#long post#SO SORRY FOR THE POST BEING SO LONG BUT I NEEDED THE DRAMA AND YOU GUYS BEING LIKE#âwhy is it still going.....â#hehe#JOKES ON YOU! I LIED! THESE ARE 8 PAGES NOT 6!!!#yippiee#YOU GOT EVEN MORE#OKAY NOW#To address everything!!!#âtime travel? Really?â#YES REALLY#HAVE YOU ALL SEEN WHAT SANS SAYS IN HIS BATTLE#âour reportsâ âtimelines jumping left and rightâ âan anomaly in the time-space continuumâ HE KNOWS ABOUT THAT STUFF#HE RESEARCHED THAT STUFF#HE HAS A SECRET CODEWORD READY IN CASE HE FINDS A TIME TRAVELER WHY WOULD HE HAVE THAT???#Alphys has researched alternate universes too(which are usually related to alternate timelines)#okay enough of me rambling#I told u guys I made a mess to make the undertale timeline make sense lol#ANYWAYYSS#SIGH finally done with chapter one#IT WAS 52 PAGES LONG!!!!#So many things happened here#PAPYRUS AND FLOWEY ARE BACK!!!!#see you all again soon with chapter TWO#forgettable-au#forgettable-au-comic#papyrus#papyrus is gaster#undertale#gaster
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tfw ur havin a convo with the neighbours and ur bf is in need of a cuddle ŕźź 㤠â_â ŕź˝ă¤
#this is 100% based on that photo of lily cole with her bf of the time in her lap and im nowhere Near sorry#ghfjdjfd god this was such a shitty sketch and i just kept messing with it ?? trying not to be TOO fussy and just Play yknow#im pleased with it considering its not even a scan its a photo of a sketch i played colour and light with SHRUG SHRUG SHRUG#im not trying to be good i guess im just exploring the space ?? because i dont ghfjdkjf know what im doing anymore#anyway ... puts Link in Zelda's lap ..... good#legend of zelda#tears of the kingdom#breath of the wild#zelink#link x zelda#botw/totk#pilots doodles
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RED VELVET ⥠Midnight Signals
#red velvet#rvedit#redvelvetinc#dailyrv#rvsource#rvnet#ultkpopnetwork#ggnet#femaleidolsedit#kgoddesses#femaleidolsgifs#femaleidolsnet#femaledaily#emsigifs#*mine#flashing tw#this is a mess but it took me too long to make it not to post it i'm sorry#the colours of the wenrene parts..... i cried#but they all look so pretty :(#ily my cosmic space cake girlies đđđđ
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sun hasnât even risen yet and Iâm feeling so emotional about how Dan is living proof that growth takes time but is so worth it and sometimes you donât work through the hard stuff until youâre well into adulthood bc just getting by took enough energy and you simply didnt have the tools yet and we now know that things got so dark for him and im sure the darkness will come again bc thatâs how these things go but now heâs smiling with his crows feet and laugh lines and silly clothes bc now he can love his body enough to put it in silly outfits before going out into the world and heâs goofy and playful and in love and idk guys life can be so defeating and it sure was for him at times but here he is this gleaming imperfect beautiful example of work and growth and acceptance and self love
#love you Dan Iâm sorry that Iâm such a sap about Dan#but idk man itâs 15 yrs and he was just a boy and then he was just a scared mess#trying to keep everything under control#and now he doesnât have to bc heâs safe in himself#and Liamâs dead and maybe that tangentially has something to do with how Iâm feeling#bc man Iâve lost so many people to mental illness#and I know itâs so complicated and to use that broad stroke categorization to describe something so personal is simply wrong#but itâs also not all that complicated we just need to feel safe and worthy and loved and need to have enough space in our psyche for hope#enough space to imagine a tomorrow. and when you donât have that itâs so hard to just keep on trudging through the mess. but it is worth it#and the fog clears#dan and phil#dan howell#me yapping
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haha hey guys long time no see im very sorry but here's some anime/RSE maxie and archie spreads i did in my sketchbook to get myself used to drawing on paper again as an apology
#i kinda just chose screenshots of them i liked and drew them#but finding good screenshots of maxie can be so hard bc in some frames he just looks really stupid in some shots lmao#maybe ill post my collection of slightly fucked up looking maxie frames that ive found soon#im super proud of the cutout ones i did#i think they turned out really well#cutting Archies out was a nightmare bc of how i draw his hair but we got there!#AND CUTTING OUT THE STUPID RED ORB TOOK ME 5 TRIES BECAUSE I HAD TO CUT OUT WHERE HIS HAND WAS AND I KEPT MESSING IT UP LMFAOOO#dont mind the shitty magma and aqua symbols i did those really fast as a last minute addition to fill space lmfao#yeah the dates on these are from last month and earlier this month SHHHHHHHHH im posting these a little late#sorry for my absence i have been in an art rut lately and havent done much :(#pokemon#magma leader maxie#aqua leader archie#hardenshipping#i guess theyre just both here#pokemon oras#nugget art!!
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Anrir Husbandry
Husbandry tags: @egrets-not-regrets @liar-anubiass-blog @barn-anon @bleedingichorhearts @gallifreyianrosearkytiorsusan
@ms--lobotomy @nekotaetae @sleepyfan-blog @c-u-c-koo-4-40k @the-raven-lady
@bispecsual
Edit: forgot to thank @justahuman1757 for help with some of the translations and other help
Song on repeat: Cradles by Sub Urban (also most of the remixes for this SLAP)
tw: smut, yandere, obsessive behavior, manipulation
Anrir cooed at the little human in his arms finishing up singing them back to sleep СнŃŃŃŃŃŃ.... СнŃŃŃŃŃŃ... His voice carried low and softly. It was naptime... they needed to sleep as it was good for them of course they didn't seem to realize that. His long back hair was tied back into a slightly messy bun as his nearly completely black eyes dart around the pastel colored room just looking for anything wrong. His DragÄ wanted to work with children in childcare and perhaps it took a couple of years to get here since he had first found her.
She was so much happier since he had first found her... happy about their bond... no more worry in her eyes... no more stress making her hands tremble or her loosing sleep... no more worrying about her next meal or if her car were to break... no more crying... well no more senseless crying. He puts the child down looking around at the sleeping forms but he cant help but grin as this really was all possible because of him, Anrir purrs softly at the satisfaction of how well he has done his job... and how he has covered his trail...
5 years prior
Anrir was a drifter... he drifted around as he had yet to find his own bonded, which given how some legions seemed to be more inclined to get a bond; with Night Lords being one of the ones with very few "feral" Astartes it was only a matter of time before Anrir would find his. But Anrir in all definitions was a feral Astartes having been unbonded since he arrived forty years ago. However, it was fine as Anrir hadn't spent that time just moping about he spent a majority of his time politicking and reuniting with other Terran Night Lords long dead and of course reuniting with those who were under his knife when they were aspirants and scouts which he affectionately called them his kids.
He was also using this time to take a break, a forced break, from running his warband; not that he could run it right now anyway. But he would mull over plans for when he returned back to his time period... if he did was another thought. His eyes moved up to the sky as he could smell the water gathering in the air. Which meant that the group he was with would start a debate on if they were going to settle down or continue on despite the weather. He did not care too much and decided to wander off to look around at where they were.
He walked out of the tree covering that the group was skulking through as he looked at the abandoned parking lot he had walked out into. It was rotting away neglected and abandoned as the painted lines were faded and practically gone, the pavement was cracked with plants growing through cracks; with the asphalt under his feet turning to gravel as plants come to reclaim this section of human infrastructure. And Anrir... he savored this reclamation of nature and decay of it all. Compared to the prison pit he was born into on the other side of the globe; he had already made his pilgrimage to the eventual site of his birth... a town full of people whose existence was never known as a great chasm of the guilty was there.
But that dark pit in the ground was not there now... there were no babies being born in that dark hellhole... his neck tattoo had a phantom itch as he is reminded why it was put on his neck... as he is reminded that at some point he was truly innocent... he is reminded of the hand gently petting his head... the soft voice cooing at him telling him how brave he was being... as he remembers having tears in his eyes as the ink is shoved into his skin... he gently starts to suffocate the memories of a child long gone and a woman paradoxically long dead and yet had yet to be born. His eyes flick to the far side of the quiet parking lot as a car just sits in the dark. The only other thing in this lot, far from the flickering road light... he could hear the annoying buzz of the light as it flickered... the flick... flick... flick... as it finally goes out. He moves with soft steps towards the vehicle as the summer insects scream their sonorous songs it was almost overstimulating for some of his brothers with how alive this planet felt with no foe to focus down on. Anrir felt his gums itch like he craved an oral inhalant and the way the hair on the back of his neck rose as he wandered closer not giving into the craving.
Anrir had seen many homeless humans both back in his own time and here. His eyes looked through the windows of the car seeing how it was lived in, he could hear the soft breathing akin to how someone was asleep... the slow beat of a heart was barely audible to him as the insects continued to scream their songs. There was nothing special about what he saw as it was a baseline female just buried under an assortment of clothes, a towel, a jacket, and some blanket... a bucket with a strainer lid to collect the impending rain... he chuckled at the cleverness but he understood the need to just survive. He turned to walk back to the others but something rooted him in place. He could practically taste the misery mixing with the rain. His throat tightened as it silently moved in foreign ways but he knew what he was trying to do... to mimic the noises they make at humans.
He lets out a dark chuckle as they were right... it really was something that he would know when it happened. Worry soon festered in his gut as his eyes roamed over her vehicle and while he hardly knew about how it worked he could see the signs of disrepair. His nose wrinkled for a moment as he unclipped his helmet from his hip, slipping it over his head as the rain finally let loose. He listened to the rain slap against the metal roof of the car, the way she moved inside her comfortable cocoon for a moment, and the way water was gathering in the bucket... Anrir had to do something.
You did your best to ignore the Night Lord that was hanging around. Affectionate bastards you were told as you remember those videos of just them being friendly. You shiver at the memory of that one gang member who thought he was so big... being homeless you quickly learned how sleeping near warbands meant that you had to ignore certain things... certain sounds especially at night. Astartes always scared you... you couldn't point to any incident that had happened involving them just that you got bad feelings from them... a certain type of dread. So it wasn't exactly like a fear of dogs but the way they looked and acted they were so human... why were they here... you make yourself look smaller as the Night Lord with what looked like a metal spider on his back sat next to you.
You hear him coo and trill at you trying to get your attention, his head tilting slightly as you could hear the slightly distorted trill to his voice from his helmet, and you did your best to ignore him. Eventually he did leave you alone and you had hoped that would be the last you saw him. But, every day for the next week he kept finding you... he would click and coo at you beckoning you closer with those armored claws of his. It was the last day in the week that you broke and approached him as you chose to fill your car with gas over eating and he had shown up with food. You feel tears gather with each bite as he trills down at you and you feel him hold you close... you hear his purr... you've seen this display online it was a bonding display. You do your best to not choak on the hot food as you can feel tears gather in the corner of your eyes, really the last thing you want is an Astartes bonding to you.
You feel the Astartis petting your head as you eat, trilling at you and you're certain if he wasn't in armor he would be purring. When you look up at him miserably he coos at you trying to sooth the clear distress you were in. His hands flexing each time you try to pull away from him, "You don't want me to be your bonded buddy," You finally speak up and that just breaks something in you and you feel those heavy tears roll down your cheeks even as you try to use the heel of your palm to rub your eyes clean they still fall, "I can't give you anything." Your voice cracks as you admit that.
Anrir sat there silently as you tried to reject the bond⌠he could feel it fraying at the edges like a lighter had been taken to it. But Anrir was calm even as his entire existence seemed to reel on its axis as you try to push it away. Your voice cracking gave way to the tears that ran down your face, his black eyes darting over your face as baselines crying was familiar to him given what he was but it felt so different⌠so wrong. Why are you letting her cry Anrir? A soft voice in the back of his mind seems to say. He could feel it fray more and more⌠but Anrir was aware that when a bond frays⌠it never attaches back normally. There was also a small high for him as would this be how he tasted death? Not after millennia of being alive just some mortal woman would be the death of him? He would have laughed if it actually broke but he pulled her against him and you did not make the effort to pull away⌠and so the bond repairs wrong. He did not need anything from you except you.Â
How you lean against him trying to hide away. So he was okay if you couldnât give him anything now. He didnât expect you to give him anything in the first place⌠but a wicked thought plants itself in his mind. Perhaps it was old fashioned⌠after all he watched the radical social changes in a mere 40 years and yet like always the Astartes remained unchanged. But⌠why couldnât he provide for you? Anrir was a capable Astartes and he did not survive this long by chance but memories flicker by of how generous others were towards their humans. He grinned darkly as he could recognize the signs now⌠oh⌠he had intensely bonded to you⌠he had read the manuals and grimoires both in person and on the noosphere⌠he had helped write some of those too⌠so he knew what to look for in terms of side effects and was filing away mental notes about his deviances. And as much as he wanted to act on those feelings Anrir was patient, he was an Apothacarion after all, and his DragÄ needed to be taken care of. He purrs and chirps at her to calm her down and gets her to finish her meal.
Thrones, credits, souls, cash⌠it was annoying dealing with baselines as most societies revolved around needing a good or currency for things and this was not their reality or time period where refusing an Astartes was suicidal. He noted his lack of desire to skin the man yelling at his DragÄ to get him to stop âloiteringâ. But he, like most Astartes, relied on each other and the complex network and ecosystem they built like a parasite on the infrastructure of what was already there or was it the other way around? The Iron Warriors and Imperial Fists would say they laid out efficient infrastructure⌠but he found resources; since it was no longer allowed to simply take humans as serfs anymore and just have them live in a base full time⌠not that the Night Lords had one yet. It would be a few more years till the base was operational and that would be a mustering point for most Night Lords in the area. But Anrir noted how jumpy his precious DragÄ got at the idea of getting help from Salamanders or staying in a shelter; he was fine with her choice. He wrinkled his nose as her car was falling apart and he couldnât fit in it and him being a Night Lord did not help his goal of getting money. However, Anrir had a long reputation having worked in the Consortium with Bile too being a prominent figure in his legionâs hierarchy, no matter how much he tried to stay out of the politicking, so when the Alpharii approached him he wasnât too surprised.Â
There were treaties and edicts that any Astartes had to agree to if they wanted to stay near the humans. Besides the obvious of not killing any humans; which before Anrir was bonded was a surprisingly hard ask, but they were not allowed to mettle with them. Technology was to be kept away from them at all costs, no extending their life spans, no augmetics beyond simple necessary prosthetics, and a few others. It all made sense as it was clear they were not ready at all for the horrors of the wider galaxy⌠no they would not play a hand into accidentally smothering humanity in the cradle because they helped them reach the stars earlier than they were ready for. But just like how human killers existed⌠and Night Lord trafficker Hunts happened⌠there was always some bending and breaking of these rules.
The Alpharii couldnât help mettle in the affairs of the baselines, it was their legionâs expertise, they were information brokers and information hiders⌠they modified records to hide the sudden birth of a child from a woman and a Astartes⌠to all the way of covering up when forbidden technology falls into the hands of baselines and there needs to be a raid. They had their fingers in many pies as the saying goes⌠and Anrir could not play the moral high ground for their request. They werenât supposed to extend the baselines lives⌠there was the crude method of giving them a transfusion of Astartes blood and hope they survive all the way to getting the chemicals and components needed for rejuvenation treatments. The latter took time to get what they needed as they could only synthesis so much being limited to what was only on this one planet; and it was hard to keep the Iron Hands from getting eager in âhelpingâ them be able to colonize the Sol system.Â
But⌠Anrir looked down at the old corrupt man. Such greedy creatures humans could be and Anrir could never be like his kin who were able to see themselves as being above humanity⌠Anrir was far too aware of his own humanity and also his own lack of humanity too. âHow do I know it will work?â The old man interrupts Anrirâs explanation of what he will be doing in transplanting his heart, âYou could be some⌠con artist.â He says with malice in his frail voice.
Anrir never liked nobles⌠and he was always surprised at how⌠self important they could be. His smooth voice answers the question before one of the Alpharii can speak, âMy reputation,â He had asked the Alpharii before this and he was not bonded to any of them⌠he was very much a pawn that the Alpharii werenât ready to loose yet, âyour⌠companions wouldnât have gotten me if they doubted my skills. The heart is made for you so there is no chance of rejection.â He says truthfully as it was child's play growing the organ for him.
Anrir voxes one of the Alpharii, âAs for my payment for this?â He hisses letting his displeasure bleed through as how dare he speak to Anrir in such a way.
âEverything is set up in ways that wonât tip off the government officials to the sudden influx of wealth. And conveniently set up so that if you choose to help us againâŚâÂ
Anrir waved his armored hand over his shoulder as his medical mechadendrites unfolded like a spider on his back, âYes yes you lot have me for several surgeries,â He goes through the process of setting everything for fine movements and working on humans, âBut please be aware should anything go wrong in the payments that I can be quite spiteful.â He threatens and enjoys the place of power he is able to come from given how specialists are in such short supplies here and he is certain there is only one other Consortium member on the planet⌠he knows his expertise is invaluable he is certain he is on many lists to be kept alive.
âOf course Anrir.â Is all one says and that was good enough as Anrir headed into the prepared room.
You were happy that Anrir returned as he did keep you safe and maybe you were feeling those good vibes that people always say they get around Astartes. But now? You looked at what was holding out to you with apprehension. Youâre sure that it was a thousand dollars in his hand and you felt hesitant to take it from him as no one just gives people money and not expecting something back⌠your spine crawls at a memory⌠He just sighs looking at you passively and perhaps a little annoyed, âDragÄ. Go get your car looked at and get it fixed.â He says and you take the money from him as your AC had died and youâre certain that also meant your heating was gone⌠âUnless,â Your eyes returned to his face as your eyes picked up the bit of white at the roots of his sideburns, âYou want to get a bigger vehicle?â
âBut I canât-â You start.
âDonât worry about money for a second DragÄ.â He says putting his hands on your shoulders.
You squirm under his gaze as you considered rejecting it as Anrir gave you such feelings that there was something else he was after⌠then again you never felt truly comfortable around Astartes⌠always a lingering sense of dread but⌠âMaybe⌠maybe we get something you can fit in as well. Wouldnât that be nice?â You say softly as youâre certain those cars are far beyond what you can afford and from what you heard basically never break down.Â
You hold your breath for a moment as Anrir cups your face, you could hear him trill at you, as he grinned down at you with a smile that youâre certain the devil himself would envy, âWhat a thoughtful DragÄ.â Was all he cooed at you.
After that, with much fussing from him, he made you use the money to stay in a motel for a week and you donât remember when the last time you ate so much food. Anrir in the meanwhile took care of things. You were torn on letting him do such as wasnât this the reason you had a fallout with your family? Your hands shake at the memories⌠he ruined your life. Yet while youâre certain Anrir is doing the same thing⌠it feels different. Anrir only suggested what you use the money for never using it to tell you what to do⌠Anrir confused you but you took comfort in the thought that he wanted something from you that he could get at your absolute lowest⌠everyone says bonds are precious things so maybe you should trust him more.
Anrir makes sure he always has enough money on him as he was making sure that there was a positive association in your mind that he was able to provide for you. The fuss you made when he got the car customized so that you could live out of it as long as you wanted, he hopped it wouldnât be much longer, but it was your choice and all he could do was nudge his DragÄ. The excitement he felt rush up his spine when he heard you say âAnrirâ in a specific tone⌠a tone he associated with his DragÄ needing something⌠DragÄ needed him to provide. Sometimes you were like a skittish animal only staying for the exchange but sometimes you lingered like an animal and he could get what he wanted from you too. He felt that dopamine rush as you tolerated his touches, the joy he felt when you let him cup your face, how loudly he purred as you let him nuzzle you, petting your head, or rubbing your back. He could still see the hesitation in your eyes⌠he could tell you werenât as (warp blind) (bond blind) as other humans were and Anrir is fine with that in fact it made this all the more enjoyable for him.
Winter always comes too soon and once again Anrir brings up places you can stay over the colder months and as hard as you try you still canât get rid of the feelings that if you acquiesce he will want something. Anrir himself is disappointed that you wont ask him for much more; he does use winter to get something he does want. He finally gets to hold you for as long as he wants, usually your whole sleep cycle. Heâs slept in far worse spots and just being a little cramped is hardly anywhere near the list of worst rests he has had. He purrs loudly as youâre glued to his side or his chest at night. Cooing to you as you drift off each night with a full belly in his arms. Its hard not to drift off with how he purrs and the rhythmic beating of his twin hearts⌠this feels like itâs going to be an easy winter for once so of course you get sick as a dog.
âPoor DragÄ.â Anrirâs voice breaks you through your sick haze as the chills donât help but Anrir being so warm helps. âI know you wonât like this suggestion but as a health specialist I do recommend that perhaps it is time for you to live inside more regularly again?â You can barely hear the quiet engine over the Heater going, Anrir not allowing you to fuss about anything right now once more saying he had it under control, âArata mizerabil... (Miserable lookingâŚ)â He says in Nostroman letting his tongue click as you bury yourself closer to his chest, feeling those ports dig into your skin, âAt least something temporary, yes?â He says sounding a little worried, âWouldnât that be nice? A temporary place to stay till you find what you want to do?â
âDaycare.â You croak out.
âHmm?â Anrir looks down at you cocking his head to the side surprised you answered him.Â
âI want to take care of kids. I like taking care of kids. Donât know why⌠so I want to start a daycare.â You say but you soon get weepy, âBut who is going to let me do that. Look at me! Iâm living in my car running away from my family and I canât -â You stop your distressed rant as you cough and your nose plugs up again making it hard for you to breath and you canât help but squirm in Anrirâs grip.
âShh DragÄ, Iâll take care of you.â Anrir says softly a uncharacteristic gentleness in his voice you werenât expecting from a Night Lord, âYou donât need to worry anymore, DragÄ.â Again itâs a soft and warmth to his voice you didnât know he could have, âDo you trust me?â He asks in a tone you have trouble reading.Â
Bonds are supposed to be good things⌠thatâs what everyone says⌠you have a companion for life⌠and you can tell that they get so much out of what we give them as they were clearly made for something far more violent. But⌠did you trust Anrir. No⌠you did not trust him as that feeling never goes away⌠âWhat do you want Anrir?â You finally say after a minute of silence.
âYou, DragÄ.â Anrir says quickly breathlessly.
Again you lay there silently thinking⌠you didnât know what he wanted⌠was it really just being with you? Youâve been with him for months at this point and you couldnât figure out what he wanted. You did research on bonds from what little you could find and everything kept coming back to just wanting to keep their bonded alive and safe. You were scared to let someone in your safe little world but you were so tired of keeping everything so tight to your chest. Maybe it was because you were sick but you nod and let out a heavy sigh softly saying, âI trust you Anrir.â
His reaction was immediate as he pressed his cheek to yours and you could feel the purring in your teeth as it was so loud, your finger bones felt like they were vibrating, but you didnât feel the quick kisses that he leaves on your skin. You whimper at the sudden affection. It was anrirâs quirk as he was odd with his affection as whenever you would seek him out for affection he would smother you in his affection but you were okay with it because it was on your terms⌠your gut wouldnât stop at the feeling that sometimes it was on his terms luring you in⌠He presses a kiss to your forehead trilling, his accent thick, âI donât want you to worry any more my DragÄ. I will take care of everything.â His black eyes seem to glitter in delight as he makes his declaration. And you just let go of that tension a bit more.
You donât know how Anrir found this place, it had a horribly short lease but you knew that it was just to get you out of the weather⌠youâre certain this place wasnât built for Astartes in mind so usually that meant they werenât allowed. You guessed that the landlord looked the other way if said Astartes was paying in cash. It was small and cramped... but it was warm and you could store more than just a bit of food. You were sitting in the tub as Anrir sat on the side shirtless as his hands were massaging shampoo into your hair. You didn't need help with your hair but that didn't stop you from leaning into his hands as he helped you feel clean.
Anrir chuckled at your gentle groaning and moaning as it was clear you were enjoying yourself. He enjoyed helping you feel this way helping you clean and take care of you in this small way... he shivered as he was cleaning his DragÄ... he wrapped his DragÄ in a nice fluffy towel... he carried his DragÄ to the bedroom and savored the laugh that left your mouth as he just tossed you onto the bed with a bounce.
You just laid there, eyes closed, enjoying yourself... sure there was only one bed which was fine as you had spent most of the winter snuggling up to Anrir in the car, it was not the most comfortable mattress in the world... the apartment was quiet...no it was never quiet not with the thin walls... but Anrir was quiet. You became aware of how you were just laying naked on the bed... alarms were going off in your head as you feel his smooth hands run over your knees, feeling his thumbs push into the side as he spreads your legs open slowly. This wasn't normal... and yet this felt like what everything was building up too... but you were always told that bonds were selfless things, right?
Your skin trembles as his hands move over your drying flesh, your breathing shivers, you can feel the bed shift as Anrir climbs onto it. Your throat bobs as you swallow the nervous energy but your eyes open as you feel the bare skin of his legs as he had divested himself of his pants. Anrir's silent still as he presses his scarred lips against your cheek, his body leaning over yours as he settles between your legs, and you feel his hand move to your chin to slowly turn you to meet him. His lips dragging against your flesh as the scarred flesh presses against your own lips. You were close enough that you could tell that his eyes were not fully black... you could see the dark blue of his iris darting with micromovements as he took in your face. But, you could see the predator in his eyes... but it was something more the term hyper-predator comes to mind because what monsters would someone like Anrir need to hunt?
Anrir presses his mouth to yours more and you close your eyes allowing the kiss to deepen. Anrir had been nothing but good to you... but you worry... would he use this against you? You desperately hope that he wouldn't. "Mina..." His voice rumbles like thunder as his hands drag across your flesh in a way that feels dominant and possessive. You can't stop the shuddering moan that leaves your mouth as his mouth moves against the front of your neck, licking the way your throat moves in its swallowing motion. "Toate ale mele⌠(All mine...)" He says whispering to you in a language that you don't know, "Fiecare parte din tine⌠toatÄ a mea⌠trupul Či sufletul tÄu. (Every part of you... all mine... your body and your soul.)" He says again as Anrir presses his cock against your entrance. His mouth continuing its worship of your neck and chin as you open your eyes slightly and just watch Anrir with lidded eyes. He cups your face as his tongue presses hard on your lower lip before pushing his tongue back into your mouth just kissing you hard.
You knew you had fringe thoughts about Astartes... Anrir was just proving to you one thing... that they were far too human to ignore. Far too human and far too predatory... you could never get that feel good emotion from Anrir... from any Astartes really. They were all predators... they were man made monsters made to fight monsters that you didn't know would exist beyond the silver screen of Hollywood or the writings of horror writers. He pulls his mouth away trilling at you and pausing when he sees the look on your face. You were looking at a predator looking at prey a malicious looking thing that tried to play the part of a friendly thing... a wolf playing the role of a dog. "Anrir."
"Yes DragÄ." He says as a hand cups your face.
"What do you want?" You again ask... because... you don't think he's lying about the bond but this wasn't normal? You felt everything rushing anxiously to a point.
"You, DragÄ." He says devotedly.
You were tired... so tired of being on your own for years before Anrir came. Oh how much Anrir had helped beyond just the money he gave you and the food... just being here... even if it was wrong... even if... you were so tired. You pull Anrir into a kiss as you didn't want to think anymore! You didn't want to worry any more... you whimper as Anrir just purrs loudly as you decide to let Anrir take care of it... take care of you... just for today you tell yourself as you melt into the embrace.
You feel the slight discomforting sensation of your walls spreading open as his cock slowly pushes in. When it becomes too much your hand or foot pushes against his chest which makes him stop till your brow stops furrowing and you for him to continue. This continues until his hips are flush with yours and Anrir hisses in delight, "Atât de strâns atât de bine cu mine⌠draga mea⌠a mea. (So tight so good to me... my dear... mine.)" You once more don't understand him but you decide to not worry about it as he starts moving. Your thighs burn slightly at the stretch to have them spread open wide for Anrir to thrust into you. Your eyes close as you focus on the feeling and enjoy that he doesn't ask you to look at him but that doesn't stop him from talking, "MÄ simČi fatÄ frumoasÄ? (Do you feel me pretty girl?)" He trills in that unknown tongue, "Te concentrezi pe penisul meu din interiorul tÄu? (Are you focused on my cock inside of you?)" He asks something else perhaps not realizing or caring that you don't understand him.
He picks up the pace as he pants down at you and you just yowl and moan in pleasure. Porn making everything feel so fake when real sex sounds so unsexy at times but you had no need to make things sound sexy or be perfect. You could hear Anrir chuckle at an unflattering noise you make as he slams his hips into yours again making you repeat it. Eventually things feel tighter and more anxious as Anrir tilts you slightly so his cock pushes into you at a downward angle and you just laugh at the unflattering squeak and squawk that you make. Anrir laughs with you at all those weird and all those distinctively you vocalizations but you just don't care as no one is telling you that you're being unappealing... you throw your head back and arch up as you earned the right to not worry. You moan loudly moaning his name as you feel so good! You earned this reward! You deserve this... you deserve to just let go... you orgasm with little fan fair... just a simple gasp.
You feel so good... everything feels so good as Anrir continues to chase his release, the feeling of a bed against your back, the fuzzy climbdown from an orgasm, the oily drop of sweat from Anrir that lands on your shoulder, and the comforting stutter from him that stutter causes you to open your eyes to watch his brow furrow and you watch how surprisingly expressive he gets as he cums.
The apartment is mostly quiet... as quiet as you can get with thin walls... you lay there with him not thinking about anything... not thinking as you feel his cock softening against your inner thigh. He lets out a loud breath as he lays back in bed in his spot as you meanwhile are pushing away the worry about the consequences of sleeping with Anrir. You cuddle against his side, his arm wrapping around you, you feel the cum ooze out of you ... you're still tired of thinking... you're so tired of it... so tired of worrying why and what Anrir was doing for money... You put your head against his chest over his hearts ignoring the discomfort of the ports against your face... you just listen to the way his hearts beat.
Present day
You were in a much better spot than when you were a couple of years ago... you actually came into money, no it wasn't a rich distant relative dying but it was another person you had camped with when you were homeless. They had actually won the lottery and were being smart with it, which you think was more so their Ultramarine had helped in making smart choices. Though you had your suspicions... the Alpharii... a few seem to come by every few months some to coo at the kids, eager to find a bonded, and some to talk with Anrir as you watched them take containers from your home. But being given money you sudden just kept finding yourself with more money and it was stupid how much money you got after investing some of it... you didn't want to question it and Anrir was very good at distracting you.
Oh speaking of Anrir... he got you so many gifts. He would still give you random bouts of cash but he was finally acting more and more like how a bonded Astartis is supposed to act. You also were seeing how talented he was with his hands as besides his occupation you discovered his macabre hobby that all Night Lords seem to have... bone scrimshawing and taxidermy. You could point out all the time that he acted like a normal bonded Astartis and yet at the same time... how many gestures were more. You got outfits, jewelry, wines, your current house, and hell even your job you know he had a hand in financing... it spiraled out of control with his gifts that your friends noticed and asked who your 'sugar daddy' was or rather if he had any friends.
You smile warmly and wave goodbye as the last child finally gets picked up. You head back inside letting out a soft exhale and start picking up the room not getting very far into cleaning up when Anrir wraps his arms around you and purrs into your shoulder... purring into where he tattooed you years ago. You feel him give a playful tug onto the choker collar that he made for you, expensive thing and you know he liked you wearing it. You were lucky that no one asked you what Anrir was... everyone just assumed he was a Raven Guard...
"I can smell your worry DragÄ." He says nipping your earlobe.
"I'm just tired Anrir."
"Then lets go home." He kisses your cheek.
"But I have stuff to pick up-"
"And this is why we hire others to clean," He says gentle cocking his head to the side, "You're worried about something." Anrir takes the toy from your hands as you pick at the seams.
You let out a heavy sigh bringing your thumb to your lips, "I'm just scared everything is about to go wrong." Anrir takes your hand to stop you from biting your nails.
"And if it does... I will take care of it." Anrir says with such certainty and authority that makes you believe him.
The breath in your chest you let out with a heavy sigh, "Okay." You nod.
He tugs on your choker bringing you close for a kiss as he trills softly, "I will always take care of you my frumoasÄ dragÄ (beautiful darling)." And you chose to believe it.
#space marine husbandry sentience#warhammer 40k#oc: Anrir#darling: Draga#carnal bond#intense bond#yandere bond#tw: smut#tw yandere#tw: obsessive behavior#I have been working on this for so long#the smut was debatable on adding it#but the longer this took to get out the more I was like#âFuck itâ#because momrad hasn't been able to write a lot#and so its like here's some smut guys#also Raven being super ovulating right now and just being unwell for my guy so yeah another thing to convince me to keep the smut in it#also sorry about the POV switching between Draga and Anrir#I enjoy letting people see what both of them think and feel and I know its probably messy but just... yeah#no beta we die like horus#no beta we die like sanguinius#no beta we die like ferrus#no beta we die like the emperor#these tags are a mess#these tags are getting silly#im just so happy that im finally done with this and can move onto other projects
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he's a broken man
#OHHHH YEAG FORGOT TO SAY!!! ZIGGY IS MY HC NAME FOR SK#2 me i think the decades he spent in the basement being forced to train really messed him up. idk#is that too serious of a thought to have about these silly lil guys?#but he spent decades alone and feeling like a disappointment (and to me) destroying his physical and mental health to try n train n improve#n it all just really really sticks with him#sk cant make it all better. as much as they want to. but they help him a lot#and they learn really well how to read him. bc he has a habit of not asking for comfort and trying to deal w stuff alone.#and sk sees through that#anyway#sorry for the angst#rhythm heaven#karate joe#space kicker#punch kick toe#my art
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walkin' with a dead man over my shoulder!
alt versions bc i love experimenting with layer modes
#SORRY FOR BEING ABNORMAL ABOUT EVERYTHING ABOUT THE DIRECTORSHIP. IT WILL HAPPEN AGAIN#the text is from the hotline message about the hotline btw. with a couple lines from the coming storm near the end to fill it out#this was fun i liked getting to mess around with negative space#(all the dark gray areas including the shading on jesse are on the same layer. and the colors are the layer below)#also i think the text took almost as long as everything else because that is not my natural handwriting. yeowch. endless grind simulator#control#control remedy#control 2019#oh and the caption is a lyric from dead mans party by oingo boingo#art#digital#yayy posting art before sunset
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more dys!!!! hes so pretty lord help me plus another little low quality doodle under the cut
#dys exocolonist#dys#dys iwatex#iwatex#i was a teenage exocolonist#sorry the quality is so shit but anything is better than nothing lmao its just me trying to#conserve space bc shared canvas and tumblr messes it up anyway lol#anyway love yall and love this guy
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Another piece for @writingjourney's newest chapter, go and read it. No Plushia version here (DA) and here (AO3, new!).
#The Band Ghost#Ghost#Papa Emeritus IV#Copia#Popia#'just a quick painting for that chapter' i said and ended up trying new techniques and spending half the night on it (0 regrets)#i'm sorry for uploading and deleting 3824982389 times tumblr was bullying me#i kind of like how this turned out (except for the messed up tile spacing)#who knew that i only had to crank up the contrast for tumblr to finally accept this pic#anyway go read ibis story#iknbs
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youâve heard of the lovers bench
now get ready for the divorce couch
#thereâs now enough space on the couch to fit the âxâ between the first lip and the second lip#im sorry please bear with me for a moment im tryna stay awake on the 11pm train else iâll miss my stop lmao#havenât had to take the train at night in a while. itâs⌠surprisingly crowded. hm.#anyway itâs been a strange day i didnât expect to finish my work so quickly on a friday help#and during what little i did i just. kept thinking about last stage and made more typos than ever in the span of 5 mins#im glad i finished most of my work before the mv dropped. iâd have messed up even more otherwise lmao#anyways!!!!! lxl divorce arc was glorious and everything i could ever ask for. i think they should divorce again.#lxl regretful divorce arc r e a l
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I'm the only Aussie in my USA based d&d group and with the recent switch back from daylight savings instead of sleeping in like a normal person I decided to dress as a low effort tavern wench
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[ID: a pencil and ink drawing of dazai and chuuya from bungou stray dogs. dazai is sitting with one leg bent in front of him and the other bent on the floor. he's shirtless and has stylized top surgery scars and a variety of scars. his coat is draped over one shoulder and he's wearing his white pants and black shoes as well as bandages around his neck and visible arm. his head is tilted to the side and he's blushing and smirking as he looks at chuuya whose head is at dazai's shoulder. chuuya's right hand is holding dazai's hair and his other is holding dazai's forearm from where dazai is holding chuuya's shoulder. chuuya is also blushing and looks annoyed. he's wearing a shirt and black pants. the signature says dandelion-roots. end ID]
⨠a little 2 am trans dazai for your perusal~ â¨
#bsd#bungou stray dogs#soukoku#dazai osamu#chuuya nakahara#trans dazai#hes just trans to me. youre not cis not to me not if its u <3#i love unhinged depressed men#wasnt originally gonna post this bcs it was just a 2 am doodle but it got peer approved and why not? this is my house#dont question anything going on here it is what it is and i love it despite its flaws#also im so sorry to anyone using cc its brain fog time and i cannot. write properly so its just a bit of a mess#also yes i did draw a good chuuya hand holding dazai's hair and then coloured it all black. it was too small to leave dividing space oops
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aventurine pl. Plea s e . PLLEEEEEEASE
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arin rambles#âhere we go againâ you think everytime you see my ramble tag. I dont blame you#AVENTURINE AVENTURINE PLEASE SAVE ME WHITE BOY#OH MY LORD#OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS OH MY GOODNESS.#MY JSOE IS RUNNING HES RUINNING MY LIFE I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE IM SO ILL PLEASE I#AVENTURINE. im so serious i can talk about this man all day. and more specifically this video#âit was just posted 30 minutes ago arin youre scaring the kidsâ SILENCE. I NEED SPACE#I NEED A. A MOMENT. EVERYBODY PLEAS GETA WAY FROM ME IM GOING TO GET SO SCARY#Please. Im so sorry. Im begging you . I love this man oh my gish please hes so cute#HES SO CUTE. HES SO CUTE IM SO SICK OF HIM WHY???????? WHY IS HE SO PRETTY HES SO PRETTY HES GOREGOUS HES SO STUNNING. HELLO. HELLO.#Im going to. Slam my head against the wall im overwhelmed with joy and happiness hes everything ive ever wanted ever#any minute not spent talking about him is a moment wasted i promise you MY PRINCESS IM COMING TO SAVE YOU#IM HIS KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOUR EXCEPT ITS NOT SHINY#IM COVERED IN DIRT#IM STILL COMING FOR YOU AVENTURINE RUN#oh goodness me oh my#im so happy hes so prettu im so happy i cant do rhis im sweating geniumnly i feel so sick#Im cant . Do this anymore. I CANT TAKE IT. I HAVE TO⌠AAUGH⌠AAAHH⌠I HAVE TOâŚ. DANCE!#guysâŚ. he my favorrietâŚ#my slinkyâŚ.. my krimpet⌠my teacup i think. My doc mc stuffins doctor playset. My dishwasher. My italian coldsteel cinquedea . atp anything#hes my EVERYTHING. MY EVERYTHINGâŚ!!!!!!!! *MY TELEKENISIS THROWS EVERYTTHING ACROSS THE ROOM*#yall i dont think ive had a hyperfixation this horribly bad since. Since the. Since. MAN I DONT KNOW#IM COOKED. HE WOMT LEAVE ME ALONE. I LITERALLY DREAMT OF HIM LAST NIGHT LIKE IM SO DOOMED? ACTUALLY?#oh to be medicated and focus on . Things like cooking. Or idk. Getting a job. No i just think about some messed up blonde all day im absolut#ly DOOMED#yes im still yapping i got 30 tags u gon stick through them all. Every single one of them. Dont leave me please i want to talk about him ton#TO SOMEONE. I WANT TO TALK ABOUT HIM TO SOMEONE ALL DAY. ALL MY FRIENDS ARE TESTING. IM LEFT ALONE ALL DAY I JUST WANT TO TALK ABOUT MY WIFE#i womder how crazy i look right now#Sighs lovingly at him..
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RESIDENT EVIL â THE WESKER FAMILY
To the public, little is known of the families behind some of the worldâs most renowned bioterrorists, but the question remains: did they play a role in causing their children to walk down the path that they did? Or are these individuals simply ambitious criminals with delusions of grandeur?
For Diana Wesker (nĂŠe Afanasyeva), her introduction into the bioweapons black market trade was upon discovering her employers were using her research into limb regeneration with salamanders to further their experiments in creating enhanced soldiers, instead of developing human therapies with which she was recruited for. Although the prospect of using biological weapons in the military did not appeal to her, the concept remained fascinating for her own selfish endeavours. Born on the 27th of October, 1963 in Sydney, Australia to Russian immigrant parents, Diana had harsh expectations placed upon her at a young age, ones that no matter how hard she tried she could never live up to. Her mother, Tatyana, was an unfeeling woman, absent for long stretches of time with little regard to how it affected her daughters, much more concerned with her craft as an accomplished opera singer. Viktor was no better. A strict man whose role as father and ballet master blurred, he pushed his girls to one day follow in his footsteps. Whilst Sofia enjoyed ballet, and went on to become a professional ballet dancer, Dianaâs heart was set on going into the field of biology. She wished to make a name for herself, separate from her family â to which she succeeded.
Diana was married to former U.S. Marine, Dave Monroe, for only a year until he was declared dead in 1992 after succumbing to injuries sustained in a horrific car accident. Foul play was ruled out while Diana played the role of the grief-stricken widow, but in reality, she had snapped after years of mistreatment at her husbandâs hands, and opted for something she could pass off as an accident to be free of him. For years she believed he was dead â and he was, legally â but that proved to not be the case when he found his way back into her life again in 1999. Unbeknownst to her, she had been lied to by the police and coroner, who were paid off by her employers when they took Daveâs body for themselves and used him as one of their first test subjects in developing supersoldiers. Before he could ever hurt her again, Dianaâs second husband, Albert Wesker, tracked the man down, captured him and tortured him, before allowing Diana to get her violent and bloody revenge.
The origins of Albert Weskerâs involvement in bioterrorism, alongside his twin sister, Alex, are much different than that of Dianaâs. The two hail from London, Canada, but unfortunately, they hold no memories of their lives there, nor what happened to their biological parents when they were eight years old. Agents of Oswell E. Spencer, an aristocratic billionaire and eugenicist, took the twins from their home and executed their parents as per Spencerâs orders. Albert and Alex were then placed in a home funded by the Spencer Foundation where they were given new names and a privileged upbringing. They had access to the best education possible, free to pursue whichever field they decided, but it was by no accident they both went into virology and bioengineering; at home, their adoptive parents â agents whom they believed to be their real parents â instilled them with the beliefs of Oswell E. Spencer, harbouring disdain for war and pestilence, and believing humans to be an evolutionary dead-end in need of a rebirth. They were only two of the hundreds of children âadoptedâ as part of what is known as Project W, a plan intended to develop an advanced race of human beings. The most promising candidates were headhunted by Umbrella Pharmaceuticals, the twins amongst them, where they went on to create bioweapons for the company founded by none other than the man who had handpicked them for his plan. The final stage of this was to infect the thirteen Spencer saw fit, however, only two survived; Albert received the intended effects, now possessing superhuman abilities, however, Alex was only offered more time to live due to her terminal degenerative illness.
In the summer of 1995, Diana was working undercover within Umbrella to gather development data on their projects for her company. Here, she had a chance encounter with Albert, an intelligence officer at the time, which permanently altered the course of her life. The two were never seen far from one anotherâs side, marrying in 1998, and they went on to become notorious in the bioweapons industry. The development of the Uroboros virus was where things took a turn for the worst. Although Dianaâs infection was successful and she bore abilities that rivalled her husbandâs, the plan itself did not succeed as they had hoped, and almost cost Albert his life at the hands of his former subordinates.
Now, they work within the shadows, with Diana declared missing and Albert believed to be dead. Their legacy, however, lives on with the mark they left on the world. As visionaries in their field, they influenced bioterror attacks carried out by countless individuals and organisations. In turn, they also inspired others to fight against such atrocities. One such person happens to be Albertâs son from a former relationship, Jake MĂźller, whose existence he was unaware of.
#mine.#oc: diana#pair: ewskers#click for better quality cause it's large & tumblr ate it âĄ#hii so happy birthday diana !! queen is 60 today :]#um. there's no template cause i made this from scratch...i couldn't find any i was vibing with so i was like you know what lmaoo#i'm sorry for the essay...it was meant to be just a short rundown of the family but well...that happened. typical leah fashion...#oh and guys. did you know that there's a limit to the amount you can put in one blockquote? that's why the rest is just left like that caus#i didn't like how it looked with a blockquote each paragraph...cause the spaces between were unever. you understand đ#with the tree i was also going to include weskids adoptive parents but i couldn't figure out how to arrange it all & make it look nice !!#cause i also wanted to have spencer in there as well cause he's a big reason why the weskids are the way they are...was maybe gonna include#sherry as well. like connected to jake (hehe) and then do her parents too but that would've made things so wide & it's already big enough#yes. i hc that albert & alex are biological twins. just for clarification there :] i don't think i added anything else that isn't canon or#implied with canon. cause the weskids were put in homes (or at least whatever ''controlled environments'' means) where they were monitored#by umbrella but were unaware of it. so yeah. i don't think i really changed much there !!#honestly i could've kept rambling cause there's alex's whole situation. there's my lore with jake's mum. there's way more with the ewskers#but it's already so long & i can't be concise so there's that lmaoo oh also diana's grandma. so much stuff#also meant to say the weskids birthday in that ramble. it's january 15 1960 :] they are capricorn sun leo moons but alex was born earlier s#their rising signs are albert is a scorpio rising & alex is a libra rising !!#had to redo the image cause typo on diana's birth year for some reason lmao so if that messed up the formatting i will sob
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I know fans joke abt how the warden is more competent than the inquisitor bc they did all that w/o much help but the funny thing abt amihan is she actually isn't
she was 20, angry and hated herself and the world, she ended up in the situation she was in bc she was...a petty snitch. she also hates being a grey warden and continues to hate being one through dai - she actually leaves but then decides to search for the cure
for most of the Blight, it was fuck up after fuck up. like I play it so that I have enough ppl to help me fight the archdemon, but in my personal headcanon, she pissed off a lot of potential help (whether it be Circle mages who overheard her saying she was "gonna annul this shit" out of anger, eamon's men who did NOT like her, bhelen who didn't really trust the fact that she knew nothing about politics), left a bad taste in people they came across and picked a fight with anora
which I think makes sense for a 20 year old ill-adjusted young woman who had to learn how to be more selfless. beating the archdemon was pure luck mixed with people just NOT WANTING the Blight to destroy ferelden and realizing joining the fight was the only way to stay alive
amihan does grow, but it's slow, she has to process trauma, understand she hurt people and ruined their lives and to actually experience what it's like being loved (both platonic and romantic)
I tend to not post so much abt how much amihan fucked up and almost let a Blight swallow ferelden bc I tend to feel anxious abt how ppl will receive it but I think it's important to her character and it's fun and interesting for me to play with it in this case
immy is 100% more competent than amihan, in spite of her own flaws, but I love both my messy and my scaredy cat girl all the same
#amihan amell#my first pt of dao was a mess tbh lmao and i messed up so much and amihan's canon is pretty similar#after i fucked up and left amalia possessed ive been thinking abt playing the rest of the game where i'll pick what amihan would actually do#regardless of whether or not thatll end up being a good thing in the long run lmao so watch this space#i also wanna talk abt her friendships w morrigan and zev#god i love morrigan to death but lmaoo i know them being so close they just enabled each other's bad habits#which i think why it was good that morrigan and amihan drifted after dao bc they needed to grow apart#its v important to me that they meet again#zev is extremely important to amihan learning how to be selfless#im sorry to zev tht he had to deal w amihan's bs during a blight đđđ#also there are companions and other characters that just straight up hate amihan and lol đ#anyway just rambling bc i love an incredibly flawed female character and thts what i wanna portray w amihan
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