#sorry if I shouldn’t be tagging this as jumblr since I’m only a ger

[notquiteinsanity]

This is a hard time for all Jews rn. And I’m so thankful to my synagogue and to jumblr for making me feel less alone. As someone in the process of converting this feels like a really big time to be on such a journey.

Conversion, I would argue, is always a bit lonesome. You might lose all your family, you might not. Even if you don’t, you still say goodbye to all the traditions you grew up with, and even if they didn’t mean much to you, it’s still something that you say goodbye to. There are so many goodbyes in conversion.

And there are so many hellos. New people, new community, new traditions. It’s so exciting and honestly feels like such a balm to my soul. The piece of me that was always missing coming home.

Watching the news, seeing the antisemitism and the divide, it terrifies me. And yet I see all my synagogue keep their heads up and keep going and it brings me so much hope. I see Israelis making matzah after bombings occur and singing Dayenu and I know it would have been enough.

Even for me, even just this, remaining a ger for life, would have been enough.