#sorry it’s junmyeon o clock on suuho dot com

[suuho]

sitting here thinking about how junmyeon chose to perform been through as his solo song for exploration, a song that is literally about how to be resilient and persevere through the pain. a song that says, “i’ll get used to it, like catching a cold again. this isn’t the end, better days will come; at the end of that day, you’ll shine on me like this. without change, you shine on me forever. the quiet air, the warm wind, they’re all there, always in the same place. pain is just a passing storm to me.” a song that wasn’t a title track, a song that is on a winter album, it isn’t even part of their major discography. and he performed it while he had the members’ names written on his chest and back, and he exposed that for everyone to see, and he performed it all by himself. and the members made fun of him for the names but they were touched too, and junmyeon has always been so dedicated to them and to this group, and he’s always been so fucking resilient, he had to carry so much weight for them. and he fucking did it. and he put himself on that stage, and he said. i’ll get through it. again. because that’s what he always has done.