#sorry im always on the brink of a breakdown im umm not doing very well

[mihai-florescu]

Mihai do you think there's any enstars characters that are totally aro/ace to you? Or at least on the spectrum. Like himeru is totally aroace to me and shu is at least asexual or just incredibly sex repulsed. Idk I wanna hear your thoughts I like conversing with my friends :)

Hmm a few years ago i wouldve said shu too based on the sex repulsion but his arc has been discovering and embracing his desires. Oremeru tho yeah im team aroace too, theres something appealing to me about a character known in universe for his sex appeal being ace. But i can also see him as repressing his own desires to become the embodiment of a perfect idol. I dont think he really knows what his own orientation actually is underneath all the masks he put on. Hmm im not sure about anyone else? I can see souma being demi? Aspec adonis? Then i know i joke about eichi being like if a very jealous monogamous person wishes he was poly, but if im being serious, i see him as aspec too, only interested sexually in wataru. I just remembered youre a minor, im gonna end this train of thought here. Im not sure if i view many characters as fully aroace, more on the spectrum... oh kohaku actually, i see him as aroace, leaning between sex and romance neutral to repulsed. Oh sora is aroace sex and romance neutral to me too

Aro/ace hcs used to be something i was comfier with proudly talking abt years ago, but now i realise... well, im aspec myself, it's all *i* know, but im trying not to let that cloud my judgement. But i think a lot of characters end up being aspec too in my head just because thats the only experience i personally have and can project. But i dont want my understanding of characters to be just based on my own projection, yknow? I think the tldr is im uncertain about everything, about my own stupid baka life being in the way of me becoming the perfect spectator (that's a goal i strive to achieve as a story lover and find myself straying further and further from, frustratingly).